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Name: Bijan once again
E-Mail: Kurt4ever69@aol.com
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21:17:20 04/29/03


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Hey man its Bij, we all miss you man, i left you a little note at your tree. it was crazy at school today. i basicly spent the day at your tree, just talking about memories, it was really nice jus talking about you. everyone loves you man. we need you back, but i know you will never be back. no one can measure up to you. you are the person you meet once and a life time, and i meet you but you left to soon. well Rest In Peace. Bij




Name: Cheyenne
E-Mail: Juliana32686@aol.com
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21:15:58 04/29/03


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Its so sad to read all of these messages i truly do not know eric but he sound soooooo cool i am only in 5th grade and i new 2 people who died and it was ver sad so i dont know how you could live
one of my friends friend kelly died in the school gym while telling the gym teachers sumthing her heart just stopped and so when we had cheerleading practice in that gym girls were scared to go in
and well i do not know the story or Eric but someone needs to tell me so leave me a message at Prettyprincesscr@netscape.net
and i am very deeply sorry about eric he seems increidible
so i dont even know him and i am crying just i hope you guys get though this and just pray he is watching over you because that whould be an honer!
my smypathy goes to the friends and family and everyone else who new him
even is u wernt his friend im sure you wish you were
so stay safe and my ssiter best friend died in a car crash and later we found out he was my cousin
so sty safe once again and just pray!!!




Name: Nick Pizza
E-Mail: Nick0202@aol.com
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21:14:47 04/29/03


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Graf, I still cannot believe it. I still remember my rreaction when i got the news while i was on vacation. Ive never been in more shock in my life than i was for that moment. you have to be one of the funniest people ive ever known. every time wed run into each other, wed talk for the longest time and just laugh. i remember when i was working at jewel, id go over to jc flicks and chill with u while i was supposed to be getting carts. i knew id get in trouble, but it was worth the time i got to hang out with you. ill never fully understand why it happened, none of us will. but you would be proud of us all here man. people you think would never come together have. keep an eye on us graf. i know your up there with a bunch of hot ass angels, chillin with a case, and just being the life of the party. You made me a better person man, and i cant wait till we get the chance to chill again.
Love, Pizza




Name: Lauren Hamm
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21:04:41 04/29/03


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Hey Eric,
Its me again, u have no idea how much everyone misses u around here. Everyones lives have been changed so much since u left us. You had so many people who loved u so much and who would do anything for u. Today was the hardest day of all. When i saw everyone by ur locker, and them taking all of the stuff out, i had no clue what to say. Its just the fact that i wont see you again that really broke my heart. And when everyone made a memorial in the courtyard at school for u it was so hard to deal with. When i stood in front of ur picture hanging on the tree, i got so many flashbacks and the times seeing u just flew right in front of me. I just cant believe that i wont see u again until i get up to heaven with you.ill miss u so much..luv ya laur




Name: Fayth
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21:03:40 04/29/03


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Eric, I dont really know where to begin. When i first found out, i didnt believe it b/c i didnt want to believe it. Its really hard for me to concentrate in class b/c I keep thinking about why you did it. I'm going to miss you SOOO much. You were the funniest person I knew. When I think of you, I think about all the funny things you did. Like the time we were all at Donkels and you were playing the guitar, singing the song complicated. I will never forget you and i hope you will never forget me. If you could have only been here today at school, you would have realized how many people really loved you. I just want you to know that i was one of the people who loved you and i hope now you are okay. I LOVE YA, R.I.P

Mr. and Mrs. Graf- I'm very sorry for your loss, I just want you to know, lots of people loved him and he was the funniest kid i knew.





Name: Samantha
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20:57:40 04/29/03


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Eric..
Sorry that it took me so long to finally get something into here but I needed to gather all of my thoughts and feelings about it all before I said a word. I was going through all of my old yearbooks looking at all of your pictures.. And your smile hasn't changed and never will. It is a picture I will carry on in my mind forever. The memories that I have of u as a kid I will never forget. The times when we all used to gather up and play kick the can out with the rest of the block and then just hang out. You were always the life of everything that we did. Always putting a smile on everyone's faces. And although we haven't talked in over 2 years now besides in the halls with a few "Hey" or "what's up" s. doesn’t mean that you have changed, and from what I have been reading I am very sure that you haven't. You still always were making people's day with just your smile. It is amazing to see how much you truly meant to everyone. Especially all of the seniors. (Who I would like to say that you are all doing so well..) This has affected so many people it is unbelievable.. I have been in awe the past few days reading all of the comments from people who didn't even know you but who somehow you have touched their lives a great amount…one thing that I am not surprised to see though is all of the great things on this site that people have said about you. It is obvious to see how easy it is to fill pages of good things that people loved about you, I, along with everyone else, just wish that you could know how we all really feel. You are someone that I will never forget and I am truly grateful that I have had the chance to b a part of your life. May you rest in Peace Eric, and watch over everyone. You will b greatly missed but never forgotten…Your smile is unforgettable…and your personality is irreplaceable.

If anyone needs to talk about it I am here for any of you. I lost my mother last year due to suicide (and my best friends' father not even 5 months after) and I will say that it is the hardest thing that I have ever dealt with in my life. But it made me realize more than I could ever imagine, and it changed my perspective on everything such a great amount. I know how it is to go through this and I know how hard it is to think anything positive can come from it, but believe me it can. Everyone stick together and know that there is always someone to talk to…You guys are all doing so well (to the people who were closest to him) Keep it up and make Eric Proud. The hardest part is over.

