Name: Allison Menozzi
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23:57:09 05/11/03
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Hey Graf! Bridget and I just got off the phone and we were laughing pretty hard about all the shit that went down this weekend. I mean, seriously, who almost gets arrested twice in one night- for completely different things?! We were laughing because we knew that you would have been with us and you would have loved every minute of it. And while we were all pissed off, I'm sure that you would have been the one making light of the situation and telling us all how we'll look back on this and laugh. You would have been the one to cheer us up- just like you did that night at Lauren's when no one was having fun. At KMK when we got kicked out we were all thinking the same thing- 'Graf please get us out of this, let us go back in there!' Looking back on it now, I realize that we're so lucky and you really did keep us from getting in huge trouble. I'm sure that without you there we would have had things a lot worse. So while you're up there laughing about how stupid we are, I just wanted to say thanks for keeping us safe. I hope you enjoyed the concert as much as we would have! We miss you and we're always thinking about you. Love Always, Allison
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22:03:11 05/11/03
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Heeeyy Graf! How r ya doin buddy? I haven't written in a while so i figured I would just to say what's up. Things are pretty crazy down here kid.. everyone's changin. You have changed so many ppl hun.. n there's been so many parties, n the KMK concert.. where it woulda been awesome for you to have been there. I know you saw everything that's been goin on tho, and I know you woulda had a blast! I'll write again soon bud.. luv ya*shay*
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21:55:43 05/11/03
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Hey Kathy~I already wrote on this today, but I just wanted to say Happy Mothers Day! Even though the weather was so gross today, Eric was shining down on us. I know how much he loved you...It was more than you might have thought! You were his mommy and he was your baby, I mean you had ERIC G 85 on your license plate!!!haha Well you are always in my thoughts and prayers. I will be talking and visiting with you soon. Love always Hillary
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21:41:41 05/11/03
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Happy Mother's Day Mrs. Graf!
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20:19:11 05/11/03
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I know it has been rough lately, and i feel horrible for all the people who Eric left behind who are in so much pain over this choice he made. I didn't know Eric well but I know what it is like to have someone close die. Death is part of life, even if it is untimely. I suppose we can continue posting on this site for a long time, but I'm thinking where Eric is right now he doesn't want you to trip, fall, and stay down. Pray for Eric's family and friends but also realize that life can not and will not stop. Remember the positive. Forget the bad. Do something to help prevent this from happening again, now THAT is a productive thing to do w/ your time and also a good way to aid the Grieving/ cooping process
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18:48:52 05/11/03
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~If tears could build a stairway, and memories were a lane, I would walk right up to heaven and bring you home again. No farewell words were spoken no time to say goodbye, you were gone before I knew it, and only god knows why. My heart still aches in sadness and secret tears still flow, what it meant to lose you, no one will ever know.~Eric we all miss ya like crazy!
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18:22:19 05/11/03
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Eric..it's me Kelly again..
I cant stop thynking about you! With each day that goes by I feel like I'm walking through a nightmare and I'm just hopeing someone will wake me up..but no one does Eric...so i fall to my knees and cry..
Eric, I dont know how many tymes Ive begged god just to bring you back..we miss you so much Eric!
Every day in school I walk expecting you to pop out of no where and say I fooled you all, I'm here did you miss me? And then at the end of the school day, when you don't show up it feels like my heart breaks all over again..and I cant stop the tears from comeing..
Eric,it hasn't even been a full month but it feels like you've been gone for years,but I can styll remeber seeing your smileing face and looking like you had no care in the world..
God Eric, why'd you have to go, I miss you with all my heart..life seems useless with out you...but I know I have to hold my head up and smile..smile for you eric...
I know your with my aunt..she took her life a year ago last March 18th and your also with my cousion Samatha..she died in a car accident four years ago May 31st...I know you're with her..and your all in my dreams and prayers every night...i love you all and wish I could have at least one last hug..
Eric, we all miss you, you should have seen your table on your funeral..there was no more than THREE people there..and if you jut could have heard the sad silence outside the school..and the tears falling out of everyones eyes were so heavy and I couldn't help but crying myself...and I styll feel like I'm dreaming..but I know no matter what I do you're not comming back...but know I love you Eric..and miss you deeply..
R.I.P
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15:38:22 05/11/03
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Happy Mothers Day Mrs. Graf
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15:10:19 05/11/03
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To Erics Mom
Times are probably really hard right now, but know no matter what Eric is watching down on you, wishing you a very happy mothers day..he loves you...and ALWAYS will...so every tyme u get sad and feel like crying...just picture his smileing face looking down on u wishing that he could stop every tear that has fallen..and smile back at him and tell him you love him!
So have a happy mothers day
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14:49:06 05/11/03
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Happy Mothers Day to Eric's Mom!!
