Name: Lauren
E-Mail: laurenpatrizi@yahoo.com
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09:41:55 08/20/03
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Hey Eric,
Well, I leave for college tomorrow and I've really been thinking about you. Although you told me you "forgot" to apply to school, it's ok because you're coming anyways.. You're coming with each and every one of us.. We are all bringing a memory, a thought, a love of you with us away to school, to work, to the world. You're influence on earth has all made us better people, and now that you're in a much higher place you can help us through the rest of our lives. Eric, through college, through growing up, through starting a family and a career and hopefully someday retiring, I will always hold a very special place for you. I just wanted to tell you i love you and I miss you... I know I havent written in awhile, but no worries, you know i haven't stopped talking to you.Lauren
Name: cait
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01:38:04 08/20/03
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so i leave for school in like 5 hours, but i can't sleep...thinking about so much stuff, and we make such a big deal out of leaving everyone, but we'll see each other again. and that just makes me realize that i won't see you...not until i get there. i miss you so much kid it breaks my heart. tonight hill and i were driving around, it just felt like the thing to do the night before i left haha, and when we went by your house we were just quiet, thinking about seeing yours and dave's bikes outside when that was our mode of transportation haha. there will always be someone missing er, and i can't stand that. all this has completely changed the way i think about things, the type of things i get upset about, and just my life in general. i miss you and love you and i know you're watching out for us...see you later buddy
love cait
Name: little kovacs
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17:09:19 08/19/03
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gosh where do i begin, i wrote you a long time ago. when i first heard of what happened. i know you prolly dont even know who i am but you were a really good friend to my brother. seeing him so upset makes me soo sad aswell. every once in a while i look at this site. and everytime i find myself crying. every word i read on this about you makes me wish that i would have actually known you. you seem like agreat person . i know so many people miss you and love you like crazy. . look how many people have wrote to you. keep smilin up there eric, everyone will see you soon. even though i barely knew you i think about you all the time. everybody that knew you does. rip eric love you xo becca
Name: me too
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16:33:53 08/19/03
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Hey GraffersI miss u so much, I think bout u everyday. I kno ur helpin all of us out each day with the struggles we go through. I want to thank you for that. My sister was goin crazy when u left us, but i think u taught her that it was okay, because no ur were happy. She would always tell me how U were there for her no matter what, we all wish we could have helped you also, the way u helped us. I'll never forget when u came into the computer room, that was the second time i saW U. tHE first was at Nik's work with otto, that was fun. Well bud, keep it real up there, Miss u crazy style LuV YaH ChiLd
Stef
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22:56:14 08/18/03
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There is so much love felt here. It is beautiful. Eric feels the love. Know, that the love here has filled his heart beyond belief.
Name: rachel
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21:36:26 08/18/03
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its me and im just sittin in my dorm now with jill and i cant help but to still get depressed when i come to the site. i look around at people who have never had to think about something so tragic and im jealous. we all had that before and we didnt even know how lucky we were. i miss u and i hope things are excellent for u. thank u for the impact u have had on my life and everything u have ever done for me. im sorry u might not have known it before but we all love u.
love, rachel
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00:32:34 08/18/03
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Eric feels so much love from so many....But he is where he needs to be now. He can read every word written on this site and is feeling the love. Know your words are read and felt by Eric.
Name: Hill
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17:40:19 08/15/03
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So i havent written in a while. It is still as hard as the day I found out. I feel as though I still haven't moved on to the point that I should be. I thought by now I could go through a day without crying, a minute without regret, and a second without thinking about you. But I cant say that I have. Your death has left such a huge hole in my heart. I drive by your house and I think of all the times we spent in your basement when we were little. I always hated legos and trains, but somehow, I guess you made them fun, becuase I always came back for more haha. There are times when I am so mad at the whole situation. About what people say, and how they act. In a way I think that this website should stop. It is turning into a chatroom, and what some people say is just rude and hurtful. I hate that people lie, and makeup stories to try to attach themselves to your life and death. I feel as though you cannot defend yourself and it's not fair. But I know that you are taking care of the people you love. People just want answers. So much is unresolved. But who are we to question your decision, god, and death. There is so much you are missing down here er. This whole experience has been life changing. I view my life and everyone elses as a gift. I know now that you cannot screw with people and their emotions, even if they put on a tough front. No one deserves to feel bad about themselves, and no one is worth feeling bad over. You didnt mean to hurt the people you did. You made a selfish decision, without thinking it through. I hurt so bad over you, everyone leaving, and just normal teenage "dramas". But I have way too much to live for, and so did you. I know you have some unfinished business you are tending to. Just get them done so you can get those much deserved angel wings. I always say if you came back here on earth and made your presence known to me, I would feel so lucky. And if I had just one second with you, I wouldn't ask you why, or what happened. I would just hug you and tell you bye, for that final time. I have gotten a completely different outlook on heaven and the afterlife after you died. I believe in you and everything unknown. I'm not scared for the first time in my life.
I am leaving for school in six days, and I am so worried about all of our friends. I just want them all to be safe. I feel like I need to protect everyone from their pain and from the world. I need every one of my friends and I need them to come home in one piece. You could have been something great Er. College or no college. You knew that! I feel blessed and lucky to have known you as long as I did, your death was nothing less then a tragedy. But i guess god had a much bigger plan for you. Bigger then anything we can fathom down here. You are forever in my heart Eric. I pray for you, I miss you, and I love you. My god grant you peace. Yours forever and always~
Hillary
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13:39:55 08/12/03
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Soo Graf...it's finally that time, we are all starting to leave for school or just moving on to different things. Thursday is the big day for alot of us. I knew this was gonna come but I never thought this time would actually be here. As excited as I am to go away to school and start this new part in my life I can't help but be sooo sad too. Im scared to leave everyone, all of these amazing people who have always been there for eachother especially through the loss of you. I have bonded with people and gotten so close to people that I never thought I would. I wish soo bad that you were here right now to experience this with all of us but I know you will be right there with all of us through all of our crazy and memorable times in the future because I know you have been right here with all of us this summer. Just watch over all of your friends and make sure we dont party too much or get too crazy and take care of us cause we aren't gonna be together all the time to look out for eachother. I still miss you more and more everyday but I know I will always have the memories and they are all soo great. Take special care of your family. So til next time Graf, I love with all of my heart!