* Only The GOOD Die Young *




Name: Shan once again
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20:53:05 04/29/03


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Hey studly! How's it goin up there? Your probably the life of the party up there too, I mean who wouldn't laugh, you have that strong personality and that ability just to put a smile on everyone's face. Today was one of the saddest, but yet the most relieving days of my life. School was rough, I knew walking in there would be hard. When I saw friends in the hallway, we all just gave each other looks, like we knew that as we made our way to our next class, we were all thinking about the same thing.. you Eric. All today there were people in the courtyard. They made a memorial for ya! It was really sad in the beginning.. when you would first take a look at it. But then everyone just kinda sat down and took a breather, and started reminiscing about the memories you have blessed us with. There were so many hilarious stories, and for once i think everyone was smiling. After school everyone went up to Haines and frisbee golfed just because thats what you always loved to do. We all signed it, and Tyson climbed up to the top of a huge tree and nailed it up there. It was awesome Graf! I know you saw it tho, because I know your with your boys everywhere they go. Everyone just smiled and laughed and tried to have a good time in memory of you. Seriously there had to be about 50 people there, and everyone just got along so well. We all miss ya kid. Be ready for me up there Graf, we will all be there sooner or later, and we'll have just as much fun up there as we did down here. Don't be upset by people fighting over who's fault it is. We all know its no one's fault, and there's just something that deep in your heart you didn't think you could overcome. I wish you could have, but I guess that's just something that is impossible. Miss you Tonz. xoxo ~Shan




Name: Heather
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20:53:03 04/29/03


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Hey Buddy~
First day back at school today. It was a great day at school but also one of the hardest I've had to go through. Today at the tree, everyone was there for you. Everytime I walked by the tree or went to see it, everyone was there. You were so loved. Today, everyone was sharing stories of you and the great times the remember you in. You made everyone laugh even when you were in the worst mood.. you would still be there for someone. But this day, was the longest I have ever been in. No one talked, there were barely any smiles... they were all thinking of you and how we would never see that great smile and that red hair of yours. Everyone loved you... I hope you are making people laugh up there because you were always great at that. You had a way about you and thank you for sharing your smile and personality with us for 17 years. Thank you for your friendship. And thank you for just being there day by day- you were always a joy to so many lives... and touched so many more.

R.I.P. Eric Graf. Thank you for everything!
With much love~Heather




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20:52:12 04/29/03


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your up in heaven smiling from above
you see us cry our sorrow our love
you touched the world with your smile
made so many peoples lives worth while
i heard of you as the kid with the shaggy red hair
your persoanllity and msile was rare
now your in heaven smiling from above
sharing your grace and love

while up in heaven dont be afraid to come down
and visit us and remind us that your still around
every once in a while when we need you most
direct us in the way to go
your up there in a better place
no one can ever for get your face

in the courtyard and now wiht your tree
an image that will always be with me
so many friends i never knew
all mouring the loss and missing you
wiht your great persioanllity ive heard so much about
your gunna tkae care adn wait for us in have, no doubt

so when its turn for us to leave
greet us at the gates with a smile and ahug
we miss you and nothing will be the same.




Name: ~*~*~Mellody~*~*~
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20:09:11 04/29/03


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messed this up before so Im re doing it

God needed some entertainment upstairs so he picked the greatest of them all.....he took you to be with him and took you away from us, but he made sure that for almost 18 short years you gave us some great memories and gave us enertainment. We love you and miss you Graf. Rest in Peace and watch over all of us down here. See ya when we get there.

Can't Cry Hard Enough~Susan Ashton/Williams Brothers

Im gonna live my life like everydays the last
Without a simple goodbye it all goes by so fast
and now that you're gone I cant cry hard enough for you to hear me now

Gonna open my eyes and see for the first time Ive let go of you like a child letting go of his kite

There it goes up in the sky, there it goes beyond the clouds for no reason why I cant cry hard enough no I cant cry hard enough for you to hear me now

Gonna look back in vain and see you standing there When all the remains is an empty chair
and now that youre gone I cant cry hard enough No I cant cry hard enough for you to hear me now.

There it goes up in the sky there it goes beyond the clouds for no reason why I cant cry hard enough No I cant cry hard enough for you to hear me now

And now that your gone I cant cry hard enough No I cant cry hard enough for you to hear me now.


Rest In Peace Eric!




Name: drew
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20:07:30 04/29/03


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hey buddy,

me again. just wanted to see what was up man. it's unbelievable the affect this is having on everyong. so many people visted your memorial today. i didn't really get to see it till the end of the day though, but i sat and listened to all the stories with everybuddy. i felt good to here them as much as it hurt. i remembered as they were telling the stories i thought of the time you were working and i came up to get a card from you to rent and you put me as the guys who stole your girl. it was really funny at the time. also eveytime i think of you i think of the time we were at patrizi's and you were riding some bike and just bobing you head up and down with your big smile. also all the good\bad times in lovarato(you know what i mean)like are rap we did with chad, it was hilarious. but yeah i just wanted to let you know i was thinking of you and that i'll never forget you. ttyl
lov ur friend
drew




Name: Chelsey ~ once again
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20:02:27 04/29/03


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Graf~

Today was one of the coolest days I've ever had at LWE...and that's sayin a lot right there. LoL. The tree everyone decorated for you was never left without anyone there for any part of the day. It was really cool to just stand back and watch everyone come together in such a time of need. I'm still kind of confused, but everyone's hanging in there. Today in lunch I must have looked back at your seat about a million times to make sure it was real and I wouldn't see you sittin there smiling and laughing. It's still surreal. I wrote this for you today in study hall, and I put one under your tree at the end of the day...

To Graf:

Even though your time on Earth was short,
All who loved you will show support.
Your shaggy red hair, your joyful laugh,
Evereyo9ne knew that you were Graf.
You jumped off roofs, put holes in walls,
Everywhere you went, you had a ball.
You were tired, and very confused,
So God thought of a new plan for you.
You've gone off to Heaven, flown away,
While all of us are hoping for a brighter day.
Sitting here, dazed and confused,
Asking ourselves, "what are we going to do?"
If you could, you would tell us,
"I'll watch over you all every single day,
You'll see me again in some way."
The pain will never fully disappear,
So for now we'll try and help each other stay cheered.
We all love you Grafferz and we always will,
You'll stay in our hearts throught all the years.
But for now, save us a spot,
I'll be sure to bring the *pop rocks*.

