Name: Zec Jagmin
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21:26:06 04/25/03
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Eric We never really met but only from track last year. From track i have gotten great memories that i will never forget. Every day u came with a great attitude and i will never forget that. man why? It seemed that an enomorous amount of people loved u. We will all miss u and u will never be forgotten. May God bless u and your family. Zec
Name: Julie
E-Mail: Juliegrl55@aol.com
AIM: Juliegrl55
21:20:07 04/25/03
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Er, I'm sorry I'm writing again...it's just that I can't take my mind away from this...I feel sick....my stomach has been aching...to be honest I've actually thrown up today...but then I went to grieve by myself and I saw this book I had bought. I was reading through it when I saw a poem...a poem that I can see you telling all of us right now with your goofy smile, loud laugh and crazy hair...I know right now you're saying "Don't mourn my death, but celebrate my life..." Because that's what you said to my in my dream last night...and I will...cherish all of it...but here is the poem:
When Tomorrow Starts Without Me:
When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me, as much as I love you,
And each time you think of me, I know you'll miss me, too;
But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,
That an angel cqame and called my name and took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready in heaven far above, and that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly loved,
But as I turn to walk away, a tear fell from my eye, for all my life I'd always thought I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for, and so much yet to do, it seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad, I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, i thought just for awhile,
I'd say goodbye, and kiss you, and maybe see your smile.
But then I fully realized, that this could never be,
For emptiness and memories, would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things, that I'd miss tomorrow, i thought of you, and when I did, my heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through Heaven's gates, I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me, from his great golden thrown,
He said, "This is Eternity, and ALL I've promised you.
Today for life on Earth is past, but here it starts a new. I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last. And since each day's the same day, there's no longing for the past.But you have been so faithful, so trusting and so true.Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn't do. But you have been forgiven, and now at last your free. So won't you take my hand and share my life with me."
So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart.
For everytime you think of me, I'm right here in your heart.
I love you Grafferz....
You're always in mine...
Julie
Name: Kelly Campbell
E-Mail: tenaciouskampz@aol.com
AIM: DatzMizzKampz2u
21:06:14 04/25/03
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-Eric-
I never actually talked to you ever in my life, but my brother knew you. You lived down the street from me for awhile...wow this is hard..I dont know what to say. Ryan said you were a really hilarious guy and one of those people that everyone knew. Everyone, don't forget him, and always think about the good memories you had with him :) My heart goes out to his family and friends. I am truly sorry. RIP man.
-Kelly
Name: Lil Armon
E-Mail: Britta789@aol.com
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20:58:56 04/25/03
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Eric~ I know its been about 6 years since I've talked to you but you were so much fun whenever you came over to hang out with my brother. I remember you always used to chase me and my sister around the house. My cousin was even crying when she found out about you because of all of the family parties you came to with my brother, you were like part of the family. I've never even seen my dad cry before....until last night. Please watch over all of your friends and family because they loved you sooo much. RIP Eric *Brittany*
Name: Beverly Keener
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20:35:18 04/25/03
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Eric,
Although I barely knew you as a person, I have heard great things about you. I don't think that anyone will ever understand why you did what you did. Questions will come up with no answer, just simply because no one knew anything. My dad's boss's son, who that whole family is close with mine, did the same thing, and that was over 5 years ago, and I still wonder why it happened and what made him do it...I hope that those angels up above are really taking good care of you...make sure to watch over your friends and family, because you know they are thinking about you at every possible moment. TO ANY OF ERIC'S FRIENDS: DO NOT blame yourself for anything that had happened....Eric would NOT want you to do that, and you know it....keep your head high, and let his spirit live on in good memories. Lauren (snoop) you know that you were an awesome friend to eric, and the only thing that you ever did was love him and cherish your friendship....
Rest in peace Eric, and I know that those angels will take good care of you...hey, maybe you and my friend Nicole can become friends up there!!! :)
Love,
Beverly Keener
Name: Lauren Patrizi (again)
E-Mail: laurenpatrizi@yahoo.com
AIM: lamariedmb
20:27:05 04/25/03
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Hi guys---hasn't even been 48 hours yet, or even 12 hours since i last wrote.. I was listening to music trying to assemble some of my thoughts here.. I know how much we are all hurting and I want to use this as a platform to address all of my friends and to Eric.. a song i wish I could've played him 5 days ago while we sat in my room... :(
Pretenders-I'll Stand By You
Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now.
Don't be ashamed to cry,
let me see you through
Cause I've seen the dark side too.
When the night falls on you,
you don't know what to do,
Nothing you confess
could make me love you less
I'll stand by you,
I'll stand by you,
won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.
So, if you're mad get mad,
don't hold it all inside,
Come on and talk to me now.
And hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
But I'm alot like you.
When you're standing at the crossroads,
don't know which path to choose,
Let me come along,
cause even if your wrong
I'll stand by you,
I'll stand by you,
won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.
Take me into your darkest hour,
and I'll never desert you.
I'll stand by you.
And when, when the night falls on you baby,
you're feeling all alone,
You won't be on your own,
I'll stand by you.
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you,
won't let nobody hurt you.
I'll stand by you
Take me in into your darkest hour
and I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you.
Name: A friend of a friend....
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20:04:15 04/25/03
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*Eric*
I never really have met you but I knew many people that were close to you and I've heard so many stories about you. You seemed like you were one of a kind and it's sad to know that it came down to this but you will live forever in all our hearts. May you live happy in heaven and watch out for all of us (and I'm sure you already are!) but God Bless You! Our memories stay with us forever and never will anyone forget you. You're greatly missed by everyone and our love goes out to you kiddo! R.I.P.
**To anyone who was really close, I'm really sorry and I can't even imagine what you going through! but stay strong, everyone here for you!
Name: Breanne
E-Mail: breebaby04@ameritech.net
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20:02:57 04/25/03
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graf-i didn't know you that well at all..ive only hung out with u once and that night u had me laughing my ass off the second you and tyson picked me u..i remember seeing u in the hallways always smiling making people laugh non-stop..i dont understand how someone so kind and full of energy could do something like this..i remember when me u and tyson went to the football game wasted and i kept changing ur radio to what i wanted to listen 2 and ud kept yelling at me im gunna miss u sooo much..im praying 4 u, ur family, and your friends..your going to b missed by so many people!!! REST IN PEACE ERIC!!!!
Name: a close friend
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19:57:10 04/25/03
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Eric- im still waiting for someone to wake me up from this neverending nightmare... I cant believe that your gone. I never thought that of all people you would do this. There were no signs of anything and if I knew that something was wrong you could've totally come to me. I've known you for like 10 years and those 10 years you've helped me in so many ways. You were always there for me and made me smile when I was upset. Thank you for everything sweetie i'll keep you in my prayers. I'll see you soon buddy. I love you
Name: Brian Black
E-Mail: blackbooty8@yahoo.com
AIM: NoNoball8
19:51:38 04/25/03
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First off, I would like to express my condolences to Eric's friends and family. I can not say that I fully know what you are going through, but I can relate. I lost a very good friend in a car accident suddenly, and because she was by herself it left questions of how did it happen. I had met Eric on a couple of occasions, from Lauren and Hillary, and you could tell he was a funny guy just from his red hair. I think it is a requirement to be funny if you have big red hair like that. Eric always seemed to be well liked, and from what I hear there was not one person that any of his friends could think of that disliked him. I admire that tremendously.To Eric's friends:
I know a ton of you, some of you are some of my best friends. There are people who are still sharing the same experience with their friend Justin Dodge, who unfortunately ended his life as well just a few months ago. There are people out there dealing with the same thing and I believe it is a good idea to seek help and comfort in them if possible. Eric will ALWAYS be with you NO MATTER WHAT! To Eric's Family:
I am so sorry for your loss, and I can not imagine the heartache that you are going through. The best thing to do is seek comfort in Eric's friends because everyone that was close to him has a little piece of Eric in all of them. To Everyone:
The best possible thing to do to keep Eric's memory alive, and to mourn is to sit back and tell stories. You will cry, but as funny as Eric was, you will laugh, and laughter can be a great remedy. To Eric:
From the little that I had been around you, you were a character. Look around and find my friend Sarah. She has had a whole year in heaven and she is a great friend. Now I have a favor to ask of you. My father is not going to make it unfortunately. I ask of you to greet him for you are getting a head start on Heaven. He will be there shortly. I am extremely sorry that you felt that your life did not mean enough to yourself and other people, when OBVIOUSLY you were loved by so so many people. Rest in Peace, Sincerely,
Brian Black
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19:29:53 04/25/03
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Eric you were truly an amazing person. i pray to God for all your friends and family. i pray that we all get through this and try and find an answer. i just wish i could have known you better. but dang..what i did know of you, i LOVED! i wish you could have talked to someone Eric. that you could have shared what you were going through. but you didnt, and this happened. and even though this is such a tragedy, i know it is bringing people together. you have amazing friends who love and miss you Eric. God Bless you and God Bless those effected by your death.
