Name: Jenny
E-Mail: Jennyj829@aol.com
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23:41:40 09/22/03
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Hi Graffy~ How are you?? Well I have been at school for like months now.....and almost every weekend our friends are down here visiting Shawn and Dybas. I know you would have loved to come here! I miss you so much just seeing your smiling face and that red hair....no one will ever compare to you.....you were so original in every way! Lately I really find myself thinking about you and even talking about you. I know every is at school now, but we are all still thinking about you! Well hope everything is doin good. keep looking out for everyone especially your family.....oh yea tell Bijan I said hi i know you guys are having an awesome time! Love~ Jenny
Name: Jess
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23:06:57 09/21/03
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Hey Eric.Geeze. Things with me and my life dont' seem to be doin so well right now...nothing seems to be goin in a good direction. I dont' know what to do. I'm so confused, my cousin is in a LOT of trouble...it's hard. I was jus thinkin bout you so I figured I'd stop by and say hi! XoXo
Name: Hill
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15:57:24 09/21/03
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Hey Eric~Yea me and Lauren just got back from the cemetary. Your headstone is finally in...When I saw it, it was kind of like a final reality. The feeling is indescribable. On the way home me and Lauren drove past that hot dog place that we would always go to after we got our physicals hahha. We went every year. Me, you, joe ,john, david, your mom, and mine. It was so funny bc the place that we went to was SO ghetto haha. You are loved by so many er...everyone misses you so much. Your mom left a letter to you on your headstone...She needs to know that what happened was not her fault. You loved her so much as well as your whole family. And I know you are watching out for all of your friends, especially all of your boys. Phill is right, all of you guys had a bond that no one else can even begin to understand. Everyone dealt with your death in different ways. I still dont know how to move on. But I am trying. I love you with all of my heart, and I miss you more and more everyday. I would have done anything!
<3 always
Hill
Name: We love you!
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12:01:22 09/19/03
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I'm gone now, but I'm still very near.
Death can never separate us.
Each time you feel a gentle breeze,
It's my hand caressing your face.
Each time the wind blows,
It carries my voice whispering your name.
When the wind blows your hair ever so slightly,
Think of it as me pushing a few stray hairs back in place.
When you feel a few raindrops fall on your face,
It's me placing soft kisses.
At night look up in the sky and see the stars shining so brightly.
I'm one of those stars and I'm winking at you and smiling with delight.
For never forget you're the apple of my eye.
Name: A friend
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01:16:49 09/19/03
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Er~ Hey babe, it's been awhile since I've written on here, but not a day goes by where I don't come to this site. Not a day goes by where I'm not thinking of you. Once in awhile I just break down in tears. I know you're watching over all of us and making sure we're safe. I don't know waht else to say, but I love you Eric and miss you more than you'll ever know!!
~<3~
Name: Jess
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00:36:16 09/19/03
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Hey Eric. I jus wanted to stop by and tell ya that I've been thinkin about you. I jus got done writin a stupid history paper, and I'm bout to go to sleep. Just remember, we still love you and miss you! XoXo
Name: Jess
E-Mail: nathenso@uiuc.edu
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13:44:56 09/18/03
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Hey Eric! I've been thinkin about ya a lot lately. My family moved to CA. It was hard when I went out there the 2 weeks before school started because all I could think about was how we promised to meet up and how you were gonna be famous out there. You would've been great. Now that I'm at school and everyone has gone their seperate ways, I think about where you might be right now. If you were alive and had gone to CA maybe you'd be loving your life right now. It's always maybe isn't it? Maybe if this had happened, maybe if that had happened. God, I miss you so much sometimes. It's hard to be out here with people who don't necessarily understand why one day you are sad for no reason and crying when really you know that you're sad because the thought of a good friend from back home is no longer with you. It still haunts everyone. Well, I just wanted to say and that I miss you, and of course I still think you're amazing. I love you forever and always---Jess, rip
Name: we miss u
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23:52:11 09/17/03
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The dreams I have are unrepeatable
and you always play a starring role
I'm just glad to have the time with you
it's the only place where we can go
I walk around the next day in a daze
