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Love and miss you so very much!
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20:34:02 12/28/22
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Merry Christmas my luv. The pain of missing you never goes away.
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20:48:12 05/18/22
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Hi Eric, I think of you more often than I thought I would when you left at 17 years old. We were all kids, and you forever will be. My heart breaks to think of what you could be today. I’m so sorry for your pain. I’m sorry none of us saw it. We were too young to understand. To your family, we carry Eric with us as adults, as parents and as those who cared then and now for him and all of you. We walk with you in your pain.
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Miss you more and more these days!
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11:19:24 04/23/21
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Thinking of you and missing you!
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20:42:07 05/29/20
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Happy Birthday my love!! I miss you!
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11:25:28 11/13/19
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I still miss and think about you so much! I haven't forgotten.😘
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06:47:40 05/29/19
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Happy Birthday!
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18:39:48 04/23/18
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15 years today and I still miss you like it was yesterday. Forever in my heart Eric.
Name: L
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19:51:56 01/13/18
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Hi Eric,
I think about you a lot this time of year. It is hard to believe this will be 15 years. I think about your infectious laugh and our talks at track and in American music. The red headed bond we shared haha. After you were gone they made me run in your spot in the weight man’s relay to make sure we finished with a red head.
I’ve been a high school teacher now for 11 years and I take kids to operation snowball every year. Most years we talk about suicide and depression and it takes me back to that night all over. Nicolene called me historically crying. She just said how she thought about calling you the night before and for some reason didn’t. I wish someone was there for you, I wish you would have reached out, and I try to make sure that my students know that someone is there for them.
You changed my life. You gave suicide a face for me. You gave me a mission that I will do everything in my power to NOT let anyone I know feel that that is their only option. Everyday I work hard to find help for the student I can see a suffering silently.
I miss you, graf.
L
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19:43:42 06/23/17
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This American Life recently aired a story from their archives---March 14, 2003 to be exact---called Say Anything. Act One (How to Write a Note) tells the story of a guy, and his friend... You came shooting through my consciousness. To think that this aired a month before you were gone---le sigh.
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09:54:34 05/28/17
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Hey Graf,
First time I have posted on here. We met a couple times and talked here and there. You always pop into my mind when someone posts about awareness on Facebook. Hope your doing well up there and watching over your family and friends. Be well.
Name: Rachel
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23:19:14 12/16/16
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My mind was wandering tonight and brought me here. It's sad but comforting to read some of these messages from years ago. Your memory is so clear.
Nobody said it was easy.
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy.
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh take us back to the start.
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We didn't talk much in high school, but every time I see a 70 Mach1 Stang, I think of you, man. This particular time (I saw a Mach1), I Googled your name and stumbled on this site, so I figured I'd post.The way you used to treat everyone with equal respect regardless of your popularity was truly inspiring. You meant more to the spirits of the LWE 03 Class than you ever knew, and I'm sure I'm not the only one who barely knew you that still remembers you leaving us. Clearly your loss is still fresh in the hearts of many. You will not be forgotten.
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23:51:09 05/29/14
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Happy Birthday.. it was a beautiful day and I'm still missing you. The years go by but the pain still stays. I love you so very much, you're forever in my heart. I hope you celebrated in true Eric style! Hugs and lots of love... :)
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23:49:59 05/29/14
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Happy Birthday.. it was a beautiful day and I'm still missing you. The years go by but the pain still stays. I love you so very much, you're forever in my heart. I hope you celebrated in true Eric style! Hugs and lots of love... :)
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09:42:27 05/02/14
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Heard the song "I wanna get better" by Bleachers, and it makes me think of you. I hope you are out there and feeling better.
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07:23:34 04/23/14
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The Sun is shining today, I was thinking of you. I miss you so much. Your smile. Your laugh. You are in my prayers. I know I will see you again someday.
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22:00:07 04/10/14
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You're still on our minds - as loved and missed as ever, handsome!
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16:12:43 05/29/13
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Happy Birthday..... Love you so much.....
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09:43:29 05/29/13
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Happy 28th birthday, handsome!
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07:28:19 04/22/13
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Our Hearts
still ache in sadness
and secret tears still flow
what it meant to lose you
no one will
ever know
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Happy Valentine's Day!!!!
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22:05:48 11/24/12
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I love you today tomorrow and forever!!!
Name: Tommy
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21:23:32 04/24/12
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We still miss you and haven't forgotten.
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12:13:47 09/29/11
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It must've been in a place so dark you couldn't feel the light
Reachin' for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are gathered in our little hometown
This can't be the way you meant to draw a crowdOh, why? That's what I keep askin'
Was there anything I could have said or done?
Oh, I had no clue you were masking
A troubled soul, God only knows what went wrong
And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song Now in my mind I keep you frozen as a seventeen year old
Roundin' third to score the winning run
You always played with passion no matter what the game
When you took the stage, you shined just like the sun Oh, why? That's what I keep askin'
And was there anything I could have said or done?
Oh, I had no clue you were masking
A troubled soul, oh, God only knows what went wrong
And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song Now the oak trees are swayin' in the early autumn breeze
The golden sun is shining on my face
The tangled thoughts I hear a mockingbird sing
This old world really ain't that bad a place Oh, why? There's no comprehending
And who am I to try to judge or explain?
Oh, but I do have one burning question
Who told you life wasn't worth the fight?
They were wrong, they lied, and now you're gone, and we cried 'Cause it's not like you to walk away in the middle of a song
Your beautiful song, your absolutely beautiful song
rascal flatts - why
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15:44:40 05/31/11
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Sunday was your birthday. Hope you celebrated in true Eric style!
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10:19:57 12/28/10
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Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!
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12:09:46 11/23/10
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Happy Thanksgiving!
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23:03:49 09/04/10
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A little girl, a little boy, that red hair, so beautiful you are....
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10:11:57 04/22/10
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The density of people in society is so thick that we forget that life will end one day. And we don’t know when that one day will be. So please, tell the people you love and care for that they are special and important. Tell them, before it’s too late!!
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13:31:29 03/15/10
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Miss you!
Name: Lauren
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10:35:38 12/23/09
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Eric,Just wanted to tell you I'm thinking of you. We all miss you terribly and love you very much. Lauren
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12:51:23 11/24/09
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Happy Thanksgiving!
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16:02:15 11/06/09
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Love you.
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11:56:00 10/30/09
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Happy Halloween! Forever on my mind.
Name: 1111111111111111111111
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07:40:23 09/10/09
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Thinking of you, always.
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14:52:09 08/05/09
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I m still missing you each and every day.
Name: lost
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14:33:03 07/02/09
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I am so lost without you. Nothing makes sense.
Miss you more each day. I need a hug.
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08:17:44 06/16/09
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hey eric,
i didnt know you, though i wish i did.
i've heard alot about you.
look out for joe, please.
i'm really worried about him lately.
thank you, so much.
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07:42:59 06/01/09
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Happy "24" Birthday! Love you.
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08:30:00 05/07/09
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Thinking about you alot today. I am sorry you are not here with us. I love you.
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13:44:55 04/23/09
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I think of you every day. And especially today... it is a beautiful day. But it would be more beautiful if you were here. I love you. Thank you for being the best friend and cousin I could ever ask for.
Name: Allison Menozzi
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God bless you and all of those who had the privilege of knowing you. Your life goes on through our thoughts, prayers, and memories.
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11:58:48 04/23/09
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Eric,It has been six long years without you. I think about you everyday. I love you so much and wish you were here. Life is just not as fun anymore without you in it. Hugs.
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10:22:02 04/23/09
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love and miss you everyday.xoxo cait
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08:43:24 04/23/09
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Wow, I didn't know this site still existed. It's hard to believe that you have been gone six years today. I miss you so very much, everyday. I love you Eric.
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08:06:40 04/17/09
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It's a beautiful day! Thinking of you!
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08:07:23 04/09/09
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Happy Easter Eric! Wish you were here, life just isn't the same.
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10:10:45 03/10/09
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You are constantly on my mind. Love you.
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01:34:52 12/29/08
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I wish I could have held you,
I wish I could have taken your hand,
And kept you safe with my love.
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00:52:24 12/29/08
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Merry Chistmas Eric! Wish you were here.
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07:56:56 12/12/08
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Right now I'm in a different place, and though we seem apart, I'm closer than I ever was ... I'm there inside your heart.I'm with you when you greet each day
And while the sun shines bright,
I'm there to share the sunsets, too...
I'm you you every night. I'm with you when the times are good,
to share a laugh or two,
And if a tear should start to fall...
I'll still be thre for you. And when that day arrives,
That we no longer are apart,
I'll smile and hold you close to me...
Forever in my heart.
Name: Lauren
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17:11:32 12/02/08
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Hi Eric,I'm sorry I haven't been to the page in awhile. It's not because I'm not thinking about you, I frequently do. I just wanted to stop by and tell you I love you and we all miss you so much. We have and will not forget, ever. Lauren
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08:11:21 11/26/08
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Happy Thanksgiving Eric. Still loving and missing you more as each day goes by.
Name: a friend of a friend
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23:15:46 10/20/08
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Eric, I didn't know you, but I know someone who was a really good friend of yours. I know she is still hurting from your loss. I pray for you and her and everyone who knew you every night.
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15:14:10 10/03/08
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cant stop thinking about u. Luv ya!
Name: joey
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21:37:49 09/22/08
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i fell asleep in your bed and it made me feel like everything was ok and you were still here
i miss you alot
and i love you
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12:06:51 09/16/08
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thinking about you. :) XXOOXX
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09:50:35 08/12/08
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Hey Eric,Just sitting here thinking about you and how much life has changed since you've been gone. I wish you could be here to see all the changes, good and bad. Life is so unfair, it meant more and had so much more to offer with you in it.. I miss you and Love you whole bunches.
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15:48:38 07/03/08
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Happy 4th of July Eric. Still missing and hurting without you.
Name: Bridget
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17:52:51 06/02/08
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Hey Graf,
This is the first time I have been to this website in years, I thought for some reason it was shut down. I have been going through and reading alot of the old messages posted and seeing what people have said and even the people who have posted them, it just makes me so sad. I still miss you the same but I guess I have just never really let my mind fully go back to this place, it has always just been to painful. I just wanted to say happy belated birthday and I love you and miss you.
Bridget
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15:40:54 05/29/08
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If roses grow in Heaven,
Lord please pick a bunch for me,
Place them in Eric's arms
and tell him they're from me.Tell him I love him and miss him,
and when he turns to smile,
place a kiss upon his cheek
and hold him for awhile. Because remembering him is easy,
I do it every day,
but there's an ache within my heart
that will never go away. Happy Birthday Eric, love you.
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08:07:30 05/29/08
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Happy 23rd Birthday. I hope you are having a great time on your special day. You are missed each and everyday. The world is not the same without you in it. Love you.xxooxx
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21:39:43 05/07/08
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hey eric! ~i miss you!!! i've been thinking about you a lot lately. i had a school project to do and i ended up implementing a resource binder in your honor and had a meeting with the schoolboard on the 23rd. i did it for you and i hope you know how much i miss you and everyone else too. i know your still up there smiling and looking over everyone....i just wish i could still see your smiling face now! i know that i will see you when it is my time to go and we'll have a blast just like old times! until then keep watchin over everyone, especially your family. i truly do miss you and love you and you know that. god bless you eric! love you jac
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14:01:37 04/23/08
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You gave us someplace to go, I never said thank you for that, thought I thought I might get one more chance ..........Eric, it's been five year's today and you are missed as much today as that day. On the days when the pain of losing you is the worst. I close my eyes real tight and imagine you are right beside me, I reach into my heart and I can feel your arms around me giving one of your hugs. I cherish these moments and the memories we made. All my love to one special guy. Until we meet again, I will see you in my dreams.
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18:07:06 04/20/08
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hey dad cant beleve u went sooo sudden i know u r with me but i always said i would never life without u dad but have 2 for wee morgan and mum
i love u sooooooooo much dad and i hope u r with me right now xxxxxxxxx
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20:06:24 04/17/08
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It never gets easier. I love and miss you.
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04:15:45 12/15/07
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Graf, almost 5 years and this is the first time i've been able to look at this site. The funny thing is it still hurts the same as if i would of looked at it the day it was made. 5 years the worlds been spinnin without you. So many memories made and missed, you changed my life regardless. We're all goin to keep gettin older and uglier a little fatter and you'll always be young always be beautiful. You aren't missin out on anything we're all missin out on you. Stay young and beautiful, I'll see you when its my turn to stop spinnin.with all the love i have for a friend,
Eddie James
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09:53:48 09/28/07
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Hey Eric it seems like just yesterday you were here laughing and joking. Your smile was so contagious and your hugs were the bestest. If I could wrap my arms around you one more time I would hold on so tight you wouldn't be able to leave. If I could talk to you one more time I would never stop, I would tell you all the things that I waited to say becasue I thought you would be here forever. If only I had one more chance............................................
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09:14:06 09/27/07
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hey buddy just thinking about you. We had some good times together. RIPvollrath
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10:24:58 09/25/07
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I haven't written to you since '03, but I constantly think of the fun time we had together. You are greatly missed bud. When I hear the scientist on my ipod, i always think of the stories I have been told about you. Even today, four years later, i still remember the same things when I hear that song. We miss you buddy!
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03:55:53 09/23/07
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what e sorry i havent wrote ya in like four years b/c i dont really dont know what to say but i miss ya man
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22:14:18 09/13/07
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hey eric. every year this my sorority host suicide awareness week at my school. on tuesday i will be taking a vow of silence in memory of all those who have pasted. i will be saying my vow in honor of you as well as 2 others who have passed. i wish i could talk to you one more time. even though its been so long, i still think about you so much. i hope this small act i am doing will help in some way.love, me
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16:15:02 09/12/07
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dude we got ur tattoo yesterday its pretty awsome
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19:49:07 09/03/07
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hey man member when me u and david and griffen were in the shed and we lit rocket engines off and we all ducked lol that was great just one of the things i remember us doing before u left
we are gettin a tatoo for u so il be thinking about u everyday love u man
joey
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00:15:42 08/08/07
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hey there babe... help me figure out what to dolove u
Name: aunt nancy
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19:13:33 08/06/07
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hey buddy-
thinking about you everyday, wishing you didnt have to go. we are all still working through the pain of losing you. miss you bud.
Name: Jaclyn
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16:49:52 08/06/07
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Just thought you should know that next month, a bunch of are going to get a memorial tattoo for you! Me, Liz, your Mom, Aunt Nancy, Uncle Tom, Sarah, Joey, and maybe even Dave. I can't wait to have it, because seeing it everyday will remind me of your smiling face and contagious laugh. I love you with all of my heart & miss our amazing friendship....ps. Thanks for answering my prayers... I've missed your mom so much.
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15:10:45 07/26/07
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Hi Eric,You were and are one of the best people to have come in to my life. I miss you so much. I'll see you in my dreams. Love you!
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12:42:30 05/06/07
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Hi Graffy....wow time has sure gone by fast...4 years now. I still miss u everyday and still tell all those funny stories about u! Some of us are actually graduating this year....crazy huh! Thanks for watchin out for us and makin sure everyone was ok, we all needed it at some point. It still feels like just yesterday we were standing at our lockers in highschool...good times! Well i miss u soo much!Love you!
Name: someone who will love you forever
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20:30:24 04/16/07
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hey babe~~
I cant believe its been almost 4 years. It seems like yesterday that we were staying up all hours of the night acting like stupid teenagers. I have read almost every message on here but have never been brave enough to let people know how I felt and feel about you. Im finding its very very helpful. I miss you everyday of my life and still cant understand what happened (I dont think anyone will). The only thing I can think of is that you are in a much better place than we are. I guess God was feeling sad one day and needed someone like you to make him laugh till his stomach hurt; like you always did for me. I love you always and forever and Ill miss y ou till the day I die. Love,
Someone who loves you more than anything in this world~~
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07:30:28 02/27/07
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yo graf-
I was just thinking about you and the little "mission" that we went on together senior year. I remember how you had no idea what was really going on, and it was a blast to have you there with us. not a day goes by without me at least thinking about your name and smiling face. i just wish we could all come home from college and reunite and start over. I hope life is better wherever you are and that i can get to see you again someday!
Name: Billy Beechy
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14:43:14 10/14/05
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i miss you bro.
just thinking about you.
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08:08:05 10/11/05
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eric not a second goes by when your not on my mind. i love and miss you more with each passing day. wish you were here with us.
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22:52:57 10/02/05
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Hey er-
So today i found out that one of my friends had a friend die and he said that she did what you did, he didnt know what to do. So i got to thinking ten times more about you then i normally do. I miss you and i was hoping that you could just look out for her and her family and friends! thanx! your always in my mind and i miss you.
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16:47:19 09/30/05
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Hey Er, just sittin here at school and was thinking about you...i know i havent left you anything in awhile, so i thought i'd get goin on that! i miss you everyday and you know i think about you. i wish you could come and visit all of us, but i know you watch over us! Well, i just wanted to leave you a little note..miss you!!!
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00:10:24 09/28/05
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Hey man, just randomly thought of you today...we all miss you..Dan
Name: Cait
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01:40:06 09/23/05
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hey kid, just want to let you know i'm thinkin about you...keep an eye on everyone, i know you are! love you buddy!
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00:56:41 09/22/05
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Just wanted to drop a line bud, I've been thinkin bout u and miss u like crazy, keep watchin over us, some of our friends definetely need it.
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02:28:11 09/18/05
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I love you Er!!! Miss you more than anything!!!
Name: You are forever in my heart
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21:05:51 09/17/05
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To Where You Are"Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memory's so clear Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be (?)
That you are my
Forever love
And you are watching over me from up above Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
'Cause you are my
Forever love
Watching me from up above And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are I know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are
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11:04:17 09/12/05
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No, we don't know the whole story...that's the problems alot of us have. After reading, we can see that something had been going on with friends that lead to his decision. Either way, no one is to blame, we just need some understanding as to why? Unfortunately, that question can only be answered by something that isn't here. We loved him, a bright star in the sky now, shining down and touching those who did.
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08:07:11 09/07/05
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Love and miss you more then ever. Our lives are so very sad without you.
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17:34:41 08/27/05
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i just want those who hurt him to feel as miserable as they have made his friends and family they knnow who they are but in case they forget build me up butter cup dont break my heart i guess she
broke his heart and how bout if you want to hang out this me then your have to drink and smoke or how b out eric i like you but only when im broke up with my boyfriend and i neeed a few laughs. no disrespect is intended for his family or friends who feel the same. and most of all no disrespect for eric.
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Can everyone stop arguing on this site. This is for Erics friends and family to come and pay their respects and read the wonderful things that people write about Eric. Just put all of this blame to rest. Erics friends and family knew who eric was and know the whole story. Just be respectful. Thank you
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19:44:00 08/23/05
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if they knew so little then they didn't know him at all or maybe they used him for his kindness.
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09:29:10 08/22/05
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i have a better question to address to you-- who is going to teach you how to spell and/or type?? eric had the best of friends and i know this as an outsider looking in. a lot of his friends were true to him but there is only so much you can do for a person when you know too little.
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well eric its been almost 2 1/2 years and im still waiting forv this nightmare to end. i cant get past this. everytime i log on to this web site on pray that it isn't here. you were one of a kind. I miss you and can not wait for the day we are together again. the world was much better with you in it.
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whowas watching over eric when he neded it,
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22:41:57 08/18/05
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Hey! Just wanted to stop in and say hi! This summer has been awesome! Thanks for watchin out for all of us....sure know we needed some nights! Love u and miss you tons! Always thinkin about ya!
Love, Jenny :)
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19:51:00 08/15/05
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eric you were not selfish in anything you did. You were a victem of some really evil friends.
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14:12:21 07/30/05
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Good dream last night:) Thanks
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16:02:25 07/27/05
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Love and Miss you Eric! I hope you are still watching over us everyday....
-jessica
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00:14:14 07/24/05
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Hi Eric,I really didn't know you too well. I was part of the Lincoln-Way East 2003 class. You were in my civics class with Mr. Hoffman jr. year and PE class. I talked to you a few times, and you always seemed nice. I probably come to this site every couple of months and read a few entrys. I am always overwhelmed at how a lot of people were affected at your loss, and how so many people continue to care about you today. I read from a previous post that you were 17 at the time... and it reminds me how much I and everyone else from the class of 2003 has grown. I'm 21 now and you would have just turned 20. Even though I didn't really know you, I want you and those close to you to know that what happened still affects me, over two years later. To be loved by so many people, even those who didn't know you, is a true testiment of your character. God bless.