Bridget
Name: Shannon
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03:05:36 08/11/03
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Hey Graf how ya do'n babe? Just thinkin about you n missin you like crazy still.. I think you have done an awesome job of watching out for all of your friends..Some of them are going off to school in less than a month, n some of them aren't.. but either way they're gonna need ya just the same. Love you Babe R.I.P.
Name: Alyse
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22:37:49 08/10/03
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Wow-Listen ive been thinking alot lately mostly about you and all the stuff thats happen to everyone over the past 4 months. And i cant seem to believe all this is real..it still seems like a dream for me..a horrible dream..I think about you alot and how many laughs you gave our criminology class, and the movie you made and showed us..I think the is the most funniest thing i have ever watched..Listen im gonna come visit you again real soon i promise..and im never gonna forget the shooting star me and the 4 others saw that nite.. That was the most amazing feeling ive ever felt..I miss you so much you have no idea and the tears keep commin, i just gotta remember your smile and you crazy hair and attitude and it makes me feel better..keep an eye out for all of us down here..and make sure theres plenty of room up there when i get there..i love you tonz..Say hello to Robert for me..
Your forever in our hearts...Love and prayers go out to his family and friends!!
~~Alyse
Name: Al
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03:51:09 08/10/03
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Well Graf, things are really crazy right now. Everyone's getting ready to leave, but I think now people are starting to realize how much their close friends really mean to them. It's just so weird to think that after so many years I have to pack up in 4 days and head out to Louisiana... (But you better believe you're going to be lovin' the crazy ruckus everyone is going to cause down at Mardi Gras, haha)... Sooooo much thinking has been done within this last month. And something happened the other day when I was in Texas and I had a minor relapse over you. No matter where I live, there will never be a day that goes by without you crossing my mind. Tonight was a really great night though. Bridge and I sat and talked for almost 6 hours. After at least 10 years with her, I wouldn't trade one of our talks for anything. Obviously we talked about our friends, school, the future, but most importantly you. You know, sometimes we slip and forget how many good times we really had with you. But fortunately for us, once you start with one, it just doesn't seem to end and we remember even better ones. Of course we still talk about the "whys", "I don't understands", and the "I hopes", but then we couldn't help but laugh when we remembered the skittles, disney sing alongs, singin in the rain, sleep watchin', glasses searching, guitar playing, loaner phones, and the list never seemed to end. But I think the best thing we talked about was the grrrrrreat hugs you gave. You know man, there are very few people who know how to hug us the right way, but you were clearly at the top of the list, haha... But as much as I'm going to miss those hugs, I would much rather know that you're watching over everyone happy as you always hoped to be. Keep smiling though kid, it's a lot more comforthing than you'll ever know. Well anyways, I just thought I would let you know how much you helped me shake off some pretty shitty stress this evening. Just talking about the day you got your hair cut does wonders! haha... Well you little angel, thanks for everything you give me everyday, and I really hope you're as happy as you always wanted to be.
I love ya Eric...
~Al
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03:34:18 08/10/03
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hey eric i miss you a bunch and think about you all the time even though it has been a while since i have written anything. we had a lot of crazy times and good laughs together, and those are memories that i will carry with me forever! i miss you and i love you.
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23:14:12 08/09/03
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The pain takes along time to heal...the memories never leave our heart.
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23:01:15 08/09/03
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i hope u r havin fun up there save a spot for me rite next 2 u R.I.P
Name: galvo
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02:24:52 08/08/03
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hey graf how have you been? i've been alright shits not all that gr8 but you know it happens. i just want you to know that i still think of you everyday and i know your friends do too. just watch out for us make sure were not being that stupid. i love ya
Name: phill
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20:27:30 08/07/03
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i havent wrote in a while, but i try to visit daily just to read some of the things people have to say about u. u were the funniest kid i've ever met. whenever im down, i just picture u doin some crazy random shit, and sure enough a smile comes to my face. i've been thinkin how much different the summer would have been w/u around. but dont worry, ur not missing nothing. u were one of the greatest kids to be around at all times. just a 17 year old kid living it up. i dont believe for one moment u were crying for help. u were just tryin to have a good time and live life to the fullest. sure to everyone else u made a wrong decision. no one knew what was going through your mind, no one knew what had happened that day to set you over the edge. and no one will ever know. but in your heart thats what u wanted. so i hope your watching over your family for me and moving on in a better place. rest in peace freebird
Name: Just a Friend
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18:29:12 08/07/03
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Graf~ A day really doesn't go by where I don't end up thinking about you. We weren't close...a hello whenever we saw each other, some great memories in track. But that's really all I needed. People were so impacted by you...you really have no idea. Well, I bet you do now. I was thinkin about you today and I kept replaying the memory in my head about when you broke that light during track...haha or when we would all have our little "talks" that led to stories about pop rocks and altoids. LoL. Everyone is heading off to school, growing up. It's kind of sad. I'll never see half those people again. I miss u Eric! We all miss you...I saw "how to deal" a little while ago and there's this part where her friend dies and they're at the funeral and stuff....it was heartbreaking to me. I couldn't stop crying. Losing someone is so hard. The pain will eventually fade....but for now it's just not.
Name: Kristie
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06:27:36 08/06/03
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Well Eric, I've been thinking about you a lot lately.. not really sure why, but it doesn't really matter. Hope everything's goin alright for you.. I'll have to make sure I visit you sometime soon again, I miss that, and it always made me feel so much better.But it's 5 something in the morning so I should probably go to sleep, I just wanted to say Hi and I love you. <3
Name: Hey Graf
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02:23:08 08/05/03
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Hey graf, still thinkin bout u no doubt i miss u buddy. Everybody is gonna be heading off to college or work and goin there seperate ways just keep watching over all of us and we'll NEVER forget u Eric u touched all our lives in differnt ways and made us smile even when we were feelin down and that's what everyone will NEVER forget about u.
Name: Graf
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23:18:37 08/04/03
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hey eric...today i heard the song that plays on your webpage and whenever i hear that i always think of you. i dont know if i think good things or bad things. i guess i just think about how i felt when i heard what happened and how everyone gathered around that tree one day. whenever i come to your webstie i cry. its habbit. i have thought before about suicide and i dont know if id do it or not? it just seems that when life really sucks thats the only way. but i dont really know if i could actually go that far. it scares me to think that when i pass someone in the hallway at school they may be gone tomorrow. and that scares the crap outta me! i wish i knew you well enough before to just talk to you and work through stuff! grrr. i wanted to be there for you. sorry i know i dont make any sense right now but ya. im so sorry that you felt the way you did and im praying for all your friends and family.