flashes of a feeling or your face
three photographs, a letter and my memories
are all I have to fill the spaceNow you've gone, now you've gone
but I keep missing you
I keep missing you
now you've gone, now you've gone
but I keep missing you
I keep missing you Sometimes I laugh the way you used to laugh
or say the things you used to say
if you can see me now just give me a sign
'cos I can't believe you've really gone away Now you've gone, now you've gone
but I keep missing you
I keep missing you
now you've gone, now you've gone
but I keep missing you
I keep missing you The way you tossed your hair
and fooled around
will we ever meet again Now you've gone, now you've gone
but I keep missing you
I keep missing you
now you've gone, now you've gone
but I keep missing you
I keep missing you Now you've gone
I keep missing you
Now you've gone
I keep missing you
Name: Hill
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11:16:32 09/17/03
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Hey Er...God I hate this so much, I hate that you are gone, I hate that everyone hurts so much, I hate that you were so unhappy, I hate that it is all that I can think about, I hate that I miss you so much, and I hate so much that I never got to say goodbye. I cant believe how much you have changed my life. I want to be a better person, for you and for your memory. Everyone just keeps passing away. Life is a gift, you need to take care of it. I am so mad that you made the decision you did. No matter what it was, if you just would have gone to sleep or gone to julies with everyone that night, you know it would have been better the next morning. How could you do this to all of us. Especially your family. You were everything to them. How could you not see how amazing you were. I would have done anything for your happiness. I dont blame myself, but there will always be that guilt. It just sucks because I have never missed someone so much in my entire life. I would do anything to have you back just to hug you and tell you I love you and goodbye. You took that away from so many people. I know you werent a selfish person, but it hurt so many people Er. And you dont have to live with this pain, you are free of it. And I know you are in heaven helping all of us out. I love you with all of my heart Eric, I miss you...until I write again!
P.S. Take your wings, you deserve them!
<3Hill
Name: Amy
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10:04:37 09/17/03
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******I LOVE YOU GRAF********
****YOU ARE MISSED MORE AND MORE EVERYDAY*****
Name: Fayth
E-Mail: sosafayt@msu.edu
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21:50:39 09/16/03
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hey buddy, i was just thinking about you. i'm doing this gay homework, i can't read anymore. i miss you. i was just thinking about that time when rachel and i were kicking your ass with a belt. that was sooo funny, you were singing to avril at joe's house. i also remeber when me and rach were ripping on your car and you and joey were telling us it was a classic. well i luv you, hope everything is great
Fayth
Name: RIP
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12:25:34 09/16/03
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Eric... Every time I hear your name, I think of our Civics class junior year. I remember how ud make all us girls laugh: me, krista, and meg and eventhough we didnt know eachother all that well, u still bring a smile to my face. U were one of the funniest people I have ever met and thats the way I will always remember you! I hope ur doin good up there, you'll always be missed...
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11:35:33 09/16/03
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Eric,I miss you so much. My heart is broken and never will be the same. I'm just waiting to see you again. I hope it's soon. Love you.
Name: Katie~*
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01:19:29 09/16/03
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Grafmeister~
Hey buddy, I was just taking a break from the hours of bullshit homework i have and found myself thinking of you, so i thought i'd drop you a message. Er, you would have loved college, I cant even imagine the trouble!! You would have made every experience one to always remember, i will always remember the experiences we have had together. I think about you all the time, i miss you. I didnt know Bjian but im sure you'll take care of him. Ill continue to pray for you everyday. I love ya kid~miss you tons~Kate
Name: Meghan
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23:20:20 09/15/03
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Hey Eric-
I'm down here at ISU. I have ur picture taped to my computer. So I think about you every day. There are still times that I cant believe that ur gone. Just like I am with having to know that Bijan is gone now, too. I still wish that we would have remained good friends throughout high-school, I feel like we didnt have much closure as stupid as that might sound. I'm sure there are so many who feel the same way though. Well, I hadnt written here since it happened, and I wanted to. I hope that u are doing well, I heard your mom is going back to work now, I really admire her strength. Say whats up to Bijan for me. We all miss you guys sooo much. I'll write soon again.
