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Name: Angie Miller (Huizer)
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13:57:26 08/06/13


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I still think about you. And by the grace of God, by the healing power of the Holy Spirit, my thoughts of you have been joyous, not grieve-stricken. I remember how you were such a wonderful mentor to me when I was young. I imagine meeting with you again in Heaven and worshiping God with you. Almost nine years now, and you are not forgotten. Though I miss you to this day, I still thank God for you and the influence you had on my life. Love you, "Aunt" Deb!!




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12:54:21 04/11/13


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An old man always passes out your "story" and although is has been near nine years your tale of kindness and selfless actions for others will go on. The "creator" has "taken" you so for whatever reason(s) I do hope that your "spirit"remans on Earth as I know it. I do wonder why some live over 100 years and others die much younger, I never knew you personally only after your death, through a small paper. I hope you and your family have found purpose in telling your "wonderful" story, and I hope that your "spirit" is still here on Earth helping and serving others... I happen to taken a American Indian religion ... although the Christin way is fine, I think if Jesus and an American Indian Cheif met, there're would be a argument over who presides, especially in America. In the "homeland" Jesus would preside. Peace Out! I'm Staying in America for a while!




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20:11:19 12/19/12


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Hello my Deborah. As always, you are on my mind but now more than ever. You would have been 30 years old tomorrow and I can't help but feel so sad at what we missed with you. Even though it has been over 8 years since we have seen that beautiful smile of yours, it seems like yesterday that you were jumping around and laughing, and giving huge bear hugs. You will never be forgotten. Never. I love you my Deborah.




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21:37:02 08/15/12


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Hello my Deborah. I am missing you today as always. I cannot believe it will be 8 years since I have hugged you or seen that huge smile of yours. There is not a single day that passes that I don't think of you a thousand times. You have missed so much in these 8 years! Sometimes I want the world to just stop and remember you. I am very proud of you and your legacy that you have left behind. "Well done my good and faithful servant." I love you my Deborah.




Name: Angie Miller (Huizer)
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17:22:56 06/07/12


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Deb,

This summer it will have been eight years... eight years and I still think of you almost daily. I have grown up. I am married now, with a job and an apartment... I'm still in school though. Studying paramedic sciences. God's given me a great passion for helping those who find themselves in emergency situations.
I haven't been back to Manitoqua in three years, which has been almost heart-breaking. But God blessed me with the chance to be a counselor there for one summer and I loved it. My husband, John and I are planning on going up there sometime this summer. He's going to learn so much about you, about camp and why we love that place so much.
I miss you, Aunt Deb, and cannot wait to see you again someday.
Much love,
Angie




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Missing you today. My heart is heavy. It never gets better.




Name: Aunt Deb
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17:53:18 03/17/12


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Hello my Deborah. I am missing you so much today. I thought about you all day and my heart aches. I will never understand God's plan in all of this but I must trust Him. I think of you in Heaven and wonder what you are doing. What do you see? I miss you my girl. I love you my Deborah. (You were taken 7 years and 7 months from us today.)




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13:55:10 12/31/11


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Hello my Deborah! We had another Thanksgiving and have much to be thankful for but I cannot ignore the hole in my heart from missing you. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about you and miss you. We got together for your 29th birthday and had a nice time together with family. I can't stop thinking about the woman you would have been but then I rejoice about the woman you were. I am so proud of you and the short life you lived. Christmas was wonderful with the gifts, family time, and music but yet I missed you so much. You will never be forgotten. I love you my Deborah.
Aunt Deb




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05:56:48 12/20/11


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Happy 29th Birthday Honey. We miss you soooo! They Holidays are very hard this year. We are going to get together today with your Aunt Debbie and Aunt Trudy and Becky is going to try a make it with Calvin and Lilleighanna. and your other cousins. The family keeps growing. Faith is in school. It is good to be busy and keep my mind active. The pain can be so great. It does not get any easier. I just would love to hug you and kiss you again. People should never take those small acts of love for granted. Love you sweetie and think of you always.




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07:56:02 11/22/11


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Honey; the holidays are approching and it is always a difficult time. At Thanksgiving there is much to be thankful for and on the flip side I have a very sad part of me remembering you and you not here with us. It does not get any easier. Pastor Howard had an awesome sermon Sunday about Heaven and loved ones that are there. They played a song that I just love! What a day that will be when my Jeus I shall see. When We look upon His face There will be no more sorrow there. That is the assurance we have here on earth. Also gives us the strength to go on. We all miss you and love you each and every day. God is working miracles in Paulies life right now and Paul is starting to heal. Love you sweetie gonzales your mommy




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07:43:46 08/16/11


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It is 7 years but it is like yesterday. We all love you and miss you terribly. Could not go on if we were not children of God and know that you are in Heaven and we will see you again. LOVE YOU!!




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11:42:48 08/13/11


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Hello my Deborah. I cannot believe it will be 7 years until I last saw that beautiful smile of yours. I miss you so much and think of you a million times a day. I think of everything that you have missed and it breaks my heart. You would have loved to be an aunt to Faith, Lilleigh and Calvin. I went to the hair salon the other day and saw a girl who reminded me so much of you. I couldn't help but stare at her and remember how you would jump around the room and laugh so loud. Some days I think I will go crazy missing you. Know that I love you with all my heart and I miss you every second of every day.
I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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06:02:19 08/12/11


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MISS YOU SWEETIE GONZALES AND LOVE YOU!!!!!




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13:22:26 08/06/11


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Hi Honey I miss you so! I can't believe it is going on 7 years. Paul has been having a rough time and misses you terribly So does Becky and Mark. We just take it a day at a time. It helps me to express myself here because I feel close to you when I imagine talking to you. Mark is just finishing camp this summer just like you did the last summer you were here with us. Such sweet and wonderful memories. Memories can be heartbreaking. I still can't get myelf to watch a dvd with you in it and here your voice. The pain is to great. Well honey we love you and talk about you often and how crazy you were. Becky and Chris went away for their 10th anniversary and Becky said so much reminded her of you. Love you love bug and miss you love mommy




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19:15:05 05/08/11


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Hey love bug well it is mothers day down here but it has never been the same since you are gone. Even though your brothers and sister are here there is an empy place in my heart for you and I can not kiss you, hug you, laugh with and at you and tell you how much I love you. You are missed every day and I love you very much! love you mommy




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15:31:44 04/25/11


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Hey sweet heart I was writing to you yesterday but for some reason I got kicked off. It was Easter down here and what a beautiful day it was. Becky was in with the kids and they were so much fun and so cute. Paul and Mark are as crazy as you are and are doing good. We all miss you and talk about you often. I am sure Heaven is a glorious place especially on Easter and the angels all around someday we will see each other again and my heart soul will be happy again. I love you with all my heart and miss you each day. love mommy




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15:28:04 03/10/11


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I have been thinking about visiting home alot. I want to go when its warmer, maybe May. I wish we could go to the Dells like we did when we were younger. I think about you every day even if im not good at showing it. I find it hard to stay in touch with our parents and siblings but you guys are always on my mind. I love you and miss you very much! Your a truely good person that the world is missing greatly. LOVE YOU!!!! Shannon




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13:21:10 12/20/10


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I miss u debbie. It makes me sad that even I have gotten married and had kids. Its not fair. I still wish there were other things I would have have said to u our last day. U are an amazing person. I'm not surprised to read some of these posts and see how many lives u changed. U personally changed my life. I love u and will forever miss u. My heart still goes out to ur family.....




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22:43:22 12/19/10


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Hello my girl. Happy 28th birthday. I close my eyes and imagine how you would be today. I think you would be married and have a few babies. My heart breaks for what we have missed with you. There is never a day that goes by that I don't think of you a million tiimes. My entire soul misses you, sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and cry myself back to sleep. This never gets better because every day I am a day farther away from you.

I bought a new CD by Casting Crowns and it has a song on it that children sing "Peace on Earth" in the background. It sounds like angels to me. I can't help but wonder if that is what you heard when you went to be with our Lord. I miss you so much, my Deborah, words cannot express. Tomorrow some of our family will be together and we will remember and celebrate your life. We are so proud of you and, as Pastor Howard says, we have no fear as to where you are. Happy Birthday my girl. I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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03:57:01 10/10/10


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So here i am sitting in my room blubbering like a big baby just thinking about how amazing you were. ha what a sight to see. I always think about you and how i love you so much and wish you were dancing around the house and being goofy. some days im okay and others it hits me so hard and i just can picture your face so clearly in my head and its like you arent even gone. oh how i wish you werent gone but i know God is using you in ways i cant even imagine. When i get to heaven your going to have to show me around. Becky and paul miss you i know and mom and dad will always miss you and never stop loving you. i sure hope you are proud of me down here. its not easy trying to go about life knowing that you lost a sister and a best friend and try to act like things are normal. but i have a girlfriend and her name is alex and i wish you could have met her. i see a lot of her in you and it makes me so happy sometimes. i wish faith and lilleigh could have gotten to meet oh my would their lives have been changed. but i will make sure they get to hear about you all the time. you will never be forgotten on this earth and i hope i will be getting to see you soon.
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND NEVER WILL STOP
love your little brother,
mark




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09:41:24 08/16/10


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My Baby girl oh how I miss you. It doesn't get any easier. I see you and hear your laugh in so many ways and times of the day. I look at your pictures around the house and you are so close to my soul that I feel like I could reach out and hug you again. I cry many times wishing you would jump around and be silly with Becky, Paul and Mark. You would love Faith and Lilleigh and Calvin and of course you would love all the other little ones that were born into our family. You are missed by many and will always be remembered. I love you sweet heart and I think of you every day. Love mommy




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09:38:59 06/17/10


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Deb,
I just came across a handful of pictures of you and I and friends. Still to this day it turns my stomach knowing youre not here. The last time I saw you we went for a walk along Lake Mich. when you were at school. There were alot of things left unspoken, and it hurts to know that I didnt get the chance to tell you what I needed to. I dont think Ill ever have the words to say how you made me feel. Haha I remember washing and cleaning out your car for you, "the bucket", as you called it, and you were so excited about it! Your excitement for life and the small things was contagious. I still miss you more than people know. Your smile and your hugs were as warming as the sun. I MISS YOU! And sadly its taken me 6 yrs to publicly say that!




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16:38:56 03/26/10


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Debs!

I haven't been able to find this page in quite sometime and low and behold here it is! Boy do I miss you...not a day goes by that I don't think of you or something funny we did together. You may have recently welcomed someone to where you are...he was a good friend of mine and he too will be missed greatly please give him one of your giant hugs for me. I hope that you two are laughing loud together and sharing stories. He was a great person and just like you was taken too soon from this Earth. Please help his family and friends through this difficult time and let them know that he will forever be smiling down on them just like i know you are each and everyday. What I wouldn't give to see you again...just for a moment. I love you Debs! I'll see you when I get there. Anda



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20:20:41 12/28/09


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Happy late birthday. I miss you so much. Its not the same visiting mom and dad and not seeing you. We went downtown today and I thought about you. Remember when we went to Navy Pier after Beckys wedding? We had so much fun and ate so much ice cream that we had a stomach ache. I love you and miss you!




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23:32:33 12/21/09


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Happy Birthday my sweetie gonzales
We celebrated your birthay here on earth Becky and Faith came in and Aunt Debbie and I took the train with them downtown and met Aunt Trudy, Aunt Debbie Kiers, Cindy Jacclyn and McKenzie. We told funny stories about you and Becky and alot of funny things you used to do together. Boy did we laugh. You would just love your neices and nephew. They are the most precious gift and they will know their Aunt Debbie. We read a book called Heaven and it sure is a place that Christians can dream and pray someday we will be their with you and all our other loved ones We ordered some pretty flowers and had them in front of church in honor of your birthday. they had red and white roses and Christmas flowers and also some white lillys. I thought of grandma when I saw the lillys. I hope they will last till Christmas so we can have them out of the table as a centerpiece. Well love bug I miss you and love you very much. I will write again after Christmas and I know you are having a beautiful Christmas their with Jesus and everyone else around you. Love You Sweet Heart Mommy




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09:36:18 09/21/09


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Hey debs! this past summer in abaco i could see your presence everywhere. we all knew that you were with us. We made it a "Debs trip" and everywhere we went we passed out your tracks. the look on peoples faces were priceless, especially when they told us they knew you. People we didnt recognize told us they already had one at home that they recieved, but they wouldlike another to pass along. It was so amazing to see your story being passed around, even after we leave. Debs Pastor Robin still weeps for you, and not a day went by down in abaco that we didnt mention you at least 4 times. You've impacted so many lives and we can't thank you enough for that! i love you and miss you! Rock out in heaven!




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23:51:35 09/16/09


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Every day I think about Deb. I think about how things can change for everyone in an instant. How things can affect you every second because of that instant. The last thing Deb ever said to me was "you're a beautiful person. you are in God's image." This is the only quote from anyone I will always remember. Considering I literally had gotten braces, the day after I had my first seizure, with a broken tooth and a heart monitor attached to my side, I felt as if I couldn't have been a more beautiful person in my life. Every day I miss her, but I know she is looking out for me, helping me every day.




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I miss you every day Deb. Time does not make this any easier. The only peace I have in this is knowing that you are with our Father. I love you Deb.




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00:00:01 08/17/09


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Hello my Deborah,
I cannot believe it has been 5 years since I saw and hugged you. It does not get easier, each day you are farther away from me. When I close my eyes, I see you standing in front of me, smiling, bouncing around, and laughing. I open my eyes and the nightmare continues because you are not there. I miss you so much.
I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb





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19:15:47 08/15/09


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My dear sweetie gonzales. Oh how I miss you so. It is so hard to believe it is five years. I live each day as if it was only yesterday. The sadness of missing you, hugging you, kissing you and just all of you kids being silly and crazy. Well your sister and brothers are still crazy and can laugh even though you are not here and adding to the craziness. Becky had a baby boy and his name is Calvin Timothy. You'll have to let grandma and Uncle Bucky know because they would love the name Timothy as his middle name. You would love Faith and Lilleighanna. They are the most beautiful girls and you would have just loved them so. We always talk about you and you will never be forgotten. Mark is going off to college and he worked all summer at camp. He just got done this week. It brings back alot of memories when you just got home working you last week at camp. Paul is doing good he of course misses his best friend but he will come out of this stronger and loves you very much as we all do. So much has changed in these five years. Honey I just am sitting here missing you as I often do and wish we could go to Starbucks again and get one of those strawberry creme drinks that you got me the night before the accident. Everytime I see a Starbucks I think of that night. I love you sweetie and it does not get any easier as time goes on. People keep mentioning that and asking me if time helps make it easier but it does not. The pain and heartache is still as great as the minute I found out about the accident. You are always remembered and cherished and will see you someday. Love you love bug and lots of hugs and kisses are going your way. Mommy




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Hello my Deborah,
I think of you a million times a day. I still cannot believe you are gone. Alec went on a mission trip to Guatemala and I thought about you and your mission trips. When I was driving him to the airport, a song came on the radio and he said, "this is the song that Dad says reminds him of Deborah". I turned up the radio and thought my heart would break. It was titled "The Sissy Song" and talks about someone dying and being with the angels. I wonder what you saw that day. Did you ride to heaven on angel wings? Did you see Jesus face to face? Were you smiling that huge beautiful smile of yours? What you must have seen!!! I know you are with our Lord, but I miss you so much. I wish you were here to see my granddaughter. I wish I could hug you.
I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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11:11:25 04/13/09


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hey sis it has been quite a long time. you dont know how hard this has hit me. I went to camp last summer and all i could think about was you and so i did a devotion about you and it helped a lot of people. I just wish i could see you. I know that you are in a better place but sometimes it just doesnt seem fair but i know that it truly is. You were the best sister anyone could ask for and it was just amazing to watch the love that you had for everyone and God. i miss you so much and cant wait to see you again
i love you.
mark




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17:51:42 04/07/09


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Hi sweetie gonzales. I still call all you kids that and I even call Faith and Lilleighanna that. Of course Faith laughs. I did not write because I did not know how to get to the web site. You know a day does not go by that I do not think about you, laugh at a memory of you or cry because I miss you sooooo!!! It does not get any easier as time goes by. It is hard to believe it will be 5 years this year. It seems like yessterday. Your sister is due again in June. So we will be blessed with another baby in our family. You would love all the babies and the holidays at Aunt Debbies with everyone there. On Easter we of course will do the egg hunt and we all laugh at how you and Becky would scream and run out of the house as if you were 5 years old. Becky, Paul and Mark are still as crazy as ever and can make us laugh. We miss you honey always and I read "The Shack". There is a part in there were I can relate with the dad when he so desperately wants to be with his daughter but God tells him to be patient she is in heaven waiting for him and he needs to take care of his family here on earth. It is so hard when you miss someone with all your heart and soul and mind but I know you are there in Heaven and will have a glorious Easter but I am sure every day is glorious up there. We all miss you love bug and you are never forgotten Love you mommy




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Hello my beautiful girl. I cannot believe it has been so long since I last hugged you. I close my eyes and can imagine it. It is a Friday night and my thoughts are with you. Today I missed you so much, the emptiness never goes away. Your family misses you every second.

I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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Still miss you.




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Hi Deb, Cindy's baby Olivia is now 6 months old and now Jennifer & Jim have Samantha. The girls are beautiful. I wonder what Uncle Bucky would call them. Becky's Faith and Leighana are just too cute and now there will be another Pluister. You are in our thoughts and hearts every day. We all miss you terribly. Love you.




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21:10:49 11/27/08


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hey Deb, it's been a while since i visited this site. i guess that was a good thing for me and didn't make me think about you as much. I've been doing alright in general. things could be better but i'm just thankful for the gift of life everyday and thankfful for the things i have that many people in the world don't have. theres so much i wanna tell you. right now you and me are having one of our moments where we are spiritually/mentally connected. I know we are lookin up/down at each other laughin and cryin at the same time. i know you know how much i've come in the last 5 years and it is truely amazing. no one on this world knows it but you and me. You are so lucky yur in heaven and i'm stuck here right now. i wish i could just break the connection we have right now and transport up there right next to you. when the going gets tough and my fire starts to die, the thought of you and our friendship lights it up all the way again. I love you and I can't wait to be partying with you. the small short mortal life seems so long but that everlasting life is going to be priceless once i'm there. love you deb, thanx for everything




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Hello my beautiful niece,
How every cell of my body and soul misses you. I think of you a million times a day. It though it has been over 44 months since our family has seen your beautiful smile, we miss you more each day. It never gets any better, just worse. I see some of your friends are now married and having babies, and it makes me so sad that you never had those things. Life is just not fair.

I think of all the changes in our family that you have missed: Jimmy in medical school, Alec in High School, your 2 nieces, your cousin Cindy having a baby (!), your other cousins having babies, oh how I wish you could be here.

Uncle Pete and I are so proud of you. We miss you every holiday, every Sunday church service, every birthday, every day.

I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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Hi Hon I look at the pictures of you and my heart just aches for you. I see so many young girls and the fun and laughter that comes from them and I just reflect on you and the crazy girl you were and the energy that you had. The kids are going to Abaco again and they are peparing just like we used to do with you and Becky, and Paul. Mark has not gone yet but I think he will probably go next year. Your neices are just the most beautiful little girls. Oh you would just eat them up if you were here. Each day hon you are in our thoughts and can laugh about the fun times and we all love you and miss you. talk to you soon your "mommy"
xoxoxoxo




Name: Angie Miller (Huizer)
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I still think about you. And by the grace of God, by the healing power of the Holy Spirit, my thoughts of you have been joyous, not grieve-stricken. I remember how you were such a wonderful mentor to me when I was young. I imagine meeting with you again in Heaven and worshiping God with you. Almost nine years now, and you are not forgotten. Though I miss you to this day, I still thank God for you and the influence you had on my life. Love you, "Aunt" Deb!!




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12:54:21 04/11/13


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An old man always passes out your "story" and although is has been near nine years your tale of kindness and selfless actions for others will go on. The "creator" has "taken" you so for whatever reason(s) I do hope that your "spirit"remans on Earth as I know it. I do wonder why some live over 100 years and others die much younger, I never knew you personally only after your death, through a small paper. I hope you and your family have found purpose in telling your "wonderful" story, and I hope that your "spirit" is still here on Earth helping and serving others... I happen to taken a American Indian religion ... although the Christin way is fine, I think if Jesus and an American Indian Cheif met, there're would be a argument over who presides, especially in America. In the "homeland" Jesus would preside. Peace Out! I'm Staying in America for a while!




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Hello my Deborah. As always, you are on my mind but now more than ever. You would have been 30 years old tomorrow and I can't help but feel so sad at what we missed with you. Even though it has been over 8 years since we have seen that beautiful smile of yours, it seems like yesterday that you were jumping around and laughing, and giving huge bear hugs. You will never be forgotten. Never. I love you my Deborah.




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21:37:02 08/15/12


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Hello my Deborah. I am missing you today as always. I cannot believe it will be 8 years since I have hugged you or seen that huge smile of yours. There is not a single day that passes that I don't think of you a thousand times. You have missed so much in these 8 years! Sometimes I want the world to just stop and remember you. I am very proud of you and your legacy that you have left behind. "Well done my good and faithful servant." I love you my Deborah.




Name: Angie Miller (Huizer)
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17:22:56 06/07/12


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Deb,

This summer it will have been eight years... eight years and I still think of you almost daily. I have grown up. I am married now, with a job and an apartment... I'm still in school though. Studying paramedic sciences. God's given me a great passion for helping those who find themselves in emergency situations.
I haven't been back to Manitoqua in three years, which has been almost heart-breaking. But God blessed me with the chance to be a counselor there for one summer and I loved it. My husband, John and I are planning on going up there sometime this summer. He's going to learn so much about you, about camp and why we love that place so much.
I miss you, Aunt Deb, and cannot wait to see you again someday.
Much love,
Angie




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Missing you today. My heart is heavy. It never gets better.




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Hello my Deborah. I am missing you so much today. I thought about you all day and my heart aches. I will never understand God's plan in all of this but I must trust Him. I think of you in Heaven and wonder what you are doing. What do you see? I miss you my girl. I love you my Deborah. (You were taken 7 years and 7 months from us today.)




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Hello my Deborah! We had another Thanksgiving and have much to be thankful for but I cannot ignore the hole in my heart from missing you. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about you and miss you. We got together for your 29th birthday and had a nice time together with family. I can't stop thinking about the woman you would have been but then I rejoice about the woman you were. I am so proud of you and the short life you lived. Christmas was wonderful with the gifts, family time, and music but yet I missed you so much. You will never be forgotten. I love you my Deborah.
Aunt Deb




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05:56:48 12/20/11


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Happy 29th Birthday Honey. We miss you soooo! They Holidays are very hard this year. We are going to get together today with your Aunt Debbie and Aunt Trudy and Becky is going to try a make it with Calvin and Lilleighanna. and your other cousins. The family keeps growing. Faith is in school. It is good to be busy and keep my mind active. The pain can be so great. It does not get any easier. I just would love to hug you and kiss you again. People should never take those small acts of love for granted. Love you sweetie and think of you always.




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07:56:02 11/22/11


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Honey; the holidays are approching and it is always a difficult time. At Thanksgiving there is much to be thankful for and on the flip side I have a very sad part of me remembering you and you not here with us. It does not get any easier. Pastor Howard had an awesome sermon Sunday about Heaven and loved ones that are there. They played a song that I just love! What a day that will be when my Jeus I shall see. When We look upon His face There will be no more sorrow there. That is the assurance we have here on earth. Also gives us the strength to go on. We all miss you and love you each and every day. God is working miracles in Paulies life right now and Paul is starting to heal. Love you sweetie gonzales your mommy




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It is 7 years but it is like yesterday. We all love you and miss you terribly. Could not go on if we were not children of God and know that you are in Heaven and we will see you again. LOVE YOU!!




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11:42:48 08/13/11


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Hello my Deborah. I cannot believe it will be 7 years until I last saw that beautiful smile of yours. I miss you so much and think of you a million times a day. I think of everything that you have missed and it breaks my heart. You would have loved to be an aunt to Faith, Lilleigh and Calvin. I went to the hair salon the other day and saw a girl who reminded me so much of you. I couldn't help but stare at her and remember how you would jump around the room and laugh so loud. Some days I think I will go crazy missing you. Know that I love you with all my heart and I miss you every second of every day.
I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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06:02:19 08/12/11


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MISS YOU SWEETIE GONZALES AND LOVE YOU!!!!!




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13:22:26 08/06/11


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Hi Honey I miss you so! I can't believe it is going on 7 years. Paul has been having a rough time and misses you terribly So does Becky and Mark. We just take it a day at a time. It helps me to express myself here because I feel close to you when I imagine talking to you. Mark is just finishing camp this summer just like you did the last summer you were here with us. Such sweet and wonderful memories. Memories can be heartbreaking. I still can't get myelf to watch a dvd with you in it and here your voice. The pain is to great. Well honey we love you and talk about you often and how crazy you were. Becky and Chris went away for their 10th anniversary and Becky said so much reminded her of you. Love you love bug and miss you love mommy




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Hey love bug well it is mothers day down here but it has never been the same since you are gone. Even though your brothers and sister are here there is an empy place in my heart for you and I can not kiss you, hug you, laugh with and at you and tell you how much I love you. You are missed every day and I love you very much! love you mommy




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Hey sweet heart I was writing to you yesterday but for some reason I got kicked off. It was Easter down here and what a beautiful day it was. Becky was in with the kids and they were so much fun and so cute. Paul and Mark are as crazy as you are and are doing good. We all miss you and talk about you often. I am sure Heaven is a glorious place especially on Easter and the angels all around someday we will see each other again and my heart soul will be happy again. I love you with all my heart and miss you each day. love mommy




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I have been thinking about visiting home alot. I want to go when its warmer, maybe May. I wish we could go to the Dells like we did when we were younger. I think about you every day even if im not good at showing it. I find it hard to stay in touch with our parents and siblings but you guys are always on my mind. I love you and miss you very much! Your a truely good person that the world is missing greatly. LOVE YOU!!!! Shannon




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I miss u debbie. It makes me sad that even I have gotten married and had kids. Its not fair. I still wish there were other things I would have have said to u our last day. U are an amazing person. I'm not surprised to read some of these posts and see how many lives u changed. U personally changed my life. I love u and will forever miss u. My heart still goes out to ur family.....




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Hello my girl. Happy 28th birthday. I close my eyes and imagine how you would be today. I think you would be married and have a few babies. My heart breaks for what we have missed with you. There is never a day that goes by that I don't think of you a million tiimes. My entire soul misses you, sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and cry myself back to sleep. This never gets better because every day I am a day farther away from you.

I bought a new CD by Casting Crowns and it has a song on it that children sing "Peace on Earth" in the background. It sounds like angels to me. I can't help but wonder if that is what you heard when you went to be with our Lord. I miss you so much, my Deborah, words cannot express. Tomorrow some of our family will be together and we will remember and celebrate your life. We are so proud of you and, as Pastor Howard says, we have no fear as to where you are. Happy Birthday my girl. I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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03:57:01 10/10/10


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So here i am sitting in my room blubbering like a big baby just thinking about how amazing you were. ha what a sight to see. I always think about you and how i love you so much and wish you were dancing around the house and being goofy. some days im okay and others it hits me so hard and i just can picture your face so clearly in my head and its like you arent even gone. oh how i wish you werent gone but i know God is using you in ways i cant even imagine. When i get to heaven your going to have to show me around. Becky and paul miss you i know and mom and dad will always miss you and never stop loving you. i sure hope you are proud of me down here. its not easy trying to go about life knowing that you lost a sister and a best friend and try to act like things are normal. but i have a girlfriend and her name is alex and i wish you could have met her. i see a lot of her in you and it makes me so happy sometimes. i wish faith and lilleigh could have gotten to meet oh my would their lives have been changed. but i will make sure they get to hear about you all the time. you will never be forgotten on this earth and i hope i will be getting to see you soon.
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND NEVER WILL STOP
love your little brother,
mark




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My Baby girl oh how I miss you. It doesn't get any easier. I see you and hear your laugh in so many ways and times of the day. I look at your pictures around the house and you are so close to my soul that I feel like I could reach out and hug you again. I cry many times wishing you would jump around and be silly with Becky, Paul and Mark. You would love Faith and Lilleigh and Calvin and of course you would love all the other little ones that were born into our family. You are missed by many and will always be remembered. I love you sweet heart and I think of you every day. Love mommy




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Deb,
I just came across a handful of pictures of you and I and friends. Still to this day it turns my stomach knowing youre not here. The last time I saw you we went for a walk along Lake Mich. when you were at school. There were alot of things left unspoken, and it hurts to know that I didnt get the chance to tell you what I needed to. I dont think Ill ever have the words to say how you made me feel. Haha I remember washing and cleaning out your car for you, "the bucket", as you called it, and you were so excited about it! Your excitement for life and the small things was contagious. I still miss you more than people know. Your smile and your hugs were as warming as the sun. I MISS YOU! And sadly its taken me 6 yrs to publicly say that!




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Debs!

I haven't been able to find this page in quite sometime and low and behold here it is! Boy do I miss you...not a day goes by that I don't think of you or something funny we did together. You may have recently welcomed someone to where you are...he was a good friend of mine and he too will be missed greatly please give him one of your giant hugs for me. I hope that you two are laughing loud together and sharing stories. He was a great person and just like you was taken too soon from this Earth. Please help his family and friends through this difficult time and let them know that he will forever be smiling down on them just like i know you are each and everyday. What I wouldn't give to see you again...just for a moment. I love you Debs! I'll see you when I get there. Anda



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20:20:41 12/28/09


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Happy late birthday. I miss you so much. Its not the same visiting mom and dad and not seeing you. We went downtown today and I thought about you. Remember when we went to Navy Pier after Beckys wedding? We had so much fun and ate so much ice cream that we had a stomach ache. I love you and miss you!




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23:32:33 12/21/09


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Happy Birthday my sweetie gonzales
We celebrated your birthay here on earth Becky and Faith came in and Aunt Debbie and I took the train with them downtown and met Aunt Trudy, Aunt Debbie Kiers, Cindy Jacclyn and McKenzie. We told funny stories about you and Becky and alot of funny things you used to do together. Boy did we laugh. You would just love your neices and nephew. They are the most precious gift and they will know their Aunt Debbie. We read a book called Heaven and it sure is a place that Christians can dream and pray someday we will be their with you and all our other loved ones We ordered some pretty flowers and had them in front of church in honor of your birthday. they had red and white roses and Christmas flowers and also some white lillys. I thought of grandma when I saw the lillys. I hope they will last till Christmas so we can have them out of the table as a centerpiece. Well love bug I miss you and love you very much. I will write again after Christmas and I know you are having a beautiful Christmas their with Jesus and everyone else around you. Love You Sweet Heart Mommy




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09:36:18 09/21/09


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Hey debs! this past summer in abaco i could see your presence everywhere. we all knew that you were with us. We made it a "Debs trip" and everywhere we went we passed out your tracks. the look on peoples faces were priceless, especially when they told us they knew you. People we didnt recognize told us they already had one at home that they recieved, but they wouldlike another to pass along. It was so amazing to see your story being passed around, even after we leave. Debs Pastor Robin still weeps for you, and not a day went by down in abaco that we didnt mention you at least 4 times. You've impacted so many lives and we can't thank you enough for that! i love you and miss you! Rock out in heaven!




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Every day I think about Deb. I think about how things can change for everyone in an instant. How things can affect you every second because of that instant. The last thing Deb ever said to me was "you're a beautiful person. you are in God's image." This is the only quote from anyone I will always remember. Considering I literally had gotten braces, the day after I had my first seizure, with a broken tooth and a heart monitor attached to my side, I felt as if I couldn't have been a more beautiful person in my life. Every day I miss her, but I know she is looking out for me, helping me every day.




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I miss you every day Deb. Time does not make this any easier. The only peace I have in this is knowing that you are with our Father. I love you Deb.




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00:00:01 08/17/09


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Hello my Deborah,
I cannot believe it has been 5 years since I saw and hugged you. It does not get easier, each day you are farther away from me. When I close my eyes, I see you standing in front of me, smiling, bouncing around, and laughing. I open my eyes and the nightmare continues because you are not there. I miss you so much.
I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb





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19:15:47 08/15/09


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My dear sweetie gonzales. Oh how I miss you so. It is so hard to believe it is five years. I live each day as if it was only yesterday. The sadness of missing you, hugging you, kissing you and just all of you kids being silly and crazy. Well your sister and brothers are still crazy and can laugh even though you are not here and adding to the craziness. Becky had a baby boy and his name is Calvin Timothy. You'll have to let grandma and Uncle Bucky know because they would love the name Timothy as his middle name. You would love Faith and Lilleighanna. They are the most beautiful girls and you would have just loved them so. We always talk about you and you will never be forgotten. Mark is going off to college and he worked all summer at camp. He just got done this week. It brings back alot of memories when you just got home working you last week at camp. Paul is doing good he of course misses his best friend but he will come out of this stronger and loves you very much as we all do. So much has changed in these five years. Honey I just am sitting here missing you as I often do and wish we could go to Starbucks again and get one of those strawberry creme drinks that you got me the night before the accident. Everytime I see a Starbucks I think of that night. I love you sweetie and it does not get any easier as time goes on. People keep mentioning that and asking me if time helps make it easier but it does not. The pain and heartache is still as great as the minute I found out about the accident. You are always remembered and cherished and will see you someday. Love you love bug and lots of hugs and kisses are going your way. Mommy




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Hello my Deborah,
I think of you a million times a day. I still cannot believe you are gone. Alec went on a mission trip to Guatemala and I thought about you and your mission trips. When I was driving him to the airport, a song came on the radio and he said, "this is the song that Dad says reminds him of Deborah". I turned up the radio and thought my heart would break. It was titled "The Sissy Song" and talks about someone dying and being with the angels. I wonder what you saw that day. Did you ride to heaven on angel wings? Did you see Jesus face to face? Were you smiling that huge beautiful smile of yours? What you must have seen!!! I know you are with our Lord, but I miss you so much. I wish you were here to see my granddaughter. I wish I could hug you.
I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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hey sis it has been quite a long time. you dont know how hard this has hit me. I went to camp last summer and all i could think about was you and so i did a devotion about you and it helped a lot of people. I just wish i could see you. I know that you are in a better place but sometimes it just doesnt seem fair but i know that it truly is. You were the best sister anyone could ask for and it was just amazing to watch the love that you had for everyone and God. i miss you so much and cant wait to see you again
i love you.
mark




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17:51:42 04/07/09


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Hi sweetie gonzales. I still call all you kids that and I even call Faith and Lilleighanna that. Of course Faith laughs. I did not write because I did not know how to get to the web site. You know a day does not go by that I do not think about you, laugh at a memory of you or cry because I miss you sooooo!!! It does not get any easier as time goes by. It is hard to believe it will be 5 years this year. It seems like yessterday. Your sister is due again in June. So we will be blessed with another baby in our family. You would love all the babies and the holidays at Aunt Debbies with everyone there. On Easter we of course will do the egg hunt and we all laugh at how you and Becky would scream and run out of the house as if you were 5 years old. Becky, Paul and Mark are still as crazy as ever and can make us laugh. We miss you honey always and I read "The Shack". There is a part in there were I can relate with the dad when he so desperately wants to be with his daughter but God tells him to be patient she is in heaven waiting for him and he needs to take care of his family here on earth. It is so hard when you miss someone with all your heart and soul and mind but I know you are there in Heaven and will have a glorious Easter but I am sure every day is glorious up there. We all miss you love bug and you are never forgotten Love you mommy




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Hello my beautiful girl. I cannot believe it has been so long since I last hugged you. I close my eyes and can imagine it. It is a Friday night and my thoughts are with you. Today I missed you so much, the emptiness never goes away. Your family misses you every second.

I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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08:12:16 01/29/09


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Still miss you.




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19:26:17 12/02/08


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Hi Deb, Cindy's baby Olivia is now 6 months old and now Jennifer & Jim have Samantha. The girls are beautiful. I wonder what Uncle Bucky would call them. Becky's Faith and Leighana are just too cute and now there will be another Pluister. You are in our thoughts and hearts every day. We all miss you terribly. Love you.




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21:10:49 11/27/08


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hey Deb, it's been a while since i visited this site. i guess that was a good thing for me and didn't make me think about you as much. I've been doing alright in general. things could be better but i'm just thankful for the gift of life everyday and thankfful for the things i have that many people in the world don't have. theres so much i wanna tell you. right now you and me are having one of our moments where we are spiritually/mentally connected. I know we are lookin up/down at each other laughin and cryin at the same time. i know you know how much i've come in the last 5 years and it is truely amazing. no one on this world knows it but you and me. You are so lucky yur in heaven and i'm stuck here right now. i wish i could just break the connection we have right now and transport up there right next to you. when the going gets tough and my fire starts to die, the thought of you and our friendship lights it up all the way again. I love you and I can't wait to be partying with you. the small short mortal life seems so long but that everlasting life is going to be priceless once i'm there. love you deb, thanx for everything




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Hello my beautiful niece,
How every cell of my body and soul misses you. I think of you a million times a day. It though it has been over 44 months since our family has seen your beautiful smile, we miss you more each day. It never gets any better, just worse. I see some of your friends are now married and having babies, and it makes me so sad that you never had those things. Life is just not fair.

I think of all the changes in our family that you have missed: Jimmy in medical school, Alec in High School, your 2 nieces, your cousin Cindy having a baby (!), your other cousins having babies, oh how I wish you could be here.

Uncle Pete and I are so proud of you. We miss you every holiday, every Sunday church service, every birthday, every day.

I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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debs!!!! i never told youu!!! i can play you rasie me up on the pianoo!!!!! and everytime i think of the song it reminds me of youu!! and i know you dont want everyone to be sad about you not being here! but debs we all are!! we all miss your smile and your awesomeness!!!! i miss you like crazy debbb!!!!!!!!! but when i see your mom at chruch it makes me feel.... i cant even describe it! like she reminds me of you! a nice sweet lady who always says hii!! lhha i miss you debb!! keep dancin with those angles<333333333333




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I still think about you. And by the grace of God, by the healing power of the Holy Spirit, my thoughts of you have been joyous, not grieve-stricken. I remember how you were such a wonderful mentor to me when I was young. I imagine meeting with you again in Heaven and worshiping God with you. Almost nine years now, and you are not forgotten. Though I miss you to this day, I still thank God for you and the influence you had on my life. Love you, "Aunt" Deb!!