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00:13:08 07/22/05
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hey kiddo. i was watching coldplay play on vh1 and they started playing the scientist and i started to think about you. so i figured id come drop you a line. so i did. i love you, boy.<33
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09:26:08 07/21/05
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Hey you! I'm sitting at work...blahh. I'm SO ready to go back to school! I mean there really is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do around here anymore...hah I say anymore like there ever was. Well I was thinking of you and I just wanted to drop a line to tell you that I miss you! Take it easy!
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19:21:32 07/17/05
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I don't believe that Eric fulfilled his destiny and made his mark, I don't think that raising awareness about his death and giving people even more of a morbid fascination is what Eric was brought here to do. Yes, Eric was the funny kid that everyone knew, but he was also so loving and affectionate, Eric was meant to do something so much larger than what he thought he could do. I knew Eric since he was 4 and his life was not meant to send the message of "don't let this happen to you". That is bullshit. Eric made the most selfish decision anyone can make. But he was 17; he was young and stupid and thought that doing what he did was his only option. But in no way should Eric be remembered as a suicide victim. He should be remembered as the wonderful person that he was. And if you were truly friends with Eric, or of course one of his family members, you already know that. Remember all of you outsiders looking in on Eric's life, Ignorance is bliss!
I love you and miss you Er, God Bless!
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23:49:47 07/15/05
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help watch over us luv and miss you more then ever.
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08:54:39 07/14/05
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If tears could build a stairway,
and memories were a lane,
I would walk right up to heaven
to bring you home again.
No farewell words were spoken,
no time to say good-bye,
You were gone before I knew it,
and only God knows why.
My heart still aches in sadness
And secret tears still flow,
What it means to lose you,
no one will ever know.
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12:33:27 07/11/05
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Eric-
I didn't know you well but i met you a few times. I went to your funeral as moral support for someone who knew you well. I have been good friends with some of your friends for years and seeing them hurting so bad at your funeral was so hard for me. They were guys that I never thought in a million years I would see crying. But they were balling like babies. And there was nothing I could do for them but hold them. I know you are still watching over these guys. They need you to. I love them more than I can say and you did too and that is why you are in the place you are now. To help your friends in need. I am amazed at some of the things I have seen people write in their messages. It scares me. Some sounded like they really need someone to confide in. Help them get the help they need, Eric. Some of the others messages were blaming others. Guys... it's time to let it go. There is nothing you can do now but let him rest in peace and not fight over who is to blame. Keep that up and then you will become the one "responsable" for another lonely soul like Eric who unfortunately thought he had no where to turn. If you really believe this person is to blame and you hate them so much...don't become that same type of person. To the guys that I tried to console 2 years ago...I love you guys. We don't hang out that much anymore, but eveytime I see you I realize how much I miss you. I wish you all the best. To Eric's family....just remember..all you need to know is you did the best you could. When it comes to losing a loved one, there is nothing you can do. Losing a loved one is 100 percent all in God's hands. Know that he is smiling down on all of you.
I have seen the effect Eric had on those around him and they appreciate everything he ever did.
Eric, you made your mark. You fulfilled your destiny. You did your job down here...now party it up, up there!!!!
Love always...someone who wishes they knew you better,but will always be there for those who need me
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14:58:06 07/08/05
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Hey Eric-
Just wanted to let you know i was thinking of you! I Love you babe!
-Krystina
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14:26:45 07/08/05
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I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU MORE AND MORE EACH DAY. THIS WWORLD WAS SO MUCH BEETER WITH YOU IN IT NOW IT JUST REALLY SUCKS!
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00:27:48 07/01/05
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I haven't left a message in awhile. I've been thinking about you alot lately... I know that you help me with so many life problems everyday, because if you didn't, I know I wouldn't be here today. It's so unfortunate that this is the way that you left, because I know it wasn't meant to be... But I'm glad that your up there looking after all of us. Don't discontinue watching over everyone. Because although its been two years, we all still feel alittle weak when we think about your death.
I love you, & take care.
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the days are gettting wrse now. i miss u more then anything. not a moment goes by that im not thinking of you.
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13:56:06 06/14/05
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i dont gotta a lot to say but i remember a lot like win i bought ur bike from u for $45 i still got it and thats the olny thin i got left of u i miss u a lot say hi to grandma and uncle jeff for me i love love joey
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Thinking of you ofcourse.
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02:59:53 06/13/05
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hey eric, just wanted u to know im thinking about ya. Take care sweetheart.... love always linz ruiz
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love you
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23:21:04 05/30/05
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I hope you had a great birthday! we are all still thinking about you and keeping you and your family in our prayers! Love ya Graffy!
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22:18:49 05/29/05
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Happy 20th Birthday Eric! Love and miss you more with each passing day.Cant wait till we are together again.
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19:01:26 05/29/05
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Hey Er...Happy 20th birthday! This is your third birthday in heaven. I love you and miss you more than anything! God Bless you!
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14:20:24 05/29/05
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Happy Birthday Eric!!!
Hey, yesterday was grandma and grandpa's anniversary party! It was fun, aunt lisa made a video for them, it was awesome! I cried a little though cuz they were talking about my dad and you. Jaclyn, Liz and Sarah are on their way to see you at the cemetary. Sorry i couldnt be there to visit you and wish you a happy birthday with them but im writing you now amd I'll pray for you. Well I better go now but i hope you have a happy birthday!! Love you and miss you always always <3 Love, Melissa
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13:08:56 05/28/05
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Happy 20th Birthday Grafee !
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20:11:29 05/26/05
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I haven't been on here in a while.. I just wanted to drop by and say I was thinking about you. Thanks for everything that you've done for me. I appreciate it so much.God Bless.
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I just wrote you but i wanted to write you again cuz i cant stop thinking about you! I was reading what other people wrote and i saw that my old friend, Ashley from new lenox wrote you a couple times and i thought that was nice! I also read what tom and kim were saying about all these memories. I remember when you used to sing that song "I see, sky's of blue, and clouds of white"...on our piano all the time. It was soo funny! I loved how you always slept over at our house in new lenox and made me breakfast almost every morning. You were always a good cook! lol And you always had two things in your hand, a video camera and diet coke! haha I found tons of videos of you taping things and that time you made a music video for "Baby One More Time" by Britany Spears!! that was hilarious, with all those balloons! We always had fun in our pool too and you did those famous flips too. You were the best cousin in the world and you will never be forgotten. I miss you too death and love you! I wish you were still here with us. I dont really get to see our family that much and go to grandma and grandpa's house, but when i do, i still think your gonna be there when i got there, but of course you not! I really wish you were tho...Please watch over me and my family. I know your always here with me. I was thinking that i should do a website like this for my daddy!! cuz i just want to talk to him. I feel like he hears me better when i write it down like this. Eric, please tell him that i love him, miss him and i think about him all the time and life would be soo different right now if he was still here...like, we would still be living in that beautiful new lenox house that i love so much and i would be goin to a differnet school and everything, and Geroge would actually be coming over all the time like he used to and sleep over like he used to everyday, cuz right now, he never comes over to morris to see us anymore. But i understand...Well, I'll be back on the site real soon, Your birthday's coming up too...you would of been 20! wow! I love you and think about you every second of everyday...Miss you <3 Melissa <3 (your cousin)
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10:10:43 05/15/05
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Hey Eric,
I havent wrote you in a long time but i havent forgotten about you..never! Me and my mom just went to the cemetary a few weeks ago..the first time i ever saw your grave. I miss you so much and i wish you were still here with us..when im at grandma's house or anywhere, i still feel like your there with us. It's still not the same without you. You always made everything so much better and you were so funny and made everyone laugh! How's my dad doing? I miss him so much too..take care of him. Tell him that i love him. I cant believe its been two years since you passed away..I'll never forget the good times we had when you always slept over and stayed at our house in new lenox pretty much every day. You were the best cousin ever and we always had so much fun!! When some songs play, i think of you..like this coldplay song and that green day song that was your favorite and they played it at ur furnural. Everytime its on the radio, jaclyn and liz always tell me to turn it off when im with them. I guess they cant take the pain or something...but i think of you when i listen to it and i like listening to it cuz i like to think of you even though it makes me sad. I always think of how we went swimming in our pool all the time with kyle and brandon and messed around..we had so much fun. Well I got to go now but I miss you and love you soo much!! Watch over our family and say hi to my dad and grandma and grandpa for me!! Love you lots! Love, Melissa
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12:36:21 05/09/05
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eric--hey hun-i can't believe its already been two years. Its all gone by so fast. I was talking with Galvan the other day when we came to visit you at the cemetary. Its crazy to think that you were only 17 when all this happened...17. Thats so young. You weren't even legally an adult yet. I wish you could have taken whatever was hurting you so badly and just blown it off. Everything would be so different now. I dont think any of us had felt such a loss until you were gone. You made such an impact on everyone's lives. I mean, look at this website, almost half of the people on here dont even know you and you still have effected them in some way. For whoever put that its Catherine's fault is very iggnorant. I'm sure it was more then one thing that made you so unhappy Eric, but I know deep in my heart that you are in a better place. I too see the commercial that plays your song the scientist and my heart races and my stomach turns everytime. I also always here Time of your Life by Green Day and that also saddens me. I can just remember your funeral and after everything was said and done, that song was played. I dont think there was a dry eye in the entire funeral home. As soon as the song started, you heard sobs and cries for every man, woman, girl, or boy in the place. We all miss you and love you Eric, take care.
Rest In Peace
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18:28:30 04/28/05
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Hey Eric its been awhile...every time i turn on the tv theres that one commercial that plays your song, the scientist, and i thought it was a sign to come on here again... i saw jaclyn and aunt nancy post stuff so i thought id add to the family...
its been two years, wow.
you probably already know this but your moms doing better, its no so awkward to see her anymore. but
wow do we all miss you
i know i do...
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14:25:59 04/28/05
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whos catherine? and why is it all her fault?
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07:56:16 04/26/05
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just a reminder to catherine for all the pain she caused i hope she is miserable 4 the rest of her life i dont want her to ever forget that she is the reason u r gone. the only reason. it was not your choice it was hers. all my hate to you catherine.
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22:17:15 04/25/05
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Graf- Still trying to wake up from this nightmare..its been a rough two years...I figured I would be able to handle talking about you and visiting you at the cemetary but no it hasn't become any easier. Life feels like a puzzle that can't be put together because the most important piece is missing ..that piece is You. I wish you were still here. You were such a beautiful person. I love you with all my heart. Please look down on us from above..keep us out of trouble.
See ya when I get there.
g
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10:45:44 04/25/05
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Hey man, 2 years has come and gone and you are still on everyone's minds. I thought about you all weekend man and I know you are still lookin down on all of us. I can still remember the day I heard the news like it was yesterday, hell, it seems like it was. But thanks again for all the great memories and fun times, you truly were an amazing person. Take care.
-Finn
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00:26:55 04/25/05
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miss you sweetie.
you are in our hearts & heads and we will never forget you!
-Jessica
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23:37:24 04/24/05
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Hey Graf-
I just wanted to say that i think about you all the time. I know that we werent great friends, but i till think about you more then ever. I hope things are good up in heaven and i hope that u are still looking over all of your family and friends and keeping them safe. Can't believe it has been a year...stay strong everyone and keep your memories and prayers alive. It was truely a honor to have know you Eric Graf! Monica
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19:24:43 04/23/05
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Hey Eric-
Just wanted to let you know that i was thinkin about you. I can't believe that two years has already passed since you've been gone. The time is flying past, but there is not time that can pass how much everyone still misses you and thinks of you on a regular basis. I know i think of you everyday. I hope that life is what you expected it to be up there and so much more. I talked to Dave the other day and it sounds like your whole family is trying to hold their heads up higher than ever before. When your tragedy happened it brought many people down, but also in a sense it brought many people to become stronger. Just know that no matter what i still think of you daily... Your in my heart, thoughts, and prayers. I love you Graf, and wish you were still here! Take care of yourself! xoxo
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19:24:37 04/23/05
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Hey Eric-
Just wanted to let you know that i was thinkin about you. I can't believe that two years has already passed since you've been gone. The time is flying past, but there is not time that can pass how much everyone still misses you and thinks of you on a regular basis. I know i think of you everyday. I hope that life is what you expected it to be up there and so much more. I talked to Dave the other day and it sounds like your whole family is trying to hold their heads up higher than ever before. When your tragedy happened it brought many people down, but also in a sense it brought many people to become stronger. Just know that no matter what i still think of you daily... Your in my heart, thoughts, and prayers. I love you Graf, and wish you were still here! Take care of yourself! xoxo
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16:16:39 04/23/05
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god kid, i can't believe it's been two years...i'm still missin you like crazy, we all are. but i know you're in a better place than all of us, and watchin over all the time. i love you er!
love, cait
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14:15:59 04/23/05
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Hi Graffy! Wow I cant believe it has been two years! I think about you all the time still! and if I ever need a laugh I just think of you and all the fun times! I miss you so much...Hope your doin good up there! Miss you and love u! Love~Jenny J :)
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12:50:43 04/23/05
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Hey ER.....i havent been on here in so long but its two years ago today and i just wanted to tell you i love you and not a day goes by that i dont think about you.....God bless you baby......times two.....love ya always and forever....Carli
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14:05:27 04/22/05
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It is so hard to believe that two years ago today you were still here with us. I love you and miss you so much! God bless you.
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i cant forget
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08:15:41 04/20/05
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eric not a second goes by that you are not in my thoughts. i am so sad without you.
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08:29:26 04/19/05
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It been almost two years now since your death ......It's important that your not forgotten, your not at all. No one will ever forget you. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
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08:27:07 04/19/05
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It been almost two years now since your death and just about as long since anyone left a message.....It's important that your not forgotten, your not at all. No one will ever forget you. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Name: Sean Radke
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22:24:13 04/18/05
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hey eric,
Its radke. damn kid, i remeber the first time i met u when i moved here. u were my first friend when i came to LWE. its hard to belive how fast we became such good friends. i think about u all the time bro when u would extend an invitation to go to the fort. i really appreciated that man. u made the transistion of moving to a new HS so much better. U were great for a laugh and i loved how me and you could always play off eachother talkin all crazy. but now ur gone and i miss u kid. we went back to the fort after everything happened and me and the guys spent one last night there in rembereance of u. ur presence was felt as we recalled all the great memories. You were a great guy Graf, i know ur lookin down on us everyday. i have ur initialls written underneath my baseball hat and i play everygaem for u. when i feel that things are gettin ruff i step of the mound and i look at it for strength.
thank you Erik, you are rembered
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14:05:30 04/13/05
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i heard this song and wanted to share it with you and let you know that i am so lonely without you.It was just another story written on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score
It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age
They found him face down on the bedroom floor There'll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home
Then out on Mooresville highway, they'll lay him 'neath a stone... How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know Did his girlfriend break up with him, did he buy or steal that gun?
Did he lose a fight with drugs or alcohol?
Did his Mom and Daddy forget to say I love you son?
Did no one see the writing on the wall? I'm not blamin' anybody, we all do the best we can
I know hindsight's 20/20, but I still don't understand... How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know
It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score...
i just don;t understand and i cant get past this. i miss you so much.
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13:47:25 04/12/05
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hey eric i've been thinkin about you a lot. and i just wanted to say that i miss you so much. and everyone else still misses you too. wish you were here with us today, but i know that your still watchin over all of us and thank you for that. just know that your always going to be in our hearts forever. i love you and miss you.
~jacqueline~
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12:23:43 04/06/05
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hi Graf... I just heard the scientist and I can't think of anything else but you when i hear that song. I can't believe it has been almost 2 years... that just does not seem real?... miss you. God Bless you Eric....thanks for watching over us. <3 ~ Jill~
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10:29:18 04/05/05
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Thanks Eric...today is another beautiful day.
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12:52:43 04/04/05
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Eric ~
I just went to the cemetary. Eventhough your grave is there, I feel you everywhere. When everyone is at grandma & grandpa's, you are there. When me and Liz are watching the home videos we made, you are there... Thank you for letting me take you with me everywhere I go. I love you.
Love ~ JaclynPs. Today it is a Beautiful Day... and I feel you smiling from above.
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23:48:48 04/02/05
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Eric- there seems to be a lot of hurt still residing in the people that were impacted by your life. even though the hurt does not completely go away, please help them feel some sort of peace about the whole situation. please help them realize that anger and blame do not help anyone. Everyone misses you! Help everyone feel that you are still with them...
p.s. Have you met my gram up there? She'll cook you a great dinner! Tell her i miss her everyday...
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18:01:39 04/01/05
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Hey Er~It is hard to believe that it is almost 2 years now since you left us. It hasn't gotten easier, the questions still aren't answered, the pain hasn't siezed. But, we are all so lucky to have you looking over us. I miss you more than anything. The video for that stupid country song is so much like what happened to us. It makes my cry everytime I see, because it brings me back to that day. It is strange though, as much as I want to forget that week, and how painful it was, I never want to forget one second. It was our life, a huge part of it, and we will never lose the memories. I love you Eric. God Bless
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13:37:01 04/01/05
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love and miss you eric
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01:39:46 03/30/05
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You know, me and Jason Surdey were talking about you the other day. We had some fun times. Track was awesone together, f-ing LWHS. well bro, i still remember the good times and evertime i hear this song (scientist) or Lucky Boys Confusion - Mr. Wilmington, it is all about you in those moments! Peace!!!
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01:00:48 03/30/05
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Graf-Been thinking about you a lot lately bro. I was just talking about you to some people the other day about the 'Jackass' video we made.....and how my dad beat you, tom, and phelan up at the same time. haha. i miss those days so much. thanks so much for everything eric. i miss you so much. i'm gonna stop by the cemetary to visit you real soon. i promise. loveya man.
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01:00:40 03/30/05
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Graf-Been thinking about you a lot lately bro. I was just talking about you to some people the other day about the 'Jackass' video we made.....and how my dad beat you, tom, and phelan up at the same time. haha. i miss those days so much. thanks so much for everything eric. i miss you so much. i'm gonna stop by the cemetary to visit you real soon. i promise. loveya man.
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13:36:47 03/27/05
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happy easter, i love you and miss you more and more each day. i cant wait til the day i see you again.
Name: Kimmy
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19:08:47 03/25/05
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Hey Honey...you just popped into my head and thought I would stop by the site to say whud up cuz! Er, I still miss you more and more each day...Love you Cuz and I'll stop by again soon!
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12:59:13 03/19/05
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ive been hearing the song build me up buttercup cgand get help wondering why she ever said cgit was your guys song. she obviously never listened to what the song was actually saying because she did everything cgto you that the songs says not to.. i really hope she is miserable today and hurt as she made you. its a shame cgthat one person or people dont realize what an impact they have on the feelings of others. oh i know people say not to blame otherscg but when other cause one person so much cgpain then i think they need to reminded how evil cgthey really were and are. you were such a nice person, you probably wouldnt agree or be mean enough to say it. thats why i will alwyas to it for you. those who hurt youcg, should feel the pain they causued you for the rest of their lives. you are truly loved and missed. hope to see you soon.
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17:16:34 03/14/05
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Hey, Idk its been long years w/out you.. I check this site atleast once a week.. I decided today to write to you.. Its been kinda hard lately. I wish you were here to talk to.. I miss you Graf!!! We all do and its going almost 2 years now.. I still think about you and how u were since a great person.. Can you do Me and favor graf.. Take Care of Kevin Aleck.. He was one of my brothers friends and He passed away Apirl 12 04 and Me and My brother pray for both of you and We miss you both alot.. thanks buddy Its been good to talk to you again even though i dont get a right away answer.. But i know some way or another i will get a sign from you to know ur listening and hearing all the prays... I love you so much Graf I miss you!!! x3 Me
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08:07:31 03/14/05
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IT WAS NOT HIS CHOICE!!!!!!!!!!!!
Name: aunt nancy
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16:19:59 03/11/05
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Hey, It's been awhile. We miss you. I find peace in knowing you are where you wanted to be, although we would rather have you here, its the choice you made. Your little cousin is 2 now, he knows your picture and when he is old enough to understand, he will know everything I know about you.
See ya kiddo,
Aunt Nancy
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21:04:40 03/10/05
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love and miss you more today then yesterday.