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14:34:27 05/11/03
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Hey im just a freshmen but.. i heard sooo many things about u! When i heard about this I felt soo bad! and one of my friends brothers were really close with u! Just seeing them cry made me cry too!! Everybody wearing orange was a sign for ur rememberence! We all showed how much we cared! I look at this sight almost everyday and just think... From all the stories i heard about u! U seemed like a nice, caring and awesome guy! Just seeing people out in the courtyard crying made my eyes water.Im sry for everything that happened! My mentors came in the classroom balling there eyes out just seeing these people cry made me sooo sad!~*~*RIP Eric*~*~ To all close family and friendz im sry for this loss I wish it would have never happened! But he is in a safe place!Luv alwayz n forever,
(~*freshie*~)
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12:59:15 05/11/03
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Happy MoMs Day Erics MoM. :-)
Name: Hill
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12:33:26 05/11/03
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Hey Er~ I haven't talked on this in a while. Well I still miss you more than anything. It's hard to believe that it still hasn;t hit me that you are really gone. It's like I was you to come back from a really long vacation. I want to hug you so bad and tell you how much I love you. Prom was alright. I felt you there. I always feel you with me. Except that one time...what was that about??? I know you see all the weird stuff going on down here. Your death has caused so many different things to happen. Good and bad. There isn't a day that goes by that I dont here your name. There is this kid in our school and Eric I swear he is your little brother. I see him and all I think about is you. One day I hugged this guy and I felt like it was you, and I said bye Eric. God I need you home so bad. It's mothers day today. I know you are with your family. Im so happy your mom has David. How was the KMK concert??? I know you were there. Even though all of our friends got kicked out hahah! You have changed so many lives er. There is a whole in my heart. And it can only be filled by you. Some people think that moving on from this is bad you know? But moving on doesn't mean forgetting. Because I know for the rest of my life, every day I am on this earth I will think of you. You are my gardian angel. And for the first time in my life, I am not afraid to die. Because I know you will be the first one there welcoming me with that huge smile. I can't even explain how comforting that is. Well I have go do that damn english paper now. Not that it means anything to me, but Oh well. I have to graduate...Oh yea we got our caps and gowns on friday! Crazy huh!!! Well Im out Eric. I love you. Tell your mom I love her to and Happy mothers day! Same to your gram! May angels lead you in.
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11:05:40 05/11/03
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Happy Mothers Day to Erics mom
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01:09:39 05/11/03
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i never thought i could miss you thys much, my life feels like it has lost that specail touch. Your gone now and Ill never get you back, I feel like a train thats run off its track.Im stuck now, stuck on wishing u were here! Stuck on wanting to feel you near. Stuck on...dreaming of you, stuck on...wishing your life wasnt through. Oh I'm so stuck on wishing you'd come back to me,so stuck on living in thys miseroy. theres not a day that goes by where i dont look up into the sky and ask god why oh why,I know you needed an angel but why did it have to be him? I never thought thys day would come, now I wanna just run! Im stuck now, stuck on wishing u were here! Stuck on wanting to feel you near. Stuck on...dreaming of you, stuck on...wishing your life wasnt through. Oh I'm so stuck on wishing you'd come back to me,so stuck on living in thys miseroy. ill forever miss you baby! Even though I cant kiss you baby,Ill forever look up in the sky and say I MISS YOU! Im stuck now, stuck on wishing u were here! Stuck on wanting to feel you near. Stuck on...dreaming of you, stuck on...wishing your life wasnt through. Oh I'm so stuck on wishing you'd come back to me,so stuck on living in thys miseroy. I wish I could go back into the hands of time and tell you that ur my angel..and u cant leave me so cold! You took ur life so early on now Im wishin u hadnt gone..because.. Im stuck now, stuck on wishing u were here! Stuck on wanting to feel you near. Stuck on...dreaming of you, stuck on...wishing your life wasnt through. Oh I'm so stuck on wishing you'd come back to me,so stuck on living in thys miseroy. But then some days I thynk about your smileing face looking down from heaven, watching over every one of us..spreading your love through out the world..eric ur our angel..forever loved and never forgotten..ur our prince of heaven..ull be forever missed..somedays i wish i could get just one last kiss..
Name: Kelly
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00:39:53 05/11/03
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Me and Eric werent the best of friends, but I did no him..to find out what happened on that day was such a horrible feeling. I couldn't help but thynking maybe if I had talked to him a lil more thys wouldnt have happened. But I mean honestly it was no1s fault...
Eric is always going to be missed! He was a very fun person and always seemed to be smiling. There is no way he's ever going to be forgotten, he may not be here for us to hold, but he'll always be smiling down on each and everyone of us from heaven,helping us get through the tough tymes! Eric you truely are our angel,on that sad day, A LOT of us lost a close friend, forever a piece will be missing in our hearts, but god gained a truely wonderful angel!
R.I.P Eric...Forever loved and Never Forgotten
*Only The Good Die Young*
Name: Tim
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23:35:15 05/10/03
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I didnt know Eric...its terrible this happened...He looked like such a happy kid...then this happens..You must wonder, what the hell is going through someones mind when they want to take their lives...You also have to wonder, could Erics life have been that bad where he was forced by himself to take his life? This tragedy has affected everyone...including those who didnt know Eric, like me. To those who think about suicide everyday, you are not alone. I know I have, but you must remember that things will get better, you have to be strong, believe in yourself. Dont let others lies, and selfish ways screw you up. You have to be smart. You must have perseverance and never give up, no matter how hard you fall, there will always be that one true friend that will help you through thick and thin. My extend my deepest sorrow to Erics family and friends. ~RIP~
Name: Nikki Wasilewski
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11:20:00 05/10/03
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Eric- last night, at 6:07 p.m., my cousin-Danny- was involved in a really bad car accident. He was the only one to survive, and the other 3 were killed. Someone must have been watching over him, and I hope it was you! Please, take care of all those friends that my cousin lost last night, and thank you for keeping my Danny safe!