Name: Leonard
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19:26:41 04/25/03
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Eric,
You always had a smile on your face and where having a good time with what ever you did. I still remember last yr and the bball games we would have in gym class. I just dont understand why you would do something like this when I found out I thought no way this is somebodys messed up joke but its not your gone and gonna be missed by everybody you had an impact on everybody who knew you RIP
Name: A Friend
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19:17:10 04/25/03
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You were at my house for a little get together and you decided to take out my tractor. You flipped off from being a little too crazy with it and you lost your glasses somewhere in my huge ass lawn. They were gone for 2 days!! Finally I found them and when I gave them back to you, a lens was missing. You were shit out of luck. Ha Ha Remember that??? Man what funny times.....
Name: Adam Garvey
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19:00:33 04/25/03
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Damn man. This kind of shit really makes a person think. We used to be best friends back in Jr. High. We talked a lot in 8th grade but started fading off as friends. Then I moved right before my Freshman year and I haven't talked to you since then. You don't even understand how bad it hurts me that I didn't keep in touch with you. When we were together we had so much fun. I remember the day that your parents bought a camper and you were so excited. The only memories that I have is of your bright hair and your big ass smile. You were always smiling and that's why this boggles my mind so much. You were one of the nicest people I ever knew and you always knew how to make any situation better. It seems that you have not changed since back then and that you are the same great person. When I found out what happened I could not believe it. Maybe you didn't realize how many people cared for you. Hell, you've got people caring for you over here, 3 states over. Well man I am really going to miss you and I'm sorry that we lost touch. It really makes me think and I with I would have kept in touch with a lot of people back home. Well man watch out for us. Right now you are up in heaven with one of my good friends from here, Mike Pangallo, who died two years ago. He was like you in many ways and it just hurts me so bad to know that all the great people are just leaving like this. Well all my prayers are out for you, your family, and everyone in Frankfort. Take it easy buddy
Name: one sweet day
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18:32:43 04/25/03
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Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away
AyyyNever had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Evetually I'll see you in heaven...
Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared
all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Eventually I'll see you in heaven
Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Yeah
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Name: chase schweitzer
E-Mail: Burnitdownkid352000@yahoo.com
AIM: Burnitdownkid35
18:12:57 04/25/03
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whats up graf !!!!i dunno what to really say in this other then you were a pretty bad ass kid. i met so many kids in LW that have became my friend or even best friends. i could consider you one of my pretty good buddy of mine.Although we never hung out that much
anymore there were those months were it would be just me and you all the time over at Donkels house making fun of Joey and most of all remember that time me you Henniger and the rest of the guys were wasted laughing our asses off at the
picture of KJD. I think about that shit more then i ever did now. When i first heard about this it came to a shock to me because you were always the funny guy laughing with me when we were at some place together so i could say that i was
never really expecting something like this from you. Damn kid do you remember Chellenos party where it was east and central kids having a good time and you fell on Miller!???????! Jeeze that was the highlight of the night i felt bad for her but
regardless it was funny as hell because you were always that funny kid to me. Theres all these little details about you that i can remember from getting lost in the forest by the tree fort and me and vince going there for Halloween to all the
funny shit we used to say to JOEY and KJD. I have nothing else to really say about this other then There is now a Website on the Internet which is filled with comments about how awesome you are. We'll miss ya bra R.I.P.
Name: allie correa
E-Mail: alliecorrea@sbcglobal.net
AIM: allieoopster27
18:11:56 04/25/03
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graf. i really don't know. track wasn't every a very exciting sport but wow you made it worth while. i remember when it used to be to bad to go outside and throw, we threw in the balcony and i dont know what you were doing but we all heard a *bang* and next thing we all knew, there was a broken light and your eyes got big. i honestly don't think i ever laughed so hard. you and otto and your silly talks at practices and the meets were pretty boring but one time to keep us busy we braided your red locks we spent an hour doing it and you went the bathroom said you looked gay and took them out. you always had a way of making feel like they mattered. i'd look at your smile and just think that you really cared. i felt so embarrassed one day at practice because i was bleeding from a hurdle and you were like it's okay the sugar gnome bit you and you went into this whole speel about when you wanted sugar all you had to do was call the sugar gnome i asked if he was white and u laughed and said he was GREEN...like a leprechan. haha i wondered how you thought of all these things and i always thought you lived a simple life but i found out the hard way you didn't. and you were the favorite of my throwers in the fat man's relay. it was all for the pizza and when you took that flying leap across the finishing line, i was just shaking my head, because that was what you did... no matter what, you made everyone happy. last night when i found out i tore my room apart looking for the negatives from track, eric. it took me 5 minutes, the longest 5 minutes of my life. and now i have triples of all the pictures i have with you. you're a beautiful person. it really hasn't hit me yet but it will, when i won't have a reason to scream "GRAF!!" in the halls or at lunch and i think you were one of the only people who didn't look at me like i was weird when i did. i missed you this year after school. and i don't know how many more times i could've told you that but i don't get why you kept telling me you'll come back when you can't. but i love you just the same and if not... more. you've taught me something special. "it's the little things that matter" i know you're up there so keep on shining. much love graf, much love.
Name: Tess
E-Mail: mysty10610@aol.com
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17:37:37 04/25/03
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eric-
when i first found out i was in total shock...and i guess i still am. i didnt know you as well as i would have liked to. all the memories i have of u r of ur crazy antics...partying dancing drinking and trying to seduce me at armons haha...for sum reason i cannot get ur face out of my mind. everytime i try to change it...it comes back to u. u have made such an impact on this world and when i saw u everyday before first hour it started off my day rite. just to look at u put a smile on my face that no one could take away... not even mr bounds. u were such a vibrant loving person and i still dont understand. i just dont get it. there were so mne ppl there for you...y didnt u just reach out? this incident has made me think alot as im sure it has for so mne other ppl. life is precious and ppl do care, if u let them. i love you and im gunna miss u. i hope to see u when i get up there...
love always and forever,
tess
Name: angela Kirsch
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17:37:03 04/25/03
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Eric i cant believe this is real... i just saw you the other day and you seemed so haapy... it hurts! It hurts for you to be gone and it hurts to see everyone in tears! Everyone loves Eric! You were always the life of the party whether it was because you were doing something Crazy or because your best friends were teasing you about your red hair! The time i will never forget about you is when Ed was driving and it was me you and tyson goin down to Indiana and you kept goin on and on about how good the muffin that you were eating was soo delicious! You insisted that i tried and when i did we laughed soo hard that the muffin nearly came out of my mouth... I only have good memories of you but Eric they will be remember forever! I am gonna miss standing next to you in the lunch line! But Hey have fun in heaven and Tell God to let me in later!
Name: conley
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17:35:14 04/25/03
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its so hard for me to put any of this into words...now that you are gone i remember so much, things that happened between third grade and a month ago, and i cant come up with one negative memory of you. i cant believe this and im sorry it happened to you.