Name: Krystina Lewis
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00:08:31 03/05/05
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Hey Eric -
Wow, i can't believe it's been almost 2 years since you've been gone...The time is just flying past. I never thought I could think about someone so much, but i want you to know that i think of you everyday, even if its just to think of a past time that you made me laugh. Things are good with me, I hope things are even better with you. I've come to realize that through everything you've truely influenced me and helped me grow as a person. I wish you could be living the same great experience in life that i am. You are so important to so many people and are still constantly thought of....I will NEVER forget someone as great as you! I Love you with everything i have!
-Krystina
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12:07:01 03/04/05
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eric, no one understands the pain i feel. i miss you so much.
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23:01:28 03/02/05
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Dear Eric.I've never met you before, but somehow I feel connected to you. I know that sounds weird, but it's the truth. I know how you get that lonely. I was there, I think we all have at one point or another. I tried (and thankfully failed) to take my own life one year ago, and I was going to try again when I found your website. Maybe it was fate, but I didn't do it, because I saw how much your death affected those you loved, and I dont know, I couldnt go through with it. I'm still here and I'm glad. To your friends, I know what its like to lose someone you love so suddenly and at such a young age. Thank you, Eric, youve touched so many lives.
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17:36:17 03/01/05
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Hey!I have not written in so long, but I have a picture of you on my wall and I still think about you all the time. Certain songs, certain people, certain situations just make me think of your smile and the crazy things you'd do. I went into Flicks the other day to scam out of a xmas gift. I was in the back room. It is soooooo different. We would never get away with stealing bags of candy int hat place now. Lately, I have been gettin shit smacked left and right in my life, and the older I get the harder it is. Ithink that is like that for a lot of us now, we just feel like were looking for the anw, but everywehre we turn we can't find one. But I do no that you look down on us, and we appreciate that. we miss you so much, and not a day goes by that you're not on our minds. XoXo...
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21:24:44 02/28/05
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I never even knew you & yet you've completly impacted my life just from reading this website and seeing what everyone has to say about you, eric. you seem to be greatly missed. i hope you're having a great time up there. xo. <3
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01:47:34 02/28/05
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Here's part of a song by Blaine Larsen called "How Do you Get That Lonely"...it's a great song, and this part reminded me of you...miss ya eric"How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know "
Name: Hill
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16:35:33 02/24/05
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A year and ten months later, and I am sitting here at school, a sophomore in college, crying like a baby. Does this ever get better Eric? Does it ever get easier. I love you so much. God bless you.
Name: Christina
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12:13:48 02/24/05
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man i tell u its so wierd seeing all of these wonderful people on this website n see what everyone writes about them n it always make me think why would a person like him do this to himself if all of these people loved you so much. Im so sorry to everyone who has lost this wodnerful man. He seems like he was really a great friend to many. My condolences go out to u all. Just a person
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17:23:48 02/22/05
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hey kid, just wanted to stop by and say hi. i've been thinking about you a lot lately, and i just wanted to let you know that! keep watching over everyone, i know you always are!
love,
cait
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09:18:41 02/19/05
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not a second goes by that you are not in my thoughts and always in my heart. i miss you so much.
Name: Jill
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09:40:38 02/18/05
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Hey there Graf... just thought i'd stop by and let you know i'm thinking about you... as always. I've been hearing "the scientist" A LOT lately and everytime all i can think about is you. Hope you are doing good!... you are missed so much. Keep watching over everybody.. especially your family. Love~ Jill
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love and miss you!
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08:06:14 02/17/05
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love you.
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08:13:11 02/16/05
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love you.
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08:06:40 02/15/05
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I love and miss you so very much.
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10:23:33 02/13/05
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i hate living without you.
Name: Monica
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14:35:33 02/12/05
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Hey Graf,
I just wanted to leave a little something because it has been awhile. I visit this site all the time because I love reading all the GREAT things people have to say about you. I hope you are doing good up in heaven because i know that you are having a blast. Miss you and see you when i get there!
Monica
Name: Jesse
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21:09:11 02/10/05
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Hey Er-
I just wanted to stop in and say hi. It's sad to come on here sometimes and see how people use this site for the wrong things. I wish that these people who come on this site to blame and point fingers could see the situation for what it is. Maybe you can help them babes. They need it. I really miss you. It still hasnt't sunk in, I don't think it ever will. It just doesn't make sense to me how someone I have known since kindergarten just doesn't exist in this world anymore. Your picture still remains on my wall and I think about you all of the time. I ask that you please help these people that come on here to write these horrible things about other people. I understand that they are grieving but they are being hurtful and that isn't needed. Please help them find a better way. A more mature way. I just can't comprehend how people can say these things. It makes them no better than the people they blame. Show them that this is not the way. It angers me that they can be so disrespectful and ignorant. Give them strength. Well, anyways, I just wanted to let you know that we are all still thinking of you and that will never cease to happen. We all have wonderful memories of you and we will all cherish them. I'm sorry things happened the way they did. We all wish we could have done something more. The past is the past though and we will all keep you living strong in our minds and our hearts.
Love always and forever, Jess Nathenson
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17:20:08 02/09/05
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Hey Er! how are you?! Its almost been 2 years..wow. crazy, man, crazy. I haven't been here in quite some time. I wasnt even going to come here, i was just sitting at my computer desk, and then i had this sudden urge to come talk to you. its snowing...this is one time when i dont hate the snow! ha..oh man, remember when we just laid down in the snow and then we like rolled down the hill!?! oh the memories..i miss them. I have this picture of us...its from what i was just talking about, the snow...and were laughing. you told me that if i rolled down the hill, that i'd fall through ice, and then you realized that there wasnt any ice, because it was a hill! haha, man you were pretty laughative. ...thats not even a word. whatever. well, im going to go and pick up my pictures from jewel, from when i went to FLORIDA! yeS! i love you, babycakes! <3
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15:01:53 02/06/05
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Hi Graffy! I have been thinkin about you a lot lately...and how much i miss u! I wonder what it would have been like with you coming to visit us, cause i know it would have been OC! I still have the thoughts in my mind, like WHY? But we will never know, i just hope you are happy now! Its weird to think its been 2 years almost now, when it still feels like it happened not so long ago! Well I miss ya bud! See ya one day! Love ya! ~Jenny J :)
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20:22:23 02/05/05
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you just dont understand. let the guilty feel it for the rest of their lives. if you were his friend you would agree.
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15:54:05 02/04/05
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You completely just underminded and contradicted what you "agreed" with, this is what that person meant by the same stuff being written on here, as a friend of eric i appreciate that persons comments...god bless you er....i know you're watching over EVERYONE
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09:40:18 02/04/05
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I agree except that i do feel the people who are directly resonsible should be reminded so that they can constantly feel the pain that we feel.
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Thank you for saying that!
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04:34:57 02/03/05
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I've been reading all the posts on this web site for quite some time it doesnt matter who i am or how i am connected...but i do want to say something....u can completely tell who erics real freinds are...theyre not the ones blaming or fighting...or drudging up the past and saying the same things over and over again....his real friens are the people who actually give their names, and who dont write "about" eric and the situation, but write to him because deep down they miss and love him and thats it, it comes down to that simple factor. I'm sick of seeing the same things written on here....this is to write to him, a way to connect, I really do feel for those deeply affected by erics life and death, and just want to say that none of u are alone for you'll always have each other no matter where you are, and above all you'll have him and your memories. Memories may not seem like much but just imagine if you didnt have any. This site is dedicated to the memory of eric as an outlet to talk to him, dont let other people discourage those who are his tru friends, you know who you are because you felt it when he was alive and now that he is gone, and he will never let u lose that feeling, for his presence in your lives is too strong.
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02:17:35 02/03/05
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Hey bud i was just up thinking about you figured i would drop a line and say hello and miss ya
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21:48:28 02/01/05
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Hey Eric- I just wanted to stop in and say hello. I havn't written in a lil while- I feel that the site has changed- but I think about you everyday. I think about my life now and how different it is and how everyone is going in their own directions. It makes me wonder about where you would be now. And it is strange, how one person can influence you so much and you them. Who is that one person for you? Are they lacking now? I dont know. No one does. We love you eric- you have touched so many people. I hope you family is doing well. While I encourage expression, I wish that we could stop the blaming and petty name-calling. This site is for eric, and he would not have wanted this. We are supposed to talk to him and give support and good memories- have we forgotten what this site was constructed for? What ever problems that you need to work out should be done on your time, on an individual basis. You will not resolve anything here.
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so much pain
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08:04:28 02/01/05
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lauren was a great friend to eric. It appears alot better than you were.
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15:40:59 01/30/05
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Hey Red~
I miss you Eric. I thought this fit well."Don't think of when you're gone
Love love what more is there
We need the light of love in here
Don't beat your head
Dry your eyes
Let the love in there
There are bad times
But that's ok
Just look for love in it" Not your favorite guy, but Dave Matthews makes some of it make more sense. I love you! God Bless you
Name: Julie Dominy
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21:33:35 01/29/05
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Eric,
Hey Sweetheart! i've been thinking about you alot lately and I realized that I hadn't written on this site in a really long time. Things have been so chaotic lately and I feel so overwhelmed with just everything lately...and I am sortof of one of those soul searching missions that Lauren was talking about. I've reevalutated the way I treat people and I have said sorry to those who deserve an apology from me...and I'm starting to forgive myself for things that I have done wrong. Everytime I say sorry and forgive myself for things that I have needed to...I think of you...because I know I'm doing the right thing...and I feel better about life. This experience has taught me so much...everyday it teaches me something new. It teaches me that "Life is short but sweet for certain"...and that you should treasure every good thing and person in your life...because we are given no guarantees....and no promises. I've also learned that you must give kindness to others...no matter what. Treat people in a way that you would want your kids to be treated...your siblings...your friends. Every person has a story...every person has feelings...every person has a best friend...every person has a heart that can be broken...and EVERYONE has sinned before. The best gift I've ever received in my life along with my family and friends...is the gift of forgiveness. They say that Love makes the world go round...and it does...but forgiveness is what makes the world keep spinning. Everyone deserves forgiveness...and love...yes EVERYONE. Whether you believe that others cause pain or not...you should be your first priority. Before you go on judging about what others have done or do...make sure you yourself are the person you want to be. Make sure you clear your heart of hate...forgive others the way you will one day want to be forgiven. I promise...you'll lead a much happier and healthier life. The way I feel is important to me...and you've taught me that, Eric. Thank you for that... It's been a long time...but I still think about you all the time. Take Care...and I'll come visit soon.
Love and Miss you,
Julie
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09:37:35 01/29/05
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build me up buttercup. eric she said this was her song to you but she never listened to what the words were actually saying. im sorry but i hate her and can never forgive her. she knew and did nothing
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04:16:25 01/29/05
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Hey Graf!! I know it has been a really long time since the last time I wrote to you. I want you to know it is not because I dont think about you because honestly there is not a day that goes by where you are not on my mind and i really dont think there will ever be a day where i dont think of you. You were really an amazing friend to me and will never be able to let that go! I just really hope that I was a good friend to you. I hope you know that I would have done anything for you.... I hope you know that any of us would have done anything. If we only know how unhappy you were! But none of us knew and I dont care what people say about how your friends should of been there for you cause we were and I think and I hope you know that. Deep down inside I know you knew that. The ones that cared for you will always care for you and our hearts are broken with the loss of you. I read these messages on your site on how people say your friends werent there for you and it only makes me think on how the people who say those things werent really your friends at all. We were always there for you just as you were always there for us. no one will never know the impact that you had on us or that we had on you but your true friends. And yes time has seperated all of us but we all will have a bond, your true friends, the ones that really cared. Although we have all gone our seperate ways we all love you and we will all always be bonded together because of your life and your death. I dont care what anyone says your true friends were always there for you and I know you know that. I love you sooo much and it really hurts for you not to be here but I know you are happy and that is the only positive thing I can take away from this horrible tragedy. Your mom, dad, and brother are such strong loving people and You just need to watch and take care of them. The rest of us will be ok. I love you always and forever
Bridget
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I LOVE YOU!
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Hey Eric,I've been thinking about you lately, in fact I think I had a dream with you in it the other night.. My dreams kinda blur together lately since school started. I've been doing a lot of soul searching, looking for the meaning of life, why I'm here, what's my purpose.. All that good stuff.. And you know what I found? Really not too much. This universe is so incredibly immense and it's hard to feel one's importance in such a huge place. I've also been thinking about death lately.. The whole idea of dying seems so geez I cant even think of the word. You're really one of the only people I know that actually has passed away so I'm always thinking about you when I go on these little soul searching missions.. I wonder what it is you see. I think I'm starting to realize that I'm an agnostic.. I have faith that some higher being that me or no other human being is capable of understnading is in charge. That being for me is understanding and compassionate and just.. And if such is the case, I feel the strength and definite belief that you are fine and I will be fine. I feel like this one big question mark that is constantly sitting on my brain is the one you have answered.. Like you no longer have questions, that you just understand. What an amazing thing eric, what an amazing thing. Now if only you could come tell me that answer, it would save me a lot of sleep:).. I miss you and I wish you could come up here and visit me.. My room is as messy as always..:P If all I have said is to some degree truth, then I know that you are having the time of your life.. Love,
Lauren ps please take care of the fam for me, xoxox
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20:48:00 01/25/05
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those same people who were confused and playing with erics feelings are alive and iving a happy life right now. us who were erics real friends and did not hurt him have to live with all the pain they caused. how do you justify there confusion in high school as a reason to hurt people. this girl was evil, still is and so are others and they should feel guilty for the rest of their lives. how do you think erics parents feel know ing that the people eric trusted were the same ones causing him the most pain. their son is gone because of them because eric put his trust in them. stop saying he took his own life because he was actually robbed of it and i'm sure if eric could get back he would and he would see people for what they really are and agree with all the messages that blame whats her face and the rest.
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17:46:05 01/25/05
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What Eric did was no one's fault directly. Yes, some people may have each played parts in it, however, do you honestly think that these people thought to themselves "boy I hope Eric commits suicide because of this!" I highly doubt it anyone meant for all this to happen. When we were all in high school it was a very confusing time for everyone and sometimes it can make you not think straight and do things we do not mean to do. This is no excuse for the people who hurt Eric, merely an explanation. There were people out there who did hurt him, but like I said, I don't beleive it was their intention for all this to happen and I'm sure they regret what they did. In a Bible story some of you may know, Jesus once said "whoever has not sinned may throw the first stone" and no one threw any stones. We all have made mistakes, some are 10 times worse than others, but we need to stop pointing fingers and blaming others. It's not going to bring Eric back, and it causes a lot of hurt feelings. By pointing fingers, we are only causing more hurt, just as people did to Eric. I do know one thing for sure, if Eric is watching all this blame flying around he would definintely want it stopped. In Eric's honor, I hope this might happen someday.
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08:20:00 01/25/05
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to ******you have no idea what you are talking about, one person is directly responsible for this and she knows who she is. and others are also responsible for their part in it and they know what their part is.
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14:24:36 01/24/05
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What up G-Money,
I haven't written you in a long time so I thought I would say hey. It's wild that it has been over a year and a half since you left us. We miss you more than ever and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about you and the great times we had.
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08:57:40 01/22/05
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Dear Reminder,It is indeed a tragedy when a person takes their own life but a person overwhelmed in emotional pain is incapable of making good choices...fact. It is so unfortunate that the person in pain creates an "escape person", a person that makes others laugh, leading all loving friends and family to think that they are happy and for those brief happy moments he had made for us, he was actually able to escape his own pain. Should we have not laughed and enjoyed Eric's silly fun?...NO WAY. Did any human being on this earth know that Eric was in serious pain?....NO. Eric did speak serious at times to close friends but kept the depth of his despair once again well hidden....he mastered the art of hiding his pain. For those that visit this web site and write of the only memory or encounter that they have had with Eric was a happy one filled with laughter, please keep writing. Your smile and return laughter did make Eric feel good.
It remains very difficult for all to comprehend that such a great guy needed to escape. He didn't want to go away....he just wanted the pain to go away.
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08:10:52 01/19/05
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i wonder if eric was trying to say something while dancing around to that song.
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20:12:07 01/18/05
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I'm sorry about the song lyrics I posted earlier. Like I had said, I know that the lyrics themselves aren't great. They're actually kind of offensive. But that's just how that band is. It only reminds me of Eric, cuz I can picture him dancing around to this song, and just being bouncy. I'm really sorry if I offended anyone. For me, it just brought up a happy little idea. I was Eric's friend, and he meant a great deal to me. I wouldn't dare intentionally hurt his memory or his family. Peace.
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16:44:24 01/18/05
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erics death is a tragedy not a chosing. eric would of never chose this, there was event that lead up to this and there is one person who knew and did nothing but there were a lot of other people also using eric for his ability to make us all laugh and have a good time and did not give his a chance to talk on a serious level. we all expected laughter and good times from him. and dont forget about all the people who PRETENDED to be his friend and then made fun of him later on. there were a lot of those. no eric did not choose this it was brought upon him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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10:07:52 01/18/05
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to ............ i think about it all the time. I do feel guilty for not being there and not afraid to admit it.
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16:46:16 01/17/05
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This message is for P. Eric was the one who chose to do what he did. It cant be taken away. It was one person that did it to him. And P where were you when he needed your help???
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13:01:14 01/17/05
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Eric,Here is our song for you. We love and miss you. This is not at all how we thought it was supposed to be
We had so many plans for you, we had so many dreams
And now you've gone away and left us with the memories of your smile
And nothing we can say and nothing we can do can take away the pain, the pain of losing you but...
We can cry with hope, we can say goodbye with hope
Cause we know our goodbye is not the end, oh no
And we can grieve with hope, cause we believe with hope
There's a place ( By God's grace) where we'll see your face again, we'll see your face again...
And never have I known anything so hard to understand
And never have I questioned more the wisdom of God's plan
But through the cloud of tears I see the Father's smile and say well done
And I imagine you where you wanted most to be
Seeing all your dreams come true, cause now you're home and now you're free, and...
We can cry with hope, we can say goodbye with hope
Cause we know our goodbye is not the end, oh no
And we can grieve with hope, cause we believe with hope
There's a place (By God's grace) where we'll see your face again, we'll see your face again...
We have this hope as an anchor, cause we believe that everything God promised us is true, so...
We wait with hope, and we ache with hope
We hold on with hope, we let go with hope
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12:10:35 01/17/05
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sorry what a crappy song that is. if that reminds you of eric then you obviously were not a friend to him and did not know him. and to the bitch that caused this mess, how do you live with yourself each day. have you ever stopped to think of the pain you caused erics family. do you realize how you not only hurt eric but everyone who truly loved him. have you stopped to think about how hard it for erics parents and brother to go on with their lifes. your life goes o and you rfake pain probably has gotten easier. but what about them, will there pain ever go away, how could it, you took their son away and our friend away. when i come to this site i can't hlep notice how we all ask eric to help this person or watch over that person................... where were we when he needed our help. eric always was there to listen and make us laugh and he still is but i still cant help but feel we all let him down. maybe we should of tried to be better friends to him by talking to him as a friend instead of just someone who made us feel better. eric had a lot of intelligent beautiful things to say........... no one was listening.
Name: Tom D
E-Mail: Tommydcb42@aol.com
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19:27:04 01/16/05
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hey eric man, i still think about you all the time, i hear songs and still think of you, i just remember back to when we first met alot and i cant forget our memories. Watch over brandon in iraq for me, but then again i dont even need to ask you to do that. I always wish that this wasnt what was meant to be, i wish that i can still go home and see you and we can all just chill like old times. If vic still lived at the old house we could go swimming over there or even chill in brandon and kyle's hot tub and stay up till like 4 in the morning talking about anything and everything. Well man just watch out for all of us alright. Take care. Tom
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17:27:58 01/14/05
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Hey...I found these lyrics, and for some reason they reminded me of Eric. I hope no one here will take these lyrics as something inconsiderate, because hearing this song made me really happy, remembering Eric.In the throws of young love Leroy
Didn't think to think and in the blink of an eye
Tied the knot not knowing how to not know
He was the prodigal son this girl had brought him home
He moved out of his step dad's apartment
He moved in with this cute Guatemalan
Things were copasetic 'til she caught him
Things were cool and collected 'til she found him erected with
another Shit went bad he's on the roof again
She flipped, he flipped the bird
And then he went to the roof where his threats ring loud and
clear
Gonna jump gonna jump gonna die this year Got screwed by the horse that he rode in on
Riding high on his whims had only gotten him down
He moved back to his step dad's apartment
Where he put himself back together 'til She came back he's on the roof again
She flipped, he flipped the bird
And then he went to the roof where his threats ring loud and
clear
Gonna jump gonna jump gonna die this year Your heinous highness broke her hymen hey man try to quit your
crying
I know she broke your heart but try to come try to come down Shit went bad he's on the roof again
She flipped, he flipped the bird
And then he went to the roof where his threats ring loud and
clear
Gonna jump gonna jump gonna die this year
Name: me
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08:03:51 01/14/05
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love and miss you more each day. it doesn't get easier it just gets worse. it at all possible, please .......................... you know what i'm asking.