Name: Gail McLean
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19:47:39 05/09/03
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Kathy:My heart goes out to you and your family. As a parent, my biggest fear is losing a child. Eeven though I truly believe they are only a loan from God, the loss would be unbearable. I can't t allow myself to imagine the hurt you must feel. My daughter knew your son and thought a lot of him. I see her pain. My hope for you and your family is that God will grant you the peace and wisdom to understand and cope with this tragedy. I am impressed with the love and insight of Eric's friends to try to understand and deal with his loss. Hopefully, others in Eric's situation will reevaluate and make different choices. I believe in trying to find the good in even the worst of situations. Hopefully, Eric will open the eyes of people who feel as he did and find other options. Know the support, prayers and love others are sending you. You can get through this, Kathy. Eric would want that. In deepest sympathy,
Gail McLean
Name: Dan Orosco
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19:59:36 05/08/03
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Hey Eric, I make it a point everyday to stop here and give you a hello. This is my second post. Everytime I hear "The Scientist" by Coldplay (the song playing) I can't help but cry, and remember your goofy antics and up to no good smile. The song I wrote for you we are recording soon, and it won't be easy getting the words out. Everytime we practice it, I get choked up. I miss you man, and I know you'll be right there in the vocal booth with me pushing me to get it perfect. If anybody wants a copy of Eric's song let me know and I'll get one to you. It's free. -love you/miss you Eric
Name: Dan Orosco
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19:59:12 05/08/03
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Hey Eric, I make it a point everyday to stop here and give you a hello. This is my second post. Everytime I hear "The Scientist" by Coldplay (the song playing) I can't help but cry, and remember your goofy antics and up to no good smile. The song I wrote for you we are recording soon, and it won't be easy getting the words out. Everytime we practice it, I get choked up. I miss you man, and I know you'll be right there in the vocal booth with me pushing me to get it perfect. If anybody wants a copy of Eric's song let me know and I'll get one to you. It's free. -love you/miss you Eric
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19:27:40 05/08/03
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Eric-I'll admit, I never knew you. I saw you in the hallways a few times, but, that was it. I'd just like to pay my respects. RIP
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17:45:20 05/08/03
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This website is truly awsome. Honest to god it brought a tear to my eye. It brought back memories of myself when life wasnt goin too good. The knives I held to my own throat were far to many. It wasn't until recently that i stopped thinking those terrible thoughts. I'd like to thnk the drill team on that one (they're my family). I never thought that one person could touch so many lives. I never thought about others peoples reactions when it came to commiting suicide. Eric, i never knew you, i didnt even go to your school, but i did hear people talk about all the funny stuff you did even before you were gone. God bless you, hope i'll meet you up there some day.
Name: Bianca P.
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17:29:50 05/08/03
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Dear Eric,
I did not know you, but I wish that I did. I remember seeing you in the halls always smiling and laughing and I heard stories about you and what a great person you were. I actually thought to myself, "I wish I was friends with him!" I thought this because so many people knew you and laughed about what you did and I wasn't in on what they were laughing about. I don't know why this happened, but all I know is that I'm sorry it did. Even though I didn't know you, this news shocked me to the point of crying. I came on this site and thought it was wonderful that the people who love you put it together, and the people who didn't even know you supported it. I am truly sorry to all of your family, close friends, and others that this happened. My tears are for you and I hope that now you roam in the clouds of heaven, looking down on everyone that cares and that loves you. You will be missed in my heart and in others.
Sincerely,
Bianca Pernice
Name: Kim Woolet
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16:55:12 05/08/03
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Oh, Eric...I'm sorry it took me so long to write, I just found out about this website from your cousin Liz 2 days ago. I had lots of things to say but as I sit here I cannot think of half of them. Whoever made this website was truly an awesome person because it appears to have helped alot of friends and family remember Eric. Anyway, Oh, Eric, my little red-head! I can remember the first time I ever met you back in 4th grade. You came to every single one of me n' Liz's basketball games! But I remeber the day I met you, we won our tournament at St. Cyril and Jessica Kooyenga sscored the winning basket and you jumped out of the stands like you were at the Final Four Championship game! For four more long years you came to all of our games and even some practices and you were later promoted to "The Assistant Coach"! You even made theat goofy shirt! haha! Eric, the day I met you I knew we would be friends! Then high school hit and Me, You, Jaclyn, Liz, Dan, Chad, Kyle and Brandon became the best of friends. We had tons of parties and sleepovers where you were the only boy that could attend! Those sleepovers were some of the best times ever! I remember one in particular when Jaclyn and Liz fell asleep and me and you sat on the couch and talked for hours and drank diet coke! Oh, and we ate our cookie dough! (with extra salt of course! SALT!) I remeber you being so serious, something I had never seen you do! But you touched my heart and I hope I touched yours too! That was the night when you asked me out! haha! Eric I liked you for SO long and I grew to love you! I know you remeber my fetish with red-heads! You were the first! I used to love braiding it with Liz and Jax! and you always wanted those stupid head massages! They hurt our hands so much! I also remember when you took me to my sophomore year Homecoming! I still have the flower you gave me! The night was perfect and I will never forget it! You looked so cute and my stomach was fluttering the whole time we were taking pictures! Then the last song they played was "What a Wonderful World" by Louie Armstrong and you sang to me at the top of your lungs and everyone was staring at us! Whenever I hear that song I will always picture you sitting and your Liz and Jaclyns piano playing that song! I still have the videotape! Eric we had alot of memories and I'm sorry we drifted apart. The other day when I saw you at Pep Boys with Tom I began to love you all over again! (Ihope Tom doesnt read this! haha) I was so happy to see, you seem to have that affect on everyone! Eric, when I found out I knew it wasnt real. My dad came into my room and told me that Aunt Vicki had called and I knew that Aunt Vicki calling before 8 a.m. meant something bad. I was lying on my bed and I slapped my hands against my eyes. I was shaking. I didnt know what to feel. Things like this didnt happen to Eric Graf. I began to sob. My dad left and I cried for a good 1/2 hour. I took my hands away from my face and looked up above my bed to the frame on my wall. Theres a picture of you and me and Homecoming and one of our "wedding pictures"! I called off work that day. I just drove around and thought about things. I didnt go to school the next day I just laid in bed. I thought about all the wonderful qualities you had and how much I was going to miss you. A few days later was your wake. Um, can we say hardest