Name: Dominick E-Mail: AIM: 15:10:27 08/06/22 Comments: Happy belated birthday big guy. Getting old buddy. I always get to say that because ur a few days older then me. Lol. We miss u and thinking about u around your special day. Name: Dominick E-Mail: AIM: 15:10:18 08/06/22 Comments: Happy belated birthday big guy. Getting old buddy. I always get to say that because ur a few days older then me. Lol. We miss u and thinking about u around your special day. Name: ……. E-Mail: AIM: Happy Birthday 20:45:16 08/05/22 Comments: Dear Bijan, Another year and another Birthday. We all miss you. May Allah bless you, Amma and Abba. Love …… Name: …… E-Mail: AIM: Happy Birthday 22:33:20 08/05/21 Comments: Dear Bijan, We all miss you. Wish and pray that you, Abba and Amma be granted the highest Heaven. Love Name: ... E-Mail: AIM: Miss you 10:31:21 09/05/20 Comments: Dear Bij, May Allah gives you the highest Jannah. May you, Amma, Abba find peace. People will change and so does relationship but your memories will always be treasured. Lots of Love ... Name: Anjum E-Mail: AIM: 12:38:53 08/05/20 Comments: Miss you ... Name: ..... E-Mail: AIM: miss you 12:43:41 07/27/20 Comments: Dear Bij, Think of you, Amma, Abba always. Hope you are at peace and may Allah grant you the highest Jannat Name: .......... E-Mail: AIM: Miss you 17:34:19 09/05/19 Comments: Dear Bijan, As the years go by, we can pretend to ignore or fill the void that was left behind after your sudden demise. Memories makes us stronger and happier. It was wonderful to always be around you, a clean soul. May Allah gives you, amma, abba the highest Jannah.
........ Name: Mom E-Mail: AIM: Remembering Bijan 11:38:43 09/05/19 Comments: Dear Bijan, on this day 16 years ago, at exactly this time, you were saying bye to me as I was leaving for college. When I came home with Raihan around 4:00 pm, you were gone. You had bid your final goodbye at 11:30 am. We live through that heart rending shock every 5th of September. May God keep you in his loving bosom till we meet again. Love you and miss you. Mom Name: Anjum E-Mail: AIM: 22:01:25 09/04/19 Comments: Forever in my thoughts and prayers. God bless Name: Mom E-Mail: AIM: 08/05/19 Comments: My dear beloved son Bijan, Wishing you Happy Eid and a Very Happy Birthday. We, your parents, your brother, aunts, uncles, friends, and cousins miss you so much that sometimes the pain is difficult to bear. We remember the fun parties we enjoyed on your birthdays and laugh, remembering the funny jokes you cracked. It is heartbreaking to think that you are no longer with us. We miss you too much. May God keep you in his celestial presence always. Lots of love. Mom Name: ...... E-Mail: AIM: MISS YOU ON YOUR BIRTHDAY 22:16:13 08/05/19 Comments: Dear Bij, May allah bless you with the highest Jannah. Miss you, Amma and Abba every day lots of love Name: Dominick E-Mail: AIM: Just thinking about u. 16:01:09 07/22/19 Comments: Bijan What’s up man. Well again it’s this time of the year for our birthdays. 11 days older then me and wouldn’t let me forget it. This time of the year I think about u most thinking about how we could celebrate our days and what present I would get u. I miss u bud. Keep looking over ur family and making sure they are well. Till next time. Love u bijan. Dom Name: ..... E-Mail: AIM: love and miss you 12:58:19 05/19/19 Comments: Dear Bij, Miss you and praying for in this holy month of Ramadaan. lots of love ... Name: ... E-Mail: AIM: 09:07:06 09/05/18 Comments: Dear Bij, Miss you and pray for you, Amma and Abba everyday. Lots of Love ...... Name: Anjum E-Mail: AIM: 04:54:51 09/05/17 Comments: God bless. Name: ........ E-Mail: AIM: 20:10:22 02/03/17 Comments: Dear Bij, Always think of you and pray for you, Abba and Amma. lots of love Name: ......... E-Mail: AIM: prayers 14:43:10 08/05/16 Comments: Dear Bij, Another year and another birthday. We cherish the memories and keep it deep in our heart. Lots of love Name: Anjum E-Mail: AIM: 23:10:01 08/04/16 Comments: The emptiness lingers each and every single day. I miss you terribly and love you infinitely. Today, as with each passing year, I will celebrate you and the love and light you brought into my life. Happy birthday. May Allah continue to shower you with his blessings. Anjum Name: ....... E-Mail: AIM: ........ 07:27:49 05/11/16 Comments: Dear Bij, One of my Co-worker's father unexpectedly passed away 2 days ago and I sensed her shattering from inside, while giving her comfort with words I realized nothing I can say would make her feel better. Sharing my story of loosing you and how the whole family felt the implosion of your unexpected demise, I realized we never actually get over the emptiness. A void that we constantly try to fill however knowing deep down, there is only one person that suited it and that was you. May you, Amma, Abba rest in peace. Lots of love, Name: xxx E-Mail: AIM: 00:53:13 03/10/16 Comments: Yesterday I thought of Bijan. This was not the first time I have thought of him but it is the first time I have seen this site. Given that there was a post here just 2 days before- I feel like I should leave a message. No one can ever know the depth of his parents' heartbreak but I hope that Shaheen Aunty and Asif Uncle know that they are not alone. Many many people wish peace for them. I hope that sometimes the memories of him bring smiles instead of heartache. People may carry on in their routines and conversations but their prayers and wishes are always with you. Saera Khan Name: ... E-Mail: AIM: ... 23:12:17 03/06/16 Comments: Dear Bij Always pray for you and thinking of you. Keep watching over us. Lots of Love Name: Felipe E-Mail: dave.salais@gmail.com AIM: 13:13:44 11/01/15 Comments: I'm very sad to find this news about you, Bijan. I was remembering those days I shared with you, helping you with your spanish homework... You were such a nice dude, smart and carismatic. It's such a big loss, man. May your soul rest in peace, amigo. Tu amigo, Felipe. Name: Mom E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: Remembering my son 15:11:52 09/13/15 Comments: Dear Bijan, You would have been 30 years old on August 5, 2015. Life would have been very different with you around. It would have been warm and loving and caring, like you were. Some of your friends remembered you on Aug. 5 and again on September 5. You are so blessed that you have friends who stay in touch with me even after 12 years have gone by. They are truly your friends, and I will always wish them well and pray for their happiness. For us to remember you at all times and painfully miss you on certain eventful days is but part of our life, but for certain friends and relatives to continue to remember you is a great blessing indeed. May you rest sweetly in God's bosom. Name: Jessica Ginetti E-Mail: AIM: 20:41:37 08/06/15 Comments: I can't believe it's your birthday. With Dominick's right around the corner, I'm made to remember you two as children. You were best buddies and even though time drifted you two apart, I think you always had a connection. I want to thank you for that connection. I feel that knowing you and your family helped Dominick grow into the diverse young man that he is today. You are missed and loved by those left behind. And as I'm one to believe in such a thing, I'm sure we will meet again! Until then, may peace be with you. Name: ...... E-Mail: AIM: ........... 07:15:15 08/05/15 Comments: May Allah bless you Thank you for the good and sweet memories, Thinking of you. Lots of love Name: Ray E-Mail: raystar123@aol.com AIM: Miss you 10:22:03 07/19/15 Comments: Bhaiya, I miss you so much. Rest in peace. I love you. Ray Name: Mom E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: A prayer for you 10:19:28 07/19/15 Comments: Hello Bijan, Another Eid has come and gone by. Years are flying away faster than ever before. On the night of prayer, I prayed for you and your friends Graf and Chris, and others. May God look kindly on you young kids, forgive your sins, and enter you all into heaven. Amen. God's Mercy is infinite. He must have had a purpose to take you away so young. All your cousins were here and your aunts and uncles, and we all tearfully remembered you. Raihan was the first to pray for you at Chapel Hill. Dad and I read God's Yaseen prayer for you. May God keep you in His Mercy. Mom Name: .......... E-Mail: AIM: 20:35:32 04/06/15 Comments: Dear Bij, I am starting a new chapter in my life, I know all of you are watching over me. Miss you all. Name: ........ E-Mail: AIM: 08:53:24 01/18/15 Comments: Dear Bij, Miss you and pray for you with every prayer. ..... Name: mom E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: Remembering 16:13:28 10/07/14 Comments: Dear Bijan, Another Eid went by without you. No Eid passes without all of us praying for your abode to be in the highest heaven. If you had been around, I know for sure the Sheer Khorma would not have lasted more than a day! Family and friends talked good things about you today. With love and blessings. mom Name: ......... E-Mail: AIM: 08:32:21 09/06/14 Comments: Dear Bij, Praying for you and cherishing all the wonderful memories. May Allah give you the highest jannat. Lots of love..... Name: ... E-Mail: AIM: 23:18:19 09/04/14 Comments: You are in my thoughts, my prayers, each and every single day. May Allah continue to bless you. Love you. So very much. A Name: mom E-Mail: AIM: A prayer on your Birthday 23:19:26 08/06/14 Comments: Dear Bijan, Those that love you felt the pain of your absence on your birthday. Many prayers were said for you. May Allah give you the sawaab of those prayers. May you find peace and happiness in heaven. Ameen, summa amen. mom Name: ... E-Mail: AIM: Remembering a kind soul 15:35:16 08/05/14 Comments: Dear Bij, It's been over a decade, but our memories are still very fresh of how pure your heart was. May Allah bless you and Always pray for you. I know you, amma and abba are always watching over all of us, thank you. Love you and miss u..... Name: mom E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: Miss you 19:54:38 07/28/14 Comments: My Dear Bij, Eid Mubarak. Prayed for you at time of Dua after Eid Namaaz. Prayed for you again at Chapel Hill. Raihan, Dad, me, we did fateha and recited Yaseen Shareef. May Allah grant you the highest heaven. You are missed by all. We talk about you all the time, and remember your naughty activities and your sweet, loving nature. Sometimes it's hard to bear your loss, but we console ourselves thinking you are in a better place. Love you always. Mom Name: ....... E-Mail: AIM: Miss You 07:23:07 07/26/14 Comments: Dear Bij, Prayed for you, Amma, Abba on the Lait ul- Qadar night, May allah gives you the highest jannat. Name: Miss you E-Mail: AIM: 20:17:14 04/21/14 Comments: Dear Bij, Miss you and always have you in my prayers... Name: …... E-Mail: AIM: 10:08:56 11/15/13 Comments: Hey, As time goes by many things change around us, as Change is one law of nature that doesn't change. One thing that will never change are the memories and love we all shared and will continue to until the end. I wish you were here today, so things would settle. Name: raihan E-Mail: raystar123ray@aol.com AIM: 12:10:52 08/05/13 Comments: Happy Birthday Bhaiya. We missed you really badly on my Birthday. I know you would have teased me and roasted me on that day, and told everyone how i bugged you and your friends and followed you around everywhere. Yes, I do bump into Dominic off and on. I like him. I pray for you everyday bhaiya. I wish you were here with me and mom and dad. Love you and miss you. Raihan Name: mom E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: Wishing Happy Birthday 12:03:17 08/05/13 Comments: Hello Bijan, You can't imagine how you are missed. Remember all your fun Birthdays we celebrated? When you were little, just 5 years old, we had all your little Kindergarten friends over, and all of you were eating and enjoying when King Kong showed up, and all you kids ran screaming and shouting with fear, and you hid under the table and refused to come out! It was your idea to call King Kong, and honestly that guy looked so real, anyone could have been fooled. That day, however, the kids couldn't be consoled till the guy took off his costume and told you kids that he's just a man dressed up in a King Kong costume. All the other kids stopped crying, but you refused to come out from under the table till the guy left. That was one funny Birthday. I could go on and on with all the other funny and memorable ones, but I want to tell you that you are in our prayers. Amy and Rohina and Nawaz mamare having special prayers said for you in Lucknow. Raihan is studying hard. He just had his 21st Birthday and remembered you with a lot of love and affection as his big brother looking after him from above. I just saw the posting by your friend Dominic. He was such a sweet friend of yours. You guys had some great times together, remember fishing in Galena? Your friend John Brinley also stays in touch with us. He came over to show us his baby and his girlfriend. It's hard to believe that you are with us no more. Love you Bijan. May Allah's blessings be on you. Mom Name: Dominick E-Mail: Ginetti@gmail.com AIM: 22:20:15 06/16/13 Comments: Hey bijan this is Dominick it's been a long time. I miss u man. You've been coming to mind more n more over the years. I was just talking with my aunt Thelma about u. A specific memory always comes up. U and I went to the movies at the glenwood movie theater back in like 4th grade. Your mom dropped us off and b4 the movie u ordered some nachos and I got the same ol popcorn. When we walked in to find our seat. U got nacho cheese on ur hand and handed them to me to hold while u wiped ur hands. Not quite sure why I put them down on the seat. And before we knew it squish nacho cheese all on ur butt. Lol after the movie we had my aunt Thelma pick us up. And we told her wat happened and we all laughed. Then she lined the whole seat with napkins. Haha that was funny. Lots of good times as kids. I got many more memories to tell u. Over time. I see ur mom and little brother every once and a while. We have the same bank. Rahan is so big now. I remember him being so little always wanting to hang out with us. I just saw him last week and he told me how well he's doing in school. You would be really proud. I hope ur doing well. Ill check back in soon ttyl love u man. Dom Name: shaheen E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: 12:19:36 04/14/13 Comments: Dear Bij, Can you believe your little brother, the same little rascal who pestered you all the time, the one you carried around in your arms,turned 21 in March! On his surprise party day, in his Thank You speech, he remembered you with so much love and pain in his voice that we all choked up. I wish you had lived to celebrate your 21st B'day with all your friends and cousins, and aunts and uncles. You left us too soon. I pray everday for the most beautiful heavenly blessings to be showered on you. Rukhsana khala had a dream that amma, abba, and you had thrown a grand party, and a lot of people were there, and there was a great variety of the most delicious food and desserts, and you all were laughing were and enjoying and distributing money. She said it was so vivid, it was like real. That's to say, Bijan, that all who loved you, miss you very much. Lots of love and blessings. Mom Name: mom E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: Remembering 11:53:24 04/14/13 Comments: Dear Bij, Your little brother turned 21 in March. In his short Thank you speech, he remembered you with a lot of love and a very pained heart. I wanted to, but couldn't bring up your name for fear I would start crying. Can you believe that little rascal you would carry around and hold in your arms when he was scared is now 21( by God's Grace)? I so wish you were with us to celebrate your 21st birthday. So much time has gone by, but it seems like you left us just yesterday. May all the blessings of heaven be showered on you. Name: amy E-Mail: AIM: 09:13:04 03/15/13 Comments: Hey... Always have you in my prayers... Name: Amy E-Mail: AIM: 13:57:09 08/05/12 Comments: Dear Bijan, Happy Birthday, May Allah Bless you with the 7th highest heaven and May you watch upon all of us with your smile. I have never been with you on your Birthday, but I can sense how special this day was and is for Phuppa, Phuppi and Raihan. For whatever little time Allah blessed us with you, You taught us so many things. I Know Rohina and I will always make sure our kids know who their Bijan Mammu was. I miss you dearly everyday. Its a good feeling praying in your room, I feel your essence is still there. Miss you. Name: rohina E-Mail: AIM: 14:19:12 08/04/12 Comments: hey bijan happy b'day i wish u were alive on ur birthday i hope ur celebrating ur birthday with abba amma up their lots of memories r thier in my heart wen u cum 2 lucknow i remember my first fight and then our patch up Name: amy E-Mail: AIM: 09:43:38 07/06/12 Comments: Hey, There were days, i believed, this would pass. There were days I got hurt and looked away, but every time I wished you were here. Name: amy E-Mail: AIM: miss you .... 10:40:56 06/10/12 Comments: Hey Bij, I miss you. There are are many times, I wished you were around, to hold my hand and say it'll be ok. I miss your presence more than anything. Rohina and I will make sure our kids know who their Bijan Mammu was and how his place can never change in our lives and heart. Name: rohina E-Mail: AIM: 14:00:45 03/18/12 Comments: hey bij i knw ur watchin me from there and missin me and amy and raihan i remebered all those gud memories of lucknow wen u use 2 cum to lucknow in the month of december we use 2 have a blast cutting pastry as a birthday cake runnin here and their playin games gettin up in the morning going with abbu to the store to get bread butter and cheese for the break fast now things have changed there is a new addition in the family ur lovely niece her name is maaira she is 3 mnth old wen she grew up i 'll tell her who was bijan mamu really was we still miss u love rohina Name: rohina E-Mail: AIM: 01:14:28 03/18/12 Comments: hey bij last night i had a dream abt u i really thought u were alive and playin with ur niece and she's happy with u and love 2 play with u we all miss u Name: rohina E-Mail: AIM: 10:49:13 02/02/12 Comments: hey bijan miss u alot i was just goin thru the old pics of ours Name: Amer Baig E-Mail: AIM: 07:30:39 01/29/12 Comments: Miss u cuz...randomly was remembering having lunch everyday together at LWE, along with other things. Name: steve E-Mail: AIM: 17:50:50 12/18/11 Comments: Man imiss u..everytime I see a 3000gt I think of you and the times we had. You were one of my best friends. I pray for you all the time.well love yea bro see you one day Name: Amy E-Mail: AIM: 19:26:27 12/13/11 Comments: Dear Bij Time has passed and we have changed but the empty feeling is still there... We have a new addition to our family, a new relationship and also a new responsibility, Rohina gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, we named her Maira. The first time I picked her I wished you, Amma and Abba were around. She is soo precious mashaAllah. I knw you will always watch over her. We wil make sure she knws who her Bijan Mammu was and how much he would have loved and pampered her... Love u Amy Name: amy E-Mail: AIM: 12:36:41 10/13/11 Comments: Hey, Even though time has passed and things have changed, not a day goes by that i didnt wish for you to be here and I wished Amma and Abba were here too. Everythiing seems like yesterday, sometimes it seems like a bad dream tht you want to wake up from, sadly, it isn't. I miss you, I always pray for you, amma and abba. Name: Mom E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: Remembering Bijan 19:45:23 09/24/11 Comments: Hi Bijan, This morning I read something about 20 years later Kurt Cobain is remembered. You were a great fan of Kurt Cobain's music. I still have the Nirvana Album. "The sun is gone, but I still have a light." I'm not sure if the words are right, but I remember these words from when you used to sing. We miss you Bijju. Cristina's little boy Dominic is 4 years old now. He reminds us of you as a child. God bless you. Mom Name: Raihan E-Mail: raystar123@aol.com AIM: Missing you 11:44:06 09/11/11 Comments: Dear Bhaiya, You can't imagine how much I miss you. I am studying hard, and one day I hope to become a doctor. You always told everybody how clever your little brother is, but the trith is I was never as clever as you were. I wish you were here to guide me and be my trusting friend. I pray for you everyday. Your loving brother raihan Name: Mom E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: In memorium 11:31:03 09/11/11 Comments: September 5th is the saddest day of our lives. Another one has rolled by. Bijan, We