~*Meghan*~
Name: Lauren
E-Mail: laurenpatrizi@yahoo.com
AIM: lamariedmb
16:34:43 09/15/03
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Hey Eric,
I've been thinking about you quite a bit lately. The other night I completely broke down on Dave's couch.. I dont think he quite understood what my problem was. I really hope with everyone away at school now you can really find peace.. You now know that regardless of everyone's location, we all still care about you and miss you. I keep the picture of us in my wallet still.. and occasionally when I'm feeling down I pull it out and think about you. I miss the goodtimes eric with all of us.. It seems just like yesterday....Miss you
Lauren
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19:24:47 09/14/03
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Hey eric, Things are really hard right now. Even though we really werent great friends I still look to you for support and guidance. Ive contemplated suicide a lot lately but your the only thing that stops me when i look at all the people that care about you that you probably never knew about till now I wish i could know that there really are people that care about me with out doing anything drastic. But seriously things are so tough I hardly ever see any of my best of friends any more it just seem like we all have completely different schedules and there isnt time. I dont blame them but I feel like I dont have any one any more.
Name: cait
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14:09:36 09/12/03
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god i miss you so much kid...i love you so much and just letting you know i think about you all the time still, but i know you know that. can't wait to see you again someday er...love cait
Name: Jacqueline
E-Mail: QT3036@aol.com
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00:14:17 09/12/03
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HeY ErIc! wow cant believe...so i started school again...without you. :( ... kept hopin to see you in the halls...of course none of the seniors last year are there but still. its sad not to see any of u guys. but atleast i get to still talk to them and keep in touch with them. i hope that sumhow mb u know what i'm sayin and what everyone has said to you on this website... i've def missed ya buddy. missed ur smilin face. and all our talks i'm sure you know that bij died. look over him while ur up there too. look over everyone else too. we all miss you. i cant wait to see you again. senior year is gonna be pretty cool. but its a lil scary with the whole gettin into college thing. so help everyone get through it. eric there isnt a day that goes by that i dont think of you. always know that. ur in my heart forever. i love you....forever. no matter where i go. or what happens. ur always gonna be in my heart and prayers. rip bud. i love you.
luv always , jacqueline
Name: Julie
E-Mail: Juliegrl55@aol.com
AIM: Juliegrl55
22:24:08 09/11/03
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Hey Er, just writing to see what's up...yeah...so it's already almost midway through september...Senior yr...crazy...I wonder where the time goes sometimes. So i had a meeting about college applications yesterday..and it was a definite reality check...I realized that in just a few months...I will know where my life is set to go for the next 4 years...it really scares me, because...I'm growing up...I'm am getting to the point where I'm all on my own...and it is so weird. It's like wasn't it just yesterday that I walked into Lincoln-way for the first time...and now in 8 months I'll be walking out for the last time. Where did the years go...? You have been such a big part of my highschool experience eric, and I want to thank you so much for that...highschool has been so memorable...and you are definitley unforgettable...thank you for the memories and all of the laughs that we have shared. I miss you tons...I'm sorry I don't write as often as I should...I guess sometimes...I just can't bring myself to...but a friend tonight has made me realize that I can write and its ok that I'm still upset and that missing you is only a good thing. I love you Eric...you'll always be my Grafferz!
Love,
Julie
Name: Ashly Foreman
E-Mail: ashly8bsb@hotmail.com
AIM: xxxkmkqueen420
21:47:08 09/11/03
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Hey eric. I am pretty sure i speak for everyone when i say this, but the death of bijan just made us remember the friends that we have lost this past year. and that is how i got here. this is your page and once they make one for bijan i will write to him on that one. but i miss you robert and bijan. tell bijan i miss seing his funny ass around. and how he pulled my hair out at lunch, and came and chilled with me and callie. he was a great person., and he was a wonderful man to christina. and i know you 2 are rockin it up there. o yeah and bijan u can't forget about the great time at the KMK concert! those damn pictures of all of us and daddy x make me miss you much. take care
love ya always
~*~Ashly~*~
Name: ~*~Callie~*~
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20:08:24 09/11/03
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Heya Graf~
Wow it has been so long since I left you a message on here...I just wanted to let you know that I haven't forgotten about you and that I love ya and miss you soo much. These past couple of weeks have been really hard. I was just thinking about the time when you came over to my house and got lost and called me so confused about the directions; that when you finally got here we laughed about my shitty directions for almost an hour. Then when we went to the movies it was seriously one of the best nights I have ever had in my life. No matter how bad anyone has ever felt, you always knew how to make them feel better. I just wish that I could have been there for you when you needed me. Now you have Bijan up there with you pal, I know that you're there for him now too. Well, I'm going to go sweetheart, I just wanted to let you and Bijan both know that I miss you like crazy and that you both are always in my heart and in my prayers.. God bless. Your friend forever..
