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Eric it has almost been a year, and I still dont understand why you did this. A few days ago Kevin Aleck died, and it just makes me think that this 14 year old boy with everything to live for was taken from his friends and family for no reason. Why did God take him from them, why did it have to happen. But you had the choice Eric. Your life was in your hands. It was your decision. It doesn't make it any easier for your friends and family to deal with; it never will. But most people would fight for their life, they would do anything stay with their loved ones and live their lives to the fullest. I miss you so much, that is why I am so mad. I love you Eric. Take care of Kevin okay, he and his family and friends have been on my mind every second. God Bless you both.
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15:50:22 04/16/04
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hey.. i never really was lucky enough to meet you eric.. but to erics friends.. how did u deal with this horrible tragedy becuase my friend kevin aleck just recently passed on the 12 and i really dont see how i am going to be able to get through this.. i dont understand how God could take a 14 year old guy who never did anything to harm anyone.. he was the nicest kid ever.. its really not fair to all of us.. we were his friends and some of us really needed him.. 14 year olds arent supposed to die.. kevin aleck was a leader in life and everyone around him needed him and relied on him.. he was definantly a true and loyal friend... eric and kevin please help me get through this time and i hope u two are having fun up there...because it really blows down here.. kevin dominique henry aleck.. ur wake and funeral were insane..there were so many kids there buddie.. u already know that though probabally.. well yeah ur family is soo nice kevv... ur mom and her french accent hahaha its so awesome and ur uncle is such a nice guy.. u were really lucky to have such a great family.. don't worry about them, they're doing amazingly well considerering the circumstances and we'll try and make them feel as good as possible.. eric and kevin R.I.P .. u will be missed and NEVER forgotten
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Graf, what's up man? Well it been 51 weeks since you left us man...one more week and it's the one year anniversary. I just wanted to let ya know how much you impacted mine and everyone else's lives. I know we were never real close or anything, just talkin everyday in school and hanging out occationally. But even though we weren't all that close, u still meant a lot to me man. I got the pleasure of gettin to talk about ya a little bit last week in my Ethics class and it made me feel good man. Just lettin some more people know about your amazing life and the things that you did to brighten people's day that you might not even be aware of. Next Friday I know I'm gonna be down a little bit because I won't get to be around any of the people that know what is going on and what that day is. Man, it's just incredible how you did so much for so many people and you had no idea. Dude, next Saturday we celebrate "Last Blast" here at school, it's were everyone just gets together and parties for one last time before we all go home for the summer. Just wanted to ask ya to watch over me and all my friends bro, and make sure we don't do anything too stupid. I know you are still taking care of everyone down here and if you could just send us a message of some sort next Friday man. Let us know yoyu are watchin down on us. Thanks bro!! And thanks from everyone for all of the little things you did to brighten peoeple lives. Take care.
-Jim
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10:04:00 04/15/04
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Hey its joe again i just wanted to tell you to tell kevin how much i love him and watch over him. Both of you will never be missed.
lOVE YOU BOTH
jOE
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Hey its joe again i just wanted to tell you to tell kevin how much i love him and watch over him. Both of you will never be missed.
lOVE YOU BOTH
jOE
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03:38:52 04/15/04
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I just want to say Eric, that I hope you're looking out for you're true friends, because they really love and miss you. I wish that you were still here so that you can be with them and make them feel ok....but you are in a better place now...and I know in my heart that ur looking out for everyone that you loved and still love.....i know you're missed greatly but hopefully you're in a place that siuts you....god bless you baby and may angels lead you in...............
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02:56:38 04/15/04
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For "curious"...Kevin was killed when he was riding his bike to a friends house...he was struck by a car and killed...RIP kevin and Eric
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02:54:18 04/15/04
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Hey eric...Just wondering if you could show Kevin around up there and give him a good time...You both are missed so much...
Name: Hillary Griffin
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01:08:01 04/15/04
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Everyone say a prayer for the friends and family of Kevin Aleck. It was only a year ago that I was going to the funeral of Eric over spring break, now my little brother at the age of 15 will have to go the funeral of his friend. His death is a complete tragedy; may both Eric and Kevin rest in peace. God Bless you all.
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00:58:41 04/15/04
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What happened to Kevin? and may him and Eric rest in peace
Name: Kelly Campbell
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22:26:17 04/14/04
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Eric-A friend of mine has just joined you up there. His name is Kevin. Show him around. :) Take care of him. Both you and him are greatly missed. Wish you were still here.
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Hey im really sorry i know this is erics site.. but eric i know u know by now kevin aleck is up there with u and take good care of him okay? becuase 8th grade is way too young too go.. show him some fun stuff he missed out on down here.. haha kevin i love u and i will miss u soo much u touched my life in soo many ways hunn and ill never forget u.. eric i didnt know u but from wat everyone tells me u were a really good kid and really funny and i really respect that.. kevin was really funny and a real gentlemen.. keep eachother company up there guys i love u bot.. R.I.P<<33 much love kevvy
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15:44:01 04/14/04
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Hey Grafmeister,
It's a beautiful April day...wish you could see it...well I havent been on this site in awhile...one case where out of sight out of mind didnt work because I still find myself thinking about you all the time......So i was reading your messages...just a few and I came across one that was from a 7th grader...wow you've impacted a 7th grader who you didnt even know and never meet you once...so i just wanted to say to this girl...i think its a girl...you said you were having problems in life and that doesnt surprise me. Being 13 is a crucial age in adolescence, but dont give up! Life gets better i promise, you'll laugh agian, you'll smile again and life will get better. Im glad Eric's message in his death impacted you the way it did but also know that there are other people out there willing to help, your too young to worry so much, have fun! have lots of fun because before Eric died we all know he had alot of fun! Take his life as a message more then his death, take all the good he did while he was alive and the people he touched while he could. Theres so much good you just need to find it.