thing ever?! Eric, you made my cry like no other I didnt think it was ever going to stop. Soemthing was wrong with the picture, everyone that was surrounding you was crying. I had never seen anyone around you not laughing. But this was not a laughing matter at all. This was reality and yes, it sucks. I looked at all the beautiful pictures of you and your friends. There was one of you kissing my cheek on New Years Eve 2001, we were the only odd balls so we went for it! I was ok until I knelt down by you. Tom was next to and he was crying and he barely knew you. I was shaking uncontrolably. I walked over to give you mom a hug and we hugged for a few minutes. She told me never to forget you, well eric, its hard to forget a hilarious red-head. You will always be in my heart. Your funeral was the hardest ever. I drove with Liz and the car ride was silent. All we could say was "I still doesnt feel real" and "I still cant believe its Eric". Well after sobbing all the way through mass, it certainly did feel real. More real than anything I'd ever felt. Eric you had so many friends and family that loved you. I dont understand, none of us do, but I guess we werent meant to. It was something you had to do and I know you are in heaven. Save me a spot eh?! I wish you were still here, I am still waiting you to jump out in front of me and scare me, but it looks like I'll be waiting awhile. I'd wait an eternity to see you again though Eric so I'll just be sitting here twidling my thumbs! I dont go to Lincolnway so I cant vote for you for Prom King but my well wishes are there! You are certainly king in my heart! My condolances to Eric's classmates, family, friends, Aunt Kathy and Uncle David. I love you and Miss you Eric, Watch over me till we meet again. See ya around buddy. Love always, Kim
Name: Ashley Pawlak
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00:37:17 05/08/03
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Graffy Baby- well....im sorry its taken me this long to write to you- my mom has been telling me for the last week or so too because she said it would help me feel better- but somehow i just couldnt bring myself to do it- it seemed like writing on here made things all too final or all too real- and i never wanted this to ever be real for me- i think i was stupidly hoping that all of this would just go away and there we would be again chillin at the fort- the place i spent more than half my summer nites at- whether it was sittin there watching a movie with just a few of us- or partying with a shit load of people- you welcomed anyone and everyone- when i heard about all this- my first reaction was to be mad at you- i thought about our car ride a few days earlier and how you told me all these plans you had and all these things you were looking forward to- and then last nite- i had this dream.....we were all sitting in my garage and you walked in- none of us really knew what to do or what to say- we were all in shock- and then u apologized- and told me that u didnt realize that this would hurt me so much and you were sorry- it was quite possibly both the best/worst dream ive ever had at the same time- and i know that sounds weird but im not sure how to explain it- so many things remind me of you.....i wake up in the morning and the first thing i see is my "SEXY BEAST" sign up on my wall- ill never forget when u gave me that- you are just the funniest/greatest kid- yep- are- i hate saying "were" because it makes it seem like we have to refer to you in the past- but in reality i know everyday you are watching over us- partying with us- laughing with us- prolly up there making fun of us all- :) i have so many great memories with u- and i know sooo many people do too- and i wouldnt trade that for the world- my skippy- the one kid who actually knew how to speak german and called me out on my version of "she'll be coming round the mountain" haha u loved that!! Its easier looking back on all those times and laughing- before all i could do was get upset or cry- i cant lie to you- your funeral was absolutely the hardest day of my life....but then slowly things got better- things got better because of things like the memorial at school- all the kids wearing orange on friday- puttin your frisbee golf disk up on the tree after we all signed it- having parties in your memory (cause we know thats what you woulda wanted) and the awesome support of everyone- we all missed you like crazy at prom....we all could only imagine the crazy things you would have been doing- and i know like always you would have been the life of the party.....well sweetie- not a day goes by when i dont think about you...i love and miss your crazy ass!!! much love baby- penny- haha aww the cuatro- penny, wendy, waldo, and skippy!!!
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19:08:29 05/07/03
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Graf~another week has gone by. many of the tears have turned to smiles and laughter, remebering all of our great times with you. prom has come and gone...we were all looking foward to it so much, but dreading it at the same time. we were scared of what it would be like without you! your absence in the limo was deffinetly felt! we missed you so much! when the song dedicated to you came on, instead of tears all of us gathered in a huge circle and smiled,knowing you were there partying and having a great time with us. the relalization has hit many of us that your in a happier place now, and your pain is gone. at grant's house i was wishing so much that i was gonna walk into the room and see you actin all goofy and shit. we knew you were with us, having a great time, watchin over us all. eric, so many exciting things are coming up as we conclude our senior year...if feels like theres a huge gap without you, in our group of friends, in my heart. continue to look down on us, and never stop partyin with us...we love you, miss you, and pray for you and your family always and forever!
love you!
jules
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15:35:55 05/07/03
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Eric!!
i didnt know you real well but we ran track together!! and no matter what you would always cheer me up when i was doin bad or was sad!!!! you are missed so much!!! no one will EVER forget you!!!! we all love you!! hope you are happier where you are now!! keep smiling down on us!
love ya
nikki
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06:21:57 05/07/03
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I barely new eric n i feel so sad. i member the first time i met him. it was a football game east against central. (yes i am from central) a guy from east was hassling me bc me n my frends went to central eric was jus walking by n he butted in to defend me. i jus member wondering how great of a person must be to do that. i mean im not a bad person but just like many others i prolly wuld have kept walkin. from then on that nite we talked. he didnt even kno my name n when the game was over he said ill cya round stranger n we went our seperate ways. about a month lata i saw him in a store n he remembered me we talked for bout 15 minutes n that was the lsat time i had a real conversation wit him. yes i saw him around but we said hi we made not much effort to talk i mean i was jus his stranger frend. but i will neva forget wat he did for me that nite no matter how small it was bc knowing that he wuld go out of his way to help a stranger shows how truly good of a person he is i ast down n read alot of the posts on this site n i was shown how i was rite. hes nice to everyone i dont kno wat i wuld do if i was very close to such a person like eric n then have him being takin away ive lost alot of people in the last couple years n to add this name to the list makes me heart broken. eventhough i didnt kno him very well i wuld have done nething to help him out n to fix everything bad he was thinking. i wanna say im sorry to all his frends n family. i hope ur truly happy up there in heaven eric u deserve to b happy. when i join ya up in heaven we will have to meet up n have another stranger to stranger conversation.