~*~Callie~*~
Name: fayth
E-Mail: sosafayt@msu.edu
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12:23:12 09/11/03
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hey buddy, i hope you're having fun up there. i want you to know i still think about ya. i wish you could see what college is like, it's aweasome. you would have loved it, you would have made it a hundred times better!! well i love you, hope all is well,
LOVE,
fayth
Name: fayth
E-Mail: sosafayt@msu.edu
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12:22:53 09/11/03
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hey buddy, i hope you're having fun up there. i want you to know i still think about ya. i wish you could see what college is like, it's aweasome. you would have loved it, you would have made it a hundred times better!! well i love you, hope all is well,
LOVE,
Name: a friend
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12:51:13 09/10/03
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Eric,You listened and helped with so many of your friend's problems and you are still helping. It's too bad we were so busy talking that we weren't listening to you. I will never forgive myself for that. I miss you whole bunches.
Name: A friend
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20:20:11 09/09/03
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Eric~
Hey babe-it's been awhile since i've been on here. I just can't come up w/ words that describe how much I miss you. I think about you everyday, how much I miss you, seeing you, and laughing w/ you. I know it's been awhile since you've left, but it seems like yesterday. I know you're happy up there and party..I dont need to worry bout that. Watch over all of us and make sure we make the right decisions. I love you Er
~<3~
Name: a friend
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17:31:30 09/09/03
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Hey Eric, I just wanted to say I love you and miss you...I've never written because I can't think of the words to say that really express how I feel...All I know is that everyone was so affected by your loss and we still think of you everyday...I will never forget you buddy, rest in peace, but have fun up there...we will all be together someday
Name: Lauren
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21:12:44 09/08/03
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Hey Graf! I was just thinking about you and i realized that i haven't written in a while. I still miss ya tons! It sucked that you weren't here over the summer to party w/all of us. But i'm sure you're parting away up in Heaven. Now you've got Robert and Bijan to party with. You three just better not get into to much trouble! :) I really miss ya buddy and i know that everyone else does 2. i don't think there's a day that passes that everyone doesn't think of you and just smile. Well make sure to have fun up there, you're always in my thoughts!
Name: caring he was
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20:13:54 09/08/03
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Name: Bijan Sayeed
E-Mail: Kurt4ever69@aol.com
AIM: Kurt4ever69
01:22:26 04/26/03
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all i keep asking myself is why. Eric made every one laugh, I always saw a smile on his face. He could of talked to any one of us and we would be there for him, but the choice he took were never going to see him ever again. I will always rember Eric Rest in peace.
Name: Rachel Dub
E-Mail: Downandoutchic1@hotmail.com
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13:20:35 09/08/03
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Hey Graf what's up? how ya doin up there? I just wanted to let ya know that my Good Friend Bijan is up there now and we all miss him terribly as you are missed. Can u pleaze tell him that he will never be forgotten and we all Love him. I know he's in a better place but I miss him a lot. Tell him that all of his friends will be ok and we'll take care of Cristina for him. Graf and Bijan You Will Always Be Missed.
Rest In Peace Guys
Name: just a ordinary joe
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01:12:55 09/08/03
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Hey well theres a few things that i need to say first and foremost i need to thank you ERIC you have saved my life there was a time a few weeks ago that I was ready to leave this world and i came on here and looked at your web site and realized that i do have people who care about me and people who i can talk to and turn to when i am in need...I secondly need to thank you for watching out over some people in whom are very close to me and i ask you to keep watching out for those special boys who are close to me in my heart I dont think you even can begin to realize how special you are to so many of us and I want you to know that we all love you and please watch over me in these next few weeks as my life starts to get a bit harder
I LOVE YOU GRAFFERS
Name: lINDSAY
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00:39:14 09/08/03
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Hey Eric! Take care of Bijan...Show him around...and keep him out of trouble. Life is getting pretty scary with everyone dying so young now...It makes me think, and makes me try not to do anything stupid. I just wanted to say, and that I'm still missing you.When is there going to be a message board for Bijan????
