Name: Billy Beechy
E-Mail: TyroneShoolaces@aol.com
AIM: TyroneShoolaces
22:24:16 02/23/04
Comments:
wuts up graf? been missing you alot lately. me and ron were gonna come see you friday nite, but it started snowing and got real slick out. next time i'm in from school, we're coming to see you. you've been on my mind alot lately. i was just driving last weekend and i started thinking of you, haha i can still remember you goofy laugh. i love you so much man, take care of us all will ya? help us through the rest of the school year, its gettin tough! love ya bro latro-
billy
Name: Just Another Friend
E-Mail:
AIM:
20:32:58 02/23/04
Comments:
Hey Eric. I just thought that you should know how you touched me. We were in the same math class last yr. Math, blah, it's horrible in itself, but I always wanted to go to that class cause you were in it. You were such a riot. We didn't talk much, but I know I could count on you for a good laugh. I remember when Murph was askin' where everyone was goin' next year. Everyone said a college n' a career, but ya know.. none of them will be half as happy as you would have been down in Cali surfin' it up. I really wish that you were still with all ur friends, but wishin' ain't gonna get me ne where. Now's the time where I should say to look down on ur friends n' family, but you already are doing that. Thank you for the memories :)
Name:
E-Mail:
AIM:
16:31:47 02/23/04
Comments:
Eric,I'm counting down the days until I will be back with you.
Name: To Eric
E-Mail:
AIM:
00:51:52 02/23/04
Comments:
Eric,
I think about this time last year, if I had heard you speak of something or say something that would have triggered me to think that you were in such pain....dear god I would have helped. We all knew you were a fun loving goof, a clown, you worried about everyone else but yourself. It tears my heart out that I can't go back....just one year.
I know now that you didn't want to die.....you just wanted the pain to stop.
I love you
Name: To Allison and everyone else who didn't know Eric
E-Mail:
AIM:
11:05:16 02/19/04
Comments:
I realize that you read this site to get to know Eric, or for whatever reason. And you see some messages from people about Eric drinking or doing whatever else. But, that was not what Eric was about. That was the smallest part of Eric, it is the smallest part of every teenager. I just wanted everyone to know that sometimes we dont think and we put ignorant things on this site like doing keg stands, and it has nothing to do with the rememberance of Erics wonderful life. Thanks for all of you that write and read the website. It means a lot to everyone who knew and loved Eric.
Name: phill
E-Mail:
AIM:
00:02:20 02/19/04
Comments:
g $ whats up big guy. i like the new picture of u. yeah like i said my cable modem is fucked up, i got this stupid ass wireless internet now. but we still miss u much. its hard to think its coming on a year. it seems like yesterday we were doin keg stands at the fort. but ur doin better know in a place where u wanted to be. take care of urself man and ur parents and brother as well. till we meet again, later buddy
Name: Kobit
E-Mail:
AIM:
17:17:52 02/18/04
Comments:
what up G whats new?? same ol stuff out here in the inlands but i juss wanted to say what up. last night me troy henninger n spengler went on a journey down bluff road n all i could do was imagine you bein there like old times, foote too. and it just felt like a huge part of us was missing without you guys even though footes only in wyoming, but just knowing i wont be able to just take a drive with you or chill at the fort is killin me to this day. I know your livin it up and maybe what happened wit me n spengler the other night had something to do with you hopefully. unti next time take it easy and watch over everyone cuz some people need it. much love g$
Name: alison... again
E-Mail:
AIM:
22:50:06 02/17/04
Comments:
its so amazing to look at this site and see so many people write "i didnt know you, but..." it really shos that people, even if they dont show it sometimes, have compassion. eric i would have loved to get to know you. i have been reading over this site for hours, and it touches me so much to see all the different people and read what they have to say. This may not have been what God intended for you, but there has to be a reason. Im sure most people would want to know the reason, but maybe they would change their minds when they did. All the friends you had and lives you touched in SO many different ways... it blows me away to think of all of them. Each story touches my heart, and each little thing everyone has to say just amazes me. I know they should have said something sooner, but from someone like you this was probably unexpected. Im just glad your not hurting anymore, and thatv where you are is a million times better than here. I wonder if you were a Christian. That may have changed your decision. Maybe this site will lead people to Christ, maybe it wont. I pray that the life of Eric Graf will urge others the change theirs. That God will work in your lives and the lives of those around you. If you would like to talk about this with me i would be more than happy to, just leave a message with your IM or email and ill get to you. Once again, Eric Graf, you are greatly missed. Ill talk to you someday, but until then... goodbye kid.
