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I miss you so much Eric, I think about you all of the time. I wish you could come back to us! I love you!
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10:20:38 01/03/04
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Graf~Happy new year buddy!!! it wasnt the same this year without you there!!! i remember last year when you let me and cami take ur car to go buy everyone cigaretts!!! :) well...the holidays were different this year..all i could think about was how much different the holidays would be for my family if one of the kids wasnt there!! me, lauren, bridget, and rachel went out to lunch with ur mom and dave...and sat at ur house for hours and talked with ur mom and dad!!! it was amaizing eric...to see you in each of them!! how each of them rubbed off on u throughout ur life!!! i loved sitting in your house...looking at the pictures....hearing stories from ur family...and telling them stories as well!!!!! we had a great time!! well graf...i want to wish you a happy new year...and i want you to know that the memories from the past years with you in my life will never erase from my mind!!!! i will forever cherish every second spent with you graf!!! love you always and forever!!!!!!!
love
jules
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11:40:58 01/02/04
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I dont know how you all can be so strong. If someone who just disapared and you new they were never coming back . someone who you spent or atleast seen or talked to everyday is just gone..... i would be so lost inside. i would crawl into my room and never come out. i would be so scared. of what who knows. maybe reality. life scares me so much and every single one of you are so incrediably strong to face the facts. Something so evil that could make someone like eric totally change their mind of life is discusting. i cant belive god would even let such a thing go by.eric please let us know that you are really happy now.
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10:27:23 01/02/04
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~ Hey Eric ~ I just wanted to wish you a Happy New Year… I’ve been thinking about you so much, most definitely through the holidays keeping your family in mind, and I just wanted to let you know that I miss you more then words could ever say…I hope that this year is easier and a better one for everyone- especially you! I hope you living the life you’ve always dreamed of up there in heaven! Everyone thinks of you, and wishes you could be here with all of us. Especially after realizing how delicate life really is. I wish and I pray that you are happy now, leading the life that you want to lead! Be there and watch over everyone! I Love You and Miss You! XoXoXoXo
~Love Always,
Krystina
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07:32:11 01/02/04
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Eric,
Hey sweetheart...Happy New Year! I've been thnking about you a lot lately. I think about you always...but lately a lot more. I miss you kiddo...so much. And I can't help but think about how much better things would be if they were different. But its time for me to stop thinking like that...because this is a reality and things are not different. I think about you when the sun shines, when snow falls, when I see a great smile, and when I hear a loud laugh...I think about you and miss you all the time. It seems like its been forever Eric, since I'e seen your face...and even longer since I've heard you laugh. That gets me upset. I get upset a lot...but that's ok...I guess you need to. Well I'm going to get going...just wanted to stop in and say Happy New Year...and I love you tons!
Love,
Julie
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22:40:21 01/01/04
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HEY GRAF!! Happy New Years ..I miss you alot. KEep It REaL-- Watch out for us down here....Much Love
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12:41:10 01/01/04
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Hey g money whats goin on? Happy New year, i juss wish you could be here with us for it. I know theres a better party up there but im sure ur still proud of us down here. Take care up there and were thinkin about u everyday. Much love
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21:08:47 12/31/03
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Happy New Year Eric. You are the only one who is truly happy. Miss you. Peace out.
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07:30:44 12/31/03
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Hey Eric,
Tonight is new years... we've spent the last two together and believe me it wont be the same without you this year.. We'll all be saying a prayer for you, and i've already made a cd with that one song "times like these" on it so we can listen to it tonight and silently remember you...We love you so much and we miss you.. Also I finally got mike to take thepicture down (THANKS MIKE I LOVE YOU!), and rach and i will probably drop a new one off at his house for him to put up when he gets back to eastern.. Anyways love you miss you, and we'll be thinking of you a lot tonightLove,
Lauren
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20:36:24 12/30/03
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Hey Er-I know it is a little late..but Merry Christmas...Wow, Christmas in Heaven--I can only imagine. I haven't been on here in a long time and for that I apologize. Things have been crazy here but I know you know that b/c I know you watch all the crazy shit that goes down..U have sky box passes for some of the craziest shows! :) I miss you..we all miss you. You and Your family are always in my prayers. Er- Can you keep an eye on my little sis--I'm worried about her, really worried. I can't go through this again. Happy New Year kiddo...I miss you! Like I said earlier...U and ur family are always in the prayers of my family and I.
<3 B
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00:02:46 12/27/03
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Hey Eric...I know it's kinda late but I just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas...I would've done this sooner, but I had the flu for the past 2 or 3 days, I haven't been outta bed. Hope all is well. xoxo
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14:42:56 12/26/03
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People make mistakes, we need to learn to forgive, and love. Eric, your friends are beginning to forgive you for making the decision that you did, and forgiving the people who have said ignorant things to hurt your loved ones, and forgive everyone who has hurt you. There comes a time when all of the pain, grudges, and blame eats you away as a person. No one is perfect, I think we can all learn from Eric, that people can only be pushed so far, and that you can not screw with peoples hearts. Dont be so unhappy, learn to understand and accept life as it comes.