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12:54:21 04/11/13


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An old man always passes out your "story" and although is has been near nine years your tale of kindness and selfless actions for others will go on. The "creator" has "taken" you so for whatever reason(s) I do hope that your "spirit"remans on Earth as I know it. I do wonder why some live over 100 years and others die much younger, I never knew you personally only after your death, through a small paper. I hope you and your family have found purpose in telling your "wonderful" story, and I hope that your "spirit" is still here on Earth helping and serving others... I happen to taken a American Indian religion ... although the Christin way is fine, I think if Jesus and an American Indian Cheif met, there're would be a argument over who presides, especially in America. In the "homeland" Jesus would preside. Peace Out! I'm Staying in America for a while!




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20:11:19 12/19/12


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Hello my Deborah. As always, you are on my mind but now more than ever. You would have been 30 years old tomorrow and I can't help but feel so sad at what we missed with you. Even though it has been over 8 years since we have seen that beautiful smile of yours, it seems like yesterday that you were jumping around and laughing, and giving huge bear hugs. You will never be forgotten. Never. I love you my Deborah.




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21:37:02 08/15/12


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Hello my Deborah. I am missing you today as always. I cannot believe it will be 8 years since I have hugged you or seen that huge smile of yours. There is not a single day that passes that I don't think of you a thousand times. You have missed so much in these 8 years! Sometimes I want the world to just stop and remember you. I am very proud of you and your legacy that you have left behind. "Well done my good and faithful servant." I love you my Deborah.




Name: Angie Miller (Huizer)
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17:22:56 06/07/12


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Deb,

This summer it will have been eight years... eight years and I still think of you almost daily. I have grown up. I am married now, with a job and an apartment... I'm still in school though. Studying paramedic sciences. God's given me a great passion for helping those who find themselves in emergency situations.
I haven't been back to Manitoqua in three years, which has been almost heart-breaking. But God blessed me with the chance to be a counselor there for one summer and I loved it. My husband, John and I are planning on going up there sometime this summer. He's going to learn so much about you, about camp and why we love that place so much.
I miss you, Aunt Deb, and cannot wait to see you again someday.
Much love,
Angie




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Missing you today. My heart is heavy. It never gets better.




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17:53:18 03/17/12


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Hello my Deborah. I am missing you so much today. I thought about you all day and my heart aches. I will never understand God's plan in all of this but I must trust Him. I think of you in Heaven and wonder what you are doing. What do you see? I miss you my girl. I love you my Deborah. (You were taken 7 years and 7 months from us today.)




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13:55:10 12/31/11


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Hello my Deborah! We had another Thanksgiving and have much to be thankful for but I cannot ignore the hole in my heart from missing you. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about you and miss you. We got together for your 29th birthday and had a nice time together with family. I can't stop thinking about the woman you would have been but then I rejoice about the woman you were. I am so proud of you and the short life you lived. Christmas was wonderful with the gifts, family time, and music but yet I missed you so much. You will never be forgotten. I love you my Deborah.
Aunt Deb




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05:56:48 12/20/11


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Happy 29th Birthday Honey. We miss you soooo! They Holidays are very hard this year. We are going to get together today with your Aunt Debbie and Aunt Trudy and Becky is going to try a make it with Calvin and Lilleighanna. and your other cousins. The family keeps growing. Faith is in school. It is good to be busy and keep my mind active. The pain can be so great. It does not get any easier. I just would love to hug you and kiss you again. People should never take those small acts of love for granted. Love you sweetie and think of you always.




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07:56:02 11/22/11


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Honey; the holidays are approching and it is always a difficult time. At Thanksgiving there is much to be thankful for and on the flip side I have a very sad part of me remembering you and you not here with us. It does not get any easier. Pastor Howard had an awesome sermon Sunday about Heaven and loved ones that are there. They played a song that I just love! What a day that will be when my Jeus I shall see. When We look upon His face There will be no more sorrow there. That is the assurance we have here on earth. Also gives us the strength to go on. We all miss you and love you each and every day. God is working miracles in Paulies life right now and Paul is starting to heal. Love you sweetie gonzales your mommy




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07:43:46 08/16/11


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It is 7 years but it is like yesterday. We all love you and miss you terribly. Could not go on if we were not children of God and know that you are in Heaven and we will see you again. LOVE YOU!!




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11:42:48 08/13/11


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Hello my Deborah. I cannot believe it will be 7 years until I last saw that beautiful smile of yours. I miss you so much and think of you a million times a day. I think of everything that you have missed and it breaks my heart. You would have loved to be an aunt to Faith, Lilleigh and Calvin. I went to the hair salon the other day and saw a girl who reminded me so much of you. I couldn't help but stare at her and remember how you would jump around the room and laugh so loud. Some days I think I will go crazy missing you. Know that I love you with all my heart and I miss you every second of every day.
I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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06:02:19 08/12/11


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MISS YOU SWEETIE GONZALES AND LOVE YOU!!!!!




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13:22:26 08/06/11


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Hi Honey I miss you so! I can't believe it is going on 7 years. Paul has been having a rough time and misses you terribly So does Becky and Mark. We just take it a day at a time. It helps me to express myself here because I feel close to you when I imagine talking to you. Mark is just finishing camp this summer just like you did the last summer you were here with us. Such sweet and wonderful memories. Memories can be heartbreaking. I still can't get myelf to watch a dvd with you in it and here your voice. The pain is to great. Well honey we love you and talk about you often and how crazy you were. Becky and Chris went away for their 10th anniversary and Becky said so much reminded her of you. Love you love bug and miss you love mommy




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19:15:05 05/08/11


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Hey love bug well it is mothers day down here but it has never been the same since you are gone. Even though your brothers and sister are here there is an empy place in my heart for you and I can not kiss you, hug you, laugh with and at you and tell you how much I love you. You are missed every day and I love you very much! love you mommy




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Hey sweet heart I was writing to you yesterday but for some reason I got kicked off. It was Easter down here and what a beautiful day it was. Becky was in with the kids and they were so much fun and so cute. Paul and Mark are as crazy as you are and are doing good. We all miss you and talk about you often. I am sure Heaven is a glorious place especially on Easter and the angels all around someday we will see each other again and my heart soul will be happy again. I love you with all my heart and miss you each day. love mommy




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I have been thinking about visiting home alot. I want to go when its warmer, maybe May. I wish we could go to the Dells like we did when we were younger. I think about you every day even if im not good at showing it. I find it hard to stay in touch with our parents and siblings but you guys are always on my mind. I love you and miss you very much! Your a truely good person that the world is missing greatly. LOVE YOU!!!! Shannon




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I miss u debbie. It makes me sad that even I have gotten married and had kids. Its not fair. I still wish there were other things I would have have said to u our last day. U are an amazing person. I'm not surprised to read some of these posts and see how many lives u changed. U personally changed my life. I love u and will forever miss u. My heart still goes out to ur family.....




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Hello my girl. Happy 28th birthday. I close my eyes and imagine how you would be today. I think you would be married and have a few babies. My heart breaks for what we have missed with you. There is never a day that goes by that I don't think of you a million tiimes. My entire soul misses you, sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and cry myself back to sleep. This never gets better because every day I am a day farther away from you.

I bought a new CD by Casting Crowns and it has a song on it that children sing "Peace on Earth" in the background. It sounds like angels to me. I can't help but wonder if that is what you heard when you went to be with our Lord. I miss you so much, my Deborah, words cannot express. Tomorrow some of our family will be together and we will remember and celebrate your life. We are so proud of you and, as Pastor Howard says, we have no fear as to where you are. Happy Birthday my girl. I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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03:57:01 10/10/10


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So here i am sitting in my room blubbering like a big baby just thinking about how amazing you were. ha what a sight to see. I always think about you and how i love you so much and wish you were dancing around the house and being goofy. some days im okay and others it hits me so hard and i just can picture your face so clearly in my head and its like you arent even gone. oh how i wish you werent gone but i know God is using you in ways i cant even imagine. When i get to heaven your going to have to show me around. Becky and paul miss you i know and mom and dad will always miss you and never stop loving you. i sure hope you are proud of me down here. its not easy trying to go about life knowing that you lost a sister and a best friend and try to act like things are normal. but i have a girlfriend and her name is alex and i wish you could have met her. i see a lot of her in you and it makes me so happy sometimes. i wish faith and lilleigh could have gotten to meet oh my would their lives have been changed. but i will make sure they get to hear about you all the time. you will never be forgotten on this earth and i hope i will be getting to see you soon.
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND NEVER WILL STOP
love your little brother,
mark




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09:41:24 08/16/10


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My Baby girl oh how I miss you. It doesn't get any easier. I see you and hear your laugh in so many ways and times of the day. I look at your pictures around the house and you are so close to my soul that I feel like I could reach out and hug you again. I cry many times wishing you would jump around and be silly with Becky, Paul and Mark. You would love Faith and Lilleigh and Calvin and of course you would love all the other little ones that were born into our family. You are missed by many and will always be remembered. I love you sweet heart and I think of you every day. Love mommy




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09:38:59 06/17/10


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Deb,
I just came across a handful of pictures of you and I and friends. Still to this day it turns my stomach knowing youre not here. The last time I saw you we went for a walk along Lake Mich. when you were at school. There were alot of things left unspoken, and it hurts to know that I didnt get the chance to tell you what I needed to. I dont think Ill ever have the words to say how you made me feel. Haha I remember washing and cleaning out your car for you, "the bucket", as you called it, and you were so excited about it! Your excitement for life and the small things was contagious. I still miss you more than people know. Your smile and your hugs were as warming as the sun. I MISS YOU! And sadly its taken me 6 yrs to publicly say that!




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16:38:56 03/26/10


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Debs!

I haven't been able to find this page in quite sometime and low and behold here it is! Boy do I miss you...not a day goes by that I don't think of you or something funny we did together. You may have recently welcomed someone to where you are...he was a good friend of mine and he too will be missed greatly please give him one of your giant hugs for me. I hope that you two are laughing loud together and sharing stories. He was a great person and just like you was taken too soon from this Earth. Please help his family and friends through this difficult time and let them know that he will forever be smiling down on them just like i know you are each and everyday. What I wouldn't give to see you again...just for a moment. I love you Debs! I'll see you when I get there. Anda



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20:20:41 12/28/09


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Happy late birthday. I miss you so much. Its not the same visiting mom and dad and not seeing you. We went downtown today and I thought about you. Remember when we went to Navy Pier after Beckys wedding? We had so much fun and ate so much ice cream that we had a stomach ache. I love you and miss you!




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23:32:33 12/21/09


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Happy Birthday my sweetie gonzales
We celebrated your birthay here on earth Becky and Faith came in and Aunt Debbie and I took the train with them downtown and met Aunt Trudy, Aunt Debbie Kiers, Cindy Jacclyn and McKenzie. We told funny stories about you and Becky and alot of funny things you used to do together. Boy did we laugh. You would just love your neices and nephew. They are the most precious gift and they will know their Aunt Debbie. We read a book called Heaven and it sure is a place that Christians can dream and pray someday we will be their with you and all our other loved ones We ordered some pretty flowers and had them in front of church in honor of your birthday. they had red and white roses and Christmas flowers and also some white lillys. I thought of grandma when I saw the lillys. I hope they will last till Christmas so we can have them out of the table as a centerpiece. Well love bug I miss you and love you very much. I will write again after Christmas and I know you are having a beautiful Christmas their with Jesus and everyone else around you. Love You Sweet Heart Mommy




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09:36:18 09/21/09


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Hey debs! this past summer in abaco i could see your presence everywhere. we all knew that you were with us. We made it a "Debs trip" and everywhere we went we passed out your tracks. the look on peoples faces were priceless, especially when they told us they knew you. People we didnt recognize told us they already had one at home that they recieved, but they wouldlike another to pass along. It was so amazing to see your story being passed around, even after we leave. Debs Pastor Robin still weeps for you, and not a day went by down in abaco that we didnt mention you at least 4 times. You've impacted so many lives and we can't thank you enough for that! i love you and miss you! Rock out in heaven!




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23:51:35 09/16/09


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Every day I think about Deb. I think about how things can change for everyone in an instant. How things can affect you every second because of that instant. The last thing Deb ever said to me was "you're a beautiful person. you are in God's image." This is the only quote from anyone I will always remember. Considering I literally had gotten braces, the day after I had my first seizure, with a broken tooth and a heart monitor attached to my side, I felt as if I couldn't have been a more beautiful person in my life. Every day I miss her, but I know she is looking out for me, helping me every day.




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07:47:57 08/17/09


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I miss you every day Deb. Time does not make this any easier. The only peace I have in this is knowing that you are with our Father. I love you Deb.




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00:00:01 08/17/09


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Hello my Deborah,
I cannot believe it has been 5 years since I saw and hugged you. It does not get easier, each day you are farther away from me. When I close my eyes, I see you standing in front of me, smiling, bouncing around, and laughing. I open my eyes and the nightmare continues because you are not there. I miss you so much.
I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb





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19:15:47 08/15/09


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My dear sweetie gonzales. Oh how I miss you so. It is so hard to believe it is five years. I live each day as if it was only yesterday. The sadness of missing you, hugging you, kissing you and just all of you kids being silly and crazy. Well your sister and brothers are still crazy and can laugh even though you are not here and adding to the craziness. Becky had a baby boy and his name is Calvin Timothy. You'll have to let grandma and Uncle Bucky know because they would love the name Timothy as his middle name. You would love Faith and Lilleighanna. They are the most beautiful girls and you would have just loved them so. We always talk about you and you will never be forgotten. Mark is going off to college and he worked all summer at camp. He just got done this week. It brings back alot of memories when you just got home working you last week at camp. Paul is doing good he of course misses his best friend but he will come out of this stronger and loves you very much as we all do. So much has changed in these five years. Honey I just am sitting here missing you as I often do and wish we could go to Starbucks again and get one of those strawberry creme drinks that you got me the night before the accident. Everytime I see a Starbucks I think of that night. I love you sweetie and it does not get any easier as time goes on. People keep mentioning that and asking me if time helps make it easier but it does not. The pain and heartache is still as great as the minute I found out about the accident. You are always remembered and cherished and will see you someday. Love you love bug and lots of hugs and kisses are going your way. Mommy




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18:45:34 06/08/09


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Hello my Deborah,
I think of you a million times a day. I still cannot believe you are gone. Alec went on a mission trip to Guatemala and I thought about you and your mission trips. When I was driving him to the airport, a song came on the radio and he said, "this is the song that Dad says reminds him of Deborah". I turned up the radio and thought my heart would break. It was titled "The Sissy Song" and talks about someone dying and being with the angels. I wonder what you saw that day. Did you ride to heaven on angel wings? Did you see Jesus face to face? Were you smiling that huge beautiful smile of yours? What you must have seen!!! I know you are with our Lord, but I miss you so much. I wish you were here to see my granddaughter. I wish I could hug you.
I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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11:11:25 04/13/09


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hey sis it has been quite a long time. you dont know how hard this has hit me. I went to camp last summer and all i could think about was you and so i did a devotion about you and it helped a lot of people. I just wish i could see you. I know that you are in a better place but sometimes it just doesnt seem fair but i know that it truly is. You were the best sister anyone could ask for and it was just amazing to watch the love that you had for everyone and God. i miss you so much and cant wait to see you again
i love you.
mark




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17:51:42 04/07/09


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Hi sweetie gonzales. I still call all you kids that and I even call Faith and Lilleighanna that. Of course Faith laughs. I did not write because I did not know how to get to the web site. You know a day does not go by that I do not think about you, laugh at a memory of you or cry because I miss you sooooo!!! It does not get any easier as time goes by. It is hard to believe it will be 5 years this year. It seems like yessterday. Your sister is due again in June. So we will be blessed with another baby in our family. You would love all the babies and the holidays at Aunt Debbies with everyone there. On Easter we of course will do the egg hunt and we all laugh at how you and Becky would scream and run out of the house as if you were 5 years old. Becky, Paul and Mark are still as crazy as ever and can make us laugh. We miss you honey always and I read "The Shack". There is a part in there were I can relate with the dad when he so desperately wants to be with his daughter but God tells him to be patient she is in heaven waiting for him and he needs to take care of his family here on earth. It is so hard when you miss someone with all your heart and soul and mind but I know you are there in Heaven and will have a glorious Easter but I am sure every day is glorious up there. We all miss you love bug and you are never forgotten Love you mommy




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00:14:22 03/28/09


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Hello my beautiful girl. I cannot believe it has been so long since I last hugged you. I close my eyes and can imagine it. It is a Friday night and my thoughts are with you. Today I missed you so much, the emptiness never goes away. Your family misses you every second.

I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




Name: Angela
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08:12:16 01/29/09


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Still miss you.




Name: Aunt Trudy
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19:26:17 12/02/08


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Hi Deb, Cindy's baby Olivia is now 6 months old and now Jennifer & Jim have Samantha. The girls are beautiful. I wonder what Uncle Bucky would call them. Becky's Faith and Leighana are just too cute and now there will be another Pluister. You are in our thoughts and hearts every day. We all miss you terribly. Love you.




Name: Mike Mroz
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21:10:49 11/27/08


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hey Deb, it's been a while since i visited this site. i guess that was a good thing for me and didn't make me think about you as much. I've been doing alright in general. things could be better but i'm just thankful for the gift of life everyday and thankfful for the things i have that many people in the world don't have. theres so much i wanna tell you. right now you and me are having one of our moments where we are spiritually/mentally connected. I know we are lookin up/down at each other laughin and cryin at the same time. i know you know how much i've come in the last 5 years and it is truely amazing. no one on this world knows it but you and me. You are so lucky yur in heaven and i'm stuck here right now. i wish i could just break the connection we have right now and transport up there right next to you. when the going gets tough and my fire starts to die, the thought of you and our friendship lights it up all the way again. I love you and I can't wait to be partying with you. the small short mortal life seems so long but that everlasting life is going to be priceless once i'm there. love you deb, thanx for everything




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22:05:31 04/27/08


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Hello my beautiful niece,
How every cell of my body and soul misses you. I think of you a million times a day. It though it has been over 44 months since our family has seen your beautiful smile, we miss you more each day. It never gets any better, just worse. I see some of your friends are now married and having babies, and it makes me so sad that you never had those things. Life is just not fair.

I think of all the changes in our family that you have missed: Jimmy in medical school, Alec in High School, your 2 nieces, your cousin Cindy having a baby (!), your other cousins having babies, oh how I wish you could be here.

Uncle Pete and I are so proud of you. We miss you every holiday, every Sunday church service, every birthday, every day.

I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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07:33:25 06/12/06


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hi DebaDeba I miss you so it gets harder everyday. i didin't know where the web sight was and Aunt Debbie found it I am so happy that we can talk to you again. Alot of your friends have graduated from college and are getting married. These were your hopes and dreams too. Our littlde Faith is such a doll If you were here you would have to see her every day. You would just want to eat her up!!!. Mark made Profession of Faith yesterday along with Alec and Taylor. You would be so proud of your cousins and brother. Mark is at Kemmere this week with wave. I still remember all the fun trips you went on with wave.
Paul has been working and seems to like the job. Becky might start teaching part time in the fall. We think of you and miss you everyday. There is always something that goes on and we laugh and think our Deborah would be enjoying this or screaming and jumping around like you used to I can still see and love the silliness that you had. I miss you terribly. So I will talk to you soon and I love you very much love mommy.




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22:22:17 06/09/06


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Hello my girl,
How I miss you. Life has not been the same without you. I think of you a million times a day. How I wish I could hug and kiss you. You have missed so much in the last 21 months. I love you with all my heart. Say hi to Grandma and Uncle Bucky. I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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13:03:03 04/01/06


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Hey Aunt Deb, wow its been awhile since ive been on here, it didnt work for awhile and i had it on my favorites on my other computer and i came to it today and i really miss you deb, its been crazy without you. My grandma is getting old in her age and it scares me everyday when im not with her but you told me the first year i met you that if she does pass away that she is going to party and dance with god and thats how i see you everytime i think of you. I hope your having a good time up there and i hope to see you soon. I LOVE YOU!




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21:28:59 02/02/06


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hay debs its not the same with out u still it feals like just yesterday we were at manatoqua and puting the golf cart in to nutral and flying down the hill. it must be so amasing being able to dance in the presents of are king u have made a searous change in my life and i thank you 4 that even 2 day u will neve be forgotten deb u chaned so maney lifes and still r chaning others throu the ones u have changed!




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16:53:08 10/10/05


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Aunt Deb...wow i miss you soo unbelievably much...comming to this page makes me cry but i knew i needed to come back to it. I just wanted to say i miss you and love you soo much and i cant wait till i get to see you again




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18:54:57 10/09/05


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Hi sweeetie boy it seems like a long time since I talked to you last. It seems like church is getting busier and busier. I think of you always and miss you so much. Becky and Chris just moved into their new home and is it wonderful. Little Faith has a crib now and such a cute bedroom set. The room is all sea creatures and they painted the walls real pretty colors, yellow, blue, green and purple, isn't that cool. Faith is getting to be such a cutie and she knows if someone else is holding her besides mommy and daddy. She is so much fun and you would just want to eat her up. We sure miss you with all of these happy times down here and wish you were here. Mark is taller than Paul now and is doing good in school. Paul is still looking for a job and something will come up soon. I will talk to you soon Hon
Love you lots mom




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18:53:45 10/07/05


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Hey Debster,
Camp was hard without you there this summer, i missed you every commitment night. I had to bring the food AND the drink...me and Mel shared though. I went to visit you this summer to, we got lost and i am sure you loved watching us try and find you. I miss you so much, you were a pretty amazing joker. Thanks for everything Debs.
Paulie and family, you guys are such an inspiration to me, this year has been so hard on you and i hope you know i pray for you every night. Thanks for always sharing so openly, God Bless...




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20:43:06 10/04/05


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Hi Debs,

I haven't written to you in a while and so I thought I'd just say hi. I think about you all the time and wish more than ever you could back here. I miss you my Debs, but I will forever hold you in my heart.
I love you babe.
Anda




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18:51:27 10/02/05


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Hey Deb,
I want you to know that I still think about you all the time. Your death changed my life, as I know it did others as well. Because of it I look at everday in a new light. Thank you for being who you were.




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18:20:00 09/12/05


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Hey. it's already been over a year.wow. I see you everyday on my background when i turn on my computer and its that crzy pic of you and me cracking up. Theres not much more to talk about. I guess i've dealt with it pretty good cuz i honestly could not remember when the anniversery was until i talked to rich which was about a week ago. Times have been at there worst lately with me and my dad. You would always tell me to try and make them better cuz you never know if something could happen to him and you don't have him anymore. So i still remember that and pray for that everyday and keep tryin to make it better. Thanx alot~mike




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18:19:36 09/12/05


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Hey. it's already been over a year.wow. I see you everyday on my background when i turn on my computer and its that crzy pic of you and me cracking up. Theres not much more to talk about. I guess i've dealt with it pretty good cuz i honestly could not remember when the anniversery was until i talked to rich which was about a week ago. Times have been at there worst lately with me and my dad. You would always tell me to try and make them better cuz you never know if something could happen to him and you don't have him anymore. So i still remember that and pray for that everyday and keep tryin to make it better. Thanx alot~mike




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16:08:22 09/12/05


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Hi Deb, I have missed you sooo much. things have been so hard this passed year so much has happened. I was think about what you would do or deal in certain situations. You were such a great person and I wish we could have spent more time together when we had the chance. I love you sooo much Deb. I watch the DVD that was made of you all the time. i will never forget you.





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08:00:56 09/12/05


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Hi Hon It has been a rough weekend. We all miss you so terribly.
Becky is having a very hard time right now. Even though she is busy with Faith she misses you terribly and she doesn't know what to do. I feel that way often but you just keep going and hold on. I have been listening to alot of Sehlah and alot of there songs help me at certain moments. Faith is getting so big and smiling alot. We sure love that baby and wish you could have enjoyed her as much as we are. I said to Becky now that she is a mom she feels the love that a mom has for her children . We miss you and love you hon love your mommy




Name: Sam Jelderks
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21:13:18 09/10/05


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hey debbie you didnt know me but u went to my church. im in choir for my school and last year we sang "You Raise Me Up" and I thought about you throughout that whole song. You changed my life and I didn't even know you and not many people can do that. The only thing I can really say is that you're amazing and you are definetly a miracle. I know that you are amazing because I have heard that your brother Paulie is like you and if thats true you had to have been amazing because Paulie is one amazing guy.

Paulie- I love you so much you are so amazing. I bring your sisters brochure that to school and I put it in the front page of my Bible and if people ask I gladly tell them. We had to write something for english and you could pick a topic of your own so I wrote about your sister. what it comes down to is that your sister is my rold model. her death was kind of like a miracle because the fireman who pulled her out of the car might not have ever got in contact with his daughter, she wouldnt have made a difference in the people who didnt know her. well just know that im keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and your whole family for that matter forever. i have so much respect for your family
bye Paulie
Sam




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20:03:17 08/30/05


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Deb-
Being at school is really hard right now. I don't want to be here at all. I just feel like there are so many other things I could be doing with my life right now. You leaving this earth has reminded me that life can be ended so quickly. There isn't time to waste. I just wanted you to know that you have really inspired me Deb. I love you and I miss you and I know that you are looking down on me during the hard times.





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23:53:58 08/21/05


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Hey Aunt Deb,
Wow One Year its soo hard. I had poms practice for school on the 17th and i was dancing and at random times i though of you and smiled and danced like no one was watching like you would do. I miss you soo much and i think about you always. Your an amazing person aunt deb and camp wasnt the same without you this year i would always think oh aunt deb should be on that stage. but i want to thank you for helping me with everything you did i love you soo much and miss you more than you know..just be our awesome angel and watch over us and your alwyas in my heart..I LOVE YOU<3

Amanda



Name: jackie (cuz)
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22:29:49 08/20/05


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hey,
deb i miss you.i hope you are having fun.you are seeing the lord, your dad, you are seeing gramdma and uncle bucky i love you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much love,jackie




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12:42:57 08/19/05


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OMGSH i just cant believe its been a year already!!! it is like wow! time goes by so fast and u dot even know it! I think to myself ooo shes away at college studying and having a fun time and shes comming back for the summer!! and and shes comming back and shes gonna babysit!! and its like ur going to college its scary! I love you so much DEBS and i know no onw will ever forget u and hasnt! I luv you and miss you lotz!!!!!!!!!!! School starting next wekk already and im in high skoo!!! wot woot!!! well I know you re in Heaven and having a ball!!! and drinking lotz of slkurpees!!! Well don't laugh at me when I get loaded w/ h/w!!!! jk go ahead well i luv you




Name: Heather
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11:24:50 08/18/05


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Hey Debs,
It's been a crazy year. I can't believe it's been that long already. I pass the site of the accident everyday on my way to work. I get a gripping feeling in my chest every morning around 7:34 am thinking about it. I have been so blessed to have met you and have you in my life. Your actions and words were proof of what you believed and who you believed in. I miss you Debs. Have a slurpee for me. I love you.

Heather



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23:27:26 08/17/05


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Wow, one year, i can't believe it. I remember the phone call like it was yesterday. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU DEBS!




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Wow! its been a year! i cant believe how time flies soo fast. i am so comforted to kno that u are in heaven lookin down on me and everyone else. its crazy how i found out that u are friends with one of my teachers at school Dan Kenny, and i would of never of found out unless this whole situation happened. i am grateful that somethin goood came out of this bc i can get to kno him and possibly get to talk to him about things that i cant to my non-christian friends. well i miss u alot and love u!
Love,
Lori
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Hi Deborah- I can't believe this year is already over. A lot has changed in one year. I know you know you are an aunt. Faith is wonderful. Today we took her shopping. Oh boy is she spoiled. Your aunnt and mommy bought her a lot of clothes and you would of been proud-they were from baby Gap. They are so cute. Jeri and I went to get slurpees they other day and they now have slurpee braclets. How fun! Jeri told me to bring you one to the cemetary. I will someday. You wouldn't believe how big Faith is she is almost 11lbs. The doctor said since she has long legs and fingers she might be a basketball player. I thought oh boy she is really taking after her aunt. Deb, I miss you so much and love you.




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I remember this day last year so vividly and the sinking pit in my stomach and my disbelief at what I had heard. I prayed that it wasn't true, that there had been a mistake and I remember I just kept thinking, "It can't be Debs...she's too good, too loved, too young to go be with God". There are times where I still have trouble grasping it all, still. I know from Paulie and Becky just how much of a role model and true friend Deb was not only to WAVE kids and school kids, but to her own family. She shared the gospel by her words and by her life's example.

To the angel's family: Again, I offer my deepest sympathy for your loss. I feel blessed to have known her, taught bible school with her, and to have worked with her. Treasure your memories and may God be with you, you are all in my prayers.



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So this entry is mainly for all of my heart at camp and those that hold it. We all are aware its been one year today since Deb left us to dance with Jesus in heaven, and to be honest I know for a fact she was here with us at camp today. So me, Jfed and Erika were cleanign out the arc and such this morning, and when i went to put mailboxes up in cold storage, there she was. we had cleaned out boxes tuesday, but somehow all summer, and through both cleanouts, one slip of paper missed everyones attention; and when i shoved the box up over my head it came floating down at me. Down below my feet it landed. DEB. it was an affirmation to her from Jim. And I know its silly and small, but it put here back at camp, it made her here again. Me and Deb were never uber tight like some of you were her special jokers, but I always loved and admired her, and she always took the time to make sure I was ok, and how things were going. That always ment alot to me.

so God, thank you for making someone so special that you could share her with us for just the short time you did. I always feel its those few people that shake the world that God brings back to heaven early, beucase, they were never ment to be here. They are angels, and God let them, let Deb be a light and an angel to us here, for the times others needed her. I know God didn't take her from us, but took her from himself for a short time, and brought her back home, so I smile in my tears not for losing her, but for knowing her.




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I cannot believe it has been a year since you left us. Our hearts are so heavy. I told your mom how strange it is that when we woke up on August 17, 2004, little did we realize that we would go to bed a different family. I am so proud of the life you lived in your short 21 years on earth. You were so good. Your mom and I went to the cemetery and laid flowers across your entire grave. Then we lit two candles, one smaller candle that represented your short life on earth, and then one larger candle that represented the light of Christ that you lit in so many other hearts.

As this day ends, I pray that you will always be remembered as a true child of God, who loved her family, friends, and life. I pray that God may give us strength to make it through the next year without you. It is just so hard. I love you my Deborah.



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I can't believe it's been a year Deb. I miss you so much.




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wow~ debs! one year already~ it still feels tthat u were at college this whole year! i remember one year ago today that someone (not mentioning names) told me n amy online that you went to be with the Lord JEsus Crist! ~n~ now~ its been hard and long! i just want to give mi extended love and prayers to your family escpecially today because i know how hard it has been! wow one year! im reaplaying it over and over again ! DEB ~even though those who didnt no you love u and miss you from the stories! but God has helped me through this past year! its been so0o0 hard on your family and friends! our church life has helped me as well!~ i just hope that this year wont be as painful! well i love u and miss you deborah !
Julie DeRuiter!
p.s. today is so hard for all of us!




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Wow... A year. I woke up this morning and immediately thought of you Debs. You are truly missed down here by all your family and friends. This past year must have been the greatest year in your life though, being in Heaven. I miss you so much, and I love you.




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Debs,

I still can't believe that you are gone! I think of all the times, laughs and fun we had together, and though I smile, I am also fighting back tears. The pain of that day, finding out you were leaving still exisits, but is slowly healing. I just remember and keep thinking about what you told me at lunch the day before, you told me, "I have never felt so close to GOD." I'll never forget that and how truly right you were when you told me that. Debs, I just miss you!

Love ya always,

Dan

my continued prayers are with your family and loved ones all the time. Thanks so much for sharing one of God's gifts(your daughter) with all of us!



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Hello my Debs,
I'm not exactly sure what to write to you other than I miss you. It will be a year tomorrow and the hole in my heart is still very much there, if not more so than before. I find comfort in talking with Aunt Deb and your mom...they are truly wonderful. I drive by that door to heaven all the time and I hope that you can hear me when I talk to you while I am driving past. And I don't want to be shelfish but I cant help the fact that I want you back here with all your friends and family. The tears I cry (and I know you'd tell me "Anda, theres no need for tears) don't even seem to express how I truly feel about how much I miss you and just wish that I could call and talk to you. I was thinking today that a year ago I could've done just that, but didn't...I hope that you know what you meant to me...I wil never ever forget our fun times together and I will forever honor you in my heart and mind and with the words I speak. I talk about you all the time and just wish I was talking to you rather than about you...I miss you Debs. I wish you were here. I know you are with me, as you are with your other friends and all of your family, each and every day....I love you Debs, and I know we will see eachother someday soon...
I love you,
Anda




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HEyy debs!! i havent written here in a long time soo i thoguth i would write u sumtin! well its gonna b a year tom. taht u left and i will never forget the day when i came home and my mom told me that some one had died!! i was cryin for soo long!!! i miss ya debs!! and at camp i had a feelin it wasnt gonna b the same cuz u werent there but i knew you were there cause i could feel u singin w/ us on comment night!! and i was scared czu i could feel u watchin over us and it jsut felt great!! well i know u are in a better place and im not cryin any more becuz i kno that we will all see u again!! and that if i keep cryin it doesnt mean taht u will come back!! im jsut tryin to b strong and it is hard i cant imagine how ur family feels!! well congrats on ur niece!! i bet she is presious!! well im tellin everbody to call me urka cuz that is the nickname u gave me soo i love hearing it cuz it brings back so may good memories!! my camp counsler was jsut like u a tough softball, all about god person!!! and it made me feel soo much better to have her because it was like another you but i kno that NO ONE could replace u!! she didnt have ur smile!! but she was bery similar to u!! but it wasnt the same cuz i kno that it wasnt u!! i miss ya debs!! ya hi to JC for me!! well im glad i met ppl at surf becuz they really helped me through all my times w/ u !!! i love you DEBS!! XOXO Erika ---- Urka!! : )




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well baby cakes I am very very sad this week. Just to think it has been a year. Jenni and John made a beautiful cross that we could put back on the corner and it is such a tribute to you. I know we look at it as your door to heaven and we get peace from that. The headstone is in and it is so hard to see your name there. Becky and your Aunt Debbie helped with picking it out and it is really a nice stone and of course we had to put on there your saying
"I'm Outta Here" Cousin Christie is going to help make a scrap book for us so I am so thankful for that help because as you know I am not a very craftsy person. haha You have to tell Uncle Bucky that we are calling Faith "pookey" as a nick name since he nick named her that the day before he died so just to let him know we are keeping that name for her. Anyone who would like the tracs that the church had made up of Deborah can give us their address and we will mail them out to you. I get such comfort from reading what the kids write on here from camp and all of your other friends. Well Deb Deb I think of you always and love you and miss you so, Oh and when I was looking through your papers for the scrapbook I of course found your baby book and just to see your new born picture again was just the best and to read the different things that I wrote in there it made me miss you even more but I know we will be together again some day. Love you baby, your Mom




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I miss you so much Deb. It was really hard to work at camp without you this summer. Every time I looked at Tyler Siebert I thought of you. I love you so very much Deb.




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Wow... almost a year has past. Camp surely was different without you! I worked with Paulie, and his love for the kids reminded me so much of your love for them. As the summer winds to an end, it just reminded me of what took place a year ago. I was standing in my old job when my brother called asking me if it was true. I couldn't believe it! But then i went home to an empty house and cried. Debs i miss you tons and i hope to see you in heaven one day. Camp still has you there whether it be through Paulie or through the kids that knew you, or just the friends of yours. Well i think it's time for me to go. Remember the Pickle Juice? ="( I LOVE YOU! Your family is still in my prayers!




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I love and miss you




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I know I post here a lot, especially lately. But this is the only place that I can find comfort. I just miss you so much, and it is so hard to be living in Indianapolis where it seems that no one else knows who you are, so they don't understand the pain I feel when I think about you. It just hurts so much, Aunt Deb, it hurt that I didnt get to see you at camp this year. But seeing your mom and brothers helped me. Being at camp was so helpful, because there, people knew you. I'm the only one in Indianapolis.
I am praying for your family and friends.
Miss you. Love you.




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I can't believe it has almost been a year since you have left us. Sometimes people ask me if I still think you are here with me. I can honestly say that I have never forgotten for one single second that you are gone. Every cell in my body and soul misses you. That will never change.

I see your new niece, my great niece, and I am reminded how good God can be. He blesses us even in our deep sorrow. When I see the baby, I am reminded of the good things in life. I think of how prophetic her name is-Faith Christine, "FAITH in CHRISTine." Not even with the deaths of our mom, brother, and beloved niece will our faith in Christ diminish. I wonder all the time about what Grandma, Uncle Bucky, and you are doing together. I read what Uncle Bucky wrote on your website and I think how happy he must be now that the hole in his heart is once again filled with you. Our family will miss you forever. Our family will continue to walk in faith, even though we cannot see. I love you my Deborah.



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hey to anyone who knows about these "tracks" that are being passed out at a church (as mentioned in jullie's post) i am curious to know what they are.
thanks




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hey aunt deb...
the days are going by so slowly, and it just gets harder all the time that i think about you. i found a newsletter from manitoqua, fall 2004 and it had an article with a few pics of you in it. it was about how you were a "lifer" and how great of a person you were. i started to cry after reading the article. yeah, i've read it before, but it has been such a long time. i miss you. i miss you so much, and i can't believe its been almost a year...