Name: alison
E-Mail:
AIM:
22:30:14 02/17/04
Comments:
Reading all of these messages makes me sooo sad inside. Seeing all of these people that cared for and loved you more than you will ever know just stopping in to say hi, or telling you how their day went. But that isn't good enough, people just want you in their lives. And to see that you were such a fun, great person that no one new will ever have the pleasure of meeting breaks my heart. You were a blessing to 14 pages of people, and thats only in 18 years. Imagine what could have happened with the rest of your life! I didn't know you, but you seem like a person i would have loved to get to know. It is amazing to see how many people knew and loved you. You probably touched more people than you can believe. I know that for a fact, because you touched my life, and ive never even met you! Now every time i hear this song or coldplay i think of you immediately. If only you were here today reading this website about how so many people care about you. Maybe things would be different. But i know everything happens for a reason, but why did it have to be this? You could have changed peoples lives without sacrificing your own. Maybe we will meet in heaven one day. Me and everyone else who loved or wanted to know you will be waiting in line. Well, i just wanted to remind you that your gone but not forgotten. It's not like theres anything to remember... i have no memories, no good times, laughs, hard times, or just plain times. But what there is here on the site gives me the idea of what you were like and even makes me feel like i know you. Your still making a difference, even though it might not be you, but the thought of you. You mean more to everyone than you will ever know... and you know what? i love you eric
Name: Galvan
E-Mail:
AIM:
19:23:44 02/17/04
Comments:
I can't wait for the day we meet again
Name: Annie
E-Mail:
AIM:
16:37:21 02/16/04
Comments:
Hey Sweetheart.
I just wanted to wish you a Happy Valentine's Day. I couldn't picture a better and more beautiful place to be in than where you are. I'm always thinking about you, and I miss you so much.Love Always,
Annie
Name: a friend
E-Mail:
AIM:
22:09:59 02/15/04
Comments:
Eric,i wish i would have a dream with u in it. i thought we were friends:)lol. if you can find it in your busy schedule come visit me in my dreams. has anyone else a dream they would like 2 share? love you eric
Name: lauren
E-Mail: laurenpatrizi@yahoo.com
AIM:
18:00:16 02/15/04
Comments:
Hey eric:)
I just wanted to tell you I had this really good dream about you last night.. You were so happy! I was so happy you were happy. It wasn't like most of them where I wake up and I get sad, I actually felt kind of good for once. I know now you are doing ok and although i know you feel your impulse wasn't what you should have done, you are at ease. You know that you are with every one of us wherever you are. Thank you for looking out for us. Thanks for letting me hear you laugh last night.. It meant more than you will ever know. Don't ever stop
Love
Lauren
Name: Jill
E-Mail:
AIM:
12:57:21 02/14/04
Comments:
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY GRAF! Always thinking about you... XoXo ~*Jill*~
Name: ******
E-Mail:
AIM:
11:19:15 02/14/04
Comments:
Eric,I'm sending you a valentine hug and kiss. I love and miss you.
Happy Valentines day!!!
P.s. is something wrong with the music or is it my computer, it sounds distorted?
Name: .....
E-Mail:
AIM:
11:14:11 02/14/04
Comments:
Eric,I'm counting the days until im with you again. i love you and miss you soooooo much. pretty soon well be together. my love for you will never stop hurting until i see you.
Name: cait
E-Mail:
AIM:
04:27:21 02/14/04
Comments:
yeah it's 4:27 in the morning...but i just got home and i'm thinkin bout u...thanks for bein with them tonight...i know you know what i mean...i love you so much kid and i'm thinking of you always...
love caitp.s. happy valentine's day kiddo...