Name: ****
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17:34:54 04/25/03
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eric, i didn't know you at all. i looked at your picture in the yearbook though and i could remember seeing your face laughing down the hall. i know by reading these other messages you will be truly missed by all. i wish that i would have known you, you seem like you were an AWESOME guy. well hopefully ill get to know you when i get up there. RIP.
Name: Katie
E-Mail: Luckybrandco8@aol.com
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17:33:05 04/25/03
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Hey Eric--I didn't know you at all, but from all the wonderful things i read thru this u seem like a person everyone should know. To all of his friends and loved ones, I went thru a similar thing earlier this past year just give it time, right now it hurts so badly to think that he won't be there for you, but as time goes on you will realize that it's gunna be okay. I hope you all cherish those memories and keep him close to your heart. <3 Katie
Name: Hilary Johnston
E-Mail: hilaryJ1519@hotmail.com
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17:20:21 04/25/03
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ERIC~
WOW!!!! I haven't to you since last year, but how could I forget someone like you!! You were a GREAT person and funny as hell!! Your going to be missed by so many people... but, i know that God is taking care of you!! i cant wait until I can see you again!! MISS YA AND LOVE YA TONS!!!!!( words can't explain how much)..
R.I.P. ~ ERIC GRAF
-Hilary-
Name: cassie
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16:59:04 04/25/03
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Graf,
This doesnt add up? How did this happen? This website is pure evidence that you have people that care about you and that love you. Look at all the people on this page, look how many people you've made an impact on, see how many people you couldve called, just one call and we'd be there. You must've done something right in this world Graf, to touch this many people.
Ill always remember you making those prank phone calls, and ill never forget your face when someone passes out on you : ) You've got to know that we all care and we always will. Lives will be changed but we will never forget you. Your in Gods hands. miss you always,
Cassie p.s. if you see Christine Brown say hello for me : ) thanks Graf, for the laughter
Name: Ashley Peloquin
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16:43:52 04/25/03
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Eric, You were a wonderful guy! You made everyone happy. You always had a smile on your face and you put everyone in a good mood. I can't believe you are gone, when first found out I was shocked. You meant a lot to me and I know you meant everything to your family and friends. I will always miss you ERIC. You were a great friend and a fun guy. Everyone will miss you deeply, I know I will. I love you Graf !Ashley Peloquin
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16:24:41 04/25/03
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"A Tribute" I just can't find the words that say,
Exactly how I feel.
That describe the pain so deep inside,
Pain that is so real.
First empty with loss,
Then heavy with pain.
When the fire went out,
Extinguished by the rain.
I know I must move on,
Get on with my life.
But this woond is too deep,
Like it was cut by a sharp kinfe.
Tears flow like rivers,
From redened eyes.
My heart feels so dark,
Just like stormy skies.
Its just so hard,
To say good-bye,
To a friend,
That has died.
Name: Kobit
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16:21:08 04/25/03
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G- Money,
Well kid I dont really know what to say other than i'm gonna miss ya so bad.. We had some crazy times that I'll never forget, and how you always found a way to make us luagh. How bout when you fell off the roof at the farm on to miller and practically broke her back, or when you tried breakin that board and instead almost broke ur shoulder, and ill never forget our "Journeys", you guys know what im talkin about. Those were definetly some of the benefits of bein around your ass. I dont think i've ever been mad at you beacause you were a great freind and you were always smilin. It's crazy to think just 3 nights ago we were at focia's drinkin our beer, singin saliva, and just havin a great time laughin n' chillin. Thats the Graf I'm always gonna remember. If I could go back and change any of it I wouldn't, I'd juss show you how many peaople care about you more than you could imagine, cuz then i know you'd still be here.. Thanks for being a friend to me and pretty much everyone i know, were never gonna forget ya. We'll party on and hold down the G-unit for ya cuz we know thats exactly what you'd want us to do... I love ya, Kobit ~R.I.P.~
Name: Jason
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16:20:46 04/25/03
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Eric i didn't really know you, I talked to you a few times but i didn't really know you. I remember you were funny as hell . You have touched me and everyone else at East. I hope you find happiness now. I've learned a lot from you already and my thoughts and prayers go out to your friends and family.
Name: Monica
E-Mail: Monica_k85@yahoo.com
AIM: Lilprincipessa85
16:14:30 04/25/03
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Eric~
When I found out I could not believe it. I thought the person who told me was just joking, but when I found out it was true I was in denial. You are such a great person. We never hung out outside of school but I still have a ton of great memories of you. English class this semester was a blast with you and so was track. You always knew how to put people in a good mood and I will always remember you laughing and smiling! I know that you are now in a better place and that God is taking care of you, but just know that everyone still loves you here and that you will always be remembered. Thank you for everything that you have done for me. I’ll miss you.
Love ya kid!
Monica Kase
Name: Brittany Gignac
E-Mail: pnkrckprncss7288@netscape.net
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16:12:17 04/25/03
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Eric*~I don't even know you. Lincoln-Way East is a big school, and I'm just a freshman, possibly nothing to you. However, when I heard "the news," I was shocked. You were just a kid like me, and not some kid in another state, when I automatically think "that wouldn't happen here." This is real. You went to MY school, you were friends with some people who are possibly MY friends...it's a complete surprise. I mean, I don't even KNOW you, and I'm so freaked. I can't imagine the heartache your friends, teachers, and family are going through right now. It tears me up inside, to know that you were so depressed, you felt taking your own life was your only solution. Life is a gift, and you tossed it aside. However, it was totally your decision. I have no idea what you were going through, or what was on your mind. Your life might have been a living hell, and I don't even know it. But, you're in a better place, and I pray to God that you are finally happy. May God rest your soul, and peace be with all of the people whom you have touched. Your family and friends are in my prayers ~*Brittany Gignac*~
Name: Danielle
E-Mail: dstars69312@yahoo.com
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15:53:33 04/25/03
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eric, wow i didnt even kno who u were but the instant that i heard this news i started to cry. after reading all these it appears u were a really sweet kid and u were funny, obvioulsy u had alot of freinds and were well loved. i dont understand why such a great person with alot going fer him would want to do this. i want u to kno that all though i never met u and u prolly have no clue who i am either, that this event has touched my life. its a sad thing wat u did but maybe youre happier now wehre u are and hopefully are watchin down on all of your freinds. you will be missed greatly and im sorry i never got tha chance to meet you! love ya kid!--Danielle
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15:42:48 04/25/03
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Eric, we didnt know eachother much but u were such a memorable person to me whether u realize it or not. I remember back like 4th grade on the bus u were just hilarious. I remember one time at kat's we were all hanging out in the basement and i was really bored, and u came down and everything u said just cracked me up. You seemed like the friendliest person in the world, always making everyone laugh, i know thats how u will be remembered. R.I.P. May Angels Lead You In - Mallet
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15:41:14 04/25/03
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Eric I didnt know you all that well but you hung out with my brother and a bunch of his friends I know that every last one of them is truly going to miss you ive heard so many great stories about you the last 24 hours and I see how badly all of them are hurting just know that you do have people who care about and will care about you forever please watch over all the guys and rest in peace