remembered you with heaps of flowers and lots and lots of prayers. may God forgive all your innocent mistakes and soar you into the highest heaven. Ameen, summa ameen. Mom Name: mom E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: Eid Mubarak 22:45:49 08/31/11 Comments: Eid Mubarak Bijju, You were missed terribly today and remembered very dearly. Beautiful flowers and prayers were strewen your way. Raihan couldn't come because of first day of classes, but Amy and I did fateha, Surah Yaseen, and Surah Mulk. After Eid Namaz, we prayed for you, amma, abba, mummy, and others. You are always in my prayers. We all remember you all the time, phuppu ma, sophi, farida apa, salma, raihan, amy, felix uncle, and other family members. May Allah grant you the highest heaven. mom Name: mom E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: Birthday message 16:37:38 08/05/11 Comments: Hi Bijju, Tonight we would be having a party for you and singing happy 26th birthday; instead I am laying flowers on your grave and doing fateha. Your loss pains all who knew the real you. You can't imagine how we deeply we miss you. I went to do fateha for you today at 10:30 am, and I found your loving aunt Farzana already there with beautiful roses. Although you never met her, she loves you like she knew you. Both of us arranged the flowers in the vases and filled them with water. Then she left, and I sat in the shade and read the Yaseen Shareef for your Maghfarat. May Allah forgive your sins and give you a place in his highest heaven. Ameen. Amy called me earlier. She is also saying Yaseen Shareef and Surah Mulk for your maghfirat. Allah will surely give you all the blessings of these prayers. Raihan moved to his college apartment today. Dad is at work. Amy is doing her med-school rotations in Florida. Rohina is happily married and expecting her first little one. All you good and not so good cousins are fine. We love you and pray for you every day. Khuda Hafiz. Mom Name: amy E-Mail: AIM: HAPPY BIRTHDAY 15:08:18 08/05/11 Comments: Dear Bij, Happy Birthday...This year your birthday is during Ramzaan. I remember the Roza's we kept together (2009/2010), We use to stay up and chat all night till sehri and sleep after Fajir. Miss those times. MaashAllah, wonderful things are happening in Rohina's life and I soo wished that you were here. Ray is all grown up and looking ahead towards his bright future. I am almost done with Medschool...Wishing at times I had you to share my patient stories and goof ups, We would have been rolling on the floor laughing. I know we all have our hopes and wishes, but the most important thing is, We miss you and we cherish every single moment spent with you. May allah give you the highest of all firdaus. Love you loads Name: amy E-Mail: AIM: 13:13:24 07/10/11 Comments: Hey, Miss you....just keep watching over us. Love you, Name: amy E-Mail: AIM: 11:43:12 01/10/11 Comments: Dear Bij, You know whats happening and how long it has been happening. I know you know that i tried with all my heart but I want to give up, coz there's no point in mw trying ....certain things will never change...it didn't matter how much you wanted it...it doesn't matter how much I want it...its not in our hands. I hope you will forgive me....I couldn't....I tried. Name: Amy E-Mail: huma1984@hotmail.com AIM: 19:31:45 11/30/10 Comments: Hey, I was reading your mom's message and realised things would have definately been different if you were aound and actually would have been better. Certain promises would have been kept and new promises would have been made. I can imagine you being calm in certain situations that i had to face, and telling me to get my head together. I finally realised something that I can't fix things, That doesn't mean I will give up, You know me....That means I need to work harder. Being in the Medical field, I realised you would have been a perfect Doctor, all calm and chilled out. Showing compassion to everyone even, when they don't deserve it. Some people say whatever happens, happens for the good, But tell me I don't think there's anythng good in feeling pain and making your loved ones suffer. I know you know, but you also know I am not a quitter.....Love you loads Name: mom E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: Missing him 17:56:16 11/27/10 Comments: Dear Bijan, Eid came and went by; Baqra Eid came and went by; Thanksgiving came and went by. We missed you on all these occasions. This year we did not celebrate Baqra Eid as it came during the week, and all of us had to go to work or go to school. Raihan, mashaallah, is now in college. He is working hard and staying focused, and of course, always remembering you and praying for you. Amy is in Med School over here. You would have been so proud of her, and she would have had one more cousin to rely on and encourage her. Name: amy E-Mail: AIM: 07:38:06 11/19/10 Comments: Hey, I have you in my prayers. Love you always. love Name: Amy E-Mail: huma1984@hotmail.com AIM: 09:51:31 10/30/10 Comments: My Dearest Bijan, You always are and will always be in my prayers. I know you are watching us from up there. I apologise for not been able to keep my promise, I tried...i hope you know that. Love you always, Name: shaheen sayeed E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: Missing Bijan 14:48:41 10/28/10 Comments: My Dear Bijan, I have missed posting messages on this site ever since it just disappeared. Thanks to Amy's effort, all your friends can post messages now. We love you the same as ever and have not stopped thinking about you for one moment. The only change in our household is that Raihan is now in college. He has taken admission in Loyola University and is studying hard to get into a professional school. Love you and miss you. Mom Name: Corey E-Mail: coreyzubek@yahoo.com AIM: AlmostAliveInc 18:32:04 03/10/09 Comments: Funny that im googling mindlessly looking for something to do and I come across this page I've never seen before. Also ironic that it happened just one day before our old friend Pat's birthday. We never really hung out much... if we did it was at a mutual friends house which we had many of. The cocky kid i used to be in high school that had a problem with everyone never had a problem with you. You were a cool kid man..... lots of people miss you. Tell Pat I said happy birthday and remember there are still people that care about you. Corey Name: Nadine Gardner Barcaricchio E-Mail: nadine.gardner@gmail.com AIM: Prayers 08:12:46 10/15/08 Comments: I was thinking of Bijan, his brother and parents tonight, and remembering their incredible fortitude and generous hospitality to my husband and myself when we visited them, not long after your passing, Bijan - we visited your grave site and grieved for the loss of you with your Dad in silent prayer. Your parents and brother set us an example of incredible strength in the face of tragedy. When my mother passed away a year ago, I remembered your family's example, and I hope I faced my grief with the same dignity and love. Tonight I missed my Mom and I thought of you also in heaven - I hope you come across her there, she was a lovely lady who would have enjoyed your music, as she was very musical herself. Love and blessings. Name: amy E-Mail: AIM: 00:58:29 06/28/06 Comments: MISS U!!!!! Name: Amy E-Mail: huma1984@hotmail.com AIM: missin u!!!! 22:21:44 03/15/06 Comments: Dear Bij, Hey, Miss You Alot....... love Name: asayeed E-Mail: AIM: 15:48:30 01/13/06 Comments: My Dearest Bij, Time goes by so quickly, but thoughts of you are always with me. I found the cd's you made for me during your last trip to Toronto. Seeing your handwriting brought forth a flood of tears to my eyes. I now listen to the cd's often to ease the heartache that is still felt everyday. To say I miss you is not nearly enough, but now I've got an angel watching over me. Love you always Name: huma E-Mail: huma1984@hotmail.com AIM: miss u soo much!!! 07:45:16 09/05/05 Comments: Dear Bijan, I can't believe all this time has passed without you. Your memories brings smiles to our faces and sometimes tears coz we miss u.....I know you are at a better place....... You are always in my prayers. Miss you loads!!!! Lots of love Name: Mom E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: remembering you 15:08:32 08/17/05 Comments: Dear Bij, Your Birthday came and went. It's like time is ferociously racing away heartlessly. All I can say is that you would have been 20 years old this August. Those we love can never Bijan, you were so special, you will never be forgotten. Your loving Mom. Name: asayeed E-Mail: AIM: 14:04:15 08/05/05 Comments: My Dearest Bij,
Love you always Name: Cristina Rivera E-Mail: AIM: Still missing you 13:57:32 08/05/05 Comments: Hello my love, I haven't written in awhile, well a long time i should say. Happy birthday i didn't even say that last year, I just always let my emotions get the best of me and i can't bring myself to write or come by the grave site. Things are still as hard as they were when i lost you. I know that if you were here my life would be happy and i could apprecaite what i had. When your mom told you that God didn't take her away because someone needed her that someone was me, if there really is a God can you make sure he takes care of her. My dad and sister have heart failure and i also need him to watch over them, my dad isn't doing so well. He told me once when he was really sick that he saw you and i know that you helped him get through it. Now being at least a little older I know that my love for you wasn't just puppy love it's been almost 2 years and my heart is still with you . Maybe one day I'll fall in love again , but so far this fairytale doen't have a happy ending. Well I still love u and miss you Name: safia E-Mail: AIM: 10:28:47 08/05/05 Comments: happy birthday bij...love and miss you more than ever. things were getting pretty tough but everything seems to be falling into place now and i cant help but think that you had a little something to do with it. thanks. Name: huma E-Mail: huma1984@hotmail.com AIM: hey!!! 08:14:15 08/05/05 Comments: Hi!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Miss you alot!!!! Your memories gives us strength.... You are always in my prayers.... Love Name: karen schuit E-Mail: AIM: 02:00:45 07/26/05 Comments: hey bijan, i just thought i would come say hi. i havent been here in awhile. I think about u all the time. i actually drove past your house when i was doing a delivery. well bij i miss you and i hope you are doing good love always karen Name: Ahmed Bhai E-Mail: AIM: 07:30:15 07/21/05 Comments: Always thinking of you, Bijan..... always..... your Ahmed Bhai Name: shaheen sayeed E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: 11:46:28 06/11/05 Comments: Dearest Bijju, This is Mom. For a flashing moment I thought I was coming to join you, that I was going to be by your side. These past three months I've been through the most harrowing, fearful, and traumatic mental, emotional, and physical anguish. But in all that I've gone through, I didn't forget you for a moment, you stayed foremost in my mind. On May 17th,2005, less than a month ago, I had a major surgery, rather long, involved, and complicated. I thought God's call had come for me: I saw you, Abba, and Amma, all on one bike, riding through snowy white clouds. Two days after the surgery, as soon as I came out of intensive care, I contracted pneumonia, which gave me high temperatures and caused me, perhaps, to dream and hallucinate. In my dream I saw a large blue hand gently moving close to my face. Something told me it was God's hand. The hand came close to my face. It seemed like it was going to caress my cheek. Then, all of a sudden, a few inches away from my cheek, it suddenly stopped and slowly began to withdraw, and then just as suddenly, it disappeared. It seemed like God wanted to bring me into His fold, but then suddenly changed His mind. Maybe, somebody in this world desperately wanted me alive, and God in His infinite mercy, answered that special individual's prayer. I guess, I'll never find out who that person is, but I will make it a point to thank each and everybody who prayed for my recovery. We miss you a lot, Bij. Time is not healing the pain. Ever since you left us, the spark and zest for life has left us. Your sweet friends and other well-wishers help to keep your memory alive. Your close cousins never fail to post a message. I thank them all, especially those who knew you well enough to stand up for you. I am still not fully recovered, Bij, so I tend to get tired all the time. Goodbye, Son, Your loving Mom, Shaheen Name: Amy E-Mail: huma1984@hotmail.com AIM: miss you 10:23:15 05/07/05 Comments: Dear Bij, Hey!! Well as u know Abbu n I paid your parents n raihan a visit last month and while we were there, I couldn't help imagining, how different our visit, would have been...if you were alive. I MISS YOU....... love u always Name: hey you E-Mail: AIM: 16:45:35 04/03/05 Comments: i don't listen to what they say. some people don't know. some people didn't know you. some people act as if their opinions are the only ones that matter. i know though. you know what i'm talking about. it is between me and you. i couldn't believe it but i stuck up for you. and remember i always will. Name: asayeed E-Mail: AIM: 18:19:18 03/27/05 Comments: just wasn't the same... love you Name: asayeed E-Mail: AIM: 08:27:52 03/15/05 Comments: My Dearest Bij, Just when it becomes unbearable to imagine this life without seeing your angelic smile, or hearing your beautiful laugh, there you are in my dreams... Love you Name: asayeed E-Mail: AIM: 16:57:16 03/06/05 Comments: Love you... Name: Ahmed Bhai E-Mail: Turbodrvn@aol.com AIM: Turbodrvn 12:12:26 02/26/05 Comments: Always thinking of you, Bij. Always.... Name: ???????? E-Mail: AIM: 11:32:24 02/21/05 Comments: I happen to be a cousin of Deb Rusthoven and I wanted to go threw everyone here! And it looks like that he was a gr8 man of God! I'm so sorry for your loss! Name: Amy E-Mail: huma1984@hotmail.com AIM: ...................miss you 23:36:05 02/04/05 Comments: Dear Bij, The other day, Abbu and I were looking for some old papers and found some very old photo's of us, when we were babies and with that we found two letters.One was from your Mom and the other was from Abba...they were one of the first letters written by your Mom after your birth.....It showed how happy everyone was and especially her.She wrote how busy and happy you kept everyone.It referred to Abbu as mamujaan and Amma as Nani.As i was reading it out loud, Abbu got very emotional.It just shows, how your coming into this world, brought happiness into all our lives.Abba was the happiest of all. I know that even though you are not here,You are spreading happiness...from up there.I know, what ever wrong was going on here, you were responsible for setting it right(u know what i mean).You truely belong in HEAVEN. You will always be in my prayers and in my life.
Name: ***~~**~~*** E-Mail: AIM: 10:29:48 01/22/05 Comments: I haven't forgotten about you. Haven't forgotten the night I found out. Haven't forgotten the way I saw you laying that afternoon at your wake. It was almost like I was waiting for you to wake up. You looked so peaceful...and you were. I will never forget the way you waved at me everyday at the same exact time. It was like a routine of ours. And the days we didn't wave I was like...wait....something isn't right (I then later found out you got in a fight with cristina haha) I will never forget the way we would yell at mr deyoung and throw our rackets at him in tennis when he wasn't paying attention.I amw riting just to let you know I haven't forgotten...I will never forget. Name: Mom E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: missing you 12:58:26 01/17/05 Comments: Dearest Bijju, Just as some of your cousins here in the US and Canada miss you, your cousins in India cannot stop talking about you. Raihan and I were in India during the winter break and all your cousins and neighbors and friends and servants kept saying, "Bijan used to climb this wall; Bijan sat on that donkey; Bijan enjoyed the cakes and pastries from Pat-a-Cake; Bijan gave me Rs.100/00; Bijan played cricket with this bat; Bijan climbed this tree; Bijan fell from that wall; Bijan would have loved the new McDonald's; Bijan would have enjoyed seeing SWADES.... " You can't imagine how everybody remembered you and prayed for you. Name: asayeed E-Mail: AIM: 18:25:53 01/14/05 Comments: My Dearest Bij, Adil's been in town for a few weeks. I've heard so many childhood stories of you, all sweet and endearing. Each glimpse into your childhood will be held dear within my heart. I only wish I had such memories to share. I think of you often everyday. Love you Name: asayeed E-Mail: AIM: 17:55:26 12/14/04 Comments: My Dearest Bij, Miss you terribly. May Allah (swt) continue to shower his blessings onto you. Love you. Name: asayeed E-Mail: AIM: 17:50:52 12/14/04 Comments: Dearest Raihan, Never think that you are alone. Bij will forever be with you in your heart, your memories, your prayers. All you have to do is think of him, and he'll be there smiling down on you from Heaven. Love you Name: Raihan E-Mail: raystar123@aol.com AIM: remembering bhaiya 08:27:55 12/13/04 Comments: My dear Bhaiya, Guess what! I saw you in my dream 2 days ago. I know you know all about it. You and I played baseball outside for a while. Then, we came inside, and we went up to my room and played some games on my new X-Box. And you enjoyed playing them so much. And then all of a sudden you were gone. My dream was over. And I was all alone. I want to say, Thankyou Bhaiya for playing those games with me. Your Bro, Name: karen E-Mail: deaddoors20@aol.com AIM: 12:34:28 12/09/04 Comments: hey bij, i am just coming by to say hello! I miss you man! I was thinking about the fun times that we had. I am coming to see you soon! Peace! U and your family and friends are in my prayers while we approach the holidays!!! Thanks for watchin over me!! Love you Bijan
RIP Bijan Name: Shaheen/Mom E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: Remembering you 14:38:09 12/03/04 Comments: My dear Bijan, Memories of you just keep flooding my heart and my eyes. Your name has come to my lips more than a 100 times in the past few months. Dreams of you are so real that sometimes I think you are going to walk through the door and say your usual, "Mom, I'm hungry. What do you have? Why don't you order a pizza?" The other night I dreamt that You, Amma, Raihan, and I were in the lower level bedroom. Amma was lying down, reading a book, You were doing something by the dresser, I was standing on the other side of the bed, and Raihan was throwing things around and being a pest. Suddenly, one of the things he threw, hit you in the back. You turned around in anger with your fist formed to hit him, but the minute you saw his face, your anger melted away and your lips curled up into the sweetest, the most loving, the most heart-wrenching smile, and the whole room lit up by a heavenly light. That's the effect your sweet, faint smile always had on us. I want you to know that Christina came to see me the other day. I am sure you know that I enjoy her visits. She will always be welcome at our place till the end of time. Rob and a few other friends of yours stop over every now and then. Imad took your car at my request and got that EPA test done. Your car started with just one turn of the key, which everybody thought was a miracle. I can go on and on and on telling you how you are still living in our midst. We feel blessed. May God keep your memory alive in our hearts. Ameen Lots and lots of love and blessings, Mom Name: amy E-Mail: huma1984@hotmail.com AIM: ...................... 10:21:23 11/25/04 Comments: Dear Bij, Hi!!!! i just wanted to say u are Always In My Prayers... Love u always Name: karen schuit E-Mail: deaddoors20@aol.com AIM: 12:32:23 11/18/04 Comments: hey Bij~ This is still very hard for me to come on here and look at your picture and know that i will never see your face again. I know that we will meet later in heaven. I drove past your house a couple weeks ago and i remembered the last time i was over there and it was after our graduation. I had such a good time and i thank you for invititing me because that was the best time i ever had with you. I wish there was a way to turn back time so i could talk to you again. Well Bijan, I love you and you will always be in my prayers. Rest In Peace Bij! Love always Name: Cristina Rivera E-Mail: AIM: help! 02:51:59 11/10/04 Comments: Please, Please get rid of my bad dreams! Wish me sweet dreams and i love you's like you use too. I know i haven't been around to visit you, but you know why i just hope that the bad dreams aren't my punishment. I love you so much, and miss you now more then ever.