Graf, I miss ya still everyday, continue to watch out for your friends and family, Rest in Peace Eric. Love Kate
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Hey Eric -
I haven't written in a long time, and I apoligize for that. Sometimes I feel like I'm not exactly sure what to say or how to say it. I hope everything is good, and people miss you like crazy down here. I have a picture of you hanging up in my dorm room and I always bring back the memories by looking at it. The school year is almost over...(12 more school days!) and then it is back to frankfort (yuck ha). There is this guy on campus who reminds me of you and I always have to have a double take. I keep your family and friends in my prayers constantly. I was also writing to see if you can help out with Kevin and his friends. Please watch over everyone right now. Life is so unfair and your presence is needed. God works in mysterious ways, but sometimes people begin to become frustrated.....my sister and her friends need to make it through this and I need the courage to get them there. It is so hard when they are only fourteen. Yet, their group of friends have the most incredible bond ever...it reminds me a lot of everybody from back home. If you could just watch over everybody please...I love you....always thinkin about you
Love, Krystin
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01:25:15 04/14/04
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Hey Eric~ well its taken me almost a year since your death to write to you. I prayed a lot after this happened hopin that god would look after you and your family. A few months before your death i had been havin a lot of trouble dealin with my problems but i eventually got professional help and wit the help from my mom and dad i got through it. I wish you would have looked towards a friend or even any of your family members. I just recelty met two of ur aunts and i know they would have been willing to do anything for you. I never really got to know you but i know when i did see you around you always looked like you were havin the best time of your life. I hope all is well up there and hopefully ur lookin out for Kevin. Rest In Peace.
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22:36:37 04/13/04
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hey i no that this is eric's site but kevin we will all miss u eric take care of him he's a good kid u both will nevr b forgotten
love u kevin henry alecklove me
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20:02:07 04/13/04
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Show kevin a good time up there....and watch overhim and his family. He's a good kid!...and sorry i know this is erics site
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19:31:08 04/13/04
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~Eric~
In only 18 years you've touched so many people's lives. You've touched those who were close to you, those who were'nt close to you, people who didn't even know you, people who don't even go to Lincoln-Way East, people from out of the state, people who are younger than you, and people who are younger than you. Even though you are not here, you still touch people's lives. That takes an amazing person to do that. I'm positive that for a long time more, whoever "comes across this site" or whoever hears wonderful stories about you from loved ones will also be touched by your incredible life. In my eyes, you are a hero. Thank you for allowing me to see the good in everything. Rest In Peace Eric...
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18:30:34 04/13/04
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God Bless Kevin and the whole Aleck family. I know that Eric will make him laugh as much as he did all of us. Everything happens for a reason, but it is true, only the good die young. God Bless you all.
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Eric, we all miss you so much. You'll never be forgotten.
Kevin Aleck is up there with you now, as you know, take care of him... He's only 14
RIP Graf
Name: Luke
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17:56:07 04/10/04
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Hey G! How you been bro? I'm kickin it like normal! Man there is no way that we have all gone a year without G-Money! I still think about you every day man. One of the girls I'm friends with here in Arizona came to this site after looking at my profile or something and she was just in awe of all the people who you touched. Thats the thing man, its been almost a year and there is not a single one of us who doesn't think about you daily. I'm sad that I'm not gonna be home to see you on the 23rd but you know I'm comin to see ur grave on your B-Day punk! Well I just wanted to say what up and let you know that the boys are all alright and as crazy as ever! We miss and love you Graf! Keep heaven poppin for us!!
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03:37:41 04/10/04
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hey kid...i just wanted to let you know i'm thinkin about you...it's comin up on a year now and i can't even believe it's been that long. it still hurts so bad. for all of us. i'll never understand why you did what you did, but i guess that's something we all have to jsut accept. i guess it just still blows my mind that you're gone. i know it's ridiculous but i still feel like one day you're just gonna show up like nothing has changed. but everything has changed. it all changed the day you left us. all of us became more aware, more saddened, we felt emotions we hoped we would never feel. er you touched every person you ever met. with your smile, your laugh. you brightened so many days...i just wish more than ANYTHING in this world that you would have realized that. or realized how much you were loved. realized how many people would have done anything for you kid, and believe me that's a long list...a long list of people who miss you so much everyday, who think about you everyday wishing you were here. there's days when i think about you and can remember all the days we had together, growin up with you dave joe drew matt hill and the rest of that gang. those nights of kick the can when everything was easy. but now it's just too hard. to think about those days and smile. because i want to laugh about them with you. not write about them on a website in your memory. i wish you were here...more than anything in the whole world eric. i wish you would have been able to see that year ago...it makes me sick to think about the pain that you were in, i just wish we could have known...and i wish that we could have taken in away. i wish we could have told you just one more time how much we loved you, and how much we needed you here with us. there isn't anything i wouldn't give to see you again, there isn't anything anyone wouldn't do to see you again. i don't want to wait to see you, but i know i have to. but knowing that one day we will all see you again will have to be good enough for now. all we have are the memories you left us with, and those are the moments we cherish. i miss you so much kid, and i think about you EVERY day...we all do. i just pray to God that you got what you wanted...peace and happiness. i love you eric and i miss you so much...