I WILL NEVA FORGET YA ERIC!
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20:40:52 05/06/03
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wow I didnt even know this kid but a friend of myne did and when i read this i started to cry wow this is very tragicGOD BLESS EVERYONE
Name: Mike
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20:07:48 05/06/03
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Hey Eric.....How is it up their......I bet it's better than what you ever dreamed of it to be!....Atleast it shoudl be because thats what you desirve....You are one of the greatest guy I have ever meet... I hope you are having a great time up there......I can't wait till I get to go up there to see you again. (Im hoping that it's not to soon though)... I don't understand why you did what you did... You always seemed so happy with that big smile on your face....It always made me smile when I saw it. I hope whatever the problems where are all solved now that you are up in the best place there is to be. Well im going to go now...Watch over all of us man and you and your family and all your friends are in my prayers!
Name: Justin Mayo
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19:53:58 05/06/03
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What up Eric. You dont know me but my name is Justin Mayo and I am friends with Mike Johnson and he told me a lot about you and i thought that after looking at some pics of you, i would send out my prayers to you and your family.
Name: Carrie Smith
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18:37:00 05/06/03
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Well Eric, lots have come and gone in the past few days and weeks; but the thought of you still remains with all. You are truely blessed with the people you let into your life and they(we) are truely blessed to have known you. Buddy, I know you are so proud of everyone and are going to continue to watch them grow and be with eveyone always. I hope you are taking care up there and I hope you especially are taking care of Brian Black's father. I know you are, and tell Jenna Schaper I say hello...I just thought to update you on a few things...RIPCarrie Smith
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14:49:02 05/06/03
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Whats up man. I just wanted to let you know that i have been thinking and praying for you. I miss and love you man. RIPsunz
Name: Liz
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22:34:00 05/05/03
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Graf,
today i was listening to sublime and that song came on that we always used to sing together at practice and just as i was remembering how much fun i always had with you when i saw an old mustang and thought about how my aunt tried to give you her mustang and you wouldnt take it cuz it was such a pile! aww geez, i miss you so much, you really dont realize how much you impacted everybody's lives, i know you've been reading that alot lately but its so true. i know your birthday is coming up in a few weeks and ill be thinking of you on that day (as i do everyday) and your family is in my prayers i love your mom and really hope shes doing ok, and your dad and brother too. youre the greatest person, Graf, and words cant describe what i would do to have you back. wait for me in heaven ill see you there someday. i cant wait to see your crazy red hair and your awesome smile. Love ya babes! Liz Gallagher
Name: LARRY
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22:10:21 05/05/03
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Eric,I only met you a few times, but you were such a funny, easy going kid. For over a week now, you have come up in a conversation at some point, every day. I truly wish you had known how much you touched everyones life. I use to work with your Dad, he always talked about you boys. I didn't go to your wake. I couldn't, and for that I am sorry to you, your Mom and Dad, your brother, and your Aunt Lisa. All of whom I have met and was too cowardly to face. I just can't imagine how any of them feel. I hope you are in a much happier place now. And to the rest of you kids, talk to people. Let them know how and what you are feeling. To the Graf family my family and I wish you are deepest sympathy. Hang in there guys. I know it is hard as hell, but if anyone can do it, you can. Uncle Dave, if you or Cathy need anything don't hesitate to ask. God Bless all of you.
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21:23:58 05/05/03
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EricI have a favor to ask you, while ur up there-tell my dad I said hello and I love him! thanks...i appreciate it!
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21:16:51 05/05/03
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Hey! I didn't really know Eric, but I knew a lot of his close friends. They all thought of him very highly. However, the one time I did meet Eric he was just the sweetest person ever. I remember I was the only girl amoung a whole bunch of guys and Eric did everything he could to make me comfortable at the fort. He moved couches so that I did not get dirty and when it started to rain he adjusted the tarp so I wouldn't get wet. It is so sad that Eric is no longer with us. He was such a nice boy! So thank you Eric, if I didn't ever tell you, it meant so much to me that you went out of your way to please a total stranger.
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21:00:34 05/05/03
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i didnt no you too well, i met u 2 times i think, that was a bad idea that u put in play but u cant turn back the hands of time, if u could im sure you would of along with LWE - LWC and HCMS Student body, any thing to prevent this Conflict.dude dont use the bullet. Just Bite it. you should have saw past ur problems
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20:56:25 05/05/03
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To those i have hurt: I am sorry for not being aware of those feeling around me. I forget sometimes that what i can do is not accepted toward people who don't understand those powers or abilities. I guess i should have thought more about those around me, i can only hope those who took it the wrong way_ they forgive me for what i have wrote. If they cannot forgive then that's their problem. I have came here to write an message saying that I'm sorry for what i wrote.
I am also doing this for those who have IM'ed me .. and was being very open toward their feelings of what was said. I can say i DID NOT MEAN TO HURT. I only was writing from the heart and the heart only.