Name: cait
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02:35:15 01/12/05
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hey kid...just wanted to let you know i love you, we all do, and we miss you so so so so much every single day. it just doesn't get easier, and i guess it never will. we think of you everyday and i guess i just wanted to let you know that, even though i am confident you do. well take care kiddo.
love cait
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21:50:45 01/09/05
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why do you say regret what you did, he did not do anything wrong or regretful. He was the best person in the world and live life to the fullest.
Name: P
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13:32:21 01/09/05
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Hey Eric...I have no written here in forever. I do think about you a lot, everyday actually. You touched so many lives and I am not sure if you realize exactly whose lives you have touched. You were in a few of my classes in high school, I sat next to you in math class Sr. year...and that is how I knew you, just joking around during our classes, and I still think about you everyday. I pray that you do not regret what you did Eric...God bless...You only get one chance at life...live everyday to its fullest, SMILE, sing, dance, and love...there are no second chances...
Name: *******
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18:50:48 12/31/04
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Never a star shined so bright. You are and always will be that star. miss you. happy new year!
Name: Krystina Lewis
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12:20:51 12/31/04
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Hey Eric ~
Just wanted to drop you a line to let you know i have been thinking about you...Not a day goes past that you are not thought of in my heart...I hope things are great in heaven, but just know you are missed by everyone here. Happy New Years babe. I Love You! Take care.
-Krystina
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16:32:10 12/30/04
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Hi Eirc. I never really met you before but i heard alot about you. I remember one day walking out of the lunch room and seeing a big group of people seating in the court yard. It was one of the most the nicest thing thats i ever seen. Well i hope that you have a great and happy new years. GOD BLESS you and your Family!
Name: Hill
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15:02:08 12/24/04
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Merry Christmas Eve Er! I love you!
Name: me
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13:53:22 12/24/04
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my heart will never be whole without you and i'll never stop saying my special prayer for you. love and miss you so terribly much.Merry Christmas to heaven's special angel.
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13:52:47 12/24/04
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my heart will never be whole without you and i'll stop saying my special prayer for you. love and miss you so terribly much.Merry Christmas to heaven's special angel.
Name: ~~~
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13:34:41 12/24/04
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Merry Christmas Eric.
Name: emily
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21:14:03 12/22/04
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eric-
another friend has left me, the second one in 2 months. i already told you about mike, but bret has now joined you up there. all you boys, i just dont understand why... please take care of eachother and look down on all the people that love you every once and a while. i love you all!love em.
R.I.P. Eric Graf
R.I.P. Mike Strein
R.I.P. Bret Rademaker
Name: Daryl
E-Mail: runoutside@yahoo.com
AIM: Vision4mavocalz
03:22:32 12/22/04
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hey man, its been a while...especially since ive been to the site, i cant believe its been almost 2 years...i live in cali now...just couldnt take home after everyone was dying..had to get out and take time to clear my head, and now ive found my new home and have a new life out there...i miss ya man, towards the end i didnt get to see ya much, but i remember the times that we did have! i never had a chance to say goodbye...but i hope your up there lookin down watchin over me, cuz youll always have a place in my heart brotha, youll always be remembered..never forgotten, well man i gotta get to bed this cold weather in chicago sucks! Much love, and i hope your keeping an eye out on me!
Name: Daryl
E-Mail: runoutside@yahoo.com
AIM: Vision4mavocalz
03:22:05 12/22/04
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hey man, its been a while...especially since ive been to the site, i cant believe its been almost 2 years...i live in cali now...just couldnt take home after everyone was dying..had to get out and take time to clear my head, and now ive found my new home and have a new life out there...i miss ya man, towards the end i didnt get to see ya much, but i remember the times that we did have! i never had a chance to say goodbye...but i hope your up there lookin down watchin over me, cuz youll always have a place in my heart brotha, youll always be remembered..never forgotten, well man i gotta get to bed this cold weather in chicago sucks! Much love, and i hope your keeping an eye out on me!
Name: Daryl
E-Mail: runoutside@yahoo.com
AIM: Vision4mavocalz
03:21:56 12/22/04
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hey man, its been a while...especially since ive been to the site, i cant believe its been almost 2 years...i live in cali now...just couldnt take home after everyone was dying..had to get out and take time to clear my head, and now ive found my new home and have a new life out there...i miss ya man, towards the end i didnt get to see ya much, but i remember the times that we did have! i never had a chance to say goodbye...but i hope your up there lookin down watchin over me, cuz youll always have a place in my heart brotha, youll always be remembered..never forgotten, well man i gotta get to bed this cold weather in chicago sucks! Much love, and i hope your keeping an eye out on me!
Name: Jill
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19:14:57 12/16/04
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Hi there Graf... Christmas and New Years are around the corner, just wanted to send my holiday wishes to you. It makes me smile knowing you are watching over and looking out for everyone from up there. Not a day goes by Eric, you are truly one of a kind. God Bless you. Love ~Jill~To the Graf's... you are in my thoughts.
Name: i love you
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08:15:48 12/16/04
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eric just stopping by to say how much i love you and how much i miss you. i hope to see you soon.
Name: Hill
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21:35:02 12/12/04
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Hey Er, I haven't written in a while and I finally came on here to read the messages. It is so weird how much I still cant believe that this is has happened. It has been over a year and a half and I still haven't come to terms with all of this. I just want you back. It is just too final. That song is nothing about you Er, and I dont want any outsider thinking that either. You are not a damn statistic. I am still so mad about how it ended. I want to talk to you so bad. I would give so much to see you one more time. Our lives were forever changed on April 23, 2003. In a second I was a changed person. But you know what, if I am ever away from my loved ones, I will still always have you with me. You take care of me, I just wish I could have taken care of you. And you know you will always be with me. I just want anyone reading this that is contemplating taking their life, it only gets better. No one asked for this pain, no one deserves this, it shouldn't have happened. Dont do it to your loved ones please. Everyone reading this has one chance, one life, take advantage of the wonderful gifts we are given. Everyone gets down, and gets lonely, and life hurts sometimes, but there is too much good in this world to just focus on the bad. Get help, get help for your friends if they need it. I wish we could have for our Eric. I regret it everyday of my life. Im sorry Eric. I cant take my mind off of you. I will never forget you, I will never forget anything about you. I think of you when I smell someone wearing your cologne and when I see someone with that red hair, or when I see a mustang, just about anything. I had to observe at East a couple of weeks ago, and on my way out I saw this kid that had your locker, and I stopped and I looked inside and I just wanted to cry, I just wanted to turn back time, and do everything over. I want to be a better person because of you Eric, it is just so hard to understand how this world keeps going after someone so loved is gone. My Nana died three years ago today tell her I love her okay. I know that you are not lonely up there Er, I am so jealous that everyone in heaven gets to be with you. We only had you for 17 years, why? I have all of my trust in God Er, so I know that everything happens for a reason, I just cant wrap my head around this one. God bless you my love.
Hillary
Name: How do you get that lonly
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14:02:25 12/10/04
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It was just another story written on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score
It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age
They found him face down on the bedroom floor There'll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home
Then out on Mooresville highway, they'll lay him 'neath a stone... How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know Did his girlfriend break up with him, did he buy or steal that gun?
Did he lose a fight with drugs or alcohol?
Did his Mom and Daddy forget to say I love you son?
Did no one see the writing on the wall? I'm not blamin' anybody, we all do the best we can
I know hindsight's 20/20, but I still don't understand... How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score...
Name: *
E-Mail: LSGRL42085@NETSCAPE.NET
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13:46:31 12/10/04
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Hey been missing you a lot, more than usual. Its still very hard for me too write too you because I miss you so much. With everything that is going on down here. Lets see thanksgiving weekend I got married and now i am expecting. Eric, I relly wish you were hear. I look down and read all these letters to you and it is nice to know that I am not the only one who still has a hard time missing you. You were great babe. and you helped me in so meny ways, All I can say now is I was blessed to get to have you in my life as a friend and I will never forget that. With the holidays comming and all everyone gets so busy before I get too busy I just want to say Happy Holidays and I miss you.
Love you lots.
Name: *****
E-Mail: jessica-halpin@uiowa.edu
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02:45:06 12/10/04
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Hey kiddo, just thinking about you - still breaks my heart--
love always and always
Name: Jesse
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20:57:30 12/09/04
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Hey Er, just thinkin bout ya with it bein the holidays and all. Really missin ya and wish you could be here. You're dearly missed as always. Happy Holidays babe.
Love Jess
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08:12:03 12/07/04
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hi eric, i love you :)
Name: Julie Dominy
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19:29:30 12/06/04
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Hey! I've been thinking about you a lot lately...and realized I haven't dropped you a line in a long time. Everything is going pretty well here. School is awesome...I absolutely love it. Christmas break is coming up...I'm really excited to be with my family again for awhile. The only thing in between now and break is finals...not so much fun! Well I've been thinking about you and just wanted to let you know that I miss you a ton!
Name: linz ruiz
E-Mail: holataluvin000@aol.com
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23:17:38 12/03/04
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hey buddy, just looking at the site again and thinking of you..
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08:57:29 12/02/04
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Not a day goes by...
Name: ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
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07:31:19 11/25/04
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come back
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07:27:01 11/25/04
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Happy Thanksgiving. love you so very much. the pain is unbearable and gets worse every day.
Name: :(
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11:07:45 11/23/04
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miss you, love you, i will never forget you. ill be there thursday to visit for a while.
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05:14:13 11/20/04
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Lauren needs to practice what she preaches.
Name: ashley
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22:42:05 11/19/04
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A lot of shit has been happening to me, or at least...around me lately. My boyfriend's family had to declare bankrupcy this week, my best friend is clinically depressed, another good friend tried to take her life, and my big sister has breast cancer.Which then got me to be thinking about my own life. I've been stressing out b/c my mom hates me/resents me for all the ways I ruined her life, and my grades are slowly declining to catastrophic levels despite my very best efforts to succeed. I feel nothing special or wonderful about myself, as well as the fact that none of my problems are even remotely as important as some of the things those closest to me have been enduring. The point being, this whole time, you, Eric Graf have been on my mind. You were an amazing friend...so full of life and love and laughter. Everyone loved you more than you will know, and you have changed my life...a girl who only knew you vaguely. As bad as things seem, I know that I could not go through with ending it all. And somehow, I wish that you could have seen that as well. You do not even know the full effect on the lives of those around you. You've made me a better person, and more kind and caring. Because life is too short to be pissed off all the time, or angry, or hateful...be it of yourself or others. So I guess what I'm trying to say is thanks...in some odd way, thank you. I miss you very much, may angels lead you in. God bless. ..::....::..
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13:58:23 11/17/04
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still thinkin about you...
still missin you...
Name: a friend
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13:58:14 11/17/04
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still thinkin about you...
still missin you...
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09:31:25 11/17/04
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As i read the message below, i can't help wonder why anyone would be critical of eric or the way he left this world. For one its no ones business and those who are still talking about it are nothing but evil gossipers and get off on others tragedies. eric was the greatest and there is no doubt that he is in heaven and the people that are with him are the luckiest people in the world. way luckier then we are. i wish i was with him, he's in a far better place then we are. so stop all the gossip. True Christains never question God or his methods. True Christains never judge other people. There is only on judge in this world and that is God and he is the only one that we as christains have to answer to. He and he alone. So to whoever keeps talking about eric isn't in heaven -- Stop talking about something which you know absolutely nothing about. The only talk going on about eric should be what a wonderful friend he was, how he made others laugh, how he was a freind to everyone , how he is missed and how much he is loved. Nothing else matters the saddest thing on earth is eric is gone, not the hows or the whys, hes gone, thats the tragedy.
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15:19:16 11/16/04
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There is not a doubt in my mind that you are in heaven Eric. Anyone who says that in situations like yours you go to hell does not know what they are talking about. These so called people may be christians but I myself am one and I know that every sin is equaled out in the eyes of God. No sin is worse then the next. Why would this case be any different. Don't worry what others say. I know your there Eric and your gaining all your crowns and jewels right now. so keep on smiling on the ones who love you from your spot in heaven
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08:22:48 11/15/04
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eric as the days go by i get sadder and the pain never stops hurting it just gets worse. i miss your contagious smile and laugh. I miss your curly red hair. i miss seeing you driving around. i miss the smell of your cologne. i miss everything about you. life is not fair and i know people are moving on with their lifes. i will move on when i see you again. until then i will forever be sad. i can't go on and be happy when you are not here. i love you.
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18:28:56 11/13/04
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I miss you...
Name: Lauren
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14:31:17 11/11/04
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Hey eric,It's been a hard couple weeks for me. I fought hard to stand up for what I thought was right and just and sometimes it feels like all worthless. Then I think of you.. It's not really far fetched. I think of those people that called themselves Christian and wrote the most hateful messages on this page. That's how I feel about the Christian right in this country. They are the most hateful unforgiving people I have ever come in to contact with. I know that you are walking with God and he is taking great care of you. I know that the God I believe in is forgiving, loving, caring and knows what is right. I know that God would never punish someone whose time on earth was filled with love and compassion. I know that God would never hurt someone that was in a time of weakness. I know that as a loving person no one can tell you your fate. And all those people who write mean messages in the name of Christianity will suffer for it in the end. You've always been in the back of my mind when I fight that group of people. They're so ignorant. I love you eric and we all miss you very much. Lauren
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21:07:41 11/07/04
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My son ran into your brother last evening. He was telling my daughter today about your brother and they talked about how funny you both were. They shared some great stories about you and your brother.I am writing, as a sad Mom, but happy to know that your heart, soul and spirit lives on forever! You are in people's hearts forever! Even those that you never met!
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00:44:20 11/07/04
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Damn kid, still missin you like it was yesterday. I know if you're lookin down on us right now makin sure we're alright. much love brother... can't wait til i get to see you again
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00:15:58 11/06/04
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Hey its been a long time since I've left you a message but someone new is up there with you now mrs.Pod show her the way ER just like you have with everyone else please watch out for all of the kids and Mr. Pod there all wonderful people and keep watching out for all of your firends we love and miss you so much ER
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18:19:48 11/05/04
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Eric, Please pray for Mike, Jonathon, and Holly as well as the rest of the Podobinik family. God Bless you all.
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08:15:11 11/04/04
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i can't do this without you. nothing is the same here. i wish i new how it was in heaven. if there really is a heaven. i keep thinkng wonder if this life is it and theres nothing more. i'm scared and lonely. ijust want youback.
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08:07:16 11/03/04
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eric i miss you so much. i cant stop the hurting. love you.
Name: jess
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14:19:46 11/02/04
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Hey eric. I just wanted to say hello and tell ya that we still all miss ya down here. thanks for watchin over us though! xoxo
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08:17:17 10/29/04
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hey eric i miss you so much, my heart is in a million pieces. love you.
Name: Hill
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01:32:53 10/29/04
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Hey Eric, I miss more than anything my love! I cant wait to see you again, when I can hug you and tell you everything I should have before you left. Heaven is so lucky to have you, and earth is missing one of its best. God Bless you! Good Night!
Name: em
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16:02:25 10/26/04
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eric-mike, a friend of mine past away last week. he decided to take his own life. i know your up in heaven and i know he is too now, and i know he could use a friend like you. please look out for him, and tell him i said hi.
i love you both and miss you tons! -emily
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09:32:10 10/26/04
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eric i never get any answers when i pray so i thought i try talking to you on this website. It usually just makes me even sadder to read everything that people write. I just cant get over this. my heart aches, i cry all the time. i miss you so so much. this should of never happened. i need to be with you. help.
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11:24:59 10/25/04
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it's been a while... still think about you a lot. hope you're ok up there. take care of yourself <3
Name: Jenny
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21:37:50 10/24/04
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Hi Graffy! Just wanted to stop in and say hi! I miss you and still think about u everyday! Hope u are doin good up there! Love ya, Jenny
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21:56:21 10/23/04
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missin you every day buddy, i started to cry the other day, but i felt your hand on me... thanks for looking on us from up there...love ya
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09:03:59 10/22/04
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want song by saliva. eric talk to me please.
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08:02:13 10/21/04
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eric i think that hillary must of been your very best friend. Miss and love you so very much.
Name: Hill
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19:36:01 10/20/04
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Hey Er Donald!!!
I know you are okay up there! Dont worry everyone, we are in a much scarier place that Eric. But at least we have him to look over all of us. We are the luckiest. I love you Eric! God Bless you!
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08:17:04 10/20/04
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im having a hard time going on without you. noone understands. people you think are your friends turn out to be your enmies. i need to talk to you so bad. i need to hear that laugh. help me reach you.
Name: Julie Dominy
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01:44:46 10/20/04
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Eric,
I've been thinking about you a lot...and I really miss you. Things are kinda shitty around here...and missing you makes things shittier. I hope you're having an awesome time up there. I love and miss you tons!
Love,
Julie
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14:57:37 10/19/04
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eric,i love you so much, i can't stand being here without you.
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12:04:32 10/19/04
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Graf - Well . . seems like no one can be without you. Everyone is comming up there to be with you. I still can't believe that you are gone, seeing dave all the time now over at Boon's house. Everytime i see him i can do nothing but think of you for a moment. He's holding up pretty well though. Going to Arizona with Steve if all works out. But graf, i gotta ask you a favor Please watch out for Kevin up there, he's too young. . And show steve aroundd. Love you All the #'s in the world.
Name: Jesse
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13:59:12 10/15/04
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Hey Eric-
Imiss ya. I just got some real bad news today and I was hoping you could help me out...please watch over steve for me...he was a big part of my life. Make him laugh like you did for me. Love ya. Talk to ya soon.
Love, Jess
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10:12:53 10/15/04
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We love you Eric. Cant wait to see you again.
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08:17:41 10/14/04
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love and miss you so very much.
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23:54:39 10/11/04
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i was just thinkin about you and wanted to say hi .. i love you
Name: Kara
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21:25:57 10/11/04
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Eric-
You've been on my mind a lot lately, just wanted to let you know that I'm always thinking about you! Thanks for watching over us all :)
Miss you, love you-
Kara
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00:43:07 10/11/04
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just wanted to stop by and tell ya i'm still thinkin of ya! love you!
-cait
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17:54:38 10/10/04
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yo buddy whats goin on ha. juss wanted to stop in and say i hope ur doing good even though i know u are. I heard saliva today and it made me think of a few nights before this all happened when we were at focias screaming it. I almost think you were tellin me somethin then, and i didnt know it but then again i dont think you did either. anyways juss wanted to let ya know ur still my boy and were holdin down the g unit haaaa.
love ya
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17:47:14 10/08/04
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So I just had to tell you this! I was observing at Hickory Creek today, and the secretary gave me Krystina's letter from 8th grade Mrs. Bundy!!!. And it said that we were her best friends, how cute!!!! First Anthony Chiricco, now this!!! What's next hahah! I love you Er! God Bless you!
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ERIC,
ALWAYS IN MY HEART AND MIND AS A BEAUTIFUL, FUNNY, FUNLOVING NEPHEW, SON AND FRIEND.
I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, WE ALL DO.
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GrAfFeRs,Just wanted to say hi! I miss u, but you already know that! I guess it just means a little more to me sometimes to leave a message here! I still think about you alot. I look at our pictures all the time. Like the one when we tried sneaking into the movie lab to get our project done (i think thats my favorite one lol) but still its hard bc u were such a good friend to me and i hate it that i cant just call you crazy ass all the time and u dont give me cute little late night phone calls either. But i know u hear me regardless! even if we cant talk i know that what was left unsaid will be spoken of soon enough. Keep chilaxin up there and ill be there soon to join ya! i love you babe! and i miss u tons! MuAh!! Love,
someone who still cant believe it (but has to come to terms with it).