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debs,
its so hard ! almost a year! i cant believe what your amazing family has gone threw(im not kidding , their truly amazing) i mean so much has happened in the last year! not to mention the past years! debs, you would be so proud! debs, i dont no what i would do if somthing like your familys expirence would happen to me! but truly, your life has been so complete in all of 2 1yrs ! wow ! i now understand how short life really is! everytime i hear "Debs song" i think of u so much! its totally safe to say, that even though your notw/ us, you are STILL changing lives today! everyone from church is still passing out your tracks! i think that tons of ppl have like 10 each haha! what an amazing story youve have! i love to share it and to never end it! all beacase of your love for Jesus! debs, i hope to give your family strength to KEEp fIGHTING and to never stop believeing , because the WILL see all of you w/ JC again!
I was reading over your messages, its so hard to believe that the other day, uncle bucky was reading/ writing on your site, now hes with you! Debs i love you SOOOOOOO much
i have our camp pictures up! i see bush alot! haha we had so much fun that year u were mi counsolor ! man o man seems like a lifetime ago! mi favorite picture is you and bush in each others clothes bathing in the "crocadiles " home aka the pond! man o man! good times w/ u at camp

i love u



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Oh, wow this is getting so hard. Going to camp- I guess it sort of shocked me, and kind of made it final that you were not coming back. That I would not see you at camp, and I would not have any of your great hugs until it is my time to go to Heaven. I would love to think that this is some horrible nightmare, but I know well that it is not. A year ago today was the last time I saw you. The last hug I got from you, the last time I talked with you. And it has been a very painful and emotional day for me. I miss you and camp so much. Sometimes I pray that God will ease everyone's pain, but I don't know if he has, or will. Congrats to you for being an Aunt. A real aunt, this time- instead of a Camp Manitoqua aunt.

But you know I will always think of you as my Aunt Deb, from Cabin C at Camp Manitoqua.



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I am back from camp. I had a wonderful time, Aunt Deb, and I could tell that you were there with us all. Everywhere I looked at camp somehow, it reminded me of you, and brought back some sort of memory. Wednesday night, commitment night was so hard though. I cried all throughout the campfire we had, because I missed you so much. Aunt Rika (Erika) was my counselor this year. She was so supportive when I told her about you. She as well, misses you.
Aunt Deb, you have done so much for me, and I thank you so much for it. I just miss you so much, and it still hurts after so many months.
I am so glad though that you have been in my life for the past 3 years.
I love you, and I can't wait til we are all rejoycing in Heaven together.




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I am going to camp today. I can't wait to visit the place where I met you, Aunt Deb. The place that will bring back all the good memories. So in a way, I guess I will see you there!
Love you, and miss you...




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I miss you so much it hurts. Congrats to being an Aunt. It must be a wonderful feeling. Congrats to Becky and the family. I actually just found out I am pregnant.. I am going to use part of your name for my baby if its a girl. I love you so much Debs and thanks for looking out for me. I pray for your family everyday and I have my small group for church doing the same. I wish peace and comfort upon your whole family and I am sorry about the recent losses. Keep having fun up there and I cant wait until I can see you again.




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Hello my Debs....I am sorry its been a while since I've written but I think about you all the time. I miss you dearly, but its the memories and funny stories I have to tell others about that make me realize that I will always have you as a best friend. I know you will, but make sure you keep your family strong. I love you Debs, you're always in my thoughts, prayers, and heart.
Love,
Anda




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i just wanna say that you are such a wonderful person and you affected so many people in such positive ways its unbelievable! Deb, at camp its not the same but we know that you are still there watching over everyone. You were such a great person and i thank you for that.




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Hi Hon boy do I miss you and grandma and Bucky lately it just seems to much to bear. I look at little Faith and I say boy would Deborah have such a good time with her. She is beautiful hon and Becky and Chris are such good parents. She gained a pound and grew an inch. I just can't believe all the family has been through but thank God for church and friends and God to stand by us and get us through each day. My computer is down so I haven't gotten on the site lately. If Angela or any one else wants to email me she can do it through church were I work. So I bet you were surprised to see Uncle Bucky walk up to you and everyone else up there. We will miss him but we know where he is and praise God for that. I love you very much and miss you terribly love you mom




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Hi Deb

I have a memory of Uncle Bucky that will never forget. He went on this website every night to read the messages to his niece. Sometimes he wrote a message and sometimes he just listened to the music through the computer. He missed you "Beeper"! He was in the process of thinking of a name for Faith just before he died. More and more of our family has gone to be with the Lord. It must be like one of our family parties up there. I know they won't be the same here. I send my love to you sweet girl.



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So i came across this randomly the night my uncle petes funeral was and he was 36 and passed away after battling from cancer for 2 years. His wife is pregnant due in spetember with their fourth child. The others are all under the age of 5. Ive seen my family struggle through lost of my oma.. dear mother to 6 .. etc. just 1 and half months ago and now to go through the lost of a dear brother.. uncle.. and human being.. its been tough.. i see my mom struggle through this and those around are just wilting at the thought of losing anyone that they hold dear. Many people came with different problems.. and they showed support. God works through others and you DEB have truely been working through me. This just touched me soo deeply tonight that others would want to show you how much they cared.. and help others see what an amazing Christian you were. Theres no doubt in my mind the pain and hurt that many have felt. Nothing i say will ever take that pain away but i am here to hellp you through it. I don't know any of Deb's family too well but i as a fellow Sister in Christ am willing to do whatever i can. YOu have my continued thoughts and prayers. I can't wait till the day when we all meet in heaven what a glorious day that will be. Love and blessings,
Megan Postema




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may god bless this family.




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Well, I can't believe it. The Lord called another member of our family home. I cannot even imagine how happy Uncle Bucky was to see you and Grandma. My heart is so broken and heavy with sorrow that it truly physically hurts. The last 12 months have been too difficult for words. Our family has lost an unborn child, a 21 year old, an 81 year old, and now a middle aged person who was 48. It just shows that God can take us home at anytime-no matter what the age. Our only comfort is that we will all see eachother again-what a day that will be. I miss you my Deborah. You continue to touch lives here on earth. I love you my Deborah.




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I just heard that now your Uncle Bucky died. I don't know how your family can cope with all this loss. I read what he wrote on your website. Unbelievable. May God be with this family-too much heart ache. It makes me appreciate my family more. My sympathies to all.




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Hey
My sister and I are really looking forward to camp this year. I can't wait to meet your mom. Today I was cleaning my room, and I glanced at your picture, and I started to think how could I have fun at camp without you? But it is impossible to not have fun at camp. I came to that conclusion the first day I stepped foot in that place 7 years ago. I miss you so much, and it is so hard to believe that I've made it this far knowing that you are not here with us on earth in physical form. Each day I think of you, and I refresh all the memories so I will never forget all the fun times we shared at camp.
You were always more than just a camp counselor to me, you were a friend. You are the only person from camp that I have ever stayed in touch with for that long of a time.
I really really miss you, and it hurts when sometimes when I think about it. But I can't help smiling knowing that you are in heaven, as happy as anyone could ever be.
I love you, see you at camp, Aunt Deb
-Angela




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Hey Debs,
So I haven't posted a message lately! Even though I know you are a happier place, I still want you here!! :) I had the pleasure of hanging out with your sister and many other people from your church in Abaco! It was so amazing and I can't stop thinking about it! Every time I come to this website, it lifts me up and brings me back to all those hilarious memories!!! Example: getting a line drive right in the nose and being unconscious!...not funny at the time, but we thought it was after the fact..haha!! Your Uncle Bucky was at my house working on our porch and all he talked about was you! It was awesome..we had eachother cracking up about stuff that we did or stuff you two did. Yesterday I found out that he passed away...now he is up their with you! He is so excited to see you again..I know he is!!!! I wanted to say that you are still in my heart and will be forever!! I love you sooooooooo much Debs!!!!!!!!!!!
Kristen Slager




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Dear Debs,

Sorry its been so long that I have posted a messeage. I recently ran into your mom, Jim and even Mark. You wouldn't believe how big he got, I was blown away. Oh yea, and how cool, your and Aunt and I am an Uncle, that so cool! Anway Debs I still think of you everyday, the pain has eased, but I am blessed to have so many great memories to burry that pain with. The whole year has just been so crazy, thiers times when I just wake in the middle of the night, and just wonder how things became this way, and why things have worked out the way they did. I am doing good down here, working on my prayers all the time, trying never to forget to be that person that you helped me become! Still I wish for you to be here and see me and even everyone down here! I know you are more that busy though now with all the kids at camp thinking of you! Your so popular, you would totally think it rocks, but what really rocks is what your are popular for, and thats your passion for Christ! Thats awesome. Well, I just need to drop a line and say hello. Miss you and love ya, Your friend.

Dan.





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Dear Debs,

Sorry its been so long that I have posted a messeage. I recently ran into your mom, Jim and even Mark. You wouldn't believe how big he got, I was blown away. Oh yea, and how cool, your and Aunt and I am an Uncle, that so cool! Anway Debs I still think of you everyday, the pain has eased, but I am blessed to have so many great memories to burry that pain with. The whole year has just been so crazy, thiers times when I just wake in the middle of the night, and just wonder how things became this way, and why things have worked out the way they did. I am doing good down here, working on my prayers all the time, trying never to forget to be that person that you helped me become! Still I wish for you to be here and see me and even everyone down here! I know you are more that busy though now with all the kids at camp thinking of you! Your so popular, you would totally think it rocks, but what really rocks is what your are popular for, and thats your passion for Christ! Thats awesome. Well, I just need to drop a line and say hello. Miss you and love ya, Your friend.

Dan.





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hey stew, i just got back from sunday worship. that's the second time i've been to camp this summer unfortunately not as a camper though. i almost started to cry when i got there and saw paul. When i see paul or just when i'm at camp i see you and all the memories. a lot of the counselors from last year have returned so that's awesome. Theres just one problem w/ my summer and all the rest to come... and that is yur no longer there to hang out w/ me. all the campers say they have a fav. counselor, but no camper had a stronger friendship/relation ship than you and me. You are the #1 person that impacted and changed my life forever for the good.but ya, Rich goes to worship sundays also even though he no longer is working at manitoqua. we still talk about you and laugh all the time. I can't wait till next week, for the first time i am samming and i'm lookin forward to it. i'm sure you will be w/ me in my heart for every day i am there and the rest of my life. I'll never forget you martha. See you in heaven! love you lots! l8r




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Ok you officially and Aunt now Deborah. Becky and Chris had a baby girtl today at 4:30. Your neice is Faith Christine and she is beautiful. Grandma and you would have been so proud of Becky. She did awesome and Chris is such a proud daddy. Becky has grandmas shawl that she crochet for the baby to come home in and that made me so happy. Well I love you hon and miss you so love mom




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Well Deb Deb camp is on its way and Paul is there and sounds like he is doing well. I have a hard time going there with all the memories I had bringing you goodies and talking to you and seeing what a mess your room was HA HA Paulie is the same way so like brother like sister. Becky is still hanging in there so it will probably not be born on Pauls birthday and thats ok. Just a note to Amanda and any other young people that will be going to camp this summer and feel scared. I would be glad to meet you there and get to see the wonderful friends that Aunt Deb has and will always be dear to our family. I am going to meet a young girl in July so if anyone else would like I could come to camp that day and just rejoice that all of you are living your lives for the Lord and Aunt Deb would be so happy and proud. Well Deb I hope Grandma and you are enjoying saying I love you to each and I know Becky is jealous of you. Love you lots Mom




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I can't believe its been 10 months already! We miss you so much Debs and you will never be forgotten! You were such a woman of God and everyone saw it in you and through the things you did. You changed so many lives while you were here with us, you changed lives through your death and you continue to change lives today. Hundreds of other peoples lives were changed because you (one person) decided to live your life for Christ and let others see it. What a miracle God did in your life Debs! If only more people would live there lives for God and let others see it, then we could only imagine how many others would be excepted into the Lords kingdom! We miss you soo much Debs! Rock out up there w/ JC!




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Hey Aunt Deb, im going to camp on monday and im really scarred b/c i kno im going to be looking for you and you wont be there and im really scarred of that. its not going to be the same without you. i pray that youll be there with us even though i know you will be. I miss you soo much and when i go by where it all happened it kills me still. its been 10months and i dont know how ive made it this far. its soo hard without you and looking at your pictures in my room hurts but then i know you up there in heaven looking down at me and that warms me up. I miss you every day and you will never EVER be forgotten Aunt Deb...I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH AND I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU IN HEAVEN!! RIP
Love Always Amanda




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Hi Sweetie,
Our family has had a really emotional year. One minute we are crying because we miss you and then we are rejoicing awaiting two new lives. Then we are crying over the loss of Grammy yet rejoicing because we know that the two of you are with the Lord. As I come on this website I still find it hard to believe that you are gone. Just know that you will NEVER be forgotten and always missed.




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Hey, its been a long time since I've written here... The camp season has started back up, I'll be going in July.
I was looking at Relient K's tour schedule, and they are playing in Tinley Park on July 23rd... Maybe you'll be watching from heaven...
Well, I miss you lots
and I love ya




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Hey Deb,
I'm sorry it's been a while since I've written, but I think about you constantly. I just wanted to ask you for some strength right now in my life. I pray for your family and remember you daily. I'm going through a trying time right now and I am asking you for strength because I am guaranteed that you have it all in you!! You were and still are such an amazing person. Love you and miss you Deb!




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hayy debs! i havent been here in a while my computer wouldnt let me get on here! I miss u soo much! and when ever i hear the song u raise me up im either really sad or really happy!sad~ because i miss u and it reminds me of u! happy ~ becuz i kno u r watchin ova all of us!camp manitoqua started this week and i cant wait to go even though its not gonna be the same w/o u! i kno that they will bring u up and i will start crying!! I'm gettin my braces off in 26 days ! im excited cuz now i can have a beautiful smile like u!! but not as bright!! hehe Every1 calls me Urka now and when ppl call me that it makes me feel happy cuz u made that name for me and i will always remeber that!! I LOVE YOU DEBS!!!! & MISS YA!!!!!!
MUCH LoVE!!
Erika
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hay deb camp is starting up this year it wont be the same with out u there i mean no more rides and no more time to talk but i know you will be looking down from heven with JC deb i thenk paul is redy to be at camp for the summer i was at this get to gather and lol my firend sung the song on here and all i could thein about was you and how u have lead soo maney to JC and how maney more u have lead just from you death it is truly amasing what u are doing in the world even tho u are not here mman deb im sur guna miss u this summer love john




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RUSTY,
I KNOW ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE I WROTE ON HERE. FIRST OF ALL, I WANT TO THANK YOUR AUNT DEB FOR SENDING ME YOUR DVD. IT MEANT THE WORLD TO ME. SECOND OF ALL, MY FIANCEE IS LEAVING SUNDAY FOR THE MARINES AND IM HAVING A LOT OF TROUBLE WITH THIS. YOU WERE ALWAYS THE ONE THAT HELPED ME WITH THESE GUY ISSUES AND THIS IS A BIG ONE. PLEASE JUST GIVE ME SOME STRENGTH TO MAKE IT THROUGH. I LOVE YOU GIRL.




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hey deb-
i still miss you and haven't forgotten. we met around this time this year and its gotten me thinking about you. camp is definitely not going to be the same without you this summer and you're definitely going to be in everyone's thoughts this year.

your bro in Christ,
matt




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Bye Debbie this is the last time I write on your website. i'm sorry, just everyone TATTLES. I have to go now. I am sorry. Bye Debbie




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Hi it's me again were getting off of school in 2 weeks just wanted 2 say hi




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honey i gom to sleep every night with your song i miss you but do me a favor grab granmas big toe so she can do the JESUS DANCE WITH YOU LOVE YOU FOREVER GIVE DAD UNCLE MARK EVERYBODY A BIG HUG LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU BEEPER




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honey i gom to sleep every night with your song i miss you but do me a favor grab granmas big toe so she can do the JESUS DANCE WITH YOU LOVE YOU FOREVER GIVE DAD UNCLE MARK EVERYBODY A BIG HUG LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU BEEPER




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well sweetie I know that you got to see grandma again and ofcourse you and Becky have to compete to see who grandma would say I love you to first. Well Becky got to say it Sunday but you get to have her to yourself now and I know you and her can give lots of hugs and saying I love you all the time. We are having a memorial service tomorrow for grandma and it will be a great honor to her. We love the both of you very much and miss you. love, your mommy. Oh and your neice or nephew is getting close to being with us so we are very excited. Becky is being real strong through all of this. Love you again sweetie mom




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Hello, by beautiful girl. These past few weeks have been so difficult, words cannot convey. I can't believe that my mom, your grandma, your "grammy", has gone home to our Lord. When grandma died, I wonder if you were there to greet her. There is so much comfort in that. I can just imagine the greetings the two of you enjoyed. Grandma was so worried about Becky, and your mom-but we will take care of them-I promise. Please take Grandma by the hand and stay with her-she was always afraid of new things. Grandma talked about you every day until the day she died. She would talk about you to everyone in the hospital. I love you my Deborah. Please kiss my mom and tell her our family has another hole.

Aunt Deb



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This doesn't get any better. I miss you.




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havent forgot about you but miss you and loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
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ooooooooooooooooove you beeper




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havent forgot about you but miss you and loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
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ooooooooooooooooove you beeper




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We miss you so much Deb! You are in our thoughts everyday. I pray for comfort for your family , your boyfriend Steve, and your friends . We can't imagine the loss they feel.
You were a remarkable person and are doing great things in heaven.




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honey we love you so much hope that yourm mothers days up with Jesus were good be a good mooocha for JESUS honey we will always loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
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oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove you beeper take care and say hi nto your dad and uncle mark




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honey we love you so much hope that yourm mothers days up with Jesus were good be a good mooocha for JESUS honey we will always loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
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Today is Mothers' Day. As I get ready to go to dinner with my daughters my thoughts go to your "mommy". I can only imagine the thoughts that are running through her mind today. The memories of Mothers' Days past with all 4 of her children. Nothing will be the same. Ever. You are missed every day, not just by family, but by your friends. Mothers' Day is Heaven must be the best ever!




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Hello to my beautiful girl. This has been some very difficult last few days for me. I think of you all the time. I see all the college kids and think I can see a little bit of you in them. Sometimes I see someone with your hair, or someone with your walk, or someone with your crazy hand gestures-but no one will ever have that smile. I miss that smile so much!

There is a woman at work whose son died in a car accident. We comfort eachother a lot. She was telling me that she loves to go to sleep because she sees her son in her dreams. She says that is her only peace. Then I realized, even my dreams know you are not there. If I dream about you, it is only like a still picture of you. I am even sad in my dreams. I tell her my only comfort is knowing that you are with our Lord and I will see you again one day. She has many regrets about her son and I am so grateful I have no regrets with you. the last thing I told you was that I loved you.
I am so proud of you.

I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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honey we love you and miss you




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Hi it's Lauren (Jackies bff) jackie is over by my house and we decied to say HI she wants me to tell u she loves u and misses u bye




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Hi sweetie, It was so neat that your softball coach called me last Monday and asked if your family would like to come to senior day and NPU. The softball team was honoring the seniors and they were going to honor you also. I was so glad that we went and as usual I was and am so proud of you. Amanda or Anda came with her family and it was great to see them again. It sure brought back alot of good memories. NPU got a new field a block from the school and they are putting a memorial in their dugout of you with your name and #40 on it. See DEB DEB you will always be remembered by so many people who loved you and had such great times with you. Becky is doing great and I could just see the two of you together laughing and you would be so excited about the baby coming and Becky is really missing you during this time. Well honey It is hard to believe and I still keep thinking I might wake up and this dream or nightmare will come to an end but each day comes and goes and I just can't believe that we are going through this but all of the people that are holding us up in prayer and God will help us each moment also. Wave also had a wonderful youth service and they mentioned you and the kids and leaders did such a great job. Well DEB DEB I love you and miss you LOVE MOM




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Debs,
Well I just wanted to say hi and to tell you that your senior day was wonderful. I got a chance to sit with your family and I felt you there as we shared stories about you. It was a sad day but I know that you were happy to see everyone together. I saw the picture that your mom got and it was great to see your smiling face! I miss that so much, I miss your laugh, our silly times together, and of course your hugs...you always gave the best hugs Debs. Promise me that you will give me one when we meet again? Its hard Debs, real hard...I just know that Ill see you again.
I Love You with all my heart,
Anda




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Debs,
I come here sometimes to just reflect on your life and to see the awesome impact that you have had and continue to have on others. It's always such a blessing to see so many people that you loved and that loved you back. I have lived 55 years and taught school for 21 years, and I hope that I can have just half of the impact on the lives of others that you have had.

This summer I am going to Abaco as a sponsor with the WAVE kids. I can't wait to see and experience for myself what you and Jessica and so many of the other people from Calvary have done. I look forward to all the spiritual blessings that I know God is going to shower us with.

Deb, we all miss you, but we will try to continue and carry on spreading God's love to others, as you would be doing if you were still here on earth with us. I pray for your family and for your dear Mom daily. I can't even imagine how they miss you, even though we all have the blessed assurance that you are with God, praising him face to face.
Thank you, Debs, for your wonderful life.
Gail




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Hey Aunt Deb,
I miss you soo much. My friends grandpa just passed away and it makes me sad and also makes me think of you. I know your still with us but its not the same. Camp is comming soon and im really excited but yet scared because you arent going to be there. I feel like im going to end up crying extremely hard the day i get there knowing that you arent there. You taught me so much about life and i still need your help. I have your pictures everywhere,my room, my locker and i even have a postcard you gave me on my birthday. I miss you soo much. Im still very thankful i got to meet you the 1st summer you worked at manitoqua and that you were my rez consler. I will never forget anything about you. I will always rember from rez "were going swimming were going swimming" you would run around saying that when we have polar bear swims and you would take our pillows and hit us in the heads. I miss everything about you, being in your arms, you playing with my hair just asking how i was and i just hate that i wont get that ever again. I cannot wait to be in heaven to see you and everyone else. Wait for me*

With Much Love
Amanda




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Hi Debs,

Well Sunday was really hard...I stepped off the bus and was hoping and wishing so bad that you would be there warming up with your team. I knew in my heart and my mind that you really were there but it just wasn't the same. I talked to your coach and he told me a funny story about you getting in trouble with an umpire and I was laughing and saying "yeah that sounds like Debs!" He gave me the patch that the girls put on their jerseys for you, I'm going to put that on my uniform for Australia, and he also gave me a bracelet that the team got in memory of you...I of course haven't taken it off since I got it. I felt your presence there though, in every pitch, throw, tear, and laugh...and I know I will forever feel that, in everything I do Debs, you will be with me. I love you!
Anda




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Wow... Its been a while since I wrote on here. But I do come here often to see what others have put. My Youth Group went to Ichthus- a Christian Music Fest in Kentucky. I was thinking about you the whole time there. There was a moment on Saturday, where 10 thousand people were all sitting at the front stage to listen to a speaker talk about God's amazing love. I just kept thinking that thats what you have taught me at camp. It was so aweseome to see so many people who did not know Jesus accept him into their hearts. And to see others make recommitments.
I miss you so much, and love you too.




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its been 8 mnths and cant believe it miss you honey but are haoppy you are wqith jesuss cant wait to see yiu again love you sooooooooooooooo much




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Hi Deborah!

Last Sunday was Youth Sunday. The kids did great. All the songs reminded me of you. You still inspire the kids. It is so awesome! I see your face everywhere I go and you are in my thoughts and prayers everyday. I know it shouldn't hurt so much because you are with our Savior but it still does. Give my Mark a hug.



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this is jackie's bff,I hope u r haveing a blast in haven. I jackie is the best preson in the world. No wonder why she's my bff. We're going to south west christen. Jackie loves u so much and so do i the bible says love ur neibors. Jackie's bff, Lauren Jaragosky




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Hi Debs,
It's been a while since I've written to you but as always, I think about you a million times a day. This is the weekend I should've been seeing you during softball season...I know you will be there though. I was interviewed for some softball stuff here at school and I put your name in there about how you named "the worm!" I started laughing when I was telling the guy from the paper and he asked me what was funny and I looked at him with tears in my eyes and told him that my very best friend, and catcher, from high school named that pitch because it has a mind of it's own...of course he didn't get it, but then again who would understand our goofy stories and jokes besides the two of us?? Sometimes I just sit here and think about things and wish so badly that I could see you again...just give you one more hug or talk to you once more on the phone. I'll never forget our last phone conversation...it made me feel so happy to know how happy you were...i miss you so much Debs...with all my heart. I know you will be there this weekend at the diamond, so I'll just say...I'll see you Sunday.
I Love you Debs!
Anda




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Hi Deb-
It's been a long time since I've been here but I just really feel like I need to write to you. I don't really know what I need to say though. I was packing up some of my stuff today and I was flipping though one of my notebooks and I found a letter that I had started to write you but never finished. I guess I feel like I need to finish it now. It started off with me thanking you for how encouraging you had been that week. I can remember the day that I was writing the note. The paper has marks on it from the rain. I was sitting on snow cone hill writing the letter when it started to rain. I can remember sitting on that cement hill feeling so thankful for you. You were so eager to help me that week even though you were busy enough with yourself. You showed me so much love through out the time that I was able to share with you. In the letter that I started to write you that day I wanted to finish by telling you that truly showed me the love of Christ that week and that I appreciated your love and kindness.

I know that you are in a better place Deb and that you are with Christ, but I look at your pictures and I see so much life in your face and in your eyes and I just don't fully understand. It hurts so much down here without your smile.

I pray that God wraps His loving arms around your parents your siblings and the rest of your family every single day. And I also pray for as long as I live that when I close my eyes and picture you I will not forget your smile and how it lit up this world.

I love you and I miss you Deb. It won't be the same without you this summer. But I know you'll be watching over us.



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Hey aunt deb,
holy cow..8months today and it still feels like yesterday it happened. You know how the other day i asked you to help me cuz i was having a tough time with stuff going on and i want to thank you so much because you helped me and i finally got some things straight today and it feels great and i know its because of you. I miss you so much and wish you were still here. I know your spirit lives on in all of us i just wish you could be here too. You are one of the best people out there and show heaven what your all about :-) i love you so much aunt deb and thank you for everything youve ever done for me




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Hey Debs,

How are you buddy? Well, it's been a real tough time down here. On Thursday 4/14/05, a student of mine passed away and came to join you. Debs, it was the hardest thing I had to do, stand in front of my students on Friday morning and break the news to them. I kept thinking of how horrible I felt when you left, and how these poor kids feel. I pray for him and his family and friends now. This year has been a real test of my faith. I keep asking why these things occur, but it seems I already know the answer, its God's will. I can't argue it, but become better for accepting it and believing in it! Anyway, I told my students about my friend, you, and what had happened; though it may not have helped, we did all agree, again that I always say to my students, life is too short here! I just wanted to tell you that I am still always thinking of you and about you. Your missed so much down here! MISS and LOVE YA SO MUCH. Say Hello to Dominic, he's a great kid……

Dan




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just wanna know how u are we love yuare and knowv that we looooooooooooooove you always




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Hey Aunt Deb,
Wow this sunday its 8months i cannot believe it..it hurts soo bad and i miss you. These few past days ive been getting kind of sad when i get home from school and i just ask that you can guide me. I dont what it is but i feel like no one but you would understand. I miss you so much and it still kills me to think what happened. A car accident a year n 2 days ago happened to a kid that would of went to my school and alot of my friends new and it kills me to think of him he was such a nice kid i heard and god took him and u were the best person i knew and god took you. it just hurts to think why did he take you and no someone else but i know the answer you and kevin were two great people that god wanted you guys in a great place near him and to watch over us. Aunt Deb your my angel and i love knowing that you can watch over me. I know your going to be at camp with us this year in spirit and just keep our spirits high. I miss you soo much and i love you sooo much....I will never forget you. You were one of the best people i knew!!
Love Always
Amanda




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just wanted to sayn hi ilove you dearly ho n we miss you




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Hayy debs!! im sry i havent writen here in a while its jsut hta every tyme i write here i either end up gettin really sad or cryin what im doin now!! we were talkin about death and that u have to accept that the person is gone and i jus thouhgt of u the whole class period!! i miss ya debs!! its hard some days goin aroudn actin all peppy and happy but deep down i just feel like lockin my slef in a room and jsut cry mi eyes out but it is good that julie and shelly adn taylor became mi friends becuz now i feel better cuz we always talk about the good tymes!!
Imgonna miss not havin u at camp!!!! please help me!!
i lvoe u and always will
I LOVE YOU!! give JC!!! a big hug and kiss for me!!

I LOVE YOU!!
Erika




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hey deb,
it's taken me almost 8 months to figure out what to say and i'm still not sure i know what will be written by the end of this message. i can't believe it's been almost eight months and almost a year since i saw you last. i remember meeting you and thinking it was just so awesome that i found someone who i could talk to about having similar dreams about our lives. i thought it was so funny that our little folders for curriculum both ended up being almost exactly the same: we both were P.E. majors, we both wanted to teach high school, we both wanted to coach, and i'm sure there was more that i just can't remember. i was so excited when we left last spring to know that i had made a new friend who would be going through the P.E. class at the same time as me and that we would both take more than four years and would probably get to graduate together and that we would be living next door to each other this year. i remember the day i found out. august 18th. freshmen move in day. always an exciting time of the year because all the new students and then everyone else coming back. i was especially excited because my little sister was moving in. i was working over at anderson moving all sorts of things when lindsey came over and told me what happened. i couldn't believe it and i didn't know what to do. and i did what probably any person does when they are upset. i went and found my mom and dad. i cried all day and i still do. i looked at the picture of us from homecoming last fall and still can't believe it. i remember all the nights when i would be sitting desk and you and steve would come back from various places and you always took time to say hi. you are so great. this fall steve came to college life. it was the first one and i was so shocked to see him there. i didn't think he would remember me, but i went over and talked to him anyway and you know what? he knew who i was. he almost even said my name right. i was so impressed. that college life was hard. im really not sure what else to say. i miss you a lot and i wish i had known you better. you are such a great person. always smiling and caring about everyone and everything. im not graduating this year, as planned im going to take 5 years :-) i coached bowling again this year and it was even better than last. im don't know what else to say, but i wanted to let you know that its been hard with out you and i pray for your family and steve a lot. i hope that they are all doing well. im sorry it took me so long to write, but i just didn't know what to say.
miss you and thank you for being you.
love, andra




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Yo Debbie suyp nmh. I"m playing so well in basketball. I am having so much fun here but I still think abouyt you so much!!!!!! we luv you n miss you so much. I"m wating for Shelly to get me an icon like the one she has w/ ur pic and it will say Miss Ya since Lil' D has Luv Ya and erika and Shelly have My hero so i thik thats next best lol. We miss you so much and we luv you!!!! but we knoe we will see you on the best day of our lives wen we actually meet the Savior face to face just like you did and you arer still loking at him rite now!!!!!! I luv you Deb YOU WILL NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER EVER BE FORGOTTON NEVER!!!!!!!! I LUV YOU DEB
LOVE ALWAYS TAYDER TOTZ!

PS IT'S NOT GOING TO BE AS MUCH FUN AT MY BDAY PARTY W/O YOU! LUV YA AND SAY HI TO LAUREN N APRIL FOR ME THNX!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LUV YOU



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Hi Deborah- I just wanted to tell you I love you. I tell Jesus to tell you that everyday. I hope you get the messages. Well I am 7 months pregnant and the baby is moving a lot. I am getting big. You would think it is funny. I would not be able to stand any BB wars with you. I know you would try to hit me pretty hard. I took a note that someone gave you at camp and on it has a Bible verse that helps me everyday. I put it in my classroom and read it everyday. Well I just wanted to tell you I love you.




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i love you and miss you. i pray for your family everyday. jesus will get you through this, i know your faith is strong just keep relying on him and praying to him. he is the only one that can help






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Dear Debs,
I've wanted to write since easter Sunday. Sorry it's taken so long, but you know how crazy it can get over her at our house. It was a terrible difficult and yet amazing day. I know Jesus resurrection is the reason you are dancing in heaven right now. I thought about you so much all day. I was at church thinking about all the memories we created in that building. All the tears we shed - happy and sad. I just felt so overwhelmed I had to struggle to hold it together. I saw your amazing mom and was able to hug her. I know nothing I could ever say or do could even begin to help the pain I know she feels.
Merilee --I just love you and want you to know not a day goes by I don't pray for you and remember what a amazing person Debbie is. I say IS because she still IS and will always be. I so look forward to the day we will rejoce in heaven together again. None of our lives will ever be the same again. That I do know for sure.
Working at the salon always reminds me of you so much Debs. You always brought so much laughter and life into that place. Customers always loved you because you would smile and radiate such light. You were patient and made them feel like you really cared. I'm so thankful for all the memories. The memories that nothing can take away from me. When I think of you so often I can escape to that place and remember the life that is you. God broke the mold after he created you. We will never forget.
To all Debs family - God bless all of you each and every day through each and every situation that brings you hurt over the loss of our dear Debs. I read someone wrote This doesn't get any better. With the help of God we can perservere with hope thru each day and with confidence that Debbie is in the hands of God now. We need to trust Him that he is in control of everything and his plan is perfect even if we don't always understand. And man this is so hard to understand. I will pray for God to strenthen you with his peace.
My dear Debs I miss you so much. I will keep you close to my heart and mind always.
I love you ,Jennie





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Debs,
I don't know what to say. I love and mis you so much. I have not been here before because I could not do it. I have tears in my eyes as I send this message to you. I know you are dancing with Jesus and have your awsome smile, but we all miss you so much. I think of you often and you wonderful mom, sister and brother.




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This doesn't get any better. I miss you




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I MISS YOU!!!!!!i wish you were here right now and i can give you the biggest huge you ever got huged.everytime i here this song on the radio or @ church i think of you!

p.s say hi to lauren for me

love you best best best friend,j.e.k




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hey deb, i love you thankyou for taking care of us when you baby-sat us. we all miss you here at the kiers house.you will never be forgoten.




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If i could chose who i can be with right now it would be you.it passed easter but i want to said happy easter.you and lauren are probly was or are playing b-ball.i loved being with you when you baby-sat us you are the nices cuzin.
i love you alot a lot.
love ******




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deb, i miss you a lot.i wish i can be with you.i remember all the laughs we had with brad taylor we all miss you on easter i miss you i am crying right now I MISS YOU

LOVE YOU CUZIN Jackie



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Hey Aunt Deb.....i know i havent been here in awhile its just hard for me. I miss you soo much and have pictures of u everywhere and people always ask me who is that and i tell them my best camp consler and what happened. Its just been so tough and with camp comming up and ur not going to be ther it makes me sad. My first year being a SAM and u not being there kills me. I wish i could have talked to u after i left camp. I miss u soo much and happy easter sweetie.. So have u had any slurppes with the Lord yet? lol Just recently my friend just lost some one and i try to comfort her like i know you would do. Im following Christ alot closer than i use to all because of you. I think of u soo much and try to make sure im doing everything i shud be doing. I love u soo much and ur in my prarys...will you give my grandpa and sharon a hug for me. I miss you so much and u mean the world to me. I will never forget you or the impact u made on my life
<33 Amanda
-Rest In Peace Sweetie-




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Happy Easter to my beautiful girl. I went to the cemetery and left pink flowers for you and, of course, an Easter egg. I tried so hard to celebrate Easter with a Christian heart but the loss of you is so painful. I just couldn't do the gravy and put the food on the table without you always helping me. I couldn't have the kids read the "Resurrection Eggs" without you, I just couldn't. I'm sorry. I missed you running around the yard for the egg hunt. It took forever for someone to find the "jackpot egg". You found the best jackpot egg in Heaven I'm sure! I just hope you didn't shove too many angels and people out of the way to find it! I love you so much. I will forever miss you. I love you my Deborah.




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Hi Sweetie,
With another holiday and family party comes another time when we sit around and remember old times. Sometimes these memories and comfortable and sometimes these memories hurt like crazy. The only comfort we have is that you are with Jesus. Give my Mark a kiss for me. Miss you like crazy!




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happy easter beeper we miss you m uch but hope you had a good easter egg hunt with your lord always love youn see u nsoon




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I come here all the time to read what others have put on this website. I am thinking about you all the time, as you probably know. I am sure I am not the only one. Today is Easter, one of the happiest holidays of a Christian. So I am trying to be happy, because I know you are happy celebrating in Heaven. Everytime I think about you, its always something positive. Instead of looking to the day where I wont see you, I look back to the past and remember the times when we had fun together. I remember them every day so I will never foget. I will never ever forget you, and you much you mean to me. I wrote down some times that I remember, and when its really hard, I like to read them.
Have a wonderful Easter, Aunt Deb, save some of the partying for the rest of us down here.
I love you.
-angela




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Hey Aunt Deb,
Wow, a LOT has happened this week. None of it has been very great. Easter is tomorrow. I can't imagine the celebration you'll be having in Heaven. Its nothing compared to the celebration of we have down here. My friend Amanda and I were going to donate an Easter flower in your name at our church, but we didnt send the form in on time... Next year, we will though. We all miss you so so much at Christian Park Reformed Church. The kids in my youth group talk about you all the time. Its fun to share the memories, and all the fun times we all had with you. I changed my camp date. I am going in the end of July, from the 26th to the 30th, I think. I am going to meet an old friend there that I havent seen since I was in your cabin. I miss you so much, and I love you too.




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Well honey it is Good Friday and Easter is here. Wow I can't imagine the glory that you see their in heaven. I have been crying all day because I miss you so but I keep singing this old hymn that is such a comfort for us here on earth. It goes like this-

There is coming a day when no heartaches shall come. No more clouds in the sky, no more tears to dim the eye. All is peace forevermore on that happy golden shore. What a day, glorious day that will be!
There'll be no sorrow there, no more burdens to bear, No more sickness, no pain, no more parting over there. And forever I will be with the One who died for me.
What a day, glorious day that will be!
What a day that will be
when my Jesus I shall see,
and I look upon His face
the One who saved me by His grace.
When He takes me by the hand
and leads me thro the Promised Land;
What a day, glorious day that will be!

Well my Deb Deb what a day huh!
I am so blessed that God gave me such beautiful children. Even though I would give anything to have you back the Lord is in control and we will all see His glorious face and you again someday. Have the most glorious Easter you will ever have.
Love you so mom




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debbie!! ive had a hard week! at GEMS we did a lesson and it was about how Jesus saved us from our sins!! they passed out your tracks, and i took a few to pass them out!!
i passed out a least 3 at skool, and more to come.

i love u debbie!!
its scary b/ c u were at mi house less than 24 hours b4 u were takin
from us. u told me that i wont c u for a while. now i no why, God was telling me that u werent gonna be around 4 a while, i thought b/c college, u probably did to!!

i love u soo much!!!!