Name: Court
E-Mail:
AIM:
01:46:21 02/14/04
Comments:
Happy Valentine's Day, Buddy, I hope it's beautiful up there. I Love You
Name: just another person
E-Mail:
AIM:
18:04:32 02/13/04
Comments:
Her eric~
Name: Hillary
E-Mail:
AIM:
22:50:17 02/08/04
Comments:
Hey Eric~ I was just watching the Grammy's and I heard "Times like These" and I thought of you. I know that you liked that song a short time before you died and I was listening to the lyrics. And it says, " I, I'm a little divided. Should I stay or run away, and leave it all behind?" And I wonder if you thought about those lyrics when you heard the song. Did you ask yourself what would come out of your decision? Did you consider how it would effect everyone? I know that you did not want to hurt anyone Eric. Everything happens for a reason. I guess I just cant find the reason yet. I love you and miss you everyday. The angels cried the day you died Er. God Bless you!
Name: to our angel
E-Mail:
AIM:
22:49:35 02/08/04
Comments:
just thinking about u - know ur doin great up there-
luv always
Name: missing you soo much
E-Mail:
AIM:
21:13:51 02/05/04
Comments:
Eric~
Hey babe...well not a day goes by where I'm not thinking about you. I stare at your picture everyday and just look at the days and wish you were here w/ all of us. It still feels like it was yesterday that all this happens...tears still form in my eyes when I hear the coldplay song or the green day song. It's very interesting how lyrics can have such an impact on someone or something. I love you sooo much Er, you're in my thoughts everyday...keep watching over all of us....we need it every once in awhile. Take good care of your mom, dad, and brother too.
love you always and forever
Name: g$
E-Mail:
AIM:
23:43:36 02/04/04
Comments:
what up buddy, i havent been on in a while and just wanted to say hi. my fuckin cable modem is broke so i cant visit the website as much anymore. but i just wanted to say hi, and hope ur doing better now. take care of ur mom and dad and brother buddy. later man
Name: Sarah
E-Mail:
AIM: LookAtThtNceView
17:20:11 02/02/04
Comments:
Wow eric. it's been awhile. it makes me feel better when i read what jaclyn and liz have been saying because atleast now i dont feel like im alone about all these feelings. its like all the time i think about you and i love you and love you even more each day. man theres been some crazy stuff in my life l8ly but i know uve been watchin over me. Last night at the super bowl party was one of the best days of my life and no i only watched about 5 minutes of the game. while everyone else was consumed with the game me jaclyn, liz, melissa, and j were playin the angel game. well atleast i was the whole time and people were coming and leaving that dark candlelit room. i was so happy just to sit there and talk to you through that game. i hope that game is real cause man that day changed my life, now since yesterday when u said that u look at the messages that people write here everyday i just wanna tell u everything that i feel so atleast one of us can tell the other something (well atleast until i play that angel game again) I feel like now that your gone i believe in angels so much now. I bet your a perfect angel. I was talking to George in the car last night and i was talking to him about you and he was saying all this stuff about how he saw changes in you just because u were hangin with a different crowd. O by the way i wrote you a poem awhile ago and ive been meaning to show u it...
I never knew of such pain
Pain that asked me "what if.."
Why is this hurting me so much?
Affecting so many people
Feeling the pain I feel every second that i think about you
I just wanted to tell you that you didn't know how beautiful you were
As tears fall down my face,
Tracing the outline of your figure
I can no longer throw my arms around you to say goodbye
Now my tears rest on a picture of you
And the shoulders that I once found comfort on...So anyway, hows it goin up there? taking care of everyone for sure. Remember last night when u told me in the angel game that i needed to envy myself and not you... well the only reason why i envy you is because u were SUCH an increadable person and im actually starting to cry when i think of how increadable you were and you didn't know it. i wish someone would've told you that. I could've...but i didnt. so im telling you now. That was some pretty powerful stuff last night talking to you like that... i hope we talk like that again soon... jeez i miss you soo much Er.Its hard to believe how much our families been falling apart now that your gone... its crazy hard to be in this family without you...god... better get going i wish i could tell you more but this will have to do for now.... I love you Eric.
"I hope you have the time of your life"
Love Always until the end,
Sarah.