Your friends love you Eric, they always will. They are taking you with them everywhere they go, in their hearts. You are all strong people, you have all had to deal with something that most teenagers will never experience. Watch out for your friends, they need you more than ever. Bridget, Lauren, Caitlin, Ashley, Hillary, Carli, Amy, Rachel, Cami, Julie, you girls meant everything to Eric, you all grew up with him. Eric had the best group of guy friends in the world too. Tyson, Ed, Foote, Matt, Stets, Murphy, Joe, Phill, Blake. You guys were Erics strength. His family is a group of amazingly stong and special individuals, they made Eric who he really was, the person that we all loved so much. Take care of eachother, everyone needs a friend. I hope that you had a good first Christmas up in heaven. God bless all of you.
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11:00:01 12/26/03
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Hey sweetheart I just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas & a Happy New Year. Me and Sam were talking about the longer were apart from you.. the more we miss you. I had adream about you the other night.. I was in a hospital and I went to the front desk and asked for you and they gave me your room number. It was so weird. I walked upstairs and there you were. But it wasn't like i hadn't seen you in a long time it was just like i had saw you the day before.. I gave you a hug and told you how cute you looked. You didn't have the shag we all loved, your hair was actually really short. But even without the "shag" nothing about that awesome smile had changed. I miss you buddy and I kno everyone else does. I found a picture of you and my mom from your Jr. year prom. You were hugging her with this huge smile on your face. Well babe keep watching over all of us.. Hope to see you in my dreams again soonLove Always
Shan
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21:16:59 12/25/03
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Hey Eric, I just wanted to say I thought about you a lot today, just like Lauren said, the holidays make you reflect on a lot of things. I can't even imagine how hard it must have been for your family to not have you here with them this Christmas. I know I sure miss you buddy...I'm sure you were the life of their holiday parties! Because you were the life and light in every occasion kid. The poem that's on here about the first Christmas in Heaven is beautiful, I'm sure that it is the most amazing thing in the world. And I know you're looking after us and you're with us all the time. I love and miss you everyday kid. Merry Christmas.
Love,
Caitlin
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20:25:30 12/25/03
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I know this holiday season must be rough for Eric's family and close friends and I say a prayer for you always. I also know that nothing can make it right again, but I hope this poem may be of some comfort
My First Christmas in Heaven
I see countless Christmas trees, around the world below. With tiny lights, like Heaven's stars reflecting on the snow.
The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away the tear. For I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
I hear the many Christmas songs, the people hold so dear. But the sounds of music can't compare, with the Christmas choir up here.
I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring. For it is beyond desciption to hear the angels sing.
I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart. But I'm not so far away, we really aren't apart.
So be happy for me, dear ones, you know I hold you dear.
And be glad I'm spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
I send you each a special gift, from my heavenly home above. I send you each a memory of my undying love.
After all, love is a gift, more precious than pure gold. It was always most important in the stories Jesus told.
Please love and keep each other, as my Heavenly Father said to do. For I can't count the blessing or love he has for each of you.
So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away the tear. Remember, I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
God Bless you and your strong hearts
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18:25:47 12/25/03
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merry Christmas eric watch over us and keep everyone safe through the holidays. warm loving prayers to your family. God bless you're still missed
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13:54:58 12/25/03
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Hi Eric,I just wanted to wish you a merry Christmas and let you know that we all think about you... My mom just developed a roll of film and you were in a few of the pics.. made me cry. :( The holidays, while they are supposed to be very happy, are often not. The holidays are a time for reflection and we always seem to compare it to years past. The holidays seem very empty without you and please look over your family. Like Bridget said, New Years will not be the same. We have some good memories from the last two new years, and you can bet when the clock strikes 12 we'll all say a little prayer for you. Times change, people change... but in our hearts, you remain. Love,
Lauren ps dont worry eric, your girlfriends are taking care of you:)
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08:17:48 12/25/03
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Merry Christmas Eric!!!!!! Tell Chris Lynch Merry Christmas for me too!!!
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merry christmas eric
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20:23:39 12/24/03
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hey,
i wanted to say merry christmas and happy holidays even though i couldn't find your grave while i was there.. i felt you there. merry christmas.. we miss you and love you
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20:04:42 12/24/03
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Hey Graf...I just wanted to say Merry Christmas. We all still miss you like crazy and that will never ever change. New Years is just not gonna be the same without you there, this year we actually are not gonna be trying to persuade Rachel's parents to let us all go there. HaHa That's a first, well whatever we end up doing I know you will be there with all of us in spirit. Take care of your family, I know it has to be soo hard on them especially around Christmas so please help them make the best of it. Your Dad, Mom, and Dave are truely amazing, strong people and it just makes me so sad that they have had to experience a pain so strong with the loss of you but I know you are always with them, you are always with all of us and that is the only comfort I can take away from your absence. Like Caitlin perfectly stated in her poem to you, "Never again will any one of us be entirely alone." You are and always will be an angel in my eyes. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year Graf! I love you always and forever!
Bridget
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22:07:12 12/23/03
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I didn't know Graf personally, but I am friends with alot of people who knew him well and saw him at a couple parties. From what I hear, he was an awesome guy and he is greatly missed. I wish that I could have had the oppertunity to meet him becaue he sounds like he was a great guy. With the holidays really close, I just wanna wish his family and friends happy holidays and tell them that they are extremely strong people for all that they have gone through after his loss. RIP
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14:09:06 12/23/03
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Eric,
I didn't know you, nor do you know who I am. I just wanted to tell you, I go to school with one of your friends, and the impact you had on "them" was huge. "They" miss ya kid. Pictures up and all. Just thought Id say something, in case you didn't already know. Keep flying high...