Lil'D



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Hi Debbie...I come on here on a regular basis to see what other wonderful things people say about you. It's amazing how many people you have touched. Even though we werent that great of friends, you've been an inspiration and I want to thank you for that. My prayers go out to your family and every one hurting from your loss. Cya later




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Debs,

It’s been a while since I have written you and I’m sorry. It’s hard to not get caught up in all this is going on, but I want you to know that I have not forgotten. I still go by, it seems every day there is always something that makes me think of you. I try to wash out the pain that I struggle with by thinking of all the great times we had. I try to keep reminding myself and others about life being to short sometimes, and making our time count here. I hope that when you look down, I still make you proud. I know and you should know that I am still so honored to have known you and had you in my life. My heart and prayers to you and your family, and all those who remember you. Love ya Debs, Dan




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hey debbie!! i really miss u and ive been talking to this gurl who isnt excatley following God. she i worshiping u no who!! this really scared me and immeditaly ur name came up!!! i told her everything i new and everything that u would probably tell me to say!! i miss u tons and i wish that u could help me in this situation!! but i no that God and u will help me through. even though you're not here!! love u !! miss u!!

Lil'D
(Julie)




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hey its me again and i know why God put me on windy city my teem is amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! which is a good thing!!!!! i luv u Deb and I want you and God to keep me safe as I fly to Texas!!!!! i luv u Deb foreva!!! ur amazing!!!




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To the family and friends of Debbie,
I came across the following and thougt I would share it with you all

SHE IS GONE

You can shed tears that she is gone

Or you can smile because she has lived

You can close your eyes and pray that she will come back

Or you can open your eyes and see all that she has left

Your heart can be empty because you can't see her

Or you can be full of the love that you shared

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday

Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday

You can remember her and only that she is gone

Or you can cherish her memory and let it live on

You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back

Or you can do what she would want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on




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I'm the last person to type to you and I"m typing again. My school play is today! I hope I do good, though the play is kinda lame. okay it is lame, lol. Surf is so much fun! I really wish that u were here, but youre nbot ur living a better life, well i gtg ttyl lyl!!!!!! miss ya




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Sorry, I haven't written for a while. I've been so busy and I never get a chance on the computer, because my siblings are on it. So, I"m sorry Debster. I keep thinking you're here and waiting for my parents to go out of town and for you to baby-sit for me and Steve to some over. To see a movie and go to Culvers. Everytime you came to baby-sit us I knew that we'd have a great time. We would always go to the movies with Auntie Deb! I love you so much Debbie!!! I miss you sososososo much! Everyone does! I know that God is so excited that you're with Him, because you are such a great women of God!!!!!!!! I love you so much Debbie!!!! Say hi to Lauren and April ok bibi!!!! lyl!
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Hello my beautiful Deborah,
Well, it is the 17th tomorrow which means you will be gone for 7 months. I think of you all the time and my heart is truly broken. People think that the holidays or birthdays are the worst, but I think it is the "little" things that can paralyze me with sorrow. I watched my other nieces and nephew after your accident, and when we returned to their house to drop them off, they stopped in silence at the front door. I was behind everyone so I didn't know what was going on. When I looked at the kids heads, they were looking down on the floor by the door. Then I stood there unable to move. I knew what everyone was looking at. There were your shoes-empty, waiting for you. When you see things like that, it is so unbelievably painful. Some of your cousins are so young and they miss you. I see them struggle with the loss of you.

We talk about you all the time. I want them to remember the wonderful cousin that you were to them. Alec and I were in Baker's Square and he was talking about how much he misses you. Even though he is only 13, he can say things to me about you that blow me away. He told me how much fun he always had with you, Paul, and Mark. He asked me if I knew what you guys watched on TV together when you babysat him. I was guessing maybe ESPN, Fresh Prince, or something like that. He told me, "wrong, you will never guess." Well, I tried all different titles of shows but then I finally gave up. "Okay, Alec, I give up! Which show did you and Deb watch together?" (I went through every single show I knew.) "Blue's Clues!" Alec revealed. "Blue's Clues? Isn't that a toddler's show? I can't believe you guys watched Channel 11 together!" I said. I would have never guessed that one! "Yeah, we thought it was funny! After Blue's Clues, we would go outside and play baseball for hours. It was so much fun," Alec said sadly. Then he added, "you know everyone else goes on with their lives as if nothing happened and it gets worse for the family. Everyone else goes back to normal and the reality of Deborah being gone is worse because it becomes more and more real every day." I agreed with him but I told him we have to remember how lucky we are to have had Deborah for as along as we did. "Did you know that some kids don't even know who their cousins are? Some people have cousins that don't care about them or are mean to them. You have so many wonderful cousins and we thank God for each and every one of them.

I am so thankful for you. I am so proud of you. I miss you so much.
I love you my Deborah.

Aunt Deb




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Hey Deb- I just got back from playing volleyball at church with Dan Busch. When we weren't playing, we went and sat down and started to talk about spring break and the summer. We were talkin about the counselors and who was doing what job and how it won't be as fun w/ out you.I'm samming session 2 and 4 most likely. It won't be the same though. I can't come back to my favorite place and see my favorite counselor anymore. I know you'll be there with me though . When I am bored in class, I day dream and I think of all the fun times we spent. It makes me smile and laugh. There is this sweet picture of u and me everywhere and the funny thing is i have no clue where we took it but that's prob. because we were havin to good of a time. It really hits me sometimes when I stop and think about it but i just remind myself that i had some of my best memories as being a camper and u as my counselor. I can't wait to see you again. Always remember you.
~Piece~Stew




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I find such joy in reading from so many children that did not know you but hear about you from their friends. I love reading the poems and the remarks that friends think of you each day and I find comfort in that. If you have a chance to read the poems on the site they are really meaningful and touch my heart. Words sometimes are hard to put together but God knows what is in all of our hearts. I know that the 17th is coming up and I keep reliving what happened that day. I have to keep telling myself like Aunt Debbie says it was your window to heaven and we have to rejoice in that. I miss you terribly and think of you always. This website helps me smile again and thank God for all of the wonderful friends and people that don't even know you that write their comments on here. I love you honey. mom




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I am constantly thinking of you. You are never leaving my thoughts. I miss you so much. My sister and I are going as camp partners this year. Hardly anyone else is going to camp from our church this year. Eric is going to be a counselor. We are going from July 11th- the 15th. I wasnt going to go, but I has second thoughts, and now am going.
I love you so much, and miss you just as much.




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hey hey hey deb u neva met me im erika ostrums friend. every day i c u in erikas locker she misses u soOoOoOoO MUCH. everyday erika tellz me summtin kewl that she learned from u at camp and every day i listen and wish i could have met u. i hope u lik heaven is it nice there?




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hey debbie! u dont know me i am a friend of erika ostroms. i c her picture in her locker a lot n i alwyz think how sad she must b when seh looks at ur in her locker she says u guys were really close i feel really bad for her sometimes knowing htat she had to deal with a death of someone so close to her but she knows that u have gone to a better place and that you are in heaven watching over her even tho i never met u, i will alwyz think of u bcuz erika has told me that u were a woman of god and i respect that i love you for that!
+*+*+sarah+*+*+




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Heyy debs!!!!!
i miss ya soooooooo much i still cant belive u r gone!!!!! i ahve a picture of me and u from camp that is sitting on my dresser adn every morning i look in the mirror and i look at my self and say now im gonna b more like deb today!!! and every day i try to b as good as u but i always fail!!!!!!I love u so much debs!!! on my mirror i also have a bible passege that says ....
the lord does not look at the things man looks at ,man looks at teh out ward apperances.. i look in the mirror say how i can be like u more and then look at the passege and then look at ur picture and i cna look at the picture for at least 10 min and i jsut think about all the good times we had at camp and how u always would call me eurka!!
i miss ya debs and every1 does
cant wait to see ya again!!!!
i miss ya so much!!!!

Say hi to JC for me !!!!!!


Love you debs,
Eurka!!xoxoxoxx3




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Hello my Debs! I just wanted to say, like always, that I am thinking about you. On my drive home from school today the sun was shinning so brightly after a long rainfall and as I saw the rays through the sky I knew that was you smiling! It made my heart feel so warm and I actually said "Hi Debs" out loud... I miss you with all my heart.
I love you babe!
Anda




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hey debbie!!
i have been thinking of u l8tley!!
i found more pictures of u and me at camp!! that is mi favorite place on earth and it will never change!!
mi friend gave me a pic of u and aunt katie when we did your make up horriblely!! lol it was a pretty funny picture!! it loooks like u have frosting on your face!!
i rote mi young authors story on you and what an ifluence you have been on mi life!! i'm sending a copy to your mom! its hard b/c i have a track of you in mi locker and ppl ask who is that pretty girl!!
its real hard, but when things get though, i think of u dancing for our life!!

I LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER!!!!!
SAY HI TO JC FOR ME !!!

LIl 'D
(Julie DeRuiter)




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Today I was driving to work and was flipping through the radio stations. You will never believe who I heard on the radio-New Kids on the Block! I started to laugh and thought of you immediately! Do you remember the Christmas that I made all those New Kids on the Block t-shirts for you and your cousins? I stayed up all night to make those things! Your Uncle Pete teased me and teased me. Do you remember that everyone thought New Kids on the Block were going to be as influential to music as the Beatles? So much for their opinion!

I am so grateful for all the wonderful holidays we had together. Didn't we have the best Christmas Eve parties at Uncle Bob and Aunt Ruth's? So many people and so many gifts! I look at the pictures over and over and remember these great times. On every single picture you are smiling. I remember when you would say that Aunt Ruth made the best cookies, and gave the best presents!

I love you my Deborah,
Aunt Deb




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Hey Debster, I wonder what's happening in Heven right now. hmmmm. lol. I hope you know how much this family loves you and misses you. Even though I dind't make Wolveirnes. God obviously put me on Windy City with Cioli for a reason, I really thihnk someting good is going to happen, because God put me there. You and God put me on Windy City for a prupose, because God has a purpose for everything and everyone. Well, alrite I"ll rite agian soon. TTYL LYL
Taylor
PS say hi to Lauren and April for me thanx TTYL




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hi!
im friends of erika ostrom and she has told me soo much about you! This year i am going to camp manatoquia with her. She has told me about how nice of a person you are and everytime she thinks of you its brightens her day up. but she also will start cryin and i feel sooo bad! she told me about camp with you and how u were like a sister to her. i wish i could of met you. Plus, just from reading all of these messages just want to make me cry! you must have been the nicest person to be around.
god bless you
kelly~




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Hey Aunt Deb!!! i miss ya soo much! when i read all the letters ppl write you and they jsut make me so happy! i have ur picture up in my locker at skool and everyday sum one will look at it and ask who it is and ill tell them about u and wat u did for a good 5 min. they all r so opened about it! i miss ya debs!! me and my friends r goin to camp this year and they cant wait to go and neither can i , i miss the smell,the feeling the lovingness,the crazinezz at manitoqua!!!!!!
so be with us ther!!!!!
every1 misses ya !!!!
Love you sooooooo much!!!
xo xo Eurka!xo ox
ps my firned from skool calls me eurka now and when ever he says it i think of u and how u always us to call em that!!! its jsut makes me smile!!!!! I LOVE U DEBS!!!




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Hey Debs,
I miss you soo much! I went to go see Trunk this past weekend in Maine, and we talked about you alot... reminicing of some old stories... i told her about our first "Thursday Night Prayer Meeting" of the girl supervisors, getting locked in Bree's room, spying on certain people, getting a DR! but there are so many other good memories too, all our filter talks, golf cart rides (in neutral down the dirtboarding hill), spying on Neverland, you're crazy radio lingo, always looking forward to what new words you would bring to camp each summer, and do you remember when we were sams, you, Crystal and i worked in the canteen together, listening, singing, and dancing to Insyders, and there was you and buff kim wrestling with little leah pretending to sell peanuts to your audience, there was the HIM club, and the surpise party sleep overs so that we could see eachother throughout the year (back before there were sam reunions). there was the time when casey and her friend hated us and toni-jo, the time we almost peed our pants, well i think you actually did or maybe that was casey, when you casey and i ran into those mda guys smoking out behind fanta, or going mini-golfing... i remeber we sat next to each other when we went out to House of Hamada for japanese food with all the sups hearing your comments about our cool waiter, asking him lots of personal questions! lol... doing late night rounds to lock up, having Rich buy slurpees... Calling you DR, and having you call me that back, we had our own little clique with derek too.
Debs there are soo many memories, i miss you, but i will never forget you and all the ways that you have impacted my life and helped me to become a better person! i can't wait to see you again, you're bright shining, smiling face and crazy dancing!!! i love you,
dana




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Hey Deb:
No words could say what you have done for my life although i have only gotten to know you for one summer... it was the most amazing and you where the most amazing person i have ever met. God has truly blessed your life. i seriously cant put into words what you have done for my life.......why? you are truely a blessing to ever one.
Uncle
R. R.




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Hey Debs,
Dana came to visit me this weekend and it was soo good to finally talk with someone who knew you. I thought for sure we would ball the whole time, but you pulled through again and laughed at all the memories i had that you didnt and the memories she had that i didnt. I told her about my first summer and how scared i was and then i was put into your scavenger hunt group with a couple of other people and how scared i was cause i didnt think i was going to fit in (shows how much i didnt know you then!) We kind of did the scavenger hunt but we were just as content to drive around and try and find random people and scream "HEEEY BOO!!" through the window. I also told her about all the times you would tell me we would snuggle and then i would fall asleep because you were out late praying and such and she informed me of you hush hush thursday night parties! Debs you never told me! I would wait up for you :) Your Aunt Deb is right, my friends know how you passed on but they usually think about the ridiculous stories that i have to convince them are true. Like you jumping off the top bunk into a pile of mattresses and the other hilarious things we Fanta girls came up with. Thanks for all the smiles Deb,
Nicole




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Hey Deb, I miss you so much! Well, we just played Timothy for the basketball tournement and we lost by five, which really stinks. I really wanted to win. I fouled out and so did Cioli and I cried and I just feel horrible it really stinks going to your last eighth grade basketball season with these people for the last time, because most of them are not doing track, so that was the last sport I played with them and then lose our last game of the season really stinks, because some of these girls are not going to Chicago Christian like Cioli who is like one of my best friends.
Cioli really wants me to play Windy City with her and I do too, but I want to play Wolveirnes too, becasue I've played there for three or two years and I haven't a clue what to do. I want God, Lauren,and you to help me with my choice. I want to keep in touch with her an stuff with her, because she is the coolest girl I know and she makes me feel myself, because she lets me be myself.
I want to go on and play high school ball at CCHS and go on to play college ball. Everything is so confusing, because I am just so confused. Deb I really miss you and I wish you were still here, but you're in sucha better place right now that I just can't help thinking that you're so much more happier there then you were here.
Ahhh... I really wanted to win that game, but God has a plan for everything and everyone. It's just so amazing what He can do adn what He has done.
Well, Deb I just thought you might want to know what happened and everything else about the tourney. So, I am going to go.
Just keep watching over your family.
Please Deb, I know this might be kinda lame to ask this of you, but I need you to help. Please Deb, help me choose the right basketball to play on, because I don't want to make the wrong choice, because might make a riot.
okay Deb, I have to go, but I LOVE YOU!!!! I wish you were here to baby-sit me and my siblings lol.
well okay I LOVE YOU io'll wirte you later.
Cousin Taylor (Tayder Totz)




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Hey Deb, I miss you so much! Well, we just played Timothy for the basketball tournement and we lost by five, which really stinks. I really wanted to win. I fouled out and so did Cioli and I cried and I just feel horrible it really stinks going to your last eighth grade basketball season with these people for the last time, because most of them are not doing track, so that was the last sport I played with them and then lose our last game of the season really stinks, because some of these girls are not going to Chicago Christian like Cioli who is like one of my best friends.
Cioli really wants me to play Windy City with her and I do too, but I want to play Wolveirnes too, becasue I've played there for three or two years and I haven't a clue what to do. I want God, Lauren,and you to help me with my choice. I want to keep in touch with her an stuff with her, because she is the coolest girl I know and she makes me feel myself, because she lets me be myself.
I want to go on and play high school ball at CCHS and go on to play college ball. Everything is so confusing, because I am just so confused. Deb I really miss you and I wish you were still here, but you're in sucha better place right now that I just can't help thinking that you're so much more happier there then you were here.
Ahhh... I really wanted to win that game, but god has a plan for everything and everyone. It's just so amazing what He can do adn what He has done.
Well, Deb I just thought you might want to know what happened and everything else about the tourney. So, I am going to go.
Just keep watching over your family.
Please Deb, I know this might be kinda lame to ask this of you, but I need you to help. Please Deb, help me choose the right basketball to play on, because I don't want to make the wrong choice, because might make a riot.
okay Deb, I have to go, but I LOVE YOU!!!! I wish you were here to baby-sit me and my siblings lol.
well okay I LOVE YOU io'll wirte you later.
Cousin Taylor (Tayder Totz)




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I just want to write and say thank you to all your friends for the wonderful things people write. It gives our family so much comfort. I wanted to say a special thank you to "Felix from Florida" for making me realize what I want people to know about you, our Deborah. Felix stated "I know Deborah was a wonderful Christian girl who died in a car accident but I don't know too much else..." That made me stop and think. I want people to personally know how funny, energetic, crazy, caring, etc. that you were. I want people to know why we miss you but rejoice about the short life we had with you. I want people to remember you for your crazy, silly personality. I want them to know that you were a Christian but yet had that crazy, funny personality. You see, that is why you reached out to many kids. You proved to them that you didn't have to run around quoting Bible verses or preaching all day long. You showed you could enjoy your friends,family, and work at Camp Manitoqua and SLIH-but still be a great Christian. That was your message! I don't want "the car accident" to rob you of your legacy. I want people to think of you and smile. I want people to think of all the crazy times and share them. We, Deb's family, love these stories. Even though we were not with you when these stories happened, it is wonderful-pure enjoyment-to read these stories and picture you doing some of these crazy things! It just shows everyone what a wonderful "child of God" you were. I would much rather remember you in these "wonderful moments" than to remember you in that accident. I will not let that accident win. I want every single person to know that you were so special. I want people to know my Deborah and why I smile when I think of you. There are too many stories!!!

The first story that comes to mind is when you were a little girl and came with me after church. I had to go to my mother-in-law's house and I did not want to go alone. I asked you to go with me (you always said "yes), but you were a little apprehensive. "Isn't your mother-in-law kind of mean?" Deb asked me. "Yes, she is Deb, but just come with me, stay close and we'll leave quickly. I'll protect you, Deb. Just don't touch anything!" Deb and I walked into my mother-in-law's house and Deb stayed close to my side. "Holy Cow, is it clean in this house!" Deb said. "Look at how white everything is!" "I know, I told you that Deb! Just don't touch anything." Deb and I didn't even get too far in the house. "I'm staying right by you Aunt Deb. She looks mean," Deb whispered in my ear. I laughed. (Deb was very observing!)

Anyway, Deb and I successfully were walking out of "the house" when my mother-in-law stated, "Hey, Deborah (my mother-in-law calls me that), did you see my new Waterford Crystal wineglasses? I waited forever for them. They cost me over $200 a piece but look how beautiful!" You and I were standing in the foyer leaving and had to lean forward to see these beautiful crystal, EXPENSIVE, glasses. You said "Wow, those are really fancy! I don't want to touch them." I agreed with you-don't touch them Deb! We told my mother-in-law how beautiful they were-as we admired them from a distance. I said to you, "Okay, my Deborah, let's go. Your mom and Uncle Pete are waiting for us." Then it happened. You turned around to put your coat on and then CRASH!!! When you spun around to put your coat on, your coat knocked the glasses off my mother-in-law's table! You and I just stood there, looking like a couple of deer in headlights! Holy cow, I couldn't believe it! We looked at the pieces on the floor and then at my mother-in-law's face. I knew I was headed for divorce court.

You looked up at my mother-in-law, said "Wow, I'm really sorry! Wow, I feel really bad!" Then you flashed that wonderful smile of yours. It was then that I saw a miracle. I actually saw the cold stare of my mother-in-law melt in front of me. She actually said, "Don't worry about it Deborah and Deborah. I'll just get some new ones." Unbelievable! Well, needless to say, we got "outta Dodge" very quickly and jumped in the car. We were screaming and laughing in the car! It was at that moment that I knew your smile was magical. If I don't think of you enough already, but everytime I see Waterford Crystal I smile.

I love you my Deborah!

Aunt Deb




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When Tomorrow Starts Without Me:

When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me, as much as I love you,
And each time you think of me, I know you'll miss me, too;
But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,
That an angel cqame and called my name and took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready in heaven far above, and that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly loved,
But as I turn to walk away, a tear fell from my eye, for all my life I'd always thought I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for, and so much yet to do, it seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad, I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, i thought just for awhile,
I'd say goodbye, and kiss you, and maybe see your smile.
But then I fully realized, that this could never be,
For emptiness and memories, would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things, that I'd miss tomorrow, i thought of you, and when I did, my heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through Heaven's gates, I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me, from his great golden thrown,
He said, "This is Eternity, and ALL I've promised you.
Today for life on Earth is past, but here it starts a new. I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last. And since each day's the same day, there's no longing for the past.But you have been so faithful, so trusting and so true.Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn't do. But you have been forgiven, and now at last your free. So won't you take my hand and share my life with me."
So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart.
For everytime you think of me, I'm right here in your heart.




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You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbye
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow




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I praise God for your life. You touched so many people here on earth, and the Lord is using you in ways now that you couldn't even imagine. I am so proud I can call you my friend. Through you, God is still changing lives. I love you and miss you. I pray for all who are hurting all the time. See you when I get there....




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hey deb
i think its soooo cool how awesomely devoted to God you are. You are a really insperation to me and many others. You will always be remembered as the girl who had her life in the right direction which was completely focused on God. You where just an umbelievable role model for every one you came to meet.

luv always

** Keep on dancin for Him**



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Hey Aunt Deb,
I cannot believe its been 6 months. I've known for 4 months, and I still find it hard to believe what happened. I would like to think that its all a nightmare, and I will wake up eventually, but I know better and its all real. When I first found out about the accident, I was at youth group. We were making posters, about ourselves, and I brought in that picture of you, me and Dena that we took on July 30, 04. My friend Amanda looked at the picture, and she said "Aww, thats so sad." I know I looked puzzled, and she said "You don't know?" I said "Know what?" Dena looked at me, just as confused as I was. Then Amanda said "Aunt Deb, she died." It was quiet for a minute, I looked at Dena, and asked Amanda "are you serious?" And Amanda is like "Yeah, I am surprised that you havent heard about it." I asked Amanda how she found out, when and all the other questions. Hannah Kleyn, who goes to my church told Amanda. I wish I would have found out sooner. I came home that night, and looked at Manitoqua's website, and sure enough, there was an article about you, and a link to this website. I cried all night, and the next few days during school. It was so hard to believe, and still is. I used to think that these kind of things don't happen to me. But it did.
You've taught me a greater and more valuable lesson than anyone else in my life. You taught me how awesome God is, and how happy we can be to know him, and have a relationship with him. You taught me that being a Christian can be fun. I've grown up in a Christian family, but never really felt the "spark" until I met you. Aunt Deb, you are so amazing! Look, you are changing lives even in your physical absence on earth. I don't like to say you are dead, because I know that you are not. You are still living on in my heart, and all who love you. You are alive and well in heaven with our Father.
Every day I am remiinded by you. When I listen to Relient K, I am reminded of you, when I read the Bible or pray, I am reminded of you. Whenever I am happy, and having fun with the little kids at my church, I am reminded of you. You taught me what true happiness in Christ was, and if it was not for you, I would not be as strong of a Christian as I am today. i hung a picture of you and I, taken on July 26, 04 next to my bed. Along with a piece of those tie-dye jerseys we made, and a chain with a cross on it. Remember those necklaces you taught us to make with old hankies? I am wearing the fisrt one I ever made. I miss you so much, and I love you too.
Everytime I come on this website, I read what people have put, and my eyes fill up with tears.
I am always praying for everyone who ever knew you.
Love, always
Angela Huizer




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Debs,

I miss you all of the time. I don't even know what to say or how to react to things that have happened to me since your death. All I know is that you have influenced my life, as well as so many others through your short time here on earth. So many people here miss you and are going through so much right now. I know that you are rockin in heaven with Jesus, but at the same time, it is hard to comprehend that this is all part of God's plan. I pray for everyone that is hurting, and I hope that peace can come to all of those that miss you so much right now. We will never forget your awesome laugh, smile, and personality. You led so many to the Lord, and you are now getting all of the rewards that you deserve in heaven. I LOVE YOU!



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I couldn't stay off this site. I love her so much!!! Debbie your loved so much! Debbie I have gone thorugh so much stuff i the passed 6th months! I've gone thorugh 3 terrible deaths and I know two ppl who attemptd suicide! It's scary thinking about death! But I know you are so happy in Heaven. It must be awesome up there! I'mn sure it is!!!!!!!!!!!!! U've had the happiest Christmas last time! And u are only 21 but ur happier up there than you were down here! I love Debbie!!!!! And so does everyone else that knows and loves you! Debbie we miss you and love you sosososososososososososososo much! I love you Deb.

Tayder Totz
Say hi to April and Lauren!
I had my best basketball game on Thursday!




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I happen to be a close friend of the family of the late Bijan Sayeed. I was looking at his website at "Quite the King" and then stumbled at this site for Debbie Rusthoven.
It tore my heart to read the "postings" from her Mom and her aunt Debbie. The background music by Josh Groban was awesome and very moving indeed.
Unfortunately, I never met Debbie or her family but by reading their "postings" I feel like I know her and the family. I do have a daughter who is just 20 and I understand or should I say I can try and understand how Mrs. Rusthoven feels. The truth of the matter is none of us will ever know how she feels.
From what I see and read , I know Debbie was a BEAUTIFUL person- both inside and outside.
From what I read it has been just 6 months or so when she was taken away in a accident. That is all I know.
Mrs. Rusthoven and aunt Debbie, I can only pray to God that He give you both and the rest of the family the love and strength that only HE can give you all, so that you may be able to cope with this HUGE void in your lives.
Sorry for writing this and intruding into your privacy. Because I am a total stranger I was hesitant to write . But I just want you to know that indirectly, Debbie has touched me too and this site has been superb.
Let me end by sharing this little poem that I came across and may it give you all some peace and understanding.

GODS LENT CHILD
I’ll lend you for a little while a child of mine, God said,

For you to love the while she lives, and mourn for when she’s dead.

It may be six or seven years, or forty two or three,

But will you, ‘til I call her back, take care of her for me?

She’ll bring her charms to gladden you. And should her stay be brief,

You’ll always have your memories as solace in your grief.

I cannot promise she will stay, since all from earth return,

But there are lessons taught below I want this child to learn.

I’ve looked this whole world over in my search for teachers true,

And from the folk that crowd life’s lane, I have chosen you.

Now will you give her all your love and not think the labour vain,

Nor hate me when I come to take this lent child back again.

I fancy that I heard them say, ‘Dear God Thy will be done’,

For all the joys this child will bring, the risk of grief we’ll run.

We will shelter her with tenderness, we’ll love her while we may,

And for all the happiness we’ve ever known, we’ll ever grateful stay.

But should the angels call her much sooner than we’d planned,

We will brace the bitter grief that comes and try to understand.

My love and prayers to the Rusthoven Family.

Felix Campos, Florida
felixcampos@aol.com





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Hey Deb,

I miss you so much. You have touched so many people, and the story of your life has touched even more. this weekend i had a retreat for some of the high schoolers/8th graders. many of them were having hard times with stuff and then i brought you up. I remember when i first heard about everything. I was inconsolable for 20 min. but then i smiled, knowing that since u led a great life, you would b in heaven, probably playing softball w/ J-dawg. You have showed me to stay positive in everything, and it helped me to talk to these kids knowing that if you just stay positive, God will be there. Thanks for your great life Deb. Love Leoni



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i know even though you were 2l you still called me that and now if I could only hear you say it to me one more time. It is amazing how we take things for granted. All the hugs you and I had you would run up to me and you would not want to let go. God if we could do it just one more time. I know that you know you were loved but I just want to tell you again how much I love you and am so proud of you. I can not believe it has been 6 months. I had to hear your voice and see you walk and act crazy again so I watched the video from Chrystals weeding last night. You were so happy and you had that big smile on your face. Oh how I miss your craziness with your sister. I am so blesssed by all the messages on your website and I just read them over and over. I love the stories and it brings back those fun times. I had a fear all week that I would forget your laugh and smile and the way you walked and I shared that with the staff at church and they all prayed for me and tried to understand how I am feeling. I feel so empty. I know we have a new life to look forward too and I know that you will never be forgotten. North Park has set up a memorial scholarship fund in your name honey and that just makes me so pround and also the track that church made up as a witnessing tool for all of your friends to share. I love you honey and keep on dancing. LOVE mommy




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I miss you so much Deb...this doesn't get easier. I just don't understand why this happened.




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Hey Deb,
Thank you so much. I wish you were here so i could tell you how much you have changed me and my friends. I am in Maine now and i am thriving because you told me i could. I knew i could come here and make a difference in peoples lives. My best friend is having a hard time with the idea of losing someone she loves. i think you may have helped her more then you could have ever helped me. I talk about you to her all the time and i show her your pictures and tell her stories, she is gonna come volunteer at camp. Your Aunt is right, it isnt getting easier, i miss you so much, and I never got to tell you good bye. But Deb, thank you so much for being my friend. Thank you for giving me the lessons in life that i needed. Sometimes people tell me that the way i talk about you reminds them of me...that is the absolute most amazing complement i could ever get in my whole life. i lost two more people last weekend, it sucks. But mostly i wanted to come tonight and tell you thank you. I miss you and i love you and because of you i am a better person




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6 months ago today our family's world changed forever. The world is so different to me now. There is not one day that goes by that I don't think of you a thousand times. Today has been a very difficult day for everyone. It just hurts so bad. I wonder if people can see this huge hole in my soul. I can't sleep tonight because I feel my heart will break. I know people want me to say "hope you're having fun in Heaven" or "see you soon" but tonight those words just don't comfort me. All I know is that you are not here anymore. You are not at my home, babysitting your cousins, hanging out with your friends, or sleeping in your own bed. I see reminders of you everywhere but I realize you are not there anymore. It can drive me crazy.
I watched the news and heard about the two guys that died in a car accident at 159th and Harlem. I saw it in the newspaper and heard it on the radio. I know what those families are feeling. My heart aches for them. Before your accident, I would have never thought that I would have something is common with them. Ironic isn't it?
I love you my Deborah. I will miss you until the day I die. I am so grateful you always knew how much your entire family loved you. I love you, Aunt Deb






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6 months ago today our family's world changed forever. The world is so different to me now. There is not one day that goes by that I don't think of you a thousand times. Today has been a very difficult day for everyone. It just hurts so bad. I wonder if people can see this huge hole in my soul. I can't sleep tonight because I feel my heart will break. I know people want me to say "hope you're having fun in Heaven" or "see you soon" but tonight those words just don't comfort me. All I know is that you are not here anymore. You are not at my home, babysitting your cousins, hanging out with your friends, or sleeping in your own bed. I see reminders of you everywhere but I realize you are not there anymore. It can drive me crazy.
I watched the news and heard about the two goys that died in a car accident at 159th and Harlem. I saw it in the newspaper and heard it on the radio. I know what those families are feeling. My heart aches for them. Before your accident, I would have never thought that I would have something is common with them. Ironic isn't it?
I love you my Deborah. I will miss you until the day I die. I am so grateful you always knew how much your entire family loved you. I love you, Aunt Deb






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Julie told me bout this site. I didnt know you but the way people tlked about you is INCREDIBLE. You seemed like the sweetest person ever!! i wish i couldve met you. And to debd family im very sorry for your loss i kjnow what it feels like and you will pull toghther





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I went to IlWavino's last night. I saw slide of you along with Becky & Paul. It's not getting easier Deb...only harder. We miss you. Knowing you are with Jesus is my only comfort. Give my Mark a kiss for me.




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Hi Debs,

Just wanted to tell you that as always I still think of you every day. I know you hear my prayers and my "good morning's" each day. I miss you so much...
love you babe,
Anda




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hey happy valentines day

from all of the things written here u are so loved i dont think u could ask for better. i kno how much everybody wants you back here but you are in the best place in the entire world you are away from all the trouble your in paradiise now
@-->--god bless




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This is probably my last time here, because this is just to emotinal for me! Deb say hi to April n Lauren! lyl!
Taylor




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I can't stop thinking about you, Lauren, and April. It makes me know that for sure that life can be short or long. I am so sad. I think about everything. I just want to cry! I'm so sad!!!!!! I'm started to cry right now. I'm so sad and I want you, Lauren, and April back so bad! I'm so scared of death! Deb, I love you and miss so so so so so so so so so so so so so so much!!!!! I love you! say hi to everyone for me!!
Taylor




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Hey Debster!!!!! Julie, Erika, and me always talk about it, because of GEMS and S.U.R.F! We all miss you and I hope that the guy who hit you know what he has done and if he doesn't then he doesn't know how much this is hurting us! I miss you Deb a lot! But a least I know you're in Heaven dancing with Jesus! Debbie we all miss you and wish you were still here, but we know you are having a better time there then here and we all know that you are reading these messages everyday!!!!!!!

~Taylor~
Luv ya and miss ya! Say hi to LAuren and April for me!




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I still cant belive u r gone! i know it sounds selfish but i cant help it !
i miss ya debs!
i will rember all the times i saw u at chruch and u were always smiling!!! all of the things i read about onthis webstite r amazing! i rember the day my mom told em that u had died! i had cheerleading that night and i couldnt go cuz i was crying so mcuh!!! i hoope i grow up to be jsut liek u ! smiley,happy,bubbly and everything u were ! or at least half of what u were! I love u and miss ya debs!! u wil always be my role model!!!
Say hi to my great grandma 4 me!!
And give JC a great big hugs u always give every1!!!
thanks
u rock mi socks off!!
LOVE ALWAYS AND 4 EVER!!
Eurka




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hey DEBSTER!!
yes taylor and i talk about u every time we c each other bascily!! also, erika and i cry like everytime we talk,but we no that it was a loss for us but a HUGE GAIN for HEAVEN!!!! we all love you and miss you DEBBIE!!!!!! i know that it isnt right but i really hope that the guy who hit you knows what he has done to all of us and you!! but ur danceing for Jesus soon to be AUNTIE DEBBIE !!!!!


juLIE


LOVE YOU!! SAY HI TO AUNTIE SANDIE N PAPA 4 ME DEBS!!

SAY HI TO JC TO !!!



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Hey Deb,
It's Taylor, which I'm sure you know. I really miss you and I was so bummed when they cancelled Camp for S.U.R.F, because I knew that by going there I would feel happier than ever before! I have had three deaths, including you, and two other love ones. I also have two other love ones who attempted suicide. I love and miss you so much. You baby-sat me right before you past away. Julie and I talk a lot about you a lot and we miss you so much. Deb, I miss you so much! I love you and I just cannot believe your meeting the Savior's face. I'm sure you're talking to Lauren and April. I'm sure you're coaching the basketball team up in Heaven and you're waiting for me. Laugh out loud! Deb, I miss you and I know you're watching over me and our family!


Love always,
Your favorite cousin TAYLOR~




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I'm thinking of you all the time, and I miss you so much. I got the camp application, and the newsletter in the mail. There are a lot of pictures of you. Camp wont be the same without you
love always
-angela




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hay deb i used you tracks in my paper for school. deb you are still saveing people down here u know the book 1 thing u cant do in heven well your still witnesing to people from up there camp will neve be the same with out you deb

ps say hi to jc for me and wach over me cuz i have ben being dumb latly


john




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Hey Debs!,
just thought that i would check up on u! did u hear that camp is putting a slurpee machine in the chapel basment in memory of u? it's coming up on 6th months! i love you and miss you dearly!! i wrote my young authors story on you and my teacher cried when she read it !! i love you debbie and were spreading your tracks!!


~Julie




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Hey Debs

I miss you so much! I don't even know what to say. This weekend has been so emotional for be between Dance Marathon and thinking of you. I haven't been to this site in a while. Now that I'm back it is starting to set in that you won't be at Manitoqua with your smile. I miss you so much. You are such an amazing role model. Deb, I wish that I can have half of the influence that you had on this world. If everyone loved Jesus as much as you did this place would defenitely be a lot different.

I try not to cry because it is over, I try to smile because you happened!

Sma



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Had a slurpee today, the coke kind was wicked slow so i had to get blue rasberry. i have a lot going on right now, i miss you debs, you better be having fun up there, i know you are




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i miss ya so much!!! i still cant belive ur gone!! i know u have been watching me and every1 else down here cuz i prayed that god adn u and every1 up there would help me and every1 down here to get the loss of u!!! and i went by camp manitoqua today becuz it is right by my grandparents house and we had a shower there!! so i looked down the street and i could feel u there!! it wfelt so awesoem!
I LOVE U AND MISS YA!!!!!!!

LOVE ALWAYS AND FOR EVER!!!> Eurka!! that is what u always u to call em at camp!
LOVE YA ! U ROCK MY SOCKS OFF!




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WHY YOU?




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I knew that this was going to be hard and that i was going to think of you a lot, but i think about you a thousand times more than i did when you were here...and thats alot. Debs, i still struggle with not having you around anymore, i look at pictures of vacation and stuff and it feels like it was just yesterday that we were wakeboarding and you were successfully jumping the wake. God knew what he was doing when he put you in my life and in everyone elses, we have to trust that he knew what he was doing when he called you back to heaven too. miss you tons and cant wait to see you again!!




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Hi Debs,

I miss you so much and wish that you were here. I have been talking to your Aunt Deb and we have been sharing stories about you and all the funny things that happened or that you did. They make me laugh but make me cry too. I wish we could've seen eachother one more time, i wish I could've given you one more hug, or told you that I love you one more time...I know you can hear me when I tell you that and I guess I will just have to wait for that hug. I miss you Debs-more than anything.
I love you,
Anda




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Debb!
I jsut cant to seem to get u off mind i jsut fell like u r still in abaco and u rgonna come back soon but i knwo that u wont and i miss you so mcuh!!!! i never did see your jesus dance but i cant wait for u to show me in heaven!!! im gonna be a sam and a counsler at camp mantiouqa when i grow up so i can be jsut like u!! u r my role modle debs!!! and u will never be forgotten!!!!!!
I LOVE U SO MUCH!!!! thinking about u more and more everyday!!
LOVE ALWAYS<
Eurka!!!




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Debs, it doesnt seem like its already been 5months! we all miss you but it seems like youll be coming back over your next break from college. we no your gone but our minds play tricks on us and we think what we want to think


We all mis you and love you so much !!!!!


thinking of you !