I'm still prayin for ur family....I'm sure they're being so strong for everyone else...Help them out...and your close friends too, send them all down some love. They'll know it's from you....Bye for now but not forever...

In my heart,
Chelsey




Name: Mike Carbine - Again
E-Mail: MadlySkild@aol.com
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19:44:50 04/29/03


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Eric-
You have left such a permanent mark in the emotions of myself and all those who knew you. I cannot get this out of my mind. The whole school seems silenced, nothing is the same.
This semester you werne't even in any of my classes but there is an unspoken sadness among all your many friends. Your death has made me question so many elements of life i can hardly even concentrate on the day i'm living in - the terrible irony of this whole situation is you are the person who would help to cheer everybody up for such a sad time.
Your memory will forever bring smiles, laughter, and tears to all. Someday in the future we will talk again, and you can help me understand.




Name: John
E-Mail: tlemxblink@attbi.com
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19:41:05 04/29/03


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Eric,

I don't even know where to start, but all the memories that I have of you are from track. You were always the funny guy. I really wish that I could have known you better. I remember at the Charleston Invitational, you, me, kampz, strill, otto, and heumann, were all laughing so hard. I can honestly say that was one of the best times of my life. Even though I didn't know you that well, you have affected my life so much, and you will never know it. If only you saw how many people you have touched by this Eric. You were such a great guy, and just to let you know, you still hold the school record for discus man. Eric, I really miss you.

John



Name: Caitlin
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19:34:01 04/29/03


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It broke my heart to hear of your death. I don't know you personally but I do know alot of people that love and miss you! My thoughts and prayers go out to those who are hurt by this incident and to the family of Eric. Eric ... look down on us and keep us safe! We will all miss you lots! You will never be forgotten!
*With love and prayers*
Caitlin




Name: SoRrY!
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19:25:43 04/29/03


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I dont know you and ive never heard of you i found your page when i was looking in sum1s info i dont know y u did wut u did and i dont think ill ever find out and ive thought of doin wut u already did and i have smpathy for all your friends and family i just recently lost a cuzin of myne and i feel really horrible and i dont even know you and this page made me cry




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19:15:38 04/29/03


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as i sit here, reading these mssgs from ppl I know, tears flow down, the song on this site, i dunno what is called but i wish i did, is playing over and over agian, i've checked this website so many times in the last few days, but i know if eric could see what everyone said and put, he'd still be here with us, i know he didnt mean to cause pain, just make sure, all your other friends/family know how much u love them!! and none of us will have to go through this terrible tragedy ever again.




Name: Ashley
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19:05:06 04/29/03


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graf-- hey i didnt know you at all really... i only saw you a few times in the hall... but you always looked like you were so fucking happy. from everyones messages you seemed like you were the BEST person 2 know.. and you probably were.. i wish i knew you... you should have seen all the people in the court yard today. we were all there for you. we love you so much. if only you would have told someone sooner what was up you could have gotten help. now your in a better place where there are no more problems. may you rest well. keep an eye out for all of us... see yah later.
*We'll Be Missing YOU* --Rest in Peace---




Name: chad
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19:02:50 04/29/03


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hey i didnt know eric much but he was the only one who stopped to give me a ride to my car in the rain and i was a total stranger. i guess that could sum him up right there




Name: Jeremy
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18:44:37 04/29/03


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I never knew you and I don't even know where Lincoln Way is or who goes to it, but I must say that from all the messages posted, you were one lucky kid Eric. Lots of people loved you and they are depressed you left. Well wherever you are be happy and watch over the people you cared for. I feel like I've known you before. But that's impossible, or is it.

R.I.P. Eric and never forget all who loved you.
A noone who cares.




Name: Liza
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18:43:35 04/29/03


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Eric~
I can honistly say i wasnt expecting that to happened know one was i know we havent been that close this year and i wish we could have been. You made English a class that i actually liked going to because i know you would always be there to make me laugh!! now i have know one to slack off with me! you were always great at cheering everyone up i just wish we knew that you needed cheering up too!! i know you are in a better place now and i hope that all of your problems are gone !!! you will be missed a lot and you will never be for gotten!!! School will now be the same with out your smiling face and wonderful red hair!!! we all miss you!!!




Name: Megg O (again)
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18:39:02 04/29/03


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*Graf-well school was so bad 2day....but no1 forgot about u and no1 will anytime soon....sittin in the court yard by the tree helped everyone a lot...it should show u how much u were loved and will b missed i miss u so much still and i will never 4get u sitting by that tree seeing all of the people who loved u...no1 cared about school 2day every1 cared about u...im glad i was sum1 in your life and im glad i had the pleasure of knowing u and chillin wit u.....i will never 4get u graf! that tree will always remind me of u...and it will always make me cry...im prayin for u all the time and your parents...u were the baby boy in the family! im sure they miss u soo much....but i love u graf and ill write more when i need to! i love u!
-love forever-
-megg-




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18:33:20 04/29/03


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Eric~
I am another person who didn't know you personally. When I found out, that you had done that to yourself, I didn't really know what to think.. then i saw ur picture in this website and I knew exactly who you were. I saw you in the halls all the time and I remember you from Hickory Creek. You were always smiling and laughing with the people you were walking with. I wanted to meet you because you looked like a fun guy to be around. All i can say is.. I hope you are in a better place now but know.. you will be deeply missed by everyone.. RIP




Name: Julie Schroeder
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18:27:47 04/29/03