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12:17:03 12/23/03
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Wow..its been awhile since i wrote in here..well all i gotta say is that i miss you soo much and its been hard...well i love you and keep an eye out on my friend Ron..
tell my cousin drew i said i miss him and i cant wait to see hiM!
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08:41:22 12/23/03
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~ Hey Graf ~
Today is Dec. 23, and it’s so hard to believe that you passed away 8 months ago. I visit this site on a daily basis, and it’s so hard to read all the sincere thoughts that people have about you. I’m sorry it took this long to write, but sometimes it’s just hard to bring myself to this level over and over. But don’t ever think for one minute that I’m not thinking about you and what has happened. It’s almost time for Christmas, and a NEW year to start. I wanted to wish you and your family a happy holiday. Everyone is home for Christmas break, and it’s so weird just to see how much people have changed over the past few months. But no matter how much people change you will always be in their thoughts forever, cause I know that you’re in my thoughts everyday all day long! I miss you Graf, you were such a true person-and I know you didn’t think so but you influenced so many people, so many of your close friends are hurting so bad right now-some so bad its out of reach on what to do. I pray for you and your family everyday. I could never imagine what they are going through. I know it’s a lot because I talk to Dave all the time, and you can just hear it within him how hard this is. But we just look to the memories now, ohhh and how I have so many awesome memories of you. Especially from 8th grade and the 8th grade dance-you were crazy Graf-but oh so much fun! You were honestly the funniest kid I have ever met in my life. What I would give to have you here with me or everyone even if it was just one last time. If I ever knew you felt the way you did I would have done anything to change your feelings. But I’ll tell you something I know things were hard for you, things were hard for me too, whenever I think there getting better something always happens to make it worse again-and I wish that we could have talked about more of the hard times to ease the pain, maybe I wouldn’t feel how I do sometimes and maybe you wouldn’t have felt how you did when this all happened. I don’t know Graf I can never explain the feeling I got the day I found out, and the day we buried you I can never get the teary faces out of my head of all the people that were there. Everyone broke down, it can never be understood of “WHY”, but all I can say is that I hope your living the life you want to live now, I hope all your tears of pain turned into tears of happiness! This past fall I went away to school I attend Indiana State University, and I’ll tell you something Graf, no matter how many people thought I couldn’t make it-guess what… I did and I did it for myself no one else. I have to say that going to school was my greatest escape. And if this was yours I hope your happy with the decision you made-but I cant tell you how many people love, miss, and cherish you with all their hearts and souls…. Your memories will go on forever, and are enough to fill a lifetime! I love you Graf, watch over everyone, and help your family stay strong! R.I.P. Eric Graf xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
-Love Always,
Krystina~ Here’s a special poem written for you to let you know that I’m “thinking of you”…… “Thinking of you” Just sitting here and thinking,
thinking my thoughts of you
Dreaming of how things would be
If you were right here too I hope that things are going
The way that you had planed
I only wish that you were here
And I could hold your hand I dream of being with you
Of being by your side
Being there to comfort you
When things are so bad in the inside I hope one day that you'll be more
Than just a dream at night
That I can bring you happiness
And love with all my might But until then, I'm here alone
There's nothing else to do
Than dream of you and count the days
Until I'm there with you
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01:09:35 12/23/03
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HEY GRAF!!... Christmas and New Years are here and i just wanted to say Happy Holidays! I know this is an especially hard time for all your family, so i just wanted to let them know you and them are ALWAYS in my prayers. When i think about you, you dont bring anything but a smile to my face!
:) You are such a great guy Eric in SO many ways.. and are missed and loved by everyone!!!!!!!
Happy Holidays to you and your family and God Bless. love ~Jill~
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22:01:34 12/21/03
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Hey Graffy! Well its Christmas break and everyone is home for a month, and there is still not much to do around here! I miss you so much! I was talkin to stacy today about how we would hang out like everyday that one summer cause me you and joe were the only people who didnt really have jobs, well i never did haha! yea and i still dont ha so that sucks for me! haha :) But i miss you tons and wish you were here cause I think about you all the time! Im going to come visit you sometime soon over break! I really have been thinking about you alot, prolly cause i am seeing everyone again and it reminds me so much of you. But it will never be the same, without you in that silly hat! Alright well I think im going to get goin! I just really miss you and wish we all had another day to spend with you! keep Takin good care of your family this christmas will be hard! ok i love you graffy! miss u too! bye bye! love~Jenny
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20:25:00 12/20/03
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Graf- i havent written on this site in over 5 months-im really sorry about that-i dont even kno why-a lot of things have changed-im not really friends with a lot of ppl i use to b friends with-but i still do really miss u-i cant believe its almost 8 months since youve left us-i still think about u a lot and i still come on this website almost everyday and read wut your friends write-its just so different down here-since youve left we have lost 4 other kids all around the same age-i hope ur with them all-having a blast-but i just wanted to come say hi since i havent in like 5 months-but Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year-talk to u in 2004! and please watch over robert and josh i miss them so much! love u always
love forever and always
me
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10:35:52 12/20/03
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hey kiddo, just wanted to tell ya i'm still thinking of ya everyday...this must all be even harder on your family right now with christmas and everything. we all miss you so much still...everyone is home for christmas now, but it's never complete, you're always missing. i went to east to workout last week and ran into ms. goldie. she was telling me how they were doing hamlet and she was assigning the part of the ghost, and just thought of you and smiled. it was never surprising how hard you made us all laugh throughout that. i'll never forget how hard it was to go to that class the day we all came back...first hour, and i just stayed outside for awhile...i didn't want to look at your seat and not see you smiling there. but most of the time i think of you and i do smile, because you could always make anyone smile...i miss you eric, and i love you so much. i hope you're having a great time up there, keep an eye on everyone, especially your family. later kid.