Julie
ps camp wont be the same this year, but we'll party there with you!!




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Debs,

Five months have passed and things still aren't the same without you, nor will they ever be. I miss you so much and it still feels like its a nightmare- i keep thinking that one day I will wake up and you will be here. I wish that was true. There is so much that I wish I could share with you, and I know that you are witnessing it from above, but I wish you were here to be apart of it. I miss you so much and I know that my heart will forever be missing a piece until we meet again. Please say hi to my grandma and grandpa...give them a giant hug for me. I will see you all again someday soon.
I love you Debs,
Anda




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I cant believe its been 5 months sense your accident. We miss you soo much!!!!




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I can't believe it has been 5 months since your accident. What a sad day. Things will never be the same.




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I have a qusetion for god !
WHY? Why would he tkae an awesome perosn like u away and not sum1 that doesnt want to live. i know u r in a better place but i jsut dont under stand why would he take sum 1 that was helping spread his word!! DEB- u help me and a whole bunch of other people to knwo god and i jsut thank u so much for that please again help me get thorught this tough time and other ppl that cant get u off ur mind! I never told ne 1this but i want to be jsu tlike u whne i grow and i want to help ppl know the savior please help me through thtat!!!!!
I LOVE AND ALAWYS WILL LOVE U AND MISS U!!! u will never be forgotten!!!
LOVE ALWAYS,
Eurka




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Hi Deborah,
I miss you so much. We just got back from Abaco. I gave Pastor Robin a picture of the two of you and he loved it. Pastor Robin also made a hut and a garden for you. It is beautiful. Paul and I barried a your journal that you started in the Bahamas from Papa K. You will always be apart of abaco. In Abaco, we talked about you all the time. All of the kids miss you, but I told them we will see you soon. Your face is all over the Island. It was funny walking into gocery store and resteraunts and seeing your face. You will never believe this but I was in the hospital for a night and I wasn't scared. I kept thinking about you calling me a baby pants. Well I am not a baby pants anymore. I love you so much and I have onemore thing to tell you. I are going to be an aunt. I can't wait to tell my baby all about her aunt. I love you and I will be in heaven soon to see you again. Love your big sister




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AUNT DEB I MISS YA SOO MCUH!!!! I STILL CANT BELIVE U R GONNA I ERALLY MISS YA!!!! HELP EVERY! GET THROUGHT THIS TOUGH TIME!!!! I REALLY TRUELY LOVE YA TO DEATH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
missing ya terribly,
Eurka




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Heyy !! i dont knwo why but i have had u alot on my mind this past week camp isnt goin to be the same w/o you !! u were my role model and please help me get thoguth this tough time ! it is hard 4 me and i was close to u but not as close as sum ppl r and it must be really hard 4 them at this time!! at school i ahve a picture of u in my locker and when eva sum 1 walks by they see and they ask who it is and i say it is my favoirte camp counsler that died!! adn they ask how u died! and i say in a car acciedne adn theyall r like oo im so sry and im jsut like i knwo! it doesnt feel like u r gone it jsut feels like u r in another counrty and u r gonna coem back soon and i knwo that u rnt but i wisht taht u would!!! i had a dream that u came back to life and i was so happy adn the werid thing was was the fact that the night before at GEMS me and julie DeRuiter were looking at picutes of u adn paulie from camp adn u ahd this awesome smile!!
that was my favoritve picture!! please AUNT DEBB!!! watch over me thought out the week and help me get thoguth kids at school that dont knwo god and help then get to knwo them!!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!! i hoeu read these from heaven!!
Xo Eurka 0x
ps every1 that say ur pictuer in my lock er eitehr said taht u look like me or that u r really really pretty and help me w/ my friends and help them get to nkwo God too!!!!!!!!
i miss u terribly!




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hey deb-
i just wanted to let you know that i miss you. i have my duct tape bracelet in hanging in my car to honor you and to never forget how much you touched me in so little time. ive been thinking about you a lot lately and am missing you more and more. you helped my faith out so much and since you left, well.... my faith has been changed in so many ways. the times we'd pray were pretty amazing and unique... ill never forget that and ill never forget you. i hope your new knees are holding up in heaven.

missing you more than ever.
matt




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i miss you tons and tons...life is defiantely not the same without you, i cant wait to meet up with you in heaven. You're the bestest!!!




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Heyy aunt deb!
i rember 1 first time at camp and i had u as a day camp counsler and we would sing songs and when my mom knew that you wer emy counsler and asked if u went to our chruch and i told u every time that i would see i would say aunt deb and u would always say eurka!!! and it would make me so happy!!

now when i every i hear the song sadie hawkins dance i think of all teh good times at camp !!!!
this summer me and my firends r gonna go to camp and they r from surf and at the last meetting i jsut started crying because they had brought up u adn i miss you so much!!!! i lvoe you so much and im tryin to do what u do ...... u would always be about god and help other ppl meet him adn i did that w/ sum of my friends and now i knw othey r saved and i thank you so much for that!!!!!
and trisha told us taht the day before u died that u said that that was the closest time u avheeva been w/ god that is so amazing
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!
and always will
Love, Eurka!!!!xoxoxoxoxoxo




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hey debdeb, its been a while since i wrote on here, i think its because its too painful, and i miss you so much. i miss your smiling face, and the crazy way you would get just to be silly. i'm so thankful to GOD for the deep commitment to him you felt. even in death you are changing lives and pointing others to christ. I AM SO PROUD OF YOU HONEY. but my heart aches knowing you will not be down here (physically) anymore, to
watch you grow into your later adult years to watch you get married and have a family. but i know you are at peace and at the feet of the one you loved the most. and he knows our pain and through his peoples love and prayer he comforts us and gives us the strength to carry on. the holidays were hard without you and so was your birthday. we love you and miss you so much. can't wait to see you again say hi to my mom for me and give her a hug. love always DAD.




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Debs,

I just wanted to say that I have been thinking about you, as always, and that I miss you so much.
I love you
Anda




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so writing in here was way harder than i thought it would be but i really needed to, i've come here so many times just to see the great things people have written about you and to read the things that people are dealing with and i've never been able to write myself. i miss you so much...i miss sitting in church on sundays and looking around and seeing you smiling at me and i'll miss praise and worship at camp manitoqua, the first one i went to you were so excited to see me there, i'll never forget that it made me feel so good (i don't think i ever told you that), and i'll miss you in abaco so much debs...we're leavin today and i so wish you were comin with us...i know you'll be there and all but it would have just been awesome to have you there to laugh with and share all the great times that i'm sure we're gonna have. i can't tell you how much you've effected my life debs i'm real glad that i knew you and i am able to call you a friend, i can't wait to see you up in heaven some day.




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Deb, I hope that christmas and new years were absolutly amazing up there. The staff reunion wasnt the same with out you. We still miss you.




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Hey Aunt Deb
I hope that your birthday and holidays were great with our awesome Lord. You are greatly missed down here on earth. I have been praying for your family and other friends during the Holidays.

I want to remind everyone that God never gives us something we cant handle, and God will give us the strengh to live each day through her death.

Aunt Deb, I love ya and miss ya
-angela




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Debs,

I have been thinking of you and your family everyday and my heart just hurts. I don't even know what to say except that I miss you so much. I was thinking of the time that you came over and we all played games. we had so much fun that night. we always had fun. You were always one of the best people to be around, without knowing it you lifted spirits. December was not an easy month, we celebrated your 22nd birthday and then Christmas, but Christmas this year you got to spend it with our savior. I cant even imagine what youre doing up there, but if i know you you are doing great and having so much fun. I cant wait till i can see you again and get and give one of those big hugs i miss so much. I love you so much Debs and miss you so much, and your family is in my prayers everyday.
Shannon




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Debs,

As I lie here thinking off all the great times we had together on this sleepless night, I just can’t help but miss you so much. Everyday something reminds me of you. It’s funny but it’s so true to realize now how short life is. I tell all my friends, my classes of students, and people I meet. Debs, I miss your smile, your support, and the comfort that I found in being your friend and having you around. I often get so upset thinking about you and wondering what your doing. I can’t help but cry, and yet I get mad because I feel selfish. I do believe that your looking out for all of us here, and watching over all those that are missing you. I remember the other day thinking of your birthday, and how I always used to mess it up with Crystal’s and you would get mad. It’s little things like this that always remind me of you. I remember now as I lie here, the night before I left for college, you came to my window throwing rocks to wake me up, “Dawson’s Creek” style. I remember you almost broke the window. I’ll never forget talking to you that night, and walking you home. You’re the best Debs, and I thank you for so many great memories.

Dan




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Hey aunt deb!!
i hope u r haveing and awesome time up in heaven and u r so lucky becasue u get to spend christmas and the new year w/ our savior!!
i miss you soooooooo much
me and my friend brie r writeing this and seeing all the ppl that u touched we r gonna miss ya soo much at camp
i rember my first year at camp manitouqa and u were my day camp cousler w/ uncle josh and i drew a flower on ur arm and i messed up on uncle josh's adn u fixed it u always fix my mistake!! now u can help become a person just liek you!!!! u r soo awesome!!
i love you
love always and 4 ever,
Erika and Brie
ps keep ur spirt at camp through out thet whole summer!!!!!!!! xoxoxoxox




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Merry Christmas Debbie! My prayers are with your family and loved ones during this Holiday season. I pray that they be comforted by the fact that you are spending this Chrismas with The Lord!! We all love you!! God Bless!




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Merry Christmas our dear Deborah! The holidays are just not the same this year. We all know that you are with the Lord and that's great but I am selfish! I wish you were here.




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Hey Debbie...I just wanted to say that it is amazing how many lives you touched in the short time that you spent here. You definately have touched mine. You were a true role model to me during high school. You taught me alot about how to live life and smile while doing it :)...Hilary and I went to visit you yesterday. You were probably laughing at us because we drove around forever! But you will always be remembered and thanks for putting such a bright smile on mine and everyone else's faces and being such a great friend. Both you and your family and friends will be in my prayers this holiday season. I laugh everytime I hear the NSync Christmas song "Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays" because I remember singing it to the toll booth workers on our way home from a basketball game one year! I'll never forget it and I'll never forget you and your laugh! Thanks.
Love Always,
Christine




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Hey Debs! I miss you so much. I hope you had an awesome 22nd birthday... i'm sure you did! I think about you often. I tell everyone about you and how you were an awesome person. I think about your family and they are in my prayers every night. You were such an amazing friend and i could never replace you. I always go to 7-11 and get slurpees because they remind me of you! I actually just bought my firs slurpee chapstick like you had! Hope you arehaving fun with Jesus!!!! MIss you so much and love yoU!




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For got one thing!!
i neva tol dyou this but me and my firned were tlakin about ppl that when they walk in a room and they smile they jsut make the room light up adn you were the #1 on my list you were so full of life!!
and your song on this web site you rasie me up is truely an aweseom song 4 this website!!!!!!
and when i read these messages ppl left you they make me want to cry but u wouldnt want me to be cryin so i think of all the fun times we had at campa dn it makes me smile all teh time!!!!!;) hehehe
love ya,
Eurka!!




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Heyy!!!
i just cant seem to get u off my mind after julie deruiter told me about your web site! im look thrugh reading all the messages ppl left you!
you were so truly loved!! in ur picture at the top u are there w/ a superman shirt and u wre truly superman!! u were the person who helped me except god intomy heart at day camp like 3 years ago adn i drew a flower on ur arm!! deb i miss you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much and i hope you family adn ppl that rlaly loved u can get through this season with you being gone deb i will always love you!!
Loe Awlys and Foreva!!
eurka- my camp name lol!!
ps your birthday is right before my sisters brithday mykenze that is how i will alwyas remeber your birthdya !!i love you aunt deb!




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baby girl my Deba!!! oh your birthday with Jesus must have been the best birthday ever I miss you so hon I went and bought an angel for our tree I just couldn't decorate it but it has an angel on it because I know you are there with all of our loved ones and having a great 22nd birthday I love you so and I have angels all around your pictures people have been so wonderful and have been keeping us in their prayers that is all we can ask for right now to help us through this time your friends keep writing from camp or just that you knew and it gives me such joy and peace reading all the love that is shown to you. You are loved and always will be love you hon mom




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Happy 22nd birthday beautiful girl! I miss you so much. I hope you are having a good birthday with your dad. I love you!




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Debs,

Just wanted to say Happy Birthday to you and I am glad that I went to visit you today. I miss you.
I love you




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heyy again!
forgot to tll you onething!!
im in surf now and our cousnslers r trica,alicla,john ,brina adn paulie
and i jsu tlove being around paulie cuz he reminds me so much of u adn that is y i love to e around him!!!
you were so full of life and i hope when i grow up to be jsut lik eu because you r the best role modle eva and i still cant belive u r gone!!!
and u get to look in gods face and me adn my mom always says why did god have to take an awesome girl like deb and not some other person that doesnt deserve to be on the earth?? that is the question sh eis gonna ask good whn she gets tto heaventhe 1st thing!!1
me adn my friend brie adn tori werent gonna go to camp because it would be to hard on us but then i got like him sign that said go to campadn u will have deb w/ u insprit always so i cant wait
deb i lvoe you so mucbh and i didnt even know you that well inm gonna miss ya and for those of you that did knwo her well i dunno how u can take it cuz it is hard 4 me to tlak about it but e/ other ppl it must be like heart aching
pleas watchova me and kepp every1 that loves u and knwos u safe
i will always love you
lvoe eurka!!
hehe MHAW!!
xoxoxoxoxo




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Debb i miss ya sooooooooooooo much camp isnt goin to be te same this year w/ u not there but i knwo you will be there in spirt!!
i hope u see this from were u are now adn i cant wait to see u in heaven!!!
Love always and FOREVER!!!!!
Eurka as u used to call me at camp!!!!
ps happy belated birthday u r haveinthe best one yet i bet!!




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happy birthday i miss and love ya




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Deb-
I just want to say happy birthday Deb. I miss you and love you very much, but I am filled with joy knowing that you will be celebrating our Savior's birth at His feet this Christmas.




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Deb-
I just want to say happy birthday Deb. I miss you and love you very much, but I am filled with joy knowing that you will be celebrating the our Savior's birth at His feet this Christmas.




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happy birthday deb.




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Hey Debs~
Happy 22nd birthday! I miss you soo much... i can't believe that its now december, it seems like just yesterday we were at camp laughing and telling stories, dressin up, dancing... I feel soo blessed having known you. You were such a light for Christ. There are soo many memories from when we worked in the canteen together like seven years ago when we were sams, to working together this summer at camp. I love you and I miss you! I can't wait to see your bright smiling face again when we meet in heaven. I pray that God is with your family today and through this holiday season. I love you DR!




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I hope youre enjoying what is probably your best birthday celebration ever!!!




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Happy 22nd Birthday!!





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I can't believe it has been 4 months since you left us. I think of you all the time and wonder what you are doing. It has been such a roller coaster of emotions over this time. I rejoice because we have a new baby in the family, Jenna Lee, but then I am so sad because I will never hold your baby. We celebrate Thanksgiving and rejoice because we had you for 21 incredible years, but them I am filled with anger because I long for more. Jimmy and Jennifer got married on December 11 and I am so happy that my son found such a wonderful wife, but them I am filled with sorrow because you were not there with us. When I was at the reception, I closed my eyes and I could picture you dancing and laughing-it made me smile! Jimmy and Jennifer wanted to do something for you at the wedding, but your mom and I just couldn't do it. It is just too painful. I did bring you with me though! I had your picture/charm on a bracelet and I held it in my hand all night.

I love you so much.
Aunt Deb




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Debs was a very special person. Not only was she my sister Laura's friend, she was like family. I've known Debs forever. I've been at Calvary since I was 2 and now I'm 29. I was thinking the other day about Debs, when I was 18 I taught Sunday School for the first time, she was one of the kids in my class. :) It seems like it was so long ago, and yet not very long at all. That was in 1993...I also worked at Camp Manitoqua for 3 summers 1994, 1995, 1996....I saw Debs there too! I was so excited that she was working at Camp Manitoqua, that place holds a special place in my heart. It truly is a Place of the Spirit. In 2002, Camp Manitoqua had a big Reunion, it was Debs first summer there. The staff put on a few skits for the former staff members. It was hiliarious! The one thing that I can remember about that day is Debs, her smile could light up a room and her laughter was music for the soul.

Debs is forever in our hearts and in our memories! I can't wait for the day when we all get to see her in heaven with our Heavenly Father!

What a joy filled day that will be!! How awesome that she is in Heaven with Jesus! Rejoicing HIM as I'm typing this....laughing that beautiful laugh and smiling that radiant smile.

I love you Debs!

Love always,
Rebecca Martinson




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Hi Debs,

I don't really know what to say besides that i miss you. I come on here every night just because it makes me feel closer to you. Gosh Debs i miss you...
i love you
Anda




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Hey. Aunt Deb, I miss you so much I can't say. My friend's best friend just died on Thursday. He was my friend too sorta. I know you'll be welcoming him to heaven with open arms. I miss talking to you, and I miss your hugs.
I just miss everything about you.
I love you.
:*(
-angela




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A note to say thank you to Jenni and Deb for putting the memorial cross back up on the corner. It really means a lot to me and I am very grateful I miss you baby love mom




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Hi Debs...

I know I just wrote not to long ago, but I wanted to say hi again. I miss you so much. I was telling some funny stories the other day about some funny stuff you and I did and it made me so happy to talk to others about you. I told them what a wonderful person you were and how you will forever be in my heart. I think about you all the times Debs. I miss you so much and it really breaks my heart to think about the fact I won't be eating with you at Chili's and doing our sleepovers this Christmas break. But I know you are in a place where you always wanted to be having the time of your life and that helps my heart and mind. You mean so much to me...more than I ever got the chance to tell you. I will never forget what you said to me when we talked on the phone that week...but I know that I will see you again someday. Say hi to Grandma and Grandpa for me and tell them I miss and love them so much! I Love You Debs, just like I always say, and don't you ever forget it, you will forever be my best friend.
i love you
Anda




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I wrote your aunt an email to thank her for the DVD she sent me. It was good seeing your face - i never got to see those childhood pictures of you, how hilarious.

i got to remember a lot of stories about you when writing your aunt. im remembering another time just now, when Crystal had that surprise birthday party for you. I think we hid in Crystal's bedroom for what must have been an eternity waiting for you to show up. Its funny how we remember these things.

Im missing a lot of people right now, and its hard. I remember you, and all of you guys that have been in my life and have moved on to be with our Father. its a tough time. maybe its the cold weather and the holidays, im not sure. many people are going to be affected this holiday season by the loss of you Debbie, missing you and such. I pray that God really comforts us all during this time, and gives us the strength to remember the good times with smiles rather than sorrow.

I know a lot of you guys reading this come here because you're sad and mourning. I pray that even this very moment, the Holy Spirit ministers comfort to you, at your computer. Spend some time remembering the times you had with Deb that made you laugh -- and laugh all over again. Laughter is such a great medicine. We all know that Deb laughed a lot in her life, and I pray that her joy will continue in your life this very moment.

And Deb, we all owe you many thank yous for the laughter, but so many more to God for sharing you with us for as long as He did.



Name: Scotty V ur 3rd bro
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16:33:37 11/29/04


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Deb,
It has been rough to read this website and to write something. U and paul were over had our families house all the time and I looked at u both like my brother and sister. I have known for so long and not one time there wasnt a smile on my face when u were around. U were the best example of a child of Christ. I will miss u so much. I think about u all the time when i am just sitting here at college and I cry. I cant even think how hard it is on ur family, because i know how hard its been on us(ur 2nd family). I cant even think what crystal feels like because 2 days before the accident u were at here wedding, dancing with me with a big smle.
Now u are dancing with God and ur teaching him a few steps.
Me and my family will mess u and we r always thinking about u deb
love you deb,
Scotty 2 Hotty ur bro




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Debs,

I just wanted to say hi and that I hope you liked the flowers. I miss you...you will forever be my best friend.
i love you
Anda




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I got my DVD! :D
My computer's been down for a couple days, otherwise I would have written this earlier. My sister and I watched it once, then we watched it again with my mom. My mom never met you Aunt Deb, but she's seen you before when we were picking my sister up from camp. She kept saying how cute of a baby you were.
Thanks so much to Deb Kowalczyk for the DVD.

There is this song that Simple Plan sings called Perfect World, and there are 2 lines that keep going through my head- "In a perfect world, this would never happen, in a perfect world, you'd still be here"

But this world is not perfect.

Aunt Deb, I love you so much, and I miss you.
*hugs*
-angela




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Its strange that you could know somebody's name and admire them so much without ever actually talking with them. even if they dont know who you are. at camp i just remember seeing you always laughing and it made me see how much joy you had. i could tell how passionate you were about so many things. a couple weeks before you passed away i was hanging out with paul and one of your friends from camp was there. he said , "yea, deb is just a very unique person. you've gotta love her." i remember thinking that i wished i would have gotten to know you. in so many ways i feel like i have missed out. your life has inspired to be more of a servant and to really show others the joy that is found in the Lord. Im sure you're having an amzing time dancing on those golden streets of heaven.




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01:18:57 11/24/04


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RUSTY,
ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE I WROTE. I GUESS IM WRITING NOW BECAUSE I NEED YOUR HELP. MY SISTER LEFT FOR THE NAVY YESTERDAY AND IM HAVING A LOT OF TROUBLE WITH IT. WE DONT KNOW WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN OR WHERE SHE'LL END UP BUT I NEED YOU TO WATCH OVER HER SINCE I CANT. SHE LOVED YOU AS MUCH AS I DO.
I HOPE YOU ARE HAVING AN AWESOME TIME AND I CANT WAIT UNTIL I SEE THAT SMILE AGAIN. I LOVE YOU!




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Debarooser,

i havent written in a while but its never to late i guess. i went up to northpark the on sunday night to hang out with lyndz and heidi, we went to college life. it was awesome....you would have definately loved it. i couldnt help but picture you in my mind as we were singing some of the songs, i would peek over and look at you and just admire how into and intense you were about worship. i'm so thankful you were able to be in my life for as long as you were. my mom and i talk about you often, we always end up laughing our butts off at some of the stuff you used to do and say. i still cant believe you are already in heaven. i know i'll get to see you again, and trust me i've got a huge hug for you when i do. while the holidays are going to be tough, i can only image the celebration you're going to have in heaven on Christmas morning. its hard not to be selfish and want you here so badly, but i know that you wouldnt come back here for a second. have fun doing God's work...don't mess around to much. 14334



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Deb,
I didn't know you very well, but everytime I saw you, you had a smile on your face and seemed so joyful. You always greeted me and made me smile with your happy attitude. I miss that now. Say hi to my grandpa, he just got there a few weeks ago. He's got some good jokes for ya too.




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deb i heard this song and you came to my mind <3 lifes not going to be the same without you


i'm just so tired
wont you sing me to sleep
and fly through my dreams
so i can hitch a ride with you tonight
and get away from this place
have a new name and face
i just aint the same without you in my life
late night drives, all alone in my car
i can't help but start
singing lines from all our favorite songs
and melodies in the air
singin life just aint fair
sometimes i still just can't believe you're gone
and im sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven,
maybe we'll make it through one more year
down here

feel your fire,
when its cold in my heart
and things sorta start
remindin' me of my last night with you
i only need one more day
just one more chance to say

i wish that i had gone up with you too
and i'm sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven
maybe we'll make it through one more year
down here

you wont be comin' back
and i didn't get to say goodbye
i really wish i got to say goodbye
and im sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven
maybe we'll make it through one more year
i hope that all is well in heaven
cuz its all shot to hell down here
i hope that i find you in heaven
cuz i'm so...
lost without you down here
you wont be coming back
and i didn't get to say goodbye
i really wish i got to say gooooodbye






Name: Betsy
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01:06:53 11/21/04


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Debbie~
It's been awile since I saw you last... a year and a half, maybe? Linds, Kim and I went to see you play for MVCC since we never got to see you while we were still there. I remember thinking that I was happy seeing you get to play... I know how rough it was for you to come to every single game and practice while you were injured that first year. Not many people have enough heart to do that. Not many people can do it with a smile everyday, just like you did. You helped our team make it through tough times and losses with your never ending encouragement and smiles. Every time I think about you, Debbie, I think about your awesome smile and how everyone around you just had to smile with you. Every girl who's played softball knows that the team she's on is a team of her sisters. You were my sister for those 4 months, Debbie and I'll never forget how great you were. I know you're a beautiful angel now, watch over us down here.
Love~Betsy




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I miss you so much. I still can't believe you're gone. This pain is unbearable. I love you Debs.




Name: Mom Brenda
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11:52:59 11/19/04


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I can believe its been 3 months & I just found out about this web site. I feel so bad that I havent written sooner. I will pass this information on to your other family so hopefully they will check out this wonderful site too and write to you. I want to say your faimly is still in our paryers as I know I still have tears when I pass the site or see you name on the cell phone list wishing I could push send and have you stop by to see that wonderful smile, you always brought alot of love & joy to our family, even grandma & grandpas loved you.
The girls were saying Debs birthday is coming up next month its going to be very hard not to give you a big hug.
But the best thing I always think of is that some day I (we all) will get that big hug from you, when we all get to heaven. This song means so much more now then it has ever meant before.

**The last time I drove by the site I noticed someone putting up a big colorful pinwheel, the next time I drove by there was nothing, it was really heart wrenching to see someone took it down.

Dan, I just wanted to say that braclet you gave a way is exactly what Debs would have wanted passing around the reminder of WWJD. Scott had a hard time dealing with it and I think that is what I will give him as he was wearing a rubberband around his wrist as he found it and said Debs always wear friendship braclets.
She touched alot of lives, as we should all live in her example.
mom#2




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Hey Debs,

I just wanted to say thanks for looking out for me. So many things have worked out for me that I can't help but know that your looking out for me and I sure so many others. Your the best Debs. I just wish we could see the stinking sun shining down here. Talk to ya later buddy





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Hey Aunt Deb,
Man 3months and i cant believe it at all i miss you soo much. The other day my friend told me that i was such a positive person n it made me remeber you n ur positive impact on everyone. I just wish you could be here with me. Your brother Paul goes to my youth group sometimes n it makes me happy to see him there but sad at the same time. I cant wait till i get to see you happy smiling face again. On my 5ppl project where you were my 1st person my teacher wrote you described her very well she seemed amazing and that truley what you were aunt deb. I love you soo much

*-* Has any1 else noticed that the cross for her is down or did i just miss it the last time i passed it?*-*



Name: mom
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just a note to everyone Aunt Debs birthday Is December 20, 1982
they have the wrong date on the website thanks again everyone love Debs mom




Name: mom
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my dear Deba I was the only one who called you that and I miss you so so much the pain is so great I don't know sometimes how I can go on. God I know is with all of us through this and all the love shown to us is getting us through each day.
I love reading all the wonderful notes from all of your friends and loved ones and it gives me alot of peace. I have your pictures all over because I have to see your smilling face each day. I look at the sky often and know you are their and I have the asssurance that I will see you some day and just pray for the strength to get through each day. Our family has had so much prayer support and love shown to us from so many people that Deborah you would be just shocked. You sure were loved girl and I am so proud of you. Thank you everyone for writing all of the comments on this web site. I will also pray for all you young people who loved Aunt Deb and that God will be with all of you each day and walk by your sides to help you.
I love you Deba and as I always said to you " you'll do good " and you sure did hon. with all my love mom




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I love you Deb, but I know that you hear me every night as I pray. I can't wait to see you again.
I miss you. I love you.




Name: Chris
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14:51:08 11/17/04


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Hi Debbie,

I am still in shock about what has happened. It's been three months since your accident. You are definitly missed by all. I wish you the very best...to you, your family, and all your friends.

Chris



Name: Dan
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Hey Debs,

It’s been three months since you left, and so much has changed. I wish so much that you could be here to see me, teaching. I remember how supportive of it you where and how you encouraged me. I think about you and the person you were, and I try to be that, everyday. I remember finding the WWJD bracelet that you gave me, and wearing it. I wore it to work everyday, and those who would ask, I would tell them how I wore it in memory of you. I recently went down to Eastern to visit, and ran into a old friend of my who when she saw me started crying. She told me how her best friend was killed over the summer. I lost it right their, and told her about you, which she had heard and seen pictures of you and me and she remembered that. Anyway, I gave her something; I gave her that bracelet, the WWJD from you. I miss it everyday, but I knew from what you taught me that it would be the right thing to do. I just wish I could see you, talk to you. I sadly enough even called your phone one night, and heard your voicemail, I left you a message… I miss you Debs, I miss your family, I think about them constantly, and how I want to stop by, I am afraid. My mom just had knee surgery the other day, and was telling me how she felt bad for what you must have had to go through. Not sure how to end, but I miss you….




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Hey Aunt Deb,
3 months today... I can't imagine how much harder this is for your family then it is for me. I pray everyday for them. We all miss you so much, and love you. Thanks for everything.
-angela




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22:45:26 11/15/04


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Hey Debs I still can't believe this is a reality. The days go by and some are better than others. I sometimes want to pretend that you will still stop by- we will still talk, and laugh - just not today. Some days I do pretent just to get by. Other days I feel the pain of the loss. I cry and pray and ask why. I know in my mind you are safe, secure, and so happy in heaven with Jesus. That hope is what keeps me focused and thankful. My heart still breaks. I'm trying not to be angry or resentful, and I pray God will draw all of us near to Him each day. I stopped listening to praise songs for a while, but I started just recently to listen again and allow God to speak to me and comfort me. I just love this web site I feel close to you and everyone who writes and opens up their hearts to you. I pray for each person writing. That God will comfort all of us. I know we are all still learning lessons from you. How to keep on going on. Austin got a slurpie the other day. We were together and we cried as he remembered when you would take him. We drank it all down and chewed on the straw. We all love you and miss you so much. Your candle will always burn in our hearts and minds FOREVER. ALL MY LOVE jennie





Name: Angela
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21:35:46 11/14/04


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Hey Aunt Deb,
I went to church today, had fun. Church is always fun though, even the boring sermons can be fun. The younger kids performed for everyone. They stood on the stage and sang little songs with motions. It was so cute, and awesome that these young ppl are learning and growing in God every day. I know you would have liked to see it. (Maybe you were watching from Heaven)
I miss talking with you, emailing and snail mailing. I regret deleting all the emails you sent me from the past 2 years when I was cleaning my mailbox. But that was before I knew. I had some sort of dream-ish thing, but it really wasnt a dream. I dream-ished that I witnessed the accident. It was scary, and it made me cry... Everytime I am in a car, I get tense when I hear a siren, or the car stops suddenly, or anything outlandish happens.
I miss you so much. It wont be the same at camp anymore. You were the light of the camp, its gonna be dark 24/7 without you.
But I promise I will go, I will try to have fun, and praise the Lord with the same passion you have.
I love you. I wish there was a stronger word for "miss" and "love" because I more than miss you, and I more than love you.
Its not there though, I feel like there is a hole in my heart, and no one or nothing can replace it. I know that eventually, the hole will heal, but there will always be a scar.
I'll write more later.
-Angela




Name: Deb's Aunt Deb K
E-Mail: DebKowalczyk@msn.com
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15:10:42 11/14/04


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Thank you for all the requests for Deborah's DVD. I will start to mail them out on Tuesday, Nov 16. Please just email me if anyone else would like one-anytime. We are very proud of our Deborah and want to share this part of her life. Thank you for loving her.

Once again, here is my email address:

DebKowalczyk@msn.com






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Hey Aunt Deb,
My dad just got home from Europe. Thanks for keeping him safe and watching over him for the 2 weeks he was gone. I miss you so much. I asked your aunt if I could have a copy of that DVD. I hope I get it soon.
I love you.




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Hey Aunt Deb when i was on my way to school the other day it was still dark out n the stars were out n i saw this extremly bright star and i told everyone in the car that the bright star i saw was you and i belive it was. I wish i could of been up there with you just chatting about everything and anything i miss you soo much and i will never forget you. I think im gettin threw my first year of highschool because ur guiding me threw and with gymnastics to. Save me a spot up there n ill bring some slurpees for us. cant wait till i get to see you again. I love you soo much!




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I saw something today on my way home from school. Our bus passed a car wreck. It made me so sad.
But for some reason, it seemed coinsidental.
I dont really know, maybe it was some sort of message from God.
I really miss you Aunt Deb. I can't ever stop thinking about you. Please help me realize whatever God might be trying to say.
I love you very much,
-Angela




Name: Deb's Aunt Deb K
E-Mail: DebKowalczyk@msn.com
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23:51:52 11/10/04


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I wanted to tell everyone how much we appreciate everything that is written about our Deborah on this website. Words do not describe the sadness and emptiness we feel every day. It is comforting to our family that other people miss and love our Deborah.
We want people to know that Deborah was so much more than that horrible car accident. She was a bundle of energy that lit up the room when she entered! She was sensitive, kind, and understanding of others. She was always smiling and making us laugh. Even when I picture her now, I can't help but smile. Deborah was many things to many people, but most important, she was a child of God.
My son, Jim, put together a short DVD of some of our favorite pictures of Deborah. I don't know who everyone is in all the pictures, but if you went to Deb's wake, the pictures were displayed on the screen. There are pictures of people from Camp Manitoqua and Calvary Church on it. If anyone would like a copy, please email me with your address and I'll mail you one. If you go to Calvary, I will put it in your mailbox. No need to send any money-we would just like you to have it.
I would like to say a special "thank you" to my son, Jimmy, for making this beautiful DVD of your cousin, Deborah. You made your family this wonderful gift that captures the spirit of our Deborah! I love you more for this-if that is possible.
Thank you for your prayers,
Aunt Deborah Kowalczyk




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i made a mistake in my last message- i meant that when i have bad days, i could email you about it, and you'd always make me feel better. oops... i feel stupid.
love and miss you,
-angela




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Hey Aunt Deb i went to orland mall 2day n i was ready to look at your cross and be happy that you were in heaven but it wasnt there n that made me want to cry. I miss you soo much and i just wish i could see you again. Im in tryouts for gymnastics right now n they might have to cut some freshman during tryouts cuz there is too many and they have never done this before and it makes me mad that for tryouts we have practice on our days off and that im not good at some things but i try to have your mind and how you would put a good impact and good attitude towards w/e you were doing. I just ask you to look over us and watch us and never forget we love you. Im not as scared to die anymore cuz i kno i will get to be with you. I miss you so much and i hope that more impacts from you come somehow down to me so i can become a better person i miss you so much aunt deb
In jesus' name
Amanda L.




Name: Angela
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21:03:34 11/10/04


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One some days like today I feel such a sense of loss because you are gone. I miss you so much- too much. I look at your picture all the time and try to hold on to the memories of you I have. Its hard not to cry sometimes Some days I will have really bad ideas, and I could email you about it, and you would always email me back with good thoughts and advice. I miss your hugs, and I dont like the fact that I wont get another one for a really long time.
I miss you, and love you.
-Angela




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18:10:56 11/10/04


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hey...i stumbled here when i was going to see what people were writing about a good buddy of mine, kevin. i have never met debbie, but from the things people have written, she must have been an awesome person. it's probably not right me for me to be signing, since i didnt even hear about her death, but now that i know i feel i need to at least write a nice word. rest in peace debbie, there are many people who miss you here, and to her family, my best wishes to you.




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I miss you so much and think about you everyday. I wish you were still here with all of us. I love you.





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We miss you so much and think of you each day. We still can't believe you are gone....we are praying for your family and Steve.




Name: Angela
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20:49:54 11/09/04


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I havent written here in a while.
We sang Lord I Lift Your Name On High at church on Sunday. It was great because all the kids from camp were doing the motions we learned, and the younger kids who have not yet been to camp tried to follow us. It just reminded me of you running around the chapel getting shy kids to do the motions, loosen up, and have a good time.
Relient K's new CD came out on the 2nd. Every time I listen to any of their CD's I think about you. I really miss you a lot, and I can't wait til that day when we all get to see you again, and sing our favorite worship songs.
:*)
I love you,
-angela




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09:55:28 11/09/04


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miss you and love you so much!!!!




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01:42:58 11/09/04


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Debster,
You have a couple friends of mine on their way up to chill with you....give Eugene a hug for me (he gives the best hugs ever) I miss you so much Debster




Name: Gela
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12:41:03 11/08/04


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So, i drove past the site where the accident happen a few days ago, and just seeing the cross there in the open made me start to cry. My heart breaks for all those who loved her dear and for those she loved. Debbie was an amazing girl who will never be forgotten by me. I still am praying for everyone, her family and friends, and i believe Debbie didn't live her life in vain. I can't believe she's been gone for almost three months now. I LOVE YOU DEB!
~Angela




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00:35:13 11/05/04


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And when the love spills over
And music fills the night
And when you can't contain your joy inside, then
Dance for Jesus
Dance for Jesus
Dance for Jesus and live!

And with your final heartbeat
Kiss the world goodbye
Then go in peace, and laugh on Glory's side, and
Fly to Jesus
Fly to Jesus
Fly to Jesus and live!

We sang that song last week at worship. I immediately thought of you. Deb, I’m still missing you all the time and I love you.
Paulie, Mark-Mark, Becky, Marilee, Jim, and all of Deborah’s family, I miss seeing you guys and I pray for you every day.

*Oh, and Deb…they make purple skittle chap stick :O)
I LOVE YOU!!!
-Amanda




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Deb,
I was a long way away when you went to be with the Lord, i was sitting in my mothers house in TX when the phone rang. It was Judy from camp, she had an important thing to tell me. It was not what i had expected. I could not believe that you where gone. I felt so helpless cause i was so fare away when it happened, i was not able to attend your funural or wake, for that i am sorry. It has taken me awhile to get use to the fact that you are gone, but i know where you are Your with Jesus, your "home boy". So i do miss you Deb, i have alot of memories of good times at camp with you. I pray that one day, we will see each other again. Till then, take care friend, and say hi to Jesus for me... i could use His help about now.
Your Buddy,
Dave




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Hi Deb how’s it going? I didn't know you that well but I went to camp and witnessed every day how wonderful of a person you were. You didn’t know me either but you made sure that you said hi to me everyday with a big smile on your face. When I first heard about your death I was stunned. Once I found this site, I realized how much of an impact you had on people's lives. Reading these posts makes me want to be like you and be devoted to God I'd just like to say thanks for that.