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22:47:02 10/05/04
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God did not put us on this earth to hurt. We were not created out of fear or pain but pure love. God is the last person to ever blame.
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08:14:33 10/05/04
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i second hillarys message. come back eric.
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22:19:34 10/04/04
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Eric
As you know Bridge was here this weekend, and we went out with Hovanes one night and just talked and talked about old times. We miss you so much Eric. There are so many unanswered questions, so many things we need to know. But I am sick of thinking about those things. I just miss talking to you. I miss you being around, I need to tell you things, and I cant. This should not have happened. We have hurt enough, I just want it to end, I just want you back. Why did God have to make this happen. You didn't want this to happen; I believe that with all of my heart. I pray for you everyday and I think about you every second. Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard. I love you Er, God bless your sweet soul!
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miss you
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02:50:56 10/03/04
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Hey Graf. What's up man? I haven't written on here in forever man but I just thought it was cuz u know how we all felt about ya and it didn't need to be said anymore. But anyway, the reason I come to ya tonight man is cuz one of my good friends over here at school, his little brother was just involved in a car accident back in his home town. His little brother is going to be fine along with 3 of the other people in the car but one girl is not as lucky. She passed away man, all of the kids except the driver were only 14. I just wanted to come on here and ask you if you could help them out and help all of the friends stay strong. I know you don't know any of them at all but they are all really good people and they don't deserve to be going through this just like we didn't deserve it. So if you could just watch over them and keep them togather I would really appreciate it buddy. We all miss ya man, hope all is well up above. Thank you for keeping us safe!
-Jim
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22:55:09 10/02/04
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come home, i miss you
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10:49:57 09/30/04
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you never know what you get when you wish for, so it can't hurt to try.
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12:26:54 09/29/04
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Hey people I understant that you are all still hurting but you need to move on and stop wishing for things that are not going to happen. Please seek help to deal with your feelings of loss.Thanks you, Eric's Family
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08:14:49 09/29/04
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eric i agree with devon, we need you back. you kept everyone laughing and together. love and miss you. you are the best.
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16:46:06 09/28/04
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Hey bud. I just wanted to say that I miss you A LOT! And that I want you to come back, so you can make a whole bunch of people happier. We miss you bud, and don't ever forget it. I talk to you sometimes, and I know that you hear me. I miss and love you soo much. I wish that I could just see you for one more day, at most. This is hard, I hate knowing that I won't see you for a long time. I miss ya kiddo. <3
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20:28:46 09/24/04
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Just thinking about you...miss you!
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08:14:48 09/21/04
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eric i really miss you. its just not getting any easier. i need you to be back here. if anyone can do it you can. try please. i love you.
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08:03:34 09/16/04
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I HATE THE WORLD WIHOUT YOU IN IT! HELP ME FIND MY WAY TO YOU.
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21:19:45 09/15/04
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Hey babe, I haven't written in awhile. I just wanted to stop by and say hi, and to let ya know that even though I haven't been here in some time...I'm still thinkin' about you every day. Talk to ya soon.
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18:25:14 09/13/04
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Hey Graffy, I was just thinking about you and wanted to stop in a say Hiiii!!! Hope everything is well! Love you miss you! BYe buddy! Love Jenny J
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14:20:56 09/12/04
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eric graf, it's been too long. 508 days too long.
i think about you a lot but lately, it's been all the time. there's so many people out here that think they have so many problems, problems that are great enough to hurt them or someone they've loved. i need your help to convince them it's not that difficult. i need you to help make them realize that nothing can possibly be bad enough for a permanent ending here on earth.
the other day eric, i saw you in someone, i swear it was you. i'd been having a rough time lately and i believe it was your way of telling me to hold on. this kid, this kid was incredible, just like you. he had the red hair and the smile, oh that smile graf, i miss that smile. when he walked into the vacinity i was in the whole presence of the room changed. at first i was taken back by this kid, but then i've come to realize anything close to you at all is a blessing. so i thank you from the bottom of my heart for that small but heart felt blessing.
so i'm debating on track again this year. i didnt do it last year... i'm the last thrower from your last year in track. oh man we're still not allowed to throw discus in the building anymore thanks to you breaking that light in the upstairs balcony haha. since i'm still at east i'm fortunate enough to see a part of you each day, that tree in the cooridor. it's amazing how full of life that tree looks, how beautiful, like you. God bless you er, and may you bless everyone down here.
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luv u, miss u
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00:37:42 09/11/04
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Missing ya kiddo...
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08:12:59 09/10/04
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eric, just letting you know that i miss you more each day and the pain just won't go away.
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04:34:31 09/08/04
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As you may or may not know, there have been several problems lately with certain individuals taking it upon themselves to completely disregard the rules set out for this memorial site. Once again, this site was created to reflect and celebrate the life of Eric Graf. Because I guess I was not clear enough in the past, the following is not what this site was created for: - This is not a site to blame/attack people, regardless of personal opinion.
- This is not a site for correspondence of any kind with other posters. This includes simple questions.
- This is not a site to use disrespectful/foul language.
- This is not a site for any negativity that damages the integrity of Eric's memory. When posting you should answer the following two questions in determining whether your post is appropriate: 1. Can my post be interepreted in anyway of being malicious?
2. Would this post be appropriate for Eric's immediate family to read? If your post passes this test and doesn't fall under anything that was prohibited in the listing above, it is most likely appropriate, but if you have any questions, you may check with me at webmaster@quitetheking.net. I, the webmaster, have been accused of trying to protect certain people and unjustly deleting certain messages. The only thing I am trying to protect is the dignity that Eric deserves and the only messages I delete are the ones that do not promote positivity and VIOLATE THE RULES CLEARLY PLACED ON THE TOP OF THE PAGE. If you have a serious problem with something or someone, please use a different medium to get your point across. Attacking people on this website is completely unacceptable. I have set up the QTK Forums for public use if you do not think your message would be appropriate for this memorial site. If people can not adhere to these rules, I will have to review each individual posting before it is posted on the site, which will be a huge inconvenience to the majority of people that DO follow the rules and also to myself. One thing is for sure, I will not tolerate certain individuals ruining this site for everyone else. If we all follow the rules, hopefully the site can remain as a humble tribute to a true friend of many. Also, people have been posting for the past year often inquiring as to why I have not made a memorial site for "Christopher Lynch." The answer for this is rather simple - no one to my knowledge has ever contacted me via email, instant messaging, phone, or even left their email address on any of these posts asking for my assistance. While I certainly feel for your loss, it is not my place to put up a memorial site for someone that I did not know on the request of an anonymous tip. I did put up his name on the QTK memorial page, but to go any further than that I would need permission from his family or close friends and until someone contacts me I would not feel right putting up a memorial site. I apologize to anyone over the year that felt as though I was intentionally disrespecting his memory, perhaps I should have made this announcement earlier. Once again, I apologize. Thank you, Webmaster P.S. Any follow-ups to this message will be promptly deleted to enforce the rules outlined above. Please e-mail me or instant message me if you have any questions.
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Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free. I'm following the path God laid for me. I took His hand when I heard Him call. I turned my back and left it all. I could not stay another day, to laugh, to love, to work or play. Tasks left undone must stay that way. I've found that peace at the close of day. If my parting has left a void, then fill it with remembered joy. A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss, ah, yes, these things I too shall miss. Be not burdened with times of sorrow. I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow. My life's been full, I savored much. Good friends, good times, a loved ones touch. Perhaps my time seemed all too brief. Don't lengthen it now with undue grief. Lift up your hearts and share with me. God wanted me now; He set me free.
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16:45:12 09/07/04
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Hey Eric- Just wanted to drop in and leave a lil lovin. I think about you everyday and hope you never regreted a day in your life. I hope you can help people look past all the drama surrounding your death and look at your life.
"People never remember what you did or said,only the way you made them feel."
You always made me feel great, Eric. Thank you so much for being a wonderful friend. You are missed.
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21:53:45 09/06/04
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Thinking of you!
Love and miss you kid!
Love,
Julie
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13:30:58 09/03/04
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I want to thank those of you who have set up the site... its been therapeutic for me to read what all of you write on here...as Julie said, often times its so full of love and hope....however, the bickering and bitching and blaming has no place here....Eric will never be back here and while that is certainly sad and very difficult to accept for so many, it doesnt make any of us "experts"...no matter how well you knew him.....whatever your religious convicitons or personal beliefs may be, please don't be a "know it all"....no one feels better when names are mentioned in a negative manner, and no solutions are reached...the easy thing to do is blame someone...that takes little thought...why not spend the time writing a letter to his mom and recalling a funny story...or just saying you were thinking of her....how nice that would be to do something positive....something that may bring a tear to her eye and a smile to her face....this site makes me realize how much I miss a couple of my high school friends...and helps me to laugh and cry and realize that the time together, however short, was special...
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23:56:01 09/02/04
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Graf, I havent been on here in months because Ive only heard terrible things. Just know I love you, I miss you, all of us do. I realize now that you were too good for this. I have enough faith in you to believe that thats why you had to do what you did. Theres nothing left here Graf and I wish I knew what you knew. Til we meet again, Rachel
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We hope to arrive one day, at a place in time where we can comfortable acknowledge the mysteries of his life and death; where we can honor his free will and freedom of choice; where we can refrain from distorting truth by conjecture and judgement.Our remorse is for the words never said, the deeds never done and the lOVE unexpressed.
Our regret is for the promise and potential which were reinquished too soon.
Our sorrow is for suffering and the aloneness of the last hours, days, weeks, months of his life.
Our grief is for his absence.
Our gratitute is for his life HIS GIFTS, HIS LAUGHTER, HIS ENTHUSIAM, HIS LOVE HIS COURAGE.
Our prayer is that he is with God Just as each of us travels a different road and steps in a different cadence, surely "he heard a different drummer" and so when a growing burden of problems and rejections overwhelmed him, "he stepped to the music that he heard, however measured or far away" WE LOVED HIM AND CARED ABOUT HIM THEN AND WE LOVE AND CARE ABOUT HIM NOW AND FOREVER!
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18:55:51 09/01/04
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Hey er, looks like things are pretty crazy right now but i just wanted to stop by and say hello. normally coming on here is a way i guess i can connect to you. i know you hear me talkin to you all the time, sorry sometimes i never shut up! but you and everyone else know that getting me to do that can sometimes be difficult to say the least :) but i guess i just feel like when i come here and see you smiling it's like visiting you. kid, i still think about you every single day and i miss you so much. keep lookin out for everyone, especially your family. god there isn't anything i wouldn't give to have you back, and i know it's a little crazy to still think that way, about somehow getting you back, but i guess that's just how much we miss you...so much that i still hope for something i know is impossible. yeah i guess that is a little crazy but oh well...well buddy i hope everything's good up there-love you
-cait
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13:55:43 09/01/04
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Ok, all i have to say is do you all think that graf wants this. People blaming people for a decision he made by himself. He knows that ya maybe some people did play a factor but that gave him no right to take a life that God created, nothing is ever that bad. Do you think he is watching down saying ya lets start more drama bullshit?? or would he want everyone to be as forgiving to others as we are to him, Or as forgiving as God was to him. Not one person in the world has the right to determine why he did this, he didnt call any of you people and say hey, im gonna do this because of catherine. Thats bs, we point fingers because it gives us closure and i hate to say it but iv'e lost 2 of my best freinds to suicide and there is never closure. one of the hardest thing about suicide is that youll never exactly no until that day comes to see him again. For everyone out there pointing fingers and saying his freinds were mean to him obviuosly knew eric in a dream world. Because his freinds were always there for him, why the hell do u think he was always with us... cuz we were mean to him? c'mon now, im not starting any drama but im pretty sure this site was put up to help each other and his family. Im sorry for those who feel they have any right to say how his family is feeling or how they deserve to know? His family deserves to see how much we all love and care about him, not a bunch of kids bitchin about somethin they think they are an expert on. And for you G-money.. i miss ya to death but i know your happy and lookin down on us. It's funny we were tellin a ghost story about ur basement actually last night. well im outta here the..Life rolls on, and i know u know what i mean G-money..
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07:51:08 09/01/04
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Hey eric--- I see your site is getting a little quacky---haha i meant to write wacky and accidentally wrote quacky.. lol we'll leave it. Let's just put it this way, we know what happened, you know what happened, and I think we can all rest better, most importantly you, knowing that we could be a lot more confused. The most confusion that comes out of this situation is not how you couldn't bear what was happening at that moment, but how you could bear to leave all the good that you do have. I'm not even talking about your friends, but i'm talking about your family. I in my wildest dreams wish my dad was like yours or sometimes my mom could be as forgiving and caring as yours. You had so much. And as i've always believed none of those positive forces in your life were in your mind at the moment. Had they been, I wouldn't be at this site. It's hard to believe almost a year and 1/2 has gone by, but I think of you no less. Anyways, i have class and i'm going to be late. Eric, I can still hear your laugh. I hope you like that picture frame I got for our picture.. It's the one from junior prom with all us girls and you... It's the only picture in my room right now. I feel a lot safer with you at my side. Love you.
Lauren
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23:41:59 08/30/04
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Hey Grafferz,
Sometimes I come on this site and just smile at all of the messages from people I know and people I don't. I smile at all the love that this site can hold. Other times I don't...it's hard to come to a site and want to just remember good things and see traces of good people...and then you come on it and you don't. This site can do many things for people. It can hold beautiful and fond memories of an amazing life and all that it has touched, or it can cut deep and ruin lives. I don't understand. Above the immense pain that everyone still feels, above the heart stopping reality of you being gone...there is a lesson learned. A lesson of kindness: Be kind to people-no matter what situation-no matter who the person. A lesson of listening: listen to the cries of others...even the silent ones. A lesson of strength: to pull together when you are weak...because together you are strong. A lesson of bravery: to stand strong in a time of tragedy and to stand up for what is TRULY right and betray what just SEEMS right. How is it possible that some people still don't understand this? I mean if you really truly believed that it was all of Catherine's fault...then why don't you put her full name? Why don't you put YOUR name? It's because you are ashamed. It is because you are wrong. It is because you feel guilty. It's easy to pass off your own feelings onto someone else just to make yourself feel better. It's even easier to feel that kick you in the ass in the long run. Now to blame someone is to blame yourself as well. You see...if you truly believed that it was the fault of one person...I hope you feel guilty. I hope you feel guilty because then you would have had a chance to prevent this. For so long I have read the messages of the people closest to Eric...that never blame others...those are true friends. I have read heartbreaking messages from Hilary Griffin and Lauren Patrizi that truly make me wince. They don't come on this site to bash at someone....that's a true friend. I have listened to Tyson and Ryan talk about this tragedy....they never blame anyone. The truth is...that this may have been preventable...but we aren't superheros....if we were...there would NOT be a site for Eric. Eric taught us all very important lessons. He taught us that good and deep friendships are hard to come by. He taught us that laughter is never loud enough. He taught us that kindness is not practiced enough. He taught us that life is VERY VERY short. Why would you spend some of yours trying to hurt someone? Regardless of your feelings and your excuses...every person that you pass ... has a story...every person has feelings. How can you put the loss of a life on one person? Support eachother....LISTEN to eachother...stop passing off blame and start passing off kindness. If you were REALLY a true friend...to anyone...especially Eric...you would stop blaming...and you would smile at the thought of Eric's smile...laugh at the memory of his laugh...and be strong in the memory of his life-because the truth is...we aren't here very long...and some of us are here for a very short time...don't ever forget that.
Eric...I love and miss you!
Love,
Julie Dominy
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20:08:50 08/29/04
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Hey Graf...I just wanted to let you know I have been thinking about you alot lately and I still and always will miss you like crazy. Your memory will never fade out of my mind or my heart. I know you know everything that is going on and how crazy things have been with some people, but just keep and eye on them, you know who Im talkin about. I always think about how things would be right now if you were still here, I know they would be alot better for all of us. Just keep looking out for everyone especially your mom.
I love you always
Bridget
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23:00:36 08/24/04
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Hello handsome!
I love you soooo much eric donald! I miss you like crazy. It is really hard to be on here right now so I am going to make it short. I have a hole in my heart for you and it still hurts everyday er. All of my love always, god bless you.
Hill
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09:35:41 08/22/04
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Hi Eric- Im just at work thinkin about you. I wish we could all just have one more day together. Its been so long but I can still imagine every detail of that week that changed me and all of us forever. so horrible but so beautiful..... I still pray for your family. I hope your watching out for us. I can not help but wonder where you would be if u were still here. It must be cool being able to drop in on each of your friends and see how much things have changed in the past year. I remember at your funeral your mother said please dont forget him. Everyday Eric- I couldn't if I tried. Much love...
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12:48:54 08/20/04
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Hey Eric,Just wanted to say hi... i was feeling kinda down, but then i just looked across the room the moment i started writing this and my cat's head is completely in the toilet LOL.. i hope you're enjoying this as well. Maybe that was your way of cheering me up.. I just want to say hello and thank you for listening to all of my prayers, even if they didnt work out the way i wanted them to.. I feel like you've been there through all the garbage with my sister. You were good to her too Eric, so thanks. I am so rambling:).. anyways please continue to look over Shannon for me ok? We miss you so much.. Rach and I have been talking about you a lot lately---we miss you even more than we can possibly even say.
Love,
Lauren
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12:26:27 08/19/04
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well it's been awhile but i thought id stop in and holla at my boy. This summer was somethin else with out you here and i think you know we really missed u. I juss wanted to tell ya that things arent the same without ya. much love.
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12:10:56 08/19/04
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Hey Eric. Miss ya kiddo. I still can't believe you're gone. Miss you everyday. May angels lead you in.
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19:49:48 08/09/04
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Just droppin by to say hi, and i'm thinking about you, as always. You are missed so much Graf... keep watching over everyone... especially your family. Love ~Jill~
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13:50:03 08/06/04
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Er~
Hey you...it's been awhile since i've been on here, but that doesn't mean that i'm not thinking about you everyday. Just wanted to stop in and say hi and i love and miss you soooo much...not a day goes by...I love you
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22:05:54 08/03/04
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hey there, just sitting here thinking of you like always. I can't make sense of it and the pain wont go away. if there was only a way to turn back time things would be so much better. i wish there was some way to get you back to us. you were the best friend anyone could have. i will never stop missing you. Luv ya!
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22:07:10 07/29/04
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Hey Eric. I just wanted to drop by and say hello. Been thinkin bout ya lately, hope you are doing good. we miss ya. xoxo
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09:34:24 07/29/04
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has anyone ever thought about doing a memory book for erics family. if everyone got together with all their pictures and videos it would make a great gift for them. we did this for one of our friends and the parents really appreciated it. it not only got us all together to talk about all the good times but it also gave us a chance to share those times with the family. they really loved it. think about it. we still visit the parents and each time we find a new story to share.
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15:26:31 07/26/04
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Hi Graffy,
I just wanted to drop in a leave a little note, since i havent wrote in a while. Its hard to believe that we will all be starting our second year of college already! Time is sure flying by! But it still feels like you were still here only yesterday. Its weird that it feels like everything still happened only a short time ago, maybe because I still think about you everyday and I always will! Well we are all growing up and someday I will be up there with you! I hope you are having a good time! I miss you more and more each day! Keep lookin out for everyone! Love you and miss you!!!! Love, Jenny :)
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16:30:08 07/24/04
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hey eric-
I just want to leave a lil message for you because i havent said much lately. I showed one of my friends the website and he has it on his profile now because it moved him so much. Well keep watching over everyone and keep smiling because thats how i always remember u!
Love Ya
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13:35:26 07/21/04
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hey kid, just wanted to stop by and let you know i'm still thinkin about you each and every day. things are a lot different, we're all really busy with work and school and everything so it's weird because i really don't see that many people anymore. it's not like you run into everyone at parties even anymore. but it doesn't change how much we miss you or how much we think about you. you left an impact on all of us that can't be lessened by anything. we've all taken a part of you with us, and we're just taking you along wherever we go. i love you er, and i miss you so much. keep an eye on everyone, especially your family.
love,
cait
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23:17:40 07/19/04
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Eric baby, I just wanted to let you know that I love you and miss you so much. You've made me a better person because I was lucky enough to know you while you were here. I'm always thinkin' about you...Love you always.
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00:51:33 07/15/04
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hey bud just droppin in to say hi and i miss you-
watch over everyone!