Name: Safia Faseehuddin
E-Mail: afsexysof220@aol.com
AIM: afexysof220
15:33:01 04/25/03
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Graf~
O man O man.. where i do begin? At the same time i want to cry because you're gone and for all the pain you were in, but as all these memories flood through my mind, i can't help but to find myself laughing and smiling. That's how i'll always remember you Eric, always laughing and bringing joy and happiness to others as often as you could. You were the one i could count on to cheer me up and bring some good to the bad. Remember we were in Kim's basement and Tom and Kim were playing tag in the dark on their knees and Gorny was busy chasing Kelly around haha and you and I just laid there in the corner talking about the stupidest stuff! Or way back in sophomore year when we first got to kno each other. Out of nowhere in Hessers class you kept smacknig me with rubber bands and then i just launched at you and not you out of ur desk and onto the ground and ms. hesser yelled at you for being loud haha. And you promised me in my yearbook, "KIA Safia, u know im gonna get u back for hittin me that one time..." Man, it's wierd, just a couple days ago i was cleanining out my car cuz im trading it in cuz im buying a mustang (sorry, i kno you love the old ones but i gotta have one thats new and shiny!) and i found apez things in the back from u. The odd thing is, for some reason, i didn't throw it out. I mean its a mere thing of candy thats been sittin in my car for like a year and for some reason, i didn't want to part with it. And then a few days later i hear about this never-ending nightmare. You were always one to help anyone you could in any way possible. I only wish I could have been there for you this time. I had no idea you were hurting this much. We all go through those periods where nothing seems to be going your way and only horrible thoughts come to mind, nothing good, and u just dwell on the bad. But it nevers gets that bad. Theres always another way. Life doesn't shut the door without opening a window. So many people loved you Graf, i just wish this wasn't the way for you to realize that. You shouldn't have given up so soon, I and so many more would have been there in a second if you would have only called us. So many people are grieving for your loss, but im gonna take a different perspective on things. I've learned a lot from J's passing a few months ago... I know you're happy now.. happier than you could ever be down here. Nothing can touch you. Please keep an eye out for the rest of us. We all love and miss you deeply. I LOVE YOU GRAF! ~KIA Safia
Name: Megan
E-Mail: Megz1028@msn.com
AIM: Madommegzx
15:30:21 04/25/03
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Graf-Wow, I am in total shock right now. At first i thought this was all a bad dream and i would just wake up...but i realized i was wrong. I think you are without a doubt the most caring and the nicest person that i have ever known. I know i may not know you as well as other people do...but i remember so many great times with you. Like calling Foote on the two way and then you doing the sports illustrated(swimsuit issue) pose for me and sam. I wish you knew how many people care about you. At first i was mad at you but i cant be anymore...you are such a great person. I will never forget you! You will be missed by many! I love ya!Megan Wohler
Name: angela wator
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15:28:04 04/25/03
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hey...i just got back from returning movies to jc flicks, and i could barely even step in there cause all i could think of was how chase and i used to run down the aisles and put all the movies behind the wrong boxes so you would have to go fix them. Everywhere you went, you made people laugh for hours with all the crazy stuff you would do. I just dont understand why someone who was so funny and had so much ahead of him would want to do what you did... I keep thinking about weird random memories, like at social last year when we had nobody to dance with during the slow songs, so you and me were dancing and pretending to be a couple in love... ive known you since freshman year and you have always made me laugh, so I feel very fortunate to have known you while you were here. RIP graf
Name: Justin Heumann
E-Mail: JHeumann7@msn.com
AIM: J Hizzo 29 7
15:26:38 04/25/03
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Graf,
I'll always remember you! I wish i could have done something to prevent this. You'll always leave a big impact in my life and you've taught me a valuable lesson. You'll be in my prayers each and every day. I'll do the best I can for ya now! Until next time bud!
Name: cait
E-Mail: linliz2923@aol.com
AIM: caits2923
15:16:47 04/25/03
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eric, i don't even know where to begin. i guess i still don't believe that you're really gone. this all feels like a bad dream, and i'm just waiting to wake up. when i found out i couldn't even think. i didn't want to. i still can't even comprehend all this. at rachel's last night, seeing everyone simply beside themselves, it just proved how much you touched EVERYONE'S life who knew you, even if they only met you once. the unbelievably funny kid who could always make you laugh and smile. hillary and i were talking about the millions of memories we had growing up...the best of course her pony party, even though i suspect that thing was just a donkey! you, me, hill, and rob on the bus in 8th grade, always going back to school and getting yelled at by rigoni, ENDLESS nights of kick the can at matt's in the summer...we always had something fun to do, even if most nights it was just rollerblading or riding bikes around good ol' downtown frankfort. eric, it breaks my heart that you were feeling so much pain that you couldn't go on...so many people loved and cared about you, we're all just sitting here asking ourselves why...why you had to go, why you had to leave us...i just can't believe it. to dave, your parents, and your family...you're all in my thoughts and prayers...eric we're going to miss you so much. you're leaving us with hundreds of priceless memories of a guy everyone loved so much. you were always willing to do anything for your friends, i just wished you would have let us know so we could have done for you what you needed...we'll love you always, and miss you like crazy. we will NEVER EVER forget you kid. you're in a much better place, and we'll take you with us wherever we go...as we finish out high school, nothing will be the same without you, but we'll carry you with us. love and miss you dude...
love cait
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15:11:37 04/25/03
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eric~
i dont know you at all, but from what i hear your a great guy. Im so sorry to hear about this. to his friends.....
talk about all the memories and dont ever forget them. I know that he will be missed so much, hold on to eachother!!!
My prayers are with his friends and family.
Name: Christie Yorke
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14:57:10 04/25/03
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Eric
When i heard what happened i couldnt believe it. I can just remember walking into chemistry class soph. yeah thinking that i wanted to be close with you. You lit up a room with your smile and ability to make somebodies bad day turn to a great day. Ever since Chem class we became very close. I can play back the memory of you thowing a glue stick at ms. K. Last summer we became closer than ever. You always said that i had this ability to persuade you in a different direction. I would always get upset with you when you would pull your stunts to make people laugh, because i honestly cared so much about you and knew you were better than that. As much as everyone cannot believe that you did this for some reason it all makes sense now to me. You did reach out to me earlier in the year. I was going to tell someone b/c i was so hurt by what you told me. When i was going to tell a counsler at school you told me that you were just talking and you would never kill yourself. I talked for long hours with you on the phone and made you realize that i would ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU! I remember when we went out the next day and bought matching velvet j-lo suits. we were in gadzooks trying on the outfits and i remember how we went back to your house to get money so you could get a matching suit like mine. well i just want to apologize for not staying as close to you as I use to be and i want you to know that I love and care so much about you. I just wish that you would have told someone, nothing can ever get that bad. There is ALWAYS a way out. You were sooo loved. I know you had some problems , but you did not have to take your life. You were a wonderful person. The only thing i cant seem to get out of my head is how you called me on tuesday. When i heard what you did i knew you were calling me to say goodbye. And i talked to you and you were sooo happy. And i didnt call you back. I am soo sorry for not calling you back. I love you and rest in peace. God bless your wonderful mother. I can still remember when i met her at Alsip and how you said she always wished i was your girl friend. My prayers are with you and your family forever.