Name: one of the family...
E-Mail: wannabhoplesslyinlove@yahoo.com
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22:56:26 09/07/03
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Hey Eric its your cuz... the other night i was listining to my c.d. and the coldplay song came on. i have a picture of you and that crazy dog of yours Zoe ,when u both have a cigarette in ure mouth... and i just sat there tracing every part of you thinking of how thats how you were put onto this earth and i couldn't help but cry. Don't worry the tears weren't wasted though each tear i wiped upon your shoulders, which u used to hug me after a long day at those stupid family parties... ill miss those hugs... your moms finally going back to work and i have to give her props for that its taken her awhile to get back up on her feet. Your dad and my mom were talking the other night and he said how he barely saw or talked to you, an i feel like hes blaming himself... thats not right... you should comfort him... East isn't the same anymore every time i walk through the courtyard where all those pictures and poems were hanging on the tree about you i can't help but shed a tear. its hard to believe that im the last one of the family there... hmm.... well i better get goin i have a long day of school tomarrow... hope your smilin , cause i miss it. RIP- GRAF if any1 wants to email me bout anythin gimme an e-mail..... ~~~S~~~
Name: Shannon
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13:41:52 09/07/03
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Hey babe.. Damn its been awhile since i wrote on here.. Still missin ya the same though.. The death of Bijon has been hard on a lot of his friends, and just like you he will NEVER be forgotten.... and hey.. he gets to chill w/ u!! I bet you Robert n Bijon are partyin it up up there.. Bijon was really upset at your funeral just like the rest of us, and now he gets to see you..so im sure that put a smile on his face.. It's my B-Day today.. haha you'd probably be making fun of me since im such a youngin'... A lot of people are going through hard times right now, so watch over everyone k? Love you babe.. Miss you like crazy!!Shannon
Name: someone
E-Mail: angelie_381@hotmail.com
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11:52:07 09/07/03
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I'm not about to tell ppl how Bijan died on this website. If you are curious to know email me. I will leave my addy for you. I do have all the straight facts tho b/c I am friends with his girlfriend. Eric man with all that has happened I know noone has forgotten you. It is still hurting like the day it happened!
Name: Karen Schuit
E-Mail: Imthe10192@aol.com
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02:04:38 09/07/03
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Hey Eric~
I cant beilieve another one of my friends has died. Bijon Sayeed. He was the greatest person i ever met next to u. I just hope that wherever u guys are to wait for me and look down on me and make sure i do good. I can get a little out of hand. I went to his funeral and seeing all these people from school and then seeing just a whole in the ground made me melt down. I cant believe that he was taken on his birthday. I just want both of you to know that you touched so many people in so many ways and i know that noone will ever forget you. I LOVE YOU GUYS!BIJAN SAYEED R.I.P ERIC GRAF R.I.P ROBERT BARRY R.I.P
Name: crystal
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01:40:07 09/07/03
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Is the news true? Did God take another person who didn't deserve to be taken from all those who mean so much them?!?..
Bijon, dog.. I can't believe its true, are you gone? I remember Mrs. Goy's math class..you were so funny, you made me laugh everyday. I will never forget you, because you ment so much to christina.. *Big Hugs to you girl* {Be strong and if you need me.. i will be here for you}
.... I will try to write more later.... RIP~BIJON~ RIP~GRAF~
Name: monica
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00:13:39 09/07/03
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Hey grafferz~Wow this is so weird i just found out about bijan...its crazy .... we are all supposed to be in college and livin it up and making a future for ourselves. This sucks so much ... i donno what to do ne more ... i just keep thinking who is going to be next? is it going to be my best friend or just someone that i knew through other people... Everytime i think of u man it makes me think how stupid i was ... we could have been awsome friends i just never really took the time to get to know u. everytime i think of u i remember you thinking i was a freshman when we were in track and i was like ummm no i'm a sophmore just like you .... and when u finished the weighmans relay ... those were some great times... i love u man and everytime u see some one u remember come up try to greet them with open arms!! i know you will ne ways but make them feel right at home!! i love u man and i think about you all the time !! peace out and i hope you still member me when i arrive!!
LOVE
Monica K.
Name: Jess M.