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02:11:11 07/14/04
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Eric-
I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I think about you all of the time really. I always have. For the first time I'm putting it into writng. I know we didn't know each other for years, but I don' t think that takes away fom the pain in any way. I still have a million memories and they're all great. And losing you is still hard. You made a time in my life unforgettable and I count myself lucky to have been surrounded by you, if even for a short time. Like everyone else-I wish you were still here-that I could reach into Heaven and bring you back. And as much as I pray for that to be possible, I know that it's not. I know that everything happens for a reason and as unfair as it may seem you were meant to be taken from us. But still, sometimes I feel like kicking and screaming until I get my way and you come back. I read through these page until I was ready to write my own thoughts...and it took days to go through most of it. There are so many that love you. You always had a way of impacting others lives in such a tremendous way. I know because I am one of those lives that have been affected by the red hair and the brilliant smile. You always had a way of making me smile. As much as I hated the job, I will never regret Flicks, because I was able to goof off with you-whether it was shrink-rap baseball or just hanging out at the counter with your dad. Fun Times! And you wth your constant talk of cars...I hope you have them with you up there. I went to your grave the other day, but I guess that you know that. I think about your family all the time and I pray that they're okay. I miss you so much. But I know you will be with me forever through the memories. Watch over your family and keep them safe. I miss you.
Love- Erin
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Hi eric,
I just felt like saying hi, because im thinknig about you.. i always do so it's really nothing otu of the ordinary i suppose. Things have really changed around here.. I dont talk to that many people anymore.. I think people are actually shittier now than they were in high school.. Whatever you know.. Life goes on. I wish you were here because i know you would've been one of the bonds i would've still cared about and would've definitely kept a lot more people together. You brought a couple of different groups together because you simply had different friends in different groups.. Our versatile Eric:) We miss you.. Hill and I were just talking about our dreams of you.. They're always so happy and I know that you're ok.. We love you, miss you, and remember always feel free to visit me:). Look out for your family too babe....
Love,
Lauren
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12:48:43 07/13/04
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eric please come back.
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13:07:40 07/07/04
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You are always on my mind
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23:30:21 07/02/04
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happy 4th of july u r missed,
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18:25:55 07/01/04
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it seems like yesterday that we were all together, laughin, acting crazy and hanging out. i miss those times. There should of been so many more. things are just not the same without you. i guess what they say about only the good die young. its not fair.
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eric, i miss you more today than yesterday.
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02:16:18 06/29/04
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wow....i just cant beleive that its actually been a year since youve been gone. its just so sad that you were so young. i just feel horrible that i never really wrote in here b4, i mean i didnt know you, but i always knew of you b/c my brother was good friends w/ u. its just horrible wat had to happen... so many ppl knew you, from wat i had heard, you were a great person...n its just my lose that i never got to meet you. my sympothy goes out to your family and your in a better place now....no1 will ever forget we, we all love you and miss you!
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eric,
just sitting here missing you but you already know that. :)
still loving you more each day.
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13:30:39 06/26/04
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Eric, I miss you. I just hope that I can make the most of my own time here, and be kind to people and have as many people who love me as they did you. You left a big impact on my life, and it's so unfair. I miss you so much. But apparently the big guy upstairs wanted you more. ~May angels lead you in~
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13:16:35 06/26/04
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Hey kiddo. Just thinking about you today. Everytime I hear Coldplay, I think of you. LOL. Kinda silly, I know. Just letting you know we all still think about you and miss you dearly. Hope you're having a blast up in the sky. You always were a fun person to be around.
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07:22:54 06/22/04
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miss you more each day.
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11:08:47 06/21/04
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eric i dont know why no one writes to you anymore i hope they have not forgot about you. i know i never will. you were an awesome friend and each day that goes by i miss you more and more. someday jsutice will come to those who hurt you. i pray everyday that their lives are miserable and hope that nothing good comes there way for what they did to you. i'm also mad because i was not there for you like you were for all of us. i came to you with my upsets and you listened and was there for me. i wish we had shown you the same kindness you shouwed us. i know alot of people took advantage of your kindness and its easy now looking back to say i would of been there for you if you had just asked. but in reality you may of asked and none of us especially girls wre listening to you we were all so busy telling you bout r boyfriend problems and hanign out iwth you till it was straighted out. i should of dumped my boyfried and dated you. how that must of hurt. we didn't mean to use you, you were just so kind to everyone yes this may have taught a few us to watch how we treat people but it should of never been you to be the example of how we hurt others. god eric make this nightmare over. i hate seeing the people who hurt you especially now that its summer and everyones up to their old tricks. if only those people would tell your parents how mean they were to you, then maybe they could find some peace with. they hurt so bad. take care of them if you can. Happy fathers day to your dad.
love y ou.
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love you.
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miss you more and more each day.
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i love you.
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10:47:06 06/14/04
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you were the bright light in my life and now its just darkness that i see this is so unfair. it should of never been you. theres so many people who deserve it not you. i hate this, i want to see you, hold you, hug you, talk to you, hang out with you. i just want you to be around so i can see that special brightly shining light that you were to everyone. i sorry we failed you. you never failed anyone bur everyone failed you.
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17:00:17 06/11/04
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"Beyond The Gray Sky"It is a gift I know
A moment of bliss that we hold
A firecracker flash of light then on
To the next plane soul remain
Come along if you dare
It's gonna be that you're scared
Lovely life I thank you
For the reason to see the pain through Light a candle for the dead
The wick is burning returning what we have
It's who we are
We'll reach you if you're beyond the furthest star Don't give up the fight to stay alive and even if
you have to
Find the reason of another's pain if they lose you
If not for your self then those around who care
like I do
One day you'll see the clear blue Beyond the Gray Sky
Light a candle...
The wick...
It's who we are... One day youill see the clear blue
Beyond the Gray Sky I can't believe you didnit call
What made you want to end it all
Wasn't there something I should have tried
To help you see beyond the gray sky
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14:52:56 06/10/04
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Hey Eric ~
I wanted to just stop and drop you a little line, to let you know that I'm thinking about you! There isn't a day that goes past when you are not though of in my heart... You are a very special part of my life that I will never forget. I feel that sometimes it just gets harder with everyone being home from college, and not seeing you with everyone. College my freshman year was by far one of the best years of my life, I wish you could have had the chance to experience everything that I got to, because no matter how unhappy you were in the frankfort town, college is definately the perfect get away! I hope your living your own get away in heaven the way you've always dreamed of. But just know that you are loved and miss truely by all here. Take care, watch over everyone in their crazy summer days/nights! Love you, xoxoxox
-Krystina
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why why why that the question i ask eachand everyday. i miss you.
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23:07:25 06/08/04
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Eric,Just wanted to say hi and let you know that you are still missed. Please show Keith Halvorsen (Nick Halvorsen's dad) around up there. Hes only been up there a week so you and Christopher Lynch should show him around. And let him know that he is greatly msised down here and also tell Christopher that he is missed. Hope you guys have a great time together up there and remember that there are many people down there that wish that you were here with us instead of up there with each other.
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07:49:19 06/08/04
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love you, miss you, need you.
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22:22:13 06/07/04
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Hey Eric
I just wanted to stop in and say hi and that I love you. Looking back on my life last summer, I cannot believe how much I have changed. Nothing is the same in my life except my family, a few lost a few gained. I miss you so much Eric. I miss your face, and your laugh, and your hugs. I need to stop crying about this, I need to stop thinking about this every second of every day. I miss so many things about how my life used to be. But everything happens for a reason, and what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger. I wish I was as brave as I should be. You know everything about my life and where I stand in this place. You know all my secrets all my pain. You were one of a kind, and I miss talking to you more than anything. I wish I could call you so bad right now. I wish that you didn't hurt the way you did. I'm sorry, I am so sorry. I love you Er. God Bless You.
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luv you.
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07:51:32 06/03/04
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eric i will never forget you and will always write to you on theis page.
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07:57:00 06/02/04
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Get to southwest highway take that to 87th, turn right on 87th, cemetary is on the right.
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07:56:57 06/02/04
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Get to southwest highway take that to 87th, turn right on 87th, cemetary is on the right.
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Can Sum1 please let me know where the cemetery is i would really appreciate it... im coming from frankfort on Lagrange and st. francis.Thankz much
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10:22:17 05/30/04
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Just wanted to say happy birthday eric! I hope ur havin fun up there! You would've been 19, but like the say "only the good die young"...you were better than good, you were the greatest. We miss ya! Love ya!
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22:12:30 05/29/04
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Hey.....Just wanted to stop in and say happy birthday! I wish you were still here with us soo much! Love you and miss you! I hope you are having fun up there! RIP Love~Jenny
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19:08:40 05/29/04
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Hey Graf...I just wanted to say Happy Birthday and let you know that you are always on my mind and you always will be. I hope u are celebrating big up there. Not a day goes by sweetie!
Love you always
Bridget
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I just wanted to say Happy Birthday! I hope you are celebrating like you would be down here! May God be with your family today and every day Love Me
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17:11:49 05/29/04
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Hey bud. Its been a little bit...I hope your having a good time up there today and watchin over us all still. There is not a day that goes by when I don't think about you. God Bless Eric's family and friends. Happy Birthday! Thankin about you!
~Jessica
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14:42:32 05/29/04
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Hey Eric
What's up man? It's hard to believe that a year ago i visited you with brandon, jaclyn, george, and liz. I still think about ya and everyone does. We all still wish you were here enjoying life and having fun in college and whatnot. I wish you were alive to come visit me in colorado man. I remember when you took a trip with brandons family out west and you guys looked like you had a great time. If i could go back and live my sophmore year over again when i met you guys i would do it in a heartbeat. I had so much fun with academy antics and so much other stuff. How bout Nadeen's car accident that was a wild and crazy day but all of us got through it. You're still truly missed and i know i'll see you sometime again. I cant remember if i wrote about this time but when we were wrestling in cat's basement and you had me bleed then nadeen got all scared and wanted us to stop and we just kept going. Man those were the days when we had lots of fun. I know our "New Lenox Crew" all miss you. And eric because you've passed doesnt mean that that's when we've though about you, everyone of us thought of you all the time even before then. Take care man. I'll write you again sometime.
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13:51:03 05/29/04
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Hey eric,
Sorry I haven't written in awhile.. To be frank, I dont really like writing on here as much anymore.. We have our own private conversations and I like that much better. I've been under a lot of stress lately so I'm sorta taking it easy.. I wanted to wish you a happy birthday Eric. Miss you..
Lauren
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09:07:58 05/29/04
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Happy Birthday Eric!!! I hope ur partyin it up b/c i know we will be partyin it up for u down here!! LOVE ALWAYS!!!
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00:38:04 05/29/04
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Hey Er...I dont like coming on this site much anymore, but I have to say happy birthday in writing! You would have been 19 today! Another birthday past with nothing to celebrate about. I love you very much, and I miss you as much as I always have. God Bless you!
Hill
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00:34:31 05/29/04
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRAF. Wish you could be celebrating down here. Always thinkin about you... u know that. Keep watchin over everyone, especially your family. Have fun tonight bud... we all know you will! Miss you, Love you... ~Jill~"A smile from above- its a beautiful day"... its always a beautiful day Eric.
God Bless.
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08:13:11 05/27/04
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Hey Buddy! Just wanted to drop in and say hey! Your birthday is on Saturday and I'm going to stop up there...I wish I could see you celebrating it. Miss you a ton...and love you!
Love,
Julie
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07:56:25 05/27/04
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love you, miss you, need you, cant stand it here without you.
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13:56:41 05/26/04
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Hey buddy, just wanted to stop by and say hi. I miss you everyday kid, and being home makes me miss you that much more. There's just always something missing. I'll be visiting the cemetary on saturday. wish you could celebrate with us.
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cait
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08:14:46 05/26/04
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Ill be visiting you Saturday. Since its your birthday i want to spend some time with you. I miss you more and more each day.
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14:54:25 05/25/04
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Hey Eric,I just wanted to stop by and tell ya that I'm thinkin bout you! And your birthday is on Saturday, wow. Happy early birthday hun! I hope you are happy and having fun up there watchin over all of us! You are truly one in a million, I've never met somebody who was like you. You were so full of life, you amazed people and you still do! You'll always be in our hearts, until forever. Love ya & Miss Ya Jessica
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08:21:22 05/25/04
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your birthday is saturday, i wish you were here to celebrate. love you.
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06:46:28 05/25/04
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Not a day goes by that we all dont think of you. We love you and miss you. We are all taking you with us on every road we all take!
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22:08:32 05/24/04
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Hey Grafferz~
I just wanted to say Happy early Birthday. i know its not til the 29th but i thought i would say it now! I have been loosing track of what day it is and i just dont want to forget. Live it up and have a great time! Your One In A Million-Monica
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08:04:31 05/24/04
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this world
this world is cold
but you don’t
you don’t have to go
your feeling sad your feeling lonely
and no one seems to care
your mothers gone and your father hits you
this pain you cannot bear
but we all bleed the same way as you do
and we all have the same things to go throughhold on if you feel like letting go
hold on it gets better than you know the days, you say they're way too long
and your nights, you cant sleep at all, hold on
and you're not sure what you're waiting for but you don't want to no more
and you're not sure what you're looking for but you don’t want to no more but we all bleed the same way as you do
and we all have the same things to go through hold on if you feel like letting go
hold on it gets better than you know
don’t stop looking your one step closer
don’t stop searching its not over
hold on what are you looking for
what are you waiting for
do you know what your doing to me
GO AHEAD
what are you waiting for hold on if you feel like letting go
hold on it gets better than you know
don’t stop looking your one step closer
don’t stop searching its not over...hold on ::HOLD ON:: -Good Charlotte-
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Love you miss youneed you.
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23:29:08 05/23/04
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I came across this through a friends profile and though I never knew Eric, I feel like I did. I'm going to keep this site linked in my profile because anyone thinking of suicide needs to know that, like Eric, they've touched way more lives than they realize. No one is ever forgotten.Love and prayers for all of you guys and of course for Eric. Mike
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11:56:37 05/22/04
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yo yo whats goin on G? summer is finally here and now i realize with everyone back there is still such a big whole in all of us. I saw ur brother at tysons last night and for a second i wanted to just hug him or somethin and i dont even know why. This is gonna be a crazy three months and i can already see that so just be on the lookout for us when things get a little outta control. Well im outie but enjoy the summer up there with nude beaches or wherever u go to see the women.. much love, Kobit
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18:08:52 05/21/04
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Hey Eric, I hope you're doing good. Everyone still misses you tons. Keep it real :)Have an awesome birthday if i don't get a chance to write in the next week or so!
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08:26:08 05/21/04
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I love you so much.
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I love you.
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LOVE YOU.
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08:14:43 05/18/04
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eric, heard the song closing time, remember that from way back with your cousins. That was so funny. Wish we could go back. you are so awesome.
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08:45:26 05/17/04
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I love you and miss you. it still hurts so much not to see you, hear you, smell you and get one of your awesome hugs. you have the best hugs of anyone. i wish you were here.
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23:58:20 05/13/04
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Hey Kiddo...Mother's Day was on Sunday...I was thinking of your mom. You already know this tho...just dropping in to say Hey....and I miss you!
I love you Eric...more than you know!!This reminds me of you: Sometimes this whole world seems to be spinning faster...than it did in the old days...so naturally we have more natural disasters...from the strain of a fast pace...-Rascal Flatts Love you-Julie
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09:39:17 05/10/04
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eric i miss you so much and love you even more. Nothing is the same and everything hurts millions more.
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23:36:06 05/09/04
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always remember..keep the wind at your back..happy travelling my friend
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21:22:48 05/09/04
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happy mother's day to eric's mom! =)
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14:20:44 05/09/04
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I just wanted to say Happy Mothers Day to everyones moms. Especially those mothers who cant have all of their children together. Every young person on this website died in a tragic untimely matter. I look at my brothers and think of steve sankowski and kevin alleck, I look at my friends and see Eric, I cannot imagine the pain that all of these families are going through. God Bless all of you.
Hill
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13:29:38 05/07/04
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Eric,
Hey Kiddo...what's been up? 17 days left of highschool...dude I can't wait! So yeah...God sometimes I come on this website and can talk for hours and other times...like now...I am just speechless. It's May 7th Eric...May 7th...where did the time go...your birthday is in 22 days....the second year in a row that we can't celebrate it with you. Not fair. Simply not fair...a year and a few days have passed and I just wonder if I have grown at all...sometimes I look back and see how much I have grown from this unfortunate experience and other days I feel like I am still in the same state of mind that I was a week after this happened. I want to erase the bad and only remember the good Eric...but I know that I can't. I can't because I realize that the good in people isn't the only thing that makes them...the good AND the bad is what makes a person who they are. Although this situation totally sucks...and it's not a reflection of you life or the way you spent it...it's all those good things and this situation that temporarily fills this void in my heart. I want it to go away Er, I want it to just go away. Now that I think about it...I'm sortof glad that I didn't go to the cemetary when your mom and everyone else was there. I don't think I could take it again. I don't think I could walk up and see everyone standing there...once is already too many times. I don't ever want to walk up there and see your mom ripped in two...I don't want to see Hillary in a million pieces...I don't want to ever witness anything that bad ever again. Please look over everyone Eric...there is still so much to learn. I love you tons and tons...miss you!
Love,
Julie
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00:29:34 05/04/04
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Hey Graf-How you doin buddy? I hope your doin alright. When i went to your grave the other day it was so sad. Your mom was telling us stories about times at the fort and all the tricks you tried to pull, but like moms always do they find out. It was good to get a laugh in, yet it was so hard to hold back the tears. Your mom was so strong through it all..she misses you so much Eric.. just like the rest of us. I just wish it didnt have to be you babe.. I wish we didnt have to be standing around your grave, remembering the times we had w/ you.. I just wish there was mroe time to make better memories.. I love you Eric.. wish you were here..
shannon
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13:47:01 05/03/04
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couldnt have said it better... eric-
as i read all these loving messages i wonder what a cute, young, intellectual , popular kid... had that was hurting so bad inside. I always think about where would you be right now if you were here, or who would you have married.. or what your adorable little red headed kids would be like..hahahaha
i bet they would have been great.. like you.
i hope your having the time of your life!
u r truely missed!
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14:37:55 05/01/04
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I am sure the visitors to this site are aware of the bickering that has erupted on this site over the last few days. This is a reminder to please keep the messages in a respectful and postive light. There are other mediums to express yourself besides this website, which is intended to be used for condolences - not for attacking others. If you feel strongly about something and want to get your message heard, there are other ways to do that (QTK Forums/E-Mail/AOLIM/etc.). Please do not post anything negative on this website. It makes my job harder as I have to keep this site under constant surveillance. It boggles my mind to see that you people just skip over the gray box asking you to be respectful and type whatever your heart desires. Believe me, his family knows the circumstances of Eric's passing and I'm sure it's hard enough to deal with them without a bunch of ignorants shoving them in their faces. I do not know what I need to do to get it through to you people to keep the messages respectful. Do I need to drop the thank yous and pleases and speak your language? I would rather not. Please, just follow the simple set of rules and let this site stay as a tribute to Eric's life rather than a exploitation of his death. This message will stay up for a couple of days and then I will delete it.Thanks,
Webmaster P.S. Please, no one needs to comment on this message. If you would like to reply to me, you can either email me at webmaster@quitetheking.net, or message me on AOL Instant Messenger at "QuiteTheKing" and I would be happy to listen.
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We all miss you and love you Eric!
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it was so weird there w/out u..hun i love u
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18:24:50 04/27/04
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Graf~
Wow...i can't believe it's been over a year. I just wanted to thank you for all the great memories, and let you know that we all still miss you down here. Thanks for making such an impact on all of our lives!
Miss you
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Eric,
Hey sweetheart! This website got crazy-just as it did a year ago. It's absolutely insane that it's already been a year. So many things have changed since then. Maggie, Heather and I went to the cemetary on Friday...and my heart broke just like it did a year from that day. Well we drove up there...and the cemetary was closed...so we decided to jump the fence...hah I know you were laughing at us...Heather got stuck on the fence. The only thing we said at that point is...God what is Eric saying about this right now. Haha...I know you were watching. I'm kindof glad that I didn't go when everyone else was there...I don't think I could pull up and see everyone around your grave again...one time is already too many. Prom was this weekend...and it's already gone! Time is just flying by latley. Soon everyone is going to be home again...and God I think I really need that. I need my brother to be back home...and I need my friends to come home too. This year has been so empty. Well I love you Eric...and so does everyone else...don't mind the ignorant messages written by people that didn't know you...there are a million more ppl that did and do love you. I'll see you when I get there...