God Bless You and take you to a better place
Christie Yorke
Name: Brigid Patrizi
E-Mail: bpatriz@aol.com
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14:50:16 04/25/03
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Eric,Don't assume that just because I am old enough to be your mother that I will grieve any less than your friends in high school who love you so dearly. Of all of Lauren's "guy friends," you were, and will always be, my favorite. I think that you know that. Your mother and I had great plans for you and Lauren! Needless to say, the Patrizi women, Lauren and Shannon and myself, were crazy about you Eric! (By the way...thanks for keeping an eye on my Shannon. Can you keep that job from Heaven? Would you mind?) My heart aches to think of the pain that you must have felt... A pain so great that you saw no other answer. I can't help but be angry with you but I know, in my heart, that you never intended to be the cause of so much incredible sorrow. I know, that given a chance, you would take it all back. All of us are now left to wonder what we could have said or done to make things turn out differently. In the end, the only difference that we can now make is to honor your life by being good to each other during this terrible time. Let's also take the time to tell those that we love how we feel about them...now, while we have the chance. To Eric's friends: Honor Eric's life by continuing to seek joy in your life. Your high school journey is coming to a close. Eric would want you to celebrate your accomplishments. When together over the coming weeks and months, share your memories of Eric. Allow yourself to laugh and to cry. Eric's spirit, and his smile, will be with you. To Eric's family: You are in my thoughts and prayers. Ms. P
Name: Allison Wodziak
E-Mail: Alliepintocat@hotmail.com
AIM: Alliepintocat
14:36:07 04/25/03
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~*ErIc*~
Well Graf, I just don't get it. And quite honestly, I probably never will. I'll never understand why such a loved,friendly, warm-hearted, and ridiculously funny kid would want to take there life? I wish you would have stuck it out a little bit longer to see that after high school, a lot of the bullshit is over. I wish you would have reached out to even just one person in an effort to prevent what happened. I pray to GoD Graf that this is what you really wanted, and that you regret nothing. I'm not going to lie to you, when I first found out I didn't cry. I even cried when I heard about Justin. I didn't know him very well, but to me it was sad and I was more sympathizing with his friends. But you Graf. It wasn't a reality to me. All I could say was please tell me this is a really sick joke. But unfortunately it wasn't. Then I went to Rachel's where everyone met. And believe you me there was no way I was going to cry there. My hurt Graf, doesn't even compare to kids like Tyson, Henniger, Murphy etc. But when I had to show face at practice this morning, I broke down. Walking up to the field where everyone (people who didn't even know you) stared at me because they knew, was the hardest thing ever. Anyways, you've given me so many great memories I don't even know where to begin. I remember back in 7th grade at Lauren's when Cami relayed a message to me to dance with you. Throughout the entire dance you quietly seranaded me with Selena "Dreaming of You" HaHa... It was the cutest thing. Or how about when were out for the nite and you were ridiculously smashed yelling ghetto slang out the window we thought we were going to get shot up in the back streets of Tinley. Then we finally got to Bremen you were too drunk to sit in the theater so we took you out to the car. The best part was when we walk outside, it was raining, and you were laying across the seat with your head just chillin' in the rain and had no idea what was going on... Great times Graf. That's all you've given everyone else and myself. Things will never be the same and you will always be in my heart.~*I LoVe YoU ErIc*~
-Wodz
Name: Galvan
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14:13:45 04/25/03
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Graf
When I heard what happened i fell into a state of shock. That im still in right now. Im so confused. When I think of Eric Graf i think smiling redhead always laughin and the life of the party. And this hole thing just doens't click. I dont understand and I dont think I ever will. Your were such a happy person. I never expected anything of the sort. I will always wonder what made you come to this decision..You had so many friends and people that loved you that you could have talked to about anything. We will never be able to walk to 2nd hour, talk about how shitty our cell phones are, and the fort will never be the same w/o you. This is seriously heartbreaking we will never be able to chill again. And you are someone I will always miss and have in my heart. My prayers go out to ur family and all of your friends. We will miss you deeply Eric.. You were one of a kind. So goodbye for now until we meet again.
Love,
Galvan/Galvo
Name: Tim
E-Mail: LessThanJake312@sbcglobal.net
AIM: PennyLoafers4lfe
14:11:50 04/25/03
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Graf-
I've known your since Jr. High, and you always have been able to put a smile on my face. The Time i remember the most is when Chris kept getting sick in your basement, and in your car, and your driving made him even more sick. Good times. See you when I get there...
Tim
Name: Jason Watland
E-Mail: jwatland@purdue.edu
AIM: CrazyJay013
14:05:59 04/25/03
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Eric,
I heard the news this morning, and I couldnt believe it. I'm sitting in my dorm room, thinking, damn....why? The first thing that came to my head, was when you would always come chill with us while me and Keating, Grey, or Sean were workin at Jewel cause you took like hour lunch breaks. You were always laughin, you made slacking at work so much better, haha. I know I didnt know you too well, but when I was with you, it was always a good time. You will be missed by all, Rest in peace man
Name: Courtney Schiefelbein
E-Mail: Shamminsista@yahoo.com
AIM: LWChick03
14:00:43 04/25/03
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Eric with a C- hey buddy. Well...this is the time when all the memories of you come flooding back to me. Never bad ones- always good ones. I'm mad right now because I didn't think you could ever do such a thing to yourself. My God Eric you were one of the most hilarious kids I've ever met. The funny ones always seemed to come out from Frankfort.... Ha Ha I just think it's such a shame that it took this horrible event in order for you to see how many people truly cared about you and how many lives you've touched. It's amazing, eh? I was driving past Aberdeen Road to Prestwick the other day, thinking back to "Hotel Armitron" and for some reason I thought of you. It's not every day I start thinking of you out of the blue... Ha It was Tuesday afternoon, and this horrible mess hadn't even occured yet, but you came into my head. I thought of the hilarious scene you made walking into that house...that's when the real party started!! I also thought back to your "infamous hair cut"... it looked pretty good for a red head. :) I totally forgot about this one time, but now, like i said, all the memories are coming back.... I remember one time after coming back from the Dunes a whole bunch of people ended up chillin at Koski's. You drank so much that night. So much! And to prove it- you gave me your necklace to wear and had me put every beer tab from every beer you drank on it so that we could keep track. I think we got up to about 8 of 'em before I had to get on home. That didn't mean you weren't finished yet...I swear we could have filled up an entire necklace...! Oh yeah- and thanks for coming to my Jimmy Buffet's Madstyle Margarita Party- I think that's the reason everyone came. Ha Ha You were a natural at driving my tractor, especially with a can of, shall we say soda, in your hand!! Well, it was fun while you were here and i hope you're makin' things just as fun up there in Heaven. Watch over everyone man. It was a real pleasure to have known you.... Love you to pieces, Courtney
Name: Jake Curran
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14:00:11 04/25/03
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Eric,All i have of you is memories now. You where a very funny kid. Everytime i saw you, you would make me laugh my ass off dude. I will always remember freshmen year, me and cumbee where walking down Colorado avenue on one of the snow days when school was canceled. I looked down the street and sure enough there was a car flying through the snow with a kid being towed on a sled in the back...sure enough graf, it was you man! So of course...being the nice person you are..you said "Curran...Cumbee...give it a try, its the funnest thing ever!"...soo me and matt got on and you and ur brother towed us around butternut for an hour dude...ill never forget you man...your grandmas was right down the street man...how could you do this to us...everyone is hurting man...we miss you soo much..the last time i saw you was when u invited me keating and gorny over to paintball in ur backyard...that was soo fun man...you shot me like 20 times and i called it quits...ill never forget you dude...I Love you man...
R.I.P Bro
Curran
Name: Sam Buell
E-Mail: easilyamused12@aol.com
AIM: Sweetieovrhere55
13:55:28 04/25/03
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Graf I've only known you for about a year now and i knew you were one of the greatest kids I ever knew. If someone was having a bad day, you could always cheer them up. I just remember the good times at your house with Tyse, Foote, and the rest of the crew. There's only a few people in your life you have to talk about serious things with and you were one of those people. You were the easiest person to talk to. You made me laugh all the time. I just wish you knew how everyone felt right now. We all miss you so much and you've been gone not too long. We're gonna miss your laugh, your sense of humor, and the way you made everyone happy. I can remember thisone day, I was having seriously the worst day of my life and I saw you in the halls and your smile and the way you said Sammmm just made me cheer up. I cant imagine you, Eric Graf, doing this. Why?! Graf I miss you buddy and i cant wait til I see you again in Heaven. Im glad I could share these good times with you, though. Im gonna miss crusin with you in the Crown Vic and Mustang. I will ALWAYS remember you. I love you and if the time still comes when you want to take me out on that dinner you were talking about, I'll be waiting.
Name: Jill
E-Mail: sxyangel668@hotmail.com
AIM: oxlovinyouxo
13:50:07 04/25/03
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Eric-
hey i didnt really get a chance to know u and although i didnt really know u all that well im still gonna miss u it just doesnt seem rite that ur the one who had to go! u seem like just a great guy! and u will truely b missed by everyone!
Name: Jackie
E-Mail: jacwic71@hotmail.com
AIM: slinky0371
13:27:38 04/25/03
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Eric,
I never knew you too well but the only memories I have of you are of laughs, jokes, and all around good times. You were one of those people that could just light up a room when you walked into it. It hurts so much to know you were suffering so much on the inside. I wish there was something we could have done for you, some way we could have shown you that we cared. You will be greatly missed and never forgotten.