Name: Krystin
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23:16:41 08/04/03
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Hey Eric-
What is up? How has it been up there? I know it has been a long time and I apologize. I really don’t know where to start when I write these boards. I find it hard I guess to write down what I feel. I have been thinking about you so much lately. I saw you dad driving the other day. I wanted to tell him to pull over so I could give him a big hug, but he probably would have called the cops or something thinking I was a wacko. Ha-ha. It is really funny if you visualize it. I watched a movie a while back that made me think of you too, I was pretty upset and I pray that you are partying it up, up there. Did you see me driving to Joliet by myself? Yeah I was pretty freaked out and than I came across Challenge Park!!! I was like OMG!! I cooled down after i saw that. I than watched a sequel to the movie that freaked me out and made me think of you and everyone else i have known and lost throughout the last couple of years and i was freaked out even more. I just want you to know that even though i don't post messages all the time that you are always in my prayers, and that I think about you. How could I not...I mean you're Eric Graf. :) Everyone is starting to leave for school, and say there goodbyes and it is getting pretty rough. I guess in a way I ignored a lot of people this summer to avoid it being really hard. I just wanted to let you know wherever I am, whatever I may do in my life I will always be thinking about you and I will never forget you. You made an impact on so many people including myself and I am so grateful for that. I love and miss you....Watch over all of your loved ones….
XOXO
Krystin
Name: Jenny Graham
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20:19:30 08/04/03
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Graffy~ Im leaving for school tomorrow! it is soo crazy i never thought this day would come! So yea the summer ended pretty good for me.....Grant had a party the other night and it was pretty awesome! I wish you would have been there it would have been even more fun i know! I miss you soo much and there is not one day that goes by that I dont think about you! I cant stop thinking about all the memories we have and all the fun times. Everyone is getting ready to go to school soon.....soo make sure you look out for everyone cause we will all need it! and if you could do me a favor and tell Mrs Jean I said hi that would be awesome! oh Graffers i hope you are having tons of fun now! and i will still write you while I am away! See some day again! love and miss you~Jenny :)
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14:36:03 08/04/03
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You Were Loved Dearly by Many People.....
Its Just Sad You Had To Leave........To Erics Family and Friends.................
Eric Is Soaring Up in The Sky Now Makin Peace With God.........Hes In Good Hands................Just Keep You Faith and Never Give up........Eric Loves You and He Always Will.....
Your Friend
Name: cait
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14:25:48 08/04/03
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hey buddy...i was just thinkin about you of course and i thought i would let you know. the other day hillary and i were talking, and we were talking about how everyone is getting set to leave and how weird it is that we have no control over it...and even though it's exciting it's also frustrating, but nowhere near as frustrating and painful as losing you. not only did we not have any control, but your leaving was final...and feeling better about that is still yet to happen. i love you so much kid and i miss you everyday. there is such a huge void in all of our lives. i wasn't ready to say goodbye yet. a lifetime is a long time to wait to see someone again, but i'm willing to wait. i can't wait to see you again sometime, and knowing that i will is what keeps me going. keep everyone safe as we head out, i'll talk to you soon buddy...
love caitp.s. there isn't anything i wouldn't do for an eric sandwich right now! :)
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11:51:43 08/04/03
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Graf talked to everyone so leave good messagaes bout Graf he would of wanted that. Love u Graf.
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10:50:20 08/04/03
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i think it is just as rude and ingnorant to tell everyone to hurt and harrass someone even further.. you have the freedom to express how you feel just as much as the next person. if you have a problem with someone than say something, but do not make it a point to try to ruin someone lives and bring more hatred in the world. When does everyone stop getting angry and start making a difference? This website is becoming a target for people to take out their anger and frustration on the next person. And i KNOW graf would not want this...
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10:48:47 08/04/03
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Hey eric i've been thinkin bout u a lot right now and i miss u a lot u always put a smile on my face everytime i saw u. I come on this site everyday to read what ppl wrote and i dont understand why anyone would make stupid ass comments bout ur death. If they knew u they wouldnt. U were a GREAT guy and touched so many lives. Nobody will ever forget u. Just keep watchin over all of us. Love u eric R.I.P.
Name: Natalie
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00:44:18 08/04/03
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Sup graffmeister!! Wow kid! It's been so weird. I don't know why, but lately I've been thinkin about you a lot, and reading this a lot. I know we weren't the best of friends, and we haven't shared that many memories, but er, the few times we did hang out, you were incredible! I also realize that it was 2 or 3 years ago, but i remember a few things like it was just yesterday. I remember when I was soooo upset because I got dumped by the first person I had ever thought I was in love with, and you were there...ALWAYS, whenever I was upset you'd pop up! and your killer smile was so contageous, no matter how upset anyone was, it was impossible not to smile in your presence. I know I told you that if you ever needed anything, i'd be there for ya, and I meant it. Ya know, these past few years i've really gotten in touch with God, and more religous than I ever was, and if it wasn't for that, I would probbaly not have bene able to make it through these past few years. Its funny, my mom doesn't usually remember many of my friends, unless they are here ALL the time...but for some reason, she rememberd you when I described you. I don't know if it was the bright red hair :), or if it was the killer smile, or if it was the glow and happiness that you brought into a room, but no1 can forget you. Ya know, God has a plan for all of us, and maybe this was his plan. Look at how many people you've touched, helped, and even saved. You're job on earth has clearly been done, almost. You still have all of your friends and fam to watch out for. I like to think that when it rains outside, it's our friends' and family's happy tears flowing down from heaven, showing us that everything is going to be ok, and telling us that they are fine. That might be why I love storms so much. But my cousin that I take care of is petrified of storms, and i made him come outside with me to play in the rain so he could see that nothing was going to hurt him. I let him in on my little secret, and he just looked up and smiled. Eric, a lot of people that are writing on this page did not know you, a lot of people were your good friends, and some like me were friends or aquaintances, but not so close anymore. Sometimes I think "maybe I should have been closer with him and I could have helped him", but ya know what? I was so lucky to have had the opportunity to at least know such a great person for sometime, rather than never. A lot of times, when someone passes away, it seems they turn into a perfect saint, never to have had any bad qualities, which we all know isn't always true. Not for you though, we truly can't find a single bad quality abotu you at all. and I do love you. I hope that now oyu can realize how much so many really did care abotu you. well kiddo, thanks for letting me babble. It makes me feel better. Love ya,
Good night Grafferz!!!