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Hi Deb how’s it going? I didn't know you that well but I went to camp and witnessed every day how wonderful of a person you were. You didn’t know me either but you made sure that you said hi to me everyday with a big smile on your face. When I first heard about your death I was stunned. Once I found this site, I realized how much of an impact you had on people's lives. Reading these posts makes me want to be like you and be devoted to God I'd just like to say thanks for that.




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Hi Debs...
Just wanted to tell you that I am always thinking about you. I miss you so much and can't wait for the day when we get to see each other again. You will always be my best friend! Always in my heart!
I love you so much babe,
Anda




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Aunt Deb Im havin a hard time right now..in gymnastics i cant land something and im gettin soo mad at myself and i wanna be able to and i just ask that you help me threw it and to not give up cuz i kno you would never give up! Just be with me threw these rough times im having. i miss you soo much you dont even know how much. I just wish i could see you again so badly. I miss you and i need you aunt deb... I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH
In Jesus's name
Amanda




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Hey aunt deb im sorry i havent writtin in awhile. We did a 5people project for reading and we had to make a book of our 5people and you were my number one person. When my friends in that class looked at it and i told them your story and i wanted to cry but i knew i shud b happy telling them your story i just miss you soo much and i think bout you everyday. And talkin bout death makes me sad. I remember the month after ur death i was at my friend kyles house and elena asked from what do u die slowly of and he was explaing it and i broke down and that was the 1st time ive cryed infront of a guy and when he was huggin me to make me feel better i was very sad but happy cuz i could feel you in him. i just want to thank you for everything youve done for me and thank god for each one of us that we have a great time on earth and that we bless your name and his. I love you Aunt deb
Amanda




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Debs,
I've tried to write on this a million times, but I never quite found the words to say and really, I don't think I ever will know what to say. I can't believe you are in heaven! The days of your wake and funeral all seem like a blur. So many people were there, so many people love you. I remember my mom telling me that she rememebers when we came home from Abaco and all I could tell her is that she didn't understand how much I love you. Debs, I love you so much, you made such a huge impact on my life, and the lives of so many others. You make me want to be a better person and it is such a privilege to call you my friend. We shared alot of laughs together and I can't wait to share more with you. My heart goes out to your family, and to your boyfriend, because I know you loved them with your whole heart, and they loved you just the same. I pray for them all the time and I will continue to do so. I still expect to see your smiling face at church and weave through the people to give you the biggest hug, but reality hits and I know I will have to wait to hug you again. Thank you Deb for showing everyone you knew the power of God's love.
To those of you that didn't know Deborah: Her life was an example of what true happiness is. Everyday, Deb thanked God for her gift of life and she still is doing the same. She lived her life on earth praising God in everything she did, but the good news is her life is not over. She did not go to heaven because she was a good person though, she went there because she new she wasn't. Jesus Christ gave her the gift of eternal life and if you don't know Him, let what you heard of Debbie's life be a starting point. We mourn because we miss her, but we rejoice because we will see her again.
I love you Debbie, and I cannot wait until we meet again!!!!




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Hey Aunt Deb
I've bn really busy lately, so I havnt been doing my daily posting. Not that its required- just that I want to. Yestuday i had a builders club meeting, guardian viking meeting, girlscout meeting, and i had to go to a volleyball game.
today i had group (girl talk group counseling thing at my school)
i decided to take that- i got lots to cope with these days. lol...
I miss you so much, and I miss getting your feedback on the email and letters I used to send you.
I am able to believe and accept what has happened now, and i am trying to turn it into positive things. on monday at school i was crying, my friends kept trying to cheer me up but it didnt work. now i dont cry anymore, i just think of you, walking hand in hand with Jesus.
i read in the Bible in Revelations, it describes what heaven looks like . I imagine it is awsome!

My dad is leaving for Europe tomorrow. He will be gone 2 weeks. Can you please watch over him? I know I've told you that we dont see eye to eye, but I still love him.

Thanks for putting a smile on my face, even after what happened.
Frowns are temporary now, but smiles will be permanent.
I love you more than I ever told you,
-angela




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Hey, I didn't really know u Debbie, but I've heard so many good things about you. You belonged my church Calvary Raformed. I know everyone misses you, but we are also glad. Ur in Heaven and we will not forget the things that u've taught us. I'm also certain that God said to you Well done my good and faithful servant. Have fun up there! We'll see you soon!
~Kaitlyn




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Hi, I dont know you but I am Angela's friend. You seem really cool and dedicated to God.
I can tell you will be missed.




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I wrote this story while I was at camp from Monday, July 26, 2004- Friday, July 30, 2004. This story was written on the Wednesday, not at camp, but in Wisconsin. I was an adventure camper and we went mountain biking there...

I am dedicating this short story to Aunt Deb...

Sara walked into the cabin door to see to her surprise, Elizabeth crying. She sat on her top bunk bed, red face clearly seen through her damp fingers. Sara's mind ran wild. She wondered what she should do. Her foot moved towards the open door, but something in her objected to that choice. Elizabeth, now aware that Sara was present tried her hardest to act casual. The attempt was failing. Elizabeth climbed down the ladder, and tried not to make eye contact with Sara. She grabbed some tissues and wiped her eyes. "I-I'm sorry you had t-to see this..." she sobbed. Sara, who never really got along with Elizabeth was speechless. She felt something warm rise in her; sympathy. She felt sorry for Elizabeth. The only person who has been tauntung her, and making jokes to entertain others. She should be laughing at Elizabeth, and teasing her. But no... It didn't come out. Instead, Sara did something she herself found surprising. Sara was walking towards Elizabeth; who was now sitting on the bottom bunk. Sara sat down next to Elizabeth, and put her arms around her. She gave Elizabeth the biggest hug she could give. Elizabeth started to speak again. "W-hy are you d-d-doing this?" Sara carefully thought of her answer. She gave a happy sigh, and said: "Its what Jesus would do." Elizabeth couldnt help but smile.
"You have heard what it was said, Love your neighbor, and hate your enemy. But I tell you: Love your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you." Matthew 5:43-44 New International Version

I love you Aunt Deb.



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Hey Aunt Deb
I am working harder everyday to be like you- the best Christian I can possibly be. I volunteered for something at my school today. We didnt have school, because it was parents day. I came anyways for about 7 hours to help out cause I knew its what you would have done.
I miss you so much-

I feel like there is so much I dont know about you that I wish I did. Some ppl might consider it stupid things that dont really matter, but for some reason to me, they do. For instance, I want to know if you played a musical instrument, what color your eyes are, and what your favorite color was.
Stupid little questions...
Maybe someone who knew could give me an answer or something.
Aunt Deb, I am gonna miss hearing you scream about polar bear swimming, or doing that game that we play every thursday evening at the pool party- "LET ME HEAR A SHARK ATTACK!" "what did you say?" "I SAID LET ME HEAR A SHARK ATTACK!" "what did you say?" I SAID ooh aah ooh ahh"... then everyone would splash around the pool acting like sharks.
And while we are eating meals, I hear all the counselors in a circle. "ATTITUDE CHECK!" PRAISE THE LORD!"
"ATTITUDE CHECK!" PRAISE THE LORD!"
"AAAAAAAAAMEN!"
I am really gonna miss dancing with you to Relient K songs in the chapel. I am just gonna miss hanging out with you and talking about God, life, or stupid stuff...
I havent cried today... not once. I am trying to enjoy life, and praise the Lord all the time.
I want to be just like you, Aunt Deb, you have touched my life so deeply.
I love you a lot, more than I've ever said.
And I miss you too much.
-Angela




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deb i miss you i kneed you to ancer so maney of my questions am am going to be telling your life storry to evryone with deb and dan deb you are still changing lifes down here. i kneed you to help wach over me up their thenks deb i love ya dabs




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the day i got out of the hospital was the day of your wake and after we all went back to the condo to put all my flowers that i got while i was in the hospital to the cross. Well, when we got back upstairs danielle took the most recent picture of us and said she was going to borrow it for a while, and i kept asking for it back cuz it was a great picture. This monday is my birthday so she stopped by yesterday with my birthday present and it was the most beautiful thing i have ever seen. she found someone to draw the picture out in a 11 x 14 and this lady did a fabulous job. it is such a beautiful picture but its all u that makes it beautiful. danielle knew as well as to tell the lady to make sure the wwjd bracelet was in the picture. it was the first thing i looked for and the first thing i found. When she gave it to me i just started crying, i miss you soooo much and i couldnt believe danielle did that for me. it was seriously the most beautiful gift i have ever recieved- even more than the engagement ring. by the way joe and bill miss you too. bill is one of my favorite people to talk to about you, maybe it is because you only met him once or twice and i warned you of his dry personality but to not take anything he says seriously. when we played taboo and kicked the boys butts, then had to switch to boy girl boy girl cuz they couldnt stand losing. we moved in to our new townhouse and the loft is like my serenity room and in it i have all my angels along with the rememberence angel i just bought and your wake card, and the poem amber's mom had written, but i think im going to put the picture danielle got me in the family room so everyone can see how beautiful you were. becky and i have met a few times and i am definitley going to abaco--i cant wait i am so excited. i cant believe you never introduced me to your sister- what a wonderful person. i look up to her the same way i do to you. the way you lived your life was incredible. she does it the same way. i know i have said this before but you guys look so much alike. I just want you to know that i have been worshiping every week and joined a bible study and soon i will miss one of my studies and go with your sister to hers. i am getting baptized at Parkview, which is the church joe and i go to now. we r still getting married in the catholic church, but parkview is where i feel Christ present. I am reading my bible everyday and journaling on what i read. you have changed me debs, everything about me. this whole accident was so traumatic and i still feel so many different things, but when i start to feel bad i look at one of our pictures and just remember you and all the good things. all the good times we had at slih and the heart to hearts we had. i miss your hug the most though. it was such a loving and warm hug. your smile to--so beautiful. i pray for your family everyday, and i love them so much. i know that youre having an awesome time in heaven-dancing with the Lord- oh how awesome that would be. to meet our saviour face to face. i love you debbie and i miss you so much.




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the day i got out of the hospital was the day of your wake and after we all went back to the condo to put all my flowers that i got while i was in the hospital to the cross. Well, when we got back upstairs danielle took the most recent picture of us and said she was going to borrow it for a while, and i kept asking for it back cuz it was a great picture. This monday is my birthday so she stopped by yesterday with my birthday present and it was the most beautiful thing i have ever seen. she found someone to draw the picture out in a 11 x 14 and this lady did a fabulous job. it is such a beautiful picture but its all u that makes it beautiful. danielle knew as well as to tell the lady to make sure the wwjd bracelet was in the picture. it was the first thing i looked for and the first thing i found. When she gave it to me i just started crying, i miss you soooo much and i couldnt believe danielle did that for me. it was seriously the most beautiful gift i have ever recieved- even more than the engagement ring. by the way joe and bill miss you too. bill is one of my favorite people to talk to about you, maybe it is because you only met him once or twice and i warned you of his dry personality but to not take anything he says seriously. when we played taboo and kicked the boys butts, then had to switch to boy girl boy girl cuz they couldnt stand losing. we moved in to our new townhouse and the loft is like my serenity room and in it i have all my angels along with the rememberence angel i just bought and your wake card, and the poem amber's mom had written, but i think im going to put the picture danielle got me in the family room so everyone can see how beautiful you were. becky and i have met a few times and i am definitley going to abaco--i cant wait i am so excited. i cant believe you never introduced me to your sister- what a wonderful person. i look up to her the same way i do to you. the way you lived your life was incredible. she does it the same way. i know i have said this before but you guys look so much alike. I just want you to know that i have been worshiping every week and joined a bible study and soon i will miss one of my studies and go with your sister to hers. i am getting baptized at Parkview, which is the church joe and i go to now. we r still getting married in the catholic church, but parkview is where i feel Christ present. I am reading my bible everyday and journaling on what i read. you have changed me debs, everything about me. this whole accident was so traumatic and i still feel so many different things, but when i start to feel bad i look at one of our pictures and just remember you and all the good things. all the good times we had at slih and the heart to hearts we had. i miss your hug the most though. it was such a loving and warm hug. your smile to--so beautiful. i pray for your family everyday, and i love them so much. i know that youre having an awesome time in heaven-dancing with the Lord- oh how awesome that would be. to meet our saviour face to face. i love you debbie and i miss you so much.




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I probably come here too much, but I just have so much to tell you. Its hard because I feel so much emotion at once. Sometimes I feel angry at God because I wont get to see you next year at camp. But then I am happy, because if anyone deserved to meet Christ, its you. Then i feel sad, and like crying. I ask God why, and sometimes I think he answers me. You are so amazing, because you were able to complete what God wanted you to do in just 21 years. It takes others so many years...
Everywhere I go, and everything I see, and everyone I talk to, I am reminded of you. You are everywhere, and you are all I can think about now.
One thing I miss about you most is your hugs. They are the greatest. Inside your arms- you make someone feel secure from all the problems. Your smile is something I am going to miss. You could make anyone else smile. And your voice, it keeps ringing in my head, never sad, or angry. Always laughing or shouting with joy, or giving words of comfort.
There is so much little things that are unimportant that I don't know about you, and I want to know.
I don't like living in Indianapolis- so far away from camp. I am moving closer to camp someday.
When I look at your pics, or write in here, I choke up, and get all teary eyed. But I try not to cry, because you wouldnt want me to. You always want people to be happy.
You were a role model for me, and I look up to you. I want to spread God's word to anyone I can, just like you.
You are my favorite person at camp, and I love you





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Hey aunt deb, we finished reading the 5ppl you meet in heaven n now we have to do a project where we make a mini book of the 5ppl we wanna meet in heaven and descibe them pysicially and what they taught us and im choosing you as my five people...i hope your have a great time up there just know we all love you with all of our hearts and you truly raise me up aunt deb...un christs name!




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Its been exactly 10 weeks from today, and two days that I've known. I'm here agreeing with Amanda, who I feel like I know, but probably not. I live in Indianapolis, so me being 14 I can't really get to Tinley Park to see your cross. I am wearing my Camp Manitoqua shirt, somehow honoring the life that you lived helping others learn about God. I e-mailed Aunt Kristi, Ashley's counselor. She said she was sad because we wouldnt be able to see you walking on earth again, but happy because someday we can dance in Heaven with you.
I agree.
I miss you, and it sucks to know that I've actually only seen you 16 days, but known you for about 3 years.
I am gonna be a better Christian. I am keeping a Bible journal- I pick a verse every night and write about it.
1st Corinthians 3:16- 17 was the one you taught to our cabin. I still have it memorized, and it means a lot to me.
All these things I wish I could have told you, talked about, emailed about, or write about, I am writing them on this website.
I am in school rite now, on my lap top. Its my last year at this school. I have to go to Highschool next year.
I miss you, and love you.
<3<3<3<3- angela




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Hey Aunt Deb
I'm probably gonna post here a lot now that I know it exists. I wish I could go see you, I want to buy you some really pretty colorful flowers. I sent a letter to your parents and family.
Bye now




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Hey Aunt Deb
Today i went pass your cross as i was goin shoppin with my mom. I wanted to break down and my eyes started watering but i knew you wouldnt want me to cry,so i tryed not to. i didnt even wanna shop i just wanted to go home i was soo sad but i thought of your smiling face and i knew u were up there having the time of your life. My life has changed in such a positive way because of you. i want to become a better christian because of you. I just wish so much that you could still be here with us all but i kno ur up there dancing with the Lord. I want u to know i will love you always and forever...i miss you hugs n smile n everything about you. Camp will be different but well all know ull there in spirit. I ask that you put some christian energy into my day when i dont feel like it. Make me be a person people love and remember.. YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTON...WAIT FOR ME UP THERE
xoxox..in jesus's name!




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I can't believe it has been over 2 months since anyone have seen your energy and smile. Life will never be the same. It is unbelievable how one minute of one day has changed everything. Your death has affected so many people. Your family is so sad-I pray for them all the time.





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Hey Aunt Deb,
its me again. I thought I would leave some memories of you- more memories.
"Close up these eyes
Try not to cry
All that I've got to pull me through
Is memories of you"
-Yellowcard

I remember when you switched clothes with someone, I don't remember who, and jumped in the pond. It was so funny, the whole camp was watching.
I remember when you fell off that horse and ripped your pants all up one side and half way up the other. Uncle Tim and I were talking about that- he said it was so funny. Back then it wasnt, but you were ok, and it was fun to laugh about.
Remember when we went dirt boarding? I was scared, but you gave me confidence. It was a lot of fun, too.
CABIN C= COOL CHICKS
Oringionally a guys cabin- but we beutified it. Remember how it smelled? lol.
I think I was in your cabin when we we raided about 3 cabins. two cabins meanly, one nicely.
And the most recent time I was at camp, you let Dena and I break the rules. We were not allowed to raide cabins anymore, ubt you let us adventure campers. Thanks! By the way- we didnt do much- only tied string everywhere.
Swimming was fun too, We went around and dunked everyone at that night time pool party.
Me and Dena snuck to chapel, because adventure campers were not allowed to go. They played two great Relient K songs, Pressing On, and Sadie Hawkins Dance. Dena and I snuck up behind you, and grabbed your arms and started dancing. You were shocked at first. Then you started to dance and sing with us. I remember last year at camp, I was in Aunt Katie's cabin- Cabin B, we were playing that name exercise game. I didnt like it very much, you came up to me and said "HI ANGELA! how are you..." We had a conversation, catching up from the past year. I didnt have to play that game.
Thanks for everything- i cannot thank you enough for being such a great friend and always being there for me.
You wrote this in a letter you sent me: "We can stay in touch forever, I promise :) :) I am so happy that you can tell me anything that is waht I am here for, I love to listen."
THanks for being my friend.
I miss you, and I love you so much.
-angela




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Hey Aunt Deb, Tonight at youth group your brother paul was there and it made me soo sad n glad at the same time. i was sad cuz i thought of you but soo happy that he can still worship and i can tell how much u ment to him and we sang this one song n i almost started crying because i thought of you..i miss you soo much n i want to tell you i love you soo much! I want to be like you soo much so that people remember me as a great person just like you! I cant wait to see you in heaven!! LOVE YA SOOO MUCH!!!!!!




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Hey Aunt Deb,
I just found out about your death today. It upset me very much. I love you very much, and I will always miss you. Camp next year wont be fun without you. I remember when I was in your cabin- Cabin C two years ago. You always made sure we wrote in our TAWG. And that wednesday night campfire. I told you something that I have never told anyone else. You gave me a hug and told me you loved me, and I love you too. I remember when I was in Cabin B, you were dricing around in a golf cart with someone yelling WAKE UP! and/or Were going swimmmmmmin were goin swimmmmin! And just about 2 and a half months ago- when I last saw you, I was in adventure camp. I tried to spend as much time with you as I could. I have that pictue that Dena took of you and me. Its reeally good. I was about to send it to you through the mail. I remember when you told me that you had that picture of me on your mirror. I have one of you on my lap top as the background/desktop picture thing.
I cant wait to see you again in Heaven. You have touched my life, and thanks for all the great advice and comfort. Thanks for making me smile.
Love always,
-Angela




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Hi Debbie. I havent seen you since high school but I can remember you always smiling and even though we didnt talk to much I know you were a great person. When I heard the news I was shocked and by reading these messages I can see how many lives you've touched. I drive past the accident site every Sunday on my to church and I always think of you and even though what happened was horrible, heaven has gained a beautiful angel. It's amazing to see the impact that you've had on so many people and I can only hope that when the day comes that I leave this earth, I've left as good of an impression. Have fun up there and I'll see you one day. God bless you.




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Hi Debbie. I havent seen you since high school but I can remember you always smiling and even though we didnt talk to much I know you were a great person. When I heard the news I was shocked and by reading these messages I can see how many lives you've touched. I drive past the accident site every Sunday on my to church and I always think of you and even though what happened was horrible, heaven has gained a beautiful angel. It's amazing to see the impact that you've had on so many people and I can only hope that when the day comes that I leave this earth, I've left as good of an impression. Have fun up there and I'll see you one day. God bless you.




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Aunt Deb
Its still a shock to me and the whole time in school when we were reading the 5people you meet in heaven i wanted to cry soo much because i thought of you! I miss you so much n knowing that ur not here with us makes me soo sad but i kno your dancing with the lord just dont forget about us down here, we definatly wont forget about you. you were an amazing person and i want to be more like you so help me learn more about god n to make the right decisions and be there for me. you know im still here for u n i will always remember you and this year at camp im gunna be soo sad without you makin me smile if i was havin an off day...calling me ur girl and everything what am i gunna do? well i kno you'll be there in spirit and we will all think of you soo much you touched soo many lives
DEBS FAMILY IM SOO SORRY AND IT HELPS SOO MUCH TO WRITE IN HERE AS I HAVE MANY TIMES BUT I LOVED DEB SOO MUCH SHE WAS MY FAVORITE AND MADE ME A BETTER PERSON..U GUYS HAD AN AWESOME DAUGHTER/SISTER.

In christs love
Amanda




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Debs,
After all of this time I really did not know what to say. It is still a shock. Even though we were not close, I always adored how much you could love our lord and not be afraid to show it. You were such a good example to everyone you came into contact with and you were loved and will always be....I know you are dancing up there with the Lord and looking down on all of us thinking how crazy we are, but what can we say you were amazing. I met this girl today and as soon as we started talking I thought of you. It's been rough the last couple of weeks, and she kept saying how God is always there for you. I could see you standing behind her smiling from ear to ear... Have fun with our amazing lord Debs, and dance your little heart out.
I had the opportunity to talk to an old friend the other day and we were talking about old time with WAVE and how much everyone's lives have changed....some getting married....some getting to meet the lord.....its amazing how you got that chance before us....but we will all meet you there one day....
Debs Family....I love you all with my heart...Mar....watch out for the cockroaches....Paulie....your the little brother i never had....and Becky....oh my Becky....i don't even know where to start.....i love you so much....Jim and Mark....i've never had the chance to get to know you as well, but i know you are amazing just like debs....
Debs, keep looking down and watching over everyone as the time moves on and know you are loved and missed dearly....
Love,
Lisa




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Deb,
I never knew you or met you but it sure does sound like you we're a great person! I've driven by the accident scene and I always think of you and your family.May God bless you and your family. you will be missed




Name: steffy
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19:37:53 10/19/04


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IIIIIILLLLOOOVVVEEEEAAAAAUUUNNNTTTDDDDEEEBBB!!!!!!

SSSSHHHHEEEEEERRRRRROOOOXXXXXMMMMYYYYSSSOOOOXXX!!!!



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Debbie,

Just wanted to say hi and tell you how much I miss you. I'm sure you know that I visited you on Saturday, but I wanted to tell you again that you are always in my thoughts, but most importantly in my heart. I love you so much...you were the best friend I could've ever asked for.



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Hi Deobrah
On Sunday at church we heard a sermon on Heaven. I was so excited to think about you being there. I miss you all the time. Everytime the song comes on Blessed Be the Name of the Lord. I laugh, remembering you banging on my car singing to the old man next to us. Mom and I went shopping last week. You would be so proud of hear she bought a Tommy shirt and it is cute. Shannon and I have met a couple of times. I can't believe you never introduced me to her. She is a wonderful friend. We meet a starbuchs and quess what I get a carmel apple cider. Now I am addicted. In January, Shannon and I are going to the Bahamas with church. Chris and I are getting ready to write a story about you to tell others about how you loved Jesus. It is so hard to write because there is a lot to say. Oh and by the weigh my marathon only took 6 hours and 15 minutes not 7. When I get to heaven I have a bone to tell you. Deb Donigan and some people for Calvery gave me a neclace with your picure in it. It is beautiful. I wear it all the time. My kindergarten always wonder why I wear a picure of myself around my neck. I say no that is my little sister we just look a lot alike. Deb I love you




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2months i cant believe it i miss you more then ever but i kno ur lookin down at us and laughing n ur smile brightens up the day..when i tell my friends about you i feel so honored to tell them how great you were and i love u soo much and when i pass your cross it still makes me sad but i kno ur in heaven partying with god....save some partying for me ok? So many things make me think of you and im soo happy i got to know you and member im ur girl lyk ya sed..the one who was with ya at camp all 3 years...i love ya babe n u truly raise me up...xoxoxoxox
Amanda




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dear deb,
i never did meet u but i have only heard good things about you. I know that your famly misses u




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i've been telling all my friends about you and how great you were. they didnt even know you and they knew you were a great person. thats wut i love about you. you touch my heart everyday. life gets harder and harder without you but im glad because you make heaven beyong glory. keep it up. i love you.
-alec




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i just wanted to say that i never realized how much i could miss someone. make sure you say hi to my grandpa Ron and my dog Butch for me i would really appreciate that. i hope to see you one day. i will always think about you. i love you so much.
-Alec ur cuzin




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i remember in the car looking behind us looking at the miles of cars knowing just how many people love you and how many you touched.




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deb-hope ur having fun teaching Jesus the dance and we'll see you soon.




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YOU RAISE ME UP AUNT DEB AND TODAY I COULD FEEL YOU SMILING DOWN AT ME...I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOO MUCH YOU WOULDNT BELIEVE IT!!!!




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just a note to let you know are hearts are heavy but khowing that you feet are light makes it feel a littleilessuneasybeeper i love you and always will love uncle bucky ny ior




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Deb-
About two weeks before you died you invited me to come eat dinner at your house on Tuesday August, 17. You said that your mom would make us dinner and that we could just hang out so we wouldn't have to be at camp alone. I told you that I would be there for dinner but you wouldn't believe me. You kept saying, "You're not coming, I know you won't show up, I just don't think you're going to come." When I woke up on Tuesday August, 17 I was so looking forward to spending time with you that night. I really wanted to see you. But as I was washing windows at camp Leah and Amy came over and told me that I wouldn't be able to eat with you that night. You had something more important to do that night. I just wanted you to know that I was coming. I was really excited about seeing you. That was all Alex and I were talking about that day. I love you Deb and I miss you.




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I look at this site, Deb, and I wonder how I can ever touch as many lives as you have. I wonder if I will ever impact as many people as you did. I wonder if my words or my actions will ever matter to this many people.

You definately set the bar a little higher by the way you lived your life.

Thanks for challenging the rest of us.



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Deb-
It's hard here. I know that you tried to comfort me and I know that you said it would work out, so I'm just trying to remember that. Everytime I think about how much I want to pack my stuff up and move I remember how you made the best out of every situation you were in. I remember a time when you were upset and you were walking around in these really big boots. They looked way too big for your feet. You were frustrated and everyone else around you seemed to have it all together. I think I remember that night so vividly because of the way you handled yourself. You were always so busy; so involved. But you always made our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ number one in your life. I know that I've been called by God to live a life of ministry but lately I've been feeling that I just don't have what it takes, but today I just remembered the time we were praying around the flag pole at camp and you were just hoping that it would just fall into place that week. That rez would just happen and work the way it is supposed to. I remember that at the meeting at the end of that week that you said you felt like we had really gotten it, that the progam had really run that week just the way it should have been. You spoke a very important message to me that week Deb. You made me realize that I was just a counselor. I wasn't showing these kids that I am full of love for them and that are SO special. I have so much love for those kids and I was so worried about making sure they weren't getting into trouble or going to bed on time that I didn't take the time to pour my love all over them. Thank you for teaching me that Deb. And now when I have doubts about God's plan for my life I just remember how much love I have for those kids and I realize that I just have so much love filled up in my heart and God made it that way. He wants me to release it, and I know that I can be good at that. Thinking of you daily gives me confidence. I have a framed picture of you on my desk and when I'm studying and it's getting frustrating and hard to focus looking at your picture helps me to remember that I need to work through school no matter how much I hate it because it brings me one step closer to enrolling in seminary. I just wish we were all back at camp together, but I think that, that is alot what heaven is going to be like. I'm so happy that you are there now. I know that you loved camp and I'm so glad you get to enjoy it for eternity. I thank you so much for everything you taught me. Even though this is not getting easier like I thought it would, I know that your death is part of God's perfect plan. I can't wait to see you again someday Deb. Until then I will hold my head high and make the best of my situation and continue to work toward the things that God has planned for me. Thank you for your strength while you were here on earth. It lives on. You passed it on to your family and friends. I am so grateful. I love you so much Deb. I miss you.




Name: Gela
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I love you and miss you debs!! I will never forget you, you made a huge impact in my life. I cut out the little blurb about you from the "Church Herald" and now it's in my school binder. in every class i look at you and wonder what you'd be doin right now if you were here. Whenever i come on to this website and hear "You raise me up" and start to read some of the entries, i can't help but to fill my eyes with tears. I truely do miss you "Aunt" Deb.




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Aunt Deb,
I miss you more and more each day. Sarah from camp sent me a pic of u n her from this year and i put it on my door along with a bday postcard you wrote me n i say goodnight to you evrynight and i have signs in my window and my dad tells me to take them down but im not ready to i dont wanna..i read all these entrys and it makes me soo sad and so happy how great of a person you were to everyone.your wake was one of the hardest things i had ever done outta all the wakes ive been too..you looked so peaceful and so pretty and different and i didnt want to believe it when i found out i thought it was a joke n im soo sad that i didnt take apicture with you this year because now i wont ever get to again..were reading the 5ppl you meet in heaven in reading and evryday i think bout you and we had to write a journal to it and mine was that i could realate because i just lost a loved one who i loved soo much and was an awesome person and it hurt me to write that i almost cryed in school..i still dont wanna believe it but i kno your up ther safe watching over us and being such a great angel. i miss you soo much and i will NEVER forget you!
In Christ's name
Amanda




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Hey Aunt Deb,
You are my aunt, i love u and i miss u so much it hurts me to write this because i miss u so much, i have ur picture i my locker at school and i look at it everyday and i think of u all the time, i have the message from ur wake above my bed and i see it everynight before i go to bed and i say goodnight to you and i can feel in my heart you are saying good night to me, i miss you so much, you are in gods house right now parting! I will never forget "we're going swimming, we're going swimming!" in the mornings of our polarbear swims. u changed my life that week at camp u really helped me get connected w/ god and now u get to be w/ him! you are with me everyday and i love you!!!
In Christ's Love,
Christina Messick




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Hey Debster,
Remember when you called me that for a week and you were like man why i am doing that...thats weird. I do, i remember so much about you. I guess you know i am doing uber well in Maine, a lot of that credit goes to you, they tell me all the time they dont know how i can be happy so often. I reliazed it cause i am being myself and i had a good example to learn by. I miss you so much Deb. I thought this would be easier somehow, that i could make it easier somehow, yet i find myself thinking about you all the time. I think about your family and how they are dealing with it. I cant imagine knowing you as well as they did and losing you i am having a hard enough time as it is. I know you are happy though Deb and i see the sunsets around here and i think of you. I know you like em too, arent they way better then the midwest? You told me i would be fine out here, that i would have no problem making friends...who would have known you would be right. I had my frist slurpee in a long time the other day, it was just as good as i remembered. I love you Debs, thanks for teaching me all the reasons there are to share a smile.




Name: Molly Desmond
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23:30:09 10/12/04


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Debs....
So I just did my laundary (one of the many downfalls of college life) and I happened to pull out our long-sleeved softball shirt from VJA 2000. Remember the one we never liked cuz it said "Teamworkness" on the back? What does that mean anyway?Well as I pulled it out of the dryer #40 Debbie Rusthoven jumped out at me and I felt the need to write you. I miss you so much babe and I don't even know where to begin. All I know is I think about you all the time; I think about your smile all the time. I was walking across campus the other day and the sun was glistening through the turning leaves of the trees and I thought to myself, "she's with me right now." It was a cooler day but the sun was bright and warm and I knew it was your smile shining down from heaven comforting me. I'll always remember your smile.......and I'll always remember the time I broke it. Remember that one Debs? Remember that game we had against Stagg and what happened during warm-ups? I was on first and you were catching. Well I was in that rythm of catching and throwing to you..catching and throwing to you..catching and throwing to you, but this time you weren't looking. The ball left my hand and the world around me stopped. It was all in slow motion and as I saw the ball move towards you, I froze and then I fell, and then I heard you scream. End result: I gave Debbie Rusthoven a root canal. Who does that? I did. And I never forgave myself because I broke Debbie's smile! The most radiant, contagious, loving display of happiness any person could ever have and I BROKE IT! I'm sorry. I know you know that and you're probably laughing at me right now for even writing this....and I love that about you. There's this song on the radio right now by Maroon 5 called "She Will Be Loved" and there's a line in it that says "look for the girl with the broken smile" and it always reminds me of you. But I know it's not broken anymore, Debs. I know you are in heaven right now overflowing with happiness and that I can always still feel the warmth and brightness of your smile and laughter anytime I look above. Though you may look down and see me crying sometimes it's because I miss you more than my body will allow me to contain. But I know you're truly happy now Debs. I'm just waiting for the next day I get to play catch with you again....
I love you Deborah Leigh
All my love,
Molls (Shmolls)




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Sorry Babe
I have been thinking so much about you lately it hurts. I laminated some pictures I had of us together and put them in my bible today. Sometimes I can hardly believe you're gone. Remember when we had that conversation about spending eternity in heaven. We were both baffled at the realization of being in the presence of Jesus FOREVER. Now I can't imagine the rest of my life without your friendship and presence here on earth. My heart is broken thinking about your family who faces each day missing you so much. I pray for strength, and God to wrap his arms of love around them every day. Steve my heart breaks for you. Although you had such an amazing time with Debs I can't imagine the loss you're feeling now. I know God will comfort you as only he can. I'm praying for you to. Dear Debs we can all remember how much you lit up this dark world with your love, friendship, and strength. I promise never to forget you. I talk about you all the time with John, Austin, and Gianna. And Cierra will know how much you will always mean to all of us. I love reading all these amazing notes. It makes me feel closer to you somehow. I cry tears of sorrow and joy for you. Tears of loss and gain. I miss you soso much!!!!! So many praise songs remind me of you. I can hardly listen to one without thinking of you. I love you my dear friend. Thanks for looking out for all of us from heaven. Forever in our hearts.

Jennie



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My Dear Friend Debs,





Name: Laura Host
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13:45:05 10/11/04


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I have not seen Debbie since High School, but I felt so sad when I heard the news about what happened to her. I remember Debbie as a person that was always nice to everyone, no matter what. She and I had homeroom together one year and although homeroom isn't usually a fun place, we made it fun by goofing around. I really think alot of people could have learned how to be a better person from her. She never judged anyone, she talked to everyone and made them feel included. I wish I could have been more like that. After I read the messages on this page, I realized that Debbie was so amazing to everyone and so caring and thoughtful because she was God's instrument on Earth. I am quite sure that she is an angel now. Debbie, I am glad I knew you, even if I didn't know you that well. I can tell by reading th emessages here that you had quite an impact on many lives. It makes people want to be a better person. Thanks for being such a wonderful person.




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Hey Deb, I was cleaning out the pickle shack a few days ago, and I couldnt help but think of you. All those times you came to visit "The Dr.". and of course those purple skittles. You loved that place, so I wrote a little note inside for your rememberance. I know that you have hit up the pickle shack in heaven already. miss and love you.




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Hey aunt deb...i love writting in here beacause i know you can see these and i miss you soo much and i know everyone else does..when i was at the wake i couldnt even see outta my eyes because i was crying soo hard..thats the hardest ive cryed in a long time and that shows you i loved you aunt deb! This year at camp its going to be soo weird and different but i know that i will remember everyplace you talked to me and we sat and everything...i can still picture us sitting on the tree at day camp talkin n you playin with my hair n another one when you told mike that me n christina were your girls...and now deb your our angel and i know that your gone but your still in our hearts and will never be forgotton i think bout you everyday and i miss you soo much and i look at pictures of you everyday...we miss ya!!!

In christs name
WE LOVE YOU!




Name: Amanda Reczynski
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Aunt Deb,
even though i only met you once, you were such an awesome person and i still hear it from everyone. I was crushed to hear what happened to you. its so horrible how god can take such a wonderful person like you away from us. i never thought it would be so hard to say goodbye to someone I barely even knew, but it really is. I wish you were still here with us. We miss you so much!

to Deb's family - i am terribly sorry about your loss...you definatly rasied a beautiful person. My prayers are with you all.

much love to you all!




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im sorry deb i meant you will always be missed by each and everyone honey i love you much but cant type take honey care i love you beeeeeeeeepery




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i cant even sit here thinking without seing you again honey i loved you and always have theres no more brown eggs at aunt trudys house or you flipping jim off the snowmobile or campfires honey i misss you and will take care care of your family and see that your moms ok honey im glad that you got to see yourdad and uncle mark but most of all to teach JESUS the dance honey take care we will se you someday i lovve you wi8th all my heart and you will never be missed love unvc




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LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH




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Aunt deb was a great person. She was a person you could never be mad at. I was shocked when i heard the news about your death.You will always remain in our hearts.You will never be forgoten




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Why? I'm sorry, Lord, I just don't understand. Deb was so much better than most people, she could have done so many things for You. Why?




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lost a loved on and gained an angel.




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~* I LOVE YOU AUNT DEB!*~




Name: Amanda
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Hey Aunt Deb...I ahave your picture in my assinment notebook and i show people and tell them how much you meant to me...I think bout you everyday and i sing you raise me up the song in here everyday and it makes me think of you and im happy that your safe in heaven even tho all of us are very sad and miss you soo much! Your smile was one in a million it was the best and always made me so happy...if i was ever havin an off day at camp you cheered me up and always made me happy and proud to be me and you once said you wanted to give everyone in the world a hug n i shud try that..you taught me soo much and made me believe in myself and without you i dont kno where i would be right now...you were such an insperation to me and you still are..i will NEVER forget you...i love you soo much...have a fun time up there with the MAN god...party with him like you would always tell me!!
With SOOOO much Love
Amanda

I LOVE YOU AUNT DEB ALWAYS N FOREVER!!!



Name: Chris Lacilla
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19:12:23 10/06/04


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To Marilie, Jim, Family, Friends

I have just learned of the accident this afternoon, and I am so very sorry for your loss. I met Deb way back in 5th grade when I went to go visit my aunt and uncle in Tinley Park. Deb, Becky, and I became friends and have reamined so over the years. My heart goes out to you all...and Deb, we will all miss you.