Name: Angela E-Mail: AIM: 20:26:30 11/06/04 Comments: People make up what they do not know. Bij i knew you were a good person. I miss ya big guy ;) Name: ..... E-Mail: AIM: 13:14:25 10/29/04 Comments: Isnt it cruel that people say he OD of cocaine when he died suddenly of a brain problem?? allah yirhamo Name: asayeed E-Mail: AIM: 08:37:14 10/21/04 Comments: My Dearest Bij, I saw you last night dancing away in a beautiful field, laughing as a light breeze ruffled your hair. May Allah (SWT) continue to shower you with His love, His blessings. Ameen Name: t E-Mail: starshineon@aol.com AIM: 00:59:56 10/20/04 Comments: A gentle image on Ruh (spirit).. I find it comforting... Ka’ab Ibn Malik related that the Messenger of Allah (sallallahu alaihi wa-sallam) said: “The Believer’s soul is a bird...of brilliant greens... which feeds upon the fruits of the trees of Paradise, until Allah returns it to its body on the Day he is Resurrected.” Name: asayeed E-Mail: AIM: 16:32:44 10/11/04 Comments: Dearest Precious Bij, Your family refers to you as Bijou. You truly are the most precious gem. Missing you with every waking moment. Dreaming of your lovely laugh everynight. Name: Nadine Fabio E-Mail: aliozimports@yahoo.com AIM: To weep and rejoyce with your family 17:06:58 09/27/04 Comments: To Bijan We looked up your site again after many months, to remember you. We never met you of course, but we met your family early in 2004. Their generosity and kindness overwhelmed us. We visited your grave where you rest, and the love and good energy we felt both there and in your home was like a soothing balm to us, because we were in Chicago for another tragic reason. We thought, that if a family such as yours could be so kind to us, so soon after their loss of you, then they are people to prize and to emulate. The apple does not fall far from the tree, so we know, you must have been a most excellent son, and this is evident in the tributes we read on this site. As parents, we cannot imagine the depths of sorrow your parents have suffered. As siblings, we too have lost a brother, so we hope we know in some measure how your younger brother has endured. You and your parents have inspired Nadine to study the Quran, using the beautiful edition your parents presented us with. This then is your gift to us, that we weep with your family, but we also rejoyce and celebrate your dear life, as short as it was here on this earth. The gift also is the example of your family which has inspired us to know the beautiful truths in the Quran. Yes, your life was short, but sweet and endearing, and bright and beautiful. We are glad to have heard about you. Rest well Bijan, we pray that Allah and his Angels keep you until we all meet some day where the pain we have all suffered individually will have disapated into rejoycing at being together again, with each other and with God. Your friends in memory Nadine and Fabio Name: amy E-Mail: AIM: 22:45:02 09/11/04 Comments: Dear Bijan, All i can say is "I MISS U". Sept.5th.....just by hearing the date gives me(and everyone) a heart ache.......just imagine our day. Please give all of us strength to go on.....specially your Mom and Dad and Raihan.Our lives can never be the same without you.I know that all of us will meet again and be ....HAPPY.... again. I WILL LOVE YOU ALWAYS...... love Name: :'( E-Mail: AIM: 20:50:05 09/11/04 Comments: luv u, miss u Name: - E-Mail: starsshineon@aol.com AIM: 00:59:29 09/09/04 Comments: I don't know how this world works, but nothing is louder to heaven's ears than a mother's sorrow -- surely one day it will all be ok and make sense... surely, i pray... He will ease your pain. I close my eyes and dream of a moment when all of Suffering ends One day perhaps time will slip away and spill into the ocean, One day. I have faith in this much. love to all Name: * E-Mail: AIM: 02:41:46 09/07/04 Comments: Bij, I miss you so much and cannot believe that it has already been a year. A part of me still does not accept the fact that your gone. There is not a day that passes in which i forget about you. In a way, you are still here to me. Please watch over our family and help us stay strong. Name: Shaheen Sayeed/Mom E-Mail: AIM: 16:26:34 09/06/04 Comments: My loving son, Bijan: September 5th, 2004, marked the first-anniversary of the tragic day we lost you. Each and every moment of that fateful day , since the moment you woke up and came down to meet us, the moment Raihan and I found you in bed not breathing, the nerve shattering moment the doctors at the trauma center told us they could not save you, all of it flashed before my eyes like it all happened yesterday. The deep-seated pain caused by this irreparable loss lingers on and corrodes the heart, though, thankfully, beautiful memories of you seem to sustain us. The website created in honor of your memory continues to be inundated with glowing tributes to you from family and friends. These messages unfurl an insight into that part of your integral being which radiated so much love, happiness and goodness. They tell of the wonderful person you were - acutely sensitive, generous to a fault, and so keenly empathetic. They speak too of you being such a true and devoted friend. Reading the website truly causes this heart of mine to swell with maternal pride. I want you to know that some of your true friends and cousins still come over and still cry for you. Your room has been still left quite the way you had it and so is your car . Perhaps, folk around us must think how strangely maudlin we are, but we feel a special nearness to you this way. With time, one might think that a quiet acceptance of your passing away might have set in, but it has not. Your father and your brother, Raihan, and I remain continually engulfed by an abiding and deep sense of sadness. When such sadness and desolation pervades us, it is precisely at these moments we draw strength from the myriad of memories you left behind. One memory I fondly recall , and will always cherish, is of you, at the tiny age of five years, inviting your entire kindergarten class over to our house, unbeknownst to us, your parents! It was a strong indication that even at such a tender age you seemed to possess that sense of wanting to share your hospitality and that need to make others happy. I still remember how you sat on your Pee Wee Yamaha motorcyle, kick started it, and took off in the fields, and how the entire KG class ran after you laughing and screaming with excitement. My son, if success is to be measured by good deeds and good influence, then you precious Bijan, top that list of young and vibrant people who have left their imprint on this transitory world. My dearest son, we prayed extra fervently for you on Sept 5th that you may possess the bliss and peace, which only Allah the most Merciful and Beneficient can bestow. In fact, a very saintly and religous Imam prayed for you. He asked the gathering of 500 people to join in the prayer. Know that your father, Raihan and I love you with all our hearts and miss you sorely. Nothing in this vast world of ours could ever fill the great void created in our lives when you left us. Stay secure in the arms of Allah until we are all reunited again. Your loving Mom, Name: * E-Mail: AIM: 11:55:03 09/05/04 Comments: Bijan, I cant believe its been a year since you left us. It seems like just yesterday that I found out. Ill never forget you or how perfect you and Cristina were together. Continue to watch over everyone and know that we still love you and miss you very much. Name: Ahmed Bhai E-Mail: AIM: 09:53:06 09/05/04 Comments: always thinking of you, gentle Bijan..... can't believe it's been a year since you left us. I see you everywhere and that smile of yours.......ohhh that beautiful smile of yours...... Peace be upon you and your friends/family. much love, your Ahmed Bhai Name: ange E-Mail: AIM: 23:06:59 09/04/04 Comments: one year bijan. i havent forgotten you. you were amazing Name: Shaheeen Sayeed/Mom E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: To tell you how much we love you 21:05:58 09/04/04 Comments: Dearest Bijju, That's how we always addressed you. I know you didn't like us calling you that, but, like the sweet person you were, you never complained. A whole year has gone by like the twinkling of an eye. Our whole life is swathed in your memories. All of us miss you terribly. Sometimes the pain is excruciating, other times, we just console ourselves. Love you, Your loving Mom Name: Karen Schuit E-Mail: kschult@student.jjc.edu AIM: 11:35:53 09/02/04 Comments: Hey Bij, WOW i cant believe that one year today i saw you for the last time. It is still really wierd that you are gone. I started school again it is going ok. I am coming to see you in 4 days. I still cant believe it. Love ya Bij RIP Name: asayeed E-Mail: AIM: 21:45:32 08/29/04 Comments: My dearest Beautiful baby Brother I sit here everyday. My heart weeping. Some days you'll see my tears. Others, only I can hear the deafening sounds of my breaking heart. It will be one year in a few days. But you are everywhere I go. In everything I see. For all the prayers I say for you everyday, I know you've said even more for me... Thank you Name: you know who E-Mail: AIM: 19:28:08 08/27/04 Comments: bijan i cant belive i sit hear on this godfor saken web site agian. i have know you for so long we have shaerd alot times. i cant really tell you how i feel. i just want to say sorry to your family. I know you got my back i will always have yours i just cant belive it buddy. Name: Shaheen Sayeed/ Mom E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: Thoughts on your birthday 14:32:44 08/24/04 Comments: Dearest Bij, We would have been lighting 19 candles on your Birthday cake on August 5th, 2004; instead, we were at the cemetery placing flowers on your grave, saying the fateha, and reading the verses from Sura Yaseen. The pain of that moment was unbearable. Dad, Raihan, Ammu, Phuppuma, all prayed alongside with me. And we know that your other cousins, near and far, your friends, your co-workers, your aunts and uncles, both here and afar, remembered you with overwhelming love and deep emotion. We pray that Allah shower you with His infinite Mercy. We love you, Bij. We can't help loving you. Your memories now light up our world. Your loving mom, Name: cousin tamima E-Mail: starsshineon@aol.com AIM: 00:35:58 08/14/04 Comments: Dearest, Precious Bijan, You never knew me because I was not in a good place for many years and never knew much of my family, but as I trace my fingers through the ocean of cards and tender tokens of great memories that made you who you were or attempt to sketch your lovely baby smile to capture ur essence, I am overwhelmed with tears. It is almost a year now... Although I have felt far too much pain in this world, I could not bare losing someone I loved, let alone my son or my brother...your parents and brother are remarkable people and so very inspiring. I deeply regret having never met you and I know we would have gotten along coz of our love of Music and Blue hair alone :-) , but I have the utmost faith that our Maker is very loving and merciful and I will get to meet you. inshallah. It isn't easy all the time to hang on to faith, but is the best comfort. I discovered that the name Bijan means "hero" in Persian and indeed you were this to those who loved you.... We pray for you and your family with every namaz. You were an exceptional person who still impacts so many, even those who never met you. This is a peculiar medium, a website, but who knows? Perhaps you can hear our hearts speak... their anguish and love afterall. God bless, Name: Adam E-Mail: sharpskinred@msn.com AIM: skunkleaf77 01:17:23 08/06/04 Comments: bij: you were my boy, i met ya in junior high an we both had a rough time with all the boring junior high nonsense. But you loved life kid, you touched more lives than anyone ive ever met. And i guess, in that respect, you'll always be with all of us. Its your birthday...it seems like we were just partying for your last one, all our friends gathered around. Its rough man, you left us too soon, but we'll always remember the best of times, how you made us laugh and smile. Everytime i pick up my guitar, everytime i hear nirvana, i think of you bro. I know yer out there somewhere, rockin with the best. You lived fast, died way too young, but you'll always be with us, your friends and family. You were the best friend a guy could ask for bro, and we miss ya terribly. Name: you know E-Mail: AIM: 18:34:28 08/05/04 Comments: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I HOPE YOUR HAVIN A GREAT ONE!! Name: AMY E-Mail: huma1984@hotmail.com AIM: miss u alot!!!!! 11:23:07 08/05/04 Comments: My Dear Bij, I don't know what m i suppose to say, it just soo hard still....i mean it just seems...... not so long ago on ur 18th birthday when we talked n u were so happy n teased me (as usuall),Who could have imagined this would happen to u n all of us.Well may be u were needed more in heaven .I Guess u are happy up there with amma n abba. U Will Always be close to me in my heart..... n thanx for showing me the way(u know what i mean) MiSs U aLoT!!!!! lots of love Name: Ahmed Bhai E-Mail: Turbodrvn@aol.com AIM: Turbodrvn 02:21:33 08/05/04 Comments: always thinking of you, gentle Bijan. Especially on this day of Aug. 5th. You were and still are such a strong part of our lives and family. I remember meeting a bunch of your friends for your Birthday party last year and how we talked about cars; the joy that overcame you when you started talking about cars.....that sweet smile of yours......I truly miss you, little brother. I'm really having a tough time coping with this right now; I see you everywhere I go and that sweet smile of yours. My thoughts and prayers are always with you. Please rest in peace, Bijan. Forever your brother, Ahmed Bhai. Name: Nick Simanis E-Mail: XsykoX@sbcglobal.net AIM: 02:23:53 07/27/04 Comments: On september 5th, myself and severl other close friends of Bij will be at the cemetary as long as possible, we should all get together and share stories. Name: Lindsay E-Mail: AIM: 15:33:12 07/24/04 Comments: Hey Bijan.... I went and visited you a couple days ago....We left you a flower. I miss you!!!! I hope everything is good for you up there!!!! Miss you much- Lindsay Name: ....................... E-Mail: AIM: 23:34:53 07/17/04 Comments: Dear bijan, miss u soo much......... Name: ... E-Mail: AIM: 08:40:15 06/27/04 Comments: Bij hasn't even been gone a whole year yet... Name: you know me E-Mail: AIM: 04:05:32 06/27/04 Comments: This past years been ruff without you man. I think you've been up there quiding us, helping us, and providing us with some fun. Ive stopped by a few times and chilled. We drove to St. Louie for a Kings show, and the whole time leading up, and while there i was thinkin, Damn Bij woulda totally been down for this and he'd be here standing next to me. I got jumped at the sox's game not to long ago bro, I hope you were up there helpin me out a little. Well im gonna go, ill be visiting soon. Goodbye, and ill see you soon Name: Krystina Lewis E-Mail: AIM: klouie218 15:13:04 06/10/04 Comments: Hey Bijan - I just wanted to stop and drop you a quick line to let you knw that I've been thinking of you lately! It's so sad to come to your site and read what your family and friends have written for you. You were an amazing person, I have so many fun memories of you in so many of my classes from grade school through high school. Along with the memories of your little brother reminding me so much of you when i used to coach him for basketball....It's so sad that you had to go, but at least there's a comfort feeling of you watching down on everyone from heaven above. I hope you and Eric and hangin out up there, and I hope your having the time of your life, cause i know you both truely deserve it! I think about you all the time, and wish things could have been different for you, and this tragedy wouldn't have occured. But it has, and I just want to let you know that you are truely missed by everyone here. It's so crazy to have everyone here at home from college, I just wish you could have gotten to experience what I did during my first year of school. I send my condolences to you family and the rest of your friends. I love you, and miss you - hope you flying high above, free as a bird, watching over everyone!! Take care, I'll write you soon again! xoxox -Krystina Name: always remembering you..........xxxx (your Ahmed Bhai) E-Mail: TURBODRVN@AOL.COM AIM: TURBODRVN 19:55:04 05/29/04 Comments: Auntie Shaheen said it in perfect words, little gentle Bijan. This message board has truly shown us how much of an impact you made upon all of our lives.......something we've always known about you is your kind heart and genuinity and that beautiful smile...........god, that beautiful smile... I've been watching over this message board from the day I found out about it which was a week after you passed away, little Bijan. I posted maybe half a dozen times but I always left it short and simple; as I mentioned on this message board on 9/10/03 (a week after you passed away): Comments: xxxx and on 02:41:42 09/12/03: Comments: Peace be with you and everyone..... xxxx I've visited you & Grandma several times and spoken to you both; you always give me peace, Bij. And now your other Grandma from your mom's side has recenlty passed and unfortunately I was unable to attend due to personal problems; so please give your mom strength and watch over her. Your Dad, Mom and Raihan truly miss you, Bij. As do my Mother, Sister and I. They say time heals, yet for some reason, it seems to be taking a long time to cope with this. Yet when I think of you, I always remember your beautiful smile and the way you called me "Bhai" or "Bhaiya"......it always warmed my heart when you said that, little Bij. I was blessed with the fact that for some reason, you and I saw each other quite a few times before God took you away from us on September 5, 2003. Your Birthday party with all your friends, our spontaneous lunch and the night before when we visited your house. Peace be upon you and your friends and family, my little gentle Bijan. Much love.... Forever your eldest brother/cousin, Ahmed "Bhai" Name: Rehana E-Mail: AIM: 11:36:45 05/19/04 Comments: Dear Shaheen...I find myself visiting this site quite often too..and for one who was a stranger to bijan, I'm getting to know the sweet, funny, lovable boy that your son was and how easily he won the hearts of all who came in contact with him.We want you to know that bijan is always in our prayrs ..we read the siparas you dedicated to his memory, so everytime amma or i read them, the prayer is for bijan too. It is believed that children who are called by God before thier parents , specially those children who die young.. make the path to heaven for thier parents .There's the promise of a reunion and in that you must take solace.. Bijan, there's a smiling photograph of you on the wall of the living room in your nani's house..thats how we remeber you little bijan May allah's eternal light shine on you forever RIP bijan Name: Angela E-Mail: angelie_381@hotmail.com AIM: 00:07:22 05/18/04 Comments: I just want to say thank YOU to Bijan's mother and father for raising such a GREAT son! Bijan was amazing. He made me laugh SO hard! So thanks to YOU guys also! Jiban man (hehe I am still the ONLY one who called you that and I always will!) You were amazing. Honest to God. We had the BEST time in gym class making fun of Mr. Deyoung! I will never forget when we played Tennis and I threw my racket and he wrote me up. You told me I was crazy. You were SO right dude haha. I always got the same wave from you in the halls at good ol Lincoln way second period. We were so nutty in class together Jibs. I really really miss not seeing you around with Cristina. Gosh you guys were funny!!!!!!!!!! She's so beautiful too. I saw her the other day and she looks great. You know that though.She looks like she is doing a lot better now. Continue to watch over the ones you love Jibon. Your doing a great job. And I don't know if I ever thanked you for the dream I had about a week after you died. It as awesome, thank you. Me and Cristina both believed it and I relayed the message :) I love you and miss you :( and don't worry we're tryin our best to keep our heads up here alright? Angela Name: Shaheen Sayeed E-Mail: asayeed@aol.com AIM: 11:04:17 05/17/04 Comments: Bijan, my darling Son: The months have silently marched by since you left us so suddenly and swiftly and, yet, it is so difficult to come to terms with your death. Could this be because you are still so alive in our hearts and minds? I would like you to know that we have retained your room, together with all your belongings, just the way you left them, as they seem to speak to us of the happy times we shared with you. Your books,clothes, guitar, your p.c. , your music system , cd’s and even your car have all been kept. In moments of solitude, my mind is pervaded with a million memories, of you my beloved son: o Memories of me cradling you in my arms. The sheer joy you brought Dad and me ever since you were a little baby. o Memories of how we watched the trepidation with which you took your first few steps as a toddler. o Memories of how you were transformed into a little boy and of you doing the things that little boys do – landing into scrapes, playing pranks, laughing, crying, loving and being lovable. o Memories of your first day at school, how timid you were that day. o Memories of you, our little boy, stepping into your teens – doing the things that teenagers always do – tearing off in your car, perhaps at times causing us a heartache or two (but that was all in the day’s game). o Memories of you playing the role of the protective big brother, to our Rehan, at times mischievously taunting and teasing him, but above all sharing your love and time with him. o Memories of the all the talents you displayed – whether it was music or sports. o Memories of my driving you back and forth for all the sports and league games and the fear of you getting injured playing football. o Memories of your magnetic and charming personality that drew so many faithful friends to you. o Memories of how proudly I watched you, my handsome and good-looking son become the cynosure of many a feminine eye! It was Christine that ultimately captured your heart. o Memories of you being on the verge of manhood, grooming yourself to face the Big World, because you wanted to follow in the footsteps of your father. Bijan – when your father and I are consumed with loneliness and pain at the thought of your death, we surf the website, "QuitetheKing.com" created by your friends – a myriad of them - and derive so much comfort and solace from their messages to you and about you. Your father and I thought we knew you well, when you were with us, but now – through these messages – we know you even better. There are so many wonderful things you did and said – of which we knew nothing – but the website messages of your friends stand in solid testimony to these. Thank you, my darling son for all that you did for your friends. You cause us to beam with pride. To your friends, Bijan, your Dad, Rehan, and I have this to say: A great big "THANK YOU" for sharing your time and friendship with our son. Thank you too for continuing to remember him and acknowledging his goodness, even after he has gone. We would also like to express our gratitude to our relatives (Amy, for one is so heart-broken and bereft) for having loved you so deeply and for all their expressions of love and comfort. You truly did reach out to so many in such a short time. Bijan, there is a hackneyed cliché that says: It is better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all. How true! We believe that God loaned you to us for 18 years, and one month. He had the prerogative to take you at will. I am more than grateful that we were able to love you, with all our hearts, and be loved by you for all those 18 years. Yet, being human, and a mother at that, how I wish we could have had you with us longer. We humans do not understand the Heart and Will of God, but now being with Him you will be able to do so. There is an old Eskimo Legend that says: "Perhaps they are not the stars, but rather openings in heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy." If this is true, my beloved Bijan, each time, I feel desolate, I will gaze at the stars, feel the warmth of your love and know that you are truly happy. We yearn to be with you, my son – but when that will be, we do not know – so until that time rest peacefully and happily with Allah. With love, Your broken hearted Mom & Dad Name: always remembering you............xxxx E-Mail: AIM: 20:08:12 05/07/04 Comments: it's been eight months since you've left us, Bijan. miss you like you won't believe, especially your smile. I hope people learned from your kindness and whole heartedness. miss you, gentle Bijan. xxxx Name: Lindsay E-Mail: AIM: 23:04:22 04/26/04 Comments: Bijan, I don't think there is a day that goes by that I don't think of everyone that has died young. I hope you guys have all formed a little group up there together. I wonder if it was scary!? I wish there was some way to tell me. I'm scared...I wonder if you were. Probably not, you are a strong minded guy! I am so worried for Christina, we weren't the best of friends, but I think I have a very big heart...and I feel sorrow and pain for everyone! Christina...Keep Strong...Bijan would want you to be happy!!! Miss you!!! Name: always remembering you............xxxx E-Mail: AIM: 22:42:15 04/20/04 Comments: Miss you gentle Bijan..........truly miss you... I see you everywhere, as if you are still around; your smile, your love......your gentle good heart. rest in peace.....