~Natalie Carlascio
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12:43:13 08/03/03
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u r missed so much eric just keep watchin over ur friends
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02:13:35 08/03/03
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u r missed so much eric...but i know ur lookin down on all of us - cya in heaven some day-
Name: Nick
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20:11:06 08/02/03
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hey... i never met u i didnt go to your school but i feel the same way as all your friends do. altough u r in a better place now u will be missed by many.
Name: Eric
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15:30:48 08/01/03
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hi.. i never knew you although i feel as if ive been touched, i dont even live in the same state, although ive read many of the messages that many of your friends have left and you seems like you were a great person. I got this site from a friend that went to your school. I guess im writing to say hi. As sad as all your friends must be i do know this, your in a better place...if you all dont mind ill leave another message later after i read the new messages.
Name: an old friend
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01:00:38 08/01/03
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Hey old buddy! How are ya? sorry it's been a long time, but I miss ya a lot. Actually, on july 3rd I went to see the fireworks w/ m y friend, and one of the songs playing were this song on your webpage. it's so realistic huh er? I mean, sometimes, I still can't beleive it, and a couple times i could have sworn that I saw you, but obviously i didn't....But whenever this song comes on or I hear it, SOOOOO Many memories come to mind, and that's great. Sometimes you don't know what you have until it's gone, and I'm just happy that I do have these memories to think about. I really miss you. You were an Angel sent to all of us from God, and now, you've earned your wings. I'm really sorry that you were so upset. I mean, I know I get really upset sometimes, and just cry uncontrolably for no one reason, it just happens...but through everything, I just can't understand why you wanted to do what you did, but I guess we won't ever understand, huh er? Well It's all in God's plan and stuff, and I know you are up there watchin over your family and friends. But just let me tell you, Watch over your friends. Everyone is getting ready to either go away to school, or stay here and go to school, or wokr or whatever...but these next few years are vital, and I just pray that you watch over them, and don't let them party it up too much, make sure they are all ok. I love you er! and I miss you so much, but I know i'll see you again someday, and just watch over em, and help me, and I'll write here again soon. Love ya big red! **********PS....
To the someone who needs help who said she was feeling the way eric was and stuff....let me just tell you...I don't know if I know you or not, but either way, Im me or Emial me or something. Because ya know what sweetheart, Life is such a phenomenal gift, and no matter what you think, there are so many people who care about you. I could be a perfect stranger and I Care about you. If you need to talk, I'm totally here for you. you don't even have to tell me who you are if you don't want, but just don't do anything to hurt yourself. Just think if I, a stranger cares, look at how many people around you who you know cares, huh? For real babe, Don't ever think that you aren't appreciated, because i'm tellign you...YOU ARE! you bring happiness to all of your friends and family. I can just tell, b/c you said how happy everyone always see's you as...well when I see someone who's happy...it's contageous, and makes me happy. You bring sanity, love, and kindness to those who are close to you, and they appreciate it, even if they don't mention it to you...they do! so for real kiddo, Email me, and We'll talk. ok? good luck!
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00:30:13 08/01/03
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Memories of love is what creates a new and deeper love of what life is about. Losing one we love creates an open heart of knowing what love really means. Missing Eric is his way of showing you to understand what love really means.
Name: ~K.L.~
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10:40:55 07/31/03
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Eric~
"We do not know the true value of our moments until they have undergone the test of memory." You are and always were amazing Eric... I miss you and think of you always...You'll be in my heart forever! Here’s one of my favorite songs that I want to dedicate to you.. It’s by aerosmith and its called “Angel”, and every time I hear it I think of you, because your truly my Angel.. I Love You !!!
~Aerosmith-"Angel"~
I'm alone, yeah, I don't know if I can face the night
I'm in tears, and the cryin' that I do is for you
I want your love, let's break the walls between us
Don't make it tough, I'll put away my pride
Enough's enough, I've suffered and I've seen the light
Baby,
(Chorus)
You're my Angel, come and save me tonight
You're my Angel, come and make it alrigt
You're my Angel, come and save me tonight Don't know what I'm gonna do about this feelin' inside
Yes, it's true, loneliness took me for a ride
Without your love, I'm nothing but a beggar
Without your love, a dog without a bone
What can I do, I'm sleepin' in this bed alone Baby,
(Chorus) You're the reason I live
You're the reason I die
You're the reason I give
When I break down and cry
Don't need no reason why Baby, baby, baby
(Repeat Chorus) ~K.L.~
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01:00:38 07/30/03
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Hey Eric, Hows it going up there?
Have you met all the people up there yet? What's Elvis like? HAHA We all miss you bunches Eric! I hope to see you one day, but hopefully not anytime soon. You live on through the lives you touched and the memories you gave all of us.
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00:56:10 07/30/03
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Hey Er,We hardly knew each other but I still miss ya like crazy. I wonder what its like up in Heaven?? prolly a huge ass party huh?! Last month I was in a car accident....I was hit by a semi....had the semi hit me a lil harder and went like a fourth of an inch more...my gas tank woulda exploded and I prolly woulda died....but for sum reason my life was spared that day and there was an angel or 2 watchin over me and my mom. I kno that my life was spared because I havent done my job fully yet and my purpose here hasnt been fullfilled. Im sure had I died that day that I would b up there straight chillin' with ya and prolly woulda thought it was the greatest thing but Im so glad I didnt die that day because theres so much here I love, no matter what happens.
Im sure that you were one of the angels that were watchin over me that day, along with my Grampa.
Thanks for that. I see your friends around and I think how hard it must b for them. Its tuff for everyone but for ur close friends its gotta b like a part of them died with u that day.
I wish there was sumthin sumone coulda dun that day but I kno that there wasnt....u did what u did cuz it was what u thought was the only solution. I love you Graf!! Thanks for watchin over all of us down here and plz continue to do so. Well Im gunna go now.
Tell my grampa hi and that i miss him n love him like crazy. Ciao
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23:47:28 07/29/03
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Loving a person of good spirit is what life is all about. Remembering, loving and feeling the good memories of a wonderful person born to share some time with us. We need to be thankful for that gift. There are no promises on time. Keep this love and cherish it for that is what Eric was here for.