Chris



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I can't believe you have been gone for over 7 weeks. While I know that people are rejoicing that you are in Heaven with your Savior, tonight my thoughts are with your beautiful family. I mourn for their great loss. Even though some of us can somehow try and move on, it is your family that will forever grieve. They are a good Christian family and know that this is God's plan, however, this does not minimize their pain and sorrow. We will celebrate birthdays, weddings, graduations, etc. but they will always know you are not there. When we sit around our holiday tables, they will see your empty chair. We need to pray for your family as they go on this lifetime journey-God be with them.

You did so many good things, unselfishly, for so many people. I mourn for your future. You could have done so many more things here on earth. More people should be like you.

I will continue to pray for your family for it is now that they need God"s mercy and love. As the shock wears off, the true reality of your death is revealed daily. Thank you that deep in our hearts we know that your family will see you again. We will never forget you.



Name: Alison Oriente
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To Marilie, Jim and Family:

I just heard yesterday about the accident. I remember Deborah as a smiling little girl, always happy. She always gave so much happiness to the people around her. She was our next door neighbor and always watched over our daughter , Sarah.
Our thought and prayers go out to you all. You are all in our hearts.

Alison, Rich, Sarah and Mike



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i love you, deb.




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Hi Deborah-
Well I went out with Jeri the other day and we coudln't stop talking about you. I told her all about our songs and dances. I also told her about when we went to McDonalds to get a happy meal and you rolled down the windows and sang to the old man next to us. We talk about the time I put worms in my nose when we went out with mom. She couldn't stop laughing. Jeri told me God was getting board and needed you in heaven. Sometimes I want to be selfish but I know you are really Gods child. I have been to camp and I get so excited to think this is were you praised to Lord. We had our church picnic there and we worshiped just like you did. I felt so close to you. I love you so much and I can't wait to see you. Love your big sister




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hey deb-
its been a month and a half now and i still drop in here daily to pay tribute to the great woman of God you are. i still think about you a lot... the pain and grief has subsided some, but the joy i take in our memories has increased so much. i don't think i ever took you for granted, but i appreciate you that much more, now. you were a great friend to me and really impacted my life, as well as so many other people on this board. thanks for all the happiness you've given me and continue to give me.

matt



Name: Julie Mierzwa
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22:28:46 10/04/04


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Hey Debs... Debs, its been on my heart a lot to write you. But I've never quite sent what I've written, and tonight I think I realized why and now my heart feels good. Debbie, since you've been gone I haven't gone to worship like I planned to at school. It's just like the one at camp, and yet I've always found a reason not to go. And that's the exact opposite of what you would've done. And tonight I realized why. Debbie, I was upset with God for awhile. I was upset that we lost such a beautiful, amazing woman, and even though I tried to tell myself you were so lucky to be in Heaven, I kept thinking of those grieving down here. I wasn't sure I'd be able to go to worship again next summer, because I didnt think it would be the same without you. But tonight, my friend took me with her to worship here. And Debbie, I'm so glad I went. We sang three songs that are the same ones we sang at camp and I cried and remembered you. And the one song goes, "I will not be silent. I will not be quiet anymore" and I realized it is time to lay down my grief and praise the Lord again. Because that's what you would've done. And that's what you are doing still, today, praising His name and dancing in Heaven. I don't know how to explain it. I felt you and I felt Him in that room tonight, and I realized you will never be missing. Where there is worship, you will be there, just like God always is. I feel peace in my heart now, Debbie. I still will miss seeing your smile and hearing your laughter, but I will think of all the good times we had working at the salon and how we taught Bible School together one year. You had such a gift, Debs, to share the Lord's love. And I will admire you and remember you always. My heart goes out to your family, on Abaco I realized how close you all really are. Becky and I had a few conversations about how awesome you are, and you were so influential in Paulie's life. You were loved by all, and touched so many lives. Thank you for always sharing your smile and hug with me. Such a beautiful woman, now such a beautiful angel. Heaven shines even brighter. Have fun with the joyful dance you now dance with Him. Always, Julie




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Hey aunt deb i thought bout you all day n i come into here everyday now to think bout you and how u have changed my life and i kno why god wanted you because u were truely a blessing. your smiled could cheer up anyone in sadness....you are truely now my angel up above watching over me n i feel protected knowing one of the best people ive known in my life is watchin me above and i feel love from above. you taught me soo much aunt deb n i can stil hear your voice in my head n it will never go away and you picture in my room will never come down and i will have a picture of u every year in my locker lyk i do now and i will drink slupees in ur name now beacuase i kno u loved them..thanks aunt deb for changing me into a good person and teaching me about god and you will never b forgotton..i hope u can see the signs i made for you! i love youuu soo much aunt deb

<3 <3 <3 In gods name...Amanda



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Hey Debster

I think about you all of the time still. I look up to you a lot. Deb, you influenced me all of the time. I have decided to go back to Manitoqua again next summer because that is what you would probably tell me to do. It seems like you were always giving me the right advice for what to do in the summer.

Saturday was pretty cold in Iowa City, so when I left for the game I decided to wear a sweatshirt. But, it got warmer, and I though, hmmm... where am I going to put this sweatshirt? So I pulled out the slashing it from shoulder to waist. You know how to style!

Thanks again for everything!

In Him

Steve



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Aunt Deb,
I miss you every day and look at pictures of u everyday...i cant hold back the tears you taught me soo much n made me such a better person. You were my first rez camp conslour and i will never ever forget the fun we all had...you changed my perspective on life and taught me soo much...I look up to u soo much n want to be like u...u were always there for everyone n a great person to be conforted by...your smile could turn someones day upside down..with out you camp would of been soo different and i pass camp everyday on the way home from school n i look at the cabin we were in n think of u and all the lovely memories i had with you...you will never ever be fogotten...i love you soo much n THANKYOU AUNT DEB FOR EVERYTHING....IN GODS NAME

I <3 <3<3 <3 YOU!!!!



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22:08:44 10/02/04


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hey deb, wow its already been over a month since the day the Lord took you from us. You were my Sunday School teacher in 7th grade, and probably the youngest teacher i have had, but had the most impact on me because you were young, and that fact alone made me wanna listen and actaully pay attention to the lessons!{not that i don't any other time....haha} you were the young, hip, awesome teacher that everyone loved and adored. you telling us about basketball and college and your boyfriend and camp manitoquia and how it was the greatest place on Earth...and you taught me the onion game {which i still play alot just to see everyone's face when the have to bite into the onion~..you were rite deb...its soo funny and priceless}
deb..i miss u...and i saw you the night before you were killed..at julie deruiters house when you were picking up marc n i saw you and said hi, and that was the last thing i ever said to you, or saw you...deb i just can't believe your gone but you've advanced to a better place in heaven where things only get better, and nothing bad ever happens and watching all of us down here. deb you are such an inspiration...and i know your in heaven smiling down at all of us! i love u debbie! thinkin of u always! give Jesus a ((hug)) for me debs!
<3 *jessica*




Name: heather
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19:27:37 10/02/04


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hey debbie! it's heather... remember? the crazy one from your sundayschool class?? haha yea its me.. deb i just needed to tell you that you were such a blessing, and such an encouraging role model.. i remember i used to think that you were sooo pretty.. and it really made me change my opinions, until that yr i used to think that pretty much anyone that was cute or blessed with beauty took advantage of it and was snobby, but you totally proved me wrong. i remember thinking how cool it was to have someone as young as you for a teacher, to dedicate you life to teaching others about Jesus like that! you are such an inspiration to me, and i pray that i can make as much a difference in this world as you did. i used to think,at every class, how i could really relate to you and you understood .. being as young as you were. Congradulations on being one of the best messangers for the Lord i have ever met! what it must be like to be with the creator of it all.. no more pain,hurt,tears.. im so happy for you deb, if anyone, you deserve it ! <3




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Deb, hey.. i dont know who you are and i have never seen you face to face before but you were and are still my sister in christ! even though we have never met we are both children of God! i love you a lot and even if i never knew you i still care and love all my neighbors. it must be wonderful being in heaven. the reason im writing this to you is because we share a very common similarity. we both love God and are growing christians... i hope you love heaven and i cannot belive you finally got to see the creator face to face. it doesnt matter if we never met. im sure you were a wonderful christian living your life to its fullest. thank you so much for being you and i know your in a better place! your so lucky to have so many loving ppl in your life! we are very blessed. i may only be 14 but to me everyone is loved... in chirst, tristyn!




Name: becky
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20:57:12 09/30/04


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Hi Deborah-
I am sorry I havent writen to you. I can not believe you are in heaven. I picture you everyday dancing, laughing, and joking with all the angels. I miss you so much. I do cry a lot but I also rejoice. I am so happy to say that my little sister is with the Lord. I look up to you so much. I want to be like you everyday. I Love you xoxoxo






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17:12:30 09/30/04


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Love you and miss you TONS Debbie.





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12:02:23 09/30/04


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So Sorry about the loss of your brother. How old was he? My sympathies to your family-they will never get over the loss. This accident was at the intersection of 175th and Harlem in Tinley Park. Debs was a passenger in the car.




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10:44:27 09/30/04


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I was also just wondering where and when this terrible incident took place. i just lost my brother a week before Aug 17 from a sudden car accident




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10:37:24 09/30/04


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This wonderful, beautiful girl was in a terrible car accident on Aug 17 at the intersection of 175th and Harlem. She was a passenger in a car that was turning left when a van going straight hit into them. Deb died from head injuries. Our hearts are truly broken and life will never be the same without Deb. She was a good Christian girl who dedicated her life to God. She will never be forgotten..





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10:28:22 09/30/04


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i am just intrested in knowing how deb passed away.




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01:30:46 09/28/04


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Debs,

I feel the need to write to you tonight, as I do many nights, but tonight is different. Things havent been that great and I wish you were here to give me some answers. You helped me so much two years ago when my grandma passed and I need that now with the passing of my grandpa. I do know that you would tell me that he is with grandma having a great time with her, like they did when there were on earth, watching over us. For some reason all the words and thoughts are not as comforting as the words you spoke to me a while back and I wish you were here now. I miss you Deb, I miss you with all my heart. Sometimes I sit and cry and think about things and then I realize that is not what you would want. I know you'd be telling me "Anda theres no need for tears" but Debbie I just cant help it. You will always be my best friend and I know that when I get to heaven you, my grandma, and grandpa will all be waiting there for me. I thank you for your strength and the words that you spoke to me two years ago...they are still with me. Please watch over my family Debs and say hello to my Grandpa- now that he has become a new angel...make sure him and my grandma know how much I love and miss them. goodnight babe.



Name: lauren mulder
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Aunt Deb,
i havent talk to u in since our awesome camp experince in the summer of i think 2001. We had an awesome time and u taught many good things that i still use in my everyday life. You made my camp experience unforgetable. I took many pictures during that week that i still look at to this day. We did so many funny and great things that i will never forget. Like at everyday during our meals we had to drink the gross water and u taught us to plug our noses so that it wouldnt taste as bad! You were the reason i didnt want to leave camp i didnt want to forget how camp affected me. You also made a sacrifice, i remeber if we pledged enough money that u would cut off some of ur hair even though u just grew it out to the perfect length. You were willing to do that to raise enough money. You were always thoughtful and thought of other people before yourself. You are greatly missed by many people including myself!
Lauren Mulder




Name: lauren blake
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Dear Aunt Deb,
I was a camper at camp manitoqua, and my favorite summer was when you were my counselor for rez camp. I can't believe you're gone, you taught me so much about life and JC that one week of camp i shared with you. I was just looking at the pictures the other day. Thank you for everything you taught me, I had so much to learn and I still do. I still remember your smile lit up our cabin and we always had a great time, I am so thankful to have met you and got to know you. You truly had an impact on my life and inspired me in many ways. You will be missed by many, but say hi to JC for me and I will see you again.
Lauren Blake




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22:20:45 09/25/04


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It's Friday night and I can't stop thinking about you, my beautiful niece. You know how much I love you. There are no words to describe my feelings. I know that this was in God's plan, but I can't stop this pain and emptiness. The thought of not seeing you at my home, at church, at your house is just too painful to think about. Just when the pain is too great, I remember all the wonderful times we had together and then I am flooded with emotions.
I go to the movies and I think of the last movie we saw together. You were babysitting your cousins, Jaclyn, Brad and Taylor. You came to my house and I took Alec, David, and Mark. While the kids were watching the movie, we were whispering and laughing about how "hot" Steve was and how much you loved him.
I sit down in my family room, watching my Lifetime movies, and I see you there with me. Remember the time when you were babysitting your cousins and I had you come to my house? We laid on the big couch downstairs all day Sunday and fell asleep while Uncle Pete and Alec entertained all the kids. When Steve came over to my house later on that night, he said "boy, you guys look exhausted!" You told him we were exhausted from babysitting all day and we just looked at smiled at eachother. Uncle Pete then cooked for all the kids and Steve got us our plates-because we looked so tired! Now you know Steve!
I go in my garden and you are there. I see my kids, nephews and nieces running around my yard for the "Annual Easter Egg Hunt". I would go to work and say that I had to get home early so I could prepare my home for "the hunt". I would tell my co-workers that I was having a hunt again because my kids, nephews, and nieces loved it. My co-workers would say "Oh, that sounds like so much fun!" And I would say, "Yes, all the kids love it-especially my nieces". Then they would ask "How old are the little ones?" and I would pause and laugh and say "Ummm-21 and 25!" Boy, were they surprised!
When I go to my son's condo, you are there. His condo is right on the corner of your accident scene. People ask me,"is Jimmy going to move?"or "how can you go there-I mean it is right there by the accident!" I had to think about this for awhile. I prayed for strength to be able to drive by there, and then God made it clear to me, I realized that it was your "window to heaven". How fortunate I am to know where you met Jesus. Right there. I mean, one second you turned to your left to look at your friend, Shannon, and the next second when you turned your head you saw Jesus. How awesome! Jimmy said he would tell people when someone might ask him "Jimmy, where is heaven". He will say, "I'm not really sure-but I know where one of the doors to heaven is-it is at 175th and Harlem. Who would have thought of that?
I was always so proud that you had MY name, now I am proud that I have YOUR name. I love you my Deborah. Love, Aunt Deb




Name: Steven Paul K.
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20:35:19 09/22/04


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Deborah Leigh,

I don't even know what to write. It's been about a month and a week since I last talked to you on the phone the morning before you got to Heaven. To say that I miss you is a gross understatement. You pop into my head all the time. Even when the tears are flowing your smile and hearing your voice in my head just makes me laugh. I know you are doing so awesome right now in heaven, but I wish I could see it anyways. You're influence on me has never been stronger, my faith is 1000 times stronger than what it was, I'm sure God is keeping you filled in. I thank God every day for a "new awesome day of life" just like you used to when we would sit and pray together. I miss you soo much Deborah, because of you I love life like I never have because I know that when God calls me home like you, my life is not over, instead just beginning. I'm so jealous that you're up in Heaven right now prasing God and everything, until I get there I'm going to do what you would want me to do, praise Him down here, and encourage everyone I know to do the same. You simply rock my world honeycakes. 14334



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17:41:07 09/22/04


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I will miss joking with you about all of the diseases you may have caught over the summer.
Deb you are so cute and I know that I told you that every day and you didn't believe me...but youare so cute and I will miss everything about you. Yes I am the one who starts the food fights that you have to clean up if you didn't let me have gutter sundaes then I always made sure to make some sort of carmel and chocolate mess just so you could yell at me. Deb I am going to miss hearing you name be called over the radio by Judy and most of all I am going to miss you obsession with your one favorite kid for the week (remember sponge bob!!!). I miss you so much and I can only wish that my life could reflect as much love and passion for christ as your life did through the years I knew you.





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17:34:08 09/22/04


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~Deb~
I really don't even know where to start. You were certainly my favorite patient, well it's actually a toss up between you and Tim. I will always remember your addiction to my itchy sticks and how you would always freak out about the smallest bump or bite that you might find on you skin. I'm sorry that an itchy stick couldn't fix it this time. I will miss joking with you ab




Name: Laura Maberry (nee Martinson)
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11:43:40 09/22/04


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It is so wonderful to read everyone’s comments about how much Debs meant to everyone. I can't believe she is gone, I've known Deb my whole life, and we’ve been friends as long as I can remember. I remember when her Dad died when we were little, and how hard that has been for her, now it is so comforting for me to think she is with her Dad right now.

I moved to North Carolina over a year ago, and we lost touch, for that I am regretful, but I am thankful that I emailed with her every once in a while, and she would tell me all the awesome things God was doing in her life. The last time I saw her was at our wedding, and she was so happy, she had tears of joy and told me how happy she was for us. She had such a selfless love, “agape,” Christ-like love, that she could truly be happy for others that it actually made her happy too.

I am blessed to have known her, been her friend, and have shared so many happy memories with her throughout our lives. We both are Christmas time birthday babies, we both tore our ACL’s and had to have reconstructive surgeries, loved slurpees (although I think she did a tad more), loved going to WAVE, and loved Abaco. Every time I see one of her old cars I think of her, her dark blue car was Berry and mine was Sherry (they liked each other), then there was good ol’ White Bucket-which made me laugh every time she called it that. She was always good at naming cars.

She would come over to our house, and the mere presence of my brother, Steve, would make her laugh so hard, no matter what he said she laughed, and it was so contagious to anyone around. She brought so much joy wherever she would go. I loved going to Olivet with her to visit people and attend “Party with Jesus,” I can still see her praising Him with a huge smile on her face, singing as loud as she could, with her hands held high. Now she is doing that very same thing but in His presence! How awesome is that?

One thing I remember her telling me was when the song, I Can Only Imagine, came out, she loved it so much, and she said, “At my funeral I want that song to be played.” Now, I’m not sure if it was because sadly, I wasn’t able to fly in for the funeral, but she is now living the song out, she is surrounded by His Glory, dancing with Jesus, singing Hallelujah, and forever worshiping Him. She doesn’t have to imagine anymore, for she is with Jesus. What a smile that brings to my face to think of Debs doing that right now.

I have wanted to write, but didn’t know what to say, it seemed to just all come out as I started to type. All I can think to say is what an inspiration she has been to my life; her joy, her love, her forgiveness, and her faith were so strong. It is awesome to see all the people she has helped, loved, and inspired in her life and now in death. I have a picture of us on my desk at work to remind me that life is short, so love others deeply, and praise God in everything, just as she did everyday.

Marilee, Jim, Becky, Chris, Paulie, Mark, and Steve, I am so sorry for your huge loss, I can’t imagine how hard this is for you all. I am praying for you, and I wish I could be there to give you a huge Debs hug and tell you how sorry I am, but how proud you must feel to have raised such a Godly woman who touched more lives than you could imagine. I love and miss her so much!

Love in Christ,
Laura Maberry




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23:30:17 09/21/04


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Today I went dress shopping for the wedding and it was so hard since that is what we were going to do the day of the accident. I picked all of the dresses and I thought of you when I picked each of them. I am going to honor you in so many ways that day Debbie. You were my most cherished bridesmaid because you were always just you. You were always so happy and excited when I talked about the wedding and now I am having a hard time even planning it. You would have loved the dress I picked out for me and for you to wear though. They are beautiful. My mom is going to say grace before dinner at the wedding so make sure you are there that day to help her along (stage fright sometimes ya know). On sunday I was closing my bedroom window and I saw your mom, stepdad, and aunt debbie walking to the corner to put fresh flowers down. It broke my heart even more (if that is possible). It was so hard for me to see it. I am so sorry that your family has to go through this, I wish there was something I could do. I have had a hard time going to the corner even though i have to see it everyday. We are moving because I just cant live on the corner of 175th and harlem anymore. It makes me sad everyday. Your sister wants to know if I would go to Abaco with her on Jan 3 to share you story and how you lived everyday for the Lord. I am going to go and I am so excited and honored that your sister even thought of me. You guys look a like so much. Everytime I see her I see you, it's amazing. I miss you so much and I think about you everyday. I thank God that I got to know you so well and that you were such an awesome friend to me and vice versa. I love you Debbie. Please say hi to my grandma and grandpa's. xoxoxoxox




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22:22:23 09/20/04


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This verse was in the newsletter at church...I made a bracelet with this verse on it so that we can never forget what's really important in life.

"Remember your Creator
In the Days of your Youth
Before the Days of Trouble come"
~Ecclesiasties 12:1

In class today we read a poem about a car wreck and I cried so much...The poem was all about how these things don't have a logical reason...All I have to say is that GOD has a reason. So many people will hear the testimony of Deb's wonderfully amazing life and will come to Jesus because of it. In all He does, God has a reason. He had a bigger plan for her all along, and that makes us rejoice so much. We miss you Deb, but your memory lives on.



Name: Ruth
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13:22:53 09/20/04


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It has been 5 weeks. I still have a hard time driving by 175th and Harlem without shedding tears and remembering you. I miss you coming up and saying "Hi, Aunt Ruth". I miss that big smile of yours that lit up a room. My heart hurts for your Mom and your sister, but I do know without a doubt you are dancing for Jesus and in a much better place. We will miss you at the family parties and playing games at our christmas party each year.
I love you Deb and I know that you are watching over Brian and Carrie's baby too, which brings a lot of comfort to our family.




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00:54:08 09/20/04


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Debs,

I visited you today. It's been a little more than a month and I miss you so much. I think about you all the time and I cannot wait to see you again. I miss you Debbie!
I love you,
Anda




Name: Kate Bradley
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20:13:55 09/17/04


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Hi Aunt Deb, u made camp and rez camp soooooooo much fun!!!!!! Everyone here on earth misses u so much. A person like u can never be forgotten. You played an important role in soooo many peoples lives. Including mine. You helped me to come closer to God. I know that u r in a better place. I miss u very very much, <3 <3 <3 <3




Name: Farmer
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15:03:22 09/17/04


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Deb-
I have been searching a long time for the strength and the words to say. And all I can com up with is THANK YOU. Thanks so much for being the awesome example that you were in my life and especially Paulie’s. He would not be the same awesome man of God that he is today if you were not placed in his life; there is no doubt in my mind. It makes my heart ache to see the sorrow of your family. But it also makes me rejoice and find confidence in God’s plan to see all of the laughter and joy that they find in every memory of you. Their strength through this struggle inspires me. I am just so thankful to have known you Deborah. I am thankful for the way that you took me in as your little sister, thankful for all of your advice and late night talks. And though I might not be as quick to admit it, I am thankful for every last inch of hair that no longer resides on this little bald head of mine due to your great skills with the clippers. I miss your smile and your passion and love for Jesus Christ. I miss you stealing my cloths and the “subtle” way you liked to wake me up from naps. I miss everything about you big and small. But I know that you are having “the time of your life”, if you will, right now. And I know that our sorrow can not even compare to the joy that you are experiencing and I thank God for that. And though it’s only been a month, sometimes I miss you like you’ve been gone forever. Your life has touched mine and i will never forget you.

-Anda




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13:47:04 09/17/04


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A month ago today....
This is what they played at Debs funeral, I wanted to share it with you all....FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS...
This is not at all
How we thought it was supposed to be
We had so many plans for you
We has so many dreams
But now you've gone away
And left us with the memories of your smile
And nothing we can say
And nothing we can do
Can take away the pain
The pain of losing you
And we can cry with hope
We can say good-bye with hope
'Cause we know our good-bye is not the end
And we can grieve with hope
'Cause we believe with hope
There's a place where we'll see your face again
We'll see your face again
And never have I known
Anything so hard to understand
And never have I questioned more
The wisdom of God's plan
But through the cloud of tears
I see the Father smile and say 'well done.'
And I imagine you
Where you wanted most to be
Seeing all your dreams come true
'Cause now your home
And now your free
We have this hope as an anchor
'Cause we believe that everything
God promised us is true
We wait with hope
And we ache with hope
We hold on with hope
We let go with hope




Name: Dan
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10:11:47 09/17/04


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I visited your accident site yesterday, left you some nice flowers. I have not and will not forget about you. I look down at the WWJD bracelet that you gave me, and it gives me strength and faith. I Miss ya debs.




Name: Traci
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23:47:39 09/15/04


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Deb and I were very close for about a year and a half and for about the last year we barely talked! I have missed Deb dearly for the last year and have always wanted to call her so many times!! We just didnt make time for each other and i regret that so much!!The last time i saw her was when i went country line dancing at dc's and we talked for like a half an hour and it was so good to see her bright smile as we talked about what was going on in our lives!! If you have a good friend and you have an argument make sure you resolve it because you may never get to resolve those problems!! I loved Deb dearly and miss her so much!! Her and I went to bible study together all the time and grew closer to the Lord together and she was the one person that i could do just about anything with and have sooooo much fun!! We always wanted to go to Dc's and thats where we always went crazy when sweet home alabama would come on!! I will miss Debs smile and laughter and i will continue to pray for her family and friends who all miss her dearly!! I cant wait to come to Heaven and meet Jesus and see u again! Love you Deb, Traci lynn spender xoxoxoxo




Name: Traci
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23:14:31 09/15/04


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Deb and I were very close for about a year and a half and for about the last year we barely talked! I have missed Deb dearly for the last year and have always wanted to call her so many times!! We just didnt make time for each other and i regret that so much!!The last time i saw her was when i went country line dancing at dc's and we talked for like a half an hour and it was so good to see her bright smile as we talked about what was going on in our lives!! If you have a good friend and you have an argument make sure you resolve it because you may never get to resolve those problems!! I loved Deb dearly and miss her so much!! Her and I went to bible study together all the time and grew closer to the Lord together and she was the one person that i could do just about anything with and have sooooo much fun!! We always wanted to go to Dc's and thats where we always went crazy when sweet home alabama would come on!! I will miss Debs smile and laughter and i will continue to pray for her family and friends who all miss her dearly!! I cant wait to come to Heaven and meet Jesus and see u again! Love you Deb, Traci lynn spender xoxoxoxo




Name: Traci
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23:13:25 09/15/04


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Deb and I were very close for about a year and a half and for about the last year we barely talked! I have missed Deb dearly for the last year and have always wanted to call her so many times!! We just didnt make time for each other and i regret that so much!!The last time i saw her was when i went country line dancing at dc's and we talked for like a half an hour and it was so good to see her bright smile as we talked about what was going on in our lives!! If you have a good friend and you have an argument make sure you resolve it because you may never get to resolve those problems!! I loved Deb dearly and miss her so much!! Her and I went to bible study together all the time and grew closer to the Lord together and she was the one person that i could do just about anything with and have sooooo much fun!! We always wanted to go to Dc's and thats where we always went crazy when sweet home alabama would come on!! I will miss Debs smile and laughter and i will continue to pray for her family and friends who all miss her dearly!! I cant wait to come to Heaven and meet Jesus and see u again! Love you Deb, Traci lynn spender xoxoxoxo




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Deb
I come here and read what other people have written often. Even though I sob every time, it brings me peace. I have so many fond memories of you. I wish I would have told you in person how encouraging you were to me this past summer. You were there when no one else was. You were there to come and sit on me to comfort me when I was crying. Your love and support meant so much to me this summer when everything seemed so scary and unstable. You helped me realize that I don't need to be afraid of what is in store for me because I have God. Your love for everyone around you inspired me. You were so helpful and supportive that first week I was in rez. You helped me laugh through all of the junk. I wish I could hug you again Deb, and I wish I could see your contageous smile just one more time. I just wish that I could hear your laughter. One day we will see eachother again Deb. Until then, know that I love you and I miss you.




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I had the privilege of meeting Debs on her trips to Abaco and what I remember most is her beautiful, bright smile. I know that smile will never leave her face now that she is in heaven with her Saviour.

2 Corinthians 4:16-18
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day.
For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory,
While we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal."

We will always have a special place in our hearts for Debs here in Abaco



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we miss you and love you Deb.
You will never be forgotten.




Name: Keith
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15:05:33 09/14/04


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Deborah~ i will never forget all times we spent together. i remember being with you all day and all we did was laugh and smile. im sorry we didnt hang out much the last couple years but the memories i have of you from before then will never ever go away. i remember looking over at you in church and just seeing you with your eyes closed and hand raised....i can see it now. i miss you deborah...i miss seeing slrpe40 sign on and telling me to have a great day even though i hadnt talked to you in weeks or months. i keep looking at the pictures i have of you inabaco and it just doesnt seem real that you are gone. everyone is still so heartbroken over this. but , like everyone keeps on saying, you are where you have wanted to be your whole life.....you got what you strived for and that is being in heaven and i know you are having a blast.
i miss you




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Four weeks ago today-will this pain ever subside? I miss you, I love you.




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i love and miss u deb!




Name: Lori Alford
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17:24:51 09/10/04


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Deb,
I am so grateful that i got to meet you. You went to my church, and everytime i saw u, i was amazed at how much of a great christian and friend u were. You had an impact on my brothers life, and i am so grateful for that. I am truely glad that i got to see you at Camp. You were always smiling, and that made me smile. I love you, and miss you. Thanks for makin me smile.

Love,
Lori




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hey aunt deb, can u say hi to my aunt 4 me?






Name: STEPHANIE GREEN
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16:05:59 09/10/04


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aunt deb <3 <3 <3 <3
hey this is steph green from camp, remember tim greens sister? well i miss u alot and i cant belive something this serious and extreme happened to you! every one misses u and loves you. u were awsome and i love u.....i hope all the other kids learned and was inspired by u like i was.... we all miss u so so much!!you have touched so many lives including mine and i thank u for that and i wish that nothing bad ever happened to u, i love u aunt deb!!!!u will never be forgotton!i come and read what every one put in her every once in a while, and when ever i do i cry because i cant belive how many people wrote to you, and its amazing to see how many people care for you so much and also sence your such an amazing person and i cant belive what happened.when my brother told me what happened i went to my room and stood there in shock and i was standing there 4 like 10 minutes, then later it sank into me and i started crying. i couldnt belive something like this could ever happen to such a wonderful and perfect person thats life was devoted to jesus and teaching other people about him.it seemed to me that your would always be there teacheing us kids more about christ. i never thought that u would pass away so soon, and its such a tragedy to see that someone like u lost there lives and didnt get the full thing...and i feel soo bad
to the parents: i am one of the campers at camp manitoqua and i am 12 years old, and your daughter taught me so so much about christ and also about life and i cant belive something like this could ever happen to her, she was always there for us and she was all about god, and i think she should of lived longer to teach us some more about god.
friends, you had a wonderful friend that will never be 4gotten.i love her so much and she was just so AMAZING!!!!

I LOVE U DEB AND I ALWAYS WILL!!! U WWILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN!!!!



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This wonderful, beautiful girl was in a terrible car accident on Aug 17 at the intersection of 175th and Harlem. She was a passenger in a car that was turning left when a van going straight hit into them. Deb died from head injuries. Our hearts are truly broken and life will never be the same without Deb. She was a good Christian girl who dedicated her life to God. She will never be forgotten. I will miss her FOREVER.




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If you don't mind me asking, what happened?

I'm sorry for your loss, my senior year of high school, I had around 5 or 6 people I know die.



Name: angie
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16:49:13 09/09/04


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hey aunt deb i am a gurl who went to camp! i will miss you soo.... much!! i hope you rest in peace!.

angie williams



Name: Janelle B
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23:21:10 09/08/04


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Deb,
I didn't have the pleasure of knowing you, but i have heard plenty enough to know you were truely a great person. I don't say that often about people. Its amazing to see that even though i did not know you, you have touched my life,even in death, and made me want to go towards God again. I want to thankyou for that.

To the family: I am truly sorry for this huge loss and may God be with you through this sorrowful journey.

To her freinds: Never forget what a great person Deb was and keep her in your hearts as you go through life.

To anyone who didn't know her like me: Take her with you too and do not forget her story.

I will keep you, your family and freinds in my prayers Deb. I look forward to meeting you.

" To the world, you were one person. But to one person, you were the world."



Name: Shannon
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I have such a loss for words right now Debs, all I can do is cry and miss you. I feel so much guilt right now about that day. I keep doing the what if's in my head and then I catch myself and realize you wouldn't want me to nor would Jesus want me too. In the hospital when I was waiting to hear about you I just prayed that what I saw was unreal it was just a horrible nightmare, but then that horrible nightmare came to life, and I am left without my good friend Debbie, who was going to be a part of my wedding and we were going to be friends for the rest of our lives. You still had so much more to share with me about the Lord Debs, I feel very lost right now. I just don't understand what happened that day. We didn't even have awesome conversation that day, no I believe I was telling you about the horrible weekend I had with my dad and how I didn't know how to help him, and that is all I really remember. I only remember bits and pieces of that day. I remember our embrace when your mom dropped you off, oh how I wish I can just have one more of those hugs. One day Debbie I will get to see you again and I am so excited to be reunited with you, to laugh with you, to cry with you, to just tell you how much I love you. Youre so wonderful Debbie-- I love you.
Shannon




Name: Jennie B
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My Dear Friend Debs,
I have logged on this web site more times than I can even begin to count. Each time wanting to write, but not knowing what to say. I find such comfort when I am here. Reading each message written to you in love and reflection of all the lives you touched in so many ways. I feel in some way close to you. Then the realization hits me, and I feel angry and sad that you are gone. You brought so much love and laughter into my life. I could go on and on about all the special times we had together. The hopes and dreams we shared with each other, and the frustration and tough times when we encouraged and prayed for each other. I feel such a loss. You touched the lives of my children who couldn't wait for debs to come over again to play with them . Suddenly I see clearly, I am not angry and sad, but at peace knowing you are at the feet of Jesus surrounded by children no doubt. Breathing the air of heaven and embracing all I will embrace one day. I thank God I was blessed to have been your friend. I will forever be amazed by your strength. Your determination to serve God with your life is a constant reminder to me to keep focused on the finish line of my life. You Raise Me Up has been one of my favorite songs for a while as you know. It has a whole new meaning for me now. Each time I hear it I am reminded of your beautiful smile, your awesome hug, your love for the Lord and the way He raised you up to walk on the streets of gold. Forever in my heart my dear friend. We will be together again singing praises to our precious Jesus. I love you now and forever Jennie




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Rest in peace. You will never be forgotten. We all love you Deb.




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Deb, can you tell my grandpa hi for me?




Name: Courtney
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21:39:48 09/04/04


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Dear Aunt Deb, and her family,
I know i already wrote one of these but one just wasn't enough. I cannot express how much aunt deb meant to me and to so many others. Every time i come to this site and start reading i start crying. I'm not sure if it's joy or sadness or both.


Dear deb's parents,
You have my deepest sympathy. Your daughter was a light wherever she was. If she didn't have a voice left..whatever it was she still kept praising the Lord. She reached out to sooooo many people. All my friends from camp that go to my church, we all talk about how much she meant to us. I pray about you and deb every night. I know she is in a better place even though we miss her soooo much.

Dedicated to the Lord
Enthusiastic about the Lord
Bold and Bright

Deb was all of those things plus more. I know I miss her...but i'm happy she doesn't have to put up with anything going on in the world.

I guess that I just miss her sooo much like so many others and all i want people to know is live life to the fullest like Aunt Deb and leave a mark like she did too!!!
I miss you hunny!! Hug Jesus for me! See you someday and we can talk then!
Love you forever and always!
Courtney




Name: Marge Gregory
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My daughter, Shannon, calls Debbie her "perfect" friend. Always a friend, always positive, loving and living her life with Jesus. What a beautiful friend brought into my daughter's life. It is said that the fruit doesn't fall far from the tree. Mary, Becky, Aunt Debbie, Steve, Michael & Jennifer...words cannot express my heartfelt gratitude for your support, friendship and love towards Shannon. With all that you have given, I am forever in your debt. I am in awe of your love, strength and faith. These past weeks have been full of sorrow, grief and guilt. You are always in my thought and prayer...in hope of all hope that your pain will be replaced with joy again. I know that Debbie dances with Jesus in heaven. Mary, there is more I would like to share with you, Mom to Mom. Should you ever desire to share, please call me (614-1615) or email me. I love you all and ask Jesus to ease the pain for you. God bless you.




Name: gwen
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08:48:55 09/04/04


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wow. it's amazing how many lives you touched deb. (well duh, cuz UR amazing). i come and check the site often, and every time i tear up. because i'll miss you deb and so will everyone else. i can't believe it happened to you. i've known you for a couple years now from camp, and every time i saw your huge smile you made me smile. it was contagious. seeing you every day for four weeks this summer, and now you won't be there next summer. it's gunna be weird, deb. you're an amazing woman of God, i only hope one day to be like you, deborah. i'm praying for your family and freinds, and rejoicing for you're with Him in Heaven now. i love you. <3




Name: Dan Kenny
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16:00:36 09/01/04


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I’m sorry Debs, but I am not good at this, and never was. That’s what you were for, always there to help me through the tough times. I’ll never forget all those times that you would take my hands and say, “Dan, lets pray about it…” What ever it was, you where the only person I felt comfortable to do that with. I want you to know that I wake every morning, like you used to, and thank God for the day, the sun or no sun that’s shinning, the clouds and, the beautiful morning, just like you used to do. I can’t even begin to describe how much of an impact you had on my life.
How can I ever begin to thank the person who SAVED me, showed me the way and brought me into the light of the lord that she loved so much. I am so thankful for the years of laughs and fun that we had together. All the nights a W.A.V.E., the mission trips, the days and nights just talking and hanging out, and even just walking you home to the other side of the block. No matter what we were doing, we were almost always laughing. I am forever thankful that we got to spend time together on Monday, the day before….., I’ll never forget that day what you said to me over lunch, telling me “How close to God” you felt, especially after a great summer at camp. Little did you or myself know how right you were when you said that to me.
Debs, days go by, but there not the same, but I do know one thing, your presence on Earth and our friendship is something we both promised would never end, and I promise I will see you again! It’s because of you and what you taught me that makes this possible. I love you Debs, and miss you so much, but I know that you are so happy up there, with two good knees and a father at each side. Thank you with all my heart for saving my life.

Love,
Dan




Name: jess
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(you're not 'little debbie', you're...)
Big Debbie-
How strange this all is. When i found out about your accident, i was just stunned. you're one of those people that ive felt like ive known forever. you SAMed with me, staffed with me, came to my house, ... man. do you remember the H.I.M. (hate immature men) club? So weird to think that two of the founding members are now with the best man ever in His Fathers house.

ill never forget you, ... your love for slurpees, your laugh, your entire face-consuming smile, your EXTREME energy and excitement on those days in daycamp when i felt totally burnt out. and all those memories we made that first summer of SAMing... ha. "Ditzy Debbie". Camp will feel your loss, just like all of us that have been a part of that camp family. but your influence has changed that place, i know.

my only regret is not having a closer relationship with you in the past couple years, and for not talking more with you the last time i saw you in june. but i know that even that will be reconciled one day in heaven. we'll have plenty of time to talk.

hey, say hi to kim and james and my papa for me. i miss and love all of you and i cant wait until we're all reunited before our loving Father.

thanks for touching my life.
i love you.