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Graf-first day back to school today, man it was rough...the halls were silent, no one talked in class, barely any smiles..the gatherings at the lockers where we all usually meet between passing periods didnt happen...instead, everyone gathered in the coutyard where flowers and pictures and poems, and pieces of everyones memories were being shared. it was unreal eric...there was a group of us that were down there almost all day, even through class, it was amazing to see how many people walked through the court yard today to pay their respects, people who didnt even know you...it doesnt seem like any of this is really happening, its not fair, you were such an amazing person, you affected so many lives..no one will EVER forget you. i wish you just wouldve let us know something was bothering you, you always seemed so happy...even the nite before...im so incredibly happy i saw you tuesday nite...and got to hug you one last time...we miss you so much...keep an eye on all you're buddies...they're all being so strong! we love you so much! you will never EVER be forgotten!
much love, jules




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18:26:06 04/29/03


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Hi. I never met Eric and feel kinda bad posting a message, but I have been thinking a lot about this since I found out the horrible news. As many others, I feel that although I never knew him, he has touched my life. I just wanted to tell everyone that I am praying you all get through this ok. The pain you are experiencing is something that no person should have to go through. Eric seemed like an amazing person and his memories will always live on with you. I know that all of you are wondering why he did such a horrible thing, but please dont persuade yourselves into thinking it was your fault. I believe that he is looking down on all of you, right now at this very moment, smiling and telling you not to grieve. Stay strong, the pain will never go away, but it will ease with time. Im very sorry for everyones loss, he will truly be missed.

“For some, life lasts a short while, but the memories it holds last forever”






Name: ~*~*~Mellody~*~*~
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18:22:07 04/29/03


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God needed some entertainment upstairs so he picked the greatest of them all.....he took you to be with him and took you away from us, but he made sure that for almost 18 short years you gave us some great memories and gave us enertainment. We love you and miss you Graf. Rest in Peace and watch over all of us down here. See ya when we get there.


Can't Cry Hard Enough~Susan Ashton/Williams Brothers

Im gonna live my life like everydays the last
Without a simple goodbye it all goes by so fast
and now I cant cry hard enough for you to hear me now

There it goes up in the sky, there it goes beyond the clouds for no reason why I cant cry hard enough no I cant cry hard enough for you to hear me now

Gonna look back in vain and see you standing there When all the remains is an empty chair
and now that youre gone I cant cry hard enough No I cant cry hard enough for you to hear me now.

There it goes up in the sky there it goes beyond the clouds for no reason why I cant cry hard enough No I cant cry hard enough for you to hear me now

And now that your gone I cant cry hard enough No I cant cry hard enough for you to hear me now.


Rest In Peace Eric!




Name: A lil sumptin i wrote for u Graf (sorry first one messed up)
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18:18:25 04/29/03


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You had many loved ones classmates, family and friends
Its ashame your life had to end
You meant the world to everyone
Man, you ALWAYS knew how to have fun
You touched a lot of lives, that is no lie
We just never wanted to say Goodbye
The memories we should hold
That's what we were always told
You were always so happy on the outside
But inside you had many ups and downs like a rollercoaster ride
I didnt know you very well
But you were the one I saw before the first bell
If you could just answer my question WHY?
I would no longer have to cry
From your stylin glasses
To the laughter in the classes
From your red hair
To your heart that was filled with care
From the funny comments you made, (they were the best)
Till the time you were laid to rest
You made many people laugh
WE WILL MISS YOU ERIC GRAF!




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18:07:20 04/29/03


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I have sort of mixed feelings about all of this. One half of me is sad and the other half is angry. I just wish I could make sense of this all. I'm sure if Eric knew how this would affect so many people, he would have changed his mind and gotten help. I don't think he realized how much people cared. He was a beautiful person and I wish he hadn't felt that this was his only way out. My heart goes out to his family and friends.




Name: Neena
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17:50:05 04/29/03


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I didnt really know Eric as much as some people that are hurting right now. I knew Eric because he was in my 7th grade math class. This year I had the pleasure of taking his picture for the yearbook. He made me laugh the whole time and whenever he sawme he joked with me to be in the yearbook again. I dont think he understood just how many people he made smile. My deepest sympathy goes out to all his family and friends.




Name: Janet
E-Mail: JMRpenguin@aol.com
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17:46:05 04/29/03


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My friend goes to LWE, and let me look at this. I don't know Eric, but listening to all the wonderful things people say...it makes me feel like I did. I'm crying now, because recently, I have started to feel like committing suicide. Reading all of this is helping me to stop, in hopes that people really do care. I wish you, Eric, had help. You sound like an amazing person, who didn't deserve to die. I feel like I miss you a lot, its like theres a hole in my heart, even tho I didn't know you. I care about you a lot. Rest in peace, know that people love you and that you didn't deserve to die.
-Janet




Name: STACIE
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17:42:07 04/29/03


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~ERIC ~
EVER SENCE THURSDAY MY LIFE HAS NOT BEEN THE SAME THE PAST FEW DAYS HAS BEEN THE WORST AND ILL NEVER FORGET THEM. YOU LEFT QUITE A LOT OF PEOPLE LEFT WONDERING WHY AND MANY MISS YOU SCHOOL HAS BEEN SO CRAZY AND CLASSES ARE NOT THE SAME WITH OUT YOU THERE GOD I NEVER THOUGHT OUT OF ALL THE PEOPLE I WOULD BE SITTING IN FORNT OF A COMPUTER TYPING IN THIS TO YOU ERIC YOU WERE SO LOVED AND WILL BE MISSED SO MUCH THERE SO MUCH I WANT TO SAY BUT CANT EVERY TIME I THINK OF YOU I DONT THINK THERE IS A TIME WHEN YOU ARE NOT SMILING OR MAKING A COMMENT ABOUT SOMETHING YOU WERE A GREAT FRIEND ALWAYS THERE ALWAYS WILLING TO HELP SOMEONE WITH WHAT EVER I WISH YOU WOULD HAVE LET SOMEONE HELP YOU. ERIC THIS IS SO HARD I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU AND LOVE YOU WE ALL DO REST IN PEACE
WITH LOVE ALWAYS
STACIE