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00:18:54 07/29/03
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Hey Graf hunnie! Whats goin on? welp, this summer has gone by so fast, too much stuff to do, too little time! I jus wanted to let ya kno I haven't stopped thinkin bout you...ur still in my heart...you always will be! I hope ur keepin it real still! Love ya hun. we all still miss ya like crazy!
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05:44:18 07/28/03
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hi eric, just wanted to let ya know we all still miss ya. i find myself sometimes feelin like you probably did, no one can truly understand til they hav been there. it is hard bein a person im not n im an aduldt you were a child. know you are missed n i do understand. look out for us precious angel
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03:48:15 07/28/03
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Whats up man?..Yeah its been a while since ive written to you..Its pretty damn crazy to realize that summer is almost over and that everyone is parting on their seperate ways in less than a month now. There has definately been a substantial void left in the summer though. That would be you of course. The only crazy kid who could party like no other and who could make a group of thirty people laugh at the spark of a smart ass joke. God i miss you man. No one will ever forget you. Every day it seems like i see at least 10 white crown vics driving around town. And every time i see one i think of the crazy night you rescued me and bookhout after his car broke down on us at 2 in the morning. That had to be the coldest night of the winter and if u woldnt have shown up we would have froze to death...Eric Graf...A guy anyone can count on....I know you are watchin out for us from the heavens above just like you did when you were here with the rest of us... Love you and Miss you man.
--Cofax--
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23:20:23 07/27/03
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hey buddy....how ya doin up there? Im sure u are doing great and I know that all pain is gone. So I have a week left before I leave for school....and i can honestly I think about you everyday and think how this summer just hasnt been the same without you. I cant believe this summer is almost over, it has been fun! Graffy i miss you so much....everyday when i lay out i just think about John Werns house when we were tanning haha! That was so funny, we put on all the flippers and everything ha! And you know everytime I see a mustang I think of you, cause i still owe you a Jenny made car haha.....I always tell Joe that someday Ill make one ha even tho it will never happen. well graffers i think im gonna get goin.....i love you and miss you everyday! I know your havin a great time up there! Ill see u again someday! love~Jenny
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22:38:02 07/27/03
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dear eric i dont kno u and i hadnt heard of u ever until someone from ur skool came to my house and showed me this website i feel bad that u felt so alone that u had to make a decision like this that effected so many ppl i hope u rip god bless u eric
Name: lindsay ruiz
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17:14:20 07/27/03
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hey brothhhaa, ok so the other day i have the weirdest dream about you... ur gonna laugh.. probably .. ok so for some reason i was out to dinner with my family and i was balling about you being gone and "you" were right next to me comforting me ...at the dinner table.. but i didnt know it was you.. its hard to explain .. then we get our food and my whole family is pissed off cuz they all didnt get shit for food haha i happen to look over at your plate.. and it was HUGE... explain that? haha and u just kept on laughing cuz we all got jipped on our meals.. i dunno it was really weird hahahah... but maybe that is just tellin me that ur happy :) well i miss ya and always think about ya... r.i.p ericcccc Love Always, Lindsay
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14:40:14 07/27/03
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Hey Graf-
Just wanted to drop by 'n' say Hi.. Still missin you like CRAZY.. Everyone misses you more and more each day, but as long as I get to talk to you somehow, I guess I can deal. Love you Bunchez until we meet again :-DShannon
Name: Christie
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00:50:03 07/24/03
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It is pretty scary that suicide has become so common. I did not know Eric, or any of his friends. However I do know how everyone is feeling. A year and some months ago a good friend of mine comitted suicide also. I can tell you that the sadness will ease with time. Its been over a year and not a day goes by where I do not think of my beloved friend. You just have to look out for one another and make sure that something this tragic doesn't happen again. Dealing with a friend's death is the worst possible feeling in the world. Make sure that your friends that are still with you know that they will always have someone to confide in. Keep the memories alive, but try to get on in your lives and dont let Eric's death hold you back from doing something for yourself. He is your angel and will be watching over everyone from now on. Eric does not want to see you guys hurting like you are. There will always be the qustion "why" but no one but Eric has that answer! Just know that Eric loved each one of you guys and did not do this to try and hurt you. He felt as if there was no other way out. I am sorry that you guys had to feel the same pain that i did. Stay strong for your friends and your families. Best o luck to all of you!
Christie
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16:30:11 07/23/03
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Hey graf! its me again. i went to the movies yesterday to see "how to deal" and there was a seen in there where a young kid in highschool died and i just couldnt stop thinking about u! i cried and cried. Everyone else in the theartre acted like it was no big deal and i just couldnt stop crying. You are an awsome kid and i know that u are up in heaven not matter what any one else thinks...u are my angel and i always think about u and i know most of the time i cry when i do its just that it hurts me to think that i didn't get a chance to help u or become better friends with you. You impacted some many people's lives and u are still the graffers that jumped over the finish line at the end of the race ! i miss u bud! and i will see u in heaven when it is my time to go!! i hope that you are there waiting for all your friends and family with open arms and i know i will see u and be sooo releived to see you again! i ;ove u soo much and i wish u would have known how much everyone loved u b4 . i think about it sometimes and i just know that it is not the right thing for me. i love u kid and i look forward to talking to u in my prayers!!
love,
monica
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00:54:15 07/23/03
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Sometimes, we don't feel loved until we do something drastic in a young mind's way of not knowing the love left behind. Eric needed the attention he is now getting but he knows it is fom everyone feeling a little guilty. Now he knows better. He feels your love and he wants no one to feel bad. He knows and feels the love now, and that is what he needed.