love,
cait
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00:24:04 12/20/03
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What's up Graf? Haven't really written on here in a long time but I just wanted to stop in and say Happy Holidays. Everyone has been and will be missing you a lot, especially your family, so make sure you are there for them and look out for them always. I still come on this site a lot and it just makes me think man. Just thinkin about HS and everything that everyone went through at too young of an age. I am really sorry for everything you were going through man cuz we all know you didn't deserve anything but the best. Thanks for the great memories throughout HS and keep having fun up there man. And please watch out for everyone since we are all home togather again on break. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to Graf and his whole family.
-Jim
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18:11:37 12/18/03
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Hey Er~Everyone is home for break, we all wish that you could be home too. It is coming on Christmas, and I cannot even imagine how hard it is going to be on your whole family. I pray for you everynight, that you are happy, but I know that you are. You have just left such a huge hole in everyones heart. I miss you Eric, I miss you every second of every day. I love you so much. God bless you!
Hill
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23:27:25 12/17/03
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Eric- Hey man whats up?!? Wow....Time flies...Its so hard to believe that you have been gone so long and it will forever be too long until we meet again someday...My first semester at college is over and man what a ride it was....Shit i actually think I passed everything too kinda crazy huh?...Being away at school not only helped me remember you more but it helped me find myself...With having so much free time on my hands i often found myself drifting into memories of the past...I thought of all the good times with you and honestly it was impossible to think of anything bad other than having to watch your closest friends carry you to your resting place. I miss you like crazy man. With the holidays approaching it helps me realize how important family is. And remember to keep watch over yours cuz im sure havin you not be there for Christmas is goin to be just as tough as the day we all lost you. Im goin home tomorrow for like a month break from school...Everyone is goin to be home and its gonna be wierd...At school ive made so many new friends its insain but honestly right now I cant wait to go home and chill with everyone. After we lost you our bunch of little groups of friends all became so much closer which made it all that much harder to leave them behind when I left in August. Man are there some messed up professors here with some messed up ideas but they sure know how to open up your mind and help you think outside the box. One of the most common sense things that i thought alot about was that everything in life happens for a reason...Honestly im still looking for the reason why you arent here anymore...Maybe it was your time .maybe it wasnt ,or maybe it was that you were suppose to bring us all closer together in the end. who knows .no one will ever know.....All i know is that I miss you like crazy and i will always remember the smile you brought everywhere with you...You could have been havin the worst day ever but you would still manage to crack a joke to ease the tension. Well ill quit ramblin on sorry i just have so much crap up in my head that i need to get out so on that note I love and miss you man....I'll be looking up at you when that clock strikes 12 on New Year's...Peace out bro.... -Cofax
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22:31:04 12/17/03
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Maybe they are not the stars...
but rather Openings in Heaven
where the Love of our Lost Ones
Pours through and Shines down
upon us... to let us know
They are Happy...RIP Eric
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00:23:23 12/17/03
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Eric ~ Hey kid. God what should I write? It seems like you are still here. I just wish we could go back... I wish my memories could become reality. Why do the most important men in my life always leave me? And without saying goodbye? You were there for me when my Dad died... you looked out for me and Mom, Liz and Melissa. At my Dad's funeral, when we were all leaving his casket at the cemetary, I forgot to take one of the flowers from his casket... but you ran back there to get one for me. I still have it and now it not only reminds me of my Dad, but it reminds me of you. When I read what your friends write to you, I sometimes feel jealous. I feel like I knew you in a very special way that no one else did. And they can't feel as bad as I and the rest of our family does. But I guess those feelings are just anger... I'm still angry about what you did. I'm angry that we didn't spend as much time together like we used to. My Dad would have loved seeing You, Dave, Liz, and I all hanging out together like we did. But then you slowly drifted away to be with your friends. Ok, so it's probably not 'cool' to hang out with your cousin, but you have to admit, we had some awesome times. Remember when just you and me would be out somewhere together and you would run into people you knew? You would say "Yeah this is my fiance we're getting married in the fall." haha ... You would never tell them who I really was. Then you started to hang out with your friends more and I didn't hear from you as much. But then there was that one day... I remember it so perfectly. I was working at the bank and you ditched school. I remember seeing you walk into the bank, looking around for me. You said "I'm bored! I went to your house so we could do something but this sucks now because you have to work..." Now I really wish I was off work that day. Eric, please be with all of us at Grandma's on Christmas. She asked me if all the cousins should line up with candles like we used to. It won't be the same without you... what should we do? I remember every Christmas, they made us open presents from youngest to oldest... and we had to sit and wait for hours! I'll save a seat for you this year.... Love always, Jaclyn
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21:41:32 12/16/03
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Hmm, I don't know anyone here, and how I got here is irrelevant. All I know is, the cries are often genuine, not always the smiles though. Zazvineli kupala, bozhye vspahli varata. R.I.P.