Name: Ange E-Mail: AIM: stuplified381 02:57:43 03/31/04 Comments: This world we live in is so small Bij. My cousin brought his girlfriend over to my grandma's on sunday and she told me she knew you. She said "yea he lived in a huge house right?" She lives in homewood. It is ironic to find ppl who know you. I enjoy talking about you sweetheart. May angels lead you in. Name: Jessica Simmons E-Mail: AIM: 21:35:32 03/30/04 Comments: Hey neighbor! I know we didn't really talk much before senior year. We started hanging out at keating's after school and then started talking. I remember when you first moved in I was so excited because I would finally have a neighbor with kids and I heard you were my age..then I found out you were a boy, and what good was that? haha Im just kidding. I was always a little intimidated by you because you lived in that big house and I just didn't know you. Well, thank God I got to know you before you passed because I can say that you were one of the kindest, funniest, and easiest to talk to people I have met, and I regret not trying to be friends with you when you first moved in. I would always see you and Christina together in the halls and your gus drivin down our street. Christina- I have known Bijan since he moved into that house and I have never seen him happier than when he was with you. I remember going to his house when he had a couple people over and the first thing he said was, "C'mon, I want you to meet my girlfriend." even before a "hello." I just wanted to say how deeply sorry I am to the Sayeed family and especially Raihan- Bijan is always with you - you only lost his body, his spirit will be with you forever. I always come on to you and Eric's sites-and I probably always will. You and your family and friends will always be in my prayers. Through your friends, you will live on. Rest in Peace Bijan. Name: ~ E-Mail: AIM: 01:11:02 03/24/04 Comments: May God keep your family and friends in his prayers, and give you eternal happiness in heaven. Rest in Peace. Name: tabby E-Mail: AIM: 23:32:28 03/17/04 Comments: hey bij, happy st. paddy's day. i had a shot for you buddy, never tasted better in my life. take care man. peace. Name: Nusrat N. Deen E-Mail: nusrat@batuta.org AIM: 02:39:43 03/16/04 Comments: Hey Bijan, I just met you only a couple of times and I have gotten to know your parents just in the past few years it. It was a shock when I found out about you and it still is and every moment I think of you I say a prayer for you and patience for your parents. Your parents are one of the finest individuals I have met and Alhamdulillah they are doing such wonderful things for you. May ALLAH SWT open the window of Jannah for you and grant you ever lasting peace and comfort. Ameen. Love, Name: tabby E-Mail: AIM: ilidmifacoff 22:24:00 03/11/04 Comments: hey bij, it's become an addiction of mine to stop by every once in a while to say hi and check in and let you know how life's going. you need to keep working on that whole me and him thing, he stopped talking to me so much!!! well, i've been keeping tabs on the posts, and i just want to give you props for still keeping christina in good spirits. my heart goes out to her every day and i just want her to be happy. i know you do to. christina,
Name: tabby E-Mail: AIM: ilidmifacoff 22:23:08 03/11/04 Comments: hey bij, it's become an addiction of mine to stop by every once in a while to say hi and check in and let you know how life's going. you need to keep working on that whole me and him thing, he stopped talking to me so much!!! well, i've been keeping tabs on the posts, and i just want to give you props for still keeping christina in good spirits. my heart goes out to her every day and i just want her to be happy. i know you do to. christina,
Name: SOMEONE WHO CARES E-Mail: AIM: 04:04:17 03/06/04 Comments: I've been reading all the messages on this site and am touched by the depth of feeling all of Bijan's friends have for him, and really amazed at the honesty with which these kids bare their hearts...the gap a loved one leaves on passing can never be filled , thats true. and bijan's family and his friends will always feel the vaccuum... but life must go on...love and laughter must be welcomed again to wipe away painful memories and leave only those in our hearts that bring us happiness.Christina its natural for you to move from mourning and grief to acceptence and the best way to make Bijan feel happy is to be happy too nevermind what anyone says... go ahead and fulfil your aspirations.. let love and laughter enter your life ... thats the best wayto honour the memory of our loved ones... to live on for them , not mourn forever for them. everyone who visits this site is with bijan's parents and family and friends in praying for him.Rest in peace Bijan Name: not important E-Mail: AIM: 00:54:38 03/05/04 Comments: Bijan died suddenly...a brain problem...May he rest in peace...Bij...take care of Pat...show him the grounds. Name: just wondering E-Mail: AIM: 00:52:18 03/05/04 Comments: i found this website after searching the web and i was wondering how bijan passed? Name: Cristina Rivera E-Mail: AIM: 12:43:17 03/02/04 Comments: Hi baby! i just wanted to say hi and let you know how things are. I'm back in school and finally going for esthtics like i always wanted. I'm doing really in school, and work is fun. Could you even imagine how hard this is for me? I was so use to getting up everyday for you, and now everyday i have to force myself to get out of bed. I think to myself that although you aren't here, I'm still getting up for you because if you were here you would'nt want me to give up.There are also days when i just want to give up on everything, but rememer we had that talk about if either of us would die that we would want each other to go on with life and not be sad, well i think about that talk everyday. Although it hard to try to be happy, i smile because of you. I feel guilty when i smile or if i get a little happy because all i hear for people is "if my boyfriend died i would never be able to smile or be happy" I hate that shit because they don't know the half of it! I have to struggle to be happy everyday, and i know you see when i'm not happy, and i know it hurts you so i try to make the best of the little bit of hope that i have. Baby, i just wish people would understand, but i know it doesn't work that way. I miss you so much! I wish that you were here to help through my hard days and when things just aren't working out for me. I know that if you could be here things would be so much better, I'm missing my other half, and it hard to go on without it. I forgot to mention to you that i got that puppy that we had talked, remember it was gonna be given to my family and I. She's a really sweet dog, she help me get up too, but i have no choice with that one cuz i don't want her to pee in my bed. Well no matter what i do or where i'm at,i'm always missing you. I love you, and it's never gonna go away, stay in my dream! P.S. Remember you use to always tell me goodnight and sweetdreams, well now i only have those when you are in my dreams! Name: always remembering you...........xxxx E-Mail: AIM: 01:42:58 03/01/04 Comments: always thinking of you and your kind heart, my gentle Bijan. always rememembering you........ Much love, xxxxx Name: tabby E-Mail: ilidmifacoff@aol.com AIM: ilidmifacoff 10:40:24 02/26/04 Comments: hey bij, hows it goin? much time has passed since that day i found out, but you're still in my thoughts and my prayers. i've been talking to you-know-who alot lately, i figure you have something to do with this. bij, you're relentless even from heaven. in all seriousness though, it's so great to finally have him smiling and laughing, he had me worried lately. keep up the good job buddy, i've been resting easy knowing you're watching over us. much love, p.s. dude bij, remember how you decorated my vans for me during music tech??? i still wear them everyday, i just can't throw them away. they're totally skanky and falling apart too man, but it's like having a piece of you with me always. Name: Nick E-Mail: AIM: 01:56:19 02/24/04 Comments: I reealized this is the best form of communication for us, so I'm going to be tearing it up on here, like in the stang Bij. I know you've been looking down upon me and a lot of others. Theres times where I've felt that if it weren't for you, and the strength I aquired from knowing you, things would have turned out not so good in certain situations. Theres definately a lot friends and associates of yours that can using a helping hand. I've been trying, you just need to give that push. Burns should be coming on here, he didn't know it exisited, you know Burns. Stop by Bij and say whats up. We'll go back on some memories and do what we do best, at least what I do best and you try! You're great Bij, stay up and hold a spot on your block for me. You'll be seeing me around. Peace Name: Zareena Khader E-Mail: zareena@hotmail.com AIM: 15:40:43 02/23/04 Comments: Bijan, I just lost my sister Zunaira a month ago to a horrible car crash. She was killed instantly as a car was speeding 75MPH. IT is very hard for our family as it is for yours. Your father gave me a lot of courage when this happened, he was someone who gave me comfort. My parents had attended your funeral not too long ago and were saddenend. We pray for you regulary and hope you and my sister will be waiting for us in heaven. Love, Zareena Name: Nick E-Mail: AIM: 17:02:20 02/22/04 Comments: A lot of things lately have been reminding me of you Bij, thanks for letting me have that at least. Name: ....... E-Mail: amy100@email.com AIM: 10:57:01 02/14/04 Comments: hey bijan miss u alot....!!! u are always in my prayers... love Name: Karen Schuit E-Mail: Imthe10192@aol.com AIM: 23:59:25 02/12/04 Comments: Hey Bij~ I just wanted to come on here and tell you that even though its been five months since you left us, i still love you and miss you. I wish there was some way to get youbak so that all of these great people could be ther for you and help you. There isnt a day that goes by that i dont think about you and the fun we had. All those memories will be with me untill i see you again. You changed my life in a big way. You always told me not to do anything that i thought would hurt me and even though some people ask me to do bad things i still keep my promise to you. Thats all i am going to say for now i hope you are looking down on me and everyone else and making sure that they dont do anything dumb. Love ya Always, Peace Name: FABIO NADINE BARCARICCHIO E-Mail: farwanst@austarnet.com.au AIM: 13:34:31 01/26/04 Comments: Bijan We never knew you, but heard about your passing from your Dad when we visited Chicago this January 2004. It seems as if we do know you though, because your Dad and Mom are so proud of you and the kind of person you were. It seems as if you are around, but we just havent been able to meet you yet. We saw your car, and its in pristine condition. Its good to know that there are beautiful people like you who brightened up this earth for a short while, and better still to know that you are watching over us . There is much love in your home, and your family are the most incredible people we have met. We now have friends here in Chicago for ever. Our love is sent to you, and we will remember you in our prayers every day. Fabio & Nadine Name: jeff E-Mail: jeffc@aol.com AIM: 22:00:20 01/19/04 Comments: Bijan, We miss you terribly and pray for your lovely family who you left behind and the many freinds who miss you and your warm friendship. May God give your soul peace Name: Nikki Goes E-Mail: there_she_goes17@yahoo.com AIM: 13:39:32 01/11/04 Comments: Wow! Where should I begin! I cant believe how long ago u pasted and I just found out now! I will never forget when u came over and parked ur MERCEDES in the middle of my driveway and my mom couldn't get in the driveway b/c the MERCEDES was in the way! lol Even tho you were a very quite kid in class you always seemed to talk to me. Maybe it is b/c i always gave u a pencil when u needed it or maybe because we were friends. Senior year english first semester was a lot of fun even tho i did most of the work it really never mattered cuz you somehow always made me laugh. We will always have Morgan Park Academy similarities. It is too bad that we didn't get to hang out that last time. I told u one day you would regret it. That one day came too soon and way to harsh. The day i found out i went home and told my mother what happened and she started to cry for you. Telling her all the memories I had of you i started to become upset b/c there were not enough. You were a great person and u will forever be in the memories of the people who loved you most... in effect you will never die. You probably considered me a smart person but you taught me things that many others couldn't have. Thank you for everything Bijan!! You were a great friend and person. You cared about the people close to you and helped them anyway you could. I will never forget you and I will talk to you often. I hope that your family and friends know how great of a person you were and how even the most unexpected peoples hearts you touched forever. Cristina If you see this I want you to know that things will get better. As long as you keep him close to you you haven't lost him at all and I am sure that he is waiting for you patiently! He always talked about how much he loved you and how he couldn't wait till you were just his. He is looking over you and will forever. I wish that this never had to happen to such a good person like you but you will survive. I hope your life is well and please e mail me and let me know how u are doing!! To the family you raised a great kid. Everyone will miss him greatly and keep him in their hearts and memories forever! WIth all my love, Nikki Goes Name: rehana E-Mail: AIM: 04:47:44 12/24/03 Comments: bijan's motherand uncle and me and my brothers and sister grew up together in a small coal mining town in bihar india... we were like one family. I first saw bijan when he was a toddler on a visit to his grandmother in lucknow. He didnt know a word of urdu and i distinctly remeber him as a sweet chubby cheeked little boy running after his cousins ruhina and amy as they chattered in urdu yelling"me too. me too" as if that included him in everything they said or did..all this while we laughed at his actics. In the years to come i met him matbe twice. i know he liked oranges and once I helped him with his assignment on macbeth..my mother has a photograph pf him and rehan when bijan was a preteen... then suddenly the shocking tragic news of his passing away. the worst thing about a brain aneurysm is that it hardly ever shows any prior symptoms and strikes viciously and lethally. Its a terrible blow to all who knew and loved this wonderful child... his parents, his family and all of his friends.. his parent's friends.. all of us who in some way or another are linked with him.. To shaheen and asif bhai and rehan i just want to say.. he's just gone to God and God is always near you. To his friends i want to say..whenever you think of him remember the way you made him happy with your friendship rest in peace little bijan Name: Karen Schuit E-Mail: Imthe10192@aol.com AIM: 22:00:31 12/16/03 Comments: Hey Bijan~ I still cant believe you are gone. Sorry its been so long. I remember those times last year when i would see you everyday and you would somehow make a retarded remark to make me laugh. Sometimes i even feel like i can call your house and you will be there. But then i realize that it is only a dream. I also remember the times when you would drive me home junior year because my car died. Thank you so much. I am going to your grave soon because, somehow when i am there i still fell your prescence. I saw cristina a couple weeks ago, she looked better. I also saw the wedding ring. I know you loved her so much and she loves you to but some how you are still with all of these people on this websight and beyond. Thanks for visiting me in my dreams. That really helped me to carry on. Bij, since the day we met you have always been there for me and i love you for that. i wish there was someway u could be back for all of us. But i guess you are in a better place. I hope to somehow someday meet up with you in heaven. I love ya Bij P~E~A~C~E LOVE KAREN RIP Name: aamir E-Mail: amirpharm1@hotmail.com AIM: miss u 08:23:59 12/16/03 Comments: miss u alot huma Name: huma E-Mail: amy100@email.com AIM: i miss u 08:04:40 12/16/03 Comments: hey! well its the that time of the year when we all usually see each other...but this year there'll b ur mom ,ray but not u...i know we will not be seeing each other.....this year or any other..year ...but hey i do meet u in my dreams........i know where ever u are u are happy....i miss u !!! love u always amy Name: safia faseehuddin E-Mail: AIM: 23:33:53 12/15/03 Comments: hey Bij...i just wanted to say thanks for answering my question. love you lots... not a day goes by... Name: lunchbox E-Mail: AIM: 18:30:49 12/15/03 Comments: man, you know its still not set in like something thats happened a couple months ago. i'm home right now after a semester of college and its hitting me really hard... its like i'm seeing all these friends from back home and you should be one of them, but you're not. i just dont know man, its like we should be hangin out and talkin about cars, cruisin around and everything like we used to. its hard just thinking about it enough to type out this message, i'll meet up with you someday man. *never forget* --RIP Bijan-- Name: Jenny GRaham E-Mail: AIM: JennyJ829 15:20:49 12/15/03 Comments: Bijan, When I first heard about what happened I was in Colorado for volleyball, yea volleyball haha you would always joke about that w/ me. I couldnt believe what i have heard! I started to cry, because our senior year we really got to know each other in our business class. That class was so much fun! It really does suck that we have lost another friend! I cant even imagine what your family is going throught and Christina. I guess I never really knew Christina, but all I can remember is how much you talked about her. She was one of the only things you talked about! u loved her soo much, and I know she knows that! But it was always so cute to hear about u two. Well Bijan I will miss you, and im going to see mrs. deady on thursday....bring back some memories of class haha! HOpe everything is goin good for you up there! take care of your family! Love~Jenny Graham Name: Someone who cares E-Mail: AIM: 12:49:30 12/09/03 Comments: Bijan... I miss you, what more can I say, and just knowing what Christina is going through is so hard to think about...I am so deeply in love with someone right now, and I watch both of our lives almost being taken away. It was the scariest thing I have ever encountered in my life. I know what Christina is going through, and I want her to know that my prayers are with her. Much Love!!! Name: Debbie E-Mail: angelwings90@msn.com AIM: 12:40:40 12/06/03 Comments: Hi Bijan! Even though it's been about three months now since you've left us, I still look up at the clock around 2:15 and wait for you to come thru the front door to begin work. Your smile made the rest of the day alot brighter and I sure do miss that, but I know that heaven is just that much brighter to have your smile. I really miss you Bij! I remember all those stories that we would sit and talk about, it was like yesterday. You will remain a part of my heart forever, and you will never be forgotten. Today, for the holidays, I'm placing a wreath at your grave just to remind you that I'm thinking about you, you were like a son to me and I don't know if you even realized that. I pray all the time for your happiness in heaven and for healing for your friends and family. RIP BIJ Name: Angela Turano E-Mail: AIM: 18:56:43 12/02/03 Comments: Hey JIBAN. I have not written on here in about a month or so. Sometimes I catch myself waiting by the window at work when I see an order for 20 nuggets w/BBQ and a large fry. I miss not being able to see you and Cristina there and havin our little chats. I went and saw my boyfriend over break. As you saw, we did not shoot any animals off the porch. You were so funny Bij. Wow I really cannot believe you are gone!!! I will never forget Junior year when I met you in gym class. We were always partners or on the same team and had a blast telling deyoung off together. And Senior year, every single day after 2nd hour I would go to gym and you would be coming out and we would always see eachother in the band hallway and give eachother the SAME wave. Everyday...same look...same wave...and I would always walk away with a smile on my face b/c your wave always brightened my day just for a moment. You were in inspiration. Your love for/with Cristina was overwhelming. You guys truely were the best couple I have ever seen! And so funny too. I would see you guys fighting before 3rd hour in the hall.She would be yellin you would be rollin ur eyes and I would just smile. Then 4th hour see you guys making out in a corner haha! And the day you guys started going out you came up to me and said "that's my girlfriend" and pointed her out. You were SO happy. You deserved every ounce of happiness you recieved. May God keep you now and I hope you are happy with your wings :) I love you Jibon (hehe) always. Love, Name: Cristina Rivera E-Mail: AIM: 14:59:58 12/02/03 Comments: To Mr. and Mrs. Sayeed You two were truely that best parents. Don't you ever think for a second that you didn't try hard enough or that you ever did anything wrong. Bijan adored you so much ever time he would talk about you two you could see the love for you in his face and in his eyes. He would always say that if anything bad a happened to either of you he wouldn't know what to do. Asif, Bijan admired you so much and he hoped that one day he could be just like you, so you could be proud that he was your son. He knew that you loved him and he loved you, although you two didn't spend much time together. Shaheen, when Bijan apolgized to you in all those ocassions it wasn't because i told him to it was because i made him relize how great of a mother you truly are. He acted ungreatful most of the time, but like most teens we would trade our parents in for new ones, but not Bijan he wouldn't want any other because he knew deep inside that he was so lucky to have a mother and father like you. Don't forget that he loved you two with all he had, and he is always with you. To Raiahn: Thank you so much for everything that you have done for me! Name: HUMA E-Mail: huma1984@hotmail.com AIM: Eid Mubarakh 01:09:34 11/27/03 Comments: Dear bij, eid mubarakh!!!! miss u lots love amy Name: always remembering you...........xxxx E-Mail: AIM: 00:06:22 11/25/03 Comments: always remembering your smile, your love, your good heart... Miss you like you won't believe. Peace, my gentle Bijan.......peace........ Name: kkkkk E-Mail: AIM: 16:22:42 11/18/03 Comments: i love you Name: raihan sayeed E-Mail: AIM: 16:20:21 11/18/03 Comments: yo bij i hope you can here me. Well evrything is going well for everyone. how is it going with you. i saw you in my dream and it told me you reached heaven safely. i miss you alot it feels like its only been 1 day i still cant believe it. i wondered what it felt like to lose your life adn did you know this was going to happen some how. Well i can tell you something that god wanted you and soon enough we all will be there with you. Here are some memories. I remember you never wanted to leave are house in homewood. in fact i remember when you told me when i was 15 you would take me out to different places. you would help me with my car. i wondered what oy uwould have said if you lived thru this brain anurism and hwat you would think if you where still here . so manythings are going on. i kno wyou can here me. we would always go to india and have so much fun. one thing should know from me is always remember god. so i cant wait till isee you in heaven. now about the day you left us heres the beginning me and mom came home i whent upstairs to find you and the minute i walked in i knew you were gone but mom and dad believed that you would recover but i knew yo u were gone its like god told me. i am missing half of my heart from all of this. if you can come to me in a dream and tell me how you are doing. something else is i wanted you to see my kids and live with me through my life. if yo ucome to me in a dream tall me what it was like to go back to god. well i half to go i always loved you and i still will and love you raihan Name: Mike E-Mail: AIM: 19:05:58 11/17/03 Comments: Bijan I miss you man. i remember it like yesterday at your birthday party. we didnt have the chance to hang out much but we had some classes together. brinley is really missing you. i dont know what to do to help him out. please look out for him when i cant. i will never forget Mike Name: RAIAHN SAYEED E-Mail: AIM: RAIHANMPA 18:08:01 11/17/03 Comments: WE ALL NEW WHO YOU WERE AND SO DID I. I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY BUT SO LITTLE TIME. WHAT I KNOW IS WE HAD ARE OWN LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP, LIKE HOW WE TALKED AGOUT THIGS THAT YOU NEVER WANTED ME TO TELL ANYONE EVEN ARE PARENTS. AND AFTER YOU DIED I STILL DID NOT TELL ANYONE. IVE LEARNED SO MUCH FROM THIS. I WILL ALWAYS MISS SYOU S MCH ......... ILL TALK TO YOU LATER Name: Tony E-Mail: AIM: 23:36:21 11/15/03 Comments: Sorry man you passed a month after your b-day i dunno what i was saying im so sorry. Forgive me? peace Name: Tony E-Mail: injenracer@comcast.net AIM: osirisridr99 23:35:06 11/15/03 Comments: hey Bijan, I know its only been like 3 hours since i wrote you,but dude i can't get over your passing.It reallys sucks you died on your birthday and the day before mine.I was so sad when i heard abotu your death. I'm gonna come try to visit your grave soon.I miss you so much.You have a good time up there for us that knew you and for those that didn't. You were and still are a great guy.I'll be next to you in heaven one day i promis you Bij! RIP buddy!I'm not gonna forget you.I''ll write you again soon. See you in a bit, Tony Name: Tony E-Mail: injenracer@comcast.net AIM: osirisridr99 21:27:45 11/15/03 Comments: hey, i know its a little late to be writing, but im leaving a message anyway. Bijan i wanna know what happened man. you were a really nice guy.and i still remember the day my brother gave you that dragon tattoo. dude im gonna miss you. you have a good time in heaven. we will all miss you and i know i never really got to really know you but from all i knew of you, you were really cool and i just wanted to know that im gonna miss you man. Joe's bro, Name: joe smith E-Mail: AIM: 16:56:21 11/10/03 Comments: Bijan man, what the fuck happened? i know this is kind of late for me to be writing on here. i should have been one of the first people to have put something on here.i didnt believe it when christina called me at 1:30 am to tell me the night that u had pasted. i jsut didnt want to. i had just saw u and just a fews days before we were talking about your tattoos and stuff. i did my best with trying to get as many of our friends to come see u. i even got archibald out to see u man. it was a little late and he wasnt there to see u face to face that one last time to say good-bye, but he was there that night and the following morning we went back to your grave and he said his good-byes along with all of us onece more. we all left guitar picks on your grave in rememberance of the days a few summers ago when we would all get together in your garage and play guitar and shit together. and now that i am tlaking about it, a fews days after u left us, i was looking at my wall where all my guitars are hanging and noticed that i have one that i gotten from you. and since then i think i have only played it maybe once or twice. i dont let anyone touched it, not even samantha! when u come to my mind, i throw in a nirvana cd and i play...in rememberance of u, and because that is what we use to all play together. i cant believe u are gone man...none of us can. u were too cool a guy to be taken away form all of us. GOD was wrong for what he did. but i guess there is nothing any one of us can really do to change the past. and like they say, things happen for a reason. maybe this happened because u were destined to be in heaven looking over the rest of us to make sure our lives are better off. but i guess that is just my way of trying ot make myself feel better about this situation. im not sure if many other guys will atmit to this, but i balled my eyes out after i got off the phone with christina and jen that night bijan. i layed there and thought about it for a minute and the tears jsut wouldnt stop coming out. and then at your funeral it was so hard not to just shed one little tear. but i stayed strong because i know u wouldnt have wanted everyone acting sad. i know u would have wanted us to be there for one another, strong, and as a whole. and that is what we are all doing. i will be giving u a visit soon and i can get u causghtup on everything that is happened ok. i know ull be listening to what ill be saying. MAN! it has only been just a few days over two months, and it still hasnt set in that u are gone. i hope to see u one day Bijan. until then, i guess we will just be having our one-sided conversations. that is good enough for me. i love you bijan. -P E A C E- with love and respect, joe smith Name: Ange E-Mail: AIM: 23:21:51 11/06/03 Comments: I will never forget the last time I saw you alive. I will never forget the last things we talked about. I will never forget the last look you gave me I will never forget the last wave and the last goodbye and I will never forget the way you looked in that casket the day after your death. But most of all I will never forget one memory I have with you. You were unique and I miss everything about you man! RIP bro till I see you again! Name: someone who cares E-Mail: AIM: 20:20:17 11/06/03 Comments: Things like this is not supposed to happen. Bad things always happen to good people. First Eric then Robert then Bijan. I didnt really know Bijan but i was in a few of his classes throughtout the years and i just want to say sorry to everyone he was close with. Im sorry for his family and friends and poor Christina who had to lose her love. I couldnt even imagine losing my love. You are a strong person Christina. Have fun up there bijan with everyone else that we lost throughtout the years. look down on the people that are lost without u. they are waiting for u to tell them that its ok...that your in a happy place. Name: rohina E-Mail: getintouch72@go.com AIM: 19:56:12 11/03/03 Comments: hey bijan there are somes lines for u if tears could build a stair way and memories were a lane we would walk right upto heaven& bring u back againyou were gone before we could know what was the hurry Name: Jeff E-Mail: AIM: 17:35:55 11/03/03 Comments: Hey man, I remember back in jr high when we were best friends and I would come over and we would run around your house or go do something crazy...it was always a great time. You were always there to make me laugh or just to talk to. Then high school came and we lost touch of each other, but I will always remember you man. Jeff Name: Tina E-Mail: magicninjet17@aol.com AIM: 14:35:41 11/01/03 Comments: Hey Bijan, how are you doin? god i miss you so much. i seen christina tha other day driven down tha street and she looked all lonley, i still cant believe your gone. i know i havent wrote to u in a while. but i just wanted to stop by and say hello and i hope you wings fit comfortably. you always and forever in mah prayers. i love ya and miss ya. oh and patti and tric say hello and they miss you to death!!! love Name: Rose E-Mail: wildrose5786@hotmail.com AIM: wildrose5786 18:28:31 10/29/03 Comments: hey bij...sorry i haven't written for a while. i been keepin busy. i wuz listenin to this one guns n roses song called Patience & Don't Cry and i just like started bawling. it reminded me of you. i hope you are lookin down on brinley...i haven't been able to even hang out w/ the kid for like months. and when he is home he doesn't call me. so i don't know what's going on with that kid. i think he's trying to keep busy. i know he misses you like hell still. we all do. i still think i see you all the time. i was at the mall the other day and i hit my friend who i was with and i was like HEY THERES BIJAN! and she's like ... uhh rose .. and i just was like "oh yea" and i just kept looking cause he totally looked like you. & now i like ALWAYS see ur mustang!!! well not YOUR mustang but you know wat i mean. well yeah so ive applied to western and isu and lewis and moraine valley! :-D hopefully i get into western. that'd be awesome. i wanna be a police officer...well kinda. i wanna be a canine unit officer type dealio. crazy! :-D well bij, i need to go to sleep! :( i'm tired and i need to print out my essay for ISU. ill write again soon. til then...take care and watch down on us all..make sure we're not doing stupid ass stuff! love ya man! YOU'LL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN BIJAN! Name: Jess M. E-Mail: AIM: HuNnIeBuNnIe7601 21:05:43 10/27/03 Comments: Bijan-we didn't talk that much, we did once in a while but I figured I'd just stop by and tell you and ur friends and family that I am very sorry that this had to happen to you. You seemed like a really great guy. I know Brinley, and geeze, he missed you a LOT. And you kno how he is, he doesn't show his emotions a lot, but trust me-he is gettin lost without ya. He misses you like crazy. I saw Christina at JcPenny's the other day-we didn't really talk. We said Hi to each other and that's about it. I hope she is doin okay-or at least better. I wasn't sure what exactly to say to her because I didn't know how she was dealin with everything right now. So keep watchin over all of your loved ones, they all need you right now. TO all of Bijan's friends and family (Christina included in that): My prayers are with you guys. I know this is hard-and it may not get easier at first, but he's up there watchin over you all and makin sure you are all doing alright. R.I.P. Bijan. We'll miss ya. Name: Jess M. E-Mail: AIM: 21:05:26 10/27/03 Comments: Bijan-we didn't talk that much, we did once in a while but I figured I'd just stop by and tell you and ur friends and family that I am very sorry that this had to happen to you. You seemed like a really great guy. I know Brinley, and geeze, he missed you a LOT. And you kno how he is, he doesn't show his emotions a lot, but trust me-he is gettin lost without ya. He misses you like crazy. I saw Christina at JcPenny's the other day-we didn't really talk. We said Hi to each other and that's about it. I hope she is doin okay-or at least better. I wasn't sure what exactly to say to her because I didn't know how she was dealin with everything right now. So keep watchin over all of your loved ones, they all need you right now. TO all of Bijan's friends and family (Christina included in that): My prayers are with you guys. I know this is hard-and it may not get easier at first, but he's up there watchin over you all and makin sure you are all doing alright. R.I.P. Bijan. We'll miss ya. Name: Cristina Rivera E-Mail: AIM: destinysluv23 20:56:49 10/27/03 Comments: To the love of my life Why did you have to leave me? I need so badly my heart hurts for you everyday. remember when we would talk til 2 in the moring about how we were gonna get married? Your dad got me the ring. I kept my promise and got the tatoo, you knew the i would keep my promise. Please come to my in a dream and let me know that you are ok and that you miss me just as much as i miss you. Im trying my best to take care of everyone else like you parents but at the same time i'm falling apart. Sometimes i hope that God would take me away from this place so i can see you and be with you. I know that's not what you want for me, but i just want to hear you say that i don't need to cry because "your right here" remember when you would tell me that when i cried? Thank you to everyones beautiful comments to me. Bijan, no matter what happens in my life your always gonna be first best in my heart and no one will ever compair to the amount of love i have for you. I love you always til one day i will be with you and i can see the smile that wipes my tears away. Please don't forget me!! Name: huma E-Mail: amy100@email.com AIM: to bijan 08:10:45 10/27/03 Comments: Dear Bijan ramdaan mubarak, may u find a place in heaven.....remem 2-3 yrs ago when u were here during ramdaan we had soo much fun.......i know those days can never cum back ....i miss u my little cousin... lots of luv Name: ------ E-Mail: AIM: i miss u big guy 08:51:04 10/26/03 Comments: hey bijan , i really miss u !!! everyday is very hard...but i m trying ...plzzzzzz give me strength love u Name: x E-Mail: AIM: x 16:47:41 10/22/03 Comments: Pater noster, qui es in caelis, sanctificetur nomen tuum. Adveniat regnum tuum. Fiat voluntas tua, sicut in caelo et in terra. Panem nostrum quotidianum da nobis hodie, et dimitte nobis debita nostra sicut et nos dimittimus debitoribus nostris. Et ne nos inducas in tentationem, sed libera nos a malo. Amen. Name: Jess E-Mail: AIM: 13:31:29 10/21/03 Comments: Bijan~ Hey hun. Sorry its been a while, things have just been kinda crazy lately. I know we were never really that close, but we became sumwhat good friends senior year, & i find myself thinking about u a lot. A couple weeks ago we were out in Oak Forest hangin out with this guy gary n he brought up ur name. I was completely shocked, but i guess he knew u from barry cuz thats his cousin. We talked bout u a lil bit. It was nice, kinda made things seem a lil better. I saw Cristina last week too. She looks good, but i know shes still hurting a lot. I have 2 get goin now. I just wanted 2 drop by and say hi real quick. Til next time... ~Jess Name: always remembering you .........xxxx E-Mail: AIM: 21:12:08 10/20/03 Comments: I'm always thinking of you, Bijan. Miss you much and I'm always thinking of your awesome smile. You were so genuine and so real. God, I really miss you. Peace. xxxx Name: traci E-Mail: AIM: lil stumpy420 22:40:41 10/19/03 Comments: hey bij...wud up man? i miss you so much. sorry i havent writen in awhile.. i wish you were still here. you were such a bad ass person. i think about you everyday..tom can talk about you with a smile on his face..but i know it still kills him inside, hes betta tho..im glad..well i just wanted to say wuts up..ill see you soon...rip bij....love you and miss you! peace out homie love always and foreva and eva, traci Name: To an angel E-Mail: AIM: 19:04:28 10/16/03 Comments: Bijan I miss you very much and wish that I could see you one last time...one last laugh...one last look at your smile. I miss you so very much. Name: Jason Meyer E-Mail: AIM: 08:23:52 10/14/03 Comments: Bijan- Hey Man, i never really knew you personally, but i still knew who you were. EVERYBODY knew who you were. you made everybody soo happy when they were around you. Like i said before, i never knew you that well, but you dont have to kno sumone personally to send regards, so bijan, i hope you live a great and safe life up there. do me a favor and watch over all of us down here, we all miss you man. Jason Meyer Name: Jason Meyer E-Mail: AIM: 08:23:49 10/14/03 Comments: Bijan- Hey Man, i never really knew you personally, but i still knew who you were. EVERYBODY knew who you were. you made everybody soo happy when they were around you. Like i said before, i never knew you that well, but you dont have to kno sumone personally to send regards, so bijan, i hope you live a great and safe life up there. do me a favor and watch over all of us down here, we all miss you man. Jason Meyer Name: A friend E-Mail: AIM: Bijan, your memories live on 11:10:00 10/10/03 Comments: " We can't know why the lily has so brief a time to bloom in the warmth of sunlight's kiss upon its face Before it folds its fragrance in and bids the world But we can know that nothing that is loved is ever lost, Name: .... E-Mail: AIM: 06:32:58 10/10/03 Comments: ....d.a.r.e...... Name: blah blah E-Mail: AIM: 09:59:08 10/09/03 Comments: 2 young 2 soon!! No one on this website deserved to die. I think they are all titled to respect also. So here we go: RIP Bijan Name: Angela E-Mail: AIM: 08:47:19 10/09/03 Comments: Hey Jiban wut's going on. I miss you like crazy. What I wouldn't give to have u make fun of me one last time haha...or roll up to mc D's and order 20 nuggets and a large fry...extra BBQ ;) I saw Cristina the other day. She is looking better. A lot better. Although I know she is still hurting. The whole time we talked about you. You know that tho...you were there. I remember everytime I went to the mall I would see you guys hehe. She would always be askin u to buy her something and you'd roll your eyes and buy it hehe....she was tellin me about that too. The necklace is awesome! It is so cute I love it....you are still with her in more then one way. Her tatoo is awesome too. Man Bij I never told ya but you were seriously a great guy. You listened a lot when I had to talk. You always made me laugh and I guess sometimes I returned the favor. One time that sticks out is when we were playing tennis and Mr. Deyoung yelled at me because I missed the ball and yelled SHIT .....then I got mad at him for yelling at me and I threw my racket down and it bent haha. You were laughin at me. We both had our moments where we got super pissed off. Bij when i saw you layin there at your wake I swear it wasn't you. The whole time I had to cover my mouth b/c I felt like I was going to get sick. And your brother....your poor brother. Just standing over your casket, not even moving. The vision will stay in my mind forever but so will your memory. I miss you man. Meet me at the gates when i get there. Love, Name: Chuck Anderson E-Mail: nopattern@nopattern.com AIM: iescapeforyou 00:26:12 10/05/03 Comments: it is so upsetting to find out about someone so young being taken and so frustrating....i just want to offer my sympathy and prayers and hope to close friends and family. take care Name: traci E-Mail: AIM: lil stumpy420 00:31:48 10/02/03 Comments: hey bij!! i miss you man.. i think about you all tha time. you will never be forgoten..i will always remember how wonderful you were. you were such an awesome person. i wish you were wif us still. i miss you so much. i cant believe this happened to you. you were such a sweet kind loving person. ill never forget you man. well i just wanted to stop by and see how everything was. i havent written on here in awhile. ill write more soon. see you soon man. i love and miss you. peace RIP bijan sayeed... i love ya man love always and foreva, lil stumpy...traci mccarthy Name: mehnoor E-Mail: AIM: 14:22:15 10/01/03 Comments: Dear Bijan I never got to know you but we have talked.... That very first time, I knew, that you are a great guy. I do know you through Amy. She really misses you and I still cant get over the morning when I got the message........ I know you know, but I will say it nonetheless..... U WERE AND WILL ALWAYS REMAIN IN OUR HEARTS. Love you meh Name: amy E-Mail: amy100@email.com AIM: To BIJAN 23:38:22 09/29/03 Comments: Hey !!!!! i really don't know what 2 write as i m still in a shock....That early sat morn (it was friday evening in chicago) when your mom called me in india and told me that she just returned from the hosp... how she and raihan found u not breathing....and how everyone tried really hard to get u back.....i thought i was still sleeping and having a bad dream...But it was for real ...while listening to your mom i felt as if my heart is being squeezed hardly....How can u out of every one else??? why you???why us??? few days afteryou passed away i would wake up in the middle of the night trying to figure out whether it's for real or was i having a bad dream But unfortunately it was very real.......why??? i could never have imagined in my life that you would leave before me my own cousin.....well u know i could never called u just a cousin....u were my kid brother who always acted like my big brother,you were my best friend,my support, my guide,my student and my teacher..... i rem few years we were having this conversation about this unfortunate event of sept11and you asked me,"amy what would you have done if died " and i told u to shut up coz i could not imagine u not being there. There was a time when you said well it was actually a challenge....that you'll get married before me, have kids before me and probably die before me....well you could have atleast fulfilled the first two.... you, rohina and i practically grew up together.We were a gang. Almost very winter, you would visit us in india, for me winter meant seeing u again....i remem when we were kids .... we use to sleep together with your mom.....and there was this particular time when both of us woke...and your mom wasn't around...you took this huge bag of m$m's out and we had the whole bag and when your mom came to know she was angry and scared us that we may loose our teeth.....I still have pic's of us riding that donkey when we were abt 5-6...Man did we gave that donkey a hard time or what...all three of us at the same time on that donkey....and remem we actually forced him to eat carrots.....we opened its mouth and pushed the carrot in and from that time the donkey didn't come near our house in lucknow. I know u just loved playing cricket...remem we had this cricket gang tooo it included sameer, ibbu ,chintu,ali, pavan and us...you invented this new type of cricket which was a mixture of baseball and cricket.....i remem we kept telling u the rules and u kept mixing the 2 games...hey U never would let us bat even if u got out.....U were soo crazy about cricket...that we played it during freezing cold nights...remem 2-3 yrs back one night when your mom and my parents were not home in lucknow and u wanted to play cricket....it was i think 11pm and the moment we saw your mom's car all of us ran inside to bed pretending we were sleeping.I clearly remem the time when we were abt 5-6 and these 3 monkeys came to our house in lucknow and you petted the baby monkey ...and i was scared, you tried your best in making me pet it but i was sooo scared that i wouln't even come near it.....and remem how its mother was angry when she saw u near her baby....to calm her u gave her a banana.When we were kids remem how we use celebrate our birthdays everyday with those pasteries (and candles n all) that abba use to get for us.... Remem how we use to climb mango trees in satrikh....when we were kids...we use to try to reach the highest ...i remem one time u reached this really high branch and i told u i was scared that you might fall and you did all those stunts up there to scare me more.How can ever forget that new dance you did that same day when those people in satrikh added red pepper to your noodles instead of just boiling it..I'll miss the arguments we use to have we just needed a topic to start....and this habit didn't go even when we grew older.....ohh we argued about things like who'll sit on front seat of the car or guy's being more smarter than girls........which i still don't agree on...or who cooks better scramble eggs....it'll never ever be the same without you.We always ended up in trouble when we were kids..remem the time when u were having this fight with pavan and i not being able to see anyone hurt my kid brother poured this really cold water on him and i remem it was really cold that night and pavan didn't have a second shirt well we were grounded offcourse.....and remem the time when three of us destroyed somethings that belonged to these labours working on a house under construction...we threw their stuff in the pool and with bricks etc that was needed to build that house....we were trying to make out what could produce a bigger splash and our parents were really angry at us and asusuall we were grounded and we made these Sorrycards for them.....it worked didn't it. There was this time when we had to go for dinner somewhere and they had this dog who chased both of us out of the building.....we ran screamindown the stairs...that was really funny .The fun we had in shimla and kufri can never be forgotten the way your horse ran with you on it and your first experience on an indian train...the horse races we had remem.....how we nearly finished the hotels sugar cubes that we took to feed the horses.Every year i would find a more taller and bigger bijan...i remem when we were kids we use to have this argument as to who's more taller...i can't forget the yr when u actually got taller than me...and how u teased me.This added to your advantage in winning al those physical fights we had...hey we were good at it..and i know u never grew out of it remem 2-3 yrs back...well when i saw u u were this really diff bijan and i thought that u would have grown out of it...but noooo, it doesn't matter how old u and i were we really enjoyed those physical fights...well i would call it games now.How can i ever forget playing mercy with u or arm wrestling and thumbwrestling......it was painful but fun....i remem one time while playing mercy i acted as if i really got hurt and somehow u knew i was acting and said,"DON'T WORRY U'LL SURVIVE". i remem the yr i came to chicago and we fought like cats and dogs, no matter how much we told each other that we won't talk to one another after few minutes we were back to normal....we could never stay without talking to each other.As we grew older we became good friends ...u were this person wth whom i could discuss anything without any hesitation.You were there for me when i ws having up's n downs in my life....there was this time u came to know somehow that something was wrong and i didn't tell u about it well remem how u forced it out of me well u always had 2 ways either take it out by physical force or threaten not to talk to me ever and i had to tell u...There was this time when i made this big mistake and according to u it was the biggest and u made me realise how i have hurt some one's feelings(you know)and you did show me a way to settle things...for me u always had this elder brother attitude which i really loved u for....remem the time u taught me al those self defense moves ...knowing that u always can't be around for me .....thats is if i ever get into any situation. Remem the night of new years eve when both of us climbed this really tall tower in lucknow( it was abt 2-3am) and it was very windy and iwas feeling really cold up there so u took ur jacket off and gave me even though you yourself were cold ....... i'llreally miss those conversations we had which sometimes took whole nights and still wouldn't end....i remem once we were discussing marriage and you talked about getting me married off to a punjabi guy to annoy me Man we could talk about just anything...once u actually said you'll get a butcher as my groom.....well i was annoyed and u enjoyed it. i remem once we were discussing the names for my kids and you came up with names like Ullo ka patta or saalaa. Remem how we talked about me getting admission in a college down south in USA and how every weekend you would visit me with your friends...and we would have a blast.Do u remem the time when we made those prank calls in lucknow we just chose any no. from the directory and u n raihan would start singing Dum maro Dum or aaja meri gaadi mein bait ja when someone answered . i clearly rem the night when rohina,raihan u and i played truth n dare .....u use to give such nasty dares...i can't forget mine and coz of ur such good dare giving ability i stopped chosing dare ...LOL . hey man how can i forget when i made braids wth your hair and once you made my hair teaching me diff styles......i'l miss each n everything I am sorry i couldn't visit u in chicago again and everytime you came ,you wanted us to visit....and last year in december you threaten not to talk to me ever again if i didn't make it to your graduation...well just imagine we had the tickets and everything but couldn't make it coz of amma's condition.....then u wanted me to visit in december.....but u left us in sept only....i m sorry ... i know i can never share the bond we had with anyone...there were times you claimed you know me inside out and i always denied it the truth is u did.You knew a part of me that no one else knew.You'll always be there in my heart and my prayers... we are only left with your memories...life can never be same without you.....it hurts really badly...eventhough i have to put this brave face for the family but u know inside i am crushed ..........well i know i can meet you anytime i want to...in my dreams....well i have one thing left to say........Hey! Man stay in touch, don't get sooo busy in those heavenly pleasures that u can't make it to my dreams........ you know i had this vision of you and abba playing cricket up there....hey man this time let others bat pllllzzzzzz I WILL LOVE ALWAYS my little cousin amy or in ur words saaaalliiiiii Name: Karen Schuit Michelle Hajek E-Mail: Imthe10192@aol.com AIM: 12:32:39 09/29/03 Comments: Hey Bijan~ This is still really weird that you are gone. We found out the night you died and we were both in a weird state of shock. It didn't really hit us untill we stood by your grave with Andy. We have so many great memories of you and they will always be in our hearts. Remember the times when you tried to make a bomfire in your backyard with wet stuff and then you put gas on it and then cristina made gyros? Also, remember when you would always tell me that TONY was a stupid ass and to break up with him and i never did? DUH! I really should have. Or when you made fun of karen for her lack of intelligence. New years eve was fun when we all partied at Courtneys'. The first time we really met you was at courtney's chrismas party 2 years ago, you were so quite but obviously you came out of your shell!!! You will definatly be missed but we know you will always be with us and looking out for us. Just make sure when we get up there we PARTY hard!! WE LOVE YA BIJ! R.I.P BIJAN SAYEED Love Karen and Michelle Peace Name: Karen Schuit Michelle Hajek E-Mail: Imthe10192@aol.com AIM: 12:30:59 09/29/03 Comments: Hey Bijan~ This is still really weird that you are gone. We found out the night you died and we were both in a weird state of shock. It didn't really hit us untill we stood by your grave with Andy. We have so many great memories of you and they will always be in our hearts. Remember the times when you tried to make a bomfire in your backyard with wet stuff and then you put gas on it and then cristina made gyros? Also, remember when you would always tell me that TONY was a stupid ass and to break up with him and i never did? DUH! I really should have. Or when you made fun of karen for her lack of intelligence. New years eve was fun when we all partied at Courtneys'. The first time we really met you was at courtney's chrismas party 2 years ago, you were so quite but obviously you came out of your shell!!! You will definatly be missed but we know you will always be with us and looking out for us. Just make sure when we get up there we PARTY hard!! WE LOVE YA BIJ! R.I.P BIJAN SAYEED Love Karen and Michelle Peace Name: Nicole Dye E-Mail: AIM: EmnmzChickLife 19:36:32 09/25/03 Comments: Bijan, i only hung out with you once wheni was going out with Dean Klementzos. You seemed like a really cool kid. Everybody stay strong! RIP BIJAN! you were loved! *~Love Always Nicole~* Name: Heather E-Mail: AIM: 18:59:07 09/25/03 Comments: Hi im so sorry for you loss i never knew you but from what i heard you were a good person deep down inside i lost one of my good friends to 2 days after you died i miss him so much i just want him back so i know how all your friends feel and family so im very soory for your loss and Bijan tell chris Heather says i love you buddy and i miss you Name: Jess E-Mail: AIM: 15:05:21 09/24/03 Comments: Bijan~ Hey hun. I still cant even believe ur gone, its so unreal.It seems like just yesterday we were in Goldie's class goofin around like we always did instead of doin actual work.haha.we had so much fun in that class it was crazy.Sum of the people here suck though man.Theres a few different stories goin around bout why you were taken from us.At the jewel in new lenox, a mom that one of my friends works with was even startin rumors there 2--dont worry though, my girl had ur back. ;) So hows it goin up there?Im sure theyre treatin ya good.U n everyone else r probly havin a blast 2gether, even though we wish all of u could still be here with us.I still havent gotten a chance 2 see or talk 2 cristina yet, but im hopin i will soon.Keep watchin out 4 her n ur family & friends-im sure u will anway.I gotta take off though.Miss you ~Jess Lyons Name: Brian E-Mail: Mettalica48@yahoo.com AIM: Mettalica48 01:20:20 09/22/03 Comments: Bijan man, I still can't beleive your gone. When I found out about this it was like someone had just punched me in the face man, I just couldn't beleive it. I know we havn't really talked in awhile except when I woud see you up at Marcus every now and then but damn, I miss you dude. I'll never forget the Godsmack concert we went to and you never payed me for. You kept tellin me you'd give me the money but you never did, but fuck it. It's too late to worry about stupid shit like that. I'd gladly give up that 35 bucks just to have you back. I remember the time my mom drove us home from school sophmore year and as soon as you got out of the car she looked at me and said "Is that kid's hair blue?" Oh man, your hair looked so cool back then. I'll never forget all chemistry sophmore year with you, ya really helped keep things interesting that year. I gotta go but take care of yourself up there bro. I'll see ya when I get there. Name: always remembering you......xxxx E-Mail: AIM: 15:52:58 09/20/03 Comments: Bijan, Bijan, Bijan. I'm always thinking of you and your genuine smile and generous heart. Everyday I try to get stronger and stronger about you passing away; I'm still coping with this reality. God Bless you and please watch over us. Much love. xxxx Name: tareq E-Mail: Ramallahson85@aol.com AIM: abutareeq 12:59:41 09/19/03 Comments: It was a shoked to me after i heard of it, actually i didnt know him that much but i swear i think hes like my brother, his mothers is my teacher and she's like my mother, so i ask god to put him on heaven and help his parents and friends and his gf christina. Name: Tabby Bukowski E-Mail: lilshady1mi@aol.com AIM: 00:06:50 09/19/03 Comments: Bij, Goddamn man, it's taken me so long to write this. i've sat here many a night and just read everything over and over. how do you put on paper just how awesome of a person you are? i remember that time at your house when it was you, me, christina, and louis (lol), carrying lawn furniture and eating grilled chicken. hehe, we watched "from hell" ? that remains one of the most fun moments of my life. we met in music tech, we became totally close friends, the advice you gave me all of my sophomore year still stays with me. thanx for always giving me advice about tom, although we're still hopeless, i know you're up there trying to play matchmaker. bij, you will always remain one of my dearest friends. you are such an awesome and i hope your up there keeping an eye on everyone. it's given me peace of mind. my little sister was crying when i found out what happened, she says she saw you in her dreams and you're her guardian angel now. i burst out crying when she told me that, but sometimes i feel like ur still around. i know we'll see eachother again, not anytime soon perhaps but you'll always be in my prayers and my heart. christina apologized for stealing you as my prom date , but i don't think i would've wanted things to happen any other way. take care of yourself up there, i'll never forget you. **PEACE** p.s. to his family and christina: Name: Katie Brogan E-Mail: AIM: lbc420geekette86 22:25:27 09/18/03 Comments: Bijan, you are one of the biggest impacts on my life wether you know it or not. Economics class was so great with you there. I wish so much that i could have gotten to know you better outside of school cuz you were such a great person. So funny. i miss you man...i wish we could just go back to Mr. Gabey's Class (i know that class sucked) just so i could talk to you and laugh with you one more time. you were loved more than you will ever know my man....love you, miss you PeAcE and LoVe brogan Name: traci E-Mail: AIM: shortie420bud 03:38:23 09/18/03 Comments: hey bij! i miss you man. i cant believe your gone. its so unreal. think about you all the time. i hope your doin okay up there. everything is goin fo the worst down here. but wuts new? lol I seen Tom today, he seems betta, but you can tell it still hurts him. but i expect that. ya know?! he miss' you too. ALOT im sorry this had to happen to you at such a young age. you didnt deserve it. no one does. but i just wanted to stop by and say wuts up. i miss and love you. RIP bijan! ill neva forget you man. keep up that smiling : ) love you always and foreva, traci mccarthy....lil stumpy Name: christina E-Mail: AIM: 22:40:52 09/16/03 Comments: hey bijan figure id finally tell you