Name: Lauren
E-Mail:
AIM:
21:40:42 01/28/04
Comments:
Hey Eric,
I was driving down good old LSD this morning listening to the radio and you popped into my head, as you do frequently throughout the day. But there's this new Train song out and it gives me that warm feeling of hope and peace with you. Anyways, here are the lyrics, as we do come from a generation that embraces lyrics...When it rains it pours and opens doors
And floods the floors we thought would always keep us safe and dry
And in the midst of sailing ships we sink our lips into the ones we love
That have to say goodbye And as I float along this ocean
I can feel you like a notion that won't seem to let me go Cause when I look to the sky something tells me you're here with me
And you make everything alright
And when I feel like I'm lost something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here And every word I didn't say that caught up in some busy day
And every dance on the kitchen floor we didn't dance before
And every sunset that we'll miss I'll wrap them all up in a kiss
And pick you up in all of this when I sail away Whether I am up or down or in or out or just plane overhead
Instead it just feels like it is impossible to fly
But with you I can spread my wings
to see me over everything that life may send me
When I am hoping it won't pass me by And when I feel like there is no one that will ever know me
there you are to show me We know you're looking over all of us Eric and we miss you greatly. Love,
Lauren
Name: *~*~*~*~*~*~*
E-Mail:
AIM:
20:52:29 01/28/04
Comments:
**I never met you...but two days ago I lost one of my best friends and his family in a car crash. I was so down I didn't know what to do I was so close to committing suicide and then I remembered seeing this website and I could see how many people miss you and are hurting because of it..So really, in a way, you saved my life. I wanted to say thanks. And please pray for my friend JD Hammen...if you see him up there, tell him i love him and miss him so so so much and everyone here is hurting. Nothing will ever be the same...RIP Eric and JD (1.25.04)
Name: Ashry Demma
E-Mail: Agentivyash89@aol.com
AIM:
17:29:57 01/28/04
Comments:
Eric! Man, it's been a long time. I heard "Hear You Me" the other day, and it made me cry. I didn't know you that well, but I still miss you. I hope that you know how much everyone loves and misses you. Vicki, Melissa, Liz, and Jacklyn especially. I'll never forget the time I saw you working at McDonalds, and I just said Hi, and you were so great...you were like "OMG! Ur Meilssa's friend! I remember you!" Heh. Good times w/ Mel and the Grafs. Much love <3333333 ~Ashry~
Name: Shannon
E-Mail:
AIM:
16:43:29 01/28/04
Comments:
Hey Eric.. It's been a long time since I've been on this website.. It's crazy that it's almost a year since you've been gone. Everybody misses you more and more everyday. I saw the actual picture that is now on your website, and it sent chills up my spine. You look so adorable! Its so weird how the littlest things can remind you of someone ya kno? Everywhere you turn you can pick something out of so many things that would remind us all of you. I hope your not be'n toooo crazy up in heaven.. I'll see you when I get there. Love you tonz.. xoxoxo
Name: ....
E-Mail:
AIM:
11:47:15 01/28/04
Comments:
ERic,I don't know how much more I can take. I miss you.
Name: Bridget
E-Mail:
AIM:
03:32:55 01/28/04
Comments:
Graf, I know it has been a while since I have written. I know you know that it is not because i dont think of you or because i dont care. Because there is not one day that goes by and I dont think there will ever be a day that goes by where I dont think of you or you arent on my mind. Even being away at school there is so much here that reminds me of you and there are so many things I go through that some how relate to a memory I have shared with you. I know that people grow apart and things change but no matter what, all of us, all of your friends are going to be connected for life. Through you we are bonded together. With this message that I write to you all I really want to say is thankyou so much for the memories! You dont know how thankful I am for all the memories that I have with you, that we all have with you. As time goes on and people move on and grow apart we will always have something special and that is all of the memories we have all shared with you, together as a group or as individuals. Thankyou, because those will never ever leave my mind and especially my heart. I love you and miss you so much.