Love, Jackie
Name: Megan O'Shaughnessy
E-Mail: shortibaybee697@aol.com
AIM: Billabongbaybe7
13:26:18 04/25/03
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Graf, i didn't know u as well as some of my friends but ever since i met u everytime i saw u, u put a smile on my face. u were one of the funniest kids i knew. i never saw a dull moment in u. u always knew how to cheer ppl up and u were always the life of the party. i know u had troubles in your life but i don't understand how it could have come to this. everyone loved u...seriously i don't know one person who didn't like u..i remember the first time i met u...with footy n shannon....u opened ur arms to me and accepted me no questions asked. without even knowing me...and i couldn't stop laughing....Graf i will miss u and i regret not knowing u sooner....but u are in our hearts and will b missed so much. i love u graf
-megg-
Name: clark
E-Mail: clarkxbar@aol.com
AIM: clarkxbar
13:16:09 04/25/03
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Graf,
I dont know what to say. i havnt really been friends with you in about 4 years but that doesnt mean i will ever forget the good old days of grade school. I know we had so much fun in Mrs. McKay's 6th grade class along with Armon, conley, clay. And then the rest of the frankfort gang in jr high. I have seen you like 20 times since then and every time we would talk about the good old days and how come things cant be as simple as they used to be. I never forget ya. Rest in peace bro
Name: Ryan Murphy
E-Mail: Murph2626@Hotmail.com
AIM: Murph2626
13:09:33 04/25/03
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Graf, G-Money, Big Red, Firecrotch...the list goes on buddy, haha...I don't even know where to start kid...you were such a great friend and we had so many memories...how could you do this to yourself...you had so much going for you...it's hard to imagine that at one time me and dybas hated you when you were in our gym class remember...haha tho we laughed about it after...you leveled dybas playing football and the next thing I know...I'm hangin out with you all the time...gettin drunk, ha doin our thing...it's screwed up...you were one of my best friends Graf...you know you coulda came to me with anything...I woulda been there for you...last summer of '02...so many memories!!! Building the fort, hanging at the farm...you were jumpin on girls and running through fires...haha you were crazy man...but I will never forget the times we had at the fort when it was finally done and built...from watchin movies out there to drinking til the early morning...there were a lot of fun times...ha the one time at my house we had to convince you for about 2 hours to cut your hair...and we lied to you about how long it would be...then my bro chopped it all off and it was shorter than mine...damn...I'm never gonna forget ya bro...ya know what tho...when that one day comes, when all of our friends are reunited up there...it's gonna be fuckin' crazy...haha and you know that...Heaven's not gonna know what hit em...but until that time all I got are the pictures and memories in my head...I'm gonna miss you kid...keep an eye out for all of us...cuz you know we need all the help we can get, haha!!!
Love ya,
Murphy
Name: Chris
E-Mail: Enjoy5inc@hotmail.com
AIM: CCJ81586
12:53:15 04/25/03
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Eric,
I don't know what to say. I miss you already, you were one of the coolest guys I ever chilled with. We had some good times like me getting sick in your basement and when you pulled over so it would'nt happen in the car. I'm always gonna remember chillin' with you. Thanks for all the great times man. I miss you already.
Name: Shannon
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12:46:58 04/25/03
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Eric-
Hey babe.. I still don't even know how to handle this. It just doesn't seem right Graf. Why you? Out of all the people in this world who I thought would have chose to do this, the words "Eric Graf" would have never came out of my mouth. It just seemed like there was nothing, and I mean nothing, that could ever wipe that "happy-go-lucky" smile off your face. There was not one time where no matter how pissed off I was, that you weren't there to make us laugh. Everyone loved you Graf. Not just the people around your age either. Parents loved you. My mom adored you Graf. I remember when you and my sister were real little and my mom just thought you were the cutest thing she'd ever seen. Even then you were constantly making people smile. You will be missed. You are truly gone, but not forgotten.
Name: Nick Grey
E-Mail: Bikeelf84@aol.com
AIM: Grey84
12:25:59 04/25/03
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Graf
When I heard the news about you I was heartbroken. You were one of the coolest kids i have ever met. You always had a way of cheering people up. I will never forget the way you made me laugh every single day. We are all thankful for all the great times you gave us. I have known you forever Graf. And ever since grade school, you havent changed a bit, always laughing, always joking around, always helping people through tough times. I'll never forget the way you just fit in to every single group, you are loved by everyone. You are truly one of a kind, you will always be remembered. love ya man
RIP
Name: Natalie Carlascio
E-Mail: Flips03@excite.com
AIM: LuvableLascio05
12:23:02 04/25/03
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Klausmeister....
Wow Kid, Can't believe this. We had some real good times back in Deutsche Hell. All I can think about is the night that you came to my house w/ ashley dicken. You liked her soooooo much....we had pizza and wondered the streets. That's when I met your rents. I'm sure they don't remember me...it was like 4 years ago but I do remember them to be the nicest people. I'm soooo sorry mr. and mrs. graf. My prayers are with you. I also remember going to the bowling alley with you, larry, kaely, megan. We had some real good times back in the day. You came over one night w/ larry and kaely, and i remember you doing your strip tease that you apparently were famous for, b/c when I mention it EVERYONE knows what i'm talking about. I just can't comprehend why you would do something like this. I've had 9 friends/acquaintences die in the past 2 years in Car accidents...but the key word is ACCIDENT. Er, you had so many friends...and i'm sure that all of them would be sooooo happy to help you if you needed to talk, or a shoulder to cry on. I know we lost touch the past couple years..but If you needed me, i would have been there for ya too. I'm sorry we lost touch...you were a great person, and you're spirit will live on through all of those who you've touched hearts (including mine). I love you Eric. Say hi to everyone up there for me...k? I love you....
~Natalie Carlascio
Name: Julie
E-Mail: Juliegrl55@aol.com
AIM: Juliegrl55
12:22:25 04/25/03
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Eric...wow, I have having a really hard time coming to terms with this. I guess I'm just left in the state of pure shock and confusion. Why...I just don't understand...I'm sorry but I truly feel myself getting mad at you...and I don't know why. You were surrounded by people that loved you...the walls of that fort were covered in things that people wrote about how awesome of a person you were and we just can't understand it. I'm so mad Graf....I'm so unbelievably mad...how come you just couldn't have reached out. Murphy and Henninger were two of your greatest friends...why didn't you just reach out to them and tell them. I remember Thursday at school right before Spring Break...I was walking down the hall and I screamed Graf...and you didn't turn around..so I screamed your name again...and you still didn't look...finally I like screamed so loud that the school shook...and you turned around and go What Up GIIIIRLLL! Haha that made my day...or when my brother left me at school so you gave me a ride home...WAYYY OUT of your way. Or when you fell of Chellino's roof onto Catherine Miller...hahah...or when you ran through the fire....Thank you...for those little things. Thank you for those times when I was scared to walk all the way back to the fort by myself so you met me half way. Or in gym class...when we had swimming or volleyball and our team was by far the best...and you were the only one that believed that I could spike it over the net...regardless of my "Height Challenge"...and when you and Dustin thought you guys were the best damn badminton players...and you guys really just sucked. Haha...I miss those times...This is just too much for me right now...it's just too much....