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17:39:58 04/29/03


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ERIC
I WISH I WAS ABLE TO KNOW SUCH A GREAT PERSON. I ONLY KNEW OF YOU BECAUSE OF ENGLISH CLASS THIS YEAR. YOU ARE SO INCREDIBLY LUCKY. YOU HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE CARING FOR YOU-ITS AMAZING. I KNOW IF THAT WAS ME I DEFINITELY WOULD NOT HAVE THAT MANY PEOPLE MOURNING FOR ME. YOU WERE SO LUCKY TO HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE CARE. HOW COULD YOU LEAVE SO MANY PEOPLE LIKE THAT WITHOUT AN EXPLANATION? TODAY WAS THE SADDEST DAY EVER. SO MANY PEOPLE JUST LOOKING LIKE ZOMBIES WHO WOULD NORMALLY BE VERY ALIVE AND CRAZY. YOU TRULY TOUCHED SO MANY PEOPLE AND LEFT SUCH A BIG IMPACT. I CAN SEE CLEARLY THE WAY YOU WOULD SIT IN YOUR DESK AND YOUR FACE EXPRESSIONS AND YOUR VOICE. I REMEMBER THE JOKES YOU MADE TO MS GOLDIE. YOU WERE HILARIOUS EVEN WHEN YOU DIDNT MEAN TO BE. IT MAKES ME SAD SEEING THE SCHOOL THIS WAY AND THE CLASSROOMS SO EMPTY. ITS LIKE ITS NOT EVEN REAL. I HOPE YOU ARE HAPPY WHERE YOU ARE. RIP AND LOOK DOWN ON YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY. THEY MISS YOU AND NEED YOU.




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Once again this is a message from someone who had no clue who this kid was...and once again im gonna say the same thing...im hurt about this...im reading this website and im not gonna lie its prolly the saddest thing ive ever read...i wanna let you all know something...Dont call him selfish, dont hate him, dont even be mad at him...when someone does this to themselves they honostly dont know what they want in life...They have no clue what to think anymore...There self asteem is so low that its practically gone...On the outside they look happy but in the inside there torn apart...often you can tell when someone is hurt...But alot of times people do not know how to express themselves in anyother way but acting like nothing is wrong...And what that does to someone is something only a hand full of people can put up with...believe me its so hard to let people know how you truly feel...and its also so hard to live life acting like nothing is wrong...it catches you some day and it just breaks you...its like your world collapses and you have nothing...even though there are people you know that care and you would hurt soo much by doing something so stupid and wrong, you just have to do what it takes to escape the pain...so like i said dont hate him, dont call him selfish, dont be mad at him...just think of it like this...hes not hurtin anymore...oh and always remember there is always a better way out...so if you ever reach that break point then its definately to late...so get help fast and try not to go on like nothin is wrong...cause some day it will catch up on you...this postage was just to try to let you guys understand that what he did might seem selfish and pussy like, but you have to remember that finally his pain is gone and he is so much more happier...(not that he hurt you but that his pain is gone...)to all his close friends-my heart goes out to you and dont hate, just feel good knowin hes in a better place...oh and a couple of nights ago one of my close friends said: "i blame my self" to that all i can say is JD-cheer up and dont you dare blame yourself...it wasnt your fault...thats just foolish and remember you didnt know he was hurtin...and tell your bro that too...cause it looks like hes hurtin just as bad...




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Eric--I never got the chance to meet you, but i knew who you were. I passed you many times in the halls throughout the day...you always carried the biggest smile and were always laughing! I miss that...i miss your smile. It was very hard 2day at school..the memoral was awesome! God was truely working through the lives of everyboday today at school. It was amazing and i know you were there over everyone smiling. Thanks for brighting up my day everyday with that smile and the red hair! Contine to watch over your family and all your friends. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!!




Name: Jeff Robinson(JROB)
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17:24:03 04/29/03


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Hey, i just wanted to say to all the family and friends that i am terribly sorry for your lose. i knew Eric and hung out wiht him a couple times. I remember when i did a paperroute for you in like 5th grade, you were a great kid, and i know you are in a better place. R.I.P.-We all love you

Love ya lots man
Jrob




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Life isn't supposed to be easy..
It's supposed to be worth it.

<3333

you touched more lives than you thought..
if only you would have realized that...




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hey eric

i didnt know you or ever see you but i heard a lot about you.i heard how great of a kid you were. how you were never sad and always making people laugh. everyone misses you. it was so quiet today. i guess you held all the anger inside.a lot of people liked you. they all miss you.there was a huge memorial today for you. it was so sad. it mad me cry and i didnt even know you. i cant even imgine what everyone who knew you felt. oh yeah youll never be forgotton at LWE




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I am actually mad at you for leaving like that. I didn't know you, but i noticed you. I saw you a lot actually.It sounds to me like the world needs more people like you. Its strange because it seems like everyone is looking to lean on someone right now... but the person they want to lean on for support is you. I hope you rest in peace. I will pray for everyone that you left behind.




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Pater noster qui es in coelis, sanctificetur nomen tuum, adveniat regnum,
fiat voluntas tua in terris sicut in coelis, panem nostrum quotidianum da
nobis hodie, ac remitte nobis debita nostra, sicut nos remittimus
debitoribus nostris, et ne nos inducas in tentationem, sed libera nos a
malo, quia tuum est regnum, potentia et gloria in secula. Amen




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wE MISS YOU ERIC more then you will ever know!
Good-night buddy!
love,
Lincoln Way East Students!




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16:57:43 04/29/03


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I know we all want to forget all this pain, and agony we've all been feeling lately. We all just wish the tears stopped flowing, and not have to go through the hurt anymore, but I also know we'll NEVER forget such a great person like Eric.