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08:36:30 12/15/03
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eric,everyday is a bad day. i don't blame u like ppl do cuz i think when someone does something like this, they have no control. it's like there head gets all messed up and there is no stopping. then when you have assholes messing with u 2 it just gets worse. i know, i've been there and ppl r to blame.
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08:36:30 12/15/03
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eric,everyday is a bad day. i don't blame u like ppl do cuz i think when someone does something like this, they have no control. it's like there head gets all messed up and there is no stopping. then when you have assholes messing with u 2 it just gets worse. i know, i've been there and ppl r to blame.
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21:30:43 12/13/03
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Hey buddy -
I know it's been quite a while, but I want you to know I still think about you, especially when I'm really feeling down. I don't know. After all this time, it still feels like you should be at a college, goofing off and making all your new friends laugh. When I sit and really think about it, it doesn't seem fair that you're not. But I try not to sit and think about it. Hey, I know that you're being taken care of wherever you are, and that's what's important. I'm throwing for track this year, even though I didn't get to last year. I kinda wish I could get your advice on that, haha. I still miss you man. If you're keeping up with all these even after all this time, I just want you to know that. Later man.
Jim Starzyk
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01:30:07 12/13/03
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Hey Buddy~It's been a long time since I've written. I guess I've been trying to avoid it for a while because if I don't write... it's not final you know. Everyday I think about you... In HS - you always used to bring a smile to everyones face - even thinking about you - I can't help but smile. But then again, everytime I think about you, this saddness hits. Knowing that you aren't here anymore... I miss you and always will. Hope your having fun up there cause we miss you down here!
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12:52:38 12/11/03
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Graf,
What up buddy?! I have been thinking about you a lot lately so I thought I'd say what up It's crazy to think that its been 7 months since you left us man. I miss you a whole lot, and i find myself looking at the picture of you and me more and more now. It's the one from social with ur mustache and shit, good times bro. Anywayz G I just wanted to say how great of a guy u were and how much i really do miss you. With no offense to anyone else that has passed, its sad but it hasn't had that big of an affect on me ya know? You are the only kid that i still get upset about and miss like crazy. Aight dawg, keep it real up in heaven and keep lookin down on all of us! Love and miss u!
Luke
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12:30:07 12/11/03
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To my grafferz:
I haven't written in awhile and I wanted to drop a line. Don't listen to the bad things people say. We all love you and think about you still. I don't think you will ever be forgotten. You just couldn't be. Man, imagin this page a few years from now. I'm sure we'll all still be writing. I hate how I can never seem to come on this page without cryin my eyes out. I have a picture of you that I keep beside my bed at all times. I love you babes. I'm sorry I didn't try harder. I've always admired you, and I have always been a little shy so I didn't spend as much time with you as I would have liked(every day haha), but now I have to just cherish the times we were together. I do have a lot of funny memories, most always seemed to revolve around a certain something green but hell, it was a good time. Once again, I love ya babes.
p.s. could ya keep an eye out for me, things are pretty tough right now. Thanx babe.
Name: Jessica M.
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10:23:25 12/11/03
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I agree with Kobit. We can't sit here pointing fingers at who is supposedly to blame for what happened to Eric. The thing is, he did it to himself...he went through with it. I know it sounds bad, but my father also committed suicide...I know how it feels to have somebody really close to you do that. And I've always felt like blaming myself b/c I didn't know what else to do. But I came to realize that you can't blame anybody else but the person who did it. I understand that things weren't right for Eric...maybe some people didn't help-BUT...he went thru with it, nobody could have changed that. He had his mind set on it, and he did it. If this makes anybody mad, sorry but it's the truth. We miss ya Eric.
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18:35:22 12/10/03
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I don't think there is a problem in what Kobit has written. He was expressing how he felt about his friend. Everyone has their own opinions and NOONE is right. Argueing will not get anyone anywhere and he was right when he said pointing the finger at ppl only causes more hurt. The people who feel they are to blame know who they are and feel bad enough. In a way everyone feels they did osmething at some time to help with this, and most lilely did. Not everyone could have made him happy every second of the day you know?. This is an opinion that will never get resolved.
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14:02:29 12/10/03
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Ok, I'm sorry if i offended anyone on this website with what iv'e said cuz thats the last thing id want to do, but ive said what i know. Ya maybe there are people to blame for what happened but that doesn't make it right. The only real blame is on graf. he is the one who went through with it and no one else. After having 5 freinds die in the last year or so Ive found that pointing fingers only causes more hurt. I'm sorry again if i offended anyone with what ive said and ill be more careful, but im only expressing my self through this site.