love forever and ever,
cait
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21:35:59 04/09/04
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hey cuz. its sarah. i havnt been on this site in awhile but i was thinking of you so i thought id look at that beautiful picture of on the top of this site. we miss ya er. its so unbelievable. i hope you can look over your brother for me? i think i speak for everyone. he's such a different person now and i think ive seen him 2 times in the past like year. its so weird. another thing ive been thinking about is ure mustang. its such a beautiful car and its just sitting in your dads garage. i know that your parents arn't going to ever take it out. thats ok though because its something to remember you by. well all for now. help our family through their pain Er...
Love always
Sarah
Name: julie schroeder
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16:20:25 04/08/04
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graf~
wow...i cant believe that it's been almost a year since you've been with us! i can still remember perfectly your amazing smile! you lit up a room when you walked in graf! a lot has changed this past year...some of us went away to school, some people started working right away. its crazy to go home and see everyone. everyone has changed SOO much...some for the better and some for the worse! everytime i go home memories flash before my face like it was yesturday that we were all at bookhouts. i thank god that i saw you that nite. if only we knew what was going through your head...and what you were going to do to yourself the next nite! eric, i dont even know how many times we called you that day. we sat on my deck for hours that day trying to call you. then that nite when i had people over...we all must have tried calling you a million times. i hate that you didnt show up that nite graf! ill never forget the pain i saw in your familys and all of our friends faces. you were deffinelty a one of a kind person...that none of us will ever forget. just never stop looking over your family graf...over the past year we've grown close to your parents. i can see you in both of them...now i know how you turned out to be such an amazing person! i love going over to your house and just talking with your parents...hearing their stories, and us telling them ours!! we laugh soo hard...i love it! well, i love you and i miss you sooo much!! keep lookin out for everyone...some people really need it!!! cant wait till the day i can see you again!! much love graf!!!!!!!
love, jules
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15:33:49 04/08/04
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He got outta town.
Now he’s heaven bound Well some things in this world you just can't change
Some things you can't see until it gets too late ***CHORUS***
And baby, baby, baby, baby when all your love is gone
who will save me, from all i'm up against out in this world
And maybe, maybe , maybe, maybe you'll find something that's enough to keep you
but if the bright lights dont receive you
you should turn yourself around and come on home.
**************** I've got a hole in me now.
Hey I've got a scar I can talk about.
I keeps a picture of you
In her apartment in the city
Some things in this world man they dont make sense
Some things you don't need until they leave you ***CHORUS*** Let God take you in
Let heaven spit you out
Let the angels turn you around
For god sakes come back down.
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16:09:29 04/07/04
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well its been about 4 years since the last time i talked to you.... i remember lincoln way because of a few people and you have always been one of them. i dont know anyone else who has made me laugh as hard as you did. i remember sitting in math class and you were trying to figure out if a pretzle was a cracker or a chip.... you said "pretzles, not quite a chip... not quite a cracker". i laughed for about 5 minutes and then you kept repeating it because you knew it made me laugh... its weird how long ago that was... i didnt see you much after lincoln way but freshman year we were close as hell.... i dont even know how i found this website... i guess thats what we call fate... thank you for making me laugh so often... i was so shy my freshman year, you made me feel comfortable... that was really cool of you to do.... i probably never told u that but i loved going to that class because you were in it.... just thought i would finally let you know
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13:14:55 04/07/04
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Hey Graf....I know it has been a while since I have been on here but it is really hard for me to get on and do this. Especially now since your year anniversary is approaching. I can't believe it's almost been a year since I have talked to you, heard your laugh or have seen your smile. I miss you so much, as many times as the memories make me laugh, they make me cry cause even though there are soo many I have there should be soo much more. Your face shouldnt be a memory in our minds, you should be here! If I knew that night at bookhouts would have been the last time I would have seen you, there would have been so many things I would have told you. I know there are soo many things everyone would have told you if we only knew what was going through your mind that would have made you change your decision. I wish you would have called me that night and told me why you were upsett instead of just telling me you would see me tomorrow because you just werent in the mood to talk about it. I never had a chance to see you the next day because you left us all. We all waited for you that night at Julies wondering why you werent there or why you werent answering your phone. If there was anything I could have done I would have done it. Any of us would have. I wish you knew that. The pain and regret that I felt when I found out you were gone will never fade away. The pain and the hurt that I saw in your family's and all our friends eyes will never leave my mind. Most of all the loss of such a good friend I will never ever be able to get over. Your family is amazing Graf being able to become as close with them as I have over the past year is truely a blessing. It breaks my heart to see them go through the pain they go through with out you there. Now I know why you were such a good hearted loving person, you got it from them. Please watch over them and help them through this. I wish we could have gone to prom together like we were supposed to and I wish you could have graduated with all of us, more than anything I just wish you were here right now with everyone. I love you so much and I hope your happy now that you are in a better place. Not a day will go by were I wont think I you!