Name: Jenny Graham
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16:54:31 04/29/03


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Hi Graffy! How ya doin up there? Well these past three days have been the worst days ever. I will never forget them, and I will never forget you. I know you are watching over all of us, and you have been with us these past few days. I can just feel that you are here saying, dont worry guys it will be ok. All I can do is think about you, and it makes me feel better because every memory i have is something funny! Everyone has come together so much and it makes things easier. But to see all the guys who were so close to you crying, it really hurts. We all love you so much and we miss you like crazy. Today when I got to school it was the hardest thing for me to do. I mean your my locker buddy and today you werent there, but i know your spirit was there because haha my locker was jammed once again. It was so hard to go over to Dr. Casey and say you know my locker wont open its the one next to me that needs to be opened, but now i think about it and you just wanted me to laugh about it one more time . And then when they cleaned everything out i couldnt stay there i walked away and i got a bloody nose haha yea that sure did make me laugh some more. We all sat together by your tree today just remembering all the good times we have had with you. Well Graffy we all love you and miss you. Just make sure to keep an eye on everyone and especially your family. God bless you and your red hair up there! Im sure you are havin a great time! Oh yea Ill make sure no one turns the dial on your locker. Love you and miss you tons!

R.I.P. Graffy!
Love~Jenny J




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I didnt have the chance to get to know you, but from all I have heard, you are such a wonderful person! You have touched so many peoples lives in so many different ways! You will be missed greatly and dearly treasured in everyones memories forever.





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Graf -WHY? you are so loved and missed. 382 people have signed this so far. (* so theres your proof *)School today was so dismal all the students looked lost and confused. So many people were standing by the tree in the courtyard prayin to ya and cryin. I just wish you could've realised how loved you were before you had to do this. I've known you for just about 12 years now - and if there was one word to describe you it would definately be HILARIOUS! I'll never forget you... Watch over us all - especially your family. I love you with all my heart and I miss you so much. - I'll see you soon Eric-




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hey,
Not knowing you hurts. you seem like a great guy by what everyone has said about you. i found out what happened the night it happened because i know some cops. i was sad and i felt a lot of pain for you. i just don't understand why it happened. everyone keeps saying how fun and happy you always were and then something like this happens. everyone at school is crying everyday. it's a very mournful scene. the memorial for you in the courtyard is never empty. you seem like you had a great deal of people who care for you a lot. you must have touched so many hearts. everyone misses you, even one's who don't even know you. your death has touched everyone. please watch over all of us and realize how loved you really are. RIP Eric.




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Hi Eric,
I never knew/met you, but i see how much everyone has loved you. You have obviously touched so many people that they all cry when they remember nearly anything about you. The night i found out that you passed, i was very sad. My friend's sister knew you. She was nearly heartbroken when she heard the news. We will all miss you, even those of us who never had the chance to know you. RIP.




Name: Julie Dominy
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16:18:07 04/29/03


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Er,
Wheww...ya know when you think that your body and soul is so worn out that you just can't go on dealing with this bc you are so emotionallyt and physically exhausted you could just collaspe...and you think that it can't get much harder than t his...it does. Today at school was rough...the tree in the courtyard was never left empty...the fueral yesterday was horrible...every one of your good friends was there. You're mother...she's an amazing woman...I talked to her for a good while at the wake...she said she knew us from some of your pictures and stuff you would say about us...haha you were probably talkin trash...but she is so amazing. We're going to visit her on Friday...just to stop in and say hello. Today everyone was leaning on eachother...and for awhile everyone was laughin their asses off when Foote and Henninger and Me Julie Carli and Murphy were all telling hilarious stories about you. Good God Er, where do you get the balls sometimes? I swear! I will never forget the funniest stuff you told us at points. I'm so exhausted...the wake...the funeral...school...now we're going to Hanes park to play a game just for you...we're going to make it the best too. I love you Eric and i miss you dearly...look over us...we need it. We're leaning on eachother though and keeping you in our hearts.
Love you Grafferz!
Love,
Dommerz




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Eric, today was by far the hardest day of school. I will NEVER forget you! I will see you again one day and we will party up in heaven. I didn't ever imagine I would have to do this...So Eric this is my good-bye. I love you and miss you tons. Good-bye for now my friend, until we meet again. Love you, Court




Name: Alex Mile
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15:54:22 04/29/03


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Hi Eric,

I never met you, but I heard amazing things about you from your fellow friends. A year and 5 months ago my friend, Sarah Podlin, died in a car accident, and your death brought back all the images and emotion that i had when she passed on. It hurts so much when someone has to just leave us all like this, and we all question why God does this at times.. but in your case, the only person we can question is you, but we'll receive no answer. It breaks my heart to know you took your life away from so many friends, family, and people that weren't even ready to be in your life yet. Sarah didn't have that option, God chose it for her.. but now, your a wonderful angel, and I hope you continue to enlighten the presence of your friends with their wonderful memories of you, even though your not physically there anymore. your a great kid, Eric. Your now in the arms of God, and I believe there is no other better place to be. I keep your family and friends in my prayers. Say hi to my Sarah, and give her a hug.. you'll love her. Rest in peace, Eric.


Alex




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eric I wish you were here to see everyone who really cared about you and how many lives you have touched. You'll never be forgotten at LWE we all love you man even the ones who didn't get to know you as well as they wished to. We are all gona miss you and you'll always been in our prayers.




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eric its hard going to school everyday without your smile it has touched everyone and anyone. just today Mr. Finnigan was telling us incredible stories about you and how you have touched everybody in school. i miss you incredibly. sophmore year was the most exciting because we made fun of everyone in chemistry. i miss you greatly and all your friends are here supporting you. i wish i could have seen what was up your sleeve for prom im sure it was something great. even though we werent the best of friends your comments of life were always helpful. your memory will be inside each and everyone. RIP
love ,
danielle




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Hey man just wanted to say good bye man i will miss u




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15:06:29 04/29/03


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Eric,

I miss you already...we haven't talking in a long time...a couple hellos here and there...but I remember playing with you when we were younger...1st grade, 2nd grade, you would come to my house, and I would go to yours...we would play up at the baseball fields. You are a great person...and I admired you, I still do. Suicide is a tough thing, something everyone comes across in their life...the thought of whether you should do it or not. Some people can grow over it, and some can't. I'm sure it was tough, no, I know it was tough...I'm going through the same thing you are right now. I'll just leave it at that. I love you, Keep a close eye on the ones you love.