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23:21:28 09/06/03
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Hey Graf! Whats been goin on? WoW. Things here have been kinda crazy-and not exactly the best...everybody leavin for school...things are changin really fast. But I guess that's just part of life, hun? newayz, i jus thought i'd stop by *n* say Hi. I jus got my internet back so I wanted to check up on things. Hope you are keepin it real up there bud. we still miss ya n think bout you all the time! Love,
Jess
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12:01:00 09/06/03
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We Lost another great person last night Graf~ Bijon died on his bday man ~ God took him on the day he came~ God Bless Every1~ My Prayers are for every1 who died ~ Graf RIP~ Barry RIP~ Bijon RIP~
Name: Julie Dominy
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23:57:54 09/04/03
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Grafferz,
Hey dear, wow it's been awhile since I have been on this site...it brings back so much feeling when I see this site...that has gone almost numb in the past few months...well school has started and good old lincoln way...it has changed sooo much! New deans, teachers, rules, and dress codes. Everything is so different...but besides the fact that pretty much ALL my friends are gone...I guess that it's do able for one more year! :) Yeah so now I have to start sending out college applications...now THAT is wierd! Well everything seems to have changed so much since you have been gone...but most things have changed so suddenly since everyone left for school. It's been wierd but I guess you have to learn to adapt...and keep moving forward. You have taught me that...I was in the hospital all of last night...massive dehydration, bronchitis, and upper respitory infection...hah how the hell did that all happen to me? I thought my immune system was flawless...haha guess not...but just that...that stupid small encounter has made me rethink stuff and what I take for granted...thank you for also helping me learn that...I love you Er...I wish I could tell you to your face...but that's ok...you know!
Love always,
Dommerz
Name: otto
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10:49:46 09/02/03
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GRAF,
its taken me a long time to come back on this site cuz its so hard to think ur gone.sometimes i just never know what to say.im gone to college now and everything is cool.the other day some kid asked me to hook up his system in his car and i started to but the whole time i was doing it i was thinkin of u cuz u taught me how to do it. i remember the day we put mine in, it took so long then we drove to mcdonalds and it didnt work anymore,we were so pissed then we just laughed and talk shit about my cheap ass subs.g, i miss u a ton dawg! this summer jus wasnt the same not goin to the fort everyday or not gettin crunk with yo ass! you made so many people happy and although the thought of u being gone makes me sad, all the fun times keep me goin! i love u graf and ill never stop thinkin about u!
Name: b
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23:15:48 09/01/03
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g$, like i said i would, i wrote ur name on my fball spikes in bright orange for ur carrot top. . . and what do u know. . . we come through with the win at the last second, not to mention i had the game of my life.
i know u had to be there. keep on pimpin pimp
-dez
Name: lindsay ruiz
E-Mail: holataluvin000@aol.com
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17:12:24 08/29/03
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hey budddyy.. well me and natalie were watching the vma's last night and ofcourse Coldplay sang live.. wow it definately gave us both the chills.. it was tough to hold back the tears..that song touches sooo many people and ofcourse when everyone hears it.. they think of you..its amazing how all of our lives are changing right now but never beleive for a second that you arent with us every step of the way. Your presence affected so many people in so many different ways and i bet you never even imagined how many lives you touched until now...But you deserve to be happy wherever you are.. We miss you and love ya more than words can say.. see you again some day......... Love Always, Lindsay Ruiz
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13:57:35 08/29/03
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Eric~ What's up babe? Well...things have definitely been crazy. Everyone is gone off to school and it's a lot of fun, but hard knowing that our close friends aren't around. That was probably the hardest part...leave our close friends. We miss you soo much. I was at a bar last night and the Coldplay song came on and I just broke down. Sure that song comes on a lot and it always reminds me of you, but this time was different. I just broke down bc it's just not fair that you're not here w/ us. But I know you're much happier now and that's all that matters. Keep watch over everyone.....we all need someone to look over us. We miss you tons Er. I love you
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15:58:45 08/28/03