Love
Bridget
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09:27:51 04/07/04
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Eric,there r know words to say how much u r missed. why are u gone. what happened to make you hurt so bad. i know things pretty much always suck at one time or another but now you gone its ten time worse. i wish you could come back.
Name: Galvan
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23:48:22 04/04/04
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Hey! I miss ya buddy..Still wondering why? Your in a better place... Love ya :)
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23:22:12 04/01/04
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I would just like to say, "wow". This page is very touching and I have never seen anything like it. I didn't know Eric, but from everything that has been written about him, he seems like the kind of kid that everybody loved and wanted to be friends with. May you Rest In Peace, Eric, and may all your loved ones, friends and family find peace within themselves.
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17:33:37 04/01/04
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I have never met Eric. In fact, I didn't even know who he was until I saw this website. Reading all of these messages has truly touched my heart. I feel like I knew Eric... it's amazing. All of the wonderful messages that the people who care about Eric left has made a huge impact on my life. I guess that Eric WAS truly a contagous person. All of you that knew Eric are so lucky to have known such a wonderful soul. Thank all of you for sharring your memories with everyone, and thank you, Eric, for making me realize that the little things matter.God bless your soul, rest in peace. <3
Name: AUNT NANCY
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10:56:17 04/01/04
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OH, ERIC, MY HEART IS STILL SO BROKEN. WE ALL MISS YOU SO MUCH. WHEN I LOOK AT YOUR SMILING FACE IN PICTURES I JUST AM AT A LOSS FOR WORDS. I THINK OF ALL THE "IF ONLY" PHRASES I HAVE SAID TO MYSELF THE PAST YEAR. YOUR MOM AND DAD AND DAVID ARE SO LOST WITHOUT YOU.THE LIGHT IS JUST GONE FROM THIER EYES. I WISH YOU WOULD HAVE REALIZED ALL THE IMPACT YOU HAD IN SO MANY LIVES. ERIC,I MAY NOT HAVE TOLD YOU ENOUGH, BUT I LOVE YOU. WE ALL DO.
I AM SORRY THINGS DIDNT WORK OUT WITH YOU BUYING MY MUSTANG. I REALLY WANTED YOU TO HAVE IT.
YOU IN OUR HEARTS AND MINDS FOREVER
Name: Erin
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00:31:54 04/01/04
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Eric-
I just told the infamous "Prom Night" story. Damn, that seems like it happened ages ago. Anyway, that got me to thinking about how great you are. I mean, come on, I was about to knock heads when Chad and I had to run after our limo. But getting in there and sitting across from you was the best thing that could have happened. Too bad your ears were a mere 1/4 of inch away from the speakers! ; ) Its ok though, we all had some laughs. I don't know what LWE would have been without you always making everyone laugh. You truly are a beautiful person. I just wanted to let you know you brightened up my boring night in Iowa....Take care : )<3 Erin
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19:57:11 03/31/04
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what up graf? not too much is going on down here at eastern. i was just reading some messages from some of our closer friends' messages and it brings tears in my eyes. I had to write again. I remember all the crazy things our group of friends did together like drinkin as soon as we woke up, frofin, bake routes, and many more. i miss you and your crazy red hair. i hope your doing just fine up there G money. I dont think i never got to tell you thank you for helping me with my shit box prelude. It ran just about until the end of the summer haha. well man i dont know what else to say except hope your livin it up, be careful and man we miss you
peace bro,
D
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01:45:05 03/31/04
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To Eric's friends and family: so many of you have said that you wished you could have been there for him. You were, you are. Keeping Eric in your thoughts is being there for him now. We cannot change the past. Eric felt that he needed to do this. I don't know the reasons for all this happening, but i just wanted to try to somewhat comfort those who are hurting. You are there for Eric now....He's smiling up in heaven.
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20:39:22 03/30/04
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Well, in the end my friend, we will all be together again
Clutching onto my hand, in a valley we'll stand, just living again
And in a while we'll smile, march on another mile
On hallowed hills, attached to the land we'll be still
No one's ever gonna say a thing
And we'll be together, together again
Taking off to the city on down
Just a while ago my soul was confused, amused at what it did not know
Days went by, and amusement cried, I decide to let
My soul fly on by itself, pick happiness up and bring it back to the shelf
We'll be okay one day, in a valley we will stay
No more moving on
I knew it was right here all along
Won't have to hold your crown, no more looking around
Just holding you tight in the city on down
Just a while ago my soul was confused, amused at what it did not know
But days went by and amusement cried
I decide it's time, I got to move on now
But I was so scared
I was frightened, somewhat enlightened
So I changed shoes
Now I walk through a valley of color much better than the other
Way I did not know, but now we can be united
Miracle, miracle sighted, and I'm pulling it in
I know by now we can all walk together at a regular speed
Do you dare to be excited, are you somewhat delighted?
Are you aware somewhat delighted?
At what you did not know
Let's take it to the city on downO.A.R.-city on down
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11:18:38 03/30/04
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I miss you so much Eric. You're as free as a bird now! We love you!