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12:44:46 12/10/03
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i feel like ive known graf for as long as i can remember! everyone has their own memories of graf that will remain in their hearts forever! he was always known as the peppy kid with bright red hair and glasses...even back in grammer school! :) i have to agree with bridget when she says that there is no one single person to blame for grafs death! it wouldnt be fair to point fingers at one or two or however many people...im not gonna lie...i believe that certain people had a big influence on the timing of his death...but graf obviously had hidden emotions that he felt he couldnt share with other people...someone can only handle so much before they break down! unanswered questions will run through our heads for the rest of our lives!! all we can do now is cherish graf for the person he was...and thank god for every amazing memory that we have with him! once again...this website is for people that loved graf...trash talk is completely unnecessary...people may take offense to rude comments...especially his family!!! so if you have nothing good to say about graf...then have some respect and keep your comments to yourself!! i have to give major props to kobit...the last message ur wrote was awesome!! graf knows who truely cared about him and thats all matters! to graf~u will remain in our hearts always and forever!! a day doesnt go by that i dont think about you and wish that we could all be together one last time!!! to erics family~my prayers will forever go out to you!!!!
love you graf!
julie
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11:53:04 12/10/03
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Graf was one of my closest friends and the fact that he isnt here anymore is because of a decision he made. I completely agree that a certain person or persons cruel treatment towards him brought him down even more. But we can't accuse people for taking Graf away from us it was his choice. It was a sad and tragic choice but it was his own. None of us will ever know the real reason why he did what he did. But instead of being angry and blaming people for why our friend is gone we should celebrate the fact that all of us had the privilage of knowing an amazing person like Graf who is truely one of a kind, and let him live on through all the memories and the good times we all were able to have with him. We all know who hurt Graf and caused him so much pain but that person will have to live with that the rest of their life and they know who they are. When people bring up this person it only brings more pain for all the people who love and care for Graf.
I Love you always Graf
Bridget
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08:17:55 12/10/03
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Out of respect for Erics family could people please refrain from writing about drugs and alcohol. And swearing does not get your point across. 18 year olds are not the only ones who read this site. Thanks
Name: Kobit
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20:34:12 12/09/03
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G-money- Wut up kid, well not much here other then tyson and matt gettin a house and the crew pretty much doin the same old shit. I think it's funny when I come on this website and read peoples comments who didnt know you, and how they are always tryin to put blame on someone for what happened or tryin to analyze the shit that led up to this, but what they need to do is just realize that all the drama is so much not needed and what happened is tragic enough in itself. All of our friends and family that really knew you know thats the last thing you want, is the bullshit drama. No matter what anyone else says about it we'll still never really know, so we need to forget it and remember everything great u did for us, cuz we all know there are ten times more great memories u left us with than bad ones. Shit i can't remember one. Probably because you always had a way to light the room wether it was doin crazy shit or just bein a friend to talk to. The other day i was thinkin how we alway freestyled so I thought I'd write one more for shits n giggles so here it is..
Sittin back wit my boys reminiscin,
hittin some buds and i know grafs listnin,
but what can i say cuz it's him were really missin.
Who woulda thought I'd lose a freind,
shit hit hard till it happened again,
and now we've learned a few more lessons,
for a fact I know is my boys are my blessings,
number one, ranked in my placement,
when shit got hard, back to back we had to face it.
Just a little bit longer, it only made us stronger,
and wit graf above me I know we can make it.
Now heres a tip for you, when you go out there,
fuck the drugs, stick ta weed n the beer,
cuz it'll put you in your place,
ya the coke and the H,
the shit just aint right,
it took two more freinds lifes.
the ups, the downs,
it's hard to contemplate,
couldnt understand if the shit was really fate,
but life rolls on, keep havin a blast,
so don't forget it, but still put it in the past.
I'm gonna end it right here, wit one last flow,
ur family till the death, and I juss wanted u to know.
We love and miss ya every day.
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18:56:48 12/07/03
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You were too young, you didn't get to do all of the things we are doing now. I hate that this was your answer. We miss you and we love you forever!
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09:46:41 12/04/03
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Hey sweetheart, I just thought I would write you and let you know that I still think about you and that I miss you. I wish that when I went home for Thanksgiving that I could have seen your face, especially at Lukes. I think the whole town was there. Every person that was there holds you in their hearts. We all missed you. Thanksgiving is suppose to be a time where you are thankful, and I am so thankful that I was able to know you. Anyone who knew you was blessed with your laughter and one of the best friendships that anyone could ever give. Miss you buddy, take it easy.
Love Always,
Annie
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08:09:08 12/04/03
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the memories will never fade.
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17:14:26 12/03/03
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Hey Eric. Just wanted to stop by and say hi. I've been thinkin bout ya lately. We all still miss ya *n* think bout you. You were and still are a great person..nothing will ever be able to change that! XoXo
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16:27:16 12/03/03
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"People may not remember exactly what you did or said, but people will always remember how you made them feel." Eric, even though the memeories fade, we will never forget the way you made us feel. We will never forget you. We all love you.
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08:13:28 12/03/03
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Well Eric...we lost Chris Lynch..its really hard.. to go thru... everyone is sad cuz we already lost 3 good ppl in our lifes..well i hope ur havin funn up there...tell chris and chris i said hi and that i love them..Love u soo much
RIP
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18:44:43 12/02/03
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Of all people I know this isn't a chatroom. I was not friends with Eric , yet I still find myself wondering onto his site often. I would just like to comment on what Lauren said. She was very true. Only a true sickness would bring someone to act the way they do about this. This is not a joke and Being cold hearted will not get you anywhere. RIP Eric and Ihope you found my buddy Robert!