I love you always
Bridget
Name: Jessica
E-Mail:
AIM:
01:10:22 01/28/04
Comments:
Eric: We all miss you so much. It was nice being home and seeing everyone over break. I think the weirdest part about seeing everyone though, is this unspoken connection we all have to eachother. We were all your friends and when were together, you can almost feel your presence. When I used to come on this website it was because I was sad, this site offers me a sort of free therapy knowing that I can just come on and read. Now when I look at this site I smile at all the memories and all the people you've touched. Those that were your best friends to people none of us know. This website is just all your closest friends bragging about how sweet, funny, charming, and self-less you were. And how we all feel so privleged just to have you in our lives, even though it was cut short. I wish this site was around before you left, maybe things would have been different. The memories will never leave....the fort on halloween, after football games, weekends, weekdays, whenever. I can not even count the memories. Blake's farm before senior year when u feel on Miller. Chillin in your basement. How about New Year's at Tom's sisters. You were pissed you didn't get a kiss at midnight, so me and annie both gave u a kiss on the cheek. When we all went to bremen and u had to leave to sit in the car. When we came out you were lying in the backseat with the door open and ur head out and it was pouring rain! You were so crazy. You lived your life with passion and happiness. You loved being around your friends and were always so excited to hang out. Remember our fireside chats? I miss you Eric, everyone does. When I think about you, I think about how lucky we are. To have a person touch us like you did, is really a gift from God. Also I think of how lucky we are to have had eachother through all of this. This website is not just a place to write to eric, it is a support group. We all come to this site, we all read the letters posted, and we are all connected. We will never forget you eric. You are always with us. Rest in Peace Baby<3
Name: Hillary
E-Mail:
AIM:
22:12:49 01/27/04
Comments:
I miss you so much...I have been reading the book The Lovely Bones...whoa...It reminds me so much of you. I love you, God bless you.
Hill
Name: cait
E-Mail:
AIM:
01:37:33 01/27/04
Comments:
i stopped here tonight cause i saw ya smilin on my desk...and that picture just took my breath away...your smile kid. god you were always smiling. it's been 9 months eric, and this shit just doesn't get easier. i can usually think of you and smile, all those memories...but i can't smile right now. i hate that all we have are memories, even though the memories you left us are PRICELESS. i just want to see you. a lifetime is just too long. it just still hurts so bad...and we all miss you so much eric. so so much. i just think about your family. i don't know how they do it eric i really don't. their hurt must be a thousand times mine and i couldn't do it. i know you're with us, but i would give anything in this world to see you. anything. i know we say it helps that we'll see you again someday...but someday is too far. this is all too final and part of me still can't comprehend the fact that you're gone. that you'll always be missing...i miss you eric and i think about you every single day. love you kid, and even though i hope it's a long way off i'll see ya later.
love cait
Name: ######
E-Mail:
AIM:
11:41:38 01/26/04
Comments:
Eric,Awesome picture. Much better then the other one. You are so handsome. Please, please come home.
Luv you.
Name: Hill
E-Mail:
AIM:
18:49:28 01/25/04
Comments:
Hey Er, I just wanted to write and tell you how much I still miss you every day! It is hard to believe that you have been gone for 9 months. I love you so much, we all do. God Bless you!
Thanks for the new picture mike!
Name: missing u still
E-Mail:
AIM:
04:40:39 01/24/04
Comments:
eric i miss ya...u'll always be in my heart eric.
Name: Lauren
E-Mail:
AIM:
13:03:56 01/23/04
Comments:
Hey Eric,Well, I got a new pic of you. You look so handsome. Your mom and I picked it out, but i primarily left it up to her. Your family misses you so much eric. Your dogs are crazy by the way. One seriously tried mauling my coat lol.. Im sure you were laughing. We miss you so much Eric. If there were consoling words I could have I would say them.. but i can't. I sit in my room sometimes and I pretend your there and I talk to you. Then i start laughing at myself because who am i talking to? If there was anything any one of us from any one group of friends you had could've done anything you know we would've. Your family eric, your family. They love and miss you so much. I know you're there because we all can feel you there.. Please be around for your family they need you. Anyways, I just wanted to say hi and tell you that i'm thinking of you.. I'm coming to visit soon ok? As soon as joyce stops doing whatever it is he may be doing hopefully he can help me put up this picture:)... Love, Lauren
Name: Luke
E-Mail:
AIM:
00:48:55 01/23/04
Comments:
G-Money,