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01:13:50 07/22/03
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GRAF~ LOOK HOW MANY PEOPLE MISS YOU!!!! I DONT UNDERSTAND AND I NEVER WILL!!!! I just hope all your pain is gone! You deserve the best!
miss you and love you
Name: Lauren
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14:42:25 07/21/03
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Hey eric, thanks for showing me you were ok the other night.. I had probably one of the best dreams i've ever had.. It took me awhile ot write about, but it's ok.. I truly think that it was u in my dream, and not just a collection of my thoughts from the previous day. I called my mom as soon as i woke up and told her about the dream, so i wouldn't forget it. Well i dreamt that we were going to a dance together and u were waiting for me on a sidewalk, and everyone was all dressed up saying who are you going with lauren who are you going with.. but for some reason i felt guilty saying because i didnt want anyone to think i was sharing the stage with u or something. but when i said it, everyone was like OMG ur so lucky! Eric Graf is great.. Then i saw you and you were wearing a pink tux.. hahah we were laughing and hugging and seriously like i was having fun in the dream.. i dont usually hear much in my dreams, but it was you laughing.. you have a very distinct laugh... i was cracking up. I woke up, and i was at complete peace, and then i realized u were gone, and it all tumbled down. I want to tahnk you for being there, making me realize that you are happy and are in a better place.. I love u eric, never forget that
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00:27:33 07/21/03
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I haven't been able to write you yet and its not because i didnt have the time it is because i really needed to think about what i was going to say. I believe a happy birthday is in order, and i bet some of you are thinking that i am just a littl late, but dont worry i wished it upon him on the exact day. Well, what can i say? i seriously still think about u all the time. It makes me sick to my stomache because i miss u sooo incredibly much. I may not have known you all through high school or before that, but i know and i believe you know that the time we did spend together was unbelievable. You will always be my GRAFFERS, and i know you know that also. But there is one thing that i will truly miss about you. Your ability to listen to my every problem and make me feel like everything in my life was still perfect even though that one little thing ( and i think u know who im talking about) was ruining my life at the time. I just wish that i could have helped you out the same way that you had helped me out all of those times. Iwill never forget your ability to make me laugh. and your smile. you had a KILLER SMILE! How was it that we would always find each other even at the craziest parties, and just sit there like we were the only ones there and have the best conversations each time. Ill never forget our project. I sitll thank you for all of the hard work that you put into it, even if we didnt get that A we desrved. Oh i went and saw dumb and dumberer! i know u wanted to see that bc that is all you talked about for a long time. and guess what!? it was just a stupid as i told u it would be. But im sure u were right there with me watchin it! Hey! i just rememberd, u still owe me a ride in your sex machine. Ill never forget the day u came up to the school and into my work ,with carona beads on to boot, drunk off your ass, just so you could take me for a ride in the "stang"! and every night u would call me when you were heading home , too drunk to drive which i yelled at you for every time, telling me you were comming over at like 2:00 in the mornin even tho you knew that i would tell you you couldnt! i admire how you kept trying!!! you no i still think about that time at donkel's. ill never forget it. I never ever told u and i wished i had, but u know what i am talking about bc we talked. Thanks for helpin me out that night a while ago. i needed it and i know you were there i felt you. Oh hey you can stop givin me crap now about the paper and everything bc you have your own record standin i see! hehehe :-) sitting in my computer room i keep thinking of the time when my sister was in here and we were in my room and you took your shirt of and came in here and started dancing and flexing for her! she still talks about that to this day! you were pretty ripped if i do say so! well babe i guess i just really want to say that im going to miss your hugs, the way you halped me with all my probs, and just your prescence bc u had one like no other will ever have! i love you baby and i miss you soooooo much. I can't wait to join you! keep a place for me on the track! mmuuuaaahhh! r.i.p. GRAFFERS
forever and always-
nic
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12:53:47 07/20/03
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last night was another big blow of reality...we saw a real bad movie, haha, but at one point it really upset me...this kid dies in it, and in the movie it's not super sad, because they don't really dramatize it much, but i found myself losing it because i was sitting there watching all these kids going to a funeral, crying about their friend...if you hadn't passed away i probably wouldn't have cried, it's just a movie, but the fact that that was something we had to do made me fall apart. i miss you so so so much eric. i would give anything in the world to have one more day with you. when i was babysitting the other day i looked out the window, and i noticed that that was where you me and hillary made our eric sandwich just a few weeks before, and talked about how crazy it was graduation was coming when we had been friends for so long. it just made me cry thinking about the viod you've left. when i go by matt's i just think about kick the can haha, or hillary's basketball hoop in the bank parking lot. us dodging cops because it was like 9:15 and we were at a time in our lives where that was a curfew violation! :) oh and by the way, i know you were taking care of us last night when we got pulled over last night...cause we definitely would have been screwed. i'm sure you heard me and ame thanking you the whole way home! i miss you buddy, and i always will...love you kid
-cait
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10:22:48 07/20/03
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ive been reading your messages and they are all so sweet, im sorry for your loss. i didnt know eric but it makes me sad reading all your memeories and fun times with him, if this is too much 2 ask its okay, but i was wondering ...how did he die?
Name: lindsay ruiz
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21:51:39 07/19/03
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hey buddy, well i never got the chance to write a full blown message.. but you see me praying for ya every night.. i go to the site every day now so i just wanted to say that you are soooo missed and everyone loves you so very much. You will never be forgotten. Soon when i can collect my thoughts ill write the "big" one. Just want you to know that we may not have been the best of friends but i think about you every day. Some things that i want to say iwould rather just tell you when i go to bed at night.. so be watchin out for it... Love Always, Lindsay Ruiz
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03:28:44 07/19/03
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g money, its been a while since i wrote u. . .always thinkin bout u tho bro. its crazy how i hear the coldplay song and i automatically think of u, its always on the radio and mtv now. ill never forget u man. on my fball spikes i got a big 423 in bright orange in memory of u. . . i know ur watchin over all of us makin sure we dont do nothin too stupid. .
but thats it for no man. i can picture u singing dust in the wind on the clouds with blue. . . U LOOK GLORIOUS haha. . but til than. . ill holla
Name: Bridget
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20:52:59 07/18/03
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Hey Graf, me Hillary and Julie went out to the cemetary to see you today. We didnt wanna have to search for you because we all thought you were in different places so we went straight to the office and they told us. We brought you some flowers, orange ones of course, that we took from peoples yards haha I know you liked that one. I know it's really hard for alot of people to go to your grave but going today made me feel better i dont know why cause it was really hard for me last time. I think about you all the time and I miss you like crazy and I always will. Look out for us and let this last month for all of us to be together be a good one cause it's gonna be hard leaving everyone. I love you soo much!
Bridget
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16:45:16 07/17/03
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Graf,Wut's up buddy. I'm just sittin around chillin and I got to thinkin' about ya. Just wish I coulda seen ya walk across that stage and be out with us every night partyin this summer. I miss you a lot man, I'm just glad you're in a better place. Every time I throw hole 12 I look up to ya and give ya a wink bro, although you totally swatted my disc down the other day when I thought I was gunna have a good shot....haha, I luv ya kid. I feel like your always watchin over us and its a good feeling, keep it real man, I'll write ya back soon
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13:37:33 07/17/03
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Please, this is solely eric's site, not a messageboard. Any random comments about anyone else will b e promptly deleted. This site is SOLELY for memories of eric, nothing else.