Name: Mel
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14:20:33 12/02/03
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Hey Eric,Its so weird how so many young ppl are dyin these days. The other day Chris Lynch was taken from us. His wake is tonite :( but we kno that hes in a better place now n hes with u n bij n everyone else. Please sho him around up there.
I cant believe its been 7months since u left us. Time has flown by.
Well I jus wanted to say hi. I hope u guys continue to watch over everyone down here. Love,
Mel
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07:45:09 12/02/03
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Hi eric,
Cami is so right. Everything she said is so true it's ridiculous. The joy you brought to everyone is immeasurable. In light of the past few days and some serious thinking on my part, I've come to a few conclusions. Evil exists. Eric was so far from evil he simply could not fathom some of the evil around him. I've come to learn a few things about eric and his relationships with certain people and it sickens me that people that could have hurt him while he was alive continue to hurt and exploit him after he has passed. What are you doing? Haven't you done enough? My first reaction to Eric's death was that no one is to blame for eric's death. Except that would be naive and stupid for me to say. Listen, it shouldn't have to take this to realize that you must be careful with people. Manipulation, deceit, arrogance, and a selfish need for attention did in fact ignite this tragedy. When we say we need to treat people better after this happened, aren't we saying that not treating eric like he would've treated any one of us caused this? I think we are all afraid to admit that some people did cause this and maybe we didnt prevent it. We need to stand up against the people who live recklessly and act as if no one else around them matters. You know who you are. If I could reach you personally, I would. This is not a violent demand, this is a plea. Leave Eric and the people who really care about him alone. Your supposed pain and suffering is dwarfed by those who have loved and do love him. It is not fair for the people who have treated eric earnestly and with love that you continue to make a spectacle out of yourself. You've done enough to his family and friends. If I were you, I would've laid low for a long time. I really hope that this is a sickness you have, because if this is truly the person you are, it scares me that people like that exist.Eric, as always, we're all thinking about you everyday.
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21:19:42 12/01/03
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I have avoided this day for so long. I have just now found the strength within myself to write. For months I have dreaded the day I would write on this site. This feels like the final goodbye to me. There have been multiple times I have sat down to write, and could not do it. Now is the time. Eric, I cannot begin to explain how much you mean to me and to so many others. For as long as I have known you, you have been the class clown. You have always had the ability to make others laugh and light up the room with your distinctive red hair and amazing smile. A day was not complete without a smile from my Grafy. The memories we share are endless, and I am soooo lucky that I was able to have such a special person like you in my life for so many years. I still find myself searching for answers, wondering what anyone could have done to help you. I hate the fact that these questions will never be answered. The questions consume me at times and leave me feeling exhausted with curiosity. Why? You were everyone's source of entertainment and laughter; you were everyone's friend. I hope you are filled with happiness where you are now. I hope you are bringing those around you as much joy as you always brought all of us Eric. I strongly believe that I will never find anyone that can make feel the way you did Graf. There was never a sad moment with you. Everytime I was with you I had a smile on my face. Please know that you will always be in my thoughts, and I will always have a smile on my face just thinking about you. I was the luckiest girl in High School to have had the opportunity to be your Senior Homecoming date. I couldnt have asked for a more handsome, hilarious, caring gentleman to make a special night even more special. Eric, I am privalaged to have had the opportunity to share so many memories, laughs and crazy nights with you. Above all, I am privalaged to have had such an amazing friend like you.
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20:20:19 12/01/03
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hey eric. just thinkin bout ya and wanted u to know that we all miss you so much still. its hard to realize that this is still reality, that its not just a dream.. i keep having dreams with you in them.. im hoping its a sign that you are alright and doing well buddy.. rip
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18:59:00 12/01/03
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you can't go and blame what happened to Eric on anybody...he chose to do this..regardless of what *might* have happened between him and friends-that's between him and his friends...you can't put blame on other people for those who commit suicide. He got confused and didn't know where or how to let it all out... nobody is to blame.
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12:07:17 12/01/03
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I do not think that people were mean to Eric. Every teenager deals with heartbreak and dishonest friends. The difference between most teenagers and suicidal teenagers is that they cannot deal with normal everyday difficulties. Eric was a strong person, but he was being tortured by the thoughts in his head. It was not because of what one person did, it was not because he was being bullied, it was not because he didn't have friends. It was because he didn't know where else to turn. His mind did not comprehend that life goes on, and life always gets better. He could not handle what life was giving him. We love Eric and we are all happy that he is in a better place!