__Eric, if i have hurt you, i guess i owe you to say i'm sorry. Well, i want to say good day/night whatever, to those who i hurt or offended. SGC
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19:51:32 05/05/03
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Graf buddy....another week starts as another one went by. I miss you bud and think about you everyday, but the days are starting to get easier. A good friend of mine, his step-dad who I knew really well from work, passed away 2 days after you. I went to his wake on Saturday and it helped me deal alot with your death along with his. I stayed at my buddy's house that night and I talked to his mom a lot. She helped me cope with your death. Her husband died and she told me what she was doing to cope with it and that helped me a lot. Well man I miss you more than anything and I am so glad that you are helping me get through this. I can already tell that you have been watching all of us. Well keep it real up there bud and I'll talk to you again later....
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19:51:23 05/05/03
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hey i am only a freshman but i have heard so much about you and wat an amazing person u where. this hit home for me cause my friend almost comited suicide.i am trley srry for wat happened. and all of his friends n family hold on tight cause u will get through these hard times together.
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19:01:55 05/05/03
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hey kid, i just wanted to let you know i'm thinkin about you and missin you like crazy. prom was nuts, and you were supposed to be with us...if you were, you would have been there makin us laugh the whole night and dancin like crazy! i thought about you a lot while at grant's, but i know you were there...lookin after us, partyin with us. everyday gets a little easier, but we're not forgetting...just dealing. it's easier to smile now when i think of you, rather than cry. i know that's what you would have wanted for all of us. love you and miss you buddy! -cait
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17:01:29 05/05/03
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Hey Graf,
I wish I could have gotten to know u better. What I do know is that u are an amazing person who has tons of friends and family that love you and are wondering why u did something like this. I know we didn't really know each other that well but I do remember u were in my health class freshman year and it waz a blast. I always looked forward to that class becuz u always made it fun whatever we seemed to do. I also will always remember the nickname that you gave me. Everytime we saw each other in the halls you would call me Dublin from Ireland!!! Those were fun times! I want to take time out now to tell all of Eric's friends and family that I am truely sorry for your loss. Eric is an amazing guy and could always make people laugh no matter what. Eric We all miss you sooooo much but we know that your lookin down on us all each and everyday. Please say hi to my BF Timmy Byrne, my Uncle Don, and My Grandpa for me and tell them I Love Them. Thanx Graf. You'll Always be in my heart and I Luv Ya!P.S. To friends and family be strong and keep ya heads up. You'll get through this i promise.
Love Always,
"Dublin"
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16:59:03 05/05/03
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hey eric,
Yu dont know me,
But my sister died when i was 3 yrs old So, i never really got a chance to know her so do you think you could please say hello to Danielle for me,
Love your big sister! thanx Eric
Sleep-good man!
Name: Julie Dominy
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16:00:44 05/05/03
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Hello my dear, wow what a weekend. Prom has come and gone. The weekend in which all of us (including you) were excited for and also dreading at the same moment. Well it was awesome, but you know that...you were there. They dedicated Time Of Your Life to you...but it was so different this time. At the wake when the song started all you heard were sniffles, sighs, and tears falling...but at prom..you didn't hear anything...you just felt it all. You felt the warmth of all of the people that didn't know you but who are being so supportive and kind, the warmth and smiles of those who knew you but not personally, and the warth, smiles, and memories of all of us who did know you in and out. The place glowed in your memory. It was a time of celebration, not a time of sorrow. I went away for the night...the day after prom...and we were just sitting around when Kara said something about smores...and it felt like everything froze around me...and for that moment I saw you standing there in front of me...telling me that you wished you could live in that fort and just live off smores...and then I saw you laughing...I remember when we were pretending to make smores with our sticks and everyone was staring at us like we were the biggest weirdos and then like Tyson or someone threw wood on the fire and we like almost blew up haha...and then we were like wtf! our smores are on fire! Haha...I saw you laughing with me...I relived that entire situation as I sat there....and finally when I snapped out of it , instead of crying or getting upset...I laughed...I smiled for a good while...and that's how I knew...you were right there with me. I felt your prescense at Grants...they were having chicken fights and all I could think about was...you would have definitley been the first one to get on top. Me and Amy were talking at Focia's when we funded for your family...about the crazy stuff that's been happening and we were just laughin and yelling up to the sky Eric QUIT F'ING WITH US...haha bc I know you have. You should have seen Tyson at Focias...for a second I had to look at him twice...bc he was doing all the crazy shit you would have done...and maybe for a minute or two you were living through him...but then I thought about it...and in reality...he was living through you....just like the rest of us...we all are living through your smile...and for you...you'll forever be my Grafferz...and forever be remembered....so keep hanging around...feeling you near us helps us stay strong. I love you babe!
Love,
Julie
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15:19:47 05/05/03
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SARAH McLACHLAN LYRICS
"I Will Remember You"I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories
R.I.P. Eric...You will never be forgotten! We all love you!
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15:07:57 05/05/03
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hey kids. among this huge tragedy, im trying to find something good. and i think ive found it. it seems that a lot of erics close friends are now getting involved in helping to stop suicide. and i think thats wonderful. we need to do all we can to show people that this isnt the answer. and to anyone who is looking in on all of this and admiring the attention eric is getting...STOP. this isnt the answer. talk to someone...anyone. dont be embarassed. if you dont want to talk to someone you know then call up the hotlines and talk to a stranger. people are willing to listen. i dont care how unloved u THINK u are...NO ONE wants you to end your life. i pray for all of you reading this. that God is present in your life and that u look to him for guidance. i pray that eric knew Jesus and that he is in heaven having a good time. trust God and trust that your life will work out. dont even think that im saying i dont have problems, because believe me, i do. ive had many suicidal thoughts myself. but seeing the hurt it causes and the questions people ask..i know its not the answer. prayer, trust, and faith...theres your answer. God Bless....