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Hey eric this is my first time writing on this since you left us. I guess i just never knew what to say or i just did not want to belive that you were gone. But i am leaving for school in 8 days. i made it man i going to florida. I need you to help me out well i am there keep me focus on what it is that i need to do. Man it is hard to belive that your not hear. I wish i could hear you laugh one more time just so i could have one more laugh with you. I really dont no what els to say this hole situation just leaves me speechless every time i try to talk about it. It makes no scense to me. two day before it hapened you told me you wanted to get a job at challenge park so we could ditch work and go chill and smoke in the forest. We both laugh and then i said later and so did you. I dont belive that you really thought that was the last time you would see me. But what the hell do i know. I just want to say i love you man, and not a day goes by were i am not thinking of all the fun time we had. Weather it was playing tag in the unbulit houses or riding that wheel chair down your street. But every time i think of all the great time we had it just hurts more knowing i wont be able to do it again. But i hope you are haveing fun were ever your at. But i know you could of had more fun with all of us. I love you eric! RIP love Gorny
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14:51:01 08/27/03
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Well G i think the last time i wrote on here was a month after this all happened. i think its cuz just readin all this an hearin this music makes me feel like shit but o well. About a week or two ago shawn julie n carli came into my work to have one more "fun lunch" together before everyone left and it just still hit hard knowin your goofy ass wasnt gonna walk in for it. I remember how we were always like fuck college, were gonna make fat cash and get a house with tyson n matt and foote. And its crazy cuz all the people that said it are stickin to it except for you. Matt picked me up yesterday just to drive around and smoke like we always used to and all i could do was just think about the journeys and the crazy fort nights. It's like it's all so unreal still, and the only thing that cheered me up yesterday was when i sa w a picture of you. Its when we were at stet's house partyin and you had that trucker hat on that said" I'm here for the beer." And you were cuz the picture was of you all red in the face doin a keg stand about to pass out. I guess those are the memories that are helpin us all pull through, so thanks for them cuz there were a ton. i know ur kickin it up there watchin on everyone at college, and the rest of us who arent ha. But we'll never forget ya and were always pourin a lil out for the G-unit- love Pete
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15:48:37 08/26/03
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What up G? I'm out in AZ now and its seriously crazy.
I got all my pics set up and i got the one of me and you from jr social sittin right in the middle. I just wish u could be here to check this place out, u would go nuts!!!!!!! Well man i miss u a shitload and i still think about ya a lot. Do me a favor and watch over me while i'm here, ya know make sure i don't get into too much trouble! I gotta jet, i love ya bro
Luke
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23:15:48 08/24/03
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Hey Er! I miss you and love you so much. It's weird that even though you are gone, I am still taking you with me everywhere. I know you are here now, and I know you will be there when I get married, and when my kids are born, and when I die. Because I would have been there for you for all of those things. I am away at school and yesterday was so hard because it had been exactly 4 months since you died. Its hard being here without any of my girls who know what I am going through. I miss you with all of my heart, and with everything I have. I love you so much.
Hill
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19:56:33 08/24/03
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Hey Graf...well im away at school now and soo are the majority of us. A day still doesnt go by where I dont think of you. You are always on my mind even more now because I am so far away from everyone I am soo close to. That is probably the hardest part is that not everyone is together anymore. I know I will see all of them again but that is just more of a reminder that I wont see you for a long long time and it makes me crazy. I always think of the good times we had and it makes me smile. Me and Jules have pictures of you all over our room and we make sure to tell everyone who you are and how amazing you are. I miss you soo soo much I wish so bad that you were here to experience all this but i know you are right along side of us with all that we are doing. I will carry you in my heart always and forever. I love you soo much dont ever forgot that, we all do! Please watch over all of us like you have been doing. Most of all take care of your mom dad and brother. I'll talk to you later Graf I LOVE YOU
Bridget
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02:47:06 08/24/03
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Graf- well i cant believe that i am finially ready to write on your page... this is the 1st time I've written, I know its been a while but I haven't had the courage to. Everything has just been so different lately. Everyone has left for college and it makes me sad that i got to say goodbye to them... and i know ill see them soon... but i never got the chances with you. It seems like yesterday i saw you and Foote frolfin....haha and me and Yvonne ask you guys if those weeds were pot plants... you guys looked at us like we were crazy. I miss you so much. Its just the little things that remind me of you every second of every day. Tonight on my way home I drove past your house (like I always have) to finish my cigarette. I always think back of driving down your street and seeing 50 cars parked on both sides of the road (and by the way... Murphy and Blake would ALWAYS be parked right in front!). But, tonight I just wanted to drive by ... just because ... and I did think about every