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21:11:08 11/30/03
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well G it was definetly a weekend you would not wanted to miss. Everyone was home and wasted, like it was a fort night over at lukes crib. I think it's crazy seein everyone home like back in good ol highschool, cuz it makes me think of all the good times we've had with those people, and how they all got a peice of graf with them. Man I look on this website now and i remember when it was a page long, yet people still can't forget what you did for us 15 pages later. Crazy shit ha, I think about how winter was some of the funniest times when wed get crowds to go out to the ghetto sleddin and drinkin forties. Im lookin forward to doin the same this winter and reckin my shit. Juss wanted to let ya know were thinkin about ya. Much love, Kobit
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13:00:49 11/30/03
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It's amazing how loved you were Eric. All your friends would have risked their own lives to replace the hopelessness that you had felt, juss to keep you here still to this day. But ..for those who are mourning, and for those who just want to kno Why--Listen to this. Everyone knows that there are a lot of cruel people at Lincoln Way. Alot of people who worry more about their image then the feelings that they bring to others, and some people..like myself and eric dont choose to express those feelings that overcome us. I dont understand why people get so much pleasure out of hurting someone else, but thats my only guess with Eric. He had so much confusion/hurt built up inside that he didnt even have enuf strength left to go to those who loved him and have them help him out. Trust me, i feel like that alot these days--and often wish that i had enough courage one day to do what eric did, its not for sympathy. Its not for pride, its...juss something that one eventually feels they have to do because of the mistreatment that others give them. I juss have to say that to all of those people who put others down daily, and to all of those reading this..next time u hurt someone, just remember that ur laughs, can bring someone else tears..and try living with that for the rest of your life..
To all of Eric's Friends, i wish you the best of luck. Eric is in a great place right now with no one to mistreat him. He seems like he was a great guy, and didnt deserve to live in this horrible place neways. He will be waiting at the gates of heaven for all of you, with open arms and that smile you all adored.
R.I.P. Graf
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23:42:57 11/28/03
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Just saying hey, and that we miss you
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16:53:57 11/25/03
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hey eric we love you very much .RIP man i miss you
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15:20:27 11/25/03
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Hey Buddy just really thinkn bout u lately especially with a lot of ppl your age comin back from college. every1 misses u a lot...i know youre up in heaven watchin over me.... i cant explain to u how much we all miss u ...love ya lots
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21:19:02 11/24/03
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I found this online I just thought it was kinda interesting...and i guess it sorta reminded me of you eric...just the whole everybody is missin you thing...i'm sure it'll mean more to different people...those that you were closer 2.. I miss you so much
Why’d you have to go?
You left in such a horrible way
The crash, the sound, the blow
Everyone’s still crying
They’re hoping it’s not true
Looking at old photos
Remembering everything of you
They play our song out loud
Tears start flowing from my eyes
As I walk up to your casket
And I start to say goodbye
My sweaty palms hold the key
You said it was to your heart
You promised that we’d be together
You said we’d never part
People say that I’ll find another
But I know that it’s not true
You were my first, and will be my only love
I’ll remember you in everything I do
Name: Liz *~cuz~*
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18:31:13 11/23/03
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Hey Eric! how have you been? i'v been alright, just missing you alot. its so weird cuz i think of you all the time. i try not to cuz i know it would just make me more upset, but i cant help it. * i have pictures of you everywere in my room, from school dances and just us being stupid. i have alot of you and brandon together. you guys look so funny and happy. you know he calls here alot and asks about how your mom, dad and bro are doing. he talks about you alot and is still very sad and upset. hes coming home soon so maybe we will go see you. * i goof off alot in school and everytime i do i think of you and how goofy you were, so im just trying to keep it going. * i cant believe how many pages there are for you. i havent been on in a loooong time, just cuz i couldnt bring myself to type "quitetheking/eric.com". Eric so many people cared about you, i just dont understand. im still wondering about the time i talked to you on the angel game. im still wondering if what you said was true or not, or if it was even you. i really hope it was though. * you have know idea how hard its going to be this christmas without you. you know how grandma always makes the grandkids line up and hold candles, and we all have to sing and light a candle for my dad and put baby jesus in his manger. i always used to make fun of you cuz you were in front of me, eventhough i came up to your elbows hahahaha. i hope you and my dad will be there for it. * you know, you were the reason i liked going to the family events. just because we would always find ways to make fun of everyone or mess with uncle tom. * aunt nancy tells me that shes been upset lately and doesnt really feel like doing anything, and i totally agree with her. i just want to know the answers, and i question myself alot about you. its really pissing me off. you know i still think your here. whenever the familys at grandmas i always always think your going to walk through the door saying "sorry im late everyone." i keep wishing that would happen, eventhough i know its not. * i keep praying for you, and our family that we could all get through this and try to move on with our lives. i know its going to take a very very long time, cuz were still trying to move on from my dads. anyways i have to go. ill try to keep looking on to this site as much as i can. also, can you do a huge faver for me?! can you say "Hi"and "I love you" to my dad for me. thanks :)
Love and miss you lots <3 LIZ
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00:45:50 11/22/03
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whats up buddy. i just wanted to say hi. i was thinkin about u and was pissed u couldnt join us while everyone was home for this thanksgiving break. i miss u a lot bud, and so does everyone else, but our memories of u will last forever. whenever i get pissed about something, i always think of something u did to lighten up the mood. u made me laugh more than anyone. the way u went out of ur way to make other people smile showed how good of a person u were. u may have lived a short life, but u lived it to the fullest. i am thankful for getting to know u and being a friend to u. i still hope ur smiling w/ur big red fro right now, cuz thats what everyone wants. but keep watching over ur mother, father, and brother for me. later g$
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13:24:40 11/21/03
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This world
This world is cold
But you don't
You don't have to go
You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely, and no one seems to care
This pain you cannot bear
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Your days
You say they're way too long
And your nights
You can't sleep at all
Hold on
And you're not sure what you're waiting for, but you don't want to no more
And you're not sure what you're looking for, but you don't want to no more
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on
What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead...What are you waiting for?
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Hold on
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