Love you,
Julie
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19:02:19 04/26/04
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I CANT BELIVE A YEAR HAS PAST I AM MISSING YOU SO MUCH
IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY AND MEMORIES WHERE A LANE I'D WALK RIGHT UP TO HEAVEN AND BRING YOU HOME AGAIN NO FARWELL WORDS WERE SPOKEN NO TIME TO SAY GOOD BYE YOU WERE GONE BEFORE I KNEW IT AND ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY. MY HEARTS STILL ACKS IN SADNESS SCERITE TEARS STILL FLOW WHAT IT MENT TO LOSE YOU KNOW ONE WILL EVER KNOW.
ERIC I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH
TILL WE MEET AGAIN
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19:00:38 04/26/04
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I go to school with one of your friends, and she is always looking at this site. I decided to finally go on and see what you and her friends at home were like. Eric, you had an amazing group of people back at home. You are so lucky to have the people you have that are still remembering you and loving you a year later. The girl I go to school with here cries infront of me every so often and I just dont know what to say. God Bless you
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18:57:56 04/26/04
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We love you and miss you so much Eric! God Bless You!
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18:48:37 04/26/04
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Hey bro, cant believe it has been a year man. There is not a day that goes by that your not in the back of my mind. It has been a long crazy year for everyone, just still wishin you were here with us. Missin you like crazy eric, I love you bro. Take care of yourself up there man. I know you will be watching over all of us. RIP my brotha.Shorty
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23:35:16 04/25/04
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Eric,
I really cannot believe it has already been a year! Friday was really hard at school especially when I saw the flower where we had the memorial. I miss you a lot and everyday I think about all of the "what if's" I hope you are happy and doing a lot better up there! Miss You Kristin
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23:11:40 04/25/04
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Hey Er...I cannot believe that it has been a year since you have gone. It was just like yesterday pulling up to that cemetary and seeing everyone gathered around your grave. I miss you so much Eric, I wish I could turn back time and none of this would have happened. We love you Eric. Rest in Peace!
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15:19:52 04/24/04
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It's been a year Eric...and not a day goes by you are not thought of...Keep it real!!!
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09:43:54 04/24/04
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Hey Eric. Just wanted to come by and pay my respects. I miss seeing you around, even though u r a yr older than me and I wouldn't see ya cause you'd be off in Cali, but still... You are truely a wonderful guy. I just wish you could've realized how much everyone loves you, and how much you impacted their lives before you went through with this. But what's done is done. And through your death you have made many people realize how precious life is, and to not let a day go by without telling the people you love and care about just how much they mean to you. You are an inspiration to everyone. Thank you! Rip Graf
Name: Rachel
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04:30:12 04/24/04
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Hey Eric! It has been 1 year too long that you have been away. I hope you are doing well up there and helping the ones that have just joined you. I am sure they are enjoying your funny jokes and pranks, cause we sure did!!! Well, I guess I wanted to say thanks for giving me those memories of you- some I am still laughing about today! Keep having fun up there and contine to watch over us. Love you always!!!
Rachel
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03:54:12 04/24/04
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eric man i still can't believe that you are gone. every day i think about you and the shit that we did together. i really miss you, and your jokes. i hang out with david almost everyday, and i see you mom and dad all the time. we all miss you so much man. well i don't know what to say except for that we miss you and love you more than you will ever know. i will never forget the times we haduntil i see you again
griffin
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03:21:02 04/24/04
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Eric~ It's hard to believe it's been a year. We weren't close friends, but you definitely made an impact on my life and not a day goes by when i'm not thinking about you. I hope you're really happy up there because you deserve nothing but the best. I miss you Graf....<3 Tara
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03:12:32 04/24/04
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MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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03:10:53 04/24/04
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I'd like to thank Eric.First and foremost, I'd like to thank him for all the smiles, the comments and jokes that we remember him by. I'd like to thank him for having that crazy red hair. I'd like to thank him for all the memories, the good times that he had with his friends, his family, and everyone else he came into contact with. I'd like to thank him for bringing our class, our school, together. He brought us together during his life, and unfortunately, through his death. Everyone knew him, everyone loved him...LOVES him, and everyone misses him. Finally, I would like to thank him for helping me to realize how precious and fragile life really is. I would like to thank him for making me appreciate my friends and my family. And I would like to thank him for helping me reach out to friends in need, in hopes that his death may serve a purpose: to improve, or even save, another life. THANK YOU, ERIC GRAF.
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Hey Buddy, I can't believe its already been a year...I miss ya so much! I still have our "wedding picture" in a frame in my room, sitting right where ya let it! It feels like forever, but today it feels like it was just yesterday. I woke up today feeling the same feeling I had just a year ago on this day. I remember exactly what happened and exacltly how I felt. It hurt, but its so great to have family and friends out there that care enough to help people through rough times like these. I hope you are having fun up there, eating all the red starburst and making salt cookies! We had such good times together and I cherish all of 'em. The other day my little puppy died, yes the one that chased you all the time when you and your cousins watched her! I still dont think you would know her real name to this day! lol its ok though, afterall you thought my brothers name was jason for about 5 years! Anyway, after my dog died I was going through pictures to find some of her (I was feelin a lil' down) and I came across ones from junior high and high school and oh my...we had some fun times. I wish there was some way of going back and replaying them all again. I still have the tape of you playing the piano and singing "what a wonderful world"! I watch it every once and awhile, just for a good laugh. I dont know what else to say...I did enough reminiscing for now, Im sure everyone on this site doesnt care about all our stupid jokes! Well Eric, I am out...Take care buddy, much love and a huge bear hug from me to you! You are STILL my one and only favorite redhead! Love you Eric.
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01:32:12 04/24/04
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cant stop thinking about it. sometimes shit gets hard and i just dont know how to keep going. its been a year buddy....hard to believe...
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01:04:31 04/24/04
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See lately I wake up in the morning wanting to cry, I bend my knees
And I raise my head up into the sky sometimes I just cant fight the
Feeling I have inside. I never got to tell u how much I loved u b4 u died..I knew u couldn't and wouldn't be here for very long...1 day ur here and the next day ur gone.
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Hey ERic, it's been a whole year already. wow.Well, I hope you realize how many people's lives you impacted while you were here with us and still keep impacting even though you are up in heaven. You were a very amazing and caring person, nobody has forgotten about you nor will ever forget about you. There's just something about you, whether people knew you personally or not, they knew WHO you were because of your personality. You always made people laugh and feel good about themselves. Nothing is ever going to change the fact that you aren't here with us physically anymore, but mentally and emotionally, you are still in our hearts. It's sad that people are going around and still blaming it on a certain few people, when in reality, nobody did it specifically. You did what you thought would be the best thing without thinking, you didn't have control over yourself. But no matter what happens through out the rest of our lives, nobody will ever be able to forget your name,face, and/or personality. You were an amazing person, I hold you in my heart, and I always will. I still can't believe it has been a year already Well, I just wanted to stop by and tell you that I miss ya and that I'm still thinking about ya. Plus, thank you. You've made me realize so much more about life in general. You've made me realize how precious life really is and we shouldn't take life as well as people for granted. I wish none of this happened, but you are in a far better place now watching over all of us. Keep an eye on your family and all of your friends-they need you. To Eric's Family-It's been one year and I'm sure it's not any easier. But remember all of his friends are always going to remember him as well. You guys had a wonderful son, he was absolutely amazing. You did one hell of a job raising him, good job. You guys are always going to be in my prayers. By the way, I hope you guys got the letter I sent you when this all first happened.
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hey there, eric. i was sitting in my 8am calc class today, and i went to date my lecture notes like i always do. 4-23 will always be a day of infamy to me. i'll never look at this day the same again. until this day exactly a year ago, i never had anybody that i know (or even remotely know) die. i regret that you had to be the first. it honestly doesn't seem like it's been a year even though i've been in college for almost 2 full semesters already. but i want to thank you, eric. i want to thank you with everything that is within me. i struggled so hard with what i wanted to do with my life and what i SHOULD do with my life. everytime i think of you, i take a look at the people around me, whether it's the people in my classes or the people i pass by on the streets or even my good friends. then i ask myself, "what could/should i be doing to help these people, to let these people know that they matter, and that no matter how horrible life may get, there's always something better at the end of the road? how can i give these people hope?" going to class and walking to/from classes, i use to think that i was wasting my parents' money and my time because i was completely clueless about where my life was going. but now i know. now, when i think about you and what happened to you, i get so broken inside, not only for you, but for the people surrounding me. thank you so much, eric, for helping me realize what i need to do with my life. i am so sorry that it took your death to make me realize this. i will always regret not having come to this realization in time for you. i will truly and honestly never forget you and what you have done for me. i'm sorry...
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Eric-
Words can not describe how much we all miss and love you! It's so hard to believe that it has been year. As Caitlin says "it feels like yesterday and forever ago all at once." Thank you for the memories Eric, they will never be forgotten! Always thinking about you...
Love to you always,
Kara
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22:41:51 04/23/04
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I just wanted to say that I love you. I spent all night waiting for your song " Only the Good Die Young", I think about you every day, and today I have aspecial tribute to you. I love you more than anything, see you on the east coast. Cali, all for an ever. I love more than ever. I love you babe, "Only the Good Die Young!" I love you! Love Always, Jesse
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22:37:12 04/23/04
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Wow, its amazing that a whole year has passed. I'm always praying you're happy and safe where you are. I know everyone else is too. I can still remember how moved everyone was when we heard that this had happened. You still inspire us all man. Stay with everybody down here and I know I'll see you again someday. Thanks man.
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Eric ~
Hey…Wow, well where were begin? It’s so hard to believe that one year has already gone past! I’ll never forget what It was like to get the call that you were gone, it feels like yesterday. I’ll never forget the faces and all the tears of everyone. There is not honestly a day that goes past that I don’t think of you, you are a constantly on my mind. So much has changed through this year, my life has had some dramatic changes. Everyone at home is different, and moving forward with their future, but the one common thing that everyone has, is you in their memories! You have impacted my life so much through this year, along with many others. When ever anyone is in need of something I always put them first, just so another mistake isn’t made, so their friends and family don’t have to deal with the pain of losing someone so special. I ponder upon the question of why you would commit such an act, I’ve done the research and now I know some of the answers. I know that you didn’t kill yourself to die, or intentionally hurt the people that were most important to you, you did it so everyone could see all of the pain you felt inside…..And I’m sorry you felt such a pain, no one should ever have experience what you did as a last resort. Life is precious, and I wish you could of found another way out of feeling the way you did. Things change on such a day-to-day basis, I wish you could of looked past the pain and looked into the bright future you had. I hope your having the time of your life in heaven, and watching over everyone. You deserve nothing but the best, and I’m sorry that some people couldn’t see that before this all happened. You were really a true friend to me, since I moved here - all though grade school, and high school. Its too bad that their aren’t more people like you, your truly one of a kind. I’m getting ready to finish up this year at Indiana State. And as soon as I get home I’ll come visit you. It was an amazing experience for me to go through, and I wish that you could of experienced what I got to. I’ve met some amazing people here at school, some that have changed my life, and then there are those that, well, over time I’ve found out what true people they actually are. I wish you could of separated those people who made you happy verses sad. My grades are up, I’m most likely going to pull a 4.0 this semester. I have everything set for next year, I got an Residence Assistant position for the next three years, which means they will pay for all of my room and board for those years. I’m really happy now. Times have changed. Being at home, I could always pick out everything that made me angry- friends, school, parents, work, ect. I felt like I didn’t have many "Happy Times." But by getting out of that town, and coming to school away, I’ve seen the better things in life, and come to the conclusion that hurting yourself isn’t the answer, a change just needs to be made. I’ve laughed harder this year then ever before, except for the times you made me laugh. I’ve come to realize that, I like some of these people so much because I feel they have the personality you had. And what better then to be living the life I want to live, by being around three Eric personalities, they make the best out of every situation, just like you used to. There isn’t much about this year that I wish I could go back and change, but if I could I would take away all of the pain you felt, to make you be the "Big Red" you used to be…Happy, with not a worry in life except making everyone laugh, and being the class-act! I’ll never forget you Eric, you have a part of my heart that no one does or ever could! I hope you realize what you meant to everyone, and just how special you really are and always will be. I Love You, and will never forget you! This is C-ya for now, but never 4-Ever! Stay Strong, I miss you! R.I.P. 4/23/03-Love-
Krystina * Here is a poem I wrote for you, that reminds me of my thoughts for you each day: It’s called
Heaven and Earth… When the warmth of the sun touches my face,
I see your smile and feel your embrace. I hear the whisper of love in the wind,
And I know that you are close to me again. The rain speaks of tears and the thunder of pain,
But soon the sun comes the earth to reclaim. As the days come and go and the world moves on,
I know you're still here, you'll never be gone. On the night the Angel came and took your hand,
We cried as you left for an unknown land. But Heaven rejoiced as you came into sight,
For your soul was a diamond, shining so bright!
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Eric-i cant believe its been a year-its so hard to imagine-even tho i didnt kno u for very long or very well-u were a friend of mine and i miss u so much-it was a hard day 2day and i cant even imagine how all of ur closest friends r feeling rite now-but i still remember the 1st and last time i hung out with u-u are such a great person and its so hard to actually realize u r gone-its still seems like it was just yesterday-but this time last yr was when every1 had one of the most grieving days of their lives-u r truely missed by every1-i love u n miss u eric-to your 1 year anniversary-we miss u!
*to eric's family-i hope your all doing okay i know you can all pull through this together-i know eric loved all of you very much and he's watching over everyone and making sure they are alright.*
Eric we love you!!!
*love always and forever*
-megg-
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~*~Missing you Eric~*~
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21:38:24 04/23/04
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Hey Eric. How are you? I'm sure you're great now that you're in a better place. As everyone else is saying, it is truly unbelievable that it's been a year. I can still remember the day like it was yesterday that I stood by your memorial in the courtyard at LWE. The yellow ribbon is still tied around the tree as a remembrance. As I pass the windows and see the ribbon, just for a second I can see all your friends, the flowers, the pictures...everything around the tree. I really hope you're taking care of Kevin Aleck...and of course, taking care of yourself.To everyone - Isn't it great to be able to think today "That was one of the hardest things I've ever had to go through. And I got through it. I don't know how...but I did." You're still in my thoughts, Eric. Yes, you are gone...but definitely not forgotten. Keep watching over us. It's not "Goodbye"...it's "See you later"
-Kelly
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20:53:25 04/23/04
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I thought being a Christian meant being good to one another. I thought being a Christian meant that you loved one another and treated people with kindness and respect. It's fine that you have your own opinions.. Why would you throw acid into the eyes that are crying today? Why would you say such hurtful terrible things? Do you understand that this is one of the hardest days for all of us? Do you understand what you have said kills me inside and the people that read his website, including his site.. Trust me we have enough grief. You can have all your bible-thumping beliefs that you care to possess, but you know what I have trouble believing a document that wasn't even written by the true apostles or Jesus Christ, because some peopl ehave an agenda. I believe in a loving and forgiving God, that sees the good in people.. And because of that.. i hope you know that it is you that is going to hell... Straight there, no pitstops for you.. Because no truly good person would ever be so cruel... If you believe so vehemently in your beliefs maybe you shoudl sign your name you sick, heartless, coward.. It's people like you that I would genuinely run over wiht my car and never turn around.. You want to say something again.. SIGN YOUR NAME.Love you eric, we're holding it down here for you OK?? we love you!
Lauren
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whoops i forgot to explain myslef- i wont be here to wish graffers a happy birthday i will be in louisana so i decided to make my birthday and one year message one- dont think that i am crazy- once again graffers i love you and miss you- and one year is just hard to believe i miss u baby r.i.p. muah
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20:23:32 04/23/04
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Graffers~Happy Birthday baby! I miss you so much! i can't believe how busy things have been lately- u know what had happened bc they've been this way- and i am sorry! You no know that i love you! I cant believe that it has been a year already- so much has happened- and summer is comin- it wont be the same w/o you- but i know that u will be there partyin w us neways! well babe i dont write alot, but u know that i am thinkin about you FOREVER AND ALWAYS! I love you and Miss u Tons~ muah! i owe ya! party hard! ttysoon. R.I.P.
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19:17:43 04/23/04
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wow eric.. i dont know whut to say i miss you so much i cant believe its been a year already.. its hard to believe that ur gone its hard.. i cant sleep that good..yea just tell Chris Lynch and Chris Kutz that i love them and i miss them...i cant believe its been a year man...it feels like it just happened yesterday.. i look back and think about everything and its just hard to believe why you did it.. its like a ponderable question ive been thinkin bout that for a whole year.. but just tell everyone i said hey and that i love chris lynch much o and i cant wait to be with u guys--Me
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19:15:44 04/23/04
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Hey Graf... I can't believe it's been one year... everyone misses you like crazy. I hope you know we all love you and you better be watching over everyone... they all need you more than you know hunny. Just wanted to tell you I miss ya... Ash
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18:04:33 04/23/04
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Well Graf, i cannot believe that it has been a year. Everything in my life has changed so much, but i can honestly say i think about you and the great times we had all of the time. The other week i went home because a friend really needed my support when his cousin died and this death was a surprise just like yours. There were a lot of kids there because the person that got killed was only in 8th grade. All of the young people as well as the old were crying, and all i could think about was you, your life, your wake, and the day you finally left us april 23rd. Your death has had a huge impact on my life, because of you i rarely take people for granted, and i never leave someone when i am upset because you never really know if they'll be there when you get back. Life is precious and kind and also it is nasty and rebellious but you know what things change, people change but you always go back to the people who were there in the begining. And you know what in a week in a half i will be going home to some of the greatest people that i know, and i just want to say that i am so greatful to have known you and our friendship. I think about you all the time Graf...It's not good bye...Just see ya later.....
I love ya
CHRISTIE <3
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17:23:29 04/23/04
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ericcc/carrot top..oh man...my family misses you like crazy<3 its been a year now..and we still cant believe your gone..you are missed by so many and i know you look down on all of us..i need you to guide me...help me move on because without you here its just not the same..and i just cant smile while your gone..but i can smile..knowing that your heaven..wow i love you so much and i know you were the funniest guy i knew and i could always laugh.. the funny pictures my brother trys to show me without crying...i hope my brothers okay..he loved you so much you were one of his bestfriends..but i know he'll be ok..just asking that you'll guide him along tooi'm just so tired
wont you sing me to sleep
and fly through my dreams
so i can hitch a ride with you tonight
and get away from this place
have a new name and face
i just aint the same without you in my life
late night drives, all alone in my car
i can't help but start
singing lines from all our favorite songs
and melodies in the air
singin life just aint fair
sometimes i still just can't believe you're gone
and im sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven,
maybe we'll make it through one more year
down here feel your fire,
when its cold in my heart
and things sorta start
remindin' me of my last night with you
i only need one more day
just one more chance to say
i wish that i had gone up with you too
and i'm sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven
maybe we'll make it through one more year
down here you wont be comin' back
and i didn't get to say goodbye
i really wish i got to say goodbye
and im sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven
maybe we'll make it through one more year
i hope that all is well in heaven
cuz its all shot to hell down here
i hope that i find you in heaven
cuz i'm so...
lost without you down here
you wont be coming back
and i didn't get to say goodbye
i really wish i got to say gooooodbye
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16:52:06 04/23/04
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Eric~Well it's been a year and I have thought this whole year that things will feel better and maybe I will understand, but that hasn't happened. I am still so confused and I truly cannot understand why. The only thing that I can do is try and keep praying that someday we will all see you once again. I know where you are and hopefully I'm going there because I want to see you again and catch up on all the good times you have physically missed. I say "physically" because in some way, you are always there with us spiritually, whether it be when we are alone or all together. It is an unspoken feeling among everyone that you are there in a way. Er you wouldn't believe how much everyone has changed this past year...some good, some bad. I only wish you were here to change with us. There are so many things that everyone misses about you like your crazy red hair, how you made people laugh, your contagious smile, and the list goes on. I used to come on this website, not even read anything and just cry from looking at your picture. Things are more peaceful now and I know that you are, yourself, at peace. Life is going on but I just want it to be happening with you in it. You were so vivacious at one time and I think we all miss that energy you brought to everyone. I cannot believe still that we have gone a year without you. It's been rough and I will continue to keep you and your family in my heart and also in my prayers. I wish I could have been there today with everyone and your mom. No matter where I am though, I will continuously be thinking of you-we love you Graf
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16:51:51 04/23/04
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i know i only saw you probably once in my life for a few minutes that you were over for my older brother. but its amazing how me not even knowing you, had you impact my life. i look at life so differently, i treat people differently, everyday i try to be a better person. i try my best to make sure i don't take life for granted. i sit here once a while and read the amazing things people say about you, you are a great person. its already been one year, many people miss you alot thats for sure. keep lookin down on your family and friends. rest in peace eric..<3 becca
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16:40:31 04/23/04
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Hey, whats up? Hope your having a good time up there and watching over everyone. It is one year since your passing. This day last year was truly a very sad day and that whole few weeks after everyone seemed depressed and I know noone forgot. Even if we didn't know you. Well I know your happy. Take care buddy
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14:48:52 04/23/04
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whats up buddy. i dont even know what to write anymore. i remember this day last year when i found out i was broken. it doesnt seem like u've been gone for a whole year. everyday i wonder y u decided on what u chose to do. i wish we coulda done something about it. like pete said u were one of the best things to come into our lives. u made us laugh all the time and we felt comforted around u. but i'll be seeing u later on today too. so be good till then and make sure your mother is doing ok.