Name: Krystina Lewis
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11:17:09 07/17/03
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A life, a story,
a brother, a friend.
I still can't reason why,
your journey had to end.
I try not to get angry.
Gee, how I've tried.
I've tried to see your anguish,
and the pain you felt inside.
But there is a certain stigma,
its something I wish I'd never heard,
I wish that it just wasn't possible,
I wish that there was no such word.
Because life can be a roller coaster,
most times its a bumpy ride,
but why did you have to get off,
and choose to suicide ?
Graf is such a handsome guy
he was the apple of your eye.
You loved him so very much,
but he also keeps asking "Why ?"
I know that your life,
was cut way too short,
I've tried adding up the logic,
and at times it comes to naught.
You were always searching for something,
but I'm not quite sure what,
you did everything with a passion,
you gave it your very best shot.
And life is not forever,
time only goes one way,
and everyone will leave this earth,
everybody has that day.And all that is ever left,
are the memories to hand,
to treasure against the tides of time,
like footprints in the sand. * Everyone here miss you, and thinks of you on a daily basis... Your memories you've created for everyone will live on forever* I Love You Graf! R.I.P.
xoxoxoxox - Love, Krystina
Name: Lauren
E-Mail: laurenpatrizi@yahoo.com
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12:19:23 07/16/03
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Hey Eric,
I was going to write yesterday, but I felt like I couldn't so I waited until today.. Yesterday hillary and I went to the cementary to come see you, we couldn't find you tho haha.. You were probably laughing your ass off.. The heat was blistering and I was tired so i just popped down and there was this little branch thing in the ground that just somehow beckoned me, I think that may have been where you were. I dont mean to be morbid or anything, but I know you've been gone way too long.. The last time we were at the cementary the grass was still fresh and your spot was clearly marked, and just like the passing days, we cant seem to find you.. There was no spot where you had been, it was just sort like you were there, but we had no idea where u were. It was an awful feeling... Hill and I talked about you almost both car rides. When we werent talking about u, it was about college, and those two things paired are heartbreaking. We miss you so much Eric, I feel like my heart is tugging on you to come back, we know you can't.. Hillary said that she finds great comfort with you gone, that there is someone always looking after her.. And i guess that made me feel a little better.. I dont feel you as much as i used to, but i know you're there when i'm upset.. I was thinking about it the other day, you were the most true frankfort guy, you never changed, you were always fundamentally who you were since you were 5.. I think that's why everyone loves you so much. You were never phony or fake, you were always Eric Graf. Hillary and I also discussed something about you.. Some people only know you as the partying graf, or the crazy graf, and while you could be all of those things, I dont think those people could ever feel the essence of who you truly were. Sure you liked to have a good time like anyone of us, but that is not who you were. You were a caring, loving, funny, energetic, boisterous, and very much alive person. It is no wonder we feel such a loss with you gone. Miss you. xoxox
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22:55:32 07/15/03
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Hey er~Well, I am sitting here crying of course, and I just cant stop missing you and thinking about how different things could have been if you were still here with us! Me and Lauren went to the cemetary today, and your stone wasnt there and there was no marker so we couldn't find you. I was so upset and I still am. I just felt like I lost you. But I know that you will always be with me. I am so scared for everything in my life. I really do need you so much. I feel so lonely sometimes. And i need to talk to you. Because you would always make me feel better. I was watching that show Real Life, I'm a higschool senior, the other day. And these kids all looked so happy. Going to their prom, graduating, and just having fun. When I look back on my higschool experience, I dont remember anything, but losing you. That is neither a good or bad thing. It's just that none of our friends deserved this. For as long as I live you and your death will be a HUGE part of my life. I will carry it with me forever. I just wish that I could have you back. If just for a second. Just to hug you and to touch your hair, and to hear your laugh. I hate this feeling of helplessness and emptiness. I just remember having to physically hold myself back from throwing myself on your casket and never letting go. I didn't want to have to say goodbye like that. But you left me with no choice. Your life was such a gift. How could you throw that all away? You know you could have been something so great. Things would have gotten better. Things always get better. You have left such a hole in my heart. God I love you so much. I know that I will see you someday in heaven. I have way to much to live for right now. but when it is my time, and god calls for me. I will come running, because I know you will be waiting for me with open arms. And that is the most comforting thing I can think of. This has been the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with in my life. I just keep hearing my mom say over and over, "Something happened to Eric". And all I remember after that was collapsing. Everyone said that this would get easier. And it really doesn't. I just hate that our lives are going on without you. But we have to go on. Nothing will take away this pain that I feel expect time, because I have come to realize, that you just aren't coming home. It's so hard, but I know you are with the angels now. And I would rather be in all the pain in the world, just to take away your pain. So I am going to try and go to sleep. I will see you in my dreams. All my love forever and ever. One of your two favorite frankfort girls;) Hill
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22:36:22 07/15/03
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Hey Eric,Its been a while since I wrote, been busy. Cant believe its been months since ya left us....seems like only yesterday. I only talked to you for a short while in jr year but you changed my life. You always made everyone laugh and maybe that was your life goal was to change lives and make people laugh, if it was you sure did a great job of it. Im sorry it all had to end the way you did and Im sorry I didnt get to know you better. I do think about you alot and I feel sad for those who were REALLY close to you. I know that you are up there watching over all of us and I thank you for that. I miss ya even though we didnt know each other that well and I still cry for ya. well talk to ya soon kid. Love,
Mellody
Name: Jake Curran
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19:06:17 07/15/03
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Graf...
Whats up man? Your prolly chillin with the angels now livin the life that you wanted....i just wanted to say i still think about you all the time...and that i WILL see you another day...DEFINITLY!...aight man..Keep on smiling!:)Jake
Name: rachel
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03:50:32 07/15/03
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well graf the final move is a month away and its getting harder to deal with leaving everyone. before april 23rd, i hadn't thought about it because i just wanted to finish highschool but every day since is just a reminder that i can lose any one of my friends just like that. now that im leaving all of them i feel like any bit of you that i still kept with me is being taken away too.. it scares me when i think ive forgotten a time we chilled at the fort, or in my basement, or even in class but it always makes it easier being with everyone cuz i know they feel the same pain. but what about when we're all over graf just sittin there alone thinking about you? that scares me more.. it hurts too bad just losing you.. maybe this is the fear and pain you were trying to avoid. graf, i miss you the most of course but i also miss the life i had when you were here. knowing you were a phone call and two minute drive away comforted me but i only realized it when you left. so i guess cherish every moment with the friends that are still here cuz nothing is forever right? god i miss you-love rachel
Name: B.J.