May angels lead you in.
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02:50:05 03/30/04
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Eric-
I come to this site pretty often, although i didn't really know you. You were in my chemistry class (good ol' ms K! haha), we never really talked but i find the time to read all of the messages on here. A part of me envies you because you had the strength to do what i couldn't. Instead i ended up a broken college student with a hurtful memory of being in the hospital. College is such an interesting experience, it changes so many people. Most of the time i'm jealous that you don't have to go through these hard times. But i supposed for most people it's the best times of their lives. I guess what i'm trying to get at is that part of me comes to this site, almost living through you. Wondering if i had done the same if i would have all these wonderful caring people thinking about me all the time. Although it seems like the wrong thing to say, but..you're lucky. The friends you have (not had, because you are always going to be a part of their lives) are great. And they are lucky to have you looking out for them everyday. To everyone: you are never alone, Eric is looking after you from above! See you when i get there, Eric (who knows maybe we can talk and get to know each other or just talk about the fun chemistry days, if you aren't too busy)
To all Eric's loved ones: Always know that you never lost the whole Eric, only his body. His spirit is with you everyday.
Name: Rich Kovacs
E-Mail: rlkovacs@eiu.edu
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02:38:56 03/30/04
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Whats up yo?....Man o man where has time gone. Its been almost a year and its still so hard to believe that im never gonna see you until i get to heaven. Can you believe that the first year of college is almost in the books and its time for me to really make some decisions. I am leaning towards coming home next year and working and possibly goin to jjc...dunno yet...i cant stand being away from my family and friends at home...and that is mostly because of after losing you it made me realize how much i appreciated my friends and family and how they could be here one day and gone the next. Your death brought such a large group of friends so much closer together which makes it so much harder to be away from them. You have helped me realize to not take life for granted yet im still mad at the fact of what u did to yourself. I still till this day and probably for the rest of my life think of why things happened like they did and why I or someone else wasnt there to stop you. I guess all things happen for a reason i just wish it wouldnt have happened to such a great person. I was home a couple weeks ago for spring break and it was crazy how much things have changed.There is a damn bank on every corner and new restraunts poppin up everywhere. If you were still here we would have had plenty of stuff to do like Mokena built a Frolfin course aint that some crazy shit. I didnt get to play a round though cuz im a workaholic as you would know but im plannin on it Easter weekend along with stoppin by to see you're grave. I havent been there since the day of your funeral and I think its finally time for me to face that again...And yes you will probably see me cry like a baby but what can i say...I miss you like crazy and wish you were here to chill and party and just be able to hear your jokes. Well man i better get to bed..Please continue to watch over us all and especially your family.....
Love and miss you,
Cofax
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23:30:27 03/29/04
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Hey Eric,I haven't written here in a while but I do stop by almost every day to read the messages about how much everybody loves you and misses you.. I just wanted to say the same thing! I know after sophomore year & English with Hesser and Math with Creech, we didn't really talk much except in the halls..but you were a great person. You were loved by everybody and everybody knew you. Hope you're having a good time and living it up there! Take care of yourself as well as everybody down here... XoXo
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15:46:18 03/29/04
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Graf-Hey babe.. How's it going up there? Hopefully your doing ok. I still think about you everyday Graf. It's crazy, everything reminds me of you. Frisbee Golf season is starting again and I know its going to be the saddest feeling to see your frisbee nailed to that tree. I can't believe its almost been a year! It feels like forever, though. I still remember the day of your funeral, watching the tears run down everyone's faces. It was like everyone lost a huge part of them, and It wouldn't ever be the same.. and it won't.. you'll live on in our hearts forever. "Until the day we meet again-in our hearts is where we'll keep you friend" I'll be missing you babe
~Shan
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13:25:52 03/29/04
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Graf,
I have not written on this website in a while. I come here a lot though, to read all the messages that everybody still writes you. All though I wasn’t one of your closest friends, I still think about you a lot and of course miss you. You were an amazing person, Graf. You touched so many people, it is still hard to believe that you are gone. God bless Eric’s family and all of his friends.~PeeWee
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21:06:03 03/28/04
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God Bless you all.
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20:54:43 03/28/04
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I've been reading this website since the day Eric has left us. And not ever having the chance to meet him, I'm just finding the courage to write in here. I've learned alot about Eric the past 11 months, reading all of the messages his friends have left him. It almost feels like I've gotten to know him very well- as a person and as a friend, and I am now just realizing that, in this lifetime, I will never be able to meet him, or even see him. Being in 7th grade, its pretty hard for most of us to understand death (especially Suicide) but I've been having a hard time for the past few years keeping up with life. I just wanted to thank everyone that has posted something in here that has let me get a chance to understand alittle of what Graf was like. Because... I learned so much from this and it has helped me carry on knowing that, a little part of Eric may be looking over me right now.I'm so sorry for your loss..
And once again- Thank you.
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17:30:40 03/26/04
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I am writing is response to the person who wrote about Erics friends not caring. I am not mad at Eric, but he did make a stupid decision. And yes it was also very selfish, but that doesnt mean that I dont love Eric or that I was calling him stupid. People who were not a part of Erics life and the aftermath of his death, do not know what his friends went through. It is a lot different being an outsider looking in. Mine and Erics friends are a an extremely strong group of people who have had to deal with something I would not wish on anyone. We were there for Eric no matter what, so dont twist words, or misinterperate what I said. And dont judge my friends the way you are, you have no idea what we have gone through. Feel free to talk to me anytime if you have any other rude remarks. This is not a website for stupid comments by ignorant uninformed individuals.