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22:37:42 05/04/03
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If I had Only Known~Reba McEntireIf i had only known
It was the last walk in the rain
I'd keep you out for hours in the storm
I would hold your hand
Like a life line to my heart
Underneath the thunder we'd be warm
If i had only known
It was our last walk in the rain If i had only known
I'd never hear your voice again
I'd memorize each thing you ever said
And on those lonely nights
I could think of them once more
Keep your words alive inside my head
If i had only known
I'd never hear your voice again You were the treasure in my hand
You were the one who always stood beside me
So unaware i foolishly believed
That you would always be there
But then there came a day
And i turned my head and you slipped away If i had only known
It was my last night by your side
I'd pray a miracle would stop the dawn
And when you'd smile at me
I would look into your eyes
And make sure you know my love
For you goes on and on
If i had only known
If i had only known
The love i would've shown
If i had only known
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21:22:27 05/04/03
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Eric~At school on Friday-I don't think I've ever seen that many people wear orange at once in our school. It was all for you. And regardless of whether or not the knew you or didn't-it was all out of respect. And people goin around sayin it should've been just an upperclassmen thing...that's wrong. The freshies n sophomores may not have known you-but obviously all of this affected them. You were great. WE missed ya at Prom tho...but i'm sure you were still there-makin sure everybody was havin fun n what not. I'll see ya around Eric. <3 alwayz
Jess
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20:57:37 05/04/03
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Graf* Well prom is over and is was a success. Chad didn't have to run, and the music wasn't blasting in our ears so loud that I honestly thought my brain was gone. After what seemed to be such a horrible Prom moment last year, and after I just about dished out every dirty look I owned, Chad and I sat across from you and Cam, and I just remember you being like F* it, who cares, and turn this MUSIC DOWN! See thats the kind of guy you were Graf, in my "Erin" moment you made me chill out and laugh, and just say "Oh well, we'll see who is running next!!" Thats what I honestly love about you Graf, your ability to give to others what is so necessary, HUMOR, LOVE AND SMART ASS COMMENTS! All I want to say is thank you so much Graf, for making me laugh at prom, and social, and other random moments. You're a great guy, and take care of yourself up there. We all miss you, but its just a temporary departure from us all, we'll be up there soon enough. Lots of Love,
*Erin*
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20:01:59 05/04/03
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You were fighting everyday, so hard to hide the pain. I know you'll never say goodbye. I have so much left to say. One last song given to an angel's son. As soon as you were gone. As soon as you were gone. -"Angel's Son" by Strait Up
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19:57:16 05/04/03
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I love you Eric, and I always will.
Name: Doug Ruston
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15:04:07 05/04/03
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Eric, thanks for the good times and all the rides home. R.I.P. Peace, Doug
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12:38:57 05/04/03
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!* I didnt really no eric that much but by readin these it felt like i knew him..im sorry for the loss
To Erics Friendz-
I wish i knew eric as you guyz did i wish i was there to help him thru his problems and his life..he seemed really sweet-kind-fun to be around-he reminded me that being a kid is fun..i wish i could of been there to tell him that he shouldnt of done it..i was gunna do it but then i found out suicide isnt the easiest way out.. If i could i would of been his date to the prom if he didnt have one...i would of been there for him i wish i knew him and his family.. To Eric-
I have one question why did you do that? You left a lot of your friends if i knew you i would of been there for you..by wat your friends said about you...you seemed really sweet-kind-nice-funny-fun to be with...i never really knew you but now since i read all the messages it feels like i know you really good..im soo sorry for your loss..i wish you would of thought before you act..i hope everyone voted for you prom king..you would of made a good one..i will never forget you! you will be in my heart..forever..now i no to think before i act..i love you
R - I - P Heidi and Mandy
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12:00:26 05/04/03
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luke that rap says it all. i love u eric...miss ya tons!
Name: Alanna
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08:52:49 05/04/03
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hi eric, i dont know you but i feel like I do. It seems like you were loved by so many. your life wasnt that long but you sure put an impact on many peoples lives and i hope you're watching down on all of us and protect us... rest in peace eric graf... love alanna
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03:17:15 05/04/03
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I never knew you. But i remember seeing you around...and you seemed like a really nice guy. At first i wasnt going to say anything ,but as i sit here and read all the nice things that people have wrote i thought that it just wouldnt be right if i didnt say something in a way of showing respect. I am really sorry that u felt this was the only way out. I hope your in a happier place now. To the family: I hope you can find it in you to get through this ok. I wouldnt know what to do if i were in your shoes. GOD BLESS!!!! REST IN PEACE ERIC...
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02:09:48 05/04/03
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I never knew you, and I know you never knew me. I was at my best friends house when I heard what happened. The first thing that came to my head was...who is Eric Graf and how did this all happen? Well I found out and I was shocked. But now, after reading most of these posts, I almost feel like I know you. You seemed like a great guy and an awesome friend. When I go on reading all of these posts, it hurts just to know that someone as cool as you is gone...but the good part about this is, is that you are in a happier, funner, safer, and worry free place right now. I know you are still with all of your friends, watching over them, crying with them, and laughing at the dumb things they do...Eric's family-I am so sorry what has happened. Just stay strong!!! Eric's friends-I know it hurts to know your best friend is gone, but he is in a better place, but he will always be with you guys :) One of Eric's friends is my study hall mentor. I am not going to name names...but the look on her face when she came to school was so sad. I almost felt like crying. She hasn't been in school lately (at least I dont think?) and I just wanted to let her know that you have to be strong...and always know that Eric will always be with you and the rest of your friends. He will always be looking down on you, his family, and everyone else. He is in a much better place right now where he doesn't have to worry about any thing... Eric...like I said before, we never met, but I feel like I know you. Just watch out for everyone at school, at home, family and friends.......