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03:15:08 07/15/03
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Hey Graf,
Yeah it's been awhile.....track sucked without you this season. Your record is still holding strong. I don't anyone is going to beat it. Remember at the last outdoor track meet instead of just running across the finish line you jumped like a fair. I wish i had a camera. Man i wish we got to know each other better. I have fond memmories of track and to bad there can't be anymore. I'm going to miss you kid. Man it won't be the same without you next year. But hey watch over your family and close friends up there. I wish we could've got closer and became friends but i can't change that...so i'll miss you...and i keep you in my heart and memmories forever.
If any one wants to talk or is sad and depressed in anyway just call or chat with me.....even if i don't know you. 708-479-4958....I know what he went through i was close to doing this myself so please i'm here for you.
Name: Shannon
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01:59:50 07/15/03
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Hey Graf-How ya doin buddy? Its been awhile since I came just to say hi.. So I decided to write you.. I cant believe its almost been 3 months since you've been gone.. Its a short amount of time, but so hard to believe. I miss ya Graf.. Thanks for helpin' Nick.. We all appreciate it.. Until I write again.. Goodnight Graf I love you xoxo
Name: Julie Dominy
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14:27:52 07/14/03
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Eric...yeah I know...Hah I just left a message...but I didn't feel like the last message was good enough...so I decided to come back. It's going on 3 months now man...and I feel like it was yesterday when I felt that knife cut through me...but then again i feel like its been years since I've seen your smile. It's weird how things turn out Er, everything is happening so fast now. It's already half way through the summer...everyone is growing up so quick. In about a month and a half...the majority of ppl are going to be leaving for college. It's crazy. This summer has been crazy....Foote is still Foote...getting retarded and driving...god I'm going to kill that kid Eric...he worries me to death. Matt thinks he is going to get a motorcycle...I told him that I doubted it. Haha...but ya know it could happen I guess....I was thinking about all the fun times we've had...and I think I need to remind you because when I was thinking about it...I was laughing so hard...so maybe you need a laugh. Remember when we were at the fort...and everyone was getting so wasted and me and you were just sitting in front of the fire...and out of nowhere you told me that if you had to live off of one food...you thought it would be smores even though marshmellows weren't you're favorite. But you would live off of them bc it's so fun to make smores. So we got two sticks and sat in front of the fire roasting pretend marshmellows...and someone...I think it was Maggie...goes "What the hell are you guys doing"...and we're like ehh don't worry about it. And when we were talking about nicknames and I called you Grafferz and you go fine then I get to call you Dommerz...and then you told me that I was a serial killer bc of the way that sounded...I'm like c'mon dude...JEFFREY DOMMER...and you thought you were so damn funny...haha...or in gym class...when we would play my brother's team in volleyball...and whenever anyone would mess up...you and Marty would stomp around screaming haha...or when you and Dustin were badminton partners....and me and maggie played you and you told me that you were ont he badminton team and I f'n believed you haha you little shit...or when Dustin would laugh at me before I served or when I was in the front...and only you believed that I could spike the ball regardless of my height challenge. Those are just a few I'm sure I could go on for days...but yeah...think about the fun times you've had with everyone...keep them as a memory forever...I know we all will!
Until we meet again...
I love you!
Julie Dominy
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13:48:02 07/14/03
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Grafferz...What's up buddy....sorry it's been awhile...but you know how it is. This summer is flying by Eric....like it's going just so damn fast. And I can't help but think of the crazy shit we would all be doing with you, if you were still with us. But things change...and people have to deal with it. And I'm doing my best. Yeah I get angry and upset...but knowing that you are happy now...makes me so much more at ease. I love you Grafferz!
Love, Dommerz
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00:38:54 07/14/03
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Graf... I just got done ready all the new messages on your site and it's so crazy how all of us are always feeling the same way and we all have the same emotions and questions running through our heads. The Whys? the What ifs? the constant question of was there anything we could have done to stop this but most of all the unbearable amount of pain in our hearts for the loss of one of our best friends. It's just not the same down here, I know everyone has said this soo many times but it's only because it is soooo sooo true. I see it in everything i do, whoever I am with and wherever I go, it's different. It's like nothing is done to it's fullest, the parties aren't as fun, the laughs aren't as genuine, and the smiles have faded. Graf it's amazing the impact you have on people! I miss you like crazy! One last laugh with you Graf is what I want and one last time to see your smile. I know that day will come when we will all be able to laugh and chill with you again so until then I love you, I miss you and watch over us all especially your mom dad and dave, make them strong!
all my love
Bridget
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03:12:28 07/13/03
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Sometimes the sorrow goes deep with the happy face of a clown. Eric always wanted to be the happy one for all of you but couldnt any longer. No one is to feel guilty. He just couldnt live a lie any more...he wasn't happy inside and had no more to give.
Name: cait
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02:50:28 07/13/03
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another one of those nights i just can't seem to get you off of my mind...i've been thinking a lot about you the last couple days, but not the smile i crack when i light a cigarette with my orange lighter, or think of something insane we did when we were little...right now all i can think of is how much i miss you and how badly i want to see your face again. tonight me and hillary were talking about you, like always, and we just said how it's not getting easier...i just still don't understand. and i would just give anything to have you back. in about six weeks we're all going to be saying goodbye to each other, but it's not fair. i never got to say goodbye to you, and i don't get to see you when i come home at christmas or whenever. anytime i think of you it just breaks my heart that i will never get to see you again. whenever i see or talk to your mom or dave i just look at them in awe, and then i feel selfish for hurting so bad because i can't even imagine how they must feel. your mom and pam sure do walk those dogs like crazy! but i'm glad they do... it's just that nothing feels right, because there is always a little piece missing in everything i do. all the big events that have taken place since you've been gone have been incomplete. my life is incomplete. you have left me with a void i simply cannot fill, yet it's also one i would never want to fill. you left some big shoes empty down here kid. BUT i find solace in the fact that you feel nothing but happiness now...i love you so much eric, and i miss you buddy
love cait
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