Hill
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03:44:29 03/26/04
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eric, i found a picture of us from sophomore year chem class. i didn't know i had it til i was flippin through an old photo album the other day up in my dorm room. yeah, college... you woulda loved it. i cry for you everytime i try to understand the pain you were feeling. i cry, indescribably sad that you had the strength to go through with it. and i cry, happy that i never did. everyone has rough times no matter who they are or what their background is. i've had more than my fair share of bad times, but not matter how bad it got, i thank God that i was always too weak to follow through with it. so i guess that's what makes your situation hard for me. i can't even describe how bad it got for me a few times in the past. looking back, i don't see why i never went through with it, that's how bad (i thought) it was. but i know that somewhere deep down there was something keeping me going. whether it was my faith, my friends, a cute guy that i liked, the shoes i just bought and never had a chance to wear, whatever it was, SOMETHING kept me here. i'm sorry that you felt that you didn't have that. this is the one thing that keeps me from understanding what you did. the one thing that will forever make me uneasy about your death. i wish you would've been able to grab hold of just that one thing that could've kept you here with us...
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15:38:55 03/25/04
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And when I got home and my mom told me the worst news I have ever heard, I collapsed and all I could think about was how guilty i felt. I said to caitlin that i felt so bad that at the exact moment that you died we were sitting in a hot tub in arizona, not able to help you or do anything. We should have been there for you. But, I guess caitlin is the only person I could be with during a time like that. It's finally getting warmer in Charleston, and I just think about how you have missed so much in the last year. You never got to go to prom with bridge, you never got to walk down that aisle for graduation with me and Jenny. I have a picture from 8th grade graduation and it is of you me and Nick walking and nick was first then me and then you, and I was laughing at something the two of you were saying. And I recently got a picture from LW graduation and me and Nick were walking together arm in arm, and it was just not right not having you in that picture. Sometimes I just want to pull my hair out thinking about how mad I am at you. What a stupid decision Eric. I would do ANYTHING to have you back, anything. Your family doesn't deserve this, we dont deserve this. My heart hurts all the time. I hear people say "i would kill myself" just joking around and I yell at them. It's not a joke! Everyones life is so precious, no matter how unimportant you feel there is always someone in this world that needs you. I have never been through something so tramatizing in my life, it has changed who I am, how I think, and how I treat people. I love you Eric, I have since we were 4, and I always will. I feel safe knowing that when the day comes when I leave this world, you will be there waiting for me with your smile and open arms. I just want to talk to you, to laugh with you. A 17 year old with everything ahead of them is not supposed to die in such a tragic unnecessary way. You have impacted so many people, not because you died, but because you lived. Only the good die young, God bless you forever.
Hill
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15:24:46 03/25/04
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Hey Er~It is hard to believe that the year anniversary is coming up. I just think of me and Caitlin last year on our way home from spring break, and I was sitting on the plane and i was so uneasy and I just said to Cait, something is weird.
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14:45:33 03/25/04
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Hey eric~
It has been a while since i have posted anything on here but i am always thinking oabout you. I know we werent real close but it still hurts. Everytime i open my yearbook i always seem to open up to that page that u are on. The one where the caption is talking about changing your name. its so weird. EVERYTIME i open the book i open to that page. I am taking a sociology class in college and for my research paper I am doing it on Suicide. It is kind of interesting to see all the statistics about it. Everytime i try to write it, i always think of you. I know we weren't close friends but u did make an impact in my life and it was truely and honor to have known you. Someone once told me that everything happened for a reason, so why did this happen? we will never know the answer but it is true it did happen for a reason and maybe it was the plan God intended for you. we ALL love u and miss you Grafferz. keep it real and continue to watch over us! "freshman"
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09:15:39 03/25/04
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hey kiddo every hour every minute and every second you are on my mind
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23:53:22 03/24/04
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Hey Er~ what's up babe? It's been awhile since I've been on here, but not a day goes by when I'm not thinking about you. Actually I've been thinking about you a lot. We weren't that close in HS but close enough where you have made an impact on my life. It's been awhile since you've left us, but it seems like just a few days ago bc it doesn't get any easier. I come on your site almost everyday and read what our other friends write and it puts tears in my eyes everytime. Although most of us will be done w/ our first year of college, I sometimes wish that we never left eachother bc we all had such a close bond. I can't even explain it, but you know what I"m talking about. I miss ya tons Eric, keep watching over all of us. I love you with all my heart.To the person who is talking about committing suicide...I know you've heard/read all the messages that people are telling you...but I can't stress enough that suicide isn't the answer. Before you continue thinking about it stop and think about all those people who love you and think the world of you. It breaks my heart and i start to cry just thinking someone else is thinking of committing suicide. Losing one of my friends was the hardest thing I've had to deal w/ in my life. There's ALWAYS someone there for you to talk to you....go to that person.
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01:10:01 03/24/04
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May God keep your family and friends in his prayers, and give you eternal happiness in heaven. Rest in Peace.