What up buddy?!?! I thought I'd stop by and shout u a quick holla. I hope ur partyin it up in heaven man cuz we were certainly partyin' over X-mas break!!! I know you heard the toast me and Kobit gave u a couple days after New Year's. I know that you were lookin down and laughin ur ass off at us haha!! Thats exactly what we wanted!! I just wanted to let you know that i miss you just as much now as i did the day after you left us. I got a buddy named Mike here in AZ that says what up haha!! I wish you could come out here and chill with me man! Anywayz... take it easy and keep the party crackin for me up there!! Miss and love you like always bro
Luke
Name: kel
E-Mail:
AIM:
21:00:36 01/16/04
Comments:
life gets so messed up sometimes. and i want to know what gives any one person the right to judge someone else. No one ever completely understands what someone else goes through, what they feel. People wonder why one contemplates suicide....maybe everyone should take a step back and really consider the fact that all people feel. it might help everyone feel better. show that you care. you might think you do, but sometimes they dont realize...please make sure they realize. i didnt realize someone cared and it ruined the relationship bewteen us. thats all i want to say
Name: jacqueline
E-Mail:
AIM:
20:39:46 01/15/04
Comments:
eric ~ hey babe...i havent written in here for awhile. i'm sorry for that i've been really busy. but that doesnt mean that i havent thought of you. i still have ur pictures up. i still think about you everyday. each day that i wake up ur in my heart, my mind, my soul. i dont know whether to laugh, or to cry. i keep looking back on all the happy memories that i have of you. and i cant help but get tears in my eyes. i miss you so much its unreal. i just wish you were still here with us today. everyone misses u so much ... not just me. i hope ur listening to my prayers. and i hope ur havin fun up there. i know i'll see you up in heaven. ur my inspiration. . . u r what keeps me going each morning. i hope you know that. i could never say it enough. i love you. and i miss you so much. ur in my prayers. watch over me while ur up there ok!?....jax
Name: Jessi
E-Mail:
AIM:
19:59:12 01/14/04
Comments:
Eric..i didnt know you but my sisters boyfriend was friends with you and i also know your brother, Dave. I remember the day. Mark came over and was really upset..once he told me i couldnt believe it. That was 2 people who had already died this year of suicide that i knew in some way and it was only april. and for some odd reason they seemed to be the ones who deserved it the least. i know a lot of people miss you and really cared about you. i'm praying for your family. i know dave have a extremely rough time..im dreading this april. and i cant even begin to imgaine your parents. i hope its better up there then it was down her for you.
- Jessi
Name: Jess
E-Mail:
AIM:
19:40:05 01/13/04
Comments:
Eric's friends told him how much he cared about him-and he knew that...just some things weren't right.You have no idea how this has effected his friends or family-so don't sit there and say it took something like this for everybody to express their feelings for him-they did while he was alive-and they will continue on this website for a long time!
Name: why dont you think about this
E-Mail:
AIM:
13:28:15 01/13/04
Comments:
Yes it is true that sometimes it is a shame that it takes a horrible death to make people express their love for someone. That is not the case for Eric though, he was one of my closest friends and he was a friend to so many different people. All of us as his friends expressed our love and appreciation for him when he was alive as he did for the ones he held close to him. And I will continue to express my love and appreciation for him now that he is no longer here. His death had absolutely nothing to do with his friends not loving him because we all did and he loved all of us and that was something that everyone, including Eric, was aware of. Obviously the person titled "think about this" wasnt close to Eric and has no idea of anything pertaining to Eric so why dont you just keep you petty unintelligent thoughts to yourself and let this website stand as a memorial to our friend filled w/ joy and good memories of the times we all were able to have with him. Dont ever tell any of Eric's friends that they didnt express their love and appreciation for him while he was alive because it is soo clear to me that you dont know anything about us or Eric. Graf we love you and we miss you more and more each day
Name: Missing you
E-Mail:
AIM:
06:21:36 01/13/04
Comments:
Eric,If anyone can talk God into coming back, it would be you. Please start working your charm and get back to us. You are missed. Love you.
Name: *
E-Mail:
AIM:
18:50:08 01/12/04
Comments:
I think all of Eric's friends told him how we felt about him and how much we loved him. Dont try to analyze a situation that you were not a part of, that is not your place.
Name: think about this
E-Mail:
AIM:
13:53:38 01/12/04
Comments:
how come it takes a horrible death like this to make people express their love for someone? tell them while you can, it may make a difference. dont u think if someone told Eric something thats written on this website that he would have reconsidered his desicion. maybe its not your fault that he did what he did, but it is your fault that you didnt help save him. the next time you see someone you love, tell them how much they mean to you... you've got nothing to lose unless you dont.