goodbye. when i found out what happened it was unbelievable. so many people have been taken from us that i think were all pretty drained. i dunno how much more some of us can take. i remeber in class how you would always make everyone laugh. your many smart ass comments (ahahaha) constant threats to the teacher (ahaha) and how you could make the class light up. remember that one day you were pissin off gabey and told em 'man i wouldnt start your car if i were you'! lol oh my god i still laugh whenever i think about those good times. the day you died i looked back in my yearbook and read over and over what you said..."what up girl? it has been fun talking to you. have fun next year at this school, also have a good summer....BE SAFE, peace bijan sayeed" be safe bijan.... so far ive been safe. but hey ill see soon its like ange said were all gonna miss you. peace n luv Name: Anthony E-Mail: AIM: 19:39:25 09/16/03 Comments: hey bijan wha up nigga i cant believe your gone its sad even tho we werent tha best of frinds it till kinda hits close to home i will always have great memories of you like when we chilled in math class and when you races my buddy paul that was good times i jsut wish i could have said goodbye to you i wast able to make it to your wake or anything but i didnt make it a point to stop by your grave and pay my respects well youll always be in my mind and heart hope your havin fun christina if you ever need me for anything or just anyone to call i will alway be here for you, you know how to get a hlod of me Name: R.I.P E-Mail: AIM: 16:50:08 09/16/03 Comments: Hey Bij, i cant believe your gone. i wasnt best friends with you or anything but i partyed with you quite a few times. I miss ya buddy. . . i cant believe this happened. I just saw you about 3 weeks ago, you looked so happy. . . u were with christina. Well, look our for everybody, we all miss you. . . especially christina and your family, watch out for them the most, they need you bad. Later babe, ill c you soon Name: Angela Turano E-Mail: AIM: 00:14:18 09/16/03 Comments: Jibs man the last time I wrote I didn't really know what to say. I am shaking like crazy writing this so if there are typos bare w/me.The night you died....I can't get it out of my head.Kim says that she was panicing on how to tell me. She said she was rehearsing it but didnt know how to say it. It was the end of a good day....I got a call from Kim....I said hello and she blurted out BIJAN DIED...I almost choked. What do you say when someone calls you at 12:30 am saying that? All I could do was cry. Cry, cry, cry,cry cry. I didn't know how you died but you did. Didn't matter b/c you were gone. All I could think of was Cristina. Poor Cristina. Then she called me. Kim told me she was like "I gotta call Angela I gotta call Angela" she explained it all to me...what she heard had happened and her side and Bijan when she did my heart went from dropping on the floor, to being crushed and stepped on untill it was sunken into the ground. I had just seen you. I just saw you and Cristina at Hot Topic. (You guys gave me the great advice on not buying an air freshner that cost 5 bucks HAHA). I was looking thru my yearbooks the other night and came across things you had written. In my Junior year one you wrote "Hey Angela! sorry someone stole your shit...but don't worry your still a really cool person and i'm glad I really got to know you. You better call me this summer....Jiban" There was more and it didn't go exactly like that but you know...Oh Jibs. I looked at it for so long and almost started to cry...untill I was like...wait? What shit did I lose?? I thought and thought and FINALLY figured out...someone stole ALL of my gym shit outta my locker on the LAST freakin day of school. All my swim stuff, my uniform, my WINNIE THE POOH TOWEL THAT I BOUGHT IN FLORIDA THAT YEAR! EVERYTHING. And I was so mad! I mean what senior wants to buy a brand new gyn uniform, swim suit....geez. Anyway you came up to me and asked what was wrong and I told you and you said these EXACT WORDS... "oh i'm sorry angela...that sucks...here sign my yearbook" hahaha. And I signed it "I cant believe someone stole my shit!" haha. Bijan man watch out for your girl. I wanna help her but I don't know what to say. She knows she can call me anytime she needs anything. She has my #. I love her and I love you. And by the way ,no me and my boyfriend havent shot any squirles off his porch. haha. I have the best pic of you and Cristina at prom. You have the BIGGEST smiles on your faces. I love it! You guys were the perfect models for teenage loves and high school sweethearts. I could have so seen you guys on a talk show..."we met in high school and have been together sonce we were 16" I still remember when you guys stated going out and I would catch you making out behing the wall in the gym hall way. And me and you would always point out eachothers hickies hehe. Oh Bijan things are gonna b so different around here. I don't really think I believe in partying in heaven. I don't know if I even believe in heaven itself. But I do know that if there is one your there w/Robert and the other young ppl we have lost. And I don't believe you are partying but I hope your helping eachother. I sure miss you. See you when I get there. Angela Name: Meghan E-Mail: AIM: 23:01:10 09/15/03 Comments: Bijan- Hey there buddy. I remember the night I heard, I had come home from a party to find out that you were gone. the worst thing is that I found out too late to go to your funural. i would have come home in a second. We had like every science class together for the past 3 years. You were always so much fun to talk to you. And I really wish that I could have gotten to know you better. I remember always seeing you and christina together between classes, i could tell how happy you guys looked. i know ur up there with graf, partying and having a blast...just watch out for christina, she really needs comforting right now. I'll miss you Bijan. RIP Tell Eric hi for me, please. Christina- Name: Emily Pumphrey E-Mail: AIM: emmyp155 21:22:14 09/15/03 Comments: Bijan- I never really knew you that well, you were just always there, living across the golfcourse. I remeber going to jr. high with you, never really talking to, just always knowing who you were and whatnot. You were in my group my sophomore year for homecoming.... I went with Dale, it was fun. I was grounded and couldn't go back and party at you house, but I really wanted to...I really don't have much else to say, I'm just sorry that this had to happen to you cause i know you were greatly loved. RIP BIJAN love forever, Name: Mike Carbine E-Mail: Madlyskild@aol.com AIM: MadlySkild 00:10:09 09/15/03 Comments: Bij, Man i still can't believe you're gone. I'm already missing you badly. I remember all of our good and crazy times. Our trips to Chicago together, all our car trash-talkin - and backing it up, when you were trying to teach me how to play my guitar...you were much better than me to say the least. When i found out about this i really didn't believe it even happened, i denied it to myself. I even called your phone, but kept getting voicemail..inevitably i found out the truth but i found out too late and even though i left as quick as possible i didn't make the funeral. I arrived to just your grave, as i'm sure you know. I hope you were laughing as i left...for my little gift. The three years i have known you have been awesome, i only wish i had known you longer. I'm looking forward to seeing you in heaven so the good times can continue... CHRISTINA FAMILY I have so much to say i don't know where to begin, so i'll call it quits for now. In the words of Bij, Name: Cori E-Mail: AIM: 23:15:04 09/14/03 Comments: WOW! I didn't even know you were gone, I was just checking Graf's page cuz I do on occasion, and I saw a candle for you... I'm sitting here in shock right now. We only had study hall together senior year. But you were hilarious! Me and you and 2 other ppl in our study hall were always gettin in trouble from Mr. Young for talking about "improper topics" :) Wow, it's such a tragedy, you were such a great guy with such a wonderful sense of humor. You will be missed in so many ways. To Bijan's family... my prayers are with you. Love, Cori Name: Shannon H. E-Mail: AIM: xxshaybaybixx 21:00:37 09/14/03 Comments: Wow bijan.. where to start... it seems like yesterday i was just at ur graduation/birthday party with sofia... i knew instantly that you were a great person/friend. i kept beggin you for a tour of your house... n christina finally took me! haha.... n everyone was so amazed with you ferrari..you and christina were talkin about getting married... and just everything seems so unreal. haha ur dad asked me my name and i was like shannon hes like.. its not written on ur forehead... i was so confused but u guys just laughed haha. When i heard the news i thought no.. i just saw him... i called sof crying... but she was still shook up about it.. Bijan.. we will always remember you and you will ALWAYS be in our hearts...rip Christina--->hey babe.. stay strong! I have a pic of me and you sofia.. but its kinda crooked and i have one of u and bijan from the graduation party too if you want them... we are all here for u ! Love ya hun! keep bijans family in your prayers <3-shannon Name: monica E-Mail: AIM: 20:06:44 09/14/03 Comments: Bijan~ Wow man where do i start...we didnt talk to much but i know that you were such an awsome guy! You were in my English class first semester and Carmen was in my Floral Design Class first semester. I got to know u through her i think she always talked about you and how much she loved you and how you guys were going to get married and i just cnat believe this happened. First Eric and now you ... its so hard ... its really wierd cause you guys were both in my english class. Well you were such a sweet guy and i remember seeing you at jjc a couple of time and just saying hi as we passed and went on out way to our class. Man ur going to be missed very much and i hope u are havin a blast up there with gafferz and make sure you watch over everyone that loves you. WE ALL MISS U! Monica Kase RIP Name: Jess Lyons E-Mail: AIM: 15:36:09 09/14/03 Comments: Hey Bij-hows it goin man? Hope theyre treatin ya good up there. Im sure u, barry, graf, and kutz have been partying it up :) haha. Im in Mizzou (university of missouri-columbia) visitin sumone, its aight. I just wanted 2 drop by and say hi b4 we left, let ya know i was thinkin bout ya. Ill write again later when im home and have time. Miss you lots. Bye hun Name: Ash E-Mail: daydreaminfazess@aol.com AIM: 13:24:45 09/14/03 Comments: First I wanna apologize for the message i left the first time..But Bijan man I cant believe ur gone..Everyday i would see u at school and u always had a smile on ur face.Il never forget out talk on the way to the gas station that one day.Bijan U where one of those real cats that u can tell by just lookin at you.Everyone on this board are gonna miss u dog.You have fun up there man I honestly think no one ever had anything bad to say about u bro.You where the man..I will always remeber "the talk" just remember that we are all missin u.Take care and stay up... R.I.P Name: Teddy E-Mail: AIM: 04:01:53 09/14/03 Comments: Bijon ~ Damm Man So Young~ We Sat Next To Each Other 2nd Semester 1st Period Study Hall~ Ha We Couldnt Talk So We Wrote Notes And Stuff~ We Use To Talk About YOur Car AND Petro's ~ Every1 is real sad man~ U will be greatly missed~ Im glad i got 2 know u last year caz u were so funny and always talked about your g/f and showed me when u first got that tattoo o christina with a heart in it~ God Bless You ~ RIP Bijon~ ILL Miss Seein You Cruise in the 3000gt Vr4 ~ Later MAn Name: Safia Faseehuddin E-Mail: afsexysof220@aol.com AIM: afsexysof220 02:42:48 09/14/03 Comments: Bijan~ i can't believe im even doing this.. leaving a message on a memorial site for you...my cousin...no you were so much more than that.. you were my brother. i don't even know where to begin. we grew up together. ever since we were babies, we've been together. i mean theres pictures of us when we were like not even 2 in one of those little blow up swimming pools. i would come over to your house everyday and we'd sit there for hours playing video games.. we'd pretend we were on some kind of adventure and we would climb down the railing of your stairs at your old house.. you would always get in trouble because you would climb over your balcony and jump down onto the sofa below! haha long time ago in your old house's basement there was this vase/lamp looking thing and it was u, me, and amer.. everytime we went down there we could of sworn it moved and we sure that there was a real genie in it haha. we were crazy! Remeber when we went to the zoo and we were feeding the camel hay by the fence and we had to go, but we felt bad because the camel still wanted more.. and we picked up a stick and gave it to him. he just looked at us and ran off to his other camel friends to show them that we fed him a stick. wow everyone else reading this probably doesn't find this the least bit funny but we were laughing soooo hard that day! oh and we can't forget about the annual trips up to Galena. all the cousins would go swimming in that indoor pool and you all would be in the deep end and i wasn't all that great at swimming so i had to be in the shallow end. and i just thought, what the heck..swimming can't be that hard rite? wrong! haha so im making my way to the deep end by all of you and i definitely started sinking! haha yea let's not talk about that one!! oh and your dad would take us all out on the boat to go fishing.. and we would be out there for hours and would come home with like one maybe two itty bitty pan fish, but we'd still be so proud of ourselves. i have pictures of us when we went tubing...that was so much fun. and when we would go in the winter, you would try and teach me to snow board. i never did get the hang of that. oh and that jerk neighbor kept calling the cops on us because we would be too loud riding your motorized mo-ped thing. and we would tell the cops we wouldnt use it again and once they left, we just hopped back on it haha. then we would rent those pontoon/paddle boat things where we would sit in them and peddle like its a bike to make it move and we peddled all the way out and we got really far and were too tired to peddle back. and we were like omg what do we do?! haha we used to go trick or treating too. but we were real lazy and would use roller blades!! when we were 9, we took tae-kwon-do classes together by our old houses. i never made it past the white belt though because i was too scared to break the wooden board haha. and then some little kid like 4 maybe 5 years old did it and i felt so dumb haha. every year for your birthday, the whole family would go to six flags. i was devastated of roller coasters so i pretty much wasted money on all those rigged games. and when you were at culver camp, my mom and i would come with your parents and lil brother to visit you every weekend. we'd go outside and feed the ducks. our moms would always get mad because we would feed the ducks all the bread and then there wouldn't be enough to make toast the next morning for breakfast haha. oh remember when the stray cat came up to our condo and you told me not to touch it but i went over to pet it anyways. sure enough, the damn thing bit me and i had to go to the doctor for a rabies shot when we got home. i should've listened to you! oh and we went to florida for christmas break back in like J-high. it was my first time on a plane and we took your dad's private jet and you kept scaring me saying that the little planes were the worst!! then the plane started shaking from turbulence and i really started to get scared and you were trying to get me to calm down. haha. when we landed of course it was like 90 degrees out and we were bundled up for chicago weather and we were roasting! we rented that house and it was perfect.. the beach was right in our backyard. we even built little sand castles that i have pictures of. oh and out front were HUGE palm trees with coconuts and we were determined to knock one down. we climbed on top of the rental car and had this pole trying to break one off the tree. our moms came outside and were like what are you doing?! and we told them we wanted a coconut and they just laughed and started to help us haha.they were using the pole to try and knock one off and we were gonna try and catch it. yea, we never did get one though. haha then, we went to busch gardens for a day. that trip was so much fun. you were always watching out for me too.. after you had your mustang and i told you i was going to get one, you warned me that it would be terrible in snow. and what happened, i had to go out and get a second car to drive during the winters.. haha you were right. again, i should've listened to you. you really were my big brother looking out for me. if you ever saw me upset, you would come to me and try to fix everything. even when it was something silly... like i think junior year it was, i was crying in school over some boy and you marched straight up to him and forced him to appologize to me! and at school dances, as soon as you saw me and my date, you would run up to us and you would start to interrogate my date with all kinds of questions haha. and if you ever had a problem, you would always call me. im so glad that we had that bond where we trusted each other and could come to one another with anything. o man bij, all these memories keep coming to me...even little things like i remember you had dinosaur place mats on your kitchen table in your old house. this is all so unreal. i cant believe you're really gone. i know that it hasn't really hit me yet, and i'm so scared for when it does. things are never going to be the same and there's nothing i can do about it. you always came to me with any problem you had, expecting me to help, but there's nothing i can do to fix things as they are now. it just makes me feel so helpless and lost. but i know that you aren't really gone and you'll always be with me. i have my own little guardian angel in a way. and that's such a great feeling to have. and for everything that we've been through in the past and everything that you've done for me, i'd just like to thank you with all my heart. i love you bij. ~Safia Name: Martin Hawrysko E-Mail: AIM: IronRysk 00:41:04 09/14/03 Comments: I'm sorry to hear about this. Bijan was in my Radio and Television class junior year with Mrs. Deady. I never got to know him really, but I remember him very well from class. I think it's a damn shame something this terrible had to happen. RIP Bijan. Sincerely, Martin Hawrysko Name: noone E-Mail: AIM: 00:33:49 09/14/03 Comments: Hey I think you visited me in my dream the other night. Well if you really were and it wasn't just me having a wack dream...I will relay the message to cristina next time I see her. Thanks Bijan. Name: Shannon E-Mail: AIM: 12:42:33 09/13/03 Comments: Hey Bijan--Even though we only hung out a couple of times I'm good friends w/ a lot of your close friends and after all the stories that have been told in this past week it made me feel like i know you 10 times better.. Everyone misses you so much.. but one thing I do know is that you have been an inspiration to a lot of people.. You got Eric Robert n Kutz up there with you so we know your not alone.. R.I.P. Bijan Name: robeto E-Mail: beto_jara86@yahoo.com AIM: 21:42:42 09/12/03 Comments: sup bijan i come to pay my respects. it was nice knowing u. you and me and cristina would always talk and laugh. you will be missed. rest in peace. Name: Tara E-Mail: AIM: 16:32:18 09/12/03 Comments: Hey bijan i am sorry this happened to u. We never really hung out i just knew u through cristina. Watch ova her she is really heart broken. You meant the world o her and remember that. We all love and miss u remember that. LOVE TARA Name: Mark E-Mail: AIM: 15:29:53 09/12/03 Comments: Hey buddy, Sorry i couldnt make it to your wake, I'm gonna miss you man. You were a great friend. Man am I going to miss you, when you, Cristina, Cassie, Michelle, and I all hung out. Those were some fun times. Especially that one time when we were at your house and you swung off your rope and into the pool and i tried to swing off of it too and I ended up racking myself. I was told that you didnt like me in the beginning but then ended up really liking me as was the same with me, I just wish that we spent more time together. Im sorry it was your time to go, when i come back to IL from VA im gonna go visit your grave. I PROMISE. Till we meet again Bud R.I.P. Mark Name: Nick E-Mail: AIM: 15:00:07 09/12/03 Comments: Whats up Lightweight? Its hard to believe its been almost a week without you being around. I don't even know what to say, but I know I'll see you again and we'll see if you can hang with the heavyweights by then. R.I.P. Name: traci E-Mail: AIM: 03:58:47 09/12/03 Comments: hey bij! i cant get it threw my head. i think that i dont wanna. i try not to think about you and wut happened, but i think about you all day, everyday...i cant help but think that you should be here, goin to college and marrying christina in may...no doubt. but things just happen for a reason i guess, or so im told. but i miss you so much. you were the sweetest guy i knew. you and christina were meant to be. two of the koolest, sweetest, and most adorible people. i dont know how to get threw all this. nothing goes right no more. everything is so fucked up. i dont wanna believe wut people are sayin so i aint...ill believe what i think would be true...and most of what they say aint. i love you bij and miss you deeply. ill never forget you buddy. just make sure that when its my time you'll be there to guide me and help me find my way around. i know you will. Oh... im soooo sry for not comin to your wake and funeral...i couldnt see you that way...i wanna remember you how you were..during school and the summa...me damien chris and jamie thought long and hard on goin but none of us wanted to face the fact and to see you that way...im so sry man. im gonna visit you as soon as i get my licsense, i promise!!! no doubt! so.... hope you are doin okay up there. keep an eye on barry and eric..make sure they dont party too much. you dont either lol. i hope its goin betta up there than down here, but you know how it is. neva gonna change..everything goes for the worst .... i just wish it wasnt you...i will always remember you and miss you. i will write more soon i always will. rip bijan...see you soon. love and miss you always!! thanks for listening to me.... love ya RIP peace~~~~~~~~~>keep on smiling : ) watch out for all of us... love always, traci mccarthy P.s). can you tell my gram and grandpa that i miss and love them...i was extremely close to them..thank man, i appriecate it..love you Name: always remembering you......xxxx E-Mail: AIM: 02:41:42 09/12/03 Comments: my dear gentle Bijan, I'm still trying to deal with this; I see you everywhere and I hear your voice every day talking to me. God, I miss you and can't believe this is actually a reality. Please watch over your friends and family. Rest in peace, my gentle Bijan. We truly love you and miss you........ Peace be with you and everyone..... xxxx Name: Jess E-Mail: ShortNsweet0085@aol.com AIM: SfTbLlAnGeL00 00:47:05 09/12/03 Comments: Bijan- Hey hun. I dont really know what 2 say. I still cant even believe ur gone, it hasnt hit me yet. It just doesnt make sense. Nuthin makes sense 2 me anymore. I remember the 1st time i met u. It was sumtime near the beginning of freshman yr. I knew who u were cuz we had gym 2gether, but i never really met u til brinley introduced us one day after school. Throughout highschool we didnt really talk much, just the basic "hi" whenever we saw each other in the halls, or when u were sittin in front of the lockers b4 school. :) Then last yr we had dreaded English 4 2gether. Never thought we were gonna make it through that! lol. I remember u almost dropped, u were considering it-but goldie convinced u that u could do it and 2 just stick it out, and u did. We talked a lot. It was always u, me, jenny, and joe. We never did anything like we were suppose 2, just talked and goofed off half the time. Or there was the one week when every day u would ask lauren, then jenny, and then me 4 a dollar and i gave u one a couple times. Which reminds me.....u never paid me back ;) im just jokin, its all good. There was that one project we did 2gether 2, but goldie didnt give u any points 4 it cuz u didnt come in after school 2 do it with me....sorry bout that, it was her call not mine. Then i remember when eric died, and all u did was say how he didnt deserve it and it never shouldve happened. It tore u apart. U had joe design a tattoo 4 u in memory of eric that u were gonna get. Ya know if anything, u didnt deserve this. Not at all. U could always make everyone laugh, or put a smile on anyones face. ha-when me and ricky were goin through our lil ordeal and i was tellin sumone that he threatened me, u overheard it and u got so pissed about it. I couldnt believe it. I thought u were gonna go searching 4 him. No one i know wouldve done that if they barely knew me. Bijan i thank you 4 all the times u made english entertaining and exciting, for listening 2 me, but most of all just 4 being you. U were by far the nicest person i have ever met, and i truely mean that. All of us that had the pleasure of meeting u and being friends or acquaintences with u, r so incredibly privleged 2 have had that chance. I know uve heard it a thousand times alreayd, but ur gonna hear it a thousand more.....keep an eye on cristina and help her through this. She and ur family need u more than anyone else right now. Well, ive written a book practically! lol...I hope everything is goin good 4 u up there. U, Graf, and Barry better not cause 2 much chaos! haha. Miss you sooo much. To Cristina~ ~Jessica Lyons Name: Rose E-Mail: wildrose5786@hotmail.com AIM: wildrose5786 22:51:54 09/11/03 Comments: hey bij...i don't know wut to say. i still dont wanna believe that ur really gone, its just too hard to imagine not seeing you around anymore. i remmeber the first time i met you, my freshman year. homecoming that yea was awesome. that night wuz hella fun. playin ping-pong and ordering pizza, hittin tom in the nipples with the ping-pong ball. i remember me, you, john & melissa all goin to your other house (before u sold it) and just goin in that one huge closet and us all watchin Saving Private Ryan, still haven't seen all of that movie!, and i couldn't watch it no more cuz i couldn't take all the goryness. :-) n then we ordered pizza, i think we had a thing with ordering pizza! :-), n we ate a shit load of it...and all ran around that house like hoodlums! best times. i am so glad i got to meet you. your the only person i've ever met who could never tell a lie, who wuz always happy, greeted me with a big smile. you were always thurr for me when i needed ya. i appreciate it all bij! i never really knew how great of a friend i had until it was too late. i'm sorry i didn't go to ur wake/funeral...dale told me how nice it was, and i know i wouldn't have been able to manage to keep myself afloat at all. i don't do good at wakes and funerals, i've gone to too many. i still can't believe your gone. make sure you watch down on brinley cuz he misses you like hell. him and dale were showing their emotions, and u know how rare that is for them to show their emotions. we all love you so much, and i know i wish that that last year of high school i coulda talked and hung out with you more. but i do and will always have the great memories of you and the fun ass times we had together! i love ya bijan, i miss ya like hell too. watch over us all and just know that you'll never be forgotten. you'll always be in our hearts. Name: Ashly Foreman E-Mail: ashly8bsb@hotmail.com AIM: xxxkmkqueen420 22:38:34 09/11/03 Comments: Hey Bijan. How you doing? good i hope ~you're in the best place. but i just wrote on grafs page because i didn't know you already had one. but he should have already told you what's up and if he didn't well here i go again! your'e worth it though. I miss you so much you were the biggest goofball ever, yes a goofball. And you know how much i hated it when you took my hair out of the pony tail or pulled on it, but now that your gone and i know i will never again get that silly shit from you, i miss it. you were truly a great person, friends with everyone. it was also nice when you would come sit with us at lunch and we would just all talk about stupid shit. or that one time me and callie just drove to your house for no aparent reason. and u were just getting home at that time and was probably confused as all fuck lol whatever it was soo funny at the time, and when we were all up at mokena mart and you had your mustang, and u were visiting christina. But i am happy i got to have that picture of all of us and daddy x at the KMK concert, because now i have soemthing other than the yearbook to see you in. i wish we could have hung out often, and created lots of memories, but whatcha gonna do. I know you don't need to be reminded but keep looking down on christina. she is so sweet just like you ,and you guys were awesome together. i will never forget about you bij. love ya always ~*~Ashly~*~ Name: ryan E-Mail: AIM: 22:17:46 09/11/03 Comments: bijan- i cant belive your gone. and neither can anyone else. we never really chilled outside of school. we have talked alot in school, in gym, halls.. but the best times were chill'n after the kings show. its really going to be different with out you being around. most of my friends where good friends with you. i just wish we could have hung out together too.... ..:: r.i.p bijan ::.. Name: Megg E-Mail: AIM: 21:09:46 09/11/03 Comments: Bijan-hey buddy! god i kant believe your gone now too-i just dont kno how to deal with this stuff nemore-i kno we werent that close but ive talked to u partied with u a few times-and we have many mutual friends-but i hope u found barry graf and kutz up there im sure u guys well get along great~just please watch over all of your friends and family and your gf they need it rite now! RIP *love forever* -megg- Name: Becky E-Mail: beckyt@siu.edu AIM: 20:47:36 09/11/03 Comments: Bijan~ I was your student leader last year. You always had a smile on your face, no matter what. You had the funniest jokes. You made anyone laugh. You will be truely missed. I hope they're treating you good up there. You deserve it. Look over the rest of us. You and your family will be in my heart and prayers for a long time. RIP Bijan. Name: a jr at Lwe E-Mail: AIM: 20:43:13 09/11/03 Comments: Hey I dint kno u at all actually I just remember hearing about u last year and seeing u..I cant believe so many ppl I kno r passing too soon. No1 deserves this but I hope ur happy up there and that u kno every1 loved u is here praying 4 u, I dont wanna sound selfish plus the fact that I never knew u and u never knew who I was but could u please watch over my friends and family I dont want them to pass too soon or get hurt I'm so scared with all this happening. Bless ur gf Christina I knew her and she was a great person always made me laugh my heart goes out to her, I cant imagine wat her and ur family is going thru. God bless, RIP BIJAN Name: Rachel E-Mail: gladerra@msu.edu AIM: 14:51:48 09/11/03 Comments: Bijan, I'm so sorry that this had to happen. I know that we weren't great friends, but I got to know what a cool and funny person you are. You always made everyone laugh (especially when reading out loud!) I hope you find Eric up there because you guys need eachother right now. Well, you will definitely be missed by many people down here, especially Christina. Please watch over her and let her know that you are okay. I'll miss you and you will always be in my thoughts and prayers. R.I.P. To Christina: Love, Name: Lindsay E-Mail: AIM: 12:59:31 09/11/03 Comments: Bijan... I remember your first day at our school in 5th grade. I wish we could go back in time to that day, so I could have become better friends with you. You know we talked when we saw eachother, I went over to your house a few times, but you were a great person and I regret not knowing you better then I did. The one thing I remember you saying at Eric's wake and it's playing in my head over and over again...You said Why Eric, he is too young, God picked the wrong person. Those are some strong words, and now everyone is wondering the same about you. I miss you buddy, keep it straight, and stay out of trouble. Christina I am sorry this had to happen to you, You were a great person, and a great friend. You and Bijan were meant to be. It really sucks how things happen the way they do. I am more than sure you were looking forward to the wedding in May, but all you can do now, is smile at the memories and all the good times you and Bijan had together. I love you sweetie! Name: fayth E-Mail: sosafayt@msu.edu AIM: 12:37:03 09/11/03 Comments: Bijan, We really didn't talk all that much but i knew who you were. i knew some stuff about ya from christina, you seemed like a very sweet person. i hope your doing well up there. you and graf will have great times up there, when you see him tell him i love him. i'll miss ya. Christina, hang in there sweet heart, he's going to be alright now, i love you! R.I.P. Bijan R.I.P. Eric fayth Name: *~*~*~ E-Mail: AIM: 11:10:23 09/11/03 Comments: Bijan had a cerebral aneurysm. Despite of what you hear Bijan did not OD on cocaine and he did not die on his birthday. His birthday was August 5th. Christina was not with him. None of his friends were with him when he passed. If you could help out with the truth after reading this it would be greatly appreciated by his close friends, family, and especially, Bijan. We need to stop the rumors so that our friend can rest peacefully.
Name: traci E-Mail: AIM: shortie420bud 02:39:18 09/11/03 Comments: hey bij! i am so confused....i dont know wut to thing anymore. everyone tells me something diff. you were so close to me and i wanna know wut really fuckin happened to you...stories stories stories..thats all i hear... i cant take it. im watchin out for tom for you. hes so upset. but hes okay, he dont stay in...he comes out to play. lol i miss you so much man. i cant believe that i wont see you again. well i will but you get it. i seen tom on his bday and he said he was good but there was something missin...you..it hurt so bad. we all miss you so much. im glad i have memories of you. it makes me feel betta. i need some pictures of you. if anyone has any send them to me. thanx. but i got to be goin.... sleep...i have to get up early. i will write to you soon buddy.... i miss and love you...peace out.. RIP BIJAN!!! MUCH LOVE MAN!!! love always and foreva, traci mccarthy love ya and miss you.... look out for us...expecially tom and christina we'll miss you...rip Name: Mellody E-Mail: AIM: 21:35:58 09/10/03 Comments: Bijan, Wow, I really don't know what to say!!! You were a GREAT person and a GREAT friend. I know that we weren't that close but we did hang out a few times. You always made Courtney's parties fun and that night that we made the senior shirts, yours was totally different than the rest of ours. You and Cristina were great together even when you would have your little arguments!! RIP Buddy Name: Tina E-Mail: magicninjet17@aol.com AIM: magicninjet17 21:32:08 09/10/03 Comments: Hey Bijan, man i cant believe ur actually gone, u were an awsome person and never had a problem with nobody. but y u? why did u have to go, christina is so hurt but we all are looking out for her and i hope u do to. she needs you now. and so does ur family. well i just wanted to drop by and say that i love ya and will always miss you. You were and awsome person and no one will forget that. oh and i hope u found Barry and eric u all are probly havin a blast up there. well i gotz to go. peace love always and forever, Name: always remembering you......xxxx E-Mail: AIM: 19:39:12 09/10/03 Comments: We will truly miss you, Bijan. Your smile always warmed our hearts! Your heart was so big that it overcame all stressors in life. I wish we could have learned from your purity within. Thanks for touching our lives in such a warm way. You will always be with me in spirit and I will always remember your smile. Rest in peace, gentle Bijan..... xxxx Name: Sara E-Mail: AIM: serenity4menotu 18:17:47 09/10/03 Comments: bijan , even though i never knew ya i know that u are gonna be missed from wut i've heard you were really a great person...to his friends and family im sorry about your loss but you just gotta remember all the good time that you shared with him and remember that he lookin down on you all and watchin out for you... R.I.P Bijan ~Sara Name: Tim Coules E-Mail: AIM: 16:59:00 09/10/03 Comments: Bijan - I really cant believe your gone. I've known you since sixth grade, when we used to ride bikes together all the time. and Sophmore year, when we would sit in front of Tabby's locker every morning, and yell stuff at people who walked past...haha great times. it was just last week, me and dave saw you at Hooters, and we talked about cars in the parking lot. It was great that i saw you a lot this summer, at the skatepark, because now i only have great memories of you. RIP Buddy. - Tim Name: traci E-Mail: AIM: shortie420bud 16:31:05 09/10/03 Comments: hey bij! im gonna miss you man. it didnt really hit me til monday night. you were so fuckin bad ass. last year you sat next to me in lunch. it was fun. even tho everyone bitched everyday. lol i hope you found barry and eric up there. you guys will have a blast. im sorry it had to happen to you. ill never forget you bij. im gonna miss you. ill see you soon tho. just be ready when i come to help me find my place up there. i love you buddy. im glad we became good friends. ill miss you and love you foreva. i gotta go tho...schools out and i gotta find something to do...Ill remember you always and ill write lata...peace out bijan ... RIP man.. Love always and foreva, traci mccarthy Name: Ange E-Mail: AIM: 16:12:49 09/10/03 Comments: Hey ""JIBAN" Hehehe. I am the first person to ever call you that! And I think the only. Bij man I sure am going to miss you. You were such a great person. I met you my junior year and we had gym together. You and bubbles were partners and me and Nicole Quin. We were playing tennis and our teams always played eachother. Mr. Deyoung would get so pissed LOL...like we cared? You have always been super nice to me. Even when you always made fun of me saying "how's ur hic k boyfriend? does he shoot squirles off his portch?" and i'd pretend to get mad. I never really was tho lol. You and Christina would always come into my work and I would see you everytime (20 nuggets...large fry...speed pass...lots of bbq). And everytime I went to jc penny's I would see you guys. Watch over your baby girl. Comfort her like you would when you were here. I really am going to miss you. And I'm helping Christina the best I can...by the way you had the best parents. I know what they did for Christina and I think it is really really sweet. I love ya JIBS hehe...See you on the other side. Love Name: crystal E-Mail: sparkles369@hotmail.com AIM: squirelygirl247 15:52:51 09/10/03 Comments: To: Family and Friends of Bijan I wish that everyone who went to LWE could have got to know him, because once you got to know him.. you made a friend in an instant. He would be their for you when you needed something, a ride home, money, a good laugh, and/or an ear. I know its safe to say that those who knew him, will never ever forget him. I remember when i first meet him, it was junior year and we had geometry class together with Mrs. Goy. He was making jokes, laughing, and more importantly making the class period fly by. He was great for making anyone smile. Thanks for all those great times, i only wish we would have got to know eachother as friends.. insted of classmates or occational conversation buddies. You will always be in my thoughts and prayers... AND always be in my heart. RIP Bijan__keep it real up their and be good :) <3 crystal Name: someone E-Mail: AIM: 11:38:24 09/10/03 Comments: To Bijan and his family my condolences go out to you i was very good friends with eric graf and i remember it like it was yesterday when we were at his funeral B was there and he was so upset with himself and how could he let this happen to a great friend like graf and he swore that he would never do anything dumb so he wouldnt have to put any of his friends in that situation ever again well B we know that you didn't do it on purpose and we love you so much and dont ever forget that man you were like a big brother to me i love you and you will always have a place in my heart.
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