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we are glad to of had the privilege to meet you and have your friendship! you are in our memories!
love a part of your abaco family - jake & taba




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Deb,
i guess after reading all of this, it made me so heartbroken that i just couldn't leave one myself. But God has given not only me, but all these others the strength to carry on and to continue to live the way you did. rez camp was so much fun. Being able to wake up in the morning and just name off cabins was awesome. you were truly one wonderful person. I hope you are having the time of your life in heaven right now. gosh, you are so lucky, you get to wake up and see God face to face. I miss you so much. Thanks for the international travelling tip!! Love you always, your world traveller...




Name: Christina
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I am so sorry that this tradgey happened to such a beautiful and loved girl. My volleyball team is playing Andrew tomorrow and when my friends and I found out that this had happened, we decided to get together and say a prayer for her, even though none of us knew her. We have been through this in January with a best friend and his family also, so if anyone ever needs to talk my email is chrissyb806@hotmail.com or you can go to jdandjoey.org Just know that you're not alone. RIP My thoughts and prayers are with her friends and family.
~Christina Marie




Name: Julie DERUiter
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14:53:56 08/31/04


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debs where to start idk. u were always there when ever u were neede wather it ws to chat or to cry , to laugh to praise the good Lord, anything. Paulie and Marky always said what a great person. im soo00 glad that i got to spend alot of time with you! and today we had to do a projesct on who our hero was and why, with out a doubt in mind i put Debbie Rustoven Rip b/c she always was there in church or doing something for others forst also b/c she was a loving giving person who LIVED for GOD. at camp u always said hey buddy no matter who they were . everyone was your friend u always made everyone comfortable where they went!!!! like they said at ur funneral , where u were the room was lite up!! i love ur smile!! it always made me comfortable|!! also at camp, you would be lyk Ya leaders of the da, one time i did it n everyone look at me. lol so0o0 heres one for u Debster, YA LEADERS OF THE DAY .!!!!!!!! :debs big smile:

w/ love JUlie DeRuiter



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i'm missing my friend tonite.
a deep sense of loss engulfs me.
thoughts of her echo thru my mind,
as a part of my heart drifts away.

i'm missing her touch tonight.
a gentle embrace, so soothing and warm.
thoughts of her echo thru my mind,
as a part of my feeling drifts away.

i'm missing her strength tonight.
a loving virtue which drew back my fear.
thoughts of her echo thru my mind,
as a part of my soul drifts away.

im missing her voice tonight.
a melody of song and sweet intent.
thoughts of her echo thru my mind,
as a part of my peacefulness drifts away.

im missing her presence tonight.
a beauty of being which warmed me within.
thoughts of her echo thru my mind,
as a part of my dream drifts away.

im missing my friend tonight.
tears glisten as drops cross my cheek.
thoughts of her echo thru my mind,
as a part of my life drifts away.




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This wonderful, beautiful girl was in a terrible car accident on Aug 17 at the intersection of 175th and Harlem. She was a passenger in a car that was turning left when a van going straight hit into them. Deb died from head injuries. Our hearts are truly broken and life will never be the same without Deb. She was a good Christian girl who dedicated her life to God. She will never be forgotten. I will miss her FOREVER.




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if you do not mind me asking... what had happened to this beautiful girl?




Name: sara a
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01:32:42 08/30/04


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I have watched how Deb has touched so many lives. I will never forget the times we would be in chapel together this summer and she would ask for "chew" or chapstick. How she would come to the pickle shack so she could visit "the dorctor". The fact that she craved cotton candy. My favorite memory however is the day she touched me the most. The day I found out my grandpa had cancer she saw me crying. She reached into her bag, handed me starbursts and said "now you cant cry because you have candy!" Every time after that when she would see me upset she would ask if I remembered the starburst. Deb was an amazing woman of God, she touched more lives than I could every imagine. Deb I hope that there is plenty of cotton candy in heaven!




Name: Kali
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At my 3 years of camp..I seen Aunt Deb all the time!!...She was so much fun..and even tho she left physically she hasnt left my heart...I am goin to miss her so much!!...I seen the way she acted around all the kids...n it was amzing to see how everyone would become so crazy when she was around..because she brought that kind of energy to camp!!...N even tho she is gone..we can all see that Paul is gonna be just like her because i member Aunt Bri told him to chase me and try to get me wet!! n he chased me but couldnt catch up with me!!..so we can all tell he is gonna be just like her!!...We can all tell thatAunt Deb lived her life to the fullest..her smile was SOOO contagious!!...when ever i seen her smiling n i was in a sad mood i would smile right away seenin her smile..it was so awesome!!..Aunt Deb i am gonna miss yew SOOOOO much!!..luv yew hun!!--Kali Letcher




Name: Ange
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I have been a Christian for 6 years. I pray that when I die I have left such an impact as Deb and that people remember me for being such a strong follower of Christ. I look at all of these sites and this and Sarah's are the only ones that are set up the way it should be. Living life for Christ is the way life was meant to be lived. Having people write on your site and writing POSITIVE entries, no fighting, no bickering , and noone putting blame or trying to control. God is in control and thats how is should be! Every single person should take a look at their life and realize, this is how it is meant to be lived. How you lived it. Deb is a perfect example. We should live our lives the exact way. It says so in the BIBLE. The bible is the only truth there is for us. That's all there is to it. It is God's love letters to us. Every single page is filled with God's ever lasting love for us and I pray that I can be remembered for the good I did and not the bad. Deb you are AN INSPIRATION to me and Christians all around this earth because I as well want to live my life for Christ and make my death a gain. I love you as a sister in Christ and you are so lucky to be looking at our Savior face to face!!!!!!!! I can only imagine....

God bless you and your loved ones!!!



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Though i did not know Deb, from wat i've read...her love of christ and outlook on life..has touched so many people. I hope that in this lifetime i am able to make an impact as she did with the time i'm given. Deb seemed as though she fullfilled her purpose on this life to the fullest. Your spirit will forever live on...Rest In Peace Deb.




Name: Jen Kempen
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Aunt Deb,
I will miss you dearly! You will alway's be loved. You will be remembered in every way, especially in peoples good memories of you and in their hearts...You were one cool Rez camp councler...I wouldn't have wanted anyone else...You seemed to be there whenever things went down for me...and no matter what situation it was, people always had a smile on their faces talking to you...To me your not gone...Your still here guiding us through our lives like you always did with people...You have touched people's heart and you always had a glow in your eyes and in your smile...That made people so happy to be around you...You will never be forgotten! You will always be loved!
I love you Aunt Deb!!




Name: Ali VD
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Our paths had crossed many times in our lives- in high school at youth group, meeting her while she visited Crystal at TCC, 3 years on staff at Manitoqua- looking back I realize how much God wanted us to be in each other's lives. Her smile is what won people over and it was never absent. She had a glow about her...Jesus. Everything that she said or did began a new trend- Holla! Holla back y'all! Joker! Those trucker hats and her sideways way of wearing her sweatshirts. She loved to dance and even more to laugh. She was a prankster at heart and was always causing trouble over at Neverland. She was strong in her beliefs and her faith. I will miss her back rubs, her love for kids, her smile, our Pizza Hut dinners, her love, and her friendship. I've never known the kind of impact that one person can make...in life and even still in death. She truly showed Jesus to those on her sports teams, her mission trips, at camp, to kids, to me. Even after death she will reach people's hearts with her story. One day I will be able to hug my friend and dance along side of her again. I love you and miss you Deb!




Name: Staci Wherry
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Dear Aunt Deb,
Even though I didn't know you very much I do know this from seeing you at camp..You are such an amazing person, you touched so many different people and just like me they're never going to forget you and the impact you made on their lives.




Name: Gina Parisi
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00:04:09 08/28/04


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Hey Deb, Im so sorry that this had to happen to you, but your in a better place right now, and heaven is lucky to have a person like you. You were a great person to work with at SLIH. You always had everyone laughing and you always knew how to cheer anyone up when they were down. You will be missed by many and i will see you soon some day.




Name: Chelsey O.
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Dear Aunt Deb,
You are amazing!! You made Camp SOOOO much fun! You had such a warm and friendly personality and I admired that so much. Camp definately wont be the same without you there! You were such a blessing in my life and I miss you so much, but I know that you are with God right now and I cant wait till I get to see you again some day!
I Love you!~




Name: KT
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10:35:05 08/27/04


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Dear Debbie and her family~
I didn't no Aunt Deb very well...but she was always a friend to me and all the other campers. I enjoyed sharing my camp memories with her for 3 years now. Whenever I saw her...she was always chearful and happy and shining her light for all of us...and when i saw her face she always made me smile! Aunt Deb will be truly missed, and I will never forget her..I look forward to the day when I can see her again in heaven!




Name: Courtney
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10:20:54 08/27/04


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Dear aunt deb,
i know that u r in a better place right now but i miss you so much. You mean so much to me even though i only knew you for two years. When i found out u died i called all my friends from camp. I know that u r looking down on me from heaven right now prolly tryin to tell me that it's okay. But i don't feel like that. You told we would talk next xummer little did u know though. I pray about u as u prolly know. AUnt deb's parents if ur reading this pleaze knwo that i loved ur daughter. She just made everyone so happy.

AUnt Deb: if u can see this please say hi to my brother travis for me. i never got to me him!! :'(



Name: Shannon
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23:34:12 08/26/04


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Wow, I am looking at all these messages and I am not suprised to see that there are so many. You impacted everyones life because of the person you were. I remember a couple of years ago I was going through something with my dad and when I went to drive to work you left a card on my windshield wiper with a verse from the bible and telling me how much you love me. Well, I love you to Deb and you will forever live on in my heart. I am just so sorry that I was the driver of the car that day. It was suppose to be such a fun day--going dress shopping for my wedding. I was waiting to share that with you and then we never got to it. I cant even begin to explain the impact you made on my faith and continue to do so. It's amazing and youre amazing and i love you sooooo much. I miss you terribly and I am finding great comfort in your family. They are truly awesome just like you are.

"I cannot see her
But I know she is there.
She's my guardian angel:
My life with me she shares.
Until my time is over
And God wants to bring me home
She will be there to protect me
When things sometimes go wrong.






Name: Sarah Juist
E-Mail: d_u_frog@yahoo.com
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17:59:27 08/26/04


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To everyone who knew her:
I didn't know her personally, but I could see how much she loved working at camp and being around the kids. Although it is comforting to know she's where every one of us wants to be, I still want to cry. Know that she will never be forgotten.




Name: Matthew Van Drew
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17:45:37 08/26/04


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Dear Debbie and her family
i didnt now Anut Debbie very much but she made me feel like i was at another home it was my first year at camp she made me feel welcome i miss her alot




Name: Kali
E-Mail: blondie4084@yahoo.com
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16:18:57 08/26/04


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Deb,
You were so cool!!...I loves being around you..even though we werent like best friends or anything..i looked up to u in the 3 years i went to camp!!..I am goin to miss you SOOOO much!!..camp will never be the same without you..from everyone that went to camp from Fulton Illinois..God Bless You!!..U Will Be Missed!!...




Name: Brooke (Brooklyn)
E-Mail: brooke_lorelle@yahoo.com
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00:42:56 08/26/04


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For Deb's family and friends,
I will never think of Manitoqua without remembering Deb's exhuberance and love for the children. I have never seen someone with such a loving spirit who found so much joy in the fun, silly things. I cannot express my regret in words, but I know that everyone else who knew her even better than I will understand . All I can do is say that I will praying for all those who knew and loved her and that I will do my best to follow her example and never forget to find joy in doing God's work, and love people with my whole heart.
We will miss you, Deb




Name: JanetG
E-Mail: butchjanetg@aol.com
AIM: Because He lives!
19:57:22 08/25/04


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To Jim, Marilee and family:
We sure cling to the meaning of these words today - - -Because He lives we can face tomorrow! We trust in that, we put all of our hope in that today and all of our tomorrows. Life is worth the living, just because He lives! To God be the glory! Thank you Father for the blessing of Debs life. For the joy and happiness she brought to so many. Thank you for strength for every moment in the days ahead as we will miss her and long for her again. You never fail or leave us alone, and in that promise we give you Jim, Marilee, Becky, Chris, Paul and Mark.





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19:02:29 08/25/04


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God bless you Deb! but you are probably with him right now looking down on all you friends and loved ones . watch over your family


Dear deb's family I hope you will get through this time of loss. but deb will always be in your heart and be watching over you. when the day comes when you get to meet her you will be so happy together in heaven so have no worries no harm can come to her now.




Name: brian Z
E-Mail: ziscraz@aol.com
AIM: ziscraz
15:19:21 08/25/04


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hey deb,
u prolly dont remember me, but i use 2 hang with paul alot. i met you the 1st time at your house and we had a couple talks when you'd b home, and i cant believe what an awesome person u were. i had many laughs when i'd c u and paul wrestling and making fun. i just wanna say to the rusthoven family stay strong and dont worry cuz god is always on our side. mayb i'll get 2 talk with you more another day. god bless...




Name: Amanda (Anda)
E-Mail: lucky9r@aol.com
AIM: lucky9r
12:38:58 08/25/04


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Debs,
Well I am not sure where to begin so I guess I will just say that I love you. You were my best friend, as you were to a lot of people, but our friendship was so different. I would tell people that all the time...we didn't have to see eachother or talk to one another every single day and yet when we did talk or get together it was like no time had passed at all. To me that is a true friend. You were there with me through so many ups and downs and I will never forget that...during those times you were the only person who could make me see that things happen for a reason and that there is only good that can come out of them in the long run. I miss you terribly and always will...the memories that we shared will never be forgotten...i mean who could forget...
-"Run Away Bride" across the bridge in Chicago at Prom
-Our chips and salsa dates at Chili's
-Our sleepovers
-Wendy the Windmere and hot chocolate during softball season
-You being the best catcher I ever had
-Sleepovers in cars in the parking lot of Jewel/Osco
Gosh Deb thats not even close to being half of them and yet I feel like just by talking about them to other people or thinking about them you are close to me. This weekend we were supposed to go out together, we may not go out together but I will come see you. I miss you so much, you were my best friend and I know that I will one day see you again and because of that and the comforting words that people have spoken during this hard time I know you are always with me. I know there are a lot of people up there that are taking care of you but if you ever need anything go to my Grandma...she loved you too. And tell her I love her and one day we will all be together.
I miss you Debbie, always in my heart, thoughts, and prayers.
I Love You,
Anda




Name: Nicole
E-Mail: ntrunk@pipeline.une.edu
AIM: UWWFlagGal
10:33:53 08/25/04


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Deb
All of week 10 I kept saying man i miss Deb and when i would go to Taco Bell i would want to bring you back the Slurpee that you loved so much...but i never called you and i am so sorry for that. I have so many memories, from our times of cuddleing (Where you always listened to whatever i had to say) To the duct tape bracelets and you stoping by my meeting tree wrecking havoc with Jeff Lindblom. I am gonna miss you so much dawg.

To Deb's family there are so many times where she expressed her love for all of you to me. Paulie she could have seen you the day before but there was rarely a day where i didnt her "I miss my little Bro" especially when you were on your missions trip making Deb proud. And Deb's mom...there was one time my mom met Deb and it was enough for her to remember her forever. My mom came to camp during free time to see me and lecture me on something, Deb was in the room and listening to my mom she said i miss my mom so much even the yelling part. The funny part was this was tuesday and she had just seen you on Sunday. So my mom did the nice thing and yelled at Deb for her mess she even called her Deborah Leigh. And to Becky. I remember when you came one week and Deb was like "you are gonna sit with me till she gets here right?" and i did and she was like i want you to meet her and of course i said ok. Except you pulled up and Deb went running and screaming and i decided i would meet you later cause she was off. Deb loved many, but she especially loved her family

You big joker, no i dont have chew you know it hurts my jaw. Thanks for the smiles and for making the OC dance fun and for always listening, i cant and wont forget you Deb.



Name: Merry Leigh
E-Mail: musicalmerry15@yahoo.com
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21:02:30 08/24/04


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Deb I couldn't believe it when I was told......I sat and cried for a long time, and my mom came and cried with me. She said,"why did it have to happen to such an amazing person.""There are so many crappy people out there..." she never finished her sentence. She said that you were in a better place and that you can never really understand these aful things that happen. You were an amazing counsilor and an amazing friend! When I told my friends what happened they were shocked and couldn't believe it either. One of my friends burned me a CD of the song you played for us and it made me cry to listen to it. I will never forget what you said to me about horseback riding in heaven, and I will be right next to you drinking slurpees. You were the only person I have ever known to have the same exact middle name as me. You will be missed!! I love you aunt Deb!




Name: Mrs. Kenny (Dan's Mom)
E-Mail: lizabet909@aol.com
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13:03:46 08/24/04


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Dear Deb, I just want to tell you first of all what a special person you are. I think I learned more about your life now than I ever knew in the short time I knew you. And what a wonderful daughter, sister, and friend to so many people you truly were. How proud your family must have felt. Thank you especially for your special friendship and the impact you had and always will have on my son Dan's life. I know how much your friendship meant to him. He was lucky to be with you on your last day of your life on earth and your comforting words will keep his faith forever. I know you will continue to listen from heaven and teach him to follow the Lord and "do what Jesus would do" in his life's journey. It was always so nice to see you visit and I loved when you always took my side when I was lecturing. Little did your mother know how blessed she was 21 years ago with an Angel of God! You worked hard in your life and lead many people to Christ. God has another plan for you now. My prayers are with your family at this most difficult time as they wait for the day when they can put their arms around you again and feel the love that they will hold until eternity with our Lord Jesus our Savior. You are truly an inspiration of faith.!




Name: DAYNA HOJEK
E-Mail: DORN11982@AOL.COM
AIM:
00:06:49 08/24/04


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Rusty,
Hey you! I should have told u sooner but u meant so much to me. Losing u has completely devastated me. When I met u the first year at Moraine, u said we had to stick together bc we were the new girls on the time. Who knew we'd still be sticking together the second year along with slager and gainer? There is so many things i never got the chance to tell u. Like how much i admired u for ur strength when u couldnt play the whole first year. I have to say that i will never forget ur first base hit when u came back tho. You were there for me when my mom had surgery, when Brian made me cry, and ALL of the times i managed to get hurt. I will always remember our trips to burger king before practice, that stupid baseball class we took, and especially our late night talks and laughs in the hotel rooms. But there is something more important i need to tell u. You knew i wasnt very religious and was confused on what to believe. You never tried to influence my beliefs but u tried to help me see the light. I never thought i would but as i sat in the church listening to all of the things ur family was saying about u, i folded my hands and prayed for the first time in years. Deb, i prayed for u and i thanked God for bringing u into my life. I am still confused as to why this happened, but now i believe that u r with God and as happy as ever. You have made me a better person in many ways. I hope for ur sake that God doesn't give u fly balls out of the machine! keep smiling and i cant wait to see u again.

I also want to thank your family for bringing such an amazing person into this world.






Name: Caitlyn
E-Mail: cgreen@northpark.edu
AIM:
19:38:38 08/23/04


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To all of Deb's loved family, Steve and friends:

Deborah's time at North Park was enjoyed by anyone that came to know her. All had the opportunity to see Christ through her life. She was a blessing to know, as a friend and wonderful neighbor. My prayers go out for all those that took part in her life and were touched by Deborah. She was loved and is remembered with love. Praises that she is in the Hands.



Name: Rich
E-Mail: cupajoe415@aol.com
AIM:
19:26:05 08/23/04


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I don't want to cry, as if their is no reason for this, and as if there is no hope to come out of this. I knew Deb's heart to well to beleive that. A week before she went home, Deb was filled with hunger for God. She sat in the back of the chapel at camp watching everyone else worship. She told me she loved to watch others dance with their hands lifted toward heaven, and push herself toward that everyday. In our many talks about the generation at hand, she was filled with hope to see them raised up into their God ordained destinies. She poured herself into their destinies as she loved the unlovable kids. She poured everything she had into seeing people on the fringes raised up to stand in intense intamacy before God. I don't just say this, I watched it take place this summer!! Though Deb was not martyred like Rachel Scott at Columbine, the words of Rachel Scott's father are still echoing in my spirit. "My daughters death will not be in vain, this generation won't allow that to happen." And I feel the same about Deb. Deb is a seed, a seed that will bring forth much fruit. The kids that she poured into on her mission trips will grow up to be lovers of Jesus. The kids of camp manitoqua, will grow up to rock the nations of the world with their radical Christian lives. Paulie, will grow up to be that amazing spirit filled representitive of Christ she always knew he would be. Deb's, friends will be filled with love and compassion toward the hurting as she was. God will use this tragic event for his glory, and that is why I can't cry. There is too much good going to come out of this. Deb's death will not be in vain, her friends, her campers, her siblings, her parents, those she poured into will not allow that to happen! I won't allow that to happen!
Kiss Jesus for me Deb!




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18:34:54 08/23/04


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God bless such a young girl lost in such a terrible way. I pray so hard for you and your family and friends.




Name: Dad
E-Mail: jimguthrie@sbcglobal.net
AIM:
23:41:53 08/22/04


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My dearest Deb Deb,
How can I express the loss I feel right now, the void in my heart, the longing in my soul to hear your wonderful laughter, to see your beautiful smile, and to be inspired my your wonderful-crazy sense of humor. I know honey we didn't always see eye-to-eye, but deep in my heart I love you so much. I wish so much that I could tell you now how proud I am of you for the lives that you have changed while you were alive and even now in death...you are changing lives still. I know because I am one of them. Your life and love for God and those around you has inspired me to be more Godly.
We had over a thousand people come to your wake to say goodbye to you. What a wonderful testimony to the wonderful person you were and still are. I sit here at home and I see you all over the house. Though you are physically gone, you will always be in my mind and heart and soul. Thank you so much for your love, your forgivness, and for showing all of us the true meaning of being a child of God.

I love you and I miss you terribly, but I know you are safe in the arms of Jesus.

Love Always,
Dad




Name: john
E-Mail: john1116_7@hotmail.com
AIM: lwefootball11
22:22:02 08/22/04


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hay deb

you have changed my life in so many ways debs. debs i am trying realy hard to be nice to my step mom deb like we talked abought. i had lots of fun at camp this year eather being a sam and lisen to you up on stage get rez campers all hyper and showing your love for god. you deb made my wednesday volenting so much fun if it was helping u fill up coolers for drip drip drop or just talking abought random stuff i still rember the day u toled me u met my step mom and we talked for 45min abought how i should give her a chance and i was being realy struben well i am doing it now and it is realy working for the beter debs i thank you for al you have dun for me debs


job4:4
your words have supported those who were stumbling, and you have made firm the feeble knees.

say hi to JC for me debs



Name: mommy
E-Mail: mook6@sbcglobal.net
AIM:
20:52:04 08/22/04


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my dear dear Deba, Deb, Deborah, Deborah Leigh
oh I can not find the words right now to express the sorrow I feel and the loneliness. I just feel we are in a nightmare and I will wake up and you will be running down the stairs again and calling me mommy. I will never forget the love that you and I had and will always have in my heart. The love and support we have felt from all of the people you have touched has been such a blessing to me and such a comfort. God has given me grace for each moment that I am walking this road right now. When they say there are only one set of foot prints in the sand I know I am being carried by our Lord and He has been with me and my loved ones every step of this journey. May God be with all of us and I will see you again in Heaven wtih all of our other loved ones. Also I would like to tell all the young people and parents out there to please always tell your parents or your children and loved ones that you love them and give them a hug and kiss when you or they walk out the door because you do not know what the Lord has in mind for anyone of us. Well Deb Deb I love you with all my heart, soul and mind and I know you are safe in the arms of Jesus. love mommy




Name: Deb's Aunt Deb
E-Mail: DebKowalczyk@msn.com
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17:12:44 08/22/04


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I am so grateful for all the messages about my niece. My heart has broken. I want people to know what a beautiful girl "my little girl" was. You are wondering what exactly Deborah died from and I wanted you all to know. Thank you God that Deb did not suffer. She had many broken bones from the car that hit her, but she died from head injuries (on the back of her head). She never knew what happened.
I am at peace knowing that people knew how special she was. I will miss her forever.




Name: matt cav
E-Mail: mattTheTroll@hotmail.com
AIM: mattthetroll
12:21:49 08/22/04


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deb-
i loved you so very much and am missing you equally as much. you taught me more about God, true faith, and zeal for Him, in a short time, more than most other people have taught me in a lot longer. i remember so many amazing memories and laughs we had together...

going for our tuesday night midnight walks and prayer times.
"sick."
"dawg."
"schista!"
handfuls of mashed potatoes and grapefruit in the face.
cubs/sox debates.
laughing at a certain mulletted rockstar-wannabe.
"cancer in a can."
you yelling at me about atkins dieting.
cotton candy, dr pepper, "chew."
mix cds.
talks about stuart scott's funny eye.
day camp c.
being tackled.
competetiveness.
the most amazing prayer times ive ever had.
discussions on running.
discussion on your crappy knees.
and so many more.

ill never forget you, deb. sure, there may be some other people i encounter who show some similar characteristics as you, but there will never be another deb. you were so amazing and changed my life forever. say hi to Jesus for me.

see you soon.
Matt




Name: julie deruiter
E-Mail: juliedr3@msn.com
AIM: summerlandbaby07
21:11:02 08/21/04


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hey Debbie its julie
you had me in dipers you been there wen i was growing up you had me the 1st year wen u were a camp sonsalor n you were mi basketball coach
i no becky paulie n marky looked up 2 u even though becky older than u lol
debbie i luv u ! everyone is your buddy thats were it got it from steve was lucky 2 have some1 like u !! you touched so0o0 many ives from ages 3 to 80! may you spirt live on and dance your Jesus dance u n becky dance to. Love you Darling


Julie




Name: sarah
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15:43:30 08/21/04


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hey

i was in deb's cabin 2 years ago and had the best time. then last year my counsler got sick and i had her again for 1/2 a week at camp manitoqua. through out those 2 years i kept in touch and grew closer and closer to her. She wlways reconized me and said hi to me no matter where she was or who she was withshe always was full of energy and was very peky. She was an amzing person who helped grow closer to our savior. i will always remember her as a fun loving person who cared about everyone not just herself. we will miss her dearly but will always remember her as an awsome person. we miss you Deb!!



Name: Amy Krueger
E-Mail: kruegal@lfc.edu
AIM: squeakrs2005
22:49:26 08/20/04


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I knew Debbie since junior high. We shared many victories and losses on the basketball and volleyball courts. She could out-dribble me on the b-ball court in a heartbeat. And yes, we were even band nerds together. There were also times when she asked me to come to her church to spend the day in the day care center. It amazed me how such a young person could have such a strong faith and perserverance to lead others in the same loving way that Deb did! It was always that same big smile that everyone knew Deb by! My twin, Andrea, and I had to be reminded of it this week, so we pulled out the old Junior year Andrew H.S. Varsity Volleyball "end of the season" tape. We had just won a huge upset in the Regional Championship against Providence H.S. Even with a busted knee, Deb shot out of her chair and joined her teammates in celebration with that enormous smile and "foghorn" laugh!!! At least I have an unforgettable memory on tape to remember Debbie's angelic and contagious personality! You have touched many more lives than just mine, and for that you will be dearly missed!
To Debbie's family, I especially want to thank you for sharing such a wonderful angel with us! My prayers are with you all.
Love,
Amy




Name: Kristen Slager
E-Mail: GDLKN5@aol.com
AIM: GDLKN5@aol.com
17:47:04 08/20/04


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Hey Debs,
Its me Kristen, I will forever love and miss you. I hope you enjoy the softball!!! You better kick some major butt up there. I am so happy, but yet sad that we wont be playing softball together anymore, however, you are always going to be playing in my heart!!! Debs I love you so much and I am so blessed cause you loved me too along with many others!!! I have a W.W.J.D bracelet on and I will forever have it on thinking of you...not only will it stand for what would Jesus Do, but its also going to be what would Debs do? I have had so many memories over the years and I cant express the amount of memories that myself, Gainer, Megan, and Dana reminised (ok ok..so quit laughing cause I dont know how to spell that..I just want to sound smart..ha!!:) about on Thursday night. Well I NEVER thought it would be this soon but I am going to say goodbye cause you probably have so much to explore up there..by the way..I am going to Abaco and I am going to brag about you the whole time when we mission to everyone!!!! I love you Debs, I love you, I love you!!! I am so excited for the day that I see you again!!
Kristen Slager




Name: Kristen Slager
E-Mail: GDLKN5@aol.com
AIM: GDLKN5@aol.com
17:41:25 08/20/04


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Hey Debs,
Its me Kristen, I will forever love and miss you. I hope you enjoy the softball!!! You better kick some major butt up there. I am so happy, but yet sad that we wont be playing softball together anymore, however, you are always going to be playing in my heart!!! Debs I love you so much and I am so blessed cause you loved me too along with many others!!! I have a W.W.J.D bracelet on and I will forever have it on thinking of you...not only will it stand for what would Jesus Do, but its also going to be what would Debs do? I have had so many memories over the years and I cant express the amount of memories that myself, Gainer, Megan, and Dana reminised (ok ok..so quit laughing cause I dont know how to spell that..I just want to sound smart..ha!!:) about on Thursday night. Well I NEVER thought it would be this soon but I am going to say goodbye cause you probably have so much to explore up there..by the way..I am going to Abaco and I am going to brag about you the whole time when we mission to eveyrone!!!! I love you Debs, I love you, I love you!!!
Kristen Slager




Name: Zack Gasiorowski
E-Mail: SquallSnake7@hotmail.com
AIM: SolidZak
10:57:46 08/20/04


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Even though I have many memories of Debbie, one will always stand out in my mind. It may be a subtle (and somewhat silly) memory, but I will never forget it.

I knew Debbie from Andrew High School as we had many classes together. Because we would meet frequently throughout the day, Debbie created a friendly nickname for me. Whenever she would see me in class or in the hallways, she would always get my attention by calling me “Zack Attack.” What makes this situation unique is the fact that no one ever called my by that name except for Debbie. Not when I was little, not during school, not now. And since Attack is pretty much the only thing that rhymes with my name, I find it odd that I was never called by that name before.

I found it unfair to continue our friendly relationship without giving her a name. “Little Debbie” was the only thing I could come up with. Yes, I stole that name from the stupid snack cakes, but she told me she liked it.

I know this may sound a little strange that I will remember Debbie because of her nick naming ability, but without it, it would not have meant as much. Here is the perfect example. Some time ago, I was called into Q&M Research to taste test Gatorade’s Propel Fitness Water. I entered into the building on day 1 of this three-day study. The room was crowded as I waited in line to sign in. With only a quick glance, I surveyed the room to see if I knew anyone. Because I only gave a quick glance to avoid staring at anyone, I did not recognize anybody. After, I waited in line and signed in and received my information for the test study. Just as I was turning around to find a seat in this crowded room, I hear the cry “Zack Attack”! Without looking, I knew it was Debbie. Even though it was well over a year since I last saw her from High School graduation, she still called me by the same nick name. She never forgot me, and I am never going to forget her. Thank you for giving me this memory and nick name ‘Little’ Debbie. You had the kindest heart, an unforgettable sense of selflessness, and a personality that will remain unmatched.

I know we have a lost a wonderful human being here on Earth, but at the same time, I know Heaven has gained a magnificent angel.

Zachary Gasiorowski



Name: Adrienne Taylor
E-Mail: adriennetaylor@peaceinfrankfort.org
AIM:
10:01:39 08/20/04


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To the Rusthoven family and friends,

My devotional this morning gave me such comfort and I would like to share it with you, so that it may give you comfort also.

The words are from a song, "Finally Home"

Just think of standing on shore and finding heaven
Of touching a hand and finding it God's
Of breathing new air and finding it celestial
Of waking up in glory and finding it home

To be with Jesus is to be at home.

Debbie and we as Christians do not ever die -
we ascend.

My blessings and prayers to family and friends,
we will see you in heaven on day Debbie!




Name: Steve (because you didn't like to call me Sma
E-Mail: steven-bensema@uiowa.edu
AIM: bowtodasma81
01:19:14 08/20/04


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Debbie - Debs - Debster - Angel With the King

My how your name has evolved, and so have you! I am proud of the life that you lived, I am proud of the lives that you touched, and I praise God for the influence that you had on me. You were always there for me, whether it was a friendly face in a new school, or the person I relied on for summer ministry direction, you were there.

There is going to be a revival of souls. All of the lives that you touched are forever changed. You continue to change lives when you aren't even here anymore. I am trusting that God will revive the souls of all of the people that you have touched. Sheep that were without a shepard will find their Shepard, sheep that strayed from the flock will be brought back into the safely of the Shepard. You truly did live your life by giving everything that you had. God blessed you by giving you many seeds to plant, and he blessed you with a green thumb.

Your body is gone; but your spirit lives on, your legacy lives on, your passion lives on. I will carry your story with me. I will tell your story to others. I will not forget. You will continue to change lives through the people that you have changed. Just like ripples on a pond, so will be the love of Christ shown through you. You knew my challenge to the kids to change the surface of the pond, you not only threw a boulder into the pond, but you picked up a mountain and threw it into the pond. The world doesn't know what she is missing.

"I always thank God when I pray for you."
- Philemon 1:4

Sma



Name: Mike (Martha or Stew)
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AIM: mustang1309
23:36:20 08/19/04


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what up what up stew- why did this have to happen. u were so awesome u were my favotirte counselor ever. we had so many fun times together, u couldn't even count. I remember the golf cart incident with you me and rich. haha and when ever wer'e talkin and joking around u had that huge smile on yur face. That big smile and laugh of yours is what i will remember most. you always had it on you. It really sucks that i won't get to see u again. Like just 2 weeks ago we were hangin out and chillin like we always do havin a good time. Man dawg it really hurts. We were so close and now so far away. It hurts when one of my best friends kevin alleck died and now u died. You were always there for me, you gave me so much advice, and gave me the best times at camp. you were the best part of my summers. Getting to come back to an awesome camp with these awesome people like you was just great. I will always have you in my heart with me. Hopefully I will see you someday and when it happens it will be awesome. Peace Martha




Name: Angela Albrecht
E-Mail: Angel2964@aol.com
AIM: Angel2964
22:13:10 08/19/04


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I knew Deb from Camp Manitoqua... the place where she always had a smile on her face and driving around the golf cart with my brother Rich. My brother and i are very close and i would always here stories about what trouble Deb and him would get in. One of the things i'll always remember Deb telling me is that i should be nicer to my younger sister b/c Rich and i pick on her to much and Heather loves us a lot - Deb was Heather's coucelor 2 years ago- i'm gonna try so hard to love on Heather because that's what Debbie always told me to do. I'll also always remember her coming up to me while i was SAMing or at Camp Manitoqua worships asking me for some "chew"- The first time she asked me for some, i was like "what do you want?" she had to clearify that she wanted some gum. All her wacky sayings and her great big smile will always be remembered.
One thing i do believe, is that God has a reason for taking such a beautiful, sweet woman away from all of us. I don't know what God has in store right now, but i believe it's something so big that no one can imagine it. So many people loved Deb... i'm just one of them. She has been a huge impact in my life and in many others too. She is an angel who is now up in heaven dancing with God waiting for all of us to one day come up and join her.




Name: kristy
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20:56:24 08/19/04


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I was Deb's roomate my first year at Manitoqua. What a blessing she was in so many ways, at all times. I went from a shy, insecure newcomer, to a self-assured child of the Lord thanks to Deb. Deb, your laugh is contagious! I couldn't help but smile when I heard that laugh down the hall! There are so many memories I have of Deb, and her ministry to SO many at camp. I am, and forever will be touched by the inspiration that Deb led me during those few months. My love and constant prayers are with the Rusthovens---"Life is hard, death is sure, sin is the cause, but Christ is the cure!"

Much love,
Kristy R. Searles




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19:26:57 08/19/04


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i don't know who you are but if you went to camp manitoqua we have something in common. God bless you and your family....phil. 1:21 is the bible verse i LIVE by.everyone should make their life for christ and their death a gain. God is good all the time and you and your family are in my prayers!!




Name: Keli Moore
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18:42:32 08/19/04


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To Deb, I still remember the Some Like It Hot days. LOL you were GREAT!!! you always will be. You are beautiful. & now you are safe at home. Erika Cotterman, Myself and SO MANY others will love and Miss you until we meet again!

To The Rusthovens, Shannon & Debs Boyfriend. I worked with Debbi at Some Like It Hot . My prayers have been with all of you all day. I prayed my father keep her safe up there, And I know he will. The love & Strentgh That I witnessed there tonight was SO overwhelming. It's amazing how much of a positive impact one persons amazing personality can have on so many people. My Love is with you all. If i can ever be of ANY help with anything please do not HESITATE to contact me. God Bless you all.

Many Kisses Beautiful Debbie. Now amongst the Angels to watch over us all!



Name: corey
E-Mail: corey_taylor@tayloru.edu
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14:40:19 08/19/04


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dEBster--
hey...i always u knew u were the coolest dork to ever step foot in camp manitoqua or even our house...but now that i see the love of your friends and family i know it for sure. u were such a great example of a loving sister who was always willing to "horse around" with paulie....and its hard to know what to say or do bein paulies friend becuase there is now a gap in his heart that my words or actions cant fill. i know ur with God right now up in heaven doin dorky dances and saying to people randomly..."look at this joker". and i wouldnt have it any other way. u deserve to be in Gods precence after your walk here on earth. the song "view from heaven" by yellowcard is constantly running thru me and farmers heads...deb its so weird i feel like ur gonna walk up mind me and be like hey looser and start poking me and such and give me one of those smiles where ur whole faces scrunches into an abyss and all that is left is teeth. farmer and casie and paulie love the crap out of u...so much so that i need God to make me an unbelievable friend whos there for them. thru ur ministry at camp and just ur day to day life...u preached the love of jesus christ with ur actions...most of all ur smile. that so remarkable. your family rocks hardcore deb...i think im in love with ur mom...she is so strong. i love u...and my sister wishes more than anything to be there today...thanks for touching her life too. look for sarah podlin. u guys will have alot to talk about.

*i cant believe ur looking at our savior face to face...