time I went to your house and saw all the cars ... but tonight i REALLY did. No cars looked familiar but still ... it was soo weird. Ever since you left there has been a space in my life missing, I think of you every day. Haha no matter what, the time when me and you left Joe Donkels house pops in my head. We went to McDonalds and got tons of food and parked down the street from your house and just rocked out to Green Day and ate.... even the time me and Carli visited you at J.C. Flicks and talked for like a half hour about stupid stuff: like "are there push pops in that ice cream freezer!?" haha and you would just be like nah.. i already checked. Or even the person that returned the Blockbuster movie to you! hahah what idiots! We really did have some great times together. At lunch I would always get so happy that I got the extra chance not to take up the trays.... because we all knew that I would lose to Pete. Haha you would ALWAYS throw paper first. Well, Friday I started school. I have the same lunch as we did last year. It was just weird looking at the spot where we used to sit or thinking- in study hall me and Carli cant go visit Graf or even attempt to get him out or ask you to help us put stuff on the shelf because we were wearing skirts. Hahah speaking of study hall, remember the time when me and Carli had to boil water and the whole thing exploded and water was everywhere!? I wish a lot of things but the one thing that I wish the most is that I can have one more day with you ... just to laugh and talk about the randomist things that don't even matter. Well, you were always the BEST host at your parties, the best "lunch buddy" and the best person to be around. Not even one day goes by where I don't remember another little cork about you. But its so strange because I think to myself "am I just imagining that.. or did it really happen?" and I don't want to forget one single thing about you. It just sucks. I know all of its true ... but I'm scared I added some things to make it seem like I did experience certain times with you, ya know what i mean or am i just crazy? Well, I know that I can say every moment i did spend with you, I lived it to the fullest. It just seems like I am questioning everything and anything now, but I don't know why because I don't have the answers that I wish I did. I am sorry that this is the 1st time that I've written, but it took me a while to get all my thoughts processed (haha) and still they're not all here. well you really do mean a lot to me and I know one day I'll see you again and you can show me how to party like a rock star!! I love you! Times 2! hahah or 3!? Love, Julie
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02:36:54 08/24/03
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i didnt know eric. i dont know anybody who does. but i do know that i was going to kill myself tonight, and now i'm not. thank you eric.
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15:44:56 08/23/03
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hey buddy! well i'm here, and even though i'm having a blast, i still think about you all the time and i love you so much. when my roommate saw your pic and the orange ribbon and asked about it, it was so weird explaining it. it's just that being at home with everyone...we all know. and talking about it with someone who didn't know you made it very real for some reason. i guess part of me still doesn't believe it, or just refuses to. but then the rest of me takes over and the reality i hate so much sets in. i would just give anything to see you again and being away from home i guess i just feel like i'm even further from you than i already was. to me that's where i think of you as being. and now i'm just too far from that. but i think about you everyday, and i miss you more than anything. i love you kid!!!!!!
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01:34:54 08/23/03
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Love...I feel so much love here in words. Eric had many good friends that understand more now. Maybe this was his way to teach love.
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15:42:38 08/21/03
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Hey sweetheart!
Well, I'm at school in North Carolina and even tho everything has changed so drastically- I still think about you everyday. The pic of you on my desk is the only one I catch myself staring at. I just want you to know that I love you and I miss you and everyday I pray for the day that I see you again.
Love ya tons and tons,
Annie
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15:42:21 08/21/03
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Hey sweetheart!
Well, I'm at school in North Carolina and even tho everything has changed so drastically- I still think about you everyday. The pic of you on my desk is the only one I catch myself staring at. I just want you to know that I love you and I miss you and everyday I pray for the day that I see you again.
Love ya tons and tons,
Annie
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00:56:55 08/21/03
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I have written on here once. It was right after you died. I remember I would come on here and read a few messages, click on the refresh button and w/in a matter of 5 minutes there would be 12 new messages. Now if that isn't love....I really don't know what it. Hun I have had my real bad days before but I can't even imagine how you felt that day where you hit rock bottom. Gosh, it is so sad how so many lives are stolen at such a young age. I know you are missed. I hope you are resting peacefully.Everytime a bell rings, an angel gets his wings.... Keep waitin. They are comin soon! Angela
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