I'll write soon
Love you Graf,
Julie Dominy
Name: Nikki
E-Mail: lwehshottie77@hotmail.com
AIM: lovewazwaz13
12:21:46 04/25/03
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*ERIC*
I didn't know you very well, but I wish I could have. You were very close to some of my closest friends, and I never had the pleasure in meeting you- just knowing of you. I, myself, have delt with suicidal attempts, and depression- you were never alone! I just wish you would have done what I did, and get help. It's too late now, just to see how many people care about you and will miss you so much! You were a friend of a friend to me, and it'll never be the same! My friends have cried over you, and I as well- because that's just how much you meant to all of us, who were lucky enough to have known you! I hope that you are peaceful in Heaven, and that God is taking care of you! I also hope that your family finds the strength to carry on! We love and miss you, Eric! RIP
Name: Melissa Simek
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12:10:22 04/25/03
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Eric-
I'll never forget English class soph year with Ms. Hesser. I remember when we got assigned seats and you sat next to me, I thought you were so weird. But as the year went on, the class and I grew to love the class clown antics of Eric, Mike Herris, and a few others. We always had a good time in that class with the "wishes" Ms. Hesser would to grant to us. You were always so happy; goofing around with everyone. I'll never forget that contagious laugh you had, nor your wonderful smile. You have touched the lives of many, including that of one of my best friends. I hope up in heaven, you're looking down and watching over all the people who loved you so dearly. You will be missed and certainly never forgotten. Rest in peace.May God be with Eric's family and friends, you are in my thoughts and prayers. -Melissa
Name: Bridget
E-Mail: nikegirl26@aol.com
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11:57:09 04/25/03
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Graf.....Im speechless, there are no words to describe how I feel right now. You are and always will be an amazing person, I am soo thankful and I feel soo priviledged that you were one of my good friends and that i had you in my life. You were always the life of the party and you always knew how to put a smile on everyones face. No one ever had a bad time when you were there. Every good memory I have you are part of it. You were a great friend and you always knew how to make me feel better when i was upset, you always made all my problems and frustrations into jokes and they never seemed that bad after I got done talking to you. I wish soo bad i could have done the same for you I wish you would have let me or any of us know something was bothering you so we could make you see that nothing is this bad. You are soo special and you always will be you affected sooo many people in such a positive way. Who am i gonna have my midnight 5 hour phone conversations with now? Im gonna miss your crazy 2 in the morning phone calls. Im gonna miss not hearing your voice or seeing your face. I wish you knew how amazing and special you are before you made a decision like this. Graf, it didnt have to be like this i shouldnt have to be like this. I love you sooo much. I know you were hurting alot and i know now you feel no pain and that you're happy. I just want you to be happy down here with the rest of us. All my prayers and love goes out to your family and anyone who ever had the priviledge of being your friend. I love you graf nothing will ever be the same now that you're gone. I know you're smiling down on us right now i just wish i could smile back and hopefully one day I will. I love you always
Bridget
Name: PeeWee
E-Mail: Pee21Soc20@hotmail.com
AIM: Pee21Soc20
11:55:07 04/25/03
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Eric~
I didnt know you that well, but the time we spent together in the classes we had was a blast. I will always remember you with a smile on your face. It doesnt make sense to me what you did and I dont think it will ever make complete sense to anyone, but we all know that you are watching over us now. You will be greatly missed, RIP Graf...Love,
PeeWee
Name: Billy Beechy
E-Mail: TyroneShoolaces@aol.com
AIM: TyroneShoolaces
11:50:21 04/25/03
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Graf.....
I dont even know what to say bro. You were the awesomest kid i knew. I dont know what would make somebody wanna do this to themselves. We havent hung out in a while. I know we used 2 be real close, but the last year we drifted a little. God, i miss those days like in the summer after i think it was soph. year. Me, u, keat, and phelan would hang out like EVERY day, you always made our day, u always made us laugh. I remember when we decided to make our own Jackass video, haha. You put on my dogs invisible fence collar and and jumped over the line, and while you were gettin shocked we jumped on you and held you there, haha great times. Or remember the time we all thought we could beat up my dad on my trampoline, and he just tore us to peices, haha. We always used to talk about old Mustangs, you were the only kid i knew who loved them as much as me, and the thing we both wanted more than anything was like a '67 or '68 Mustang Fastback, and i remember you drivin over to my house with one a couple months ago, in your dream car, I was the first person you showed it too, damn i was soo jealous, and that was the last time we hung out. You will be missed greatly Graf. R.I.P. Firecrotch, i love u.Billy Beechy
Name: Jill Castiglia
E-Mail: LWcheer31@hotmail.com
AIM: LiLstigs7
11:39:55 04/25/03
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*Graf*
Where do I begin? I still do not want to believe that this is true. Just the other day I was looking through my pictures and came across the one of us at social. That picture is the only way I am going to be able to see you now :(... I dont understand why you or anybody would do this....there is ALWAYS a better way out or someone there to talk to~ ALWAYS! You were so full of life...it just doenst make sense! EVERYONE LOVED YOU!!! I remember in English last year, we would always get yelled at by our all-time FAVORITE teacher, Mrs. Lavorato...especially you, for being obnoxious or laughing uncontrollably. I still cant get over when you did that skit in front of class hahah...trying to talk like a southern black lady hahah ohhh Graf~ u know what im talking about...dont deny it! :) That was the great thing about you, you always had a smile on your face or always put a smile on somebody elses face!! Everytime i saw you or talked to you I would laugh so hard i would pee my pants (well u know what i mean)...even if i was in the worst mood ever! Its too hard to realize that you're gone! It is never going to be the same~ not being able to see you every morning...you bringing a smile to my face. If this is what you felt you had to do then i hope you are happier now up in Heaven...you deserve NOTHING short of the BEST! I know you are looking down on all of us! Im going to miss you soooo much buddy! If it is this hard for me then i cant even imagine what your closest friends are going through! You made such an impact on everyone's lives who met you! You are a great guy and I love you. You will always be remembered! R.I.P Eric ~ Love Jill~
Name: Nick Aleck
E-Mail: npaleck@ilstu.edu
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11:36:42 04/25/03
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Hey Eric
It is still hard to imagine that I'm not going to run into you around town or see you driving around, usually on Colorado where you're on your way over to your Grandparents' house. We had a lot of crazy times when I first moved here. You, Dave, Joe, Tommy and I always used to have those stupid missions that Joe would come up with. Whether we were trying to make a white-out bomb at Zager's house or we were spying on my Aunt and Uncle's house. You were the guy that could always make people laugh and anytime I saw you, you were always cracking jokes and stuff. I wish we all would have stayed in touch a little bit better. Make sure to watch over your brother and your Mom and Dad, Eric. You were a great guy and I'm going to miss you man.