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00:14:55 03/24/04
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well graf its been a lil while since i wrote you but i thought i'd holla. A lot of weird stuff has been happnin lately like almost gettin arrested in mexico and at home within the last week. But both times i asked for your help and amazingly got out of it. im sure you had a few laughs about us last week i just wish you coulda of been there. It seems like yesterday we were hangin out in school or doin other bs and thats why i cant beleive it's really been this long. I hope ur livin it up and watch over everyone i think youve been doin a good job, you even got foote to come home ha. Much love.
and to the person talkin about suicide, think about what ur doin. i've lost two of my best freinds to it and each time i realized how much more i need to live my life. I suggest you try your hardest to do the same.
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20:31:30 03/23/04
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Hi Graffy! Whats up? Sorry I havent wrote in a while i have been busy with school and stuff, but there is not a minute i dont think about you! i miss you so much and wish I could just see you again! Well I just wanted to stop and say HI! and we all still miss you like crazy! Watch over everyone.....some need it more then others.....please make sure no one gets hurt! Love you! BYEEE GRAFFY! ~JennyJ
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19:11:41 03/21/04
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You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine,
You make me happy, when times are grey,
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please dont take my sunshine away.
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18:30:32 03/21/04
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HEY ERIC....i didnt no u at all.....but i no ppl who did...they all had great things to say about u!....we all prey for u each and every day.....well promise us this...promise ull watch over us and make sure we live clean and healthy lives....u made a big impact on EVERYBODY'S life.....people said u were one of the funniest people they have ever known....we all miss u ALOT!!!!!!.R.I.P. ERIC
L8ER MAN
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10:51:47 03/18/04
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hey man, still missing you, my 20th b-day is coming up soon.....U remember my 16th b-day and we were at academy antics, i've seen that tape a few times of us dancing and whatnot being goofs, hella fun good times. U know brandon's in iraq right now and everything, just wishing you could watch over him for all of us and take care of him so he can come home safely. Brandon misses you a ton and he regrets not being there for you if u needed something. I still think about you many times a week, sooo many times i think about you. Well i know you're giving everybody a good time up there, just dont change for when i come.
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14:45:49 03/17/04
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Er-
I was just looking through my yearbook and you came up so many times. It is still so unrealistic to me that this all happened. You are truly missed... everyday! I only wish that someone could have helped you. You are such a wonderful person Er! Hope everything is going well...:) Thank you SO much for watching over us all, we appreciate it! Please watch over Katy for me...she needs your support!
Thanks Eric, miss you each and every day!
Love u,
Kara
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22:50:37 03/16/04
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Hey Eric. Just wanted to let you know Im still thinking about you a lot, and still miss you a lot.
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00:21:11 03/16/04
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Hey Graf- I miss ya. Wish you were here. I can't beleive its almost a year since you past, its so weird. I love ya and so does everyone else- never forget that. Whoever is talking about suicide- you can get help call anyone- It might be hard but dont be embarrased it'll help.
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00:10:27 03/16/04
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Whoever is talking about suicide its not funny dont joke about things like that and if u r serious contact someone because we dont wanna lose another...God loves you
Name: Julie
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09:52:43 03/13/04
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Hey Eric!
What's up buddy? I haven't written in a really long time...just stopping in to catch up on things. Well school sucks...but it's only for two more months...and then I'm off to University of Arizona! Thank you for helping me with that decision...and I know that it's the right one. So thanks! Well everyone is starting to come home for spring break...and it's weird...because everything is so different. Everyone has changed, and this spring break won't have the same ending. God Eric I wish you could just hit the rewind button....and start this damn thing over...and just re-do this part. I hate it...it's a movie that won't end...it's a song that still plays...it's tears that don't stop. I have to stop this though...I have to stop doing this. One day everything will be ok again...and everyone will get to say everything they want...and hug you as much as they want. I find some peace in that. To whoever is speaking of comitting suicide...I ask you why? Do you not read the other messages on this site? Do you not see the pain that everyone is still going through? Do you not see the e-mail addresses and screennames that are calling your name? Or do you not care? I don't know which one is worse...but we do care. It's obvious...day or night...every single person on this site is here for you...don't make a mistake that you can't take back...there are no erasers in life...and you don't get a do-over. Don't think about how much this is affecting you...before you do that...think about how much this will affect your family and friends. No matter how much you think that no one loves you...someone does! You have an angel watching over you right now...this second...because Eric is watching over all of us...we can't afford to gain any more angels...
Love and miss you Grafferz!
Love,
Julie
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01:01:54 03/12/04
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Hey er-
I haven't written in a while and I just wanted to say hi. It's been 10 months and the picture of us from social is still right next to my bed, along with others I have lost. I think about you a lot here. Everytime I go to Gully's they always play the song "only the good die young" and every time I start to cry, but one day I really listened to it and a little smile came across my face cause I realized that I can listen to that song in your honor, sort of a tribute to a great friend that did die young. So anyways, I'm sure you heard that I'm goin' to Cali for the summer. I can't wait. I'm gonna miss ya out there though. We would've had such a good time. I'll be sure to catch a wave for ya. You better make sure my ass doesn't bite it though haha. Well, I gotta go. U of I really keeps me busy. Love ya kid. Always know that you are a legend, not b/c of what happened to you, but b/c of how you lived your life when you were still with us...b/c of the lives that you touched...and b/c you truly will be remembered...forever.