Name: j
E-Mail:
AIM:
13:30:37 01/12/04
Comments:
hey graffy~ I was just sittin around thinkin about things......im back at school now. Its goin good right now. I dont know things are kinda messed up right now....but then i just remember all the good things...i dont know i just wanted to say hi.....miss you graffers! Just look over me and dont let me do stupid things please! love you! ~J
Name: ...
E-Mail:
AIM: ...
21:22:31 01/11/04
Comments:
wow just from reading all these messages i feel like i have known you for my whole life, when i really have never met you. it seems like you have touched so many lives in only 18 years. you can just tell you were a fun, caring person that loved everyone and got the same in return. its so amazing how so many people are impacted by one life, and to think that if you only knew that, you might still be alive. and God is always there for you, too, so when you have no one or nothing to fall back on, he is there. i only wish i would have been so lucky to meet you, you seem like you are a wonderful person and i love you. we can meet in heaven one day. no one will ever forget you
Name: Katie
E-Mail:
AIM:
21:06:28 01/11/04
Comments:
Graf**Now as the holiday season is coming to an end I've started to look back on where we were just a year ago...all still in school, waiting eagerly for June and graduation to come. Now we're all away,al swept up in our own lives, and all having partaken in lots of changes. Your death being a major one. Im finding it hard these days to pass the time. Sure school life takes up most of my life, trying to keep up grades and friends and just basic life is hard enough, but its when I try to look upon the more important things in life that I feel the time as going by slower each day. Its when I start asking myself Why? Its when I come to the realization that life is so precious. School is hard sometimes, being away from all those who really know you, really "get you". Eric I find you filling my thoughts sometimes as an inspiration to me, telling me to keep smiling, keep trying, because I know thats what you'd want. Thank you for affecting my life...even in your death. I hope you realize how many lives you've touched....and how many you still touch. God Bless You Eric, Love, Katie
"No one said it was easy, No one ever said it was going to be this hard..."
Name: Kobit
E-Mail:
AIM:
18:22:54 01/11/04
Comments:
Well its the last night of christmas break and i think that this one has meant more to me than any other in my life. I was lookin at the picture on the bottom and i got to thinkin about that day when all of us pretty much came together in the courtyard and realized how much we actually care about each other, because of you, and when everyone left for school i thought i would never make it without my true freinds, until i realized how unbelievably great it felt to be with them again, even though you couldnt be there. And even though it's still impossible not to think of all the fun times we had from lunch to woodworking to the fort, i still know that when the day comes and i see you again in heaven it'll be like you left us yesterday. Keep an eye out for everyone and i hope your havin a blast, and i hope you know you still bring smiles to our faces everyday. peace out graf~
Name: Hill
E-Mail:
AIM:
22:20:17 01/09/04
Comments:
Hey Er,
I just wanted to tell you how much I miss you, and I think about you every second. You are always on my mind. I always think about where and what you would be doing now if you were still with us. Life would be so much different. I know you are fine now, and free of all your pain. I love you and I always will. God bless you Eric,
HillI will remember you
will you remember me?
don't let your life pass you by
weep not for the memories remember the good times that we had
let them slip away from us when things got bad
clearly i first saw you smiling in the sun
wanna feel your warmth upon me
i want to be the one i will remember you
will you remember me?
don't let your life pass you by
weep not for the memories i'm so tired that i can't sleep
standing on the edge of something much too deep
it's funny how i feel so much yet cannot say a word
we are screaming inside oh we can't be heard i will remember you
will you remember me?
don't let your life pass you by
weep not for the memories so afraid to love you more afraid to lose
clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
where once there was a darkness, a deep and endless night
you gave me everything you had oh you gave me life i will remember you
will you remember me?
don't let your life pass you by
weep not for the memories
Name: .....
E-Mail:
AIM: ......
08:37:54 01/09/04
Comments:
Hi Eric,Please come home. You are missed way too much. This is so senseless. It should not have been you. I love you.