Peace
Name: Lauren Patrizi
E-Mail: laurenpatrizi@yahoo.com
AIM: lamariedmb
10:56:01 04/25/03
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Eric, Eric, Eric
What have you done? Why have you done it? Here I am helplessly searching for the answers I know I can never find. How can I say I'm one of your best friends and not feel responsible? I love you so much buddy... When I first got a call your death was merely a rumor. A RUMOR. What kind of rumor is that? Then I had the displeasure of telling your best friend, Tyson. I didnt want to believe it was true. When your death became more real, and more people knew, I dropped to my knees Eric. I have never had ANYONE in my life die to me that has been close to me. WHY YOU? Everyone has people that dislike him or her right? Not you. I sat with everyone at rachel's yesterday and not one of us could think of anyone that disliked you. You were so full of life. Your hair was no more alive than you were Graf. You had a presence about you that could move a room and light up anyone's face. I kept hearing your laugh last night. Your laugh was always so contagious. Now all I have of you is a memory. I just wanted to share with you and everyone a fraction of the memories I have of you.. Eric, you may be gone, but truly as long as your friends are living, so will you. The first thing that came to mind with me was how a few months ago we went to Maggiano's and did family style. None of us knew what a mistake it was to let you get that chicken. You made it your task to eat it all, and I mean you vaccumed that chicken down. http://groups.msn.com/LincolnWayFriends/shoebox.msnw?action=ShowPhoto&PhotoID=414
Two weeks ago when i had people over you were being your usual self, doing something you weren't supposed to be doing in my basement ;) So we all resolved to tape you to that chair. We were all laughing so hard! I can just picture you sitting there without the ability to move. Haha oh graf. Probably one of the funniest memories I have of you is from last year. It was a typical boring night hanging out at my house.. Well we were kinda hungry wouldn't you say? You solved that for us... Every Frankfort Kid knows the Auerilio's Pizza Truck... Well you, Graf, resolved yourself to steal us a pizza while it was stopped at the Frankfort Park District. Well instead, the only thing you could grab was a whole catering tray of macaroni and cheese.. Well some little kid saw you do it and screamed out THAT KID IS STEALING FROM THE TRUCK.. You run like a bat out of hell, ditch the macaroni in a tree, get in rachel's get-away car... You came back to tell us the story and after we had all got done laughing (15 minutes later) Someone said, "Where's the macaroni graf?" Needless to say he went back and got it out of the tree.. We were a little worried about sending you out there.. We were worried that the Frankfort Cops, whom have nothing better to do with their time, might be on the lookout for a redhead with a macaroni tray.."STOP, TURN OVER THE MACARONI" haha... Anyways you came back and we were ready with forks in hand and we all took two bites of the macaroni.. I guess laughter and macaroni don't mix well cuz none of us wanted to eat it.. EWW! There are way more memories than that.. However, there is one memory I will always hold dear to my heart. That was the last time I saw you graf. You and I, JUST you and I, sat in my room for an hour and 1/2 and talked about everything.. You never made me believe that anything was wrong. If anything, you made me believe everything was good. Why did you want to please me? Why didn't you reach out? You told me you quit smoking because you knew I would be proud of you. Then I found out you never did. You did that because you knew I would praise you for it. We talked about freshman year biology class and how goofy we were together.. I called Dr. Ludwig for you, because I know how much you liked him as a teacher. You told me that even though you had slacked off this year, and "forgot" to apply to school, you were gonna try to get in for spring semester. You were full of dreams eric. You told me how excited for prom you were, and asked when you owed me the money for the limo. We talked about graduation and how we couldn't wait to get away from some of the lesser points of lincoln-way. When you came to visit me, you were saying goodbye. I didnt know. I had no idea.. But you knew. Looking back on all the things you said to me, you had to of known.. Why didnt you reach out? Why didnt I see something? Why couldn't i have been the one to save you and this mess would've never happened. I love to look at pictures of us eric but i dont want to do it without you. Our moms have been trying to get us to get engaged since we were 5.. Which by the way, my mom is devastated.. All i can do is cry eric. I can't stop.. I threw up last night and i'm sure it will be routine for the next few nights... I'm sure I'll write more and tell you how much I miss you.. I LOVE YOU GRAF.. This isn't goodbye... it's merely call me later graf, like you promised the other night.Lauren patrizi
Name: Jen Medvid
E-Mail: jmedvid@luc.edu
AIM: gabs0705
10:48:44 04/25/03
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How is it that one feels so alone,
That they're willing to wander so far from home?
Not knowing if it's really better on the other side,
Not allowing those who loved,
To even say goodbye.
Why is it that they feel so lost in space,
Why couldn't we see the pain and agony on their face?
They say it's always the good that die young,
But why, WHY, did it have to be this one?
All the tears that are shed, all the moments that we cry,
Will never satisfy the unanswerable question of WHY.
Many hearts are broken; it will never be the same,
For we will wake up every day, and only memories remain.
You were far too young to leave us for good,
Because you had that *smile* you were misunderstood.
May God bless your soul and take you into His arms,
And lead you away from any potential harm.Eric, I didn't know you, but from what EVERYONE is saying, you were an amazing person-just like Justin was. I will never understand why this happened to such good people and why you guys felt it was the only way out. Both of you were so young. I wish I would have got to know you bc I've heard only good things.
You, your family, and your friends will all be in my prayers. Having to deal with Justin's death has been the hardest thing I've ever had to do; I know everyone will need God's help to get through this. This will affect more lives than you could imagine bc YOU touched so many people. You will never be forgotten.
God bless you man, rest in peace. Jen
Name: Jenny
E-Mail: JennyJ829@aol.com
AIM: JennyJ829
10:35:35 04/25/03
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Graffy~ Hi Eric how you doin up there? I dont even know where to begin. But I do know that everything I could ever say or think would be something good about you. Because you are a great guy! I have known you since freshman year and everyday when I would be at my locker you would always have something funny to tell me and make me smile. I have soo many awesome memories with you and I will never forget them. You know its going to be weird with you not next to me at graduation we always said we would do something funny, well I will try to just for you it may not be as good but I will start thinking about something now. I can remember a time last summer when you got your hair all cut off, you were so upset you love your hair, well you asked me for some of mine and put my hair on your head and said look this is the graf we all know and love haha, but i want you to know that eric we loved you for the person you are even though everyone loves your long red hair! I just want you to know that we all care so much, you have touched many lives! Hey you know all those pictures I have up for you in my locker i will always keep them there for you because i know how much you love to look at them haha afterall they are up for you! Ok well Graffers its going to be weird with you not in our lives anymore, but I love you and will miss you very much! Someday I know I will see you again. But until then take care of everything and I know you will be watching over us! Love~ Your locker buddy Jenny
Name: Steve
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10:26:02 04/25/03
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Eric-
It feels like yesterday that we were in the weight room having you scream in my face. Thank you for pushing me like you did, you taught me alot. You were an awesome guy, I'll miss you. Thanks for the memories bro. Sweet Dreams dude.
Name: Tony Immormino
E-Mail: cooltony@ameritech.com
AIM: CoolTonyMVP
10:00:28 04/25/03
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I remember all of our times in Ms. K's class, skipping our homework assignments and laughing at the teacher. I cant believe your gone man, everything will be so different now that you wont be around anymore. I thank you for all the good memories you've left me and the fun times we've had. Later red.
Name: Hovanes
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09:53:04 04/25/03
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Eric,
I can't believe this is happening. You were such an awesome person and your gone. My away message talks about Flicks. OMAN haha that place was such a hellhole but you and me tried to stick it out...you stuck out longer then me. And then when we got shrek in and you recieted the whole movie and we just chilled and ate chicken fingers all the time. and if we were not doing that we were raiding the place clean of their candy. i tried to sleep last night but it hit me harder then ever...i couldnt do it. and finally i was able to. but my dreams were filled with memories i had of you. Like midge remember midge? I'll have to find midge and give him a hug for you. and we were like the only two who didnt go to great america. and when they chopped off all your hair and how upset you were.....man eric you had such awesome hair...i have more memories then i thought of us toghether....i never new i had them. I am so sorry Eric and i wish i could just hug you and tell you everything will be ok but i cant. you were taken from us way to young but i know you will watch over your family and friends. eric you were one of a kind ...you will be so very missed. Rest in Peace
Love,
Krystin
Name: Hillary
E-Mail: hcutie707@yahoo.com
AIM: hcutie707
09:27:38 04/25/03
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Hey Eric...Well where to begin. I love you Eric. I always have! I slept about 2 hours last night thinking about you. You were an amazing person. I feel lucky to have known you. I want you to know that I am NOT mad at you. I'm sorry that I could not have done something to ease your pain. I should have seen through something. You dont understand how loved you were by everyone. Last night we went to Rachels and it was crazy to see how everyone came together. Is that what you wanted? In my heart I dont believe that you wanted to do this. You didn't know. I haven't talked to your mom yet, but I will. I'll tell her you love her, because I know you do, Very Much. You are the funniest person ever. You can make anyone feel better! That was you Eric. You should have told someone. God knows we would have stopped everything for you. I remember being like 5 and you being the only guy at my pony party. But it was okay because it was you ahaha. Remeber when we watched the tapes of it!!! And i will never forget looking out of my window watching you beat the crap out of my brother david and matt! hahah your little face would get SOOOO red hahah! You were honestly an angel sent down for 18 years! I haven't ever seen my mom cry the way she did Eric! She loves and misses you too. You were one of a kind. An amazing person. I miss you so much. It's so selfish and I want you back here. I want to wake up from this nightmare! I always said, "I would rather be dead, then have red on my head" hahah but you know what...you pulled it off quit nicely! Rest in peace Er... you are finally free of all the pain you felt. Say hi to my Grandpa and Nana. Watch over all of us and comfort your family, because you were the light of their lives. Maybe becase your hair was so bright! hahah sorry had to get one last one in! So ill never forget you to the day I die. You were one of my best guy friends and you were for sure my first! 4 years old!!! We'll take care of things here. No worries! Bye! Hill
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