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23:43:52 05/03/03
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Hey i never actually met eric but i heard a lot of good stuff about him by reading all of these messages, im sorry for the loss of him i wish i could of met him and helped him thru his problems i wish i met him he seemed like a really nice person and he seemed really sweet...i no a couple of people who were friends with Eric.To Erics Family-
Im sorry of your loss, he seemed like a really sweet person when i heard bout his death i was devasted! i hope you guys feel better. To Eric-
Eric i never knew you but you seemed really fast from what all your friends n family put you seemed really sweet and awesome to hang around like at partys when i read all of these by the end i felt like i knew you and i wish i did so i could of helped you thru your problems..RIP RIP
Vote for Graf Prom King
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22:28:51 05/03/03
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I never met Eric, but his cousin Melissa is one of my best friends. When I heard this terrible news, I couldn't believe it. I wish that I could have done something to prevent this from happening. Even though I know that nothing I say can really make any of this better, I still wish that I could put into words how bad I feel about this tragedy. I send my condolences to Eric's family and friends.
Name: Ashley Demma
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22:16:18 05/03/03
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I met Eric Graf through his cousin Melissa Graf. Eric was always kind to me when I went over to Melissa's house. He was always laughing, and having a good time in general. I remember wanting to be as happy as he was when I was his age. I wanted to be able to have as much of a good time as he had. I never knew of his internal conflicts that pushed him over the edge, though. I wish I could have said or done something to prevent him from taking his life. Eric was always kind hearted and good natured. I will remember him as quite the king he was. Eric Graf was one of the best people I've ever known or hoped to have known. May angels fly thee to thy grave.
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17:11:35 05/03/03
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Hey everyone, I just wanted to post a message about a few concerns I've been having with all of this. Everyone has to understand, that even if people didn't know Eric, they will still be affected by it. I heard people saying yesterday that they didn't think you should wear orange if you didn't know Eric, and I think that's crap because even if they didn't know Graf personally, the reason why they were wearing orange was to support all of the people who DID know him. I've also heard a lot of juniors and seniors say that it should have only been an "upperclassmen" sort of thing. Just because some were sophomores and freshman doesn't mean they didn't know Graf. Another thing I've heard is a lot of seniors saying that they didn't think any of the sophomores should have been at the tree on Tuesday. I think a lot of you all are making it a "senior" thing, when it really shouldn't be. Everyone was affected by this, INCLUDING underclassmen.....I'm not trying to be at all mean about this, I'm just speaking the truth. Please, don't be offended by it...Grafferz~ Tonightz Prom...be there with everyone! They'll all know ur there. Have fun wit the big guy buddy! We'll all see u soon....hopefully not too soon tho...
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16:09:21 05/03/03
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R.I.P Eric! you will never be forgotten by anyone! Please watch over everyone going to prom tonight and help your friends and family get through this hard time! we love you! and miss you!
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16:08:43 05/03/03
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R.I.P Eric! you will never be forgotten by anyone! Please watch over everyone going to prom tonight and help your friends and family get through this hard time! we love you! and miss you!
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15:06:26 05/03/03
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"Not a day goes by, where I dont' think you
After all this time- your still with me its true
Minutes turn to hours, and the hours to days- Seems it's been forever that I've felt this way-"Eric- Tonight, at Prom- I know you'll be there with all of us in spirit. You'll be partying it up, cracking your jokes, making all of us have a great time, and spiking the punch. All of us are missing you, but as each day goes by the pain is getting somewhat easier to handle. And I'm starting to move on. But I'm not moving on, and leaving you behind. (I could never do that :)-- I'm moving on and keeping you in my heart full of memories. I know you are in a better place, so I won't worry. But- look over your other friends and family- They need you just as much as anyone else. They need your smile, your crazy hair. Help them get through the pain- I know you're trying your best because you wouldn't want anyone to suffer on your behalf. I'll always have a part of you with me, the memories. Those memories are like a Visa card- you never leave home without it- :) Keep Smiling (Like you could ever stop --) Love- Me
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12:52:49 05/03/03
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To Eric:
"Angel" by: JoeeTime went by so quickly
You were only seventeen
When you left, you took a part of me I just want to let you know
This was your time
You went away and it seems the days all fade into night
But you'll be alright, I know it
Cause now I've got an angel watching me Time went by so quickly
You were only seventeen
When you left you took a part of me
Took so much for granted
Can you hear me, can you see
Something's making me believe I just want to let you know
This was your time
You went away and it seems the days all fade into night
But you'll be alright, I know it
Cause I've got an angel watching me This was your time
You went away and it seems the days all fade into night
But you'll be alright, I know it
Cause now I've got an angel watching me Give me faith, give me hope
Give me faith, give me hope I've been searching for
(I've been searching for)
Truth that lies behind the door you've found
Do you keep your name
(Do you keep your name)
Is it all the same in your new world I just want to let you know
This is your time
You went away and it seems the days all fade into night
But you'll be alright, I know it
Cause now I've got an angel watching me This is your time
You went away and it seems the days all fade into night
But you'll be alright, I know it
Cause now I've got an angel watching me (Time will last long)
Give me faith, give me hope
Cause now I've got an angel watching me
(I know that you're not that far)
Give me faith, give me hope
Cause now I've got an angel watching me Cause now I've got an angel watching me
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