Name: cait
E-Mail:
AIM:
23:13:15 01/06/04
Comments:
hey kiddo, just stopped by to say hi and let you know i love you and miss you like crazy. i've been thinking about you so much lately, especially with being home...there's just always something missing. they say that time heals all wounds, but there are wounds that can never be healed, not completely at least. and the loss of you is one of those. losing you was something none of us can change, and it just leaves me feeling helpless. there's not a day that goes by that i don't think about you, and all the amazing memories we all have of you...but it breaks my heart that memories are all we have now. it just makes you really wonder about life, and appreciate what's important. like julie said, everyday is a gamble and you just can't regret anything. but the memories you left eric...can make me smile any day of the week. sometimes it's harder that others, to think of you and smile, but with someone as amazing as you it's hard not to smile thinking about the kind of person you were, the kind of person that would have done anything for his friends and respected everyone he came across. the kind of person who touched so many lives, including the lives of people he never even knew existed. god there isn't a single thing i wouldn't give to have you back...i think about your mom, dad, and dave all the time...watch over them along with the rest of your family (i'm sure you are) and everyone else who's missing you-that sure will keep you busy! i hope you're happier than any of us can ever imagine...god i miss you so much eric...
love cait
Name: Jess
E-Mail:
AIM:
20:32:49 01/06/04
Comments:
Hey Eric. I just wanted to stop by and say hey! hope ur havin fun up there!
Name: .
E-Mail:
AIM:
21:51:54 01/05/04
Comments:
wow eric. i havent been here since last year i think. i dont know what to say but i feel like i should say something. i have no idea where my life is going right now. im so confused and so frusterated. sometimes i dont know what to do. for some reason i thought about you tonite so i went to your site...anyways, look over me. thanks.
Name: Julie Dominy
E-Mail:
AIM:
20:55:55 01/04/04
Comments:
Eric,
Hey babe...Happy New Year and Merry Christmas...all that good stuff. Well today has been a weird day...I can't tell if I want to just laugh or to just start crying. I have been thinking about you a lot lately. I have been thinking about a lot of great memories...and I don't know if I want to smile for them...or cry because there will be no more. I remember skating through the other websites like Justin Dodge's...and I remember being like I feel so bad for those people who were close to him...I don't know what I would do if someone close to me passed. And now when I read them...I feel like i just want to reach through the screen and hold their hand, because unfortunatly, we all know how that feels now. I wish we didn't...I wish I could go back to the days when I would silently send my condolensces to those people...and say a silent prayer to God thanking him for keeping everyone I love safe. Now I feel like everyday is a chance...everyday is just a gamble. Everyday I wake up thanking God my parents are still here...and I thank God my brothers are still safe...and I thank God that everyone I have left is still here. I wish I didn't have to thank God with hopes that he won't take another...i wish I could just thank him because I have been so lucky. But the truth is...I haven't...none of us have. I don't know if our luck had run out...or there just never was any. In other words...I can't tell if this was meant to happen...or it just did. Now when I wake up...I pray to God..and I talk to you...I know you're listening...so I guess it is just a routine now. I think about what could've pushed you...and what people think pushed you...or what never pushed you at all. Who is to say...who is to claim they have the answers. No one does...no one ever will...no one was meant to have the answers...if everyone believed someone's opinion there wouldn't be half as much pain...because people would just understand. But they don't...no one fully puts their hearts into a single reason...because this was so unfortunate. It is so unfortunate...that I would rather not know why...I will never ask you why...because then I know that there would have been a way to prevent this. A way to lift the pain...and way to bring more happiness into your heart. Knowing that there was a way any of us could have filtered out anything horrible in your life...is almost too much to bear. So I will continue to believe in nothing but your beautiful laugh...your warm heart...you're shining smile...unforgettable memories...and your everlasting impact on my life and the lives of people that surround me. So thank you for leaving me with something that isn't concrete...but leaving me with something so beautifully abstract that it would be impossible to forget. Keep watching over all of us Eric...we need you more than ever now.
Love,
Julie
Name: Jenny
E-Mail:
AIM: JennyJ829
22:19:11 01/03/04
Comments:
hey Graffy........Happy New Year! Graf lately i can not stop thinking about you. Everything reminds me of you and i just miss you so much! I swear everyday it gets harder...but then I remind myself that you are much more happier now. I dont know......im like lost for words because there is so much to say......but i hope your doing good....and keep taking good care of your family! and also watch out for our friends! We need it every now and then........but im sure ill write again soon! I just wish we could have one more great time or one more good laugh again! Ok im going to go! i love you! bye bye! :) ~Jenny
|