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Wow, today was the shittiest day at school i have ever had. I did not know you on a close personal note but we talked freshman year about ur awesome orange pants and how bad i wanted em or in study hall wed get in trouble like crazy for not shutting up. it pisses me off that i didnt stay talking to u all through highschool besides a hello in the hallways. as i got their this morning i expected a bad day but not this bad. i saw ur friends hurting so bad. the ones i didnt know i just wanted to go up to and hug them. this is such a horrible shock. i just try and think of ways i couldve done something but their is no answer to that question. as i passed ur locker and saw ur girl friends crying i had ot get away then as i walked out of english and saw people looking through windows to the court yard i was confused cuz no-one is ever in their so i walk down their see tuns of people standing their. i look and see tuns of flowers and few pictures and songs and poems and i coulddnt hold it in any longer i just started crying my eyes out. i didnt think things would hurt this much but man its killing me. as i walk through the halls and see all of your boys hurting man i just wish i could do something. our senior year defentily has a damper on it and is going to blow the rest of it. not seeing your smililng face and wild hair floating around at prom or you up on stage getting your diploma man thats some crazy shit! i never expected this. all i gotta say is man were you loved! your life lived is one that will never be forgotten, friends of his i just hope this brings everyone together and everyone can realize how short life is and how important it is. i love ya eric, say hey to my best friends tim and joe up their. haha i think ud enjoy em RIP




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14:24:53 04/29/03


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I have thought long and hard and felt the devastation that everyone is feeling for the loss of Eric. I have been through this situation before, unfortunately, and it is the hardest thing I have ever had to overcome; I'm still not over it. I want to tell you all that it does get easier over time, and you will have your good and bad days. Please do not hold back tears or emotions. You must not bottle anything up because it will only drive you crazy. You guys are all here: friends, family, acquaintances; etc..stick together through this. Trust me, talking about all the good times helps a ton.

While struggling to get through the loss of a life so precious, may you not forget about everyone else and celebrate those lives. We are all still here together, and we need love, as well. Tell everybody in your life how much you care about them. EVERY person you encounter in life has some effect on you whether you know it or not; be grateful every day you walk out your front door for those people you come in contact with. I guarantee you will learn and grow from every experience you have; cherish them all. It's unfortunate that I had to lose a close friend before I realized all this.

I have read countless entries that say, "I didn't know Eric, but I remember seeing him in the hall." Others such as "I never had the chance to meet him, but I always heard stories about Eric and how funny he was; I feel as if I did know him." And.."If he would have only spoken up or told me something was wrong" etc. We take people for granted. We just assume that they will be there the next day, and we can finish the conversation then. If we argue with a friend, we think, hey, we'll get over the fight sooner or later, I'm not gonna let this bother me right now. Well guess what? You just never know.

What I'm asking of all of you who read this: please learn to appreciate every second of your life. If you're not having the best of times, just enjoy the moments you're spending with the people around you. From the loss of two great people, it seems that it's only through the absence of a person that makes people realize how special everyone is. Please be grateful for everyone you encounter throughout your lifelong journey. Be kind and courteous to everyone, not just your friends. Ask that kid who sits by himself at lunch to sit with you and your group of friends. You NEVER know what another person is thinking/ feeling deep down inside. You might think somebody is so happy by how they express themselves on the outside, but inside they could be all torn up...and by the time we all realize it, it's too late. Life is far too short and precious to dwell on trivial things in life such as popularity. We are all God's children, we all deserve the same amount of respect. Treat others how you want to be treated.

Tell everyone how much they mean to you-not enough people are told how loved they really are. Live life without any regrets.

I love all you guys, and I'm glad that many of you have came to me for advice on how to deal with this. Even just talking about it; I feel that I'm needed here. I was losing sight of that for a while; I felt so lost and alone. Everyone needs to feel needed, and they need to know that people care.

I promise, EVERYONE on this earth is loved. "To the world you might be only one person, but to one person you might be the WORLD." If you guys are ever in pain, talk to someone, anyone. I'll always be here. Drop me a quick email, and I'll respond asap. May God bless you all. I hope this post has opened eyes and made many begin to appreciate life more.

Here's a quote to end w/:
"We each need only what the other can give. Each person we meet today needs our special contribution"

You're all in my prayers.




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Hi there Eric. I almost came home from school today because i akmost broke down in the middle of the courtyard and never wanted to move ever again. I don't know why but when i write here i fell like i am REALLY talking to you. I know your reading this up there because im saying it in my head as i type it and i pretty much see it as a prayer.I'm so happy that people decided to do what they did in the coutyard today. I hope thaT you Are watching down on us from up there. We miss you so much. I dont know how ill get by without you but let's hope that time and memories will get me through this.. miss you...




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graf
i wish i could turn back the hand in time to tell u how good of a friend u were to me and everyone u knew. i said my hello's when i first meet u freshman year. senior year i didnt get to say my last goodbyes. eric was most known for his hair and his ability to make people laugh. everyday i pray that i will see u again, even if its only to see your picture. i love ya man, and ill never forget u.




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13:47:40 04/29/03


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Eric-
I really don't know what to say. You were such a great guy. We lost touch once we got to high school, but it was impossible to forget you, and it always will be. I remember back in 6th grade, we made a bet that when I had to read out loud in class, that you couldn't make me laugh. Needless to say I lost. You were always so good at making me smile when I was having a rough day, and I will always be grateful to you for that. Everyone misses you so much Eric. I wish I could wake up and have this all be a bad dream. It is still a shock to me what has happened. I will always remember you Eric, peace be with you.