Love forever and always, Jesse
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01:27:55 03/07/04
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hey buddy-i've been thinking about you a lot the last couple of days. being home is weird after being away, but everything reminds me of you...going by vandenberg every time i go home brings the two worst days of my life back, driving through downtown frankfort, the good 'ol days growin up there haha. today i drove by culver's and i just thought of how many nights were spent there and how we all went there the day of your funeral. i can't believe it's been over 10 months...it's weird because part of me feels like it was yesterday and part feels like it was so long ago. and there is still the part that can't quite seem to grasp the concept of never seeing you again...i'm gonna come visit you this week, which is always hard...i miss you everday eric, and i'm thinking of you always. i love you kid. -cait
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17:27:20 03/05/04
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i would just like to say that whoever the person is that keeps talking about killing themselves and counting down the days please don't. Reach out to someone, u can contact me anytime, i don't even know who you are but people do care about you and don't you see by Eric's death what it would do to your friends and family?? people do care about you, life throws us some pretty complicated things in life but God does not throw us anything he doesn't think we can't handle, what doesn't kill u only makes u stronger..........please feel free to email me or im me if u ever want to talk
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11:15:20 03/05/04
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Hey eric...
Just stopping in to say hi.. I'm on spring break right now, but as im sure you know it's totally lame because no one else is home but me lol.. Oh well! Anyways two days ago was my baby brother's birthday.. I really hope that in heaven we are all interconnected some way.. Like I really hope that for some reason you are there with him. He would be 13 this year, and I know you would give Nick a great bday party. It's my hope that God's seemingly screwed up plan makes sense up there, b/c down here it doesn't. When I get to heaven, I hope that when I get there the feeling of peace comes because what i see just makes sense. Life on earth is very confusing and complicated I'm finding. I thought when I was younger there were cut and dry answers to everything.. As i've found, there aren't. I've learned that in many things there are either many different answers, or those answers are mixed, or maybe there is no answer at all.. I know there is a great mystery in life, and if what I hope is true, you know the answer to the greatest mystery of all, and are at peace. We love you and miss you down here.. Sorry if i didnt make sense about making sense lol....:) I've been known to ramble in my day;)... MISS YOU!
Lauren
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16:08:26 03/04/04
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Another friend took his life this past week...Pat Tucker...Take care of eachother guys!
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01:56:00 03/03/04
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Hey Er~I just wanted to say how much I miss you and need you back in my life! Everything is so confusing, and trying to think how God could take you away from us is the worst thing ever. I keep reading everyones messages everyday, and there is one person who keeps writing messages about how they are going to see you in April and whatnot. I just wanted to say to that person, life is a gift, how could you do that to your family and friends? I dont understand how someone could ever plan and make a conscious decision to take their own life. Even if you dont have anyone in the world to talk to, you have to keep going for yourself. I know it is cheesy, but I am online 24/7 and if anyone ever needs to talk about anything, whether it is regarding Eric or not, I am here. I think about Eric every second, and I could talk about him till I was blue in the face, so I am more than willing. It is important that we keep Eric alive through our memories. Every night before I go to bed I try and think of all the things that we have done together, just so I dont forget anything. I am so sorry to everyone who has been effected by Erics death. It is the hardest thing in the world. I love you all, and I miss you all! God bless you!
Hill
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23:05:50 03/02/04
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Hey Eric. I just wanted to stop by and say hi. Just been thinking about a lot of stuff...an old friend of mine named Pat died the other night, he committed suicide also... so that has been bringin things up thinking about you and of course my dad. Well, I hope you are doing well up there and having fun! Miss ya. P.S.
Tell My daddy and Pat I said hello! Jess
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09:05:46 03/02/04
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Eric,See u in april. i miss u soo much that i need to be with u. cant wait. luv you.
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02:17:54 03/02/04
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Hey,
I don't really know why i am writing in here.. i definately was thinking about you tonight though even though we hardly knew each other.. i guess thats just the effect you have. I do have to say that i miss having you around, even though we are all separated I imagine what it would be like. I think about all the stuff we used to do in high school ( i cant believe i just said that) and i just miss every little bit of it, even though i wouldnt go back, i just miss it. I miss feeling normal, miss being happy, miss my friends the ones that are still around at least, i miss the ones that arent around. And i dont even know why i write these things? maybe its just a venting kind of way ya know. Graf i just want you to know that i hope you found peace, where ever you were looking for it. Sometimes i think maybe it would be better not to be here, but i just dont know really what to think. I know your watching over though... which is good cuz we need some more angels like you.. miss you and see you someday
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12:40:06 03/01/04
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Heyy eric. i just wanted to let you know that i saw your parents yesterday at grandpa's bday party, your mom is doing much better, watch over them.
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20:45:49 02/28/04
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Eric just wanted to say how much i miss you and our talks they relly helped a lot. last night i had a dream and it was like you were there talking to me helping me with everything again i relly miss you god bless and may you rest in peace. till i see you again
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10:46:07 02/25/04
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eric,i believe i will see you in approximatly 2 months, can't wait. love ya.
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