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14:47:31 04/23/04
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it's been a year, graf, you've impacted so many. i hope you're having fun up there!:) we all know you are. RIP eric!!
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13:25:32 04/23/04
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well this time last this year prolly had the biggest impact on my life. You were honestly one of the best things that ever happened to our group and for that i thank you. I'm goin to see ya today so ill talk to ya then. much love, ur nig kobitch
Name: Jenny GRaham
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13:22:41 04/23/04
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Graffy~ I cannot believe it has been a year already! It feels like I saw you yesterday still! U know there is not a day that goes by when I dont think about u and all the great times we all have had! I miss you so much and wish you could come back! I know you doing just fine up there and your happier now! I just wish something could have been done. Your doing a good job watching out for everyone and keep your family strong today! They love you so much and so do we! I will see you again some day but until that time comes have fun up there, cause we all know you are! And make sure everyone down here is safe, and try to keep some people out of stupid things! Cant wait til I come home, so I can come visit you site! I love you Graff and I just cant believe it has really been a year, its crazy to think about!!! R.I.P Graffy! Love you always and miss you~Jenny :)
Name: Kurber
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12:45:46 04/23/04
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Hey man,I can't believe it's been a year. This is the first time I've posted anything on here...I guess before I just didn't know what to say; most people had already said it. I remember when I met you, sophomore year after I transferred from Providence. I had almost literally no friends @ LW, and right away you were talking to me, making me feel accepted during a difficult part of my life. If it wasn't for you during those years of high school I probably wouldn't talk to half of the people I do. Even before you left us I always thought that, and should have told you. But I know you're up there now, and you know how much you mean to me and everyone else who ever met you. It's still unbelieveable to me that you're gone, you were always such a great presence wherever you were. I expect to come home and see you at a party or something, and it's rough realizing that won't happen. Take care up there, you're probably having a great time watching all of us do the same stupid stuff we always did. Catch you on the flipside Kurbs
Name: lindsay ruiz
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11:06:53 04/23/04
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Hey sweetheart... well i look at the site all the time and never know what to exactly say... i really dont think that anybody can really put into words how they feel... I know i wasnt that close to you but the times that i did spend with you are definately unforgettable. ugh their is a lot i want to say but ill just tell ya tonight... Im sorry Eric... we all love and miss u more than you'll ever know.. Love Always, Linz Ruiz
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10:49:58 04/23/04
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Graf-
Still thinkin about you everyday...you are always in my heart and your familys in my prayers. Miss you always...It is hard to imagine it has been 1 year. Time has gone by so quickly and yet you will always remain in everybodys heart and memories!Love,
Krystin
Name: Billy Beechy
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10:15:10 04/23/04
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Hey Big Red - I just can't fathom how you must of been feeling a year ago today. We all are missing you so much right now. Today is going to be a rough day. I'm coming home today to visit you at St. Mary's. Please help me out on the drive home. Thanks for all the awesome times we had together, you were an great kid. Hope your parents are doing OK. I miss you so much buddy. I love you bro.
R.I.P. 4.23.03 Billy ---
goodbye Eric
farewell friend
my open wounds will heal
scarring over
to fill a void
that you left in me
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08:02:34 04/23/04
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Graf you are still missed greatly,,,help your friends and family get through today and this weekend. I miss you...PeeWee
Name: cassie
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04:46:03 04/23/04
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hey graf,
its been a year and i cant tell whether its been too long or too short.. anywho, you are so deeply missed.
A year has gone by and so much has been in that year, you continue to go on in our hearts. You continue to touch the lives of everyone who loved you and people who never knew you who have been touched by you and this site during the struggles of everyday life.. i know for me this year has been the most difficult i think i couldve experienced in my life, and i've found myself looking to you for answers. thanks for being such an angel.. god bless
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04:45:57 04/23/04
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hey graf,
its been a year and i cant tell whether its been too long or too short.. anywho, you are so deeply missed.
A year has gone by and so much has been in that year, you continue to go on in our hearts. You continue to touch the lives of everyone who loved you and people who never knew you who have been touched by you and this site during the struggles of everyday life.. i know for me this year has been the most difficult i think i couldve experienced in my life, and i've found myself looking to you for answers. thanks for being such an angel.. god bless
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03:45:19 04/23/04
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Graf man...please help me and all of your friends through today...its gonna be hard man but we can do it. and i know we can do it especialy with your help. thank you for everything you did in your short 17 year life. you may not have realized it then but you touched so many people you dont even know! you were an amazing individual! we all love you man!!love,
Jim Finn
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02:06:39 04/23/04
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has it honestly been a year? we've been here without you for that long? it doesn't seem possible. this week has been hard, partially because i knew how hard today was going to be and i just couldn't help but think if in the days leading up to this what was on your mind. were you thinking about it? it makes me sick to think about the way you were feeling a year ago today. but like lauren said, i truly believe it was an impulse that got out of control. god kid, i miss you so much and it still hurts so bad. the fact that it's been a year and the pain just doesn't go away makes me realize it never will, and i knew that i guess. nothing is the same, and it never will be. there is just a hole, and there always will be. and that will never go away. it was just too soon for you, and i just run over and over in my head scenarios that could have changed this. you just had so much going for you er, a personality unlike no one else, and the way you touched all of us in 17 short years is nothing short of spectacular. only you could have left the impact you did. i just wish more than anything in the world you would have known that. it just breaks my heart more than anything that you weren't able to see that that night, that you weren't able to see we would have done anything for you eric. i just want to see you, hear your laugh more than anything in this world. i think about all the memories and no matter how great they are they just make me sad that there can't be anymore of them. we just all miss you so much eric and it hurts so bad. i can't help think about if there was just something someone could have said, or done, but all that does is drive me crazy, and feel so unbelievably helpless. i know we all wonder what we could have done, and god, why we didn't know. we should have known, we should have been able to help you, we should have been able to make you see how much we needed you here. how much we still need you here. you had so much more life to live kid...i forgive you er, but i just can't comprehend it still, and i know i never will be able to. i try not to be mad, but it's just so hard. it's not that i'm mad at you for what you did necessarily, but just mad at the world i guess. i'm mad at myself, for not being able to help you. and i'm just mad in general that you're gone. as crazy as it sounds, it just STILL at times doesn't feel real, it just doesn't seem possible. but it's very real, and i just pray to god that you're at peace. i hope you're able to look down and smile at us, even though sometimes it's hard for us to smile. the days after all this were some of the hardest in my life, and the images of those days are burned in my head. but those aren't the days i want to think of when i think of you. i want to think of kick the can, and riding bikes, hearing you sing so damn loud on the bus, the fort, you doing the voice of the ghost in hamlet, and eric sandwiches with hillary. those days are the eric i want to remember, and i promise i will. i just want to remember your smile, not the tragic way you left us. you left an imprint on this world, and touched more people in 17 years that some people do in 90. now that's something only you could have done. well i guess i'll put an end to my rambling now...i love you so so so so much eric and i miss you everyday. but i guess you know that!
love, cait
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01:20:51 04/23/04
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Graf.
I only knew you for a short time, but in that time i could see y everyone misses you soo much. Reading these messges, im honestly sittig here crying. You have been missed every second of everyday, by the people who loved you the most. Tomorrow at Lw will be hard bc ill just think back on the day of school when everyone had to come back and face Lw without you. People gatherin in the court yard and talkin about all the memories of you, YOu were loved. And had you known that, maybe you would still be here. Ill be thinking of you all day tomorrow and wishing that you are ok now. Teachers still talk about you and tell stories about how funny you were. I heard a story in film class about you and Mr. Mangun. I was crying i was laughin so hard. You have taught a lot of people to appreciate life and the loved ones around them. At least i know you have taught me that. My prayers go out to your friends and family tomorrow and i hope they are strong and remember the eric that everybody loved. Youll be missed!
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00:35:26 04/23/04
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Well Graf... im gonna start this off just like everyone else... cannot believe it is already a year tomorrow... its true.. ya really cant. It is so incredibly hard to write on here... like Otta says, you dont really know waht to say... everything you try to say just does not seem right or come out the way you want it to i guess? The feelings are unexplainable. Not a day goes by without thinking about you... I sit here and i try to believe its been a year... a whole year and it still just doesnt seem real... and never will. You are too great of a person and loved and missed by SO many that you cant be gone??? I come on this site atleast once a day and just read the thousands of messages that family, best friends, close friends, friends, friends of friends, those who have NEVER even met you...and just read over and over again what everyone has to say. You have touched and impacted SO MANY lives Eric.. in only 17 short years!!! Even those who never even had the privelage of meeting you... It just shows what an AMAZING person you are!!!! The memories that i have and that i will cherish forever and forever dont bring anything but a smile to my face! :) That was you Eric Graf... the boy who could brighten anybodys day nomatter what mood they were in! I know we will never get any of the answers to all the questions that run through our heads, and never understand any of this... but it helps (somewhat?) to know you are now free from pain. I just wish (so much and so bad) that you could have seen what you meant to EVERYONE and how important of a person you truely are! There were so many caring people in your life who you could have turned to!!!! So many Eric... i could not say it enough. But I hope you are enjoying yourself up there buddy... you deserve NOTHING short of the best! It is a blessing itself to have known you and be your friend and share the laughs! The memories will never fade. Keep watching over everyone... its a tough job but you are doing great. An angel forever Graf... miss you and love you ~Jill~To the Graf's~ you are and will continue to be in my thoughts and in my heart forever. God Bless. Thank you Joyce for all you have done. It is greatly appreciated.
Lives are too precious to take away... if any of you ever feel the need to talk or need somebody to listen... just IM one of us... there is always a better way out... and so many people who care for you, whether you believe it or not, it's true.
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00:13:28 04/23/04
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This site is to remember eric and tell about all the good times and memories we have with eric. He was a great person and we will all miss his great personality. I wasnt the best of friends with Eric but i knew him really good. So all i want to say is that these ignorant messages are not wanted or needed and if you have a problem with someone dont argue with them on here. This site isnt for that. I have come to this site a few times this past week to see many disturbing and igonroant messages and that is not what i want to see when i come on here to reflect and think back on Eric. So lets just stop with the ignorant messages. Thank you. RIP ERIC. Love you man.
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23:44:04 04/22/04
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man i can't believe it's been a year feels like this happened just afew days ago.. well since i never know what to write keep doing what u've been doing up there and watching over us all and having a good time i'm sure... take care bro until i c u again..
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20:02:29 04/22/04
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G$,
man this shit is crazy, i truly cant believe its gonna be a year tomorrow. i think about you all the time man and i never come on here to write becuz i never know what to say.i miss you so much,you were a great friend to have and its so hard goin on without u.u were and still are a great person and i wish life had played you better cards becuz u shouldnt be gone,but i love you and i know ur in heaven and at peace.i know this day will bring up bad memories for alot of people but focus on the good times with graf and know that he isnt hurting any more.love u boy,otto
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17:38:04 04/22/04
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Eric~
I can't believe 2morrow will be a year already! There is not a day that doesn't go by that i don't think of you and miss you more and more everyday and wish u were still here! But your in a better place and i hope your doin great up there and make sure u save me a place up there right next to you!! I can't wait till we meet again!! LOVE YOU FOREVER AND MISS YOU TONS!!!
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17:09:18 04/22/04
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Well Graf, it'll be a year tomorrow and there's still not a day that goes by were we don't think about you. You'll always be such special person and every memory I have with you will never be forgotten. It's so weird to think that already a year has past and I can remember everything like yesterday. And although all the hurt and unanswered questions will never go away, just remember that the thought of your smile or any good time with you will always brighten a day. You are still just as big of a part of everyone's lives and you always were, remember that. But that was the scariest thing that's ever happened to me the other night, but I know it had a reason behind it, thank you. It was just so real. Anyways, I know you're taking care buddy.
:o) ... And for you Graf, I did what you told me too and gave Mardi Gras (And New Orleans every other nite) quite the show this year, haha, it's just a shame I don't think I'm stickin' around here next year haha. But I haven't been home since Christmas, but when I get there, I'll be visiting.
You're such a beautiful person Eric. Just keep watching out for us but most importantly your family. Take care. I'm always thinkin' bout you and love you lots! Always an angel and NeVeR forgotten!
Love You!
~AL
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16:08:17 04/22/04
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Still touching people's hearts Eric.. you're amazing..
Name: Fayth Sosa
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23:47:52 04/20/04
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hey eric, i cant believe that it has almost been a year. Somedays it feels like it just happened. i just wanted to write to let you know i am still thinking about you and miss you. i cant believe all the people that keep passing away, it is soooo sad, i feel so bad for their families. Well, i hope that you are happy, which i am sure that you are! I miss you.....just keep watching over everyone.....
Name: Lauren
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16:27:44 04/20/04
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Hi Eric,I've been thinking about you a lot lately.. how can i not? Please take care of your family during this time... Oh and by the way your dogs are insane. Zoe tried eating me alive when i was wearing my furry coat. Oh eric, yesterday was the one year anniversary of the last day we talked.. I hope you heard what I had to say about you yesterday, you really did mean that much to me.. It was nice for me to put all of our past memories into perspective after this last year.. I wish that I could say that it has gotten easier on me, but the truth is, it hasn't, it's just a different feeling. Anyways I just wanted to drop you a line, I know that you realize im on this website daily, I just lately have had a hard time writing anything definitive. I'll spend 40 minutes on a message and then delete it all, because it seems like anything I say is futile. I went through a lot of pictures with your mom a few months ago and we sat in your room.. I was pretty sad when I didnt feel you in there or anything, but then she told me that you hardly stayed in that room so it made me feel a lot better. I love seeing your family as often as I do.. Me and your mom talk pretty regularly.. Please be there for them Eric, do something, anything, I know you can..There are so many wonderful parts of you I see in your parents... Obviously your dad's features and his wittiness, and your mom's warmness and belief in the good in people and especially level-headedness.. I just wish that they could believe as I do and anyone that knows you, that your impulse had nothing to do with them. I don't call it a decision anymore.. Decision would insinuate thought and consideration.. Now knowing all the circumstances surrounding what happened that dreadful day, to me, it was an impulse.. An impulse that got terribly out of control, and one we all know you regret... This is hard for me to say eric but.. I forgive you. I may not have said this before because to be frank I've been pretty mad at you.... Really really mad at you, for putting me and all your friends, and especially your family in this position. But now, i know that holding on to all these feelings is nothing but crappy... We love you Eric, We miss you...... Please look over us as I know you have always done.. please let me have the strength to emotionally hang on these next couple of days.. I'm going to come see you Friday....... Love,
lauren
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15:43:06 04/20/04
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ERIC~
Happy 420!!! I hope your partyin it up, up there!! Have a great one babe!!! Take care of everyone up there!
PEACE
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15:04:00 04/20/04
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hey i didnt know eric.. i know its not like i should have anything to say but i do to you.. listen even if you are a peer helper its not your fault at all that eric did this.. he was keeping his feelings all bundled up inside.. so no one blame yourself for wat happened to eric please.. my friend kevin just got hit by a car and i can say..well if i wuld have IMMED him wen i saw his sn on that day.. or if i wuld have called him to do something.. but its not true.. it would have happened sooner or later.. so please no one blame yourself for what happened.. its not like u let him drink and drive or OD or something.. this was his choice and from what my brother tells me is that he had awesome friends and he was one of them kinda.. so i just really really want you all to know that he's in a better place now.. and maybe his way of coping with this was making people laugh , but obviously he was depressed deep inside.. so things like this make us want to pay more attention to our friends real reactions.. but this is no ones fault so dont blame ur self julie..
much love,
<33 just tryin 2 help
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11:03:07 04/20/04
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Eric,
Hey kid...sorry it's been so long since I have written. I ha ve been thinking about you a lot lately. Saturday will be a year...it's really hard to believe. Sometimes it does seem that long ago and other times it seems like it was still just this week. Prom is on Saturday...what a shitty day to plan something that is supposed to be fun. I am going up to the cemetary on Friday...it's going to be pretty hard. Partially because I haven't been up there in awhile, but mostly because I don't even know what to say anymore. It's like I understand nothing anymore. Ev erything is so warped and I can never make sense of anything. Maybe I just don't want to. If I can't make sense of why this whole thing happened than I don't want to make sense of anything else...because everything else is so damn insignificant. I look back on some of the things that have gotten me so mad and so upset and they are so stupid now...I regret being so mad sometimes...because you're proof that there is no time to waste. Ahh...I hate this...I hate the fact that at this point in time right now...everyone is slowly tearing themselves up inside...it's like we have to relive this nightmare once a year and that's just not fair. This feels like a nightmare...except for the fact that it's real...and I know that...I just don't feel it yet. Sometimes I pretend like you moved away...even though I know that there will be no visits...I guess it helps me feel better (if that's possible). Everyone is away at school right now...and it's hard for everyone to deal with this...let alone when we all don't have eachother to lean on. I wonder what you're doing right now...and what you're thinking...I wonder if there are things you wish you could have changed. Hold my hand through this year mark...it seems to long and will only get longer. Children keep dying Eric...and we can't do anything about it. Everyone is slipping away...I wish I could stop . I wish I could have stopped you. For God's sake...I am a peer helper...they teach me to see signs. They train me to see these things coming and prevent them . What kind of peer helper am I...when I couldn't even see it...not even in you. Looking back there are things that I would have done differently...more things I would have said...more hugs and laughs...but I didn't know...yet that makes no excuse for not telling you more often how great you are. I'm sorry for those things Eric. Life is just a gamble now...I feel like I live in chance. It's a roll of the dice...instead of hoping that we get lucky though...we're praying. I love you Eric...you'll always be my Grafferz!
Love,
Julie
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23:39:36 04/19/04
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Hey Eric. how ya doin? good, I hope.I haven't written in a while, and I just wanted to stop by to tell you that I'm always thinking about you. You were one amazing kid, and you always will be. The way you impacted so many people's lives is undescribable. Hope you're holding up Eric! Love ya & Miss ya xoxo RIP
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15:36:47 04/19/04
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Hey Eric-
I havent written on here in awhile but I come to visit it alot. You are sooo incredibly missed. Its almost been a year and just getting done with my last spring break all i could think about what i found out last year. I did not believe it and i was scared to come back home and find out that something might have happened again. We never really hung out except for when u were in track. Whenever i think of u thats all i can remember, well that and english class second semester. I was going through my journal last night i read all my old entries. I only write in it if i am sad or something awesome happens well, write after i wrote something in there about you i wrote something in there about my dog dieing then bijan dieing and then finding out my cousin was diagnosed with lukemia. You truely did impact my life and i have learned alot from you. For my sociology class I had to write about a thing that was going on in sociology and i wrote about Suicide so i could learn more about it. I was very interested in what i was about to write but when it came down to it i still did not find anymore answers. All there was, were statistics. I miss you so much and i am always thinking of u and i know everyone else is too! We ALL MISS YOU a Ton. Watch over everyone!....R.I.P.
Monica
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