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13:36:51 04/29/03


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Eric i have known you for quit along time and after jr. high I havent really seen you, but I will say that I will miss you! You are so loved it is unbelievable. I am sorry that you were hurting and that no one could help you, but i know you are looking down on everyone and you are seeing how much everyone loves you!!!





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12:59:00 04/29/03


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Never at my life in Lincoln-Way have i ever heard complete silence during a passing period besides today it moved me. Eric it was unbeilvable, u r sooooo missed




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GRAF,
I dont even know where to begin.The news of your death shocked me.I got so many memories of me, you,and eric ditchin track last year.Just runnin to the parking lot and takin off in the vic haha.I'll never forget watin for you everyday before 2nd hour and through all the people if i couldnt find you i would just look for the shaggy red fro.you were always the funniest kid..everywhere we went.I can only remeber having one really serious talk with you one night we went to old country buffet(even though we were making fun of people eating so much).You told me alot about yourself that day and i realized even though you were so happy on the outside you were hurting on the inside.Well buddy, i hope your pain and sorrow are over and I KNOW you are in a better place.Make sure you tell my mom hey and i miss her dearly.make her laugh for me kid.Later buddy!




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12:06:06 04/29/03


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Goodbye~by Martina McBride


Occurred to me the other day
You've been gone now a couple years
Well I guess it takes a while
For someone to really disappear
And I remember where I was
When the word came about you
It was a day much like today
The sky was bright and wide and blue

Chorus:
And I wonder where you are
And if the pain ends when you die
And I wonder if there was
Some better way to say goodbye

Today my heart is big and sore
It's trying to push right through my skin
Won't see you anymore
I guess that's finally sinking in
Cause you can't make somebody see
With the simple words you say
All their beauty from within
Sometimes they just look away

Repeat Chorus

Some better way to say goodbye




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12:02:30 04/29/03


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you're still here~by Faith Hill


thought i saw you today
you were standing in the sun
and you turned away
and i knew it couldn't be
but my heart believed


oh it seems like there's something everyday
how could you be so far away
when you're still here
when i need you, you're not hard to find
you're still here
i can see you in my baby's eyes
and the laugh and cry
you're stil here


had a dream last night
that you came to me
on silver wings and light
i flew away with you
in the painless sky
and i woke up wondering
what was real
is it what you see and touch
or what you feel?


cause you're still here
Oh you're everywhere we've ever been
you're still here
i heard you in a stranger's laugh
and i hung around to hear him laugh again
just once again


thought i saw you today
you were standing in the sun
and you turned away


away.





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12:00:23 04/29/03


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I Believe~by Diamond Rio


Every now and then soft as breath upon my skin
I feel you come back again
And it’s like you haven’t been gone a moment from my side
Like the tears were never cried
Like the hands of time are holding you and me
And with all my heart I’m sure we’re closer than we ever were
I don’t have to hear or see, I’ve got all the proof I need
There are more than angels watching over me
I believe, I believe

Chorus
That when you die your life goes on
It doesn’t end here when you’re gone
Every soul is filled with light
It never ends and if I’m right
Our love can even reach across eternity
I believe, I believe

Forever, you’re a part of me
Forever, in the heart of me
And I’ll hold you even longer if I can
The people who don’t see the most
Say that I believe in ghosts
And if that makes me crazy, then I am
‘Cause I believe

There are more than angels watching over me
I believe, I believe




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11:46:18 04/29/03


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We are all in this together!
Everyones lives are a combination of happiness, sadness, success, failures, relationships that bond and relationships that fail. No one leads the perfect life. It is our relationships and our connection with other people that make us happy and give our lives meaning.
Eric's life impacted all of us who knew him, just as our lives impact those that we know. Eric's death revealed just how precious our relationships are and the gift we are to each other. He will truly be missed but by listening to his message and letting those around you know just how you feel and how important they are to you, all of our lives will truly be better.
Untill we meet again Eric, untill we meet again!




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To all of Eric's family and friends:
I am a parent of one of Eric's friends. I can't begin to find the words to tell all of you how incredibly sad I am at your loss. I didn't even know Eric, or his family for that matter, but I felt compelled to write. After reading so many of the posted messages, I realize I'm not the only one who didn't . I'm sure the pain and sadness you are all feeling right now must be overwhelming - I can't seem to think about anything else - but I hope we can create a legacy, in Eric's memory, of love and trust and of coming together as a family. I hope we have learned one thing from Eric - that we ALL need eachother. Parents: Don't ever let a day go by without telling your kids that you love them, and that you're proud of them. Kids: Talk to us!!! As a parent, I would sell my soul to assure my child's happiness. Our hearts break when yours do. From the time you're born we want only the best for you. We want you to love us, but know that at some time in your life, probably around the age of 14 - give or take a year - that you will hate us without a doubt. We want you to like us - and I mean beyond the age of 10, if we can even get that many years out of you - but know that at some time in your life, probably around the age of 12 - give or take a year - that we will undoubtedly embarrass you more than once. We want to talk with you - about what's going on in your lives - and spend time with you - one on one, at least once in a while - but know that at some time in your life - probably way sooner than we would like - we are replaced by your friends, who become your family, in your eyes. We know this will happen - we expect it - in different degrees, maybe, but we expect it. But, please, talk to us. About anything. There is nothing so bad that you can't share it with your parents. We love you with all we have, as I'm sure Eric's parents did. But he couldn't tell them about his demons and now they are living in a hell that has become their life. In Eric's memory, reach out to your family and friends. Be there for eachother, love eachother, and never forget. I am not a churchgoing person, but I will pray for all of you, each and every day. I will pray that God will bring peace to all of you and that He will help you through this. May Eric Graf rest in peace and